jules-diary - Tumblr blog

[jules-diary]

ive never looked at an animated movie and go “i wish this was live action” but i have looked at a live action movie and went “i wish this was animated” countless times

[jules-diary]

{ II }

Now the ghost whispers

Did I ever love you?

Did I ever really truly love you?

The answer to that is no

Perhaps that is why

I followed you

Watched you

Everywhere

I hated the thought of you and them

Wanted nobody but you and me

Perhaps that is why

I spent countless sleepless nights

Devising plots to catch your attention

Games try to capture your feelings

Yes

That is why you look at me

With such fearful eyes

{ I }

People tell me I am a child

After all -

who else tries so desperately

To catch someone's attention

Someone whose eyes are filled with others' love?

I can't help it -

Just a glance alone from him keeps my heart alive

Revives me every morning

Yet as always

a ghost remains

That whispers -

How could you do this

How could you fall in love with him

With not a breath of a word exchanged between you?

//J.K.

[jules-diary]

I don't even understand what I don't understand about this world.

[jules-diary]

flowertreesunrisesunset

I am compulsion with a

Camera clicking moments

Hoard the treasure, someday

Pictures will be all that's left

Keep comfort close, creature

You know the way your heart

Cracks open, spilling sadness

The sea leaks from your eyes

You are a million leagues below

Remembering how

To drown

[jules-diary]

& I am doing dishes

Taking showers, hanging

Fairy lights with shaky hands

I hold my harried heart so soft

There is a me that never learned

The way the way out of the

Shadows, I hold her hand—

I let her hold the flashlight

We learn the beauty etched

Inside the bones of survival

We settle in like hyacinths

Waiting for the sun

[jules-diary]

Please interact with this post if you want to be tagged by me in writeblr tag games!

A like, reply, or reblog means it's okay for me to tag you! If your writeblr is a side blog, you can reblog it there or leave your url in the replies

[jules-diary]

{ I }

People tell me I am a child

After all -

who else tries so desperately

To catch someone's attention

Someone whose eyes are filled with others' love?

I can't help it -

Just a glance alone from him keeps my heart alive

Revives me every morning

Yet as always

a ghost remains

That whispers -

How could you do this

How could you fall in love with him

With not a breath of a word exchanged between you?

//J.K.

[jules-diary]

Still in Love

"I love you so. But our love story must end, you know. I'm going to chase my dreams afar, and I hope you'll love me from afar."

❁ ≖≖✿❁ ≖≖ ❁

I never thought I'd say goodbye

To the love of my life, to the one who made me fly

I remember the first time I saw you

Your smile was like the sun

You lit up my world

And my heart began to run

We were the perfect pair

Love burned bright like a morning flare

But life had plans, our dreams were different

And so our paths diverged

We parted ways with hearts that ached and surged

How could we let our dreams take wing?

I'm still in love

I can't deny

But time has passed, and I've grown wiser

I've chased my dreams, I've reached for stars

I've become a doctor, you've started your own business

We've both achieved our dreams

We've both found our niches

But through it all, in my heart, you're always there

I know I've changed

But so have you

And I'm wondering, what's meant to be true?

We tried to ignore our differences

But they eventually came to a head

I couldn't give up on my dreams

And you couldn't leave your home

Our paths did stray

And my heart was lost that day

I thought we'd be together

But life had other plans

And now I'm left with a shattered heart

I still miss you so

But I know that we had to let go

We've both grown and matured

We've learned from our past

And now I wish we could forever last

I know that we were young

And still learning to love

But I can never forget you

You were my first true love

I've learned to compromise, to give and take

To put my dreams on hold

For love's sweet sake

I know that we're not the same as before

But I believe in us, I believe in more

And now I'm ready to give our love another chance

I know that we'll face challenges along the way

But together, we can overcome them, come what may

We're stronger now, more wise, more in love

And I know that this time, our love will be enough

Baby, I love you more than words can say

And I hope that you'll give me another chance, come what may

I'm ready to love you like I never knew

I believe in us

Side by side

-ˋˏ ༻❁༺ ˎˊ-

[jules-diary]

I had a dream

about him last night

Stars

connected

formed his image

Although,

I could not

see his eyes

[jules-diary]

“Seasons Changed”

Seasons changed and our love went cold, Once ablaze with passion, now grown old. Like winter's frost, it slowly seeped inside, The warmth we shared, now nowhere to reside.

Once vibrant, like the blossoms of spring, Our love, like petals, began to wither and cling To memories of laughter, shared dreams, Now drowned in tears of sorrow, it seems.

The summer sun that warmed our embrace, Now hides behind clouds, a distant place. In the beginning, we were like the sun, Radiant and bright, two souls entwined as one. Like autumn leaves, our passion slowly fell, Once vibrant hues turned faded, dull and gray, The love we shared, a distant, empty shell, Lost in the winds of time, it slipped away. Winter's frost embraced our once warm embrace, No longer did our hearts beat in rhythm, The love we had, a memory to chase, A silent ache, a yearning deep within.

Oh, how swiftly seasons can transform, Leaving behind a love that couldn't weather the storm.

But time, like a thief, stole our fiery glow, Leaving us with ashes, love's embers low.

[jules-diary]

I think I fell

overboard one day

and into this life

Perhaps

through a timeslip

somehow

You know I've never

really felt belonging

I've always felt odd-

out

The kind of misshapen

existence

that's all of the world

of feeling

If my life was a book

It was wearing the wrong

jacket right from

the very start

[jules-diary]

I.

Once upon a time we were girls.

Trekking through the long ferns in

flip flops, wild blueberries

held precious in dirt stained palms.

Orphans, witches, sisters, we became

any name but our own. Traveling

paths mapped from our souls, all

scratched legs and soft hearts. The trees

were friends, happily returning each scream

of joy and sorrow until the sun sank low.

Dinner bells rang and tiny shadows emerged,

plucking flowers from braids and washing

wild down the drain. Glances and sly smiles,

imagining what stories we might carve

among the oaks tomorrow.

-(a.e.) // once upon a time we were girls

[jules-diary]

The cold October rain beckons me and my fiery heart.

Come, my sweet girl. You have had your time in the sun. Let me cool the heat he left behind. Let me cleanse the scorches from within. I will slow the pace of love for you. Stop, if you’d like. Harden under my touch, once again. Give your chest room to breathe. I am here. I am waiting. Howling for you in the wind.

I know I must answer soon. I know it is the only call I will receive.

-(a.e.) // October

[jules-diary]

[jules-diary]

Love when poets are like: I don't care about anything or anyone. Then why do you write about everything and everyone? Idiot!

[jules-diary]

Wine, roses and glass

Something’s rotten in my mind I could never love these hands, this smile So I summoned ghosts to help me out I let them crush and burn this house. Now there’s an image that haunts A reflection I cannot see A shattered mirror on the floor That used to be me. From wine, roses and glass I will rebuild, repaint, retouch Sing the song I used to sing I’ll listen for a lonely echo in the dark Because that’s where I’ll always be.

~ A. A. Roman

Thank you @lexiklecksi for suggesting this concept!!

[jules-diary]

It’s finally time for me to make this post.

Since my 1st year here on Tumblr, every couple of months I find my own poetry copied word for word and signed under a different name. Those people don’t seem to shy away from interacting with my blog at the same time, which is how I usually find out.

At first I ignored them because I thought it wasn’t a big deal. I was expecting this to happen from time to time, but this year, it happened 3 or 4 times, all different people.

I can’t lie, it’s not pleasant to see your own work, often about deeply personal and sensitive topics signed under a different name, by someone who doesn’t have a clue what you’ve been through.

This happened again today!

I won’t mention the blog, it’s still active and it’s definitely ran by a real person. I just want to know why??? You’re not gaining anything from this. I know you’re not making money writing poetry because I’m not making money writing poetry. So what is the point? The ones you steal from are real people with real memories, emotions and life experiences that you’re trying to claim as your own. What you’re doing is messed up and I’m sure you’re aware.