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Small update. Still can’t stand to be naked but there is progress here for sure. Gonna get that flat tummy even if I have to work my ass off for years to get it!!!

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Food log and thoughts plus update photo!

So today’s food looked like this:

Breakfast-

~Fitmiss chocolate delight mix (90cal)

~2% milk, 3 oz (16cal)

~Unsweetened almond breeze 8 oz (30 cal)

Lunch-

~Pop tart Crisps (110cal)

~Cheese Ravioli (220cal)

Dinner-

~Chicken wings (500cal)

My total for the day was around 1300 calories. A little high but not bad!

I’ve lost 5lbs already......

Photo Update!!

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A failed day, not a failed life

The first weekend since starting my diet has been basically a complete loss, mostly due to me not having access to the types of foods I need to stay on the right path. I am currently living at home with my parents and Friday we got into a huge fight, prompting me to leave for the 3 day weekend without grabbing any of my food. My diet powder, meal replacement, etc are still at home.........And I am not.

I tried for the first 24 hours to stick to a vague *low calorie* only diet. That didn’t last long with my boyfriend who likes to cook a whole lot and that makes it hard for me to judge how many calories I’m really eating every day.....

The way I see it, tomorrow is a new day and not one that I will waste.. It’s not over until the fat lady feels good in her body!

Until tomorrow.....

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Day 4, lunch time

So, yesterday was a pretty bad day for me. I got into a huge fight with my parents, went to the store but left my debit card at home, had to go back and get it and ugh.

That being said, I went over in calories by about 200 cal, which isn’t terrible but still makes me feel super guilty. I know I cant beat myself up but man, I can do better than that!

Today, I had my shake in the morning, a couple snacks of Baked Hot Cheetos(about 32 Cheetos), Popcorn(about 24grams) and some Jerky. I am not eating another ravioli for my lunch which is so good and it fills me up as well. I’m hoping I can get through this he day without busting open my pistachios but we shall see, I am a bit more hungry today then I have been all week.

I will post my daily progress photos after I eat and get some time at work!

Hopefully I’ll see y’all at 1pm, if not then definitely after dinner!❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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Day 4

Omg, I went home yesterday and cried for about three whole hours. I went over my calories because I was so hungry, I had a bad day so I weals craving sweets. More later, I’m gonna post at my lunch time about all of it.

See you in 15!

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Lunchtime, day 3

It’s my lunch time and I officially think today is going to be a bust. After my sandwich I only have about 300 calories I can eat, and that has to last me from 11 am- 9pm when I go to bed. I’m definitely going to still be hungry and I’m wracking my brain for ways to stay full without going over. I think what I’ll end up doing is eating small snacks until bedtime, and hope for the best..... instead of a big meal for dinner.

Day three is proving to be a challenge.... definitely need to go to the store today so I don’t end up doing this again tomorrow!!

See y’all at 1pm!

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Progress photos. Day three.

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Break time at work!

It’s my first break at work, and I ate a Cinnamon Toast Crunch bar. I didn’t have a frozen meal to pack for lunch today and I am a little worried about just having a PB&J for lunch, but its on 15 grain bread and I used more peanut butter than jelly, hopefully that works to keep me full without having to go over my calories for the day... I have to stop by the store after work and buy meals for Thursday and Friday, I feel like the only way I can blow this diet is by not being prepared, so I’m doing to try and combat that as best I can.

Oh! I had my shake for breakfast as normal, on my way to work this morning!

See you at 10:45 for lunch!

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I’ve been feeling down and overwhelmed. It’s been easy to brush off workouts and eat poorly as a justification for how I was feeling.

I want to take back control and fuel myself properly and get back in gear. Day one. Again. Never stop. Never give up.

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What I ate today!

Breakfast: I am doing a shake for my breakfasts, so I eat one scoop of that into almond breeze unsweetened almond milk. About 8 oz of fluid to one scoop of powder, is about 136 calories and pretty filling.

Lunch: I have been doing Lean Cuisine Low Calorie meals, today it was a chicken teriyaki bowl. That was 220 calories. I was still a bit hungry after eating that so I also had a Cinnamon Toast Crunch breakfast bar, which is 100 calories. So lunch total was 320 today! Not bad.....

Dinner: I ate tacos for dinner, half a cup of ground beef and half a cup of beans with onions and olives and cheese. All together that’s about 490 calories.

Snacks: Throughout the day I ate pistachios and beef jerky when I was hungry. It helped a lot and was only about 300 calories for the whole day.

All in I am right around my goal of 1200/a day.

It’s 7 pm, and I’m feeling a little hungry still. Tomorrow I might wait a bit between snacking to really stretch out the hunger, and train myself not to be hungry every hour.

That’s all I got today!

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Day Two of my lifestyle change.

Day two of my lifestyle change. I am a 24 year old woman, who is tired of being fat.

I am 5”4 and about 205 lbs. I currently comfortably wear a US size 14. ]

I am going to be choosing to eat less than 1500 calories a day, as well as cut almost all sugar and processed foods from my diet.

Not that you have the background, we can get into the nitty gritty. Attached are current photos. I AM changing my life, one day at a time.....

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Memory made: 2/26/17

Last night Damian picked me up in his black BMW. He asks me, do I want to go get some ice cream? I’m on a diet, so in the back of my head I’m thinking HELL NAH, but outside I say, sure! Because even now, after he broke my heart, he makes me happy. I want to spend time with him.

So we went to Baskin Robbins, down the street from my parents house. There isn’t anyone inside and the open sign is shut off (it’s about 9:00PM) so we say shit, what now? He looks over to me and asks if I want pie from Shari’s instead. I love pie! Heck yes. So we take off. The whole time my heart is racing, I’m talking about anything and everything, asking him about his life and trying to make him smile as much as possible. It’s making me giggle, and I can’t help but smile the whole way.

We pull into Shari’s and he makes fun of the Best Western sign in the driveway. I laugh and laugh, and we head into the restaurant. We’re seated and we immediately grab the dessert menu-Damian ordered a cherry pie slice and I order the cookies and cream pie slice. The nice waitress tells us they’re out of ice cream! I look at Damian, and giggle. I swear to god, I’m a pile of goo for him.....

When we’re done, I tell him I don’t want to go home yet. So we decide to go sit at the park down the street from my parents house. As he parks, I open my door but it is COLD outside, about 30 Degrees Fahrenheit. I look at him, and I said “It’s too cold!!” He smiles, tells me we can stay in the car.......

Immediately he puts his seat back and lays down, so I follow. At this point I can feel my heartbeat, I’m hyper aware of him. He says something along the lines of “I miss you.” And I start crying!!! But not because he misses me, because I can physically see the effort it’s taking him not to touch me, snuggle me, he wants so badly to keep me in the friendzone. I ramble about how I’m different now, how I’ve changed so much already. How sorry I am for being such a brat, how I really wish we had tried to date when we were a little bit older (20 year old me was not ready for him) and how I feel so guilty.....

He tells me he needs to be completely alone, free of everything that made the old Damian so sad. I cry, and tell him it hurts that he wants to get over me. But he says he needs to, in order to find himself. And I tell him I understand and I giggle a little bit more.

I look at him and laugh hard, telling him I have to Pee pretty bad. He offers to drive me to my house so I can use the potty, and I tell him if he doesn’t I will make a mess in his car (I was sooooo serious TBH) and he waits outside while I tinkle.

When I get back in the car, he just drives down the block and parks in the dark ally between two streets. We talk for hours about nothing, laughing and getting along wonderfully.  Then, I hold his pinky. I already know at this point that he’s feeling the spark between us. I laugh at him a couple time for his *cough* situation. He starts rubbing my back, touching my hand, staring into my eyes. I feel myself getting lost in him, lost in how he makes me feel. It feels warm there, safe. I feel like we are perfect in that moment. Happy and innocent.  Until I kiss him.

It’s all gone from there, a flurry of touching and kissing and as much as I try, I give him a little more of my soul in those moments. I promise him that I am not asking for anything from him, except for him to do what makes him happy. That’s all I ask. He took a part of me home that night, and I don’t know if I ever  want it back.