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1 year since I started this blog! 🥳

It's a little embarrassing, which must be a sign of growth, since I don't identify with the same mindset of insecurity I felt back then. Yet, I'm so glad I did because I wouldn't have reached this place without you.

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PROGRESS UPDATE!

Hi, everyone~ ♡

A lot happened since my last post 😄

I made a new friend, actually right after I told you about my new academic plans (an effect of your good wishes, surely), who tutored me. I did learn a lot, but more so, the fear of the subject that I had/belief that I was stupid or hopeless got diminished.

Then I took the math placement test and got placed in pre-calculus... LOL. I took the course this summer with a very good professor and math support system and tried hard. I managed to achieve an A-. 😭 What an improvement!

I think the words to best describe my feelings are relief and gratitude.

I thought of you all and your encouraging words very often to keep me going. Thank you for your support!! Now, onto calculus 🙏

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ANOTHER CHANCE

Hi, everyone. Thank you all again for the kind messages of concern and advice. I'm very grateful to be part of this community.

By school policy, I'm allowed to take another math test to place in either precalculus or calculus 1. My exam is in mid/late June. I'm going to study really hard to make up for my previous shortcomings and mistakes. This will save me time as well as money.

I'll return to classes either this summer, if I have to take pre-calculus, or this fall if I can go to calculus 1. I've gotten some mental clarity on my health, but many of my struggles and symptoms are undiagnosed. I will find a way to manage it and continue.

Please cheer me on, give me your suggestions for how to learn quickly and pray for my success/send your positive thoughts!

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Life Update

Hi everyone. It's been a while since I posted anything. My poor health last year culminated in another drop of my pre-calculus class. I managed through the other classes but I'm disheartened and embarrassed that I'm back at the starting line and wasn't able to succeed for the second time. I haven't completely recovered and I can't continue in this state so I'm taking a break from school for the spring to get myself healthy and poised for smoother progress. In the meantime, I would also study to prepare for the inevitable math.

I just need to change my perspective. School is challenging. If I succeed here, I will come out stronger.

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I got my grade for the exam. 47. I'll have to do very well in every assignment and test in the future to pass.

Success is not built on success. It's built on failure. It's built on frustration. Sometimes its built on catastrophe.

Sumner Redstone

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Health Update

My sleep and eating patterns have been irregular and unhealthy these past few days. I eat about once a day...Can't sleep until the early hours of the morning...And go through the day feeling weak. Sometimes I can't even get up and safely leave the house (dizzy, seeing black spots, headaches). I've missed classes, called out of work and not done a lot of things I should have done asap. I'm just stuck in this loop of being stressed from the overwhelming amount of tasks and responsibilities which prevents me from effectively functioning and executing any of those things which causes more stress... @~@

But on the bright side I finished my math homework and learned stuff yesterday!

I know things will get better if I just keep on going. I need to figure out how to take care of myself properly and manage all these other things.

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Me taking notes

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Hi guys,

I haven't seen my score for the math exam yet but apart from being worried, I had also been feeling kind of down. Questioning whether I'm truly cut out for this career and how I'll make up the money to pay for retaking this course if I have to- again. I was comparing myself to peers who will have moved past me and wondering how I'm going to do it all.

But then, I unexpectedly got to meet a voice actor of the main character from a popular anime. He signed an autograph for me and wrote an inspiring message to go along with it. I hadn't told him anything about this or how sad I've been and I'm sure that line that he wrote is not uncommon in his previous autographs...still, it meant so much to me. I felt like I was being cheered on by a character that he voices. I decided that I'll try harder from now on. I need to live up to that support. It's my good luck charm. And of course, I should never forget you who is supporting me. Thank you.

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Hello everyone,

I took my math exam yesterday. Because it was rescheduled and my school is shifting testing locations, it was a bit difficult for me to find the right place. But thankfully I was helped by some kind people and sat for it. I was happy to see familiar questions but disappointed when the answers I got were quite strange. I did my best though. At the end, I felt a sense of peace. I hope it will be enough to progress and pass this class.

I had looked at studying in a very one dimensional way. I thought my improvement would be exponential or at least linear, which was not the case. I'll have to develop the habit of studying math to truly progress and be comfortable with it.

I'll see these past few days as a spring-board or catalyst and keep working. Thank you for your support!

-Rambutan

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There was an emergency situation at my school and the exam has been postponed until Thursday. I have another chance to study. I'm going to study almost every moment today, tomorrow and Thursday morning. I can't continue being weak by not taking opportunities. I can do this!

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Hi, everyone. I have my first precalc exam today and I'm unprepared. I got through the homework with some guidance all right but when it comes to doing it on my own, I make simple mistakes. I'm familiar with all the topics but I don't know them well enough or inside out.

I'm very scared since it's my 2nd time taking this class (I dropped it in the spring) and the first test is worth 20%.

I blocked out a few days to study for this last week leading up to the exam but stress took over my body and I ended up doing nothing much productive. It's overwhelming. Everything. And I feel like my career is falling apart. I'm also worried about other people's opinions and how they'll react to me getting a poor grade.

At this point, I want a decent enough grade to pass the class. Which is an 80%. That being said, I need to try not to lose too many points on this test. I'm so worried.

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People go back to college/university at different ages and have to relearn or take something unfamiliar to them. I believe you can and will overcome this and become stronger and Yes, you can be an engineer. Much love to you!

Awww thank you so much, anon! Your support means a lot to me.

I'll do my best! ٩(◕‿◕｡)۶

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Hi, everyone! I'm Rambutan (nicknames welcomeヽ(*・ω・)ﾉ ). Just a normal engineering student, with a normal life. But there's something about me that not many people know yet- I struggle with math. ☆⌒(> _ <)

My goal is to become a mechanical engineer. A career for which I must have a strong background in mathematics. ☆⌒(× _ ×)

I had a shaky grade/high school math career, which has left me unprepared for college. My current pre-calculus class is fast-paced and daunting. Most of my peers have seen these topics at some point...I don't even know how to attempt basic problems.

I wanted to start this blog to help motivate myself, document my progress and, hopefully, inspire other people to rise to academic challenges, overcome their fears and chase their dreams.

Through this blog, I also wish to become good friends with you all. This is my first tumblr. I'm new. I don't understand all these buttons.... __φ(．．)

Please look after me~ <(_ _)>

-Rambutan