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i really want to restart posting on this blog but i don't have the mental bandwidth lmao

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good friends, good partners and good family exist. toxic and one-sided relationships are not the norm in life and you’ll find someday that healthy love is real. healthy relationships are real. healthy friendships exist and they’re not limited to your twenties, thirties or forties. you’ll find the right people for you.

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then you cry but you also consider seeking help and seeing how you can cope with it all better!

"don't cry, you're strong."

NO. CRY. YOU'RE STILL AS STRONG.

not crying is not a good thing. emotional regulation is. and that does not always mean someone who doesn't cry or feel upset.

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You’ve heard of “don’t monetize your hobbies”; get ready for "don’t master your hobbies".

Your hobbies are here to help you decompress and have fun. They do not have to be disciplines you toil over for expertise, unless that is something you genuinely enjoy doing.

It’s okay to enjoy language-learning without ever becoming fluent, or even conversational. It’s okay to like playing guitar even if you only know a few clumsy songs. You can read books and never finish them, bowl without ever scoring even halfway to perfect. We’re here to explore and play, and we cannot do that if we’re chasing perfection in everything we do.

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what others say about you aren’t facts. they are only looking at you from the lens that they have, and lenses can be coloured.

the point is, you’ll never be perceived absolutely the same by two people. therefore, there’s no point trying to earn the “nicest person ever” medal because it doesn’t exist. there’s no point trying to convince others of your worth.

the only one who needs to believe in it is you.

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We’ve made very good progress destigmatizing depression, anxiety, and even autism. So when can we start with psychotic disorders

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Having a healthy relationship with my partner has taught me that you’re not supposed to be yelled at if you cry. In fact, it’s normal to be comforted when you cry.

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a lot of things are outside our control and that's okay. that's normal. no one controls everything.

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you don't owe politeness to anyone who makes you feel unsafe in any way

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Perma-Begging Bowl

Because let's face it, I have to do this monthly. As always, living on SSDI, I do not get enough to get me and my son throughout the month and rely on help from friends and family. Any amount, even five dollars, helps. If you can't, please pass the bowl. If you want proof of the food and medicine I'm getting msg me, I'll send screen shots and photos.

As always I have the pal of p_yment at paypal.me/Sephirajo

the app of c_sh m_ney at $Sephirajo

and ko-fi at:

I always end up needing an extra 300 to 400 a month, so please, pass the bowl and help a gal out.

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alternatives to “i want to die”:

i want things to change

i want a different life

today was a shitty day/week

i don’t want to live like this

i want to be somewhere else in life

i’m not where i want to be yet

+ much more

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reminder that you’re not behind. everyone has a completely different life. we are all taking it at our own pace. do what you can. and it’s okay if you can’t do anything right now. if it has been like this for sometime, try looking into what might be causing it for you. you’re going to be okay 🩷

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it's okay if some, or even most, things take more time for you than they do for others. no two people have the exact same lives or life trajectories. therefore, it is unfair to compare your progress to someone else's. a valid comparison is only made between two people who started on equal footing.

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for my fellow psychotics who struggle with thinking someone is in their house, a method I’ve found that really works are these guys:

i put them on my front door and anytime it opens they ring. that way if i think someone has broken in or i see someone who isn’t there i can think back to if the bells have rung, and if they haven’t i can assure myself it’s not real. obviously it’s not fool proof, like if you are prone to auditory hallucinations, but it has really helped me calm down in time to avoid major psychotic breaks. it’s a real lifesaver

nonpsychotics encouraged to rb

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You don't have to seek to eradicate "symptoms" that don't cause you distress just because they're "disordered." You're allowed to accept and embrace atypical experiences. Being "normal" doesn't have to be on your to-do list.

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every effort deserves credit

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you are technically asking them to poke and probe your head so