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I'm so tired of people who don't understand eating disorders working with people who have an ED. Eating disorders are so fucking complicated and the DSM does not factor in key factors of living with an ED such as metabolism/metabolic disorders, living situations/outside pressures, and finances.

I was almost refused recovery/treatment because I don't meet the criteria for binge sizes/frequency for BED because I'm poor poor and can't afford the binges I would have if I had even just $10 more. When they said if anything I actually under eat but I don't meet the criteria for anorexia because of my high BMI, I then had to remind these nurses that atypical anorexia exists and I'll probably never be underweight because I have thyroid disease.

The DSM is bullshit and I'm tired of these mental health "professionals" not considering things like how much someone can afford, health concerns like low metabolism or even high metabolism/chrons/etc, and things like parents or roommates that inturrupt your "habits" (which isn't a bad thing, it just gets in the way of a diagnosis). I'm so glad and so lucky that I got a asecond opinion of a dietitian who agreed that the DSM gatekeeps diagnoses and advocated for me. But not everyone is going to have that so we need to actually educate those who are working in this feild on the tiny nuances that get in the way of a diagnosis.

Professionals need to consider the ifs. If I weren't poor, I'd have objectively large binges. If I weren't in a wheelchair I'd over-excersice like I did pre-chair. If I weren't living with 4 other people and paper-thin walls I'd purge.

Some factors:

This is just things I can think of off the top of my head and not a comprehensive list of things that could lead to a lack of diagnosis or being wrongly diagnosed.

Hypothyroidism (thyroid disease, difficulty losing weight + weight gain)

Hyperthyroidism (thyroid disease, difficulty gaining weight + weight loss)

Chrons disease

Celiac disease

Colostomy

Colorectal cancer

Unknown tapeworm or other bowel-dwelling parasite

Gastroparesis

Diabetes

Genetics

Injury or disability (my example of being in a wheelchair now, I can't run a mile like I used to)

Hormonal birth control

PCOS

Menopause

Stress/high cortisol

Over hormone issues/imbalances

Kidney, heart, and liver disease (can cause a build up of water weight)

Medications (too many to list)

There's so so many more conditions that can directly or indirectly influence your weight which according to the DSM is an important diagnostic factor. It's not, or at least it should not be as it's not based on reality and it also feeds into the competitive nature of an eating disorder.

And remember, this is a safe space for those who, like me, don't fit in the tiny stupid box. Those who are male, POC, normal or overweight, or poor. We are valid and real. You are valid and I see and hear you.

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Lmao I forgot to post an update but I got it!

I love it for the most part but my tires have zero traction so I'm getting snow tires next winter lmao

Ay yo fam!

My wheelchair comes tomorrow and I'm so excited!

Most able-bodied people think mobility aides are an obstacle. In reality it's the only thing that will let me go grocery shopping again. Or cleaning my room properly. Or just going anywhere.

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Unless you live in Canada and all you're asking for is doctors to figure out why you're so sick.

(spoiler: after months of research I'm fairly confident its slow growing cancer which you can have for years and not know but the doctor's are refusing to run the relevent testing /s /pa)

“You get in life what you have the courage to ask for.”

— Oprah Winfrey

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On his week's episode of Oversharing On The Internet

I hate when you have the "squeeze your cheeks and run" level of "I need to shit" pain, only to get to the bathroom and not be able to shit.

This is probably a specific to me issue but here's you daily dose of "welp that's enough internet for today".

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Maybe if I turn my music up louder I'll finally feel something today. Even if it's just a migraine.

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F. Round 2. Just want to feel something, litterally anything.

The feeling when you go back to Badlands (Halsey) and still remember all the words to every song on the album.

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The feeling when you go back to Badlands (Halsey) and still remember all the words to every song on the album.

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Ay yo fam!

My wheelchair comes tomorrow and I'm so excited!

Most able-bodied people think mobility aides are an obstacle. In reality it's the only thing that will let me go grocery shopping again. Or cleaning my room properly. Or just going anywhere.

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Me: "ew diapers, absolutely not"

Aunt: "what about when you have kids?"

Mom: *snickers*

Me: "I'm just not having any, maybe after I get my life together I'll foster cats"

Aunt: 🤷‍♀️ "yeah, I guess that's fair enough honestly"

Mom: "I've accepted I'm only having grandkitties"

(my grandma has also accepted this lmao)

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I recently lost most of my mobility and now need a wheelchair to get back to living life. I'd appreciate any help you can give including just sharing the shit out of this!

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i say im “taking one for the team” little do they know the team is the three people in my brain cheering me on while i make questionable choices

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My mom when I wanted to be a photographer professionally.

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*sits in a grocery store parking lot looking at thinspo before I go in*

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From the way I’ve been eating since COVID isolation started…

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Honestly, it was the kids I grew up with.

I was bullied relentlessly, as young as age 7 I was severely depressed but high functioning and masking it. I perfected the fake smile by age 8. I wanted to die by age 9. I was the fat kid, the ugly kid, the poor kid, the girl who looked like a boy. By age 13 I no longer knew who I was anymore, I even questioned my gender heavily at that point (though that started with I was 10). I know who I am to a small extent now, I also am turning 20.

I know I'm a woman, other than being legitimately obese with the added dysmorphia, I'm happyish with my body, glad I lack melons. I know that I'm happy to be a nerds, and I know that it's balanced in the summer when I practically live in the middle of a lake. I know I'm smart, and I learnt when I was 12 that I had a learning disability. I know that I'm a broke bitch and I know I don't really care what people think anymore...

But I still have trauma, I hope I never get stationed at the base in my hometown because if I do, it'll open a Pandora's box. I still struggle with food, and I'll never forgive or forget how badly they hurt me.

Kids will be kids, but bullies can kill.

people with eds, who caused your ed and why was it your mom?

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I only had to read it once to feel ✨attacked✨

🎐🌟I had to read this twice and now i feel personaly attacked🌟🎐

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