ihatemyselfandwanttodiexxx - Tumblr blog

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Hello my lovelies, after almost a year of doing this Tumblr blogging stuff I'm going to quit, it's mostly because a personal issues and not being able to handle the update schedule that I used to have I used to be like super into writing and I still love everyone who's ever liked anything on my page because that just shows that people support what I do and they like stuff that I make I made someone happy and honestly that's all I want to do, in life the only thing that I've ever wanted to do is make people happy, and I'm happy I could share some wonderful memories with some of you everyone who's ever interacted with me on this website has been overwhelmingly nice and I love all of you if I ever met any of you in person I would run up to you and hug you because you have all helped with my self-esteem issues, this blog has created amazing memories for me and I'm going to keep it up, maybe one day I'll even come back, but for now I'm going to quit and try to take care of myself more, if you people haven't noticed already my blog has just turned mostly into shitposts instead of fanfiction and writing and the poetry and what I wanted to do, and I honestly kind of fell off, but that's reasonable because I haven't posted at all and when I do is just like "Oh I'm so high right now it's amazing check out my playlist it's so cool oh my God" this is a really long post but if you make it to the end you you are like really supportive I guess of my blog I don't I don't really know how to describe it but I don't really care anyone who's ever interacted with me on this site I love you to death and I genuinely care about all of you but I'm trying to put myself first for now one day I'll come back and start writing and like get motivation and like it'll be great but for now I'm taking a break.

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I can't fell my face LMAO alsoooooioooooioooo listen to my "slutty scene shit" playlist it's sooooooooo good

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Love this wall

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the hyperfixation has gotten deeper 😍😍😍

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Lil Peep would've been 27 today:/ rip

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It's gonna seem like I'm spamming all of y'all's stuff bc I haven't been on here since September, but I'm not trying to, so don't mind me :>

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Why do I want a yandere who will manipulate and treat me like shit but at the same time I want a cute wholesome relationship

Oh and I'm back, and got a new phone to write on, it was 35 bucks at Walmart

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IM FINALLY 20!!!!!!!!

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Just got back from grippy sock jail :p

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Light x male!S/O fluff headcanons

... just take it, I'm trying something new for this one

♡ he teases you alot in private

♡ not too much, just enough to see you blush

♡ "you're so cute when you blush like that~"

♡ when you're pissed off at anything, he just kisses you

♡ "you're so adorable when you're mad~ I can barely help myself~"

♡ loves to call you cute, adorable, honey, sweetheart, good boy, pretty boy, baby, just the sappiest shit

♡ even when the Kira shit is going on, he still has a soft spot for you<3

♡ if you do something for him, like clean, or cook he would immediately start praising you

♡ "oh, sweetie, you did such a a good job, such a good boy for me~"

♡ If you're trans and wear a binder he'll remind you to take it off from time to time<3

♡ "honey? How long have you been wearing that thing?~"

♡ "8 hours..."

♡ "you gotta take it off for a little bit, it'll be okay~ we're home right now anyway"

♡ he probably won't let you get involved in Kira stuff, unless you really want to

♡ on bad days he cuddles with you

♡ if you're bad at social stuff he talks for you

♡ on that note, he can read you like a book

♡ constantly touching you, whether it be holding hands, having his arm around your shoulders, or having his hand on your thigh

♡ loves to hear you say his name.

♡ TW if you have scars he'd kiss them and says how strong you are

♡ loves to spend time with you

♡ would give you a lot of gifts

♡ never hurts you, never.

♡ if you're sad, he will make you lay in his bed and make you your favorite snack then cuddle with you

Light is my husband. Also... Yandere smut is coming soon, TYSM for being so patient! ♡

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I get what Kurt meant when he said he's on a plain.

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Im sorry I disappeared for a bit! I just had no motivation to write, but tonight I'm gonna continue one of my light drafts! Thank you so much for reading this little waffle of mine🖤

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No because how could I, a almost 20 year old man, have to climb on the counter just to get something to eat smh

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This is my life.

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Seeing your posts on my dashboard never fails to make me smile. I hope you're feeling good/better lately. 🧡

Aw thank you anon 🖤

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What if I want him to...

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Light helping his transmasc s/o with dysphoria♡

The amount of times that I've thought about Light helping with my dysphoria... Yeah, I need to write about it lmao

☆Light would notice immediately, it's scary, and you darling are going to get all of his attention

☆if it's about your chest, he'll get you a binder if you don't have one

☆if it's about... y'know he'll say that it doesn't make you any less of a man

☆Loves on you, nonstop just holding you

☆If you have a comfort movie/game/YouTuber/playlist he'll put it on and cuddle with you in his bed or on the couch to watch it with you (URGH I WANT SWEETHEART LIGHT)

☆if you're scared you won't get surgery he'll get it for you (he's rich, don't worry)

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Light had been up for a few hours, but you were laying around in your shared bed, dying inside, feeling crushed by gravity, that little voice in your head was eating you up 'you aren't really a man, you barley even pass' and other things like that (even tho that's a lie you're perfect just the way you are♡) you just felt like you weren't worth anything. Light walked into your room and asked you "Y/N, are you sick?" You groaned (not in a sexy way) and said "I jus feel like shit, I'm sorry I'm not normal" he sat down next to you, lifting your upper body up saying "you're perfect for me, just because you aren't cis doesn't mean you aren't a man" you lean into him, wrapping your arms around his neck "I just want my body to dissolve.." light lifted you up, saying "I don't care, you are a man, no matter what anyone else thinks, I promise and if you want surgery I can get you some appointments yeah?" You snuggled into him and whispered "that sounds great" the brunette sat you down on the couch "I'm gonna go get you something okay? Stay right here for now and turn something on the TV" you did exactly as he said, putting on (comfort film/game/YouTuber/playlist) and laid down on the couch as he walked in with a blanket, a binder, food, and (comfort item) you couldn't be any more grateful for him, he helped you put the binder on, and put the blanket over both of you watching whatever you put on holding you close to him, and it worked 🖤

Okay is it normal to imagine characters comforting you tho or is it just me? And if you question why I use black hearts, I'm goth so it just makes sense also it's the first thing in my keyboard so...I'm a lazy man, what can I say? And if you enjoy my immaculate taste in music I posted my Spotify a while ago so go check it out.