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I’ll upload all my #artfight attacks here because NOBODY IS WATCHING. None of this characters belong to me. 

I don’t even know If it’s a good idea to keep posting here. 

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UPDATE.

Hi? someone here?

Firts, to cut the ice (? I’m posting one of the MANY sticker/commission sets I did last year, this one, like many others is about villager-sonas (does that exist?) being silly and useful por chating, lol.

It's been some time but I trully needed to take off most of my social media for some time, keeping up with the bird-app and the pink-evil-camera-app drained me dry, but I wanna be back on FA, DA and MAYBE here but I don’t know if ppl still use this site. Oh boy I miss its glory days.  I'm taking a some sort of vacation to consume media and clean/put things in place so my activity goes along with that, I don't want to fight posting all the things I did last year here because sincerely if I could I would erase the last four months of it, so I'll try to start fresh. When I'm finished with the commissions I need to finish I'll open some slots here and there, very fair priced too, I'm looking for a somewhat stable job and it eludes me since ever but going step by step seems to be the only way this search won't hurt my brain more than it is already, so commissions are the most helpful thing I can do until things chance. I also wanna do some side-projects and ideas I've been cooking in the back. So I hope you are interested when I open them. Until that I'll try to post things that do not remind me of last year's chaos months, if you want to see them you can go to my other social media (they are mostly chibis and stickers) link here: https://linktr.ee/Hessai (also ToS update) Thank you for you support and for staying there! I mean it. I'll see you soon with more art and silly stuff.

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Some #dtiys I did recently. I use this challenges to practice, experiment different things that I’m used to and get out of my intense blocks. I hope some day I’ll reach enough following (around like...1000 followers or so) on any of my social media I can do one myself. 

Originals/challenges belong to (instagram):

Fire creature: lashy.lp

Deer:  hibluu

Sailor Flower:  fresh_bobatae

Possum:  gawki

Lady and Duck: kyunst_

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ICONS! I made a bunch for my linktree ( https://linktr.ee/Hessai ) so here they are, dont know if people still use this site :s

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Weird gift card  I did. 

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I did a whole bunch of tokens y’all. 

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Update y coso.

Coso means "thing".

Hi there Tumbrl, I thought you were death but somehow this site remains kind-of alive and with the usual silent and comfy community I'm used to.

tl dr: THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL THE SUPPORT! Always, I'm currently doing a project to get my degree so I'll update/upload things more so around march, hope I see you there ♥

TW/ Abuse, mental health.

I've been trough a rough couple of years (not related to pandemic and world ending tho). I ended my relationship in 2019 and had to cope with the amount of abuse I was actually put trough, if you saw/read my vent posts you can have an idea, the details are too many and too painful. 

Last year tho (2020) I put my mind into owning myself after feeling like an empty shell most of my existence, especially all the six years of my rlp where I only existed to comfort my abuser. I lost some weight (I really wanted to, worked hard af for it) and found myself again in many ways, thanks mostly to my support net and the people around me, (that filtered the toxic ones out by itself) that remained quite healthy and wholesome at this point, I ended my career (I need to finish a final project and a couple of details and it's done) and I created many healthy spaces for me. Even as that my brain is still mangled and I have some sort of ptsd, anxiety and most likely ADHD, but I cannot afford diagnosis so I'll leave it at "I'm fucked up" and keep at it as I can.

 One of the banes of my existence is the complete failure I seem to be at keeping up with social media and constructing a following, anywhere. It consumes me so much time an energy try to go against the algorithms and being seen in the hope I'll get commissioned (my current, not secure at all way of making some money) and it never works, I'm trying not to equate my value as a person or as an artist with the amount of likes and engagement I generate, and it's hard, but at this point, putting all the effort I could did not help so I might just stop trying. This just means I won't be obsessed over the insanity specifics of every social media page I own and just post whatever when I can, probably I'll post even more if I don't feel pressured. 

For now I'm working on this final project of mine to end my career and after that finishing all my commissioned work, then I'll open new spots and commission types on my social media, I need to choose because I like doing way too many things/styles and have too many projects on my head that won't let me exist if I try to keep up with all of them. Probably when I have some sort of sense of what to post and where I'll pin a guide or something, lol. 

For the one person that might find this on their feed and decide to read it, thank you so much! The support I get really kept me going and helped a lot, it made me smile when I found it really hard, so thank you thank you thank you ♥

I'll posted something like this other social media (my most abandoned social media). Around march I'll try to have some sort of organization and post/draw more things, so thank you for sticking up with me. Have a nice day today y'all!

(this is probably filled with spanglish typos, I'm sorry)

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Another commission about #lostminesofphandelver, this one is Fretlar, character from @santiagoezequielcabral commissioned by @frvalmada, it's an #earthgenasi #barbarian and the thing on his shoulder is a woke-carrot. #dnd #ttrpg #character

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Recent drawing I did for a DA challenge. If I see some activity here I’ll try to update this death account until is up to date. 

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I did a thingy for practicing uwu

This boys are friends o’mine, I asked permission.

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Em...hi? is this thing on?

Twitter told me this godforsaken place actually mutated into a very chill community with a (very sfw) art focus, is it true? I still recieve notes about old works and that was one of my favorite things here, it wanst all about being trendy and posting on a certain like everyo.other.f*.site.

So welp, I’ll give it a try, here some of the gifts I did abt friends pets (is a kind of commission I offer too) I hope you like it, and also hope y’all doing ok and staying safe, this is a crazy year indeed.

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Is this thing on? Someone still uses tumbrl? Hello?

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I did a thingy. I LOVE this movie.

Prolly I’ll start uploading things like this here, ‘cause my other blog is connected to my instagram and most of my drawings go there, but pages and elavorated stuff (like animation) belong here. 

You can share it/respost it even, but PLEASE link me wherever you post this silly thing. Was a lot of fun to do, I’ll try to do more on other subjects. Have a great day!

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Smiling boi, animation practice with pencil2d.

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Inktober keeps going!

7: Shy (Carver & Merril) 8: Croocked (The Grand Oak) 9: Screech (Marauder) 10: Gigantic (Big dragon)

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OMG everything is so old around here. I have no susribers so that doen’t matter, lol. But as I need to spam my social media with Inktober, here they go, the 1st six of them. I’m following the official word prompt but Bioware themed.

- “Swift” as Leliana.

- “Divided” Anders.

- “Poison” on Zevran’s daggers.

- Leviathan lives “Underwater”.

- The “Long“ Bull...horns! (yeah, it’s actually his d*ck)

- Duncan’s “Sword”, on Alistair hands.

Have a great day today! c: