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[innaandtheunicorn]

why am i single?

hellooo lovely people. hope you are all well, sane and well fed. lately i did not write quite often, been reading a lot and gaming. life is not particularly interesting so there is not much going on.

even tho these are different times people still talk, chat and i’ve seen many guys making statuses how girls are not posting selfies now all the beauty salons are closed, making fun of them. well there are not many of you fuck boys around anymore either eh, hard to make some effort when you can’t ‘’score’’ and disappear? or you’re stuck with your girlfriends so its harder?

leave the girls alone, live your own life and mind your own business. even tho the number of fuck boys has drastically dropped, there are still people who make some effort and talk to other people. i’m not saying this only happened to me in the past few months, people keep asking me this all the time.

so why am i single?

im not super young anymore, im in that age where most of my generation is already married and are having their first or even second kid. not me tho, thank you but i’ll pass.

guys usually ask ‘’how can girl like you be single?’’... may i ask you, what kind of girl is that? i know they usually refer to the thing that im beautiful or good looking (in their words not mine) and i keep wondering what does someones looks have to do with someone being single or in relationship? does that mean everyone who is in relationships is beautiful or if youre beautiful you have to be in a relationship? someone please enlighten me. thank you.

on the other hand, some people think i still love some certain people and haven’t moved on emotionally and things like that and that is so not true. i dont have any ‘leftover’ feelings for anyone and i dont like anyone romantically at the moment (and on daily basis i dont like people in general, thats another story tho haha). someone being single for long time doesnt mean they cant get over someone from their past. i kind of pride myself on getting over people quicker than most people, that doesnt mean i cant develop feelings. i can, im just way more careful with that. also, that doesnt mean i never truly liked them (havent loved anyone in a very long time hahaha) its just i dont tend to dwell on it for long. that person is not in my life anymore, why would i spend more time thinking about them when it wont affect my present?

i close that chapter in my life and just move on. not meaning for it to sound as a sob story or trying to make people feel pity for me, every time i have had started to develop some feelings for someone it backfired. made me develop trust issues and i openly admit it. and every time it backfires at me it makes it slightly worse and worse and leaves scars and honestly makes me regret ever developing any feelings. it all developed in like a defense mechanism making me want to do it again less and less.

as ive said, this is not a sob story and im not looking for people to feel sad about me. that is definitely not the only reason why im single but it is a part of it.

i chose to be single. i love being single. i have grown to love myself so much that i dont require to be in a relationship to feel fulfilled or to feel ‘’whole’’. if you find someone you fall in love with that person should not be your second half because you are one whole on your own, that other person should be a beautiful addition to your life, not someone to fill in the gaps. and if you break up you should still be able to feel complete and happy. dont think i am in celibate or i dont meet people when im single. the amount of people thinking if youre single youre not having sex is ridiculous. like seriously people, it 2020, you dont have to get into relationship just to have sex. to think that in this era of fuckboys, internet dating and all that crap... cmon like

explanation is not my strong side so im sorry if i dont fully explain something. relationships and feelings for me are... good and bad. i like them and i dont like them. to me the concept of traditional relationship is like a cage. i dont have freedom (at least not the way i want) that i want, and all the ‘’obligations’’ (cant remember the term that would better explain it). sure, when you like/love someone you usually talk all the time, tell them what you do, where you go, but as an introvert sometimes i just want to shut the whole world out and be left alone for more than a day if that is how i feel. by nature im curious and love to explore, whether it is myself or the world around me and the traditional relationship ‘’wouldn’t allow’ that, its looked down on. why do you want to try something new if you already, lets put it this way, have someone by your side?

but like yes, surely that person can fulfill me both physically and emotionally, what if someone can add to it in a different way, why would i deny myself of that pleasure? 

open relationship is something would be something that would be more of my liking. do i believe it is possible to love one person fully and still want to try something with other person? definitely yes.  it would start probably as exclusive until the mutual trust and understanding is achieved then we can add to it. and yes, its adding to what we already have, not replacing, not changing, not cheating - adding. that absolutely doesnt mean that the main partner is not enough, its just expanding the current experience. i was in a serious relationship where i loved the person so much and i did mention the possibility of open relationship and it wasnt accepted well and no judgement, it is not for everyone, we all dont seek for same things.

humans are creatures with needs and i believe that satisfaction can come from different people in different ways and that doesnt diminish the value of primary partner. rather than always feeling caged and limited,‘’scared’’  and suppressing your needs, you get the freedom to explore, to broaden your horizons. open relationship is not same as cheating  as long as both partners are aware of the nature of the relationship and mutually agree on that, at the end of the day you always end up with them.

dont get me wrong, im not out there actively looking for relationship, im just living in the moment. those kind of things happen on their own and should not be forced, and now days anything that is not according to some standard norms is looked down on. as well, i am perfectly happy on my own, i chose to be single and im loving it. im the main person for myself, i love myself and i am thriving. absolutely enjoying my life.

i dont feel sad or lonely or of any less value than your average person just because im single, not at all. this also made me selfish in a way, i want all the experiences for myself and my enjoyment and i dont want to limit them to make someone else happy or secure. if youre not happy on your own and with yourself, how are you happy in relationship? so dont go asking people why are they single and think they are sad because of it and feel sorry for them, people do not have same needs and wants in life like you do. at the end of the day, the person who you should be most mindful of is you, your thoughts and your life. make sure you are happy with yourself because that is the person you have to live with 24/7. and once you are happy with the person you are, then you wont have the need to ‘worry’ about the others,

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Stalkers welcome

      Recently I have finished reading one interesting book. It was about time considering when the first page has been opened - and that is something I am not willing to admit. :P

      One reason why is that before, finishing books was no problem, it would be two or three books per month and now it is kind of opposite, it takes me few months to finish a book of 400 pages. Thinking about that brought a decision to push myself to get back to the old routine and read at least one book per month until things fall back to place (reading more than one book per month hopefully).

      So back to the book.

      As I am getting older thrillers are becoming my first choice in both movies and books, and ‘’You’’ by Caroline Kepnes belongs to the same genre. Plot is mostly set in New Your city and some other nearby places take mention, and it is about guy named Joe who falls in love (?) with Beck, girl who entered the bookshop he is working at. And there is where the plot begins. 

 But before I start with my opinion on the book, I will insert two reviews found on the internet:

Based on You: A Novel by Caroline Kepnes, published in September by Atria/Emily Bestler Books and packaged by Alloy Entertainment, You is described as a 21st century love story about the obsessive yet brilliant twentysomething Joe Goldberg who uses the hyper-connected digital age to make the woman of his dreams fall in love with him. 

And the second one (with more details, but still not enough to spoil the book):

'Thriller of the year' Daily.Mail When aspiring writer Guinevere Beck strides into the bookstore where Joe works he is instantly smitten. Beck is everything Joe has ever wanted: tough, razor-smart and sexier than his wildest dreams. He'd kill to have her. Soon Beck can't resist her feelings for a guy who seems custom made for her. When a string of macabre incidents tears her world apart there is only one person she can turn to. But there's more to Joe than Beck realizes and much more to Beck than her perfect facade. The obsessive relationship quickly spirals into a whirlwind of deadly consequences... A chilling account of unrelenting, terrifying deceit, Caroline Kepnes' You is a thriller more perversely clever and dangerously twisted than any YOU have ever read.

      Now, where to start?

      Story is quite interesting, that is a fact, especially if you are into things like that. Even tho it did not keep me on the edge of my seat for the entire time, but it did keep me wondering what will happen next. I loved the fact that it has been written with more casual style, not like books you had to read for school assignments, so it is very easy to read. With the fact it is written in certain style, it is important to keep in mind that with it comes the use of strong language (cursing and such) and sometimes vivid descriptions of sex and/or intimate parts of human body and some other ...situations (I do no want to spoil :D).

    Therefor, if you are more on the conservative side I would not recommend this book to you so easily. Also to add with the conservative problem here, this is a story written from stalkers perspective and if you do not like the fact that people like this are roaming this planet (which unfortunately they do, even worse cases than Joe) - then this book definitely is not for you. 

     But on the other side, if you are more open minded to these kind of things and if you have big interest in human psychology - then this book is definitely the one to peek your interest! 

      It is more on the dark side, and if you are like me and like dark things - go and get the book!

      There is one special thing that really amused me while reading the book, and that is smart irony. There is no easy way to explain what exactly am I talking about right now, it is easier when you read the book and you will understand. Just to give you one small example of it - there is one part in the story where he is watching/stalking her in her apartment from the dark curb outside of her building and him thinking to himself that he has to make sure no strange/sick people come and watch her from a dark corner of the streets (exactly what he was doing, but in his mind he was helping her).

      Joe is one exceptionally smart and intelligent guy and he is using that very well while trying to get to Beck and covering his tracks. Although, with all that brain there is something dark and twisted and wrong (?) with him; he is normal but not normal. It is so easy to like him, he is your good guy next door until you find out what is going on in his mind and it makes you wonder did he make you like him? 

      On the other side, Beck is what younger generations would call basic b*tch. She is aspiring writer and college student, attention seeker, has her ‘squad’ and of course - hooked on social media. Not to make her one bland not interesting character, which she isn’t, she does have her issues which you have to find out while reading the book. When it comes to being smart, she is not on the same level as Joe and to find out why is he intrigued by her - go get the book!

      Like with every book, you can never know what inspired the author, what was going on/in authors mind while writing, is it based on true story or completely made up nor were the facts came from; but while reading this book there is one question that has been dancing around my head all the time. It is a book with well developed characters, you get such good insight in Joes mind and his way of thinking that made me wonder if Caroline herself was in his position? Is this book written from personal experience (if yes hopefully minus some things that happen :O) or did she just do a great research on human psychology or maybe even talked to someone who did similar stuff. Because you really have to have great knowledge or personal experience with it to translate it to paper so good like she did.

      So after googling her up, there is not much to read about her, all of it is mostly same, but I did found in one of her Q&A’s that she really enjoyed studying psychology, especially abnormal psychology and that inspired her to write the book, so it does explain a bit.

There is a follow up to this book called Hidden Bodies, so after reading this I have no doubt that one will also be interesting!

[innaandtheunicorn]

I want to get more comfortable being uncomfortable. I want to get more confident being uncertain. I don’t want to shrink back just because something isn’t easy. I want to push back, and make more room in the area between I can’t and I can.

Kristin Armstrong (via wordsnquotes)

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Do you realize how important it is to be independent? To be able to take care of yourself? To not rely on someone else for your most basic needs? And to not get so damn attached to stuff that you’d rather demean yourself than live without it?

Alyson Noel, Faking 19 (via thelovejournals)

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Save me from me -_-

Have you ever felt you need to take a break from yourself sometimes? I’m pretty sure everyone has and one moment like that just inspired me to write this post.

Just like that. Random spoof of inspiration.

Sometimes it’s not good to have brain like mine. Thoughts can jumble up inside and run around your head like crazy that the wish to bang your head against wall to stop it sounds so amazing (when you put aside all the injuries that come with it).

As mentioned in last post - when life gets busier my mind also gets busier and then I have to have a way how to deal with it all. Usually it’s sport or dancing, now its writing too. 

What did inspire (or lets say trigger) this post? My crazy brain. Five minutes ago I was relaxing before work as usual these days and texting with friend. He started talking about travelling and where he is planning to go - and around somewhere there I ‘snapped’. As travel junkie I hate hearing how people get to travel when I can’t do the same .

But then again I’ve realized that I sound like a brat. It’s not that I have never went outside of my country, quite opposite - I have traveled more than 60% of Europe, I have seen so much and I still want to; and now I live in another country, far away from my hometown. Most of the people I know never traveled across borders of our country and I understand how privileged I am when I think about that, but still I am acting like brat and needy and selfish. I want more, I want to experience more. Even tho I am planning to go to another continent this year it’s still not enough. 

’An addict always needs a greater and greater dosage’

Yes, I am selfish brat and I want more. And I am not ashamed of it I have to admit. I want more for my life and myself and at the moment life is not the way I want it to be and that makes me angry and stressed; funny I know. 

So many people out there don’t have their basic needs fulfilled on daily basics and here I am complaining how I do not travel enough or I do not do what I wish. And now I’m going to sound even more selfish - I am aware of all that but what actually I can do? Not much. Paying to some charity doesn’t mean that money actually goes to people in need. I have experienced that first hand working with those kind of organisations and causes. I know so many cases of beggars on the street to find out after they actually have everything they need, begging is just their way of not wanting to working and using other peoples compassion to earn more money.

That’s why I don’t help too many organisations, I’d rather adopt 10 dogs and give them perfect life they deserve because I know they will be truly grateful, unlike people.

And this is only small part of the things that jumbled up in my head and I needed a temporary outlet for my brain.

I needed break from my thoughts, still need bigger one so I’m going to look up some classes at local gym.

And again another post maybe without any point, but it helped me a bit. I may change my blog name to pointless blog posts. It would suit it.

Now I’m off. Bye!

[innaandtheunicorn]

Sneak-peek

Small fact about me - I love to write and besides sports and reading (and eating haha) those are the things I truly enjoy doing. Due to many things happened in my life I haven’t been able to do much of any of those but lately there has been progress (hint this blog) since my life has taken up the pace again.

My brain works the best when it’s constantly working; more busy I am - more productive I am. Strange, I know, some people would think that when you have the most time then it’s easiest to write, for me i is opposite. I’m still getting back to routine, trying to coordinate everyday activities so the posts might seem bit out of place, but I promise you it will get better :) Younger me has once started writing a book, sadly haven’t finished it yet but it has never left my head and one day I will finish it. It is a fictional book aimed for younger public and noticeably going darker year by year as  I myself grow older (hmmm coincidence? :P ). There is one blog site where I used to publish bits of it for everyone to read and today I decided to share one of them here.

If interested - please keep on reading. :)

*disclamer - due translating from croatian it may sound bit strange*

The room has been filled with darkness, hiding in the most hidden corners of it, deafening all sounds with it thickness.

But one.

Faint quick breathing could be heard from distant corner of the room, breaking the complete silence in the dark. Suddenly a distant sound of  footsteps appeared echoing on wooden floors, slowly coming closer and closer to the room. Sound of breathing from the corner started to be more rapid. She started to struggle even more but it did not help.

The footsteps continued to approach slowly, so slow that whoever was walking wanted to torture those who heard him. Finally it stopped in front of the room. The doors opened slightly letting small bit of light to come into a room making the corner table only thing in the room that could be seen. Faint breathing suddenly stopped. Whoever was at the door did not instantly came in, they stood there for some time and tall silhouette could be seen on the floor.

He laughed silently.

 ‘I’m glad you’re still alive.’’ said the mans voice.

(...) ‘Too much arrogance for a child’ he said and anger could be heard in his voice ‘’I’d recommend that you watch your attitude because you may not see your family any time soon.’’

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How I fell in love

As I have already mentioned - I love to travel. If I could I would travel even more; it gives me that special feeling of excitement of exploring new places and experiencing new things. It also makes you realize how big this world and how small you are in it, how much there is that you haven’t seen. Travelling isn’t just going abroad, it is also visiting your local cities and locations.

Believe me, there were some things about my own hometown that I didn’t know that some visitor taught me and funny (and sad if you think about it)  thing is that when I would have guests over, that is when I would actually take a walk to some parts I do not usually don’t go. But despite that little thing, still the best tour guide you can have in some city/location is someone local. I don’t say tour guides are bad, but they will only show you most visited and most famous locations and if you want to visit something different and experience true vibe of the city - ask the locals. Who else will show you all those little secret spots? We all have that one city where we feel so familiar and at home even tho it is not our home town. What the heck, sometimes it is in different country or on different continent. If you don’t have a place like that then drop whatever you are doing now and go plan your next trip, it is a serious sign of not travelling enough! For me that city is London, I have been in love with it since forever, I have visited it 5 times and each and every time I fall in love with it even more. Didn’t think there would be another city that would give me even remotely same feeling, but I was wrong.

Boy I was wrong.

All changed in 2015. when my long term friend from Denmark invited me to come and visit him. And it wasn’t that hard to convince me to come, I never complain about adding new city on the ‘Cities I have been to’ list.

I did not have even the slightest clue what was going to happen once I land there. The people, the vibe, the sights - it had me at ‘Hello!’ Copenhagen has it’s own urban and old charm mixed together. It does sound like unbelievable combination, but once you are there it’s perfectly clear. Old town charm, the magic of nordic architecture and big wide streets mixed with greenery wherever you look in combination with very modern driven, fashionable people makes magical mixture. As I had to walk to explore the city (because I do not know word of Danish so couldn’t actually use the buses :P ) I got to see how it all perfectly blends together. And most of the time I was wandering around on my own, as my friend had university duties, so names of the places are probably unknown to me, so I chose the places where he took me and which I remember the names of (mostly haha).

The picture above is a view from a top of the tower of Christiansborg Palace and I was pretty surprised that it wasn’t crowded because this tower gives you stunning panoramic view of Copenhagen and all the famous landmarks in the town. At least you get the peace and quiet to truly enjoy this remarkable view of the city.

First thing people think of when they hear of Copenhagen is the Little Mermaid statue. If you do not know about it I am seriously wondering what have you been doing all your life? I did not include the picture of it, I took it from distance and it has so many Chinese people in you can hardly see the actual statue. It is not very big to be honest, and all those pretty pictures of it you can find on the internet are those of people who had courage to jump on slippery rocks around it or you are one of those Chinese people around it.

But did you know about the angel statue that is just little bit further up from the Mermaid statue? It is equally breath-taking and guess what - no one is around it and you can take really good pictures of it. Also, both of the statues are located on the Langelinie, which is long pier and promenade with lots of interesting things to be seen when walking on it, such as Maersk museum, parks, old sailor pubs, city opera, marine war museum and at the end of it there is small wooden ending with food and ice cream stand and benches which makes perfect resting point, especially on a sunny day.

Another very interesting place to visit is Kastellet, very well preserved star shaped fortification still used as part of army base (fun facts and perks of friends working in army) with lots of interesting army related monuments. You can take a walk among the buildings and visit the wall on which it says all big and meaningful battles that Danish army was part of. Also you get to see beautiful church and an old windmill as a part of it, and the best thing about it is that it is all in walking distance since it is in the middle of the city.

This is one of the old bridges connecting Kastellet and the city.

Next that I would love to mention is one of many parks in the city, and it is The Kings Garden. It is a beautiful park (it can fit an entire castle in it, so imagine how big that is :D ), perfect for taking a long walk, relaxing in nature or enjoying a game with your friends. It contains big garden, loads of statues and lots of different paths to take. It is located close to Botanical garden which is also great place to take a walk in if you prefer peace and quiet. 

If you are fan of Vikings (the show and actual historical people) then you should definitely visit the Viking Ship Museum in Roskilde, which is bit of a ride outside of the city but definitely worth it. They have loads of viking findings and lots of workshops where you can try out your smiting and weaving abilities. Also, one interesting fact is that they use experimental archaeology there, that means that based on all the findings on that location (and other ones) they make the tools like the actual vikings had and with them they make real boats the same way vikings did.

And the most fun part about that - you can actually take a ride in real Viking boats they made there! What more can one fan want?

The picture above doesn’t do the justice of the real size and sight of these remains, and trough the window next to them is breathtaking view of the fjord of this used-to-be big viking port.

((one of the hand-made ships)

On our way back to Copenhagen, my friend took me to this amazing restaurant in Roskilde called Restaurant Toppen. The restaurant is actually redecorated old water tower with glass wall all around with small railing to take a walk around it. We came there in the afternoon and sat there having dinner and enjoyed the sunset, and I can not even try to explain the sight and the colors, it was beautiful  beyond words.

Among the other places that I would love to mention is the Mimersparken in Noorebro, the pictures I have found on the internet are not showing even a glimpse of what it actually is; it has children playgrounds, skate park, outdoor gym and obstacle course and much more including big area dedicated to monuments the city got from other countries, so in few steps you can go from China to Iceland.

Other place worth of mentioning and visiting is Freetown Chrisitania. It is a bit dangerous and scary place, so do not, I repeat do not go there alone (like stupid me did) and do not take out your valuables or you may get attacked and robbed. Seriously. Not many pictures are going around because it is kind of forbidden to take pictures there, once you visit it - you will understand why.

Besides all that, Tivoli is fun place to visit (I have not gone there) also like Nyhavn and C.Andersens house, but those are usual hot spots for tourists. Copenhagen offers numerous museums and galleries, all super interesting and some of them so big that it may take you full day or two to see everything in them.

These are just some of the interesting things you can visit in Copenhagen, to write about everything there and to include stories about people there it would take another long post- I was there for 10 days and I haven’t seen all that I wanted nor all that there is, so if you do plan to visit Copenhagen any time soon be sure to make ‘To visit’ list and bring bit more money than you would usually do because the city is on the expensive side. 

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one of most favorite cities I have visited!

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Travel and explore

*small disclaimer: all of the pictures in this post are from private collections, either mine or my friends, each picture is from different place, only several of them are on here due to uploading policy*  

Recently I came across interesting quote that I can easily relate to - 

‘So, here you are too foreign for home too foreign for here.  Never enough for both’

Why you ask? One random fact about me - I am Croatian living in Ireland at the moment. I have been living in Ireland for two years so far (time flies so fast :O ) ; Irish people always say not so long, and people back home are always surprised it has been this long already. For me it is... undecided. Life goes on, never stops for no one, so it does feel like nothing changed but when I look back it has already been two years I am far away from home. Went back home to Croatia in May and everything felt so close but so far at the same time. Those were the same people and same places but they all felt so strange at the same time. I kept finding myself ‘When I go back home...’ (thinking of Ireland) and at those moments I found myself confused. Even tho I was back in hometown where I grew up and it was indeed my home and at the same time Ireland was my home too. 

I work here, I have friends here, I have hobbies and routines that I enjoy, and I HAD all of those in Croatia before I moved. Yes, notice the past tense; everything was the same and that was first time I felt like a guest in my hometown. 

So my story goes like this - since young age I always knew that I want to move out of Croatia, not that I had bad life there, I am not the type of person to stay in one small place for long time. I am lucky to have such amazing parents who supported my love for travelling and made possible for me to visit and experience many things. 

And that love for travelling continued in Ireland. 

I have traveled most of the Europe and Ireland was never on my mind or list until I moved here. 

New country to explore? Challenge accepted!

At the beginning there weren’t so frequent due to many reasons - no job (which equals bad financial situation), wrong people around me and, not going to lie, bad emotional and mental state that was slowly leading to depression. It was a rough start of new life and it was taking it’s toll. First seven months of new life weren’t going as I was hoping they would go. Just the fact of being new to other country, leaving everything behind me and trying to build something on my own was stressing enough. 

After struggling for more than 6 months, on and off jobs, accommodation problems, taking care of others with one paycheck (I was an idiot back then!) I got to breaking point, I was in such bad position that giving up seemed like only solution. Faith (?) interfered and I finally got a job and I was lucky they were fine with waiting for me for bit longer because I was invited to visit friend in Denmark, and I believe that going away from everything gave me a new fresh start and some time to rethink the situation I was in. When I got back lots of things changed.

Moving to another apartment and having a job meant new start. Stopped communication with people I knew so far and slowly met new people with whom I am still good till this day. Everything got better and I was starting to feel the same way and it did reflect on my life. I have started to have better social life, better private life (more money to invest in myself opposed to 6 months of taking care of three people) and I was happy.

In a way.

Yes, life wasn’t and still isn’t the way I want it to be, but that itself is a progress. All non-irish friends had the same story like I do, we all came to new country to make something out of themselves. The bond between us became better and the travelling continued.

None of us wanted to be tied just to one city, so with time opportunity to travel without depending on public transport arose and we took it. In the beginning it was all the local beaches/cities (even in these cold Irish summers of course you go to beach) and cities, and slowly we went further and further to distant cities and places.

It would be shame not to take what your life offers. We chose this country and we have the opportunity to explore it, to get familiar with culture and life that is surrounding us. As bad as it may seem to say this, we are the ones who have to adapt, not the country as many people seem to think. Generally speaking, it is extremely selfish of anyone to expect the world to adjust to them just because something is not how one expects it to be.

This post may not have any sense, I am aware of that. Point of it was to shortly summarize my life in new country and incorporate travelling as part of it so that I can represent the direction in which I would love my blog to go. 

You may wonder did I learn anything from all these experiences in the last two years. The answer is yes, I have learned even more about myself then I have already known.

True happiness comes from within, from being best friends with yourselves. I have found out that anything is possible if you try hard enough. I have learned that I am stronger than I thought I was I have learned that when I fall I am the one who has ultimately pick myself up, no one will do that for me. I have learned that nothing comes over night, life is hard and life is a battle. It is how you make  it and if you stop trying you will end up stuck in one place.

My life is still not how I want it to be and I am aware that nothing happens over night. Day by day I try to explore all my opportunities and get the best of my situation that I can. I have never stopped working on making day to day better and I try to enjoy every day as much as I can. All good things take time, nothing comes overnight.

Some may wonder why did I do all this? Why did I willingly go trough all this trouble to do something ‘beneath me and my qualifications’? Just to clear one thing out. my family is not poor, we are financially stable and every one us in family have university education, even all my cousins and aunts and uncles.

I do not have a job I have education and qualifications for, far from it, but I don’t mind it. The thing is  I didn’t want to be like any of cousins who all live inside their boxes, with secure jobs in family business not even trying to change anything in their life.

I want to be able to say one day that I built my own life and future with my own effort and hard work. Being handed to something does not appeal me. What is there to be proud of? Their future is all set, no place for new opportunities as they don’t even try to find something else or step out of their comfort zone.

I may not be working in office or my dream job or have my career (yet) but I will know that everything I have and everything I have experienced it because I worked for it, I was not given anything and there is where I believe fullness comes.

If you have the chance to travel use it, that is the way you can see how much more there is to life and world, how many opportunities wait for you to take them.

Step outside of the box - how will you know what are you capable of if you don’t risk?

Travel and explore.

[innaandtheunicorn]

this place is definitely on my bucket list!

Neuschwanstein Castle - Germany (by Tom Davidson) 

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End of an era ★

     We all can agree this year was not the best out there; many bad things happened and also so much good things happened, and in the end it is what we made of it! Today is the last day of this year (at least in this time zone :P ) and today I just want to wish all of you happy new year and all the best; may you all celebrate it in great mood surrounded with your loved ones!

[innaandtheunicorn]

how can I not reblog a unicorn?

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So, here you are too foreign for home too foreign for here. Never enough for both.

Ijeoma Umebinyuo, “Questions for Ada” (via wordsnquotes)

living abroad be like...

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feeling bad is ok

hello again!

    today was one of those days where everything goes down from the moment you wake up. to be honest, in my life that is common occurrence, surprisingly there are days particularly terrible. had some stuff to do in town (all went bad FYI) and as soon as I got home I just sat on my bed and balled my eyes out and after that it still got worse.

       that was not the point of this post. I felt terrible (still do, wrote a huge post about it but ended up deleting it), and I have been feeling like that for quite some time, like nothing is going right in my life, for one step forward there are ten back. seeing other people having it all easy makes it even worse to the point I might dabbing into depression. being contradictional as I usually am, I've came to the conclusion feeling bad is OK. 

not in the way you should just let it take over you, give up on everything or do anything bad, just you have to realize feeling bad and hopeless is normal. Everyone goes trough rough patch in their life, the difference is just how you handle it. Funny thing is that even tho sometimes I don’t believe in my own words but something in me keeps clinging on that thought. Some people don’t show it at all, on the other hand some people sadly give in and that’s NOT the way! Yes I know, it is not easy, giving up sounds like the easiest way to deal with everything, that doesn’t mean you should do it. You need to find something that keeps you at bay, something that keeps you occupied and makes everything bit easier, and step by step, day by day it may bring something amazing your way!

      for example for me it is writing. probably no one will ever read it, but just putting it all down, even on virtual ‘paper’ makes it all bit better. (hence why I wrote huge blog post and deleted it -_-)

      I am not a believer, but I do believe we all have something ‘destined’ for us. After several near death experiences from the day I was born, including last months health state, made me come to that conclusion. Otherwise I’d be long dead. There is a reason for tough times and by giving up you will never find it out.

      This post probably has ‘no head or tail’ but hopefully helps some of you just in a little bit. I want to make this safe place for everyone; happy place even we all sometimes feel bad.

I don’t know how to wrap this up so I’ll just say keep holding on and bye :)

[innaandtheunicorn]

hello from me!

      hello people of tumblr! 

tumblrarians... or however are you called. I won’t tel you my real name (it’s long and awfully misspelled) so you will know me by my nickname which is inna.

this is my first time using tumblr (was living under that rock over there, yeah) so please bare with me as I learn along the way. Atm it’s getting really late, need to sleep, so this will be it for my first post.

if you like reading about someone elses bad luck - you’ve came to the right place! grab some snacks and enjoy other peoples pain, sick ba*tards. :D