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BEAST

I was once scared to fall in love again

But then he came

At first, I always feel butterflies in my stomach

Everytime I think of him, I would smile like I'm crazily in love

My heart beats fast

And, beats faster when he come near me

Then one day, I woke up with tears running in my eyes

I realized I fell in love with a different person

He's been different

The smiles I had before were changed to gallons of tears

My tears could become a sea of pain

Yes, I'm in so much pain

Is that love?

I doubt the love he has for me

It isn't genuine

I'm emotionally and physically tired

Abused by the power of the man I had truly loved

He doesn't want me to be happy

He has no dreams

Instead of motivating, he's making me down all the time

Instead of supporting, he'd say a lot of negative thoughts

No, that's not love

I wanted to leave him

But I'm scared

I don't know what to do

I've loved a different person

I loved a beast.

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Wrote this for someone I've loved. But, would like to dedicate this to my last and true love.

Baby, I Love You

Having you by my side is a feeling of serenity

A feeling resembling to that of fantasy

Persistent regardless of a difficulty

Perhaps we’re meant to be

You’re the only one, baby.

Seeing you is ecstasy

Every time, I feel extremely happy

Cause you gave me this kind of entity

Oh, I love you sincerely

Now and forever ‘til eternity.

Allow me to feel free

Not to be unworthy

Nor to be your enemy

Remember these words intimately  

I swear, I will love you infinitely.

Verses arranged rhythmically

Exceptionally made as a testimony

Rarely am I this gushy

Sorry for I am so corny

All I want is to tell you frankly

You’re my one and only, baby.

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WITHOUT YOU

My life seems miserable

I feel lost

I can't sleep

I don't know what to do

My heart seems to be broken

Into a million pieces

My mind is occupied

Occupied of the thought

Thought of you coming back

With all the love we both deserve

My whole life is a mess

Everything is ruined

All my dreams are gone

I am no one.

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TRY

I was once scared

To fall in love again

To let my heart beat for the wrong one

I decided not to love you

But I also wanted to try

That's why I woke up with a smile

Without you, I just can't live and love again

I always wanna wake up in your arms

Thank God for giving me this chance.

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Things are so neat in the literature club. Some girls are upbeat, while others they snub. An array of bright hair, and lips that they plump. But player beware, you’re in for a slump. Not all as it seems, there’s something awry. The girl of my dreams, with a glint in her eye. From terrible ropes, to knives painted red. There’s one girl that copes, while the others are dead. So lock up your files, protect them from theft. The girl who’s all smiles? Just Monika left. Literature Club, © 2018 Sarah Marie Pardy - Check out my Patreon Page to watch my series on Doki Doki Literature Club.

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WHAT COMES NEXT?

I’m a year ahead of the game

Survived those obstacles for over two decades

Fought for my life

Lived the way I want

But then, I don’t where to go next

Most of the time, I feel lost

They do not see this “lost” personality of mine

They only see me smile every time

And, laugh at everything

They don’t see what’s inside of me

They don’t know these things which are running through my head

Right know, I feel so confused

Why do I feel such thing?

Some people say feeling lost is such a good thing

HELL NO, it is not.

Things go deeper and deeper

Something’s not right

My mind is consumed by depression

I just wanna give up

But my mind and my heart somehow tell me not to

I know I am not weak

I can still fight all these

I have so many reasons to live

To many things to be thankful for

I will live for all the people I definitely love

I won’t give up

I will free my mind from these thoughts

Thoughts that are slowly killing me

These things can’t ruin my life

They can’t control me

At the end of the day, I realized something

Feeling lost is such a good thing

Knowing that there are people who’ll guide you

Show you the way

The real essence of life

Of course, will lead you to the path where you truly belong

For us to find ourselves

And not to feel lost again.

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FREE YOURSELF

Days passed

Months passed

Yet I’m still here

Thinking

Reflecting

Don’t know what to do

Don’t know where to go

My mind has been occupied by so many thoughts

These thoughts almost killed me

I was once depressed

Really stressed out because of this world is indeed an unfair place

I’ve done a lot of kinda bad things

Thought of ending my life

Ending all pains and sufferings

But then, I realized how precious my life is

I’ve begun to explore

To travel

To witness the beauty of life

To meet myself in a new place, new time, and a different perspective

I’ve begun to appreciate everything

To just go with the flow of our lives

To enjoy every moments

To smile and cheer for every perfect day

I’ve begun to love myself

Until I found myself free from all

From depression

From pain

From anger

From the world’s cruelty

I’M FREE.

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Dreamers

By Shane Robitaille

For the dreamers, artists, and rebels who make this mad world a little brighter, more colorful, kinder and better for everybody who lives here…

They can shout venomous words but we have music in our ears and can’t hear a thing they say.

They can try to push us down but we have the power of love so we will keep rising up.

They can lock us up with lies but we have truth on our side and that will always set us free.

They can steal our fortunes but we have hearts of gold so we will always be rich.

They can try to keep us down but we have poetry in our souls and can fly��up into the starry skies.

They can tell us how to think but we are the dreamers so they don’t stand a chance.

Stellar street art by Lora Zombie

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“BEAUTIFULLY IMPERFECT”

Despite the cruelty

Despite these sorrows and pains

Despite the heartaches

Despite all these burdens, 

I still see this world as something beautiful

There’s goodness in everything

Just look at the world like a child looks at it

Innocent

Yes, there is innocence

Upon that, you’ll see every beautiful creature

You’ll witness how each and every little things differ

But those differences are the ones making them beautiful

Look at one another’s heart

Go on with a deep conversation with someone

Enjoy your life while you’re still young

Live life like there’s no tomorrow

And let all these things pass by.

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LOST

I cannot see anything

Though my eyes are open

There is only DARKNESS

My eyes have been blinded

Since then, darkness is the only familiar thing to me

I can’t walk through the light

I tried a million times

To bring myself upon the light

I can sense that there is something behind this darkness

If I would be able to do so,

My whole life would be different

But I can’t just pass through it

I am so weak

I was lost and still,

LOST.

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EMPTY

Feeling tired and down?

Can’t bear the world’s cruelty?

Unsatisfied with the truth?

Weak and depressed?

I know you are

In fact, we all are

We seem to experience all these throughout our entire existence

We may not know how

But eventually we’ll surpass all this

In time, we will all get through this

There’s one superior being

Powerful and omniscient

He’ll help us all

If we also try to help ourselves

Try to figure out what’s the best for us

To act in a way that’s rationally good

To stand up and be brave

For us to be able to pass through this game

Don’t every feel empty

This emptiness is just a matter of thinking

We’re all resilient

If in case, you’re about to explode

Then, be it.

Inhale and just let it all go.

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FIX ME

I don’t have the strength

I don’t  have the courage

I can’t stand

I just can walk away

I can’t escape this sadness within me

My heart is filled with loneliness

I don’t know what to do

Don’t know where to go

Is there a cure?

Any means to get rid of all these?

I thought life is easy

But, hell, NO

Life is hard

It is filled with darkness

It is a world of insecurities

A world where people from all walks of life wear different masks

Those masks which really are mysterious

There are those whom will just pass through

People who aren’t worth the wait

And, people whom we can’t trust

I don’t know if someone can help me though

Is there someone who can fix all these

Are there still real people with real feelings?

I really don’t think so.

Can someone tell me that this is gonna end?

That all these things are just beyond my imagination?

That this world isn’t cruel?

Well, I don’t think so.

My eyes have been opened to reality since then

As well as my heart

And, my life is an open book

A book wherein you can relate your story

But these stories are all stories of miseries 

Stories of sadness

Of a girl with her shattered feelings

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FREE

I am a bird

I can fly

I fly high

I always spread my wings

As I look down

I can see the ground

I can see every little things

Things that can’t be seen through those ordinary eyes

But things which can be witnessed by the naked eyes

I am free

Free as a bird

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Yes, You!

Your eyes

Your smile

Your humble personality

Your sexy brain

Your tenderness

Everything about you makes me go this crazy

My heart skips a beat whenever you’re near

Oh God, why?

I want you so bad

I think of you a lot

I always have this image of you in my head

I don’t wanna get attached

I don’t wanna fall for you

For I don’t wanna get hurt

But, no, I’ve fallen for you

I’ve been so attached to you

You’re someone I wanna talk to every single fucking day

You’re someone I wanna see every time I wake up

My mind can’t stop thinking about you all day

My heart always wanna beat just for you

Yes, you. 😍

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SHATTERED DREAMS

Before, I can’t tell where am I truly headed

I don’t know where this life would bring me

I am not certain of my abilities

Destructed

Devastated

That was my life before.

‘Til we meet at this certain line

We crossed each other’s path

We’ve become attached

We both feel the same

Our hearts beat for the two of us

We are deeply in love

In love in a way that’s too dependent on one another

Or am I the only dependent one?

I live my life for you

I dreamt of us

Of the love that I think will last

I always dream of you, my love

The one whom I thought will be my first 

The one whom I thought will be my last

My first great love and my last true love

But,hell yeah

My heart has been broken into pieces

Will I pick up all these pieces again?

Or would you come home with me again?

It hurts.

It hurts so much.

It hurts like this wound won’t be healed again.

Because of you, my love

All these have been SHATTERED.

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Why?

Am I not good enough?

Am I that weak?

Am I that stupid?

I always ask myself why.

Why am I like this?

Why am I not like any other girls?

I don’t really know why.

There are a lot of questions which are running through my mind.

They are playing with my conscious nerves.

I am confused.

Don’t know where to get the answers

Don’t know where would these things would lead me.

I wanna cry

I wanna shout

I wanna express all these things inside me

But then, I don’t know why.

Why are these things happening?

I am so dead tired.

Dead tired of all these.

Still, I don’t know why.

Why?

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Ride this broken sea.

Can I catch my breath, Oh feel my chest, Beating so hard just to feel the rest. Solid air, cold breeze I tear, Shoulder full of ice of the heart I wear. So valiantly, Such a violent sea, Rough raging water Im sailing free. Constant effort, Despise my record, Long lasting fidelity find the treasure. Warm teeth that bite me Relax Im fighting Turn it all around Im happy….Im dying.