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—Radiant You—

➶➶ Fem!reader x Toji Fushiguro

➶➶ I love you so.

a/n: I don't know what this is but anyways.

Toji Fushiguro was a romantic, everything changed when his one and only love, the mother to his son, the reason he smiled everyday, vanished like nothing from his life. Leaving like a cold breeze, as the leaves started falling, as his life was slowly crumbling. Leaving behind her only son with her lover when she left.

Megumi needed motherly love, someone who will love him the way he does. For him he decides to marry once again. Unknowingly it was you that came into his life, his childhood friend, that he forgot but you didn't. Because he was the one you loved all along in your past.

'I loved this man, he was tall and muscular, I liked to run my hands through the soft hair of his. Even though it was when we were younger. I still remember how he cried, big gobbles of shiny tears started to pour from his eyes while he tried to keep up the stern look on his face, when he tripped over his leg and cut his lips, that didn't seem like it would fade when healed. I didn't bother helping him, for some reason I knew he wouldn't like that. And tripped myself intentionally when he turned my way to see me lying on my face on the ground as he laughed like he didn't trip in the first place. Getting myself up, we were both laughing at the end. I wonder if he remember this too? Maybe he doesn't.'

Even looking at him fills your heart with warmth you craved from him. Everything changed when he moved away but you were still hooked on him, wondering how this feeling would fade away soon, It did not. Maybe it was fate how it led both of you to this situation.

“You need to marry her, Toji” the rough, worn out voice from old age told him in an admitting manner while the old man looked up to meet his gaze

“Just because my wife died doesnt mean I have to marry again.” The muscular man said, trying to fight back for himself. He didn't want this.

“I'll manage by myself” he added.

“Megumi’s turning 2, you know? He needs a mother.” The old man said while looking down. Toji didn't have anything to say to that. He knew Megumi needed a mom, he needed to understand the love of the parents, unlike him. Megumi deserves it.

The geezer tapped Toji’s shoulder in an assuring way and left him there. The big house felt like it was the loneliest it ever was when the elderly man left. Lost in thoughts, silence all around him.

He made his decision, For Megumi.

As he was walking back to his room, his mind was occupied with so many things about how he will make all of this work. He couldn't see himself with another woman other than her. He couldn't do this to her. He came to a stop when his mind was screaming that this wasn't the right thing. But in a corner of his mind, the darkness that will wrap around his son, scared him. He would do anything for him. After all he is his blessing. His Megumi.

When he reached his room, he saw Megumi playing with his toys. He was also biting one of those small racing cars, quickly bending down to pick Megumi up, Toji took the car away from his small but strong grasp. Megumi looked at his father before his eyes filled with tears while holding himself back from crying.

Toji closed his eyes, his brows furrowing, his forehead bumping gently to his son’s while he held him closer to him as he whispered softly, “Im sorry, Gumi.”

“I'm here!!!!” Shoko barged inside your room, yelling, while you were halfway through the make up. The make-up artists gave her a look when she startled them including you.

She rubbed the back of her head as she bowed at them. She tiptoed to your side and started talking, “Aren't you excited??, It's finally your marriage!” she squealed like she was the one getting married.

“I thought you were going to die alone” she joked while she threw her head back and laughed. You couldn't help but chuckle looking at her.

The thought of being with your long lost love was like a dream come true for you. Like the true love that was meant to be, like in fairy tales and novels. It was a fuzzy feeling that bubbled up inside your chest.

You had heard about the death of Toji’s late wife. Which left you devastated, because you knew how much he loved her. The last time you saw him was with her. With the brightest smile plastered on his face. When he left to be with her, he was the happiest he ever was.

'He was always hard on himself. Trying to learn better, do better, be the first at everything by himself. I was only a friend to him, but now i don't know if i was even a friend. When she appeared in his life. She read him better than I could ever do. To him, she was a whole book written only for him, I was a mere chapter in his life. Which was left unread.'

You thought he was better off without you interfering in his life. After all, you couldn't even tell him about how you actually felt. You didn't want to take her place, it wasn't supposed to be like this. This didn't feel right, He loved her. Not you.

The smile that was visible on your face slowly faded when you remembered what it was like back then.

“You okay?” Shoko asked you, which snapped you back to reality. The smile coming back to your face as you nodded at her.

“Are you nervous? Of course you are! I would be if i were you!” She scoffed, and let herself lay down on the couch beside her. Shoko was that one friend you needed your whole life. Who lit up your world just with their presence.

The make-up was done and you were finally ready for the marriage, physically, but mentally you weren't so sure. She was right, the thought of facing Toji again makes you nervous and tipsy. It was only some days before your marriage that you understood that he had a 3 year old son named Megumi. You weren't surprised that he had a son but right now you were looking forward to seeing the little guy more than his father.

You were already so nervous and your heart was beating fast as you took each step forward. When the drapes opened, as the light spilled towards you, revealing the man you were expecting to see, the same dark eyes just like how you remember, looked up and stared at you. With the black suit that fit him well, the smooth black hair falling over his eyes, the same scar on his lips took you back to your childhood. As you looked down to see, the baby boy who was holding the finger of his father so tightly as he looked at you in wonder, his eyes widening.

He looked so much like him, you thought as you got closer and closer to him. To your new life and world.

You saw a woman taking Megumi away from Toji, he was calm, just like his father. Toji stretched his hand towards you and you took it, holding the dress up to step up on the platform.

As the ceremony went smoothly, you still couldn't shake the thought of how his lips freezed before he kissed you and the feeling of the ring on your finger felt too foreign and strange. You stood close to him, both of you standing still as both of your families did the talking.

Someone handed Megumi back to Toji. He picked him up, Megumi’s eyes were on you, asking who this woman was? You found yourself looking up at him, it was too hard to ignore him that you ended up smiling and waving at him. Megumi waved back quickly, that gesture made your heart flutter because of how cute he was. Toji quickly noticed you staring, raising an eyebrow when he looked at you. Not knowing what to do, you smiled falteringly.

He let Megumi down and Toji nodded at him when he looked up at his father like he needed to say something before he came up to you. You sat down on your knees, looking at him, you smiled. Maybe he was afraid, afterall you are a stranger to him.

Toji did the same and sat down beside you, “It's okay buddy, come here.” he assured his son, Megumi came up to his dad, when you stretched your palm up to him, he hesitated but he took it. When he did, your eyes widened and you shook his small hand, a faint smile appeared on Toji, as you mumbled some sweet things to Megumi but it disappeared just the way it appeared.

Everything happened fast you would say, Megumi was still afraid to get closer to you, he hid behind his dad, peeping at you through his legs, but when you noticed him, he would go back to hiding. He would grab onto the fabric of the cloth his dad is wearing and follow him wherever he goes and eventually Toji will pick him up.

After the long day of marriage, the day was ending. Handful of flowers and gifts on both of your hands, praises all around you while the two of you nodded and smiled.

He was the one who was riding the car, you assumed you were finally entering his life, as his wife. If you were your younger self at this moment, you would've passed away already but right now, you couldn't even understand what you were feeling.

You could see Megumi sitting inside the baby car seat, dozing off. He looked adorable while his eyes blinked slowly, almost falling asleep.

Toji took a turn and pulled over and exited the car, he looked around his pocket for the keys and opened the door of the house and came back to open the trunk of the car and carried some of the gifts inside the house as you got outside and closed the car’s door.

You wanted to help Toji with the stuff but you didn't want to leave Megumi alone, you picked him up gently as he was fast asleep to notice who picked him up. You held him closer to your chest and walked inside the house.

Toji eyed you as you came inside with his son clinging on to you. He quickly put the stuff down and appeared in front of you and said,

“I'll tuck him into bed” he hurriedly took his son from your hands and mumbled something under his breath that you couldn't make out but you nodded anyway. After the whole marriage, since the moment you met him again, this was the first time he talked to you after all these years.

As you were standing and looking around, Toji came back, walking up to you. He suddenly started talking now,

“This marriage was for Megumi. Only for him.” he admitted.

“I know that was sudden but, I hope you understand.” he said as he avoided eye contact with you. You nodded again, not knowing what to say. What were you expecting in the first place anyway?

Toji wanted a mother for Megumi, not a wife.

'Of course, he still loves her. I would’ve loved her too if i was him.'

He introduced you to the things that happen in the house and about Megumi, most of the conversation was awkward and broken.

Your first relationship, first marriage, you realised you were back to the person who you once were in your past. With the same person who caused you so much trouble and happiness.

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Got me giggling and kicking my feet, this is too cute and wholesomee

a little old. you think. he looks a little older than yesterday.

he’s laying, a cigarette lowly dangling amidst his lips, the fresh summer breeze stealing the smoke billowing from the cylinder. he indulges into it, lets it bleed over his tongue till the smolder is seeping back into his throat. the taste is bitter, a little numbing to the tongue.

then you look to his lips, kissed countlessly by your taste and love. the crisp of the air sings among you both, a between in the ending spring’s forlorn taste and the beginning summer’s searing breeze.

so, toji looks at you, gaze doting your limbs that are sitting about his abs as you share the poison he’s inhaling. thinks of the luck that stumbled into his life like melting snow for the revelation of a soothing spring in the form of you.

“quit smokin,” you rob his cigarette, puffing from it before throwing it over to the damp sand beleaguered by your bare legs. “how many times do i gotta tell you?”

the waves kiss your skin frequently, wash against his toes, lick off the memories and make them its own.

toji chuckles to it, to the smoke falling from your lips and marrying the air, hands caressing your thighs as the embers of the sputtering sunset pools against your skin.

just a bronze glimmer he can’t get enough of. of the melting ashing spring that’s creasing under your eyes in a wrinkle he’s only seen before his eyes.

“how many years has it been since we went on a vacation like this, alone?” your hands trace his jaw in a caress between memories and moments. he looks up at the fleeing clouds, and you fall to his side. taking notice, he stretches his arm out for to lay your head on it.

“dunno. fifteen, maybe. how old’s gumi’ again?”

“nah, not fifteen.” you sigh, the air laden with salt and scent of rotten fish. “i think it was our honeymoon, before i got pregnant with megumi.”

“that’s gotta be a few years ago.” he turns to you, words melting in a gasp, one of those sorts where you’re astonished and happy at the same time. and for him, its the shock plaguing his mind.

how have you put up with him for so many years?

you punch his shoulders playfully, the wrinkles among the corners of your eyes creasing with the frowny smile you’re splaying.

“seventeen years ago, jiji.” you remind. your eyes are trained about the dissolving sunset that’s bleeding against the ocean, retiring seagulls and the clatter from trains filling your quiets. and his eyes are trained onto you. just like they were all those years ago.

“s’ been that long?” he looks at your lips, your eyes again, those lines of age marking your skin in a taste of wine.

you turn to him, the smile he fell for all those years ago dancing by your lips.

“mhm,” you chuckle, sunset casting shadows among those lines drawing by your skin.

a shiver kisses your teeth, the breeze abducting your warmth and making it its own.

and toji notices. that small twitch of your lips, the closing of your eyes telling him that you’re singing to the breeze, the sticky sand clinging about your skin. he has the urge to wash it off.

he doesn’t, though.

instead, his lips find yours. in a curious kiss to taste the salt dampening your lips. crafting a reel of memories unsung by the flaw of language.

“what was that for?” when you break the kiss, you ask, less of a question, more of a reminder.

reminder of your youth that had already fled. reminder that you’re no longer two teenagers cluelessly in love.

“can i kiss you again?” he asks, like anew to love, crashing waves of the ocean singing among your gazes.

“why?” you ask.

“cause i love you.” he holds you by your waist, passers by the beach blurring. you’re falling into his lips to taste the salt on them.

“still cheesy.” you chuckle to him. a curious kiss from you on his lip. you kiss him again. kiss him more. till the sunset pooling about his lips is no longer torched but melted under a darker sky. “i love you too.”

it’s warm. his lips, touch, just as young as it was years ago. a feeling akin to the warmth of winter envelops you into a blanket, reminding you that this is the man you fell for. and reminding him that you’re the woman he changed for.

he kisses you till the salt on your lips is no longer salty, honey brewing within your breaths.

and later among the night, he’s taking you to the hotel you both were staying at.

kisses your neck, your collar in a renewed spark he’s found among his lighting heart.

till you’re bare under his love, naked within his gaze as he’s speaking less yet saying everything with his body.

till your head is laying about his shoulders and he’s endlessly reading of the pages from the stories you share.

till the wrinkles of love no longer crumble by your skins and you’re teenagers in love all over again.

— “younger than you were yesterday.”

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❥𝐁𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐧 𝐚 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐜𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐝 𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐓𝐨𝐣𝐢 𝐅𝐮𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐠𝐮𝐫𝐨.

➵| 𝘍𝘦𝘮!𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘹 𝘛𝘰𝘫𝘪 |

T/w: inappropriate language/words, (smut)

❥part 3

About what happened the previous day, still hunts you and you knew you couldn't forget about what happened so easily, how his hands ran through your body, making you crave for his touch. A moaning mess to his kiss. Will that change or?

Toji left early in the morning, you were offended that he didn't tell you earlier even though you are supposed to not care for whatever he does. But he still found a way to interfere in your mind.

You were thinking about all the possibilities about where he would be, and that's when the doorbell rang, you thought it will be Toji, but..

You walked to the door and peeked through the window to know who it was. Your face beamed when you found out who it was, Gojo. His white hair that sticks out too much was messy. And he wore the shades that you always made fun of. Black tee with jeans, dressed casually. Your colleague, that also happened to be your go to best friend. You quickly opened the door to find Geto also standing beside him, his dark hair slicked back with a gentle smile on his face as he said,

“Hey, miss us?” he said still with that pleasant smile on his face, while gojo grinned

“Never” you spoke up fast, sarcastically that earned a laughter from both of them

“Come on, in” you invited them in.

“woah? Is this your man’s house?” Geto exclaimed,

You nodded at your friends while they were still looking around the house.

“So what is it? An unexpected visit? Hmm?” You questioned both of them as they both looked at you at the same time before they smiled and gojo said,

“I knew you would be sad without us” He stuck out his bottom lip teasing you, geto chuckled at that.

“Oh please—we both know how both of you couldn't sit still without me” you argued back

Geto laughed at that before saying “well, well, we came to call you for a meet up, Shoko and Utahime will be there as well. So what do you think? you coming? If you want, you could tag your husband along as well”

“Please tell me you are coming, it will be fun” said gojo, being more persistent about the meet up than anyone else.

“I'll think about it.” You said, you knew you were going but just wanted to rail them up. Expecially Gojo

“Oh come on!” Gojo groaned, rolling his eyes, obviously done with your attitude.

“So when is it?” When you asked about the time, gojo's eyes lit up, afterall, it will be boring without your best friend.

“I'll message you” Geto said, before crossing over his arms while looking at gojo

“Where is he? Your husband?” Gojo asked, curiously. Obviously forgetting that you are a married women now

“who knows? He left without a message.” that made their face cringe as you admitted this.

“Damn, that's harsh” said Geto, with an awkward laugh while averting his gaze away from you,

It was awkward for a while then Gojo cracked a joke to ease the awkwardness and we were back to normal. After they stayed for a while, if my so-called husband would come home but realising that he wasn't coming home any minute, they decided to leave some time later.

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You were about to get into the shower, that's when the doorbell rang for the second time today. And this time you knew it was actually him. You were already undressed, too lazy to get dressed again, you saw one of the tank tops on your still half-unpacked luggage that arrived yesterday. You quickly put it on and one of the shorts and walked to the door

You didn't care looking through the window to make sure it was him, you opened it anyway.

There he stood, with a buttoned down black shirt, the sleeves rolled up, that suited him a little too well. His hair falling over his eyes that he is staring right at you, he was scanning your body. Your nipples poked through the fabric of your top. And now you're suddenly aware of the way you looked in front of him

You stepped back to let him inside. He had his phone on one of his hands and his coat that hangs down his forearm. He put down the coat on the couch, oh how his muscles flexed.

“it's a shame that i didn't stay home if that is how you were dressed the whole day” He turned around before saying, while a devilish smirk spread across his face.

“I was about to take a shower” you informed him, while walking back to your room

He hummed like he heard you, but you didn't look back and entered the room before taking a shower

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By the time you were done with your bath, Toji was already slacking off on the couch watching TV. He noticed you when you came out of your room, but went back to what he was doing

You were about to go to the kitchen for a quick snack, when your phone rang, you went inside your room to get your phone. You quickly picked up the phone when you learned that it was Geto calling.

He said that he had sent you the location and time and that he was also looking forward to the meeting, and asked if toji will also be there, which you were unsure of. After a while you hung up the call.

You needed to tell Toji about the gathering, but for now you were really hungry so you focused on going back to the kitchen for your snack.

When you set foot into the kitchen, you saw Toji was there, leaning on the kitchen counter.

You didn't pay much attention and opened the fridge for something cold. When you laid your eyes on the cold pastry, you were about to pick it before he said,

“Who was it?” He asked casually, when you looked up through the door of the fridge he was already looking at you

“Friend” you replied, before getting the pastry you wanted and a spoon and then walked to the couch and sat down, of course he was following you and sat beside you.

You avoided his presence and started to taste some of the pastry until he asked,

“Can I have some?”

When you turned your face to his, he tilted his head to you, even though he asked for the pastry, his eyes were completely hooked to you, totally ignoring whatever you were consuming

You nodded before standing up to get another spoon for him, but to your surprise, he grabbed your hand and pulled, forcing you to sit down. And you did.

“I thought you wanted some?” You asked, obviously confused.

“Yeah..?” He hummed and took the spoon you used and took a perfect scoop and tasted the pastry.

“sweet” he said, savouring it down until a grin flashed on his face and came close to you for more of your pastry.

“Can I have some more?” He pleaded still with that stupid grin that you wanted to wipe off of him.

You felt that you were responding to his words by how flushed you were by his action

You yanked your spoon back from him, getting up to leave.

“Come on, you're no fun” he said, crossing his arms over his chest while he relaxed on the couch.

You looked back at him one more time before heading to your room

He grabbed your hand once again, you didn't think he would because but by the look he had, he was done with playing, but it seems he isn't done with you yet.

“How could you leave like that, after I begged you for more?” he asked after he stood up, now wrapping his hands around your waist, pulling you in, staring at you fixedly.

“Can i?” tightening his grip around you, he asked again

You nodded before he took your spoon that you willingly gave him, with a smirk on his face like he won in a game

“Thank you” he said in a cocky manner, not taking his eyes off of you as he ate the pastry with so much fondness to it.

“Want some?” He is the one asking now, stretching out the spoonful of sweet. You wanted it, you'll admit that, but you were having second thoughts about whether you should accept his proposal or not.

Before you could respond he had already put it inside his mouth, he was messing with you at this point.

You nodded your head the next minute, he caught that and held back a chuckle before he stretched another spoonful of pastry

You opened your mouth to taste it again, and when you did, you felt like you accomplished something but what you didn't expect was to taste him as well.

His lips crashed down onto yours unexpectedly, he planned this whole thing and you fell right into his scheme. You could feel him smiling between the kiss

With so much embarrassment wrapping you right now, You wished you could've just fade away right there.

He licked your lower lip to enter your mouth, was it accidentally? Or was it intentionally?, you let him in by some means.

The sweetness never left, the icing on the pastry still lingering on both of your tongues made the kiss more magical.

A single string of saliva connecting the two of you, when he pulled away

“delicious, right?” he asked, before licking his lips. Completely enjoying the situation.

“Do not— Do not talk” you said, with a reddened face while wiping the spit away

He raised his eyebrow, and chuckled and said “Why? Want more?”

Before you could answer, he turned around and walked away, laughing with your pastry.

You hated him for always leaving you like this, before you could even say anything. But this time you weren't going to let him go like that.

You rushed towards him and grabbed his collar and pulled him closer to your lips, stopping mere inches from his lips from touching yours.

“Try me” you said, glaring into his eyes. That has now, turned even darker. Maybe he was already holding himself back, but after you came up to him yourself, made him think he could engage with you for some time more.

Now that he got your permission, he didn't waste any time to pull you into a kiss, every time you kissed, both of you fell for each other a little bit.

“Getting hasty now, aren't we?” He said while the pair were a panting mess. His lips brushed your cheek down your neck till he reached a certain point that made a wave of pleasure erupt throughout your body. After realising your sensitive spot, he kept kissing and sucking you there, making you whine more for him.

He removed his cloth in a quick motion, and one of his hands went up inside your short top, undoing your bra with ease that fell down beside you.

He grabbed your other hand and made you feel his length getting harder each second

“Will you?” he asked with desperation, loving the way your hand is rubbing him through the fabric.

You kissed his neck as a response that he very much understood, he left a gentle breathy chuckle

The kiss dropped downwards, from the neck till reaching the dampened area of the fabric, Oh, how wet he was. For you.

That specific thought caused the heat building up in yourself to burn twice as much as it used to be.

When you undid the zipper, you didn't know what you were expecting but when your hand wrapped around the base of his cock, you knew it was too big.

He let out a groan when your hand made contact with the base, throwing his head back once you started stroking it, precum leaking down, made it easier for you to pleasure him

“Just like that— haa..” he whispered, sweat rolling down his temple, enjoying each and every second of this

When you took him down your throat he couldn't wait any longer, before he started moving on his own, controlling you as he pleases.

About to burst any moment, he pulled out just before he came all over your face, and then there was it, again, that cocky smile, seeing your messed up face with his cum and your spit smeared all over your face made him even more excited for what was about to happen next.

Getting what he wanted, now, he had focused all on you, he had already removed your sweats. Throwing you on the couch, he grabbed your thighs and spread your legs, to know how drenched you were for him.

He had stretched the panties to a side to get a taste of you. Tasting you has never been more heavenly for him, it was perfect, just like how he wanted. The drenched panties now at your ankle, one of your legs over his broad shoulder.

He hasn't yet stopped savouring you.

“This is too much— Fuck, Toji—” you moaned, doing your best to hold back your moans, he noticed it rather quickly. That he had started making eye contact with you as he was eating you out. The way his hair fell over his eyes, His tongue gliding through your slick, This only turned you on even more.

You could feel the orgasm that was almost there getting ahead of you. You knew you couldn't prevent it and didn't want to. You wanted him to keep pleasuring you like this.

Until you were quivering under him. And that's when, how easily you took his fingers in your cunt. He knew you were about to cum, rubbing and teasing your cunt to fasten your orgasm, which he did.

"Such a greedy little pussy" he whispered, enough for you to listen

Your eyes rolled back when the wave of pleasure hit you, you came all over his mouth, he took out his finger as you collapsed onto the couch, trembling all over as the orgasm took over your body.

Grinning while he licked his lips as he said

“you tasted so good, hon — Even better than the pastry"

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❥previous part

[lynxrq]

𝐓𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮,

𝐌𝐲 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝,

𝐒𝐮𝐠𝐮𝐫𝐮 𝐆𝐞𝐭𝐨

It's been years.. Suguru. Do you still remember me? Maybe you still do but not the same like it used to be, right?

‘"Are you the strongest because you're Satoru Gojo? Or are you Satoru Gojo because you're the strongest?” You asked

I still didn't get a chance to answer you, did I?

If I did so, do you think we would still be here? Together?

‘It was hard for me, Suguru. Without you I, I cannot—’

Anyways, How are you?

‘Did you regret it? Did you regret leaving me? Did that thought ever cross your mind?’

After all these years, why cant i still get you out of my mind? I guess I'm a fool for not being with you, for letting myself slip away from you. But I would never despise you for what you had done, I never did.

I'm a teacher now, Suguru. I wonder what you’ll think about me being a teacher. For some reason if you were still here with me, You would’ve laughed at me, imagining it makes me laugh too.

Shoko and I barely meet now. Maybe it's because both of us got busy with work but it's not it, it's not the same Suguru. Without you, it's not.

“I believe that hair does hold memories,” Shoko said. And she had that gentle smile when she said that to me. It was random but i understood it

“Is that why you never cut it too, Suguru?”

“Gojo sensei!— Wait, what are you doing? Wait, show me!”

Gojo crumpled the paper.

“It's nothing~ Are you feeling better, Itadori?”

𝐅𝐫𝐨𝐦,

𝐘𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲,

𝐒𝐚𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐮.

[lynxrq]

❥𝐁𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐧 𝐚 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐜𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐝 𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐓𝐨𝐣𝐢 𝐅𝐮𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐠𝐮𝐫𝐨.

➵| 𝘍𝘦𝘮!𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘹 𝘛𝘰𝘫𝘪 |

T/w: inappropriate language/words, (smut)

❥part 2

After the hurried marriage between you and Toji, Things started to take a turn between you two. Toji fancy you,

and you ended up finding it out

After showering you felt even more tired and sleepy than you already are. You just wanted to sleep. If you had a bed for yourself, it would be really nice, so when Toji said that you could sleep on his bed made you quite happy. And he will be sleeping on the couch. On one hand it made you feel at ease about not having to sleep together with someone you didnt know but if you think about it on his side, you will be pretty much pissed.

Even after what he did, you did feel kind of bad but that didn't make you give up that bed for him.

Now that you are in his room, it was kind of messy but not much. You decided to sleep, his bed was really soft, like really really soft. Maybe it was because you were feeling extra cold and sleepy.

You closed your eyes, your mind was blank, slowly drifting to sleep.

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Your eyelids fluttered awake, thinking it was already morning, you looked around the room to see it was only 3 in the morning. You were sweaty and thirsty. Thinking about how you cannot sleep well anymore makes you blame yourself for overworking.

You got out of the bed and unlocked the door and went into the kitchen for a drink

You didn't know if your mind was playing tricks on you but Toji was chugging water down, the way his adam's apple bobbed after each gulp made you want to run your hands through it. There he was completely showing off his toned abs which was too clear for you to not to notice in the dark, but the light that was spilling from the fridge perfectly made it look rather attractive.

He hasn't noticed you yet, but when he did. He stopped drinking and looked directly at you. His hair looked like a mess but it was still hot to you in some way.

“Can't sleep?” He said with a rough voice.

You hummed as a response, and he gave you the water bottle he was holding.

“You?” You asked, That came out raspy, maybe because of all the talking during the function has finally caught up with you

He hummed in a response as well.

You took a quick sip and gave it back to him. And suddenly, that is when that thought crosses your mind.

‘Maybe it was because he was sleeping on the couch that he couldn't sleep, maybe if he had slept on his bed, he would’ve slept more’

Suddenly, you couldn't let him sleep on the couch anymore.

“Umm, you can sleep on the bed if you like..”

You hesitated a moment there about whether you should say it or not, but ended up saying it anyway.

He raised one of his eyebrows at that and there was a cocky smirk flashed on his face.

“Oh? Why a change of heart?”

He closed the fridge after he said that, Darkness creeped around you and him slowly, but the night lamp that you didn't notice saved you from not seeing his handsome figure clearly.

You felt your face warm at his words, you looked away couldn't keep up with this anymore

“Look at me, y/n” before you knew, he was only mere inches away from you.

You bobbed your head up at his command, you stepped back as he came closer and your back hit the wall, you knew you were trapped.

The heat radiating from his body finally caught up with you. Pinning against the wall, he asked

“Why, sweetheart?”

He knew he was loving this a little too much, leaning closer and closer, he looked deeply into your eyes, even through the dark you could still see the desire that was ranging in his eyes.

His other hand now came in contact with your waist and pulled you closer to his body.

“Hmm?” A low rumbling sound that came out of him, did things to your body. His words, his voice, his body, all of him was now creeping into you but you didn't dislike it.

“You look so beautiful in my clothes..”

His eyes were getting drunk looking into you, his hand that was on your waist has climbed up inside the oversized tee that he gave you.

If you disliked this, if you hated his touch, you would’ve already protested against this. And he knew you were loving it.

Maybe it was because you were touch deprived for so long, or was it that he was so insanely handsome? or was it because you were already under his spell?, you didn't bother

“Toji..”

That was what he needed, that plea for more. The whisper of his name was his last straw before his lips crashed on to yours.

This was a kiss, unlike how it was during your wedding, this had so much passion and desire for you. Which didnt last longer until it became so much more than a normal kiss

His other hand came up to your neck, softly messaging the nape making you melt into his touch.

You knew if the two of you cross this line, it will be way too much for both of you to handle in the morning, what if he regret it?

Your hand came up to push him away, but he was too strong for you to resist him, Somehow you pulled away from the kiss but before he could kiss you again you placed your hand around his lips, preventing him from tasting you.

He looked like he wanted more, he looked like he craved you for more until a groan left him

“Baby.. please— i need you..” he practically whined for you. You felt that when he was grinding against you, how hard he was, begging for more

For some reason that made you want to tease him more, to refuse him.

“We cant, toji.. We—”

His fingers now found your clit, rubbing you in circle while getting your folds wet with your slick.

“But arent you so wet for me?” He questions

You gasped at the sudden intrusion of his finger in your cunt

He leaned towards your ears and whispered

“Arent you, love?”

He pumped his fingers in and out, each word that left from his mouth made you squeeze around his fingers.

“Oh, Fuck— Toji...—”

“Be a good girl and cum for me” he said as he kissed down your neck

Your eyes rolled back as you came all over his fingers.

Both of your faces were flushed, you were feeling too good that you were about to pass out

“Did it feel that good? Hmm?” He chuckled making you blush

“You should sleep, its already late” He said picking you up easily

“But you're—” you protested

“Shhh, its fine” he whispered.

Right now even his voice is making you sleepy. What is he doing to you?

You didnt remember much after that, everything blurred, the last thing you saw was his face before you finally fell asleep.

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There was an intense light creeping into your eyes before you woke up, you sat upright.

Gathering your thoughts you realised what happened a couple of hours before. Your face warmed up as each scene of him ran through your mind.

‘Where was he?’

You quickly freshened up and peeked out of the room. He definitely wasnt in the living room. Maybe.. in the kitchen.

You walked to the kitchen, to see him preparing breakfast.

He noticed you behind you as he looked you through his shoulder

“Up? Did you get a nice sleep?” He asked innocently like we didnt do anything, was he trying to pretend like nothing happened? Fine. Too can play that game.

“Hm yeah.” You said. Avoiding eye contact with him, because the last thing you wanted to do was look him in the eye

He picked up on your change of attitude, you were assertive, but now. Just as he was looking at you directly. You haven't once looked him in the eye. Oh, how he could read you like a book. He loved seeing you like this, seeing you shy around him.

"What's wrong?" He asked you when you were doing the dishes

"Nothing" you said. It was a quick response, like you were sick of hearing it again and again

He pinned you against the counter, it was a swift motion, faster than your response. Your back turned towards him.

"what do I have to do to make you tell me?" He leaned towards your ear before saying, His hot breath that brushed your ear made you shiver under him. You could feel the smile that grew on his face before he walked away.

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❥part 3

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❥𝐁𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐧 𝐚 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐜𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐝 𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐓𝐨𝐣𝐢 𝐅𝐮𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐠𝐮𝐫𝐨.

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❥part 1

a/n: Hello, this is my first time writing like this,, I'm a complete amateur, only an experiment?? So if you find any mistakes or something like that, I'm so sorry. Thank you, enjoy reading!<3

This was the worst. Just when you came home after your work, your mother said that you were going to get married. You couldn't believe it. After all, you were focusing on yourself only. The last thing in your life was to marry someone. And that's when that man came into your life.

Toji Fucking Fushiguro.

It was already night time, you knew your life was going down. It did not turn out the way you wanted it to be. You sighed, It has been a couple of hours since he married you and he is nowhere to be seen.

'we never even talked in the first place' you thought.

You were already getting tired, how were you even supposed to go home now? Now that you are completely moving to a stranger's house. That happened to be your current husband. The thought of mentioning someone as your husband made your stomach churn around. Yeah, you were definitely sick.

You made your way to your parents who were so busy flashing their pretty smiles to random random people you didn't know. You thought they were probably some of them were your 'husband's' relatives.

You clearly didn't know what to do, so you stood behind them, people around you were already giving you suspicious looks about how you are standing there awkwardly. So you thought this might be the best option.

"Hi sweetie, how's the night going?" An old lady, maybe in her late 50s, asked you.

You looked up at her and saw how sweet she actually looked You didn't want to give her the cold look, even though all of this was happening without your consent.

Your parents had wandered off to some other people to talk to, you are kind of offended that they didn't pay any attention to you.

"It's amazing" the response came out rushed, but you did your best to smile at her.

"Isn't it? I'm glad you think so" she said. You knew she was trying to start up a conversation with you so you decided to get along with her.

As you were about to respond to her there was a small tap on your shoulder. You turned around to see him

You quickly said to the nice lady that you will be back after some time, but for some reason she smirked at you and gave you the eyes for some reason, like she just caught two teenagers kissing.

But I didn't pay any attention to that. I smiled and said I'll see her again.

Since it was pretty crowded with so many people during the marriage, you didn't notice how he looked, you were feeling like passing out at any moment. But thank god you didn't embarrass yourself there. But when he kissed, no, it was not a kiss but he brushed his lips slightly to yours. To fool the people that he actually did kiss me. That's when you knew, he was forced into this too.

Now that you turned around to see him, he was handsome you'll give him that much. But actually you didn't want to admit he is one of the most attractive man you have ever seen. The black suit he was wearing, with the buttoned down shirt within made him even sexier.

His face had a strong effect on you. That scar on his lips didn't make him any less attractive, you wanted to run your fingers down his sharp jaw and his scar down to his neck.

Maybe it was the air, that made you feel like this but suddenly erasing all those thoughts from your mind after he asked,

"Can we talk?"

He had a deep voice, the kind of voice that would make any woman swoon over him, you will be lying if you said you didn't find him hot.

You nodded your head and he started to walk to somewhere that was quiet and peaceful, you followed behind him.

"So, what did you want to talk about?"

You asked with curiosity, you thought that maybe both of you will get along really well. Because you were both forced into this and are in the same situation. But it was all shut down when you heard the change in his voice.

"why did you agree to this?" He asked with a stern voice. It was obvious he was mad, the change in his voice was easier to pick up. He was still standing with his back turned to you, was he holding back his anger? You didnt quite understand it

"what do you mean?" You knew where this was going, but it was supposed to happen at some point so you just let it happen, whatever that comes next, you know that its not your fault.

He turned around now standing in front of you, Toji is an intimidating man, his voice, his build, his face, screamed that he was a man that you are not supposed to approach in any situation. His dark hair falling over his eyes, those eyes now is intently looking directly into yours,

'what exactly was he getting at?'

"you know exactly what I'm talking about, y/n."

You didn't expect him to even know your name, but you definitely didn't hate how your name rolled out of his tongue

"Look Toji, i get why you are mad but I wasn't aware about this as well, you need to understand my situation too" You argued back.

you weren't able to look him in the face anymore. You certainly didn't want to argue with someone you are going to spend your entire life with.

He clenched his jaw before saying,

"It's because of you, it's your fault.. this all happened, because you agreed to this stupid marriage!" He practically yelled at you. He was furious with so much hatred and disgust. He was so much more enraged than you thought he would be.

You were about to yell back before he said

"But—"

He ticked his tongue in the roof of his mouth and said "This is ridiculous, i hate it, i hate seeing you around." His eyes were full of anger, it was only increasing each second, that it was scary to even look at him.

You wanted to argue back at him but you were completely shut down in front of him, maybe it was the shock of the whole thing that is happening to you, you didn't deserve this you knew it.

"Toji, you need to understand my situation as well. I'm in the same position as you. I never agreed, I didn't have another choice.. I—"

You need to tell him, you need to.. but your eyes are now swelling with tears that didn't want to come out. Just yet. Not now, not in front of him.

He rubbed his temple like he was sick of this whole situation. And averted his gaze away from you and towards somewhere else, you didnt know

"Argh, whatever" he said before he walked away leaving you alone, You took a deep breath and exhaled. You shouldn't cry on an occasion like this and tried to not spill the tears but it was too late.

You wiped tears quickly and went back to the night function, There you saw the old lady again, she knew something was wrong with me as you saw her approach you.

"I'm sorry about him" she said comforting you,

"Mrs, Zenin!" Someone called out, and she looked up to that voice and that's when you knew that this nice lady was his mother, even though it was obvious after this conversation.

"i apologize for his behaviour but trust me, he is just frustrated for all of this happening so fast. He will grow fond of you in no time" she said, that did not make you feel any better.

After all of that, she introduced you to his other relatives, I'm surprised how kind they were, not at all like him. Maybe they were kind and happy because their family and yours are finally joining together.

"Where is he?" One of their relatives asked.

You were lost for words, but thanks to toji's mother she saved you from that situation, and yeah it happened more than once.

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It was already time to leave, almost everyone had left the function. A few of his relatives and his parents and your parents were now left.

A very expensive car stopped in front of you, and that's when you felt a familiar presence behind you, he went up to the car and opened the door and looked at you before he stretched out his hand to you.

Everyone was looking at you and him now. You didnt think much and took his hand, even through the white shoulder length gloves you were wearing you could still feel the warmth from his hands.

We entered the car, he sat beside me and his and my mother came up to me and said our goodbyes before the car started moving.

Thinking about it only makes you weak. Maybe everything will get better after a few days.

‘Where were you going? How will you adapt to this new life? With him?’ millions of questions ran inside your head. But you pushed it all into a corner.

He sat silent, not even moving an inch. You couldn't tell what's running in his mind as well, you only felt more called as time passed and realised how long it has been and how far you are now from your home.

It was 12 in the morning, the car came to a stop, you and him exited the car from opposite sides.

And the car drove off. It was.. a pretty house, with a pretty garden on the sides of the house, lamps that look beautiful under the cold night, It is perfect but living in a luxurious house will not make both of you any happier.

He didn't even dare look at you before walking away from you to the house

You followed behind him, after we entered the house, it was so much more beautiful than when you see it from the outside.

There was a heavy breath before he said,

“Look, I'm sorry I, I was quite harsh on you back there” He turned around and said.

You were taken aback because of the sudden confession. But you didn't know what to say. It was his fault that the day of your marriage became this terrible. You weren't going to submit to him that easily.

“Where's my room?” You asked firmly.

“About that, There's only one bedroom. The guest room is lacking a bed.” he said kind of embarrassed to admit this.

Your eyes widened when he said that, no way you were going to sleep together with some stranger.

“Are you kidding me right now? Where am I going to sleep?” You said in panic, you were both looking face to face now

“You could.. sleep in my bed?” He offered, he tried to keep himself calm but you knew he was also getting nervous each second.

“With you?” You questioned.

“Of course not” he said, that came out way too rushed for you to not catch it. And averted his gaze away from you. It was faint but you caught it.

‘His ears are pink’

“I will sleep on the couch.” He finally said. Still looking away from you.

You nodded.

You were about to leave to the guest room when he said,

“By the way..”

“Um..Your luggage will only arrive tomorrow”

“What?” You were already tired, all of the information that he is now spitting out makes you even more tired.

He thought for a second before saying,

“Well— you can wear some of my clothes, for tonight?, I'll get you some.”

With that, he disappeared into a room that you think is his.

You sat down on the couch gathering all your thoughts, after a while he came back and saw you sitting down on the couch, and gave you one of his t-shirts and sweatpants.

“If you want anything, you can tell me”

And once again he disappeared to his room

You went into one of the guest rooms and locked the door and decided to take a bath.

After refreshing yourself, you tried on his clothes, which were way too big for you. You could make the tshirt work, but the sweat pants were too loose. Since your wedding dress had too many safety pins, you somehow made it work.

When you came out toji was on his phone, talking to someone, the moment he noticed you, he hung up on whoever was on the call without a second thought.

“it suits you” He says as he chuckled quietly, covering his laugh with his hand, the way he looked at you so intently made you feel like you were naked in front of him

He would be lying if he said that you didn't look cute on his clothes, a little too cute. He was trying so hard to keep his eyes away from you. For some reason he wanted it to stay like that forever.

After what he did, It still makes you feel bad for letting him sleep on the couch tonight...

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❥Next part

[lynxrq]

𝐆𝐨𝐣𝐨 𝐒𝐚𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐮

I hated the way you left me

Hate is such a strong word to use

I used It because it depicts the exact feeling I bottled up for so long

I hate you for giving me hope

I hate you for loving me

I hate you for even coming into my life like that

If you didn't enter my life, I don't know if i will still be alive right now

But I think, We were meant to meet, At some point..

Isn't that what you said?

“It is fate, There was something missing inside me. That I failed to understand, but.. when you came into my life like wind, like a whisper, like a breeze on a hot summer day, I knew.. I knew you were the one I needed my whole life. My life is complete with you by my side.”

What happened to that? Satoru?..

It was dark, blood splattered around you, you looked around. It was not him. This isn't him. This Isn't the Satoru you knew. He.. He is gone.

[lynxrq]

𝐆𝐨𝐣𝐨 𝐒𝐚𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐮.

Oh him, he was everything to you.. why? Why you wonder?

Is It his snowy white hair, that stupidly sticks out and unnecessarily gets all the attention?

Or was It the eyes, that looked the most perfect each and every second you looked into them? Even when both of you were still slowly drifting away? Was that It? you still couldn't sleep at night without his memories flooding in your mind?

Maybe, maybe.. It would've been that, If he was still some stranger to you. But he was much more than that.

His slender fingers were now intertwined with yours, and you realised it was cold. Was it always this cold?

Thousands of questions filled in your mind, that will stay with you for eternity, unanswered.

You didn't want to let go of him, you wanted him, you craved for his touch, for him to call u once again till he leaves you all by yourself.

"I love you." He said.

You turned around to see his stupid grin that you loved so much, that one smile that made you fall for him.

"Did you miss me?" He asked with so much curiosity in his eyes. It was obvious from your face, that you have been yearning for him. That eases him.

'He liked to hold my hand when it was winter. It was cold. He liked to warm my hands while we held each other with so much passion and love gleaming in our eyes. All of it was now fading like fog like there were no memories to leave behind in the first place'

'He loved Us.'

With each aching sob that left you, you got more and more tired, everything was blurry, what was happening? You didn't know.

Its winter. Your hands felt cold, it was freezing, it went numb. Winter without him is a life you never imagined, A nightmare. A nightmare that will hunt you forever.

"I wish you were here, Satoru."

"I miss you" was a voice that left unheard of from you.

You cannot think back, about how you lived your life before you met him. Or how you passed your time without thinking of him. Will you ever be able to go back? Even if you did, You don't think you'll ever want to live like that anymore anyway.

Maybe If I leave too? Maybe if we leave together, Will we meet again?

[lynxrq]

Maybe life wasn't so bad when thinking about how It used to be so warm and fuzzy,,

—28, December | 2023 |

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