itachi6756

[itachi6756]

Oh my beloved,

Put a stone on my heart, so I wouldn’t breathe.

[itachi6756]

Dear Mother,

They got me

just with her name.

Someone said it, and boom—

my heart jumped like it remembered

something I’ve been trying to forget.

Something I buried.

And it hurt. All over again.

I thought I was stronger,

untouched by her memory.

But I was wrong.

So wrong.

Because just hearing her name

A soft echo of it,

and my heart rose

from the grave I buried it in,

only to die again

in her absence.

Mother, how do I lie to you

How do I tell you I’ve moved on,

when I die a little

every time I see her

laugh at someone else’s joke ?

How do I pretend

I don’t love her anymore

when every part of me

still aches for her ?

I say I don’t like her eyes anymore—

but I’d give anything

just to look into them once more.

I say I don’t miss her voice—

but I still remember

exactly how she said my name.

I act like I’ve let her go,

but I still look for her..

in every crowd,

every quiet room,

every unwritten line,

Everywhere.

Mother, I’ve tried.

I’ve tried to silence

this stubborn heart.

But it keeps writing her name

Oh, mother,

why doesn’t he understand

that the one you ache for

doesn’t ache for you?

That the one you’d never leave

walked away

without a second glance ?

Still, he waits.

Still, he loves.

Still, he hopes—

And I’m scared, Mom.

Scared that he always will.

Love,

Your heartbroken son

(Loving a dream that wouldn't return)

[itachi6756]

Even the stars must envy your beauty.

[itachi6756]

It’s 2 AM, and I wonder—

Do I even exist?

Am I just a myth, a fading thought,

Or something you created in your mind?

I exist, but only within these walls.

My creator told me never to break them.

They are here to cage me,

To protect me from myself.

But am I that dangerous?

If I am, then why do I even exist?

Why not let me meet my fate?

"You are not real," my creator said.

Then what am I? A dream? A delusion?

I want to know what’s outside.

I want to feel the wind, see the sky.

I want to love, to live—

But the walls won’t let me.

Am I a monster? A devil?

Or just a mistake?

I grew up watching these walls,

Year after year, they never faded.

They only grew stronger.

Then one day, they were gone.

I was free.

But I didn’t know how to run.

I didn’t know how to love.

Dear reader, tell me—

Did you create me?

Or am I you?

Or are you me?

The walls were my fate,

Always there, just changing shape.

And this time, they were your face, my beloved—

The love that caged me till my end.

~itachi6756

[itachi6756]

Curse me so that I may never remember you.

~itachi6756

[itachi6756]

In search of just one happiness—

You, my beloved—

How much sorrow tormented me,

While I wandered the ruins of my longing.

I looked at you—

I would die for you,

I would kill for you,

Either way, what bliss.

Yet, consider how cursed I was,

That I even did what I ought not to have done

I walked a path with no end,

No matter what I did,

I gained nothing.

I never found you.

In the search of you, my love,

Sorrow wrapped its hands around my throat,

Drowning me in the depths of what could never be.

Where have I reached?

What have I become?

When I looked back, just for a moment,

I was ashamed to look.

Whatever didn’t kill me,

Turned me into this.

I hate myself with every—

fiber of my being.

Ohh my beloved,

May you be my last thought

Before emptiness swallows me whole.

~itachi6756

[itachi6756]

My sleepless nights dream of your home.

~itachi6756

[itachi6756]

Why does your memory leave me wrecked and ruined ?

~itachi6756

[itachi6756]

Let me confess this secret—I’m helpless before you.

~itachi6756

[itachi6756]

I can't stop wondering—

why aren't you here anymore,

when just moments ago, you were?

What changed?

Did I?

Did you?

Or was love never enough to keep you?

When people ask about you,

what excuse am I supposed to give?

How do I explain a loss

I don’t understand?

I was never good at hiding my emotions,

never good at swallowing tears.

And now, they spill,

uninvited, unstoppable.

Before you go—

before you disappear into a world without me—

teach me how to exist in yours.

Show me how to breathe without you,

how to wake up to the emptiness,

how to silence your name in my throat.

Teach me how to lose you,

and then—

I’ll let you go.

~itachi6756

[itachi6756]

Her beauty, untouchable, like stars in the sky.

[itachi6756]

I am at the point in my life,

Where the stars seem dim,

Where the days pass like whispers,

And I don’t know why I exist.

Why should I live?

For whom do I breathe?

When the weight of loneliness

Wraps itself around my ribs.

I only wanted to be her friend,

Nothing more, nothing less—

Yet she knows my heart’s secret,

And now I am a stranger to her steps.

I tell myself, every day,

I won’t look at her in college halls,

Yet my eyes betray my will,

Finding her in the crowd, once more.

I just want to move on,

To leave this ache behind,

But she lingers in my thoughts,

Like a song I can’t rewind.

And so I drift, lost in silence,

A soul without a place,

Loving a dream that won’t return,

Trapped in memories I can’t erase.

~itachi6756

[itachi6756]

I will not belong to anyone else, nor will I let you belong to someone else.

[itachi6756]

When I won't exist in the world,

Tell me, whom will you destroy?

Whose love will you trample beneath your feet,

When there's no heart left to break?

One day, someone will shatter you,

Leave you aching in the dark.

Then, in that silence, you'll remember—

The love that once held you safe.

You'll recall the touch of a virtuous heart,

And sleep will flee from your restless eyes.

Regret will whisper my name at midnight,

But the echoes will find me gone.

You smile today, standing over my ruins,

But faithfulness never dies so soon.

One day, when love turns its back on you,

You'll remember me—and the tears will burn.

~itachi6756

[itachi6756]

Perhaps my love was never true,

For I still breathed when you were gone.

But now I’ll prove my love to you,

In death, where I have always belonged.

If I should go, will you be there,

Among the mourners, draped in black?

Don’t turn away—just shed a tear,

For all the love I’ll never get back.

~itachi6756

[itachi6756]

Remembering you again and again, I have become a love-sick person.

~itachi6756

[itachi6756]

If you search for a reason better than mine,

you won’t find a love like mine in anyone.

~itachi6756