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Its official. I have my press pass and Lux blog t shirt. Momma ima small part of something big. Im grateful for the growth and the connections im making. Im grateful for the people im coming in contact with (at Aloft Durham Downtown)

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#dearimaginarylover #therapy #forthegrowth #forthejourney (at Durham County, North Carolina)

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#dearimaginarylover Yesterday I spent the day #lost and #afraid. I was #angry with my situation, myself, for *allowing* my #weaknesses to put myself in a position of #hardship. I struggled, I cried and collected myself. This morning/afternoon I find myself in #transition again. Renewed through this process of #breaking. In all honestly I know that #iamnotokay however, I #believe I will be. I believe as long as I continue to believe that I can #reach for that #truth. I can #soar beyond it. In this #moment Im #grateful for the #support I recieve(d), for the people who are #pillars in my life so that I can be #stronger one in the lives others. The goal is to be a #positive #motivating #force in my #life, my #families life and all those #connected even if its only in some small way. I believe in the "small" things (for they are NOT #insignificant). Step by step. Day by day (at Durham station)

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https://www.eventbrite.com/e/the-meet-up-the-art-of-cool-edition-tickets-33820352585 The Lux Blog and Let's Be Dope Together Presents The Meet-Up Singles Mixer: The Art of Cool Edition! You are cordially invited to this exclusive private event for professional singles in the Raleigh-Durham area. Located at the illustrious Aloft Downtown Durham WXYZ Lounge we will have signature specials just for you! So what can you expect? Music will be powered by DJ Rem.e so you know the mood will be set for a neo-soul vibe! Great giveaways are coming your way! We have local homegrown sponsors like the Durham Beard Supply Co. that will have amazing samples for you to enjoy. Angel Dozier of "Let's Be Dope Together" will facilitate an array of creative conversation starters to tickle everyone's fancy! (at Durham County, North Carolina)

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Your #WHY has to be #strong enough...to #wake you up. To keep you #up. To get you up. #dearimaginarylover So I missed my bus this morning. Thankfully I was able to catch a ride close to my exit. Hoofing it the rest of the way. I havent been to sleep yet. Just can't. Didnt really put much effort into it (since we're being #honest) I decided to be #constructive instead. Started #writing and jotting down #thoughts, #ideas, ect... The days journey is just begining. I hope this finds you well (rested) #stayencouraged #forthegrowth #forthejourney (at Raleigh Convention Center)

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#dearimaginarylover If you dont like where you are right now, you owe it to yourself to #create the #change in your #life. Ive made many #mistakes over the past few years. #Doubting myself. #Afraid. Allowing myself to be written myself off. Denying myself access to #happiness and #opportunity. Accepting and wallowing in my situation (not acknowleging I have the power to better it and who I am.) One of said "mistakes" cost me my main source of #transportation. I spent months inside not wanting to leave after. Sometimes because I was #ashamed, other times because out in the "world" my senses would get so #overwhelmed. There have been times my #pride just wouldnt allow it. I found all i can do is #shutdown to #keepmoving. Ive been utilizing uber/lyft and learning how to #navigate public #transportation so i can still operate and get to my appointments and potiental clients and venues. . . What im trying to say is: DO WHATEVER YOU HAVE TO DO IN ORDER TO GET WHERE YOU NEED TO BE. (at Durham, NC - Where Great Things Happen)

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#dearimaginarylover While Im in #transition to my next #adventure. I have to remind myself that I am #great. I am deserving. That there is #more in store for me, there's more inside of me that even I am not #aware of at times but, I must #continue working and #growing through my #lows. In my opinon everything is temporary (good bad or indifferent). To be considered either #lessons or #blessings. I urge you to #rise above whatever #situation you are growing through. #stayencouraged #PsILoveYou #forthegrowth #forthejourney #lesbrown #selfmotivation #treatyourself (at Durham County, North Carolina)

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#confession I #suffered for a long #time #alone. Pushed away #friends and family because I couldnt bare to have them watch me #shatter and #break. I couldnt stay away. Though Ive been #miserable and dwelling in my #woes. There have been those whom I noticed found the #strength to #continue moving #foward. I experinced a form of #life after a sort of #death. Through moments of #song and #dance. I silently screamed to be moved. Eventually I found myself. Immortalizing these moments. Looking back now remembering that "I was there!" Or found myself thinking at some point how alive I truly was. Reguardless of which I still found myself. #Breathing, #dancing off-beat, #fighting my #anxieties...to stay #alive. #dearimaginarylover Where ever you are, whatever #reason keeps you sane in this #maddness (even if its not me) what ever #purpose you find yourself pursuing know this... first off, I believe in you. Second you carry inside of #amazing and #unique gifts and abilities. Thirdly (?) Like I had to learn you are #worthy and capable of acommplishing and acheiving great things. #PsILoveYou #forthegrowth #forthejourney #stayencouraged #staymotivated #Beinspired (at North Carolina)

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#dearimaginarylover #confession Some #time has #past. Im not sure how much. For me it's been a blur. I was once referred to as a #spirit. The way I move through crowds. How I would #wander from place to place. #Silently. Seemingly without purpose. #Detached. I laughed then, to hide how that truth stung me. I had thought, at one point, my #life was over. Started allowing myself to waste away. #Bitter and #resentful. There was a #time when I couldnt move. There would days, months, where I barely managed to #rise to my feet. I wouldve been #content spending my time #buried into my matteress. I found ways to say #goodbye without cause for concern (sometimes) Somehow I kept moving. #Found myself in places. In fragments of #moments where I felt #alive. Though #distant, I watched from what felt like my #grave. I saw how they sung, #danced, recited #poetry...#created life. At the time I didnt think I could. I was always unassuming and #afraid, I grew to be observant. Though I was quaking to my core I couldnt look away. Often times I found myself being pulled in to the rythm of the "living". . . (To be continued) #forthejourney #forthegrowth #phototherapy #stayencouraged #selfreflection #selflove (at Durham, North Carolina)

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#dearimaginarylover Ive been #breaking for some #time now, but it WILL be #worth it. . .'cause I know that I am. I want you to know you are to but, YOU have to #believe it. Im #tired. Im #frustated. Im #hurting. I am also #learning that I can #endure. Anything. I see now I'm becoming something #different. #Better. #More. I don't know what that is yet, but I do know #now what I want it to be. #ME. #Unrestrained. #Unrestricted. #Free. Im tired of holding myself back. Im tired of pulling myself down. Listen, #Love, Im walking in the #understanding that #lifehappens. Its not always going to be #beautiful, things won't always go your way. People will betray you, you will betray you. Sometimes you will fall. #Shatter unevenly. I urge you to give yourself #permission to #break. Then allow yourself to come #together as one. #Whole. Begin #Anew. #forthejourney #forthegrowth #PsILoveYou @ Southwest Raleigh, Raleigh, North Carolina (at Southwest Raleigh, Raleigh, North Carolina)

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#dearimaginarylover Ive been #breaking for some #time now, but it WILL be #worth it. . .'cause I know that I am. I want you to know you are to but, YOU have to #believe it. Im #tired. Im #frustated. Im #hurting. I am also #learning that I can #endure. Anything. I see now I'm becoming something #different. #Better. #More. I don't know what that is yet, but I do know #now what I want it to be. #ME. #Unrestrained. #Unrestricted. #Free. Im tired of holding myself back. Im tired of pulling myself down. Listen, #Love, Im walking in the #understanding that #lifehappens. Its not always going to be #beautiful, things won't always go your way. People will betray you, you will betray you. Sometimes you will fall. #Shatter unevenly. I urge you to give yourself #permission to #break. Then allow yourself to come #together as one. #Whole. Begin #Anew. #forthejourney #forthegrowth #introvertsunite #introvert #PsILoveYou @ Southwest Raleigh, Raleigh, North Carolina (at Southwest Raleigh, Raleigh, North Carolina)

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#dearimaginarylover #forthegrowth #forthejourney Last night was more than I could comprehend, however I found myself in the moment. Amongst the #voices screaming in my head (how I don't belong here) I could hear the roar of the crowd. In #laughter. In #tears. Somehow breaching through walls of my #insecurities. THAT I managed to find comfort in. Watching others live. Celebrating life (in ways I #struggle to) I think, I think to damn much. I try my hardest to minimize my #presence when Im out. So I dont speak unless spoken to. I move through waves of people, not wanting to disturb their ebb and flow. Like some aquatic locomotion (or a ninja) I just know to keep moving, I can't stop, or give in to the voices trying to beat me down. I remind myself every moment of the day that I have to keep moving forward. Evem though I dont feel like it, Im alive, and that I should embraced that. (at EGO Entertainment Complex)

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#dearjournal #day? 4/30 Tonight I was a guy who walked in to a bar (haha) sat and placed my order as the world erupted in cheers. I continued #communing with #spirits. #unc had just won, I watched it happened. In #silence. Picturing #moments while sat quietly (and drank, content in the ambiance of celebration.) (at Raleigh Times Bar)

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#dearjournal #day1 I can't sleep again and I know I should be (I call myself trying to be constructive). Once again I'm shook in the wake of self-relizations. Im am more than what I think of myself. I am worth more than what I lead myself to believe at time (stop hitting yourself (insider)). I am more than enough already. I can surpass my own limitations. I am a gift to others AND MYSELF. In spite of my doubts, my hesitations, my short comings and failures. I am enough. I have boundless potentional for more. There are things only I can do, people only I can reach (dont be afraid to take their hand). I will continue to move in the sprit of love (an #imperfectlove but #love none the less). #lesbrown #nevergiveup #phototherapy #moments #stayencouraged #lifehappens #acceptwhereyouare #takeresponsibility (at Campus Crossings at Durham)

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#dearimaginarylover I was hoping you would turn around and kiss me, with the sweetest of introductions. Fill me with your joyful salutations because, for far too long, I've been pressed up behind you. Only a firmness becoming more and more acquainted with your spine. Became the dimples. Indentations sinking in some comfortable spot. Slightly above your mounds. You know me. I've been heated breath at base of neck. You've admitted that you've found sexy. Honestly, it was nothing more than me struggling to speak your name. Believe me. I wanted to be yours to. But I've been afraid. Of how you'll see me afterward. Wishing silently I was braver and nearly strong as you thought I was. But lover I been able to do nothing more Than prevent you from running Away. Pull you back into my momentum and keep your there. Interlaced strands of hair. Revealed partial expressions of what isn't buried in pillows. ~~~~~~~~ Lover, I've watch you smile like some deviant. All cocky and shit. Pulled at your reigns. Lowered my ear to your mandible. I've developed some sort of infatuation with the grinding of your teeth. The Winding of your waist. Tasting the unmentioned on your tongue. If you're wondering... Yes, I like you to more than just to lay in you like I been doing. I just lost the words somewhere between your breaths on my bottom lip and the muscles tensing in your inner thigh. The hug of your tender Embracing my firmness Before and after you seen the softer side of me. Were we laid comfortably Spoke gently And pretended to be real. Something more than who've become accustomed to being. Neither of us has said anything. Outside of the pillow talk when I was milked by your palms. Where you smiled and found the residual interesting and tasty. Weird little habits of you taking me in I've found attractive Or vice versa. Our little perversions Flipping egos constantly but, Still we couldn't. We haven't, Maybe shouldn't But I decided I would ask you first... If you wanted to spend the night (at Campus Crossings at Durham)

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