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“Close your eyes and imagine the best version of you possible. That’s who you really are, let go of any part of you that doesn’t believe it.”

— C. Assaad

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09.23.20

Hello, Ma! :) Happy Happy birthday! It is sad that we’re not able to see each other this day. I hope this pandemic ends soon because clearly, we’ve been apart for months now. I miss you and inay a lot. I hope to celebrate Christmas and New Year with you there. Sorry I wasn’t able to graduate on time. Sorry for the high tuition fee. Sorry for all the disappointments. I’m thankful for having you always by my side. I’m grateful for everything that you do for me. I’m thankful for the things I have now because of you, because of your efforts and sacrifices. Thank you for letting me enter into a relationship. My boyfriend came from a loving, and welcoming family so you don’t need to worry. He’s a good man. He treats his mother in his high regard so I know he’ll do the same to you. He is independent, responsible and mature enough to handle things. I hope one day we get to give you cute, hyper and smart babies so you’ll be reminded of what I was like when I was still a baby. I hope when I get to be successful enough, you’ll be by my side and also inay. One of my goals in life is to make you both happy. I want us to travel, to shop, and to explore new restaurants. :) One or two years from now, I’ll be able to help you pay our bills and if my salary is more than enough, I’ll be able to give you allowance too. Hold on a bit more, ma. Thank you so much for keeping up with me, and for coping up with life. I love you more than my life. Ps. This is a late post greeting for my mom... Because of our heavy workloads in school, I wasn't able to post and buy gifts for my mom so whenever I get the chance to go to the mall, I might buy gifts (for her birthday and for Christmas haha)

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“I seem to have loved you in numberless forms, numberless times, in life after life, in age after age forever.” ― Rabindranath Tagore

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Please, I want so badly for the good things to happen.

— Sylvia Plath

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Everyone says love hurts, but that is not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt.

— Meša Selimović

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I'm currently having a problem with my weebly account so I might change some things for a bit.

:))

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So uhm. My site was accidentally deleted :/ but I still used the same subdomain name -> issawrites.weebly.com

I also own sabby-blogs.weebly.com

FOR A BETTER VIEW OF MY WEEBLY ACCOUNT, use laptop or pc. Sorry guys. I don't know why the format of my layout keeps on changing. It's kinda frustrating.

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Also, I might not publish my "issawrites" and "sabby-blogs" site anymore :) not until I feel like doing so

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Hi guys! I changed my subdomain name on weebly.

Check it out now. ;)

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For a better view on my weebly account, use laptop or pc 😅

Enjoy!

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DATI

Nasaan na yung dating tayo?

Yung dating saya

Yung dating kilig

Yung dating mga ngiti

Yung dating mga tawa

Yung dating mga kwentuhan

Yung dating mga tinginan

Wala na ba talaga?

Nagbago ba tayo?

Nagbago ka ba?

Nagbago ba ako?

O nasanay lang tayo?

July 31, 2020

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When I am dreaming, millions of stars are spelling out your name. When you're in my dreams, you make the outer worries of my life disappear. ​//June 7, 2020//

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I have always wanted to see cherry blossom trees. ​I have always wondered how it would feel like under it, with my loved ones. Would it make me feel fresh? Lol. Just kidding! ​//June 5, 2020//

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Do you have any other blog accounts?

Hi. Yes, I do have other blog accounts. You can check my weebly account - issawrites.weebly.com if you have time. :)

I also have a Wordpress account, but sadly, I forgot my log in details 😅.

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Sino love mo?

Hi. How are you? 

Secret :>

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3/3

Hi.

Alam kong matagal ng tapos yung pagkakaibigan natin. Pero ni isang reklamo hindi ka nakarinig sakin hindi ba?

Alam kong hindi ako perpektong kaibigan.

Alam kong nasaktan kita sa nalaman mo.

Pero sino bang mas nasaktan sa'tin? Ah. Hindi na pala yan mahalaga.

Pero gusto kong malaman mo, hindi ko sasabihin yung mga nabanggit ko sa pinsan ko, kung wala akong ibang naramdaman.

Alam kong mali na hindi ko sinabi sayo 'yun. Mas gusto ko kasi sanang sabihin sayo sa personal. Kasi alam kong nababasa mo ako, mas kilala mo ako.

Ako yung kaibigan mo pero hindi ko na nararamdaman na andyan ka. Ah, mas masaya bang kasama yung tropa nila? Sana sinabihan mo ako para hindi ako umasa.

Ako yung kaibigan mo, pero hindi mo ako pinaniwalaan. Akala ko kasi sabi mo, kilala mo ako, mahalaga ako sayo.

Anong nangyari? Lumayo ka. Ni hindi ko alam kung bakit? Nung naramdaman ko na, dun mo lang ako kinausap dahil sa sinabi ng pinsan ko.

Anong ginawa ko? Kahit nasaktan ako, kahit miss na miss ko na yung tayong dalawa lang lagi yung magkasama, pinilit ko pa rin sumama sayo kahit kasama mo na rin sila. Alam kong alam mo na ayoko sa kanila, pero para sayo pinilit ko, kahit nagmumukha na akong tanga, kahit out of place na ako.

Masakit 'yun.

Intramurals first day. Nasaan ako? Nasa loob lang ng classroom, na dapat nanunuod sa stage. Alam mo bang napagalitan ako kasi nasa room lang ako? Hindi diba? Muntik ng ipatawag parents namin, ng mga naabutan na nasa room lang. Buti na lang pinagsulat lang kami.

Intramurals second day. Nasaan ako? Naghanap ng pwedeng tambayan na hindi makikita ng iba. Nasa library ako. Buti bukas yung library, buti pinayagan ako na tumambay dun. Nakiusap ako sa librarian. Hindi ko alam, naawa siguro sa itsura ko. Nakaka-disappoint lang. Nasa isang sulok lang ako, hindi ako umupo sa upuan, sa sahig ako umupo, kumuha ng libro, habang umiiyak mag-isa. Alam kong nakita ako ng librarian na umiiyak. Naalala ko sinara na niya yung library kahit andun pa ako, iniwan ako para kumain, na tumambay na lang daw muna ako. Nakita nga pala ako ng isa nating kaklase, kahit siya nakita yung itsura ko. Nakakainis lang.

After ng intrams hindi na ako masyadong nagpaparamdam. Pumapasok na lang ako kapag may quiz, kailangang gawin sa school.

Pinilit ko, tiniis ko, ma-save lang yung friendship natin. Kaso, kahit anong gawin ko, wala talaga.

Sige, sabi ko, tatapusin ko na lang yung term. Tutal ga-graduate naman na tayo. Sulitin ko na lang na mag-enjoy pa akong makasama kita.

Naalala mo nung nagpapasukat na para sa mga toga? Sinamahan kita 'diba? Alam kong kahit nababasa mo 'ko, pinilit kong hindi iparamdam sayo na hindi ako aattend, na hindi ako masaya.

Ano bang sabi ko sayo? Ah. Na si mama na yung bahala sa toga ko kasi may kilala si mama kung saan magre-rent.

Ah si mama? Ayun busy nga pala. Hindi ko siya sinabihan sa mga requirements. Ako na yung gumawa, hindi ko siya sinabihan sa paghahanap ng toga. Para saan pa ba? Hindi rin naman ako aattend. Hindi rin naman siya gaganahang umattend kasi wala ako sa top. Sino rin bang gaganahang umupo ng matagal sa ceremony kung nasa dulo ako ng pila dahil sa surname ko.

Practice ng graduation, last days sa school hindi na ako pumasok. Hindi ako nagparamdam sayo, sa inyo.

Ah yung teacher nga pala natin sa algeb, dahil lang sa hindi ako umattend ng grad practice, anong ginawa niya? Sobrang binabaan niya yung grade ko. Hindi ko alam na kailangan din pala mag solve sa practice. Hindi ako na-inform. Napagod ako, na-drain ako. Dahil dyan, hindi ko nagawang ilaban yung grade ko. Para saan pa ba? Pasado pa rin naman kahit ang unfair.

Graduation day. Anong oras na ba, nakahiga pa rin ako. Ah. Ayun. Puro tawag ka nung araw na yun.

Ano nga ba ulit 'yun. Ah. Sinadya ko pala talagang hindi umattend. Hindi ko kayang makipag plastikan. Hindi ko kayang ngumiti. Hindi ko kayang maging okay.

Ano nga bang sabi ko sayo nun? Ah busy si mama hindi makakapunta kaya hindi ako makakaattend.

Hindi ko kayang umattend ng grad kasi hindi mag sink in sakin na mas ginusto mong kasama yung mga taong ayoko. Hindi mag sink in sakin na nung nag post yung isa kong pinsan na nag review center ako pero hindi ako pumasa, sinuportahan mo.

Don't worry. Hinding hindi mo ako makikita sa reunion ng batch natin. Yes, friends tayo sa facebook, pero hanggang dun na lang yun. The moment na umalis ako sa group chat natin, pinutol ko na lahat ng pwedeng maging connection ko sa inyo.

May isang salita naman ako.

Ikaw lang yung meron ako. Pero wala talaga.

Ang sakit ng ipinaramdam mo sakin sobra.

I hope you're doing well.

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This is how I am going to remember you:

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