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bartylus.

Barty likes Regulus's eye color because it reminds him of the cloudy sky the day they met... he also likes how they get smaller as he laughs and how they sparkle under the glow of the candles on his study table.

Barty likes Regulus's perfect face and has asked him, more than once, if he's sure his family practices inbreeding to stay pure because it's impossible for someone as beautiful as him to be the result of such family unions... he also likes the way he grimaces to keep from laughing.

Barty likes Regulus's laugh and all the variables it has... he's seen him laugh quietly at tedious dinners, faked at Slug Club talks, sarcastically in front of Mulciber and his friends, and truly while playing Quidditch or performing a new charm the right way.

Barty likes to watch Regulus play quidditch because there's a certain freedom in his soul that you'd never see when he's walking down the halls.

But if you ask him... Barty will say that he likes Regulus's ass. Because he can't let the others see how obsessed he is with the little king.

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cw: child abuse

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What's the point if ur ship isn't fucking against the canon with ao3 as lube

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no.

hey so what was that cliffhanger 😃

Did you like it 😌😁

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List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or re-blogged something from you!

HERE U GO!!

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YES YESYEYSWHYAUWABS CARRIE QND LOWELL

Rip Remus Lupin, you would've loved Sufjan Stevens' 'Carrie and Lowell' album

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Jegulus WIP Fanfic Recs bc you can never have enough of those <3

The Trial of Regulus Black by moscovitz | Explicit | Archive Warning: Graphic Depictions of Violence

- Regulus turns himself in for being a Death Eater and for the murder of Evan Rosier. Trial shenanigans ensue, which James Potter, Sirius Black, and just about the rest of the world are privy to. So that's really fun. Especially because the past comes to bite them. This shit's SO GOOD guys. The angst is fucking beautiful but there's some wholesome stuff too. Love the writing, and it's so creative

I hunt for you with bloodied feet across the hallowed ground by ThisLiminalSpace | Explicit | Archive Warning: Graphic Depictions of Violence

- Hogwarts fic! Regulus is there for the first couple years, Shit Happens, but then he gets transformed into a werewolf and sent to Beuxbatons. Where he not so coincidentally is chosen to compete for the Triwizard tournament. Y'all the plot is so fucking crazy and I'm obsessed. And the author's style is so distinct and poetic, it's BEAUTIFUL. Don't get me started on Evan in this fic. He's literally my boy

the first day of death by rweoutofthewoods | Explicit | Archive Warning: Graphic Depictions of Violence

- James Potter is raised a muggle and goes to kill himself the same day Regulus Black embarks to destroy the first Horcrux. They meet on a cliff side and everything changes. Such beautiful characterizations and relationships. Everything is turned on its head yet so right. And the action scenes action scene so well. Kinda canon compliant kinda not

once every few lifetimes by cozypancakes | Explicit | Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

- You got the Black's and Death Eater's tryna use Regulus, James Potter working against this and using his James Potter magic, and a shit load of Regulus scheming. And the Triwizard tournament to back. The writing in this is so smart babes. The plot is like rollercoaster diving and I'm a sucker for every pov and relationship. The Skittles are so precious to me

Blood of the Brother by MiriamMT | Explicit | Archive Warning: Graphic Depictions of Violence

- This one is just really fucking cool. Like, Regulus is an assassin, James was his target. Enemies to lovers. Inspired by Captive Prince. Lots of action and necromancy and vampires. The Slytherins are top tier friendship group. Haven't caught up yet but it's very good from where I'm standing. In the Wizarding world, with Horcrux Hunting and the Order and all that fun stuff.

ritardando by courfee | Mature | No Archive Warnings Apply

- Fake dating! College! Mental health! This one makes my heart go giggly and warm, but there's still angst because why wouldn't there be. I just love everything in this fic, from the friendships to the plot to obviously the Jegulus. They're so stupid, and I love them sm

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sorry for spreading misinformation guys

just remembered james potter dies sirius black dies regulus black dies lily evans dies remus lupin dies im going to die now

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i got sad so i wanted to make others sad

just remembered james potter dies sirius black dies regulus black dies lily evans dies remus lupin dies im going to die now

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just remembered james potter dies sirius black dies regulus black dies lily evans dies remus lupin dies im going to die now

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I've been thinking about them constantly

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some pages from my recovery journal!

my therapist recommended scrapbook journaling to her other clients after i told her about this. and i recommend people to do the same! very therapeutic ;3

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I'm not sure if saying this goes against fandom etiquette or not, because it technically is criticism, but here goes nothing:

I'm BEGGING authors to start researching about the stuff they write.

1. i, as an Indian person, am always so weirded out by how depictions of Indian characters in FF are always borderline stereotypical, if not cartoonish. no, i won't hold fanfiction to the same standard as published work, but it's so borderline racist how james is only depicted as Indian to make him "exotic" and so yall can give him a tan. there's more to being Indian than just having darker skin and butter chicken yall. imagine growing up as a poc in the 1970s in England, a mere few decades after India's independence from the Brits???

2. if you're writing about mental health struggles, there needs to be a bare minimum amount of research done. genuinely, there's a point where instead of raising awareness about said issues, it almost becomes romanticisation. mental health issues aren't just plot points to introduce just to make a character soft or weak. there's nothing wrong with flawed depictions, because everyone makes mistakes, but yall, research is so important while writing about sensitive topics.

(might continue this might not)

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"Would you love me if I was a worm?" - @into-the-jeggyverse 's jegulus bingo - word count: 646

"I'm not asking him that," Regulus rolled his eyes, leaning back and and crossing his arms. "That's absolutely absurd."

"It is not!" Pandora argued from next to him on a couch in the Slytherin Common Room. "It's...a test of loyalty!"

"To as him if he would love me in a situation that would literally never happen?" Regulus drawled, pursing his lips. "I don't think so."

"I mean...it could at least be entertaining," Dorcas shrugged as she sat cross-legged on the floor. "He'd probably think it's funny."

"Well. I don't," Regulus said dismissively. "It's stupid."

"You're stupid," Pandora mumbled under her breath.

Regulus just rolled his eyes and stood up. "Shall we go, then? I think we're late enough to Pettigrew's stupid birthday party, yes?"

"Fine," both girls agreed, standing as well.

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Three hours later and Regulus was completely drunk. Drunk in the way that he couldn't walk straight. Dunk in the way that he was slurring his words. Drunk in the way that he couldn't stop thinking about the conversation he'd had with Pandora and Dorcas earlier.

It was stupid, he kept telling himself. A ridiculous hypothetical that didn't matter.

But his sloshed brain wouldn't let go of the idea. Wouldn't give up on finding out the answer to the question. Suddenly, it seemed unbelievably important.

So he stumbled up off the arm of the armchair where he was perched, looking around the room for a familiar face with wire-rimmed glasses.

"Alright, Reg?" Evan called from his spot in the armchair Regulus had been on top of, hardly visible as Barty was seated happily on his lap, kissing up his neck.

"Fine," he mumbled, catching a glimpse of tousled hair and glass lenses. He was on a mission now.

"Potter!" he called, loud enough that he would have been embarrassed if he were sober. "Oi! James!"

And as he walked across the room, James turned, eyes lighting up as he saw him. Fuck, he was lovely. He made a beeline there, almost running into more than one person.

"Reg!" James beamed, catching him on another little stumble. "Having a good time?"

Trying to ignore the way his skin grew hot under James's touch, Regulus focused on the older boy's face. "I...have a question," he mumbled, looping his arms around the back of his neck. He needed to know now.

"What is it, baby?" James asked, voice light and happy. "Merlin, you're adorable when you're like this, you realize?"

He rolled his eyes as the affection, still trying to stay on topic. "James," he pouted, trying to nonverbally implore his boyfriend to take his concern seriously. "This is....this is important."

"Alright, love. What is it?" James asked, wrapping his arms around Regulus's waist and pulling him into an embrace, his bright smile almost taking Regulus's breath away.

"Would you...would you love me if...if I was a worm?" Regulus demanded blearily, eyes wide as he tried to stare at James, mind spinning a bit, hoping he would take the question as seriously as it felt at the moment.

Immediately, the Gryffindor broke into a peal of laughter. It caught Regulus off-guard and he felt his face twist into an irritated grimace before the taller boy paused, hands moving to either side of his face. "Reg! Reg, of course I would, love," James assured him, kissing him on the nose.

Grimace fading quickly, Regulus felt himself break into an elated grin. Ha! He was right. The whole thing was stupid. Of course James would love him no matter what. He never should have doubted it. Stupid Dorcas and Pandora.

"Alright, then," he murmured, slumping a bit in James's arms. Suddenly, he was tired. "Hey, Jamie?"

"Yes, love?"

"I think I'm drunk," he mumbled, moving to breathe in the scent of James's cologne, nose pressed against his chest.

Another laugh. "That's alright, baby. I love you no matter what."

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need fics of james being the simpiest most down bad guy for reg ever please help

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i know baby me too 😞😞😞😞 i miss emaaaaurrr

psa i miss my sister

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hi! I'm gonna block you!

Regulus, who, yes, has friends, but they're all online. He lives in England, but Barty, oh, he lives in Italy. Evan and Pandora live in France. Dorcas? Who knows where she is right now, her family's always moving around.

Regulus, who has no friends in person. Regulus, who has nobody to lean on.

His parents don't love him, and he can never be sure how Sirius feels about him. He's just his annoying little sister anyway. Usually he just gets ignored.

Regulus, who tries to hang out with his brother and his friends. Peter, who will occasionally indulge him, and Remus, who's kind to him. James, who he used to have a crush on when he was little, as he made his older brother, the most important person to him, the person he idolised, happy. But Sirus always pushes him off.

Sirius, who once screamed "I hate you" at Regulus for the most mundane thing, and Regulus, who's not been able to push the memory out of his mind for years.

Regulus, who has no friends. Sirius, who's had the same group of friends since he met them.

Sirius, who has plenty of friends, plenty of people who love him. Regulus, who has nothing of the like. You can never tell tone through texts anyway. Online friends are much different than in person ones.

Sirius, who's turning 18 soon, who will be graduating and moving out. Regulus, who's terrified to be left alone. Regulus, who knows Sirius doesn't care enough to deal with the younger sibling who just wants someone to love them.

Regulus, who will miss his brother, and Sirius, who will only ever see him as his annoying younger sister.