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Some Logan headcanons:

Selectively-mute. The words are there, he just can't get them out. It developed slowly when he was a kid. Hesh was always patient with him, Elias learned as he learned exactly what was happening. They both became adept at reading his nonverbal forms of talking, and they all learned sign language. Logan is able to talk the most around them, but he still doesn't talk alot, or swaps between speaking and signing. Sometimes, strong enough emotions is enough to make a sentence burst out of him. Due to his lack of talking his voice usually sounds rough.

He has a tendency to overwork/push himself on things. Hesh knows this and let's him oversleep on his shifts to try and give him a bit of a break.

A natural born soldier, learned quick whenever Elias taught them something new. It made him more determined to follow Hesh and Elias into the military; since he was already good at it, why not make use of it? (And he liked being good at something, having a skill that was his. So what if he wanted to keep at it. See how far he could go.)

He hates hats. Hates them. But he's fine with masks, ones he has to wear once joining the military and once he's given his dad's. (Helmets are okay. They fit different.)

Walks silent as hell and scares the shit out of everyone. He loves it.

Secret fiend for energy drinks. He'll fight someone for the last one.

Logan chooses to follow, instead of trying to make his own path. Step in Step with Hesh because where else would he go; while he watches. Always follows, always watches. And Hesh counts on it, for Logan to have an eye out. Hesh is in front, drawing in the attention of anyone, while Logan watches for anything they need to know. (At first they used it to try and get out of trouble with their dad.)

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DISCUSSION TIME (Reblog it or answer in replies) Why do you think Rorke is too focused on logan? Put in your mind that Rorke is brainwashed and he is so ready and ordered to kill the ghosts. All of them, so why not logan?

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I also bought two movies today and somehow maybe explains my person a bit 😅

1. A Scandinavian Horror/Thriller about a medical student trying to find a serial killer that years ago attacked her parents and was believed to be dead, during her night shift at a morgue

2. A german Children Detective Story based on an audio play/book series started in the late 70s rocking til today (the original is not based on something german but a novel by an american journalist from the 60s, but if i start now that will take way too long 😅)

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Ya boi got another tattoo :3

Look at this cutie, tribute to my other cat (he's still kicking)

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Lil Vent about something from work today, cause it's not leaving my brain until i poop it out somewhere

Cw mention of ed/disordered eating

I mean it's not much but this is running through my head for literally 10hours now.

A coworker and i were just conversing and she brought up weight for somereason, looking at me "well you don't need to worry with weight gain or loss, looking like a model" already like eh in my mind, but i know she meant it nice, but i personally hate that comparison, but that's not what this is about, but what she said after. I said a bit that I'd rather gain a bit than lose more than i have already, which promted her to asked if i had trouble gaining weight, which i said yeah, cause i do struggle with that and she just had to go "oh i wish i had that struggle" girl... i just looked her dead in the eyes with "i struggle hard with eating itself" she looked bad for a second only to continue with "oh, but you need to eat", like yeah no shit, i know that, i can't do anything about the fact tho that my body seems to think that eating and food are its mortal fucking enemy...

I'd rather be able to eat and gain weight like a normal freaking human, but no i have to be stuck in a complete struggle of having to force myself to eat literally anything, let alone something substantial. Only for people to praise me being skinny and wanting this, sure you can have this,.i don't want it. You can have the days where i struggle to stand for longer than ten minutes because i haven't eaten in like 2 days and my body tries to squeeze all sustenance it can out of one bag of chips and juice. Or the slight overeating periods in the moments i actually can eat only to feel super crappy afterwards. That i cannot weigh myself because it will start a war in me about how it's simultaneously too much and too little.

I know that she didn't mean anything like badly, because she has her own problems that i won't air, but this whole thing is so touchy for me, like you can barely say anything good to me about my eating, no matter how you mean it, my brain will always make it worse than it was, but it's not like a thing that i can like avoid talking about

I don't even know where I'm going with this,.or what the point here is, just screaming into the void here...

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Lil Vent about something from work today, cause it's not leaving my brain until i poop it out somewhere

Cw mention of ed/disordered eating

I mean it's not much but this is running through my head for literally 10hours now.

A coworker and i were just conversing and she brought up weight for somereason, looking at me "well you don't need to worry with weight gain or loss, looking like a model" already like eh in my mind, but i know she meant it nice, but i personally hate that comparison, but that's not what this is about, but what she said after. I said a bit that I'd rather gain a bit than lose more than i have already, which promted her to asked if i had trouble gaining weight, which i said yeah, cause i do struggle with that and she just had to go "oh i wish i had that struggle" girl... i just looked her dead in the eyes with "i struggle hard with eating itself" she looked bad for a second only to continue with "oh, but you need to eat", like yeah no shit, i know that, i can't do anything about the fact tho that my body seems to think that eating and food are its mortal fucking enemy...

I'd rather be able to eat and gain weight like a normal freaking human, but no i have to be stuck in a complete struggle of having to force myself to eat literally anything, let alone something substantial. Only for people to praise me being skinny and wanting this, sure you can have this,.i don't want it. You can have the days where i struggle to stand for longer than ten minutes because i haven't eaten in like 2 days and my body tries to squeeze all sustenance it can out of one bag of chips and juice. Or the slight overeating periods in the moments i actually can eat only to feel super crappy afterwards. That i cannot weigh myself because it will start a war in me about how it's simultaneously too much and too little.

I know that she didn't mean anything like badly, because she has her own problems that i won't air, but this whole thing is so touchy for me, like you can barely say anything good to me about my eating, no matter how you mean it, my brain will always make it worse than it was, but it's not like a thing that i can like avoid talking about

I don't even know where I'm going with this,.or what the point here is, just screaming into the void here...

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✨ lollipop ✨

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not so silent night

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Pride husbands

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I will say it again and Keep saying it till i die and die on that hill:

STOP👏🏻. PUTTING👏🏻. KEEGAN👏🏻. IN👏🏻. MW2👏🏻. TIMELINE👏🏻.

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Oh, that's so great💚

I got bored and made some pride art!

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Bought sunflower seeds for the first time in forever again. I was kinda questioning myself why i stopped cause i really like sunflower seeds, eating them now i remember.

Same "problem" i got with pistachios, i do love the seed itself, but i do love sucking the shells more 😂 they got such a nice mouthfeel and taste tho, especially if they're salted

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It's fun reading writers who clearly grew up in suburban/urban environments as someone who grew up on a farm because they're always like "oh it was so creepy, woods at night, eerily breathtaking, something was living in there..." and it's like yeah that'll be the deer.

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ily music

(sorry for reupload)

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So about that, i was fine, crossed my mind once, but not exactly distracting.

What i will say tho, i for one understand why Hesh uses it as a weapon, also these things are heavy af, Hesh certified strong boy.

And with that, how tf did Rorke not die when Hesh pulled that thing over his head like that, should've cracked his skull wide open

Man, i have a fire training tomorrow, where i learn how to properly extinguish fires and shit... I'm not gonna get that outta my head til then, that's gonna be fun 😂😂

(Not entirely mad aboit it tho)

This fire extinguisher Hesh post is whooping y’all’s asses 😭😭😭