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hii i’m back <33

idk how much i’ll post, but i can at least say i’m in a better place overall to be doing things like this (posting) again.

there isn’t much to explain about why i was gone. i was just in a bad place mentally, it affected me physically, boooo

but i’m doing better now!! i mean, i’m looking in the mirror and smiling, and i think that says a lot. i’m in online school now which has helped a lot with stress, i’m finally getting out of a depressive phase, i’m taking care of my physical health, and i get to see hozier in august with my best friend (personally i think that’s the coolest part)

i keep finding myself wanting to speak up on religious topics, but i never actually hit the post button. i think im finally in a better place to start posting though. mainly because i’ve always known there will be rude people, and a month ago i probably would’ve said things i’d regret to them and made a fool of myself. now i actually have the patience and maturity for handling those things, and i really want to get back into the helpol community

anyways, that’s all. you can expect to see me posting again soon. love y’all <33

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i haven’t been here in two months, but uh.. happy one year anniversary of being a hellenic polytheist to me!! i know i started in march, but i couldn’t figure out which day i started (not like i just chose to be helpol one day, it was more of a gradual thing) so i decided to celebrate it today for two reasons: one, it’s halfway through march, so it’s the best guess i have and probably the closest. two, it’s the ides of march, and i thought it would be kinda cool to celebrate it on the ides. makes it easy to remember. it’s also my uncle’s birthday, so i’m celebrating three things today!!

have a lovely day yall <33 (im gonna try posting more often once i get my computer [around the 25th-26th of this month] so i can customize my tumblr to look better than this lol)

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rip achilles, you would’ve loved dying your hair whenever you’re upset

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oh how i love hyacinthus and icarus. two young boys reduced only to be known because of their premature deaths as if that’s the most important part of them

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Demeter, Poseidon, Hephaestus are underrated deities.

i’m very late to this, BUT REAL‼️‼️

i’ve started seeing more things about Poseidon (though that might just be because my friend worships Poseidon), but i never see anything about Demeter and Hephaestus😭 i’ve also noticed a lack of Hera worship, which is insane to me

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꒰ა 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚛𝚘 𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚝 ໒꒱

𖤓 hi, i’m jupiter <3

𖤓 i’m fourteen (14) years old

𖤓 any pronouns (i’m genderfluid)

𖤓 worship - Lord Apollon and Lady Aphrodite

𖤓 pray to/sometimes worship - Lord Dionysus and Lord Hermes

𖤓 worshipping soon - Asclepius, Eros, Helios, (if i’m going to start hero worship) Icarus, Achilles, and Hyacinthus

𖤓 i’ve been a hellenic polytheist for a year now (as of march 15th)!! i would still consider myself new, though. so please, if you know better than i do and have more experience, correct me. i’m still young, i’m still beginning, i’m still learning, and i’m very happy to learn <3

𖤓 unfortunately i don’t post consistently, so sorry y’all :( maybe i’ll post more often soon??

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⌗ !! ꒰ 31 days of helpol ꒱ 🏛️

(so sorry for missing the other days!! i’ve been spending lots of time with my family and we’ve finally [after five months of issues] started moving into our house. it’s been such a wave of relief that there isn’t any more issues, so all that’s left is to get moved in and wait for a few other things to get finished up)

day twenty-five - “what was the most surprising thing you’ve learnt about hellenic polytheism or your deities?”

how flexible this religion is. like in many religions (like basically every one with some form of holy text that they follow), there’s rules and strict things that you have to follow. a lot of time, followers of said religion will also bring those words to an extreme. “do this or this god won’t love you” “don’t do that or you’ll suffer eternally” things like that. i’ve seen none of that with hellenic polytheism. i mean, sure, the occasional bad person pops up every once in a while, but that’s not what the religion has been. i’ve felt more accepted than ever since, which i never expected lol

day twenty-six - “do you celebrate any festivals? which ones or why not?”

i’m trying to?? but i don’t really know what festivals there are (i’ve only just now started learning about them)

day twenty-seven - “share a fun fact about one or more of your deities which you think is underrated or not well-known”

i don’t have any facts that come to mind😭 my mind’s just blank right now

day twenty-eight - “what is your favorite myth?”

ICARUS. ANYTHING ABOUT ICARUS, ANY RETELLING, ANY FORM OF RETELLING (story, poem, painting, etc…), ANYTHING. i loveee the story of icarus. i’ve even wondered before if hero worship is possible for icarus (is it?) so i can show how cool and amazing i think he is

day twenty-nine - “what is an aspect of your deities you really appreciate?”

their unconditional love. i am yet to hear about a deity who doesn’t unconditionally love their devotee/the person who worships them (and this goes for every deity)

day thirty - “do you have a visual interpretation of your deities? is this different from usual depictions you see of them?”

for Lord Apollo, i usually imagine him with tanned skin, blond long hair, the usual sort of depiction of him that you’ll see a lot from people. like with how i see all gods, i don’t imagine him as having any irises. i feel like eyes are what truly makes something human, so the lack of that shows that they aren’t human. but that’s just a personal thought!!

for Lady Aphrodite, i can never keep a steady depiction of her in my mind. seriously. there is one image of her i have in my mind that repeats though. so, if you’ve watched arcane, you know how viktor and jayce and sky looked in that cosmic realm sort of thing?? imagine that but it’s not like she has a human face or hair like how they did in the show. everything is like whatever that other stuff is, the weird cosmic bodysuit (please tell me this is making sense🙏). i imagine that, her body type and facial features that’s typically seen in statues of her, and everything is carved out like a statue. her hair is long (like going down to her feet kind of long), it’s wavy, and is constantly moving like a flowing waterfall. the only thing that’s different about any of her appearance and any of the colors are her eyes which are pure white. and that’s about all i got for an image of her.

for Lord Hermes, the designs for him from epic the musical. specifically the one by wolfythewitch. where his eyes are covered by his helmet (following the theme of the whole gods and eyes thing), i imagine him with wings both on his feet and his helmet, light brown curly hair, and i also kind of imagine him with slightly pointed ears?? i dunno, i always associate him with puck from a midsummer nights dream, so a mischievous sprite with sort of fairy/elf-like feature but in the most gorgeous way possible.

for Lord Dionysus, much like Lord Apollo, the typical depiction of him. black wavy hair, leopard print and purple everything, hints of wine red in his clothes, sort of maximalist clothes?? but somehow in an ancient greek way?? like combining the fashion of ancient greece and modern times. i do imagine him with darker tanned skin though, which i see sometimes in art. and of course, the whole no irises/eyes thing

day thirty-one - “share a positive experience you’ve had this month/year with one or more of your deities?”

Lord Apollo - when he comforted me while i was crying, then later the sun was shining as it rained (which is my favorite type of weather)

Lady Aphrodite - when after taking a break for months, i prayed to her for the first time, and the next day i looked in the mirror and i felt so pretty. looking back on the selfies i took at the time, i still think i was absolutely drop-dead gorgeous

Lord Hermes - when i wanted to talk to Lady Aphrodite because i was feeling insecure, but he wouldn’t let me use my pendulum to talk to her and kept refusing to let me put the pendulum down until i talked with him. so i talked with him instead and he helped me out <33

Lord Dionysus - when he helped me memorize my whole script a week before my play. a week. mind you, i had maybe three lines memorized overall, and he helped me remember all 42 lines and 3 monologues. i know that doesn’t sound like a lot, but it was shakespeare😭 i was struggling a lot. but i got multiple compliments after the play, and a little girl told me i was her favorite character <3 never forgetting that feeling

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when people depict Dionysus in a way where i literally can’t figure out his gender for the life of me >>>>

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update 2: half the stickers are ai😭 but that’s okay because i love the ones that aren’t and im very grateful to my parents for buying me them <33 i’m happy with today and i got to see all my family so it was amazing. merry christmas y’all!!

GUYS I GOT A LYRE FOR CHRISTMAS!!

Lord Apollo better prepare himself to be played at 24/7. every 5 seconds i’ll be like “Lord Apollo, Lord Apollo!! listen to this!! look what i can play now!! isn’t it cool?? i figured it out myself!! do you like it it?? do you?? i hope you really like it!!”

(im sorry Lord Apollo for the annoyance i’m about to become, i’m just really happy😭)

(side note: i’ve learned how to play that first part of icarus & apollo by ripto on lyre [it’s a 16 string])

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ah, yes, my five favorite christmas songs. last christmas, silent night, o holy night, jingle bells, and would you fall in love with me again. sounds like a perfect christmas playlist tbh

(i love epic so much and im always happy to see it getting the recognition it deserves. been a fan since it started, so yesterday and today have been bittersweet😭❤️)

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my parents also got me some greek mythology themed stickers AND tarot cards!! (mind you, they don’t know i’m a hellenic polytheist [but they most definitely suspect it])

GUYS I GOT A LYRE FOR CHRISTMAS!!

Lord Apollo better prepare himself to be played at 24/7. every 5 seconds i’ll be like “Lord Apollo, Lord Apollo!! listen to this!! look what i can play now!! isn’t it cool?? i figured it out myself!! do you like it it?? do you?? i hope you really like it!!”

(im sorry Lord Apollo for the annoyance i’m about to become, i’m just really happy😭)

(side note: i’ve learned how to play that first part of icarus & apollo by ripto on lyre [it’s a 16 string])

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GUYS I GOT A LYRE FOR CHRISTMAS!!

Lord Apollo better prepare himself to be played at 24/7. every 5 seconds i’ll be like “Lord Apollo, Lord Apollo!! listen to this!! look what i can play now!! isn’t it cool?? i figured it out myself!! do you like it it?? do you?? i hope you really like it!!”

(im sorry Lord Apollo for the annoyance i’m about to become, i’m just really happy😭)

(side note: i’ve learned how to play that first part of icarus & apollo by ripto on lyre [it’s a 16 string])

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⌗ !! ꒰ 31 days of helpol ꒱ 🏛️

(but i’m once again making up for a missed day)

day twenty-three - “what’s a bit of upg you have with your deity?”

honestly?? i’m gonna be so fr here, i have no clue what upg means. i mean, i do, but only sort of. and every time i try to think of something, my mind goes blank. so unfortunately i don’t have an answer for this, but i’d also like to blame that on my lack of experience with hellenic polytheism and how i’m still new to it, lol

day twenty-four - “what’s an offering you made that you’re really proud of?”

i made Lord Apollo some paper hyacinths earlier this year (they look a bit more like lavender, but that’s okay!!) and i love them so much. i’m gonna have to make more though because on my moms birthday (which was just in october) i didn’t have a gift for her because she never lets anyone buy her anything and i didn’t have time to make anything. i asked Lord Apollo if it was okay for me to take the flowers and gift them to my mom because hyacinths are her favorite flower and Lord Apollo said it was okay. me being paranoid, i doublechecked like a billion times with him to make sure it was okay and i probably annoyed him with my constant “are you sure? really? honestly? it’s okay to say no. are you sure? they were for you, so are you sure it’s okay that i give them to someone else? be honest. it’s fine if it’s not. you’re sure?” so… y’know. but my mom loved them and i don’t have the materials to make new flowers for Lord Apollo yet, but i hopefully will soon!!

(sorry for the long story lmao😭)

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⌗ !! ꒰ 31 days of helpol ꒱ 🏛️

day twenty-two - “is there an aspect of hellenic polytheism that you haven’t yet gotten to try but hope to in the future? do you have any other helpol-related goals for next year?”

veiling!! haven’t gotten to it yet (which sucks) but i’m hoping i can start soon once i actually have something to veil with like bandanas or actual veils.

as for helpol-related goals in the future, veiling is obviously one of them, but so is having alters. unfortunately, i don’t have any alters for my deities yet, but i can hopefully have alters once i get moved into an actual house (which better be happening soon😭). i also want to start worshipping more deities (such as Asclepius, Eros, and Helios) and better both my physical and mental health so i can be a devotee of Lord Apollo. for now though, my health is my first biggest priority, and unfortunately school has become my second. once both are back to normal, then i can continue moving forward and work towards my goals

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⌗ !! ꒰ 31 days of helpol ꒱ 🏛️

(i’m so sorry y’all, i’ve been sick and had some health issues going on [both mental and physical] but im working on it and hopefully i should be able to start posting more frequently!! catching up for the 18th-21st)

day eighteen - “how can you best describe your relationship with each of your deities?”

honestly, i don’t exactly know how to describe my relationship with them. a lot of people see them in a family sort of way, but it just doesn’t feel like that to me. not right now, at least. it’s tricky to describe😭 but i hold a lot of respect and love for them, and i know they share that love with me as well <33

day nineteen - “if you had to assign one song to each of the deities you worship, what songs would you choose?”

(you’ll notice a theme in each one lol [music recs btw])

Lord Apollo - Haunted by Laufey, ICARUS by Tony Ann, Icarus & Apollo by Ripto, Arsonist’s Lullaby by Hozier, Talk by Hozier, Sunlight by Hozier, Work Song by Hozier, Take Me to Church by Hozier (lotssss of hozier)

Lady Aphrodite - Spanish Doll by Poe, Fade Into You by Mazzy Star, Medusa by Kaia Jette, Young and Beautiful by Lana Del Rey, Salvatore by Lana Del Rey, Brooklyn Baby by Lana Del Rey (and lotssss of lana del rey)

Lord Hermes - Headlock by Imogen Heap, Taking What’s Not Yours by TV Girl, Only You by Portishead, Glory Box by Portishead (really just a lot of imogen heap and portishead for Lord Hermes)

Lord Dionysus - Cheri Cheri Lady by Modern Talking, Out of Touch by Daryl Hall & John Oates, A Question of Time by Depeche Mode, Strangelove by Depeche Mode, Enjoy the Silence by Depeche Mode (can you tell i like depeche mode?? i love depeche mode)

day twenty - “do you have a favorite aspect of hellenic polytheism?”

really how beautiful and ancient the religion is. like… you’re telling me that people thousands of years ago loved the gods like i do?? that people thousands of years ago would see the same sun as me and have the same thought of Lord Apollo as i have had?? that people thousands of years ago longed to see the beautiful statues of Lady Aphrodite like i want to?? it’s so insane and really cool!!

day twenty-one - “are there any retellings/adaptions of greek mythology that you like? why/why not?”

a bunch!! i love all the percy jackson series’ (pjo, hoo, toa, all those), circe and the song of achilles (both by madeline miller), epic the musical, hadestown, and hades (the game, it’s super fun to play!!). i probably forgot one or two, so sorry about that!! but yeah, i love all of those. i’ll give my opinion on blood of zeus eventually, but i’m only just now starting and i want to try and rope my family into it too. but as for why i like them, i just think they’re cool!! i’m obviously always gonna be a massive fan of the classics like the iliad and the odyssey, but i like the other ones too :)

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happy yule/winter solstice to all those who are celebrating!!

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happy first day of saturnalia to all who celebrate!!