louudthoughts

[louudthoughts]

I shouldn’t feel guilty for

moving on

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i will.

give me flowers, give me gifts,

i will love you.

or don’t,

i will still love you.

give me laughs, give me love,

i will adore you.

or don’t,

i will still adore you.

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you aren’t dying.

i know you think you are,

but love,

this is living.

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they think the way to my heart is a cold stone path covered in thorns.

but they are wrong.

the way to my heart is a calm stroll through the high meadow grass.

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my darling, I will meet you exactly where you are

your scars don’t scare me.

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do you think of me?

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I wish to the ocean

For I will be as reckless as the waves

yet look at me beautifully

to sink the ships of the sailors who trespass

to let me hold life in me

to have grace, but power to drown

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but if it ever ends,

remember me

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they say i’m a good person

but i don’t feel like one.

“are feelings always true?”

the good side of me asks.

“who’s to say they aren’t?”

the dark side replies.

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you’ve been standing so close to my soul.

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you haven’t left my mind since the day i met you, and i want you to stay there forever.

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little mr. sunshine

little mr. sunshine turns pink when I walk into the room,

pulls out a chair,

asks me how my day's been,

sometimes, i have to look away

from his wide-eyed adoration.

I pretend not to know

selfishly, to keep this little bit of love,

my friends say i'm cruel,

but i'm broken,

and the fractures on my skin deepen and deepen.

little mr. sunshine doesn't give up on love,

even though i turn him down,

his smiles turn a bit sad,

but they never go away,

and my friends say I've been hasty.

I shouldn't dwell on my heartbreak,

and let little mr. sunshine brighten my cloudy day,

but my mind's hell,

and if he doesn't leave before it's too late,

he'll soon learn to love the rain.

(I just want to fall in love the way I did the first time.)

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my love, thank you for quieting all the loud thoughts on my head.

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too many beautiful places,

too many lovely people to meet,

too many coffees to drink,

too many smiles to give,

too many rivers to swim in,

too many pictures to capture,

too many memories to make

don't miss it all because you are wishing the days away.

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I had a nightmare you left me so you could be six feet under.

The world got to you.

I wished to come back to reality, to you.

My darling, you were never meant for this world.

You are meant for something far greater.

So show the world what greatness looks like, turn the terrors of the unloved into dreams.

You’ll put the stars into the night sky by only staying here. Stay with me, my love.

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"you still love him, huh?" "i can't imagine the day i won't."

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i am drowning in a lake i put myself in,

yet when i go up to get some air,

everyone else keeps pushing me down.