#time to dissociate

[intrusive-thoughts-only]

*whole body sighs into the internal void*

[bitterboysystem]

[burnhamandtilly]

I'm so tired from work and I really wanna cry but the medicine I take makes me lowkey numb so I'm just laying in bed like this right now

[coatfullofrats]

Dissociation

[adhd-inkubus]

Am I a gamer? Or are video games just the safe way I dissociated as a child, and I can't let go of that because that coping strategy was there for me more than my family?

Am I a gamer? Or were video games the one thing that kept me quiet and still - and thus safe from abuse - as a child and now that false sense of safety is the strongest one I feel in a society that wants the people I love most either dead or bred?

I've got 600 games in my library for a reason, and I don't remember anything about most of them.

[novelconcepts]

Also please let’s discuss the Other Tai of it all, because this is important to me. She isn’t evil. It’s incredibly important to understand she isn’t evil. She’s hungry. She’s hungry for all the things that kept Taissa alive in the woods. She IS the thing that kept Taissa alive in the woods, in her own way. She was the very essence of nature. She was dirt and trees and need. What kept Tai alive out there? Food. Meat. Van. What does Other Tai naturally gravitate toward, trying to steer Taissa toward the things she needs? Food. Meat. Van. That political career? Theater. That family polished to a shine? Facade. What really matters, when everything else is shorn away? Food. Meat. Van. Base impulse. First loves and full bellies. She isn’t evil. She’s trying to keep Tai fed and alive, as she always has. It just comes at such a terrible cost.

[kinkynconfused]

Find your happy place. Just because curtains closed on one chapter, doesn’t mean we can’t reread our most precious moments. This is a picture that I took in one of my happiest moments in a happy place. Can you geuss where?

[causticcontemplation]

Family parties without alcohol should be illegal.

[intrusive-thoughts-only]

Another night of insomnia, seething with emotional turmoil until sunrise.

[osddid-i-do-that]

For any system that needs to hear this:

Experiencing periods of silence in your brain is normal. You’re not making it up or faking or actually just a singlet just because you can’t hear other alters 24/7/365.

[l0v3lya]

If it’s always gonna be this lonely, I’ll just give up and disappear. Dissociating without a care. Fading away is my one thing I’m good at. I don’t wanna play or be the victim. I wish I was the villain at least once… but I’m over it. I’m over having a heart, caring , being so selfless to others that I bleed myself dry. Playing knock,knock ditch on deaths door. I think I’ll give it to him next, at least he wants it.

[goldkirk]

and if you weren’t as lucky as I was to learn from Great Depression grandparents:

• everything you can wash, save, and reuse or alter/repurpose, start learning to do it. you can always toss it later if you look it up and CAN’T find a use for it that makes it worth keeping for you. But give yourself the chance.

• learn to mend and do basic hand sewing.

• learn cheap recipes based around rice, beans, potatoes, etc. (casseroles can help with this, and use lots of cheaper frozen or canned food too)

• ten extra seconds every time you use something to refold it really well (or wipe it off, or repack it, or whatever) will extend its life so much. spend the little bits of time and the small routine maintenance tasks so you don’t have to replace things or repair them nearly as soon

• coupon. use sale ads. check every membership and group you have for discounts and deals.

• build a deep pantry. you want enough to feed yourself food you’ll actually eat for two weeks. If you want and you can, you can expand it to three months.

• learn how to dehydrate or can or freeze dry if you can

• learn your local plants and what you can forage

• build strong communities with people you can mutually trade supplies and skills with (ironing, home repair, mending, weaving, carpentry, painting, landscaping, gardening, etc.) and people who you are lightened and warmed by and can socialize with and emotionally support each other with

• swap things. Find local buy-nothing groups and local freecycle people

• USE THE LIBRARY. FIND OUT ALL THE THINGS IT CAN DO AND PROVIDE FOR YOU

• there’s no shame in using a food pantry. Use one if you need it. no one there is judging you. many more people have used one at least once in their life than you’d ever guess, I promise.

• inventory what you already have. For real. Fully. Your supplies for food, your cooking appliances, your toolbox, your entertainment games, your books, your clothing. Know what you have, figure out what you need to fill in still, and figure out if you have any extra you can give away, swap, or sell to those who need it

• humans are always humans. humans have always been humans. in disaster, humans tend towards kindness and community. NOT panic and distrust. accept that fact and live and plan accordingly

• shelf stable is your friend

• Learn To Ask For Help

[dragonymango]

forgetful one

[thecmaly]

omurice...

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more windbreaker comics

[thefirstsunray]

And when you seek for your dreams

With a ludicrous hunger

Watching them dissapear

Like how the wax of a candle melts away

Rather miserably

And all that's left are the mournful wisps of the smoke

Just the petty illusions of whens and wheres

You still try to hold on to them

Cradle them in your arms

With the resemblance of an unborn child

Who's soul got lost too early

Yet you still try to be a necromancer and try to pour life into your desires

Wishing and hoping

For a brighter future

~ @thefirstsunray

[c0nstellati0ns]

My perception of time: Thinking of the years I lived up to today since I was born (19 years lets say 20) Imagine I lived that time period five times, that’s 100 years for you. Thinking how fast those years flew by, 100 years is a really short time.