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A very helpful guide to studying with mental illnesses.

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"What they don’t tell you:

Self care sometimes isn’t fun. It’s going to class even when you want to stay in bed and rest. It’s paying bills on time and running errands even when every strand of your being cant stand it. It’s going to therapy and taking your medicine even when you don’t want to. It’s using coping skills even when going back to self destructive ones seems more appealing.

Recovering sucks. It’s hard. But you have to believe in the light at the end of the tunnel. And even on those days you don’t, you fake it till you make it.

Recovery is still worth it." ~ the-new-venus tumblr blog.

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An informative diagram on what some of the symptoms of depression and anxiety are.

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Gentle reminder that it's okay to mess up. It's okay to lose balance every now and then. You can fix your mistakes, and if that's not possible, you can learn from them. It's okay to take time and space for your own mental well-being. Don't be too hard on yourself for it.

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"Please be patient with those who have anxiety

They say sorry a lot because they’re genuinely afraid they’ve insulted you somehow

They ask if they’re annoying because they genuinely think they’ve somehow annoyed you

They say things are ‘awkward’ because they can be uncomfortable in any situation, no matter who with, they don’t mean to personally hurt you

They cry because sometimes people and situations are too much, not because they’re looking for attention

They don’t text you a lot because they’re clingy, it’s because if you don’t reply, they think they’ve done something wrong

They can be set off by little things, so don’t say they’re overreacting when they panic

Please be patient with those who have anxiety

They only mean the best"

- egerston tumblr blog.

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A few tips for those struggling with depression from goodbye-bingeeating tumblr blog:

1. Don’t isolate yourself.

I know your instincts tell you to go somewhere and be alone so you can think things through and “figure” it out, but lets be honest, that has never worked, has it? Isolating yourself means you feel like no one understands your situation and that you are somehow “abnormal,” that there is indeed something “wrong with you.” It makes your problems and worries seem bigger, they just brew in your head and a solution never, ever comes.

2. Spend time with people who genuinely care about you.

Not everyone has good vibes, that is true, but people can really save you from you from your demons. Genuine love and care is so important when you feel like you are facing the world alone. Being in the presence of the right people can make your negative thoughts fade into the background. Feeling like you are loved, that you matter and that you are capable can really change your life. This can be achieved simply by being around friends and family. It wont necessarily cure you straightaway but it makes life more bearable.

3. Talk about it.

I struggle with this one. I think it’s because I like people to think I have it all together and that I can take care of myself. I don’t want to bother people with my drama too much. I find it super hard to open up to people about my problems but I’m all ears when listening to other people’s issues. It’s weird like that. When things hurt too much, it hits too close to home to tell other people. I’m scared I’m going to lose my shit and literally break down and cry. So I bury my fears, my anxiety, my pain and nervousness within myself and carry it around like a burden. I feel like the only way to ease that burden is to tell someone about it even though it hurts.

4. Find Reasons to live.

People with depression typically focus too much on their insecurities, compare themselves with other people and lack motivation because it hurts too much to move. We are literally the ones standing in our own way. You need to find something else to focus on. Yes you have shortcomings, Yes you have areas you need to work on, Yes there are things you don’t know and aren’t good at, but if that’s all you focus on, you are paralyzed and you can’t do anything about it. It’s too painful to even begin to try to improve yourself, everything seems impossible. You need to find a hobby, an interest, something to occupy your life and time and thoughts so you don’t keep going back the the 101 reasons you think you’re not good enough and never will be. Inspiration can’t find you if you’re only willing to stare everything about you that is not good enough. Go for music, tv shows, movies, books, hobbies, anything that makes you feel like life is pretty cool is an excellent start.

5. Be a good person.

Love the people who matter. Love them and show it.

6. Deal with failures the proper way

Instead of numbing your feelings with food, video games, pointless scrolling through social media, you have to just talk it out. Talk to your better self. Maybe you are stuck in a job you hate, in a relationship that doesn’t feel quite right, with friends that you don’t really click with, doing a degree you have no interest in, doubting everything that has lead up to this point in your life.. I know its tragic but you have to stop hurting yourself and make the best with what you have.

7. Feeling stuck in a cycle.

I always feel like I’ve been here before. In the state of trying to find a solution to my depression, trying to give myself sounds advice that i know i will forget all about the next day, trying to find happiness in all this goddamn darkness, trying to escape this cycle that never seems to end.. You need to inspire yourself again.

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Warrior Story #311

"My hands and legs are shaking and I can't breathe at all and I can't control my tears or my breath. I can't control anything in my body and I keep knowing how to finally breathe again but then after a minute I'm not able to again. I feel like I'm dying and my heart's pounding and there's nothing I can do. The people around me think I'm doing all of this on purpose to gain their empathy but I really can't control anything"

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Warrior Story #310

"Can someone please recommend me a good psychologist that has nothing to do with medication? In Heliopolis?"

Although we don't know their policies on medication, here's a list of many psychiatrists in Heliopolis:

http://www.vezeeta.com/en/doctor/Psychiatry/Heliopolis/

https://www.yellowpages.com.eg/…/doctors-_-psychiatris…/3203

The first link lists the price of each psychiatrist's examination fee and allows you to book online. You could contact them first if you'd like to ask them about any issues you have with medication. We wish you the best of luck in your treatment! What you're doing is very, very brave.

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"Even if things get heavy we'll all float on alright"

Here's a feel-good classic and a personal favourite from us.

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Warrior Story #309

"I never knew how big this would turn out to be,I thought it would be a copy of the stereotypical *lay down and talk to me about how you feel* kind of illness,sharing was my thing but know I really am scared of judgment and labeling and sadly I am judged and labaled,so I never talk or I rarely talk about this to be specific;It all started when I was called a lesbian for having short hair,I really was surprised that for liking my hair short,my sexual preference changed;I was so young so the only 2 choices infront of me were to transfer schools or suffer with the rumors,and I changed schools,I went to a school that I knew had a harsh judgments and stuff and when I tried to talk my parents out of it they said "just let your hair grow and nothing will happen" so I did and I tried to be the girly girl that I am not but acting is less painful than being called a lesbian and I had no tolerance for these kinds of childish acts,I did what every teenager in "e3dady" does,I dated,And I was cheated on by the guy that I liked for 3 years and dated for 8 months,I transferred schools again because I was really suffering from backstabbing and harsh judgments and that summer it all started,i asked myself how everyone else is wrong and I'm losing everyone and how is everyon is wrong about me,it felt like drowning and i asked my mom for help and the first thing she said was "psychiatric". I thought it would be easy but it wasn't,the questions I was asked were bullets going through my skin. After the "psychiatric" talked and talked and perscripted a lot of meds that really messed with my body like lamictal and others,we found out that I was misdiagnosed,I knew that I wasn't clincaly depressed,I refused to take the meds and everyone tried to talk me into visiting someone else and I utterly refused,it was not a topic of discussion to me,I was done with the chemicals making me lose my appetite,my sleep and the sense of feeling anything aroud me. After a while and I really was surprised with my choice and decision,I decided to see someone else,I retold my story again,cried again,but the crying wasn't as hard as the first time and I think it's because I lost hope.I was really mad that they wouldn't tell me what was wrong with me,why my love for coldplay was no longer there,why Drawing was nothing to me,why talking wasn't my thing anymore;I asked and asked and asked,asked the thrrapist,asked the psychiatric,asked my mom and even asked myself and after 14 sessions of therapy, 7 meet ups with the psychiatric and 4 courses of different meds,I got the answer "BPD" I was relieved but sad and it was pretty normal,googled it,got the answeres to my questions and the only thing that haunts me till now,is knowing that it would be too late if I turn 18 with this but here I am,2 years away from my deadline,with a lot of dreams but a little monster slowly eating me alive,I wouldn't say I love life but I'll never say that I hate it,I am strong and I am aware of it but I need more love and attention to what is happening inside my mind. I hate my BPD."

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"Just because it isn’t happening right now doesn’t mean it never will. Think back to where you were a year ago, or two or five. What struggles were you facing that you felt convinced you could never overcome — but did? Which goals did you feel certain you could never reach, but in your own time, were able to meet or even exceed? These past experiences are evidence of your capacity to heal and overcome. You may not be exactly where you would like, but you’ve come so far from where you once were. Trust that the rest will happen in its own time. You’ve disproven your doubts and fears countless times — you can trust that you will prove yourself wrong this time too." Daniell Koepke (via internal-acceptance-movement)

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Warrior Story #308

"For the longest time, I hadn't given much thought to my persistent overthinking. But, for the past year, I've known that something must be wrong. It's not normal to go worry about social events like weddings or birthdays from the moment you're invited (even if the fate of the occasion is months into the future). It's not normal to obsessively be afraid for your mother because she's the only family you have left. It's not normal to feel hungover after every flamboyant showcase of your social skills, to feel like you did everything wrong. All of these aren't normal. Or at least, not what a person with a healthy mental state would be worrying about. I've worked on it, this anxiety of mine, the panic attacks are less frequent. The questioning and obsessions are more or less controlled, sometimes even made comical. But sometimes, a trigger just tickles that part of your brain responsible for all the crap, and like one of those Jenga towers, all the blocks that you've been painstakingly building on shaky grounds, come tumbling. So you have to make a decision then. And sometimes, the decision doesn't come instantly, doesn't come easily. The decision to build yourself back up again. These are times that suck. The times in between when you're finding the strength to find your strength."

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Warrior Story #307

"Even though I'm fighting everyday to overcome and hide the parts of me I didn't choose, I lust for the day I get to let those parts take over"