my biggest fear is watching someone I love lose themselves to 4 n 4 because of my stupid slip ups
my sister is saying no to dessertS (that’s how I started)
I literally love her so much, it’s scary
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Big uh oh
problem…. Read if you care?
Is this about trouble getting back on the band wagon? lol no, but yeah I haven’t gotten back on. Unfortunately.
BUT BUT BUT… I’m moving back home from my uni apartment and my mom came down to help take back things ANNNDDD… I made the STUPID mistake of not wearing baggy clothes. I thought because this past week I’ve been eating so much, I was all bloated and some gained weight. (Which I prob have like 2-3lbs)
Well I was wrong. First thing she said to me was “you’ve lost weight… ?!?!?” And then her face was something I’ve never seen before. Anger, sadness, frustration, concern… she said “this is the worst I’ve seen you Anna.. you are looking extremely an0rezic!!?”
Ew. The A word. I mean valid. My bmi last time I weighed myself was like 16. BUT. Gross. I hate that word. She wouldn’t let it go, and a family friend came with her and she was like “yeah anna… I notice too” OOPS. fuck it was so embarrassing.
She also found my laxatives which was the icing on the cake.. because allegedly she said she was An0 when she was a kid so she knows the “tricks” She also tried forcing me on the scale. My oh my what a mess today.
So yeah. In summary my mom is REALLLLLLLY concerned as hell and hypothetically “getting me help” this summer. So if I go MIA. Yeah. Or t worded for this post. Either or, that’s why. I am truly scared for what’s bout to come tbh.
ALSO DONT MIND MY DIRTY HOUSE, as I said I’m moving out. So chaos.
-Anna K
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