honeymooncomehome

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i feel like i jokingly say so much that my mom is my biggest hater but like… she actually is, i can literally never do anything right for her

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i turned 21 though!!

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okay i just realized my last post was about kms but i’m actually alive y’all sorry 😭😭

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what if i kms tonight

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so i bought popcorn but their nutrition labels are always so confusing to me, can someone help me figure out how much is in 1 bag?

it says:

about 8 (2.5 per bag) servings per container

serving size is 2 Tbsp unpopped (30g)

calories per serving says (150 as packaged) and (1 cup popped 35)

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summer is here, the garden is growing, i’m gonna be living on tomatoes, cucumber, and watermelon

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if my family ends up having to file for bankruptcy i’ll kay em ess, i swear

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because of the spider bite i can’t walk long distances, can’t get hot and sweaty, have to drink probiotics and take medication with food four times a day… i’m cooked y’all

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all in the same day i found out my cat mught have cancer, i got bitten by a brown recluse TWICE, and my insurance was canceled for unknown reasons and i had to pay like $200 for my urgent care visit and prescriptions, also found out i’m allergic to an antibiotic because i ended up with a full body rash 🤗🤗

guys i might have been bitten by a brown recluse??? but it’s 1 am, wtf am i supposed to do?? 😭😭 idk if it even is thou BUT IM SCARED

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guys i might have been bitten by a brown recluse??? but it’s 1 am, wtf am i supposed to do?? 😭😭 idk if it even is thou BUT IM SCARED

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i saw this comment on a ALR reaction video and i started thinking about it so hard

so i calculated the cals for my goal weight and got 53 days 😭😭

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these pictures being right before a nearly year long mental crisis. i was getting out of bed every day, doing my makeup, picking a cute outfit, genuinely taking care of myself. which i hadnt done for years before, and still havent after.

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just read a post of yours 💔 whats up w ur sister... WHATS UP W THE PEOPLE THAT COMPARE YOU AND UR SISTER 😭😭😭😭

most of the people who compare are people i work with because they worked with my sister before she moved jobs. she had some medical issues that made her like bmi 16ish, so it was visible all the time. i was underweight too (but i wasn’t skinnier than her so no one really noticed) and seriously struggling but other people never really took my problems seriously.

i actually remember a conversation between my mom and grandma where my grandma said “you’d know if she was making herself throw up right, because the walls are so thin?” and i thought it was so funny because i was the one doing that. but yeah i completely stopped hiding my ed habit like weighing myself every morning, checking cals in things, and weighing out food portions bc no one ever cared.

like a few weeks ago my mg said something about how i “have no idea what my sister went through” when she did her classes (in reference to both of us taking the same classes for work) but like… i almost passed out when introducing myself… and before we went in my mg said something about how she wishes she were still young and her problems were just anxiety stomach pains or whatever the fuck (i’ve been having anxiety attacks since i was like 12 i hate when people undermine my anxiety)

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i used to be my own motivation.

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i feel like we all know not to purge spicy foods….

but i might do it anyways.

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i hate people who look at me and think “you complain about your life so much but your sister went through so much.”

like yeah sure she went through a lot. but she was in so many of those situations because SHE put herself in them.

like no one gaf when i was underweight, because i didn’t look thin standing next to her. bc she was 152cm and 93 lbs, but i was 165 cm and 104 lbs. even though it was the same bmi she looked smaller.

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people drive me insane, i asked my sister if she wanted to contribute anything if me and my grandma went to a craft show. she said no, and later on i showed her something easy she could make a lot of.

she made two of them and stopped…

i tried to tell her a way i thought would be easier and faster and she said “no i like doing it like this.”