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so many switches today - probs because we have a major trauma anniversary coming up next week and just hoping no one who remembers it will be out

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grown-ups want more tattoos, littles want more tattoos (they're like stickers that last forever), everyone wants more tattoos so that sounds like a win-win

time for more tattoos

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we just absolutely kicked ASS in therapy today like genuinely pushing ourselves was really worth it this time and now I'm super proud of those who went today and stepped up

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Hey, shout out to systems with "frustrating" or "socially bad" traits.

systems who seem indecisive, "hot and cold", disloyal, dishonest, etc. to others due to subtle switches, passive influence, being median, amnesia barriers, etc. between headmates with very different opinions, wants, and moods

systems who have headmates with "scary" attributes/symptoms, like hallucinations, delusions, anger issues, hypersexuality, low/no empathy, selfishness, need for attention, etc. especially those afraid they're perpetuating the "evil alter" stereotype

systems who never know who's fronting. especially those with memory barriers, those who struggle with feeling any sense(s) of personhood, and/or those who struggle to keep close bonds with people due to this

systems who struggle with meltdowns, tantrums, outbursts, pathological demand avoidance, poor sense of social norms, and other tendencies/issues that make being social or just existing in public difficult

systems with fluctuating sexualities and/or triggers that make it difficult to remain with a partner/partners (or to date in the first place)

systems who infight in-system and have trouble making decisions without intense internal backlash

systems who have trouble keeping self care (and may go out of the house dirty/disheveled) due to other mental illness or due to frequent fronters being unmotivated, forgetful, or having sensory issues or triggers that interfere with self care tasks

systems whose "self defense" relies on people pleasing, avoiding stressors, getting overly defensive, or getting angrier than "reasonable"

You are loved, you are appreciated, you deserve to be a part of society, you deserve to be happy, you deserve to be understood and given patience... you deserve to be able to create, love, heal, be respected, be treated like your own age, to lead, to have a voice, to feel safe.

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the littles are once again requesting ice cream

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I love playing therapist it gives me attention and validation and praise without having to hurt people like I usually feel like I have to.

I'm trying to heal look at me go! I'm learning that you dont have to hurt or manipulate to get what you need.

--onyx

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I feel like people are too sensitive around any form of fake claiming. I’m not saying that fake claiming is good and that people should listen to everyone who tells you your faking but hear some people out depending on what they’re saying.

If someone’s coming at you with “You’re not a real system. You’re faking it for attention.” Don’t listen to them. Their goal is to hurt you, and they don’t really care about helping people with OSDDID.

If someone is saying “Hey, based on the way you’ve explained your symptoms, I don’t believe that OSDDID is the proper diagnosis for you.” Or “Hey instead of OSDDID, I think your symptoms match better with X. Have you checked that out before?” Hear them out. They’re trying to help you find a diagnosis that would better help you, in the case that OSDDID isn’t right.

There is so much misinformation on the internet that it can become confusing to try and tell which symptoms are actual OSDDID symptoms, and which are symptoms people online claim are OSDDDID solely based on their personal experiences. It is also hard to objectively record your own symptoms.

I’m not saying immediately take their word for it, and completely drop the idea of OSDDID, but listen and see if maybe they have a point and if looking into what they suggested could benefit you.

I feel like any time someone’s system hood is challenged they get defensive. I’m all for the idea of self diagnosis, but if we refuse to adapt that self diagnosis as new evidence arrives, we limit ourselves to the diagnosis we’ve given and lose out on information that could be beneficial to you.

As an example. If someone came up to me like “Hey. I don’t think you have DID. With the way you’ve described your symptoms I think BPD is a better diagnosis for you.” I’ll look into BPD and maybe it does fit my symptoms and I realize I don’t have DID, or I realize I have both DID and BPD. Or it doesn’t fit my symptoms and I stick with my DID diagnosis.

I guess the better way to explain this, if someone fake claims your system, in a way that shows they’re genuinely trying to help you, hear them out. Take what they say with a grain of salt, and do more research. If I was misdiagnosis my symptoms, I’d want someone to tell me because how am I supposed to better myself and my life if I’m trying to adapt my life to the wrong diagnosis?

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I’m proud of you

I’m proud of you for waking up today.

I’m proud of you for breathing today.

I’m proud of you for moving today.

I’m proud of you because look how far you’ve come? Take a moment to take that in. You’ve come so far and over came so so much, and I’m so proud of you and I’m sure the people close to you are too.

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i dont like people calling insys romantic relationships "self love"

the two fictives making out behind me in headspace are not the same person man. sorry.

yeah,, sometimes we do it to ourselves as a joke but we don't like when other people do it to us, especially without asking. Like we're very different people, do not assume we're the same person

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Tho other alters can be bad for it... But our littles have sass that is hard to argue with - plus insistent noise

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[Text: This system little has a baby voice.]

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plurality is not defined by switching.

plurality is not defined by headcount.

plurality is not defined by an inner world.

plurality is not defined by distinct headmates.

plurality is not defined by communication.

plurality is not defined by getting along internally.

plurality is defined by multiple consciousnesses/identities in one body ((because of trauma)). if you say you’re plural, we and many, many others will always believe you. no two plurals are the same, and no one can tell you what you are or aren’t 💕💕

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being a system is so funny like. oh something really shitty happened. well time to not know who i am for like a week lol!!!!!!

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Hey you, go get something to eat and drink if you can <3 its important and you deserve it -Fae

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somedays its okay. we get to feel the small joys and wonders of life over and over again, experiencing different tastes and styles. and maybe we will all be okay. we will be okay

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Why do I always need to give reasons as to why I'm unwell?

Isn't struggling with depression, anxiety, c-ptsd, did, autism and multiple chronic illnesses enough?

Man, I'm just not feeling good, it's to be expected at this point. I don't want to have to explain everything in details like I'm in therapy. I don't owe anybody that labour just so that they can sympathize with me.

Allow me to be a bit grumpy and anti-social as long as I'm not actively being a dick.