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Hi there!

Before I start I must make one thing clear...

I don't like labubus.

They're just not my thing. I don't care for keyrings, for a Start. And I don't like the overall look of them. Nothing personal, just not my thing.

However,

After seeing this one video on tiktok of a person dying a labubu orange to turn it into a carrot I have had a brain worm that's not stopped nagging me.

So, the riddler, the narcissist he is, must have a "mini me" in some form. Of course he does. Maybe he buys his own merchandise or commissions people to make things for him (let's be real, he can afford it). What if...he had a labubu mini me on his bag?

Today I was in the mood to crochet so I looked at the recommendation section for my crochet board

And the first thing was a crochet labubu.

That sealed it for me so I got to designing.

I think they are actually really cute.... What have I become?

However, on closer inspection, I couldn't find a crochet pattern that I actually liked. Labubus are ugly cute. They are, don't fight me, you know they are. However, all crochet patterns I found were just ugly. And I don't have the tallent to make them not ugly.

I could buy a real labubu, but I don't have the funds and I'm not going to be dishing out lots of money on a trendy peice of plastic.

I could buy a lafufu, however I feel bad buying knock offs. I'm a firm believer that labubus are a capitalist scheme for other company's to leach off of. However, as I'm going to be destroying it and changing everything about it, I don't mind spending the 5 or so pounds on Shein for one.

I could buy one second hand, lafufu or otherwise. However, even the knock offs are being sold for an arm and a leg on vinted because they are trending. At that point, I might as well buy a real one (that is, if anyone knows of a cheap one going or are looking to sell a cheap lafufu or anything. Let me know I'll buy)

The last and most anti capitalist opinion is making it myself. I can use air dry clay to make the face and hands and feet while I sew the body. This option makes the most moral sense to me, however that's lots more work with lots more space for error. Also, it's not durable at all and it would just have to be an art doll. I've had visions of taking a photo in cosplay with a labubu on a brief case, but that can't happen with this idea.

I have grown attached to this little bastard and I need him in my life. Please help me decide what to do here.

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I need to voice this somewhere and here's the place to do it!

I'm surrounded by autistic people and I love it because we all love and accept each other and we listen to each other and let each other ramble about our special interests.

At the second my special interest is spiderman. We were talking about how soon wicked 2 was going to come out after the first movie was released. Because it was on topic, I said how crazy it was that we are getting another wicked so soon when beyond the spider verse is going to come out in the summer of 2027 and the last movie was in 2022 and I really wish it was sooner but I know there's so much effort that goes into a movie like that.

And then they all looked at me like I was insane.

They all looked at me like I was stupid.

They all looked at me like what I said was completely out of pocket.

I felt horrible because i don't talk much about my interests at all because I feel like I get too excited. I got too excited. I don't know why they all looked at me like that because it was a part of the conversation.

I think it was because it wasn't musical theatre related or Magnus archives related or batman related or boulders gate related so it wasn't allowed.

I'm in an episode rn so I think everyone hates me anyway but that has made me feel so much worse and I can't get it out of my head. Let's just say, I'm not going to do that again because clearly my autistic special interests are not as valuable or welcome as everyone else's.

Rant over, have a gif.

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Actually posing art on my art account WHAT???????

I know it's been a long time but I just don't really do much artwork anymore and I'm too ashamed of my crochet skills to post so ive kinda been afk.

However I've started a theme park bullet journal!!! In this journal I'm tracking all the rides I've ridden in a day, what food I've eaten and highlights. I just wanted to show it off because I've been trying to look for inspiration but I haven't been able to find a single thing like what I'm trying to attempt so THIS IS FOR YOU, RANDOM HUMAN TRYING TO MAKE A THEME PARK JOURNAL TOO! I SEE YOU!!

The front page is just a bunch of blackpool pleasure beach logos and mine and my partners names (we both have a year pass, not to brag x3). It's a bit sketchy and crappy but I totally meant to do that.... It's a style choice.... MOVING ON!

I made a bucket list full of things I want to complete over the year at the park. Some things that aren't Blackpool specifically that you can take are sitting in the front / back of every rollercoaster, riding every ride, bring a friend. You may also notice the rollercoaster at the bottom with a "start" sign. This coaster is going to flow throughout the journal to give the pages some simple theming and at the very end of the journal I'm going to add a finish line. This is a grand national reference if you know your blackpool rides. Feel free to steal because I'm honestly really impressed.

This is a double whammy so I'll split it up in two. I did a what to pack page and called it what's in my bag to nod to that trend back in the early 2010s that I used to love. Real ones know. You may notice there's three sections: porphyria, disability care and essentials. I suffer from a condition called EPP or I just say porphyria Wich means being in the sunlight is extremely painful and can damage my liver so I need to make sure I have all my creams and sun protection stuffs to make sure I'm happy and healthy at the park. My partner is also disabled so we need to make sure he packs all his stuff too so he is happy and healthy also. The essentials, however, are standard things you should bring to a park like a charger, poncho (if raining or has wet rides) and water.

The key dates are fairly straightforward. I just went through the calendar for the park to see what's happening and wrote down the dates. I've left space for when they release the dates for the fright nights and other events.

This is where I really struggled with finding inspiration and it's the main bit of the journal. The table of what I did all day is fairly simple. There's space for the date, the time of entry and the time of exiting the park. There's also space to say what the weather and temperature are like.

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I love having autism and being denied having a childhood because randomly ill go into little space and get cry for ages because I'm not doing something like I used to or I'm hyper aware of loss of innocence.

I'm staying up, crying my eyes out because I've not left anything out for Santa. I've not done that is over 6 years and I've just noticed now and I can't stop crying. Honestly kinda tempted to just do it and let my family bully me for it in the morning but it might just make me more upset. Does anyone else get this?

Merry Christmas guys

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I've not posted in a hot minute but I'm having an off day so I made a mlp oc!!! Her name is moon cakes and she is a unicorn. Her cutie mark is a jar of fireflies. She lives in the everfree forest and likes to bake and forage for ingredients. Her horn broke when she was young. She lives her life like an earth pony but she is still a unicorn.

I hope you like her as much as I do 🐝

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A small vent about marble hornets and creepypasta becoming a recent trend

Tw for description of psychosis, gore description

Read if you wish, if not just enjoy the gifs

Marble hornets is on its 15th year anniversary this year and because of this it's resurfaced and there's a wave of new age fans that enjoy the web show and have delved deeper into creepypasta lore as well as the slenderverse. On a normal person level I have no issues with this. I don't believe In gatekeeping analogue horror from back in my time from today's generation, especially something as good as marble hornets.

My issue is this (Trauma dump incoming) : from the age of 7 I was suffering deep psychosis as a result of using creepypasta and marble hornets as a way of coping with trauma and the stress I was under with neglect and having to look after my sick parent and having no healthy friendship in school. Yes, I was one of those kids who wished with all their hearts that the slenderman would come and take them away and make their problems disappear. The problem was I wanted it too much so my brain just made it happen. I was suffering from really bad derealisation as well as auditory and visual hallucinations of the characters. They would talk and interact with me, just not in the way I wanted them too. I remember so vividly washing up after dinner one night and seeing laughing jack break through the door and stab me in the stomach. I remember watching as my stomach and intestine dropped out of my body as he picked them up and swallowed them by the handful while still managing to maniacally laugh in my face. I screamed until my dad came in and told me jokingly to shut up, clearly not seeing my distress.

These hallucinations impacted my social life too. It was clear to me that there was a handful of them that were not out to get me and wouldn't hurt me if I played along with them. The most normal thing I had to do was just not ignore them. I hallucinated ticci toby a lot, especially in public. I had learned that if I didn't talk back to him he would get agitated and I would have nightmares of the slenderman murdering me so I would always talk back. This made going out with friends difficult because I had to respond to him no matter what. This lead to a lot of bullying from my friends and not many people wanting to talk to me.

For years, until I was 12, I kept slipping through the narrative I was either schizophrenic or actually one of the followers of the slenderman (I used to call myself a proxy, now the word makes me feel physically ill). This belief is probably what made the hallucinations last as long as they did. I wasn't aware at the time how deep in psychosis I was as I refused to talk to my parents about it in detail as my mum used to threaten to take me to a mental hospital as a small child when I used my imagination and said I could see a butterfly, for example, that wasn't really there. My sister knew and so did her friend but I'm sure they both thought it was some game.

So, I'm speaking in the past tense. This is behind me, right? Well, it was for a good few years. I was able to do this via limiting myself all access to anything creepypasta related or marble hornets related which was very hard because it was like my safety blanket for so many years. I tried to not put myself in rooms alone without music or something playing in the background so I can concentrate on that and not give anything the chance to harm me. When I did hallucinate I would take videos to prove to myself nobody was there and in time I was able to ignore them completely and the eventually went away. This took about a year or so of discipline and I think it only worked because it was psychosis and not schizophrenia.

However, the reason I'm talking about this now is it's all come back to me. I'm hallucinating again, I'm being hurt again and I'm unable to sleep properly because of the nightmares that plague me due to it. The reason is very clear to me. Media consumption has caused me to relapse. My girlfriend is obsessed with marble hornets and won't stop showing me stuff about it, which is totally fine because she shows me things she likes out of love. However, when I open Tumblr after it's full of marble hornets and creepypasta. It's the same story for other social media. I'm totally okay with people enjoying the fandom and I'm okay with seeing it from time to time but I do feel so bombarded with it all that's it's triggered me into psychosis yet again. And the way people enjoy this media isn't making me feel any more comfortable online either. You cannot imagine what it's like seeing IRLs of monsters that's harmed you physically and mentally roleplaying and twinkifying the character like the character hasn't killed people or tortured people in their source. I can't stand people simping over Tim from marble hornets after I've repeatedly been assaulted and tormented by a figment of my imagination with the exact same face. Having Jeff the killers bloody and broken face sting like a fresh wound in salt over my eyes when I fall asleep seems like a complete contrast to the hot fuckboy version that people put in their pfps and dirty talk on character ai. I'm not saying you can't be thirsty for a man with no eyelids, my point is it's really strange from my point of view.

Now that you've listened to my rant I just want to make it absolutely clear that if you enjoy marble hornets or creepypasta or the slenderverse you have all the right to keep loving that media. I don't want to put people off or make it seem like I'm trying to gatekeep. I do just want to share a very brief overview of my experience with this media and how it's affected me in hopes it might prevent someone else from going through something similar. This is also a reminder for all horror fans to take a break once in a while to cleanse yourself of all violence and fear for a while and look at some positive media to rest your brain once in a while.

I doubt anyone would be interested in hearing more about my experience with psychosis but if you are ill gladly talk more about it. I'm going to do everything I can to overcome this unwanted sequel and I will over come out weather social media and the people around me let me or not. I've done this before and I'll do it again.

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LOOK AT MY SKISTER!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAA

Finished Sarah cosplay!!

(ignore my face, I had a migraine)

The top of the bodice had beading on it but it was so heavy it kept folding over (⁠⊙⁠_⁠◎⁠)

Overall everything took me like five months to do including the corset, panniers, petticoat, under and overskirt and bodice as well as the beading for the bodice and necklace and headpiece which you can't see because I'm blonde.

(for those who follow me from last year's Ciel disaster, im okay this time and I actually went on stage again and was totally okay. I think I broke the curse with the power of Bowie :3)

Who should I do next?

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100 posts!

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TOMORROW IS ACTUALLY HALLOWEEN

🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃

TOMORROW IS HALLOWEEN!!!

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I watched the fnaf movie two days ago and it was SO good. Because im extra, I crocheted a withered bonnie crop top to watch it with.

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CRINGE CULTURE IS DEAD! HERES MY SPIDER-SONA GLASSPIDER!!

Spiderman in general has me in a chokehold istg.

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You can only reblog this today.

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I cant get this spuk headcannon out of my head so I'm gonna share it here.

So, bla bla bla Spanish armada. Alot of drinking, fighting, sex and just indulging in eachothers presence and feeling joy with pissing of the other country. Then the war finished, and they never saw eachother again, they didn't even say goodbye.

The two had almost forgotten what had happened between them, until a few decades later. France had dragged England to meet his friends in Paris, Spain and prussia, but didn't tell him who they were and didn't tell Spain that he England was coming.

When the two saw eachother, they were the happiest they had been in a long while. Spain ran up to hug England, wich England accepted, and they chatted excitedly to eachother about where they've been and how life was after the war. France and prussia looked on in horror and concern, it was completely unnatural for either of them to be acting the way they were. When questioned by France, England just brushed him off:

"Oh, it was nothing"

His words deeply confused Spain, as clearly the war meant something to him, if it hadn't he wouldn't be acting that way. The two of them calmed down, England keeping his distance after that.

A few years later, the anglo-spanish war of 1625 began. Everything seemed the same: the open sea, the ships, the guns. But something was different. Spain had seized the same ship, had found the same English captain, had the same sword fight on the masts. But the energy was gone. The spark that made him want to keep fighting England had vanished. Everything he loved about England had completely depleted, he was a new man. A new, boring, militant man. Spain had admitted defeat and left the ship, never facing England for the rest of the war, his heart couldn't take it. The war lasted 5 years from there.

From that day on, a small hatred had grew for the English man. And every war since had stemed from a place of hate. However, ever so often he found that lost fragment of wildness peering through England's dull exterior. And when that happened, he let himself grow closer to him, hoping that he will be able to feel as good as he felt with him all those years ago.

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It's been a long and hard few months making this cosplay, but it's finally done

I was so tired when I took these, so my face looks a lil dead

Ik it's on a base stfu I couldn't be assed actually drawing

Bowser cosplay design for comic con!!!!!!!! Whatcha think?

I might add a prop like a chain chomp or a sword/ shield but either way I think this is gonna be pretty good!

Edit:

OK, wow wow wow this has got alot of notes!

FYI I'm taking this cosplay to Manchester Anime and gaming con in April so if you wanna come down and vibe please do!

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It's my 2 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

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Friendly reminder to all cosplayers!!!

If you make your own cosplay, please keep your weight in mind cus if you have a fast metabolism or any form of eating disorder your cosplay may not fit the way its supposed to since you made it.

I'm in the middle of making a bowser cosplay and I've been mentaly and physically unwell for a few weeks now and I havent been eating properly. The bodice I made was a size 8 and when I put it on it was perfect for my body type. However, I tried it on a few moments ago and it fell to my hips.

If this does happen to you, there's a few ways around it

If its a eva foam peice, like mine, you can simply overlap the size (or add another strip) and attach velcro to it (or a zip depending on if you are making it bigger)

If its a fabric piece, I cant really help but ik you can adjust it with darts or something like that.

Hope this helps!