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Home isn't a place, it's a feeling and I lost it.

I never felt "at home" at one spezifice place. I could be on holiday and "home" was the hotel-room. When my family moved out of my childhood home it didn't matter since I thought love was with the people I care about. Well resently my homelife has been a bit difficult because I keep arguing with my stepfather and it starts to feel like a mindfield ever time I come home. Often we argue over stupid, little things and the thing is, that he is mostly right. I know this and I try to be better but it's just never enought. I am to old for this mess but it is driving me crazy.

The wierd thing is, he only freaks out at me over this and only resently. He didn't care when it was his kid and true I am not the cleanest person (I clean like once a week or so) but he acts like I distroy the house. Normally it's stuff like: I didn't fold the towel the way he wanted or I left one plate in the sink or I forgot to emty the facum after cleaning. And I try so hard but he always finds something. Like when he and my mum went on holiday for a week and I cleaned the house top to bottom. When they came back he was pissed at me because his son felt the lights on and I didn't call him to switch them off. (I couldn't swich them off myself because I didn't have the key for the room where the switch was) or when I made chrismas cookies and woke up at 5 am. to clean up because the cookies had to harden and cool overnight. I cleaned the entire kitchen but forgot ONE spot in the oven where a bit of floor was. When I saw him that morning that was the first and only thing he said to me. He keeps saying he wants me to help out more but whenever I ask if they need help I am told "no" (like 9 out of 10 times) and he sees annoyed that I even asked. Or I come home after over 12 hours and want to eat my only meal of the day, they are in the garden. I didn't even saw them at the beginning. When I walked in they said hello, I greeded them, told them I was cold and that I would make dinner (we eat seperatly because of our sedules). The next day he was pissed because I didn't offer the help them then and there. It's not like I wouldn't have helped I just didn't think to ask in that moment and they say they shouldn't have to ask because I should see it all on my own.

There are a few other incidents but listing them would take forever. Point is I can't do this anymore. It's hurting my mum and I feel like I have no home any longer. I can't move out because I am still studying and have to leave for months at a time to go to the only school for what I am studying which is over 2 hours away and with what I earn an aparment is not an option. The hole thing is so fustrating because we used to get along so well. I even helped when I wanted to propose to my mum but now I dread hearing his voice because that means no more leaving my room or risking an argument.

Again I know he is not wrong but every small thing is suddenly the end of the world and no matter how much I try to think of every single thing, he always finds something new I did wrong. I can't wait to move out but that will take over a year still.

Yesterday we had our worst fight yet and if I had been his daughter I think he would might have hit me. I almost told him that it wasn't his buisness what I do with my room (it was made very clear that as long as I don't break anything my room is my buisness only) but I stopped myself because it is still his house and I realised that saying that would not only be untrue but also disrespectful. He challanged me to say more even though I tried to explain myself. The look in his eyes scared me. My mum stept between us then and I started crying because I hate this. I want to be as orderly as they want and I don't want to fight but it's never good enough. It's not like he is super clean either. He used to be way messier but suddently ever spot I foget to clean makes me unresponsible. Meanwhile he or his son can leave everything standing there and I can't say anything because I am not orderly enough.

After our fight I went into my room and broke down a bit because I relised that I didn't feel save or at home anymore. Well I don't feel unsave but it's like being at work kind of save where you don't have to fear harm but at ever moment your boss could come in and scold you or give you extra work. I feel like I lost my save space because I am not at home. I am a guest who overstayed my welcome. He used to tell me that I could live there as long as I wanted but a few minutes later he told me it was his house and if I didn't like something I should leave. I offered to pay rent but he doesn't want it. He wants me to be grateful that he fixed up the room when I moved and I am but a new wallpaper doesn't make a home.

I already thing of where I can stay after work so that I only have to slep there. I mean it works for his son. They used to fight all the time even after he "gave up trying" (which considering that my stepbrother really isn't that bad seems like a shit thing to say about your kid). Now my stepbrother is at his girlfriends parents house all the time and only comes every few weeks. He is still messier then me but since he is never there it doesn't matter when he leaves everything out. Meanwhile I get order to come at ever small mistake like a dog. It's true that I don't like cleaning, who does? That doesn't mean I will become a messy or that i don't clean up after myself.

I will not go to my mum with his because she is so happy with him and they love each other so much and I don't want to burden her with his. I should be better at this! I am an adult but I can't get out of this situation.

Sorry for the rant and any mistakes. English is not my native language but I feel like I can express myself better in english.

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How they first met

God Nico & Jason

Nico was made a god instread of being locked into the lotus hotel and often visits the camps. But in camp jupiter fashion everyone acts distant and formal because... well he is a god.

young Jason is 12 years old and on a quest. He has been separated from the other demigods and there is a group of monsters about to rip him apart. Cornered and scared he pulls his sword and prepares to die. Just as the monsters attack he sends a last prayer to the gods but doesn't expect it to do anything. The gods don't come to their rescue. Just as he is about to die the monster who has its claws around him explodes into glittering dust. The other monsters scream and flee as shadows seem to skin them alive.

Jason gasped in shocks and looks around. Before him stands a boy, just a few years older then him. Jason is sure he has seen him before... then it comes to him. Before him stands Nico di Angelo. A son of Pluto, god of shadows. He scrambels to get up, to bow or kneel, to show his graditute before the god takes offence. "My Lord, thank you. I - I am deeply greatful." He is unsure of how to continue and it scares him. He is suppost to be perfect yet here he is, not only did he nearly fail his quest but now he can not find the words to thank his savior.

"Stop panicing cousin", the young god says, "I require no show of thanks. I gladly helped. Now for the love of Olympus get up and let me look at your wounds." Jason did as he was told, he blushed furiously as felt the gods hands on him. For a moment he thinks of his father and all the storys of what he has done. Of what would happen if... "Stop panicing Grace", Nico says, "I am nothing like your dear father." Jason blushes even harder.

"Seems only skin deep but you should get medical attention soon. I will take you back to camp", Nico mumbled but Jason stopped him, "but the others-", "Are save and I have told them to get to safety before I came for you" without another word Nico gripped Jasons hand and they were gone.

The rescue of Jason Grace by the son of Pluto was the talk of the entire camp. Many saw it as futher prove of Jasons promising future others (like Octavian and Bruce) liked to make fun of him for it. Jason spend at least an hour every day in the temple of Pluto, praying both to Pluto and to Nico. Who while not offically having an altar was now very well known around camp. "I don't need an altar, Jason", Nico argued but Jason shock his head. "You should have one Nico, you are a god. It is only fair for both you and us. Demigods should be able to worship you properly."

Over the years Niccolo was seen quit often at camp. While most demigods adored and respected him and he was known for his kindness towards them it became clear that he had his favourites as every god did. His sister Hazel, her boyfriend Frank, the predetor Reyna and of course Jason.

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Solangelo fanfiction idea: Beauty

Will knew he was handsome, objectivly. He was always told he has "such a handsome boy" by adults and as the son of Apollo (the god of male beauty) it was no supprise that he attracted quit a bit of romantic interest as he grew up. But he found beauty could be found in quit diffrent forms and sometimes people were so consumed by what they thought to be beautiful that they couldn't see true beauty if it was right in front of them. Best example: Nico di Angelo.

Will thought Nico to be very handsome in an adorable way. His boyfriend was cute with his big brown eyes, his shy smile and flushed cheeks. Will liked to tell him that but Nico did not think he was serious. The son of Hades did not see himself as beautiful or attractive in any way, in fact he seemed unable to fandom anyone seeing him like that. It hurt Will a bit when his lover spoke so lowly of himself

It did not help that at the beginning of their relationship Nico did not match the typical beauty standard and sometimes people still avoided him because of his looks and his aura. The Aphrodite cabin tended to be very vocal about such things and Will began to hate them a bit for it. How could no one see what he did? Nico wasn't a demon but an Angel, it even was in his name! Nico could handle himself of course but Will knew that the stange looks and comments hurt his boyfriend. Worse of all was when some of Wills' admirers cornered Nico to tell him he wasn't good enought for Will. What son of Apollo could be seen with a child of the underworld? That Will had rejected all of them in favour of Nico seemed to drive them insane.

That day Nico had cracked and Will found his boyfriend curled up in bed, crying silently. He just held Nico and assured him with sweet words while boiling on the inside.

But as the years went by something changed. Nico grew taller, his pale skin tanned and went back to a glowing olive complaction, his smile became even more charming with every day, his hair grew softer and curled slightly at the edge making him resembled a princess in Wills opinion. The training also paid off as Nico grew stronger and Will found himself staring more often then not. Now the roles more or less switched. Will wasn't ugly but sometimes he felt insecure standing next to Nico, who besides turning out to breathtakingly handsome was also increadable powerful. Hades had made his son his ambassator and crowned him when Nico turned 18. The news seemed to attrack even more people to Nico.

The son of Hades was one of the most desired batchlors in both camps but refused any and every advance. But it bothered Will that at ever turn people fell over themself to hit on his lover, sometimes even right infront of him, even though it was well known that they were dating for years. One day Nico came home from a mission and found Will sitting on their bed staring at the wall. Now it was Nico who assured Will lovingly.

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Question for authors

Do you ever work really hard on a story and do as best as you can and still feel like it sucks?

I have loved writing since I was a kid and have been writing on a book of my own for years now. This story is really important to me. I am currently prove-reading to change some of the things I don't like/correnct the writing style since it change in the last years.

But even when I read parts where I don't find much to correct I still feel like everything sucks. Charackter too flawless, to much explained, boring plot... but whenever I tell my friends/family they think everything is fine. I know they aren't professionals but I trust them and they are the best I got.

Is it normal for the author to only see flaws in their work?

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fanfiction idea: Fae solangelo

Summary: Will never belived in fairys, or monsters or stuff like that. Espically after all the time he had spent studying medicin. Things like fea or vampires weren't physically possible. That's why he thought nothing of it when his friend dared him to offer himself to a fae in exchange for a pizza. When the pizza delivery guy indeed brought his favourite pizza he wrote it of as a lucky coincidence. When he woke up to following day, in a strange forest, chained to the grassfloor, naked with only a strang looking boy as company he thought it might be time to change his mind.

Will blinked his eyes open, he looked around in confusion. He was in the woods. How did he get here and how- why was he chained to the ground?! Why was he nude?! Just as he was starting to panic an sweet voice brought him out of his thoughts. "Why hallo sweet one" Will looked up and just a few feet away sat a strange looking boy and a grass covered rock. He had black hair, black eyes and sparkeled like the crown mode out of dark but precious stones on his head. Beautiful wings covered in black and golden feathers across his back. When he grinned, white fangs gleamed in the sunlight. Will swallowed. "What is your name, sweety?" The boy asked. "Will", he answered "and yours?" "Nico diAngelo prince of the shadow Fea", the boy grinned dangerously, "or Nicolo. Call me as you like but I prefer Nico." Will felt like his world had sceeched to a stop. "A Fae?" he asked silenty but the boy had heard him, "Yep I am the fea you bargained with" Wills eyes went wide. The bargain he had made. Fuck. The boy jumped down from the rock and came closer. He was dressed in a dark chiton with chains and skulls on his belt. Will tried to move away but the chains held him in place. The boy eyed him up and down. The blond flushed deep red, suddently being reminded of his own nudity. "You are really pretty", Nico said carassing Wills cheek, "I've wanted a new pet for quit a while" Will felt the blood drain from his face. Without warning Nico pressed their lips together and the world turned black

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Fanfiction idea Jasico

Promt: I got drunk and accidently send nudes to my hot boss

So Jason is a new hire at a big firm and fell head over heals in love with his boss, the company owners son, Nico DiAngelo. While drunk with Leo and Percy he ends up confessing his crush to them and one of them has the idea to send some sexy pictures. When Jason is sobber again he is horrified to find out that he send half a dozend nudes to his boss who had written back: MEET ME AT MY OFFiCE!!

Jason thinks he is getting fired but Nico has other ideas

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Pjo Fanfiction idea

A Nico & Reyna fic (NOT as a ship) based on the scene in BoO where Nico protects Reyna from Bryce.

AU. Where Nico is a prince and Reyna a war general. Octavian and Bryce are under Reynas comand but plot against her. They find out she killed her father as a young girl and together with some plotting and false allegations arrest her for patricide and treason.

Prince Nico DiAngelo stared at the file in his hands, making sure the words he had just read were truely written there. Apparently one of his fathers most affected war generals was arrested for very serious crimes. Reyna Avila ramirez arellano was accust of killing her father and commiting treason by... he sight Octavian. Of course, how he managed to pull that stunt Nico didn't know but he wouldn't belive a word that mad man said. He read the file again. It said that Octavian had requested a puplic trail and suggested the death sentence. From what little he had seen from both of them this seemed more of a way to openly humiliat and kill Reyna then any display of real justice. Something about the whole thing seemed off to him, he decided to take a closer look at the situation in person.

Reyna struggled against the chains that bound her as Bryce tore off her armor. Octavian watched it all from the other side of the bars and she wished nothing more then to ripe both of them apart. She had no idea how all of this had happened but she knew why. Octavian wanted her post, he was delusunal and wanted to selfishly earn glory. False glory covered in the blood of innocents. Something he couldn't get as long as she was in comand. How Bryce learned of what had happened with her father Reyna didn't know but the fact that he knew, that both of them knew and were planning to make the most traumatic and shameful event of her life public made her feel ill. "I have sent a request for trail to the king", Octavian said mockingly, "hopefully we don't have to wait long. After all such serious carges for such a high renced member of the military... the king will want to have it resolved quickly." Bryce laught and hit her so hard in the stomach she finched away in pain. "I can't wait for everyone to hear about your little secret", the told her with gleeming eyes, oh how he enjoyed this. To humiliat her, to distroy her reputation and everything she worked for. All over something she did to protect herself as a child and made up allegation of treason they all knew she would never commit. Reyna tried not the let her inner turmoil be seen, "You won't get away with this", she growled but the other two just laught. "Oh Reyna", Octivian giggled as he came closer, "don't you see? We aren't doing anything wrong. We only want to put a crimial in their place." She spat at him, grinning in sadisfaction at his angry scowl, it made the slap he gave her worth it. "Careful Reyna, we need you alive till the trail but not unharmed", the blond said before turning to Bryce, "have fun." Reyna's blood ran cold.

Nico had arrived at the military base the next day, just before sunset. He demanded to speak to Octavian and the man goes on and on about "No one saw such a thing coming", when Nico asked about the allegations against Reyna. When he asked to speak with her in person whoever the blond began to act even stranger and Nico knew something was seriously wrong. Later after escaping Octavians presents Nico went to the cells to speak with the General but stopped in his tracks when he heard a scream. The young prince snuck closer and what he saw made hot furry run through him. A man stood over Reyna, who was tied down. She looked like a wild beast had attacked her, her hair was disheveled and unevenly cut, her body was covered in shallow cuts and dark bruses and her clothes were ripped to shreds. He recugnized the "beast" that stood there with a blade in hand laughing and demanding that she beg for mercy. A man who had commited enough crimes and should already be gone. Nico had seen enough. Silently he pulled his blade and before Bryce could hurt Reyna again, he was dead. Nico turned towards the chained girl, now that the danger was gone. Reyna was barely concious, her lips bleeding and dry from lack of water, her eyes red and bloodshot from lack of sleep. He stepped closer but before he could free her of her restrains she fainted.

When Reyna woke up she found herself no longer in a stinking cell but in a soft featherbed. She looked around a few meters away sat her prince. Nico DiAngelo was sitting in an armchair, going through files, seemingly not having noticed that she was awake yet. Unsure of what to say she cleared her throat, making him look up. Worry and relive flashed in his eyes. "You should drink somehing", he pointed to the water on the nightstand. Eagerly she drank as she hadn't gotten much water in the time of her imprisonment. When she reached out to grab the gass the banket fell off her and revealed bandages over all her wounds, a strong smell of healing salve filled her nose. Someone had taken her to the healer. The last thing she remembered was Bryce beating her and demanding she beg him to stop. Well who was easy enough to guess but why was the prince even here? As if he could read her mind Nico answered: "I came to speak with you in person about the accustions Octavian made. When I demanded to see you, Octavian tried to talk me out of it so I investigated and well... I couldn't let that man torture you." Reyna did not know what to say, the prince was her savior but could still become her judge and executioner. "I have never commited treason my prince. I swear it", she said honestly. He looked at her for a few secunds in silents before saying: "I belive you" she wanted to sigh in relive but that was not the only crime she was accust of. "But you aren't denying that you killed your father?", he asked. Reyna toke a breath, she owned him the truth, not only because he was her prince but he had saved her life, given her a chance to tell her side of the story. She would not throw that away. "I won't deny what I did", she confessed, "I did what I had to do. My father was not a kind man and my sister and I- it was our only chance to survive. Someone was going to die and I decided that it wasn't going to be me." There she said it, her darkest secret was out in the open for him to judge. The prince would have every right to call in guards and have her dragged back into her cell. But he did no such thing, instead he just nodded. "I understand", he mumbled before meeting her eyes, "but others might not. Patricide is not really a crime most can excuse even when they would call it justice if the blow came from anyone else." Again he was right and they both knew it. "What will now happen to me?", Reyna could not help but ask. It didn't sound like was was sentencing her to death but still-. "Does anyone else know what happened?", he asked. Reyna shock her head, she didn't even know how Octavian had found out, she told him as much. "I do not wish to punish you but it would be better to get you away from here for a while", he said. Reyna bowed her head in submission till he continued: "We could need a new master of the guard at the castle if you're intrested."

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Solangelo fanfiction idea - Garden party

So we know Nico comes from a rich italien family and Hades is the god of riches. The kid comes from old money

Hades has quiet a few Hotels and organisation which host yearly events, which he of course can't attent so he sends Nico. One of those events just happens to be a gurden party at a beautiful resort in italy which Nico secretly loves.

He invites Will to come along but they have a little miscommunication, Nico tells him it's a garden party and Will thinks of the garden party like the ones he had as a child, in a backyard with sodas and games. So when Nico comes to his cabin to pick him up, looking drop dead gorgouse Will realises he messed up.

He ends up at a high soceity garden party, dresses in flanal and cargo-shorts, with people who look like their cars costs more then his family's house.

This would be so much worse if his boyfriend didn't looks so damn good.

UNO Reverse

Will invites Nico to a guarden party his mother throws at her house. The family comes to visit and Will wants to introduce his boyfriend. He tells him to wear what makes him comfortable.

The thing is that I don't belive Nico would feel comfortable while being underdressed when meeting Will's family for the first time. He wants to make a good impression.

The entire family get a shock when Nico shows up, being super well dresses. Like the rich kid from the 30's he is. Will rolls his eyes but is actually super smuck about how handsome his boyfriend is

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Pjo Fanfiction idea

Instead of to the hotel Hades takes his kids to the underworld. Bianca becomes a huntress and Nico is made god of shadows at 15.

Thing is Nico loves meeting and helping young demigods. No one really knows to much about him but sometimes he just shows up at camp (both camps).

All the other gods are absent and distant and he just pops in. Like he suddenly sits at the campfire or helps campers during capture the flag.

At the beginning everyone is afraid of him because of his "scary" powers but most grow used to him. As long as you don't piss him off. He hates bullies and is known to protect outcasts.

Of course he has his favourites:

WILL: He helps Will in the infermary and warns him if someone is close to death. He also forces the Apollo kid to take a break and sleep. Once he just shadow traveled Will out of the infermary and into bed. CHB always teases Will because it is clear they are crushing HARD.

REYNA: He adores her, she reminds him of Bianca and she is just cool. Nico even blessed her, she won't have to worry about her place in the afterlife. Sometimes he helps her with work (if he can help Hades run the underworld he can help her with camp Jupitor). Sometimes after a long day Reyna finds home made italian meals in her office.

HAZEL: He brought his sister out of the underworld and gods help whoever sends her back. Nico is very much the protective older brother here. He loves having movie nights with her where they gossip and watch old movies. When Hazel and Frank got together he scared the living daylight out of Frank "I will end your life and afterlife is you hurt her". (Later that week Nico and Hazel discust the best wedding day cake flavours)

JASON: Jason prays to Nico, Nico finds it adorable and funny. He always answers. With time Jason relaxes a bit and the prayers became more like IM. Jason bulit Nico a shrine (you are a God Nico, yes it is necessary) Hazel and Reyna visit it quit often. Nico also drags Jason out of camp to enjoy his life a bit. Nico is one of the few people that don't expect Jason to be perfect. The always get fast food and sweets because Jason wouldn't eat it otherwise.

He also loves messing a bit with people he dislikes. Octivian hates him.

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I am sick and tired of HotD Season 2

First of all: No one is at fault for anything in this! Lucerys death -> accident. Jaehaerys death -> accident, blood and chees -> meh

Maybe I am a horrible person for this but I want them to be bloodthirsty and fucking own it. Rhaenyras son died in an attack while being a messenger. He was suppost to be save but was attacked and murdered after been chased and mocked by his killer. He did in terror and what does his mother who he died for do? She goes to the woman who tormented them for years and tries to make peace! Fuck no. I want her to be furious and out for blood. Her child is dead. The secund child she lost because of the greens and she wants to make peace?!

Aemond is not the monster he is in the book, he is a fucking coward and a dumpass. He hunted Luke to scare him and forgot that he is riding a 120+ year old war dragon. How stupid can you get? That's like hunting down a child on a bike with your car in the middle of a storm. Everyone knew what would happen, but no Mr. "I studied that and that and that" didn't get the memo. By the way big brain time: parading the head of a dragon through the city full of angry and hungry people.

I have no idea wtf is going on with Daemon in this season but I am disappointed and it's weird.

Alicent is finally realising that she was/is a bad mother and that supporting a system that puts women down can end badly if you are a woman. Who would have thought?!

I feel bad for Jacaerys. Dude is fighting an uphill battle and everyone around him is an idot. His mother set him up for failure and he has every right calling him out. He risks his life for her crown but she is setting him up to be usurped. (Sadly he will never live long enough to be king) both with the dragon riding bastards and her kids with Daemon. Jace loves his siblings and will die trying to protect them but they are a threat to his claim. I want him to marry Baela and be the best king Westeros has ever seen but...

I really like Addam and Seasmoke but I am not sure if they make sence. Addams Targaryen blood is very thin. He is the son of a Velaryon not a Targaryen. Velaryons aren't Dragonriders. Laenor was a dragonrider because he was half Targaryen. They being related is the only reason I can think of for Seasmoke to claim him. That Laenor did and Addam reminded Seasmoke of his first rider. But we don't know if that is true.

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Inspired by this story --> written by Totally_1nnocent

Dancing in the woods --> Patroclus POV.

It was strange to see Achilles enter his first rute. Worry filled me as I watched him. He was in pain and I could do nothing to help him. Never before have I seen him so vulnerable. Luckily I was allowed to stay by his side during it, a comfort for both of us I am sure. A comfort I myself would not get, I later realised as not long after he presented I did too. But I was nothing like Achilles. The gods did not love me as they did him. I should have known what was happening as soon as I woke up with stomack cramps in the morning. If I had known sooner, then maybe I could have spared myself the shame of collapsing infront of him, having to be carried back like a child.

I remember little of the next few hours or maybe even days as I had lost all concept of time. I just remember the pain that would not stop. The shame I felt once me heat riddled mind understood what was truely happening. I had gone into heat. I was presenting as an Omega. The shame and humiliation nearly drowned me. It was wrong, I was wrong. Men were not suppost to be omegas! No wonder father send me away. A freak of nature. It became clear why they would not let me see Achilles no matter how much I pleaded. Both in my clear and not so clear moments. I hoped Achilles would never find out how I moaned his name as my thoughts would turn filthy at night when I was sure to be alone. He could never know, for surely he would abandon me too. Turn his back on me in disgust. If he hadn't done so already. He must know by know, Achilles must have wanted answers and what Achilles wants he gets. Would he still want me as a companion once my heat broke? Or would my weakness be the final straw that broke the friendship that meant the world to me? The thought alone was too much to bare.

Several days passed. Slowly. My only visitors being the servents who cleaned my bed and brought me food. I was glad for it. It was humiliating enought to wake up in a pool of my own slick, it was bad enough that they saw it. Finally my heat ended and I was allowed to leave the room. I was allowed to go back to my- to Achilles' room. Was I still premitted to sleep there? They gave me a plain white chiton to wear and so I went. I was shaking with fear the whole way there, trying hard not to cry. I did not want to be seen as even weaker but Achilles would see through it with ease. He knew me too well.

The moment he layed eyes on me, Achilles was at me side and just like that he dam broke. The relive I felt upon seeing him was so great it crashed into me like a wave. He still cared for me despite my statue as an omega. But soon the relive was tainted by shame. The memories of what I had done with myself calling his name were fresh in my mind, as were the nighmares of him disregarding me. I cried. He was worried, asked what was wrong and tried to offer comfort. Gods he was too good for me!

It took me quit a while till I was calm enough to talk. Surely he knew already what had happened, knew what abomation I had turned out to be. He did but instead of disregarding me he called me a blessing. That made me so angry in the first moment but it also gave me hope of something that I only dared dream of. Could he not understand how much of a freak this made me? No real woman and not man enough. But he insisted and bend reality to his own wimps, as he often did. It was fladdering, that he thought so highly of me, even if he was wrong.

When it was time for us to go to bed I was sure my face would meld. Just two weeks ago this would have been no issue at all. Now I could feel ever faber of my being. All to aware of my nudity in presents of an alpha. I fell to the sent of Achilles on my pillow, to tired to wounder how it got there.

(That was the first chapter. If you guys want me to write chaper 2 leave a like or comment)

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Smart Rhaenyra

What if Rhaenyra made a deal with Viserys that as soon as signs of usurping came from any of his sons, wife or Otto all of them would be send to the wall or given into her custidy.

So fast forward to Driftmark, Aemond had a fight with Rhaenyras sons, broke Lukes nose and nearly killed Jace with a rock. He threw Aegon under the bus for all the "bastard" thing and then Rhaenyra remembers Viserys of the deal they made when Jace was born and despite everyones protest Rhaenyra presisted. Suddenly Aemond has even more problems then a missing eye.

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Not like they expected us to be

My first Jasico fanfiction idea- enjoy

Summary: Jason is not a womanizer like his father or brothers and wonders if something is wrong with him. Enter Nico di Angelo

Jason is used to being compaired to his father and brothers (espically hercules/heracles). It has been a heavy weight on his shoulders for as long as he can remember. But the thing is, he isn't like his father or his brothers in almost all aspects. Still as a son of Jupiter certain things are expected of him and he found it hard to keep up sometimes but he never imagined that his love/sex life would be such a difficult thing for him to master.

No matter if greek or roman myths one thing they all have in commen: Jasons father is a horny bastard. The man couldn't keep it in his pants if his life depended on it. If it can be fucked he did, gender, form or concent be damned. Many of his sons followed a simular patern (his daughters swore of men and became virgin warrior goddesses. Let that sink in) and his mortal children were rarely diffrent either. Hercules was married around 14/15 and fathered over 50 sons by the time he turned 18. So naturally Jason was expected to have a simualr apitite when it came to lovers but he didn't. It just didn't come natural to him. Sure girls had often flirted or just straight up offered to sleep with him but Jason had always denied them. It did not feel right.

Once he hit puperty it became a nightmare, people began to stare and wisper and Jason fought with himself to stay composed and not blush in shame. Other boys were different, they often talked about girls and what they wished to do with them. Jason couldn't get it. Sure the fact that the most important girl in his life was Reyna and even suggesting things like that to her would get him castrated at the very least. Not that he would do it even if she would agree. He loved Reyna but just not like that, he could not imagine himself sexually with her or anyone for that matter.

He tried to push the thought down, it wasn't important, espacially not with everything else going on.

For a short time he thought himself in love with Piper, she was beautiful and smart, a daughter of Aphrodite and everything that he was told he should want in a girl. Lupa aproved the match but the problem was that, at the end of the day Jason did not. When the mist of confusion and attraction that clowed his mind wore off he quickly realised that he has no attraction to Piper at all. Something he had to tell her after she had tried to go for a kiss. Jason has never kissed anyone before and something inside him told him that she was not the right one.

Nearly everyone who learned of his rejection of Piper looked at him like he was crazy. They thought him his father's son and Jupitor would have never rejected such an opportunity. It made him unconfortable. Some looked at him like he was defect, they often metioned his father or brothers and their many conquests. Jason wanted to scream.

One of the few peole who did not compair him to his father was Nico di Angelo. When Jason had asked him why the boy raised an eyebrown and answered: "If you were anything like your father then I would hate you. I don't and you're no so I see no point in it." Maybe it had something to do with the fact that many still mistreaded or jugded the son of Hades unfairly for his own parentage but Jason kept that thought to himself.

As time passed he and Nico became closer and for the first time in his life Jason fell in love. He wanted to be around Nico, wanted to kiss him, be with him. It was nothing like the fling that many expected of him but he didn't care. Being with Nico made him happy, made his skin burn and his heart beat faster. When they first kissed, shy and unsure and fubeling like the boys they were Jason knew that is was more meaningful then any amont of flings could ever be

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Percy Jackson incorrect quotes

Gods: Arguing with Percy about their bad parenting

Zeus: You ungrateful brat! Where is you loyalty to your betters?!

Percy in the most deadpan voice: Nope YOU do not talk to me about loyalty. Your bar for that is so low, that uncle Hades wonders why you are shoveling in the pits for it!

Gods: ...

Hera: He is right

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Percy Jackson: Jason is probably jealous of Nico and Percy and hates it

I mean gods are not the most involved parents and everyone messed their kid up at least once but there is defendly a range between good godly parent and bad godly parent (Zeus). Yeah I know Jason is technically the son of Jupiter but they are still the same just from diffrent points of views so I am just gonna role with it. I love bonding between Poseidon&Percy or Hades& his kids but Jason just doesn't have that at all.

Hades is as far as godly parents go actually a good father to Nico. He cares for him and wants him to be happy and healthy. He is just very bad at showing it but that isn't just a Hades&Nico thing that's just Hades' personality. He also tries to protect and teach Nico and welcomes him in the underworld. Nico has the closest connection to his fathers domain, he is by now a part of it or made it part of himself. If I understood it correctly then Hades was actually around when Nico grew up and that only chanced after Zeus killed Maria. Hades also made Nico his ambasitor, he trusts and respects Nico. And he fought a battle to help Nico even if it was after being pestered by him. That is another thing, Nico is allowed way more leeway to speak freely with his father then most gods would allow their kids.

Poseidon and Percy are a bit diffrent but I think they have defindly grown closer. While Poseidon wasn't around when Percy grew up that wasn't fully his fault and he tried to protect Sally and Percy, same as Hades offered Maria. He also is known to at least care when his children call for help or answer them. Poseidon while not the most present or war parent clearly cares for Percy. He also allowes Percy most of his insolence, if out of respect or amusement or just plain resignation I don't know but propably all three.

And then there is Zeus. Nope. He isn't around at all and usually causes his kids some harm (directly or indirectly) He claimed Jason and that was it. No conversation, no protection nada (he saved Thalia but let's be real he turned her into a damn tree and left her like that) Jason has no emotional connection to his father whatsoever. He fights and fights so hard to be good enought but his father just doesn't give a damn. Zeus doesn't care for Jasons wellbeing or happieness, he barely acknowledges him. Jason can't go into his fathers domain like Percy can, or like Nico who is as much as home in the underworld as in camp. Jason can't just go to Olympus, he wouldn't dare it, why would he? Zeus is an asshole.

I think Jason doesn't want to be jealous of his friends, his cousins but that isn't something he can help. He wants what they have with their fathers. It hurts that he doesn't have that and he knows that he never will but they do. He wants to be happy for them but sometimes he is just a bit bitter about it.

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Achilles/Patroclus fanfiction

I just read "The song of Achilles" and I am not really ok so here is a version of it that doesn't break my heart

Patroclus awoke with a start. The dream he had just dreamed felt so real, like a warning from the gods themselves. He turned to Achilles, who still slept next to him. Was it right to wake him for such a stupid thing? Even if he woke him up, what then? But the immages of his dreams kept hunting him and he somehow knew that this was their last chance at true freedom and happiness. "Achilles", he wispered, "Achilles", the blond boy blinkt as he opened his eyes. Slowly, owlishly he turned to his lover. "Patroclus what is it?", he asked quietly, gently. "I don't know how to explain this Achilles but we must leave, we need to return to mount Pelion or we will loose everything." Achilles blinked at him but nodded slowly, still confused from sleep. "Alright", he agreed at last, "in the morning I will go to my father an-" but Patroclus cut him off "No Achilles. You don't understand. We must leave now. By morning it will be to late." "Tonight?", the demigod asked, "Now? Are you alright? It is much too late to travel. We arrived mere hours ago and my father-" but his lover stopped him once more. "Achilles please. I am begging you. I swear to never ask another thing of you if you only do this. We need to leave now."

It was madness. It was ridiculus and Patroclus knew it but he was desperate. Beond desperate. If they were still here by morning then they would be ripped away from each other. They would never be what they were now. The tears flowed down his cheeks. "Achilles please", he begged again and the despair in his voice caused something in Achilles' eyes to harden. "Very well, let's go"

When the sun rose the next morning they arrived at Chirons cave. Tired and exaustend but whole and hail. The centar looked at them as if he hadn't expected them to return so early or at all for that matter. "So I guess you have found an answer to their question", he said in his usually deep voice. Achilles looked at Patroclus and smiled. "I may not know what I will do in the future but I know what I will not be", he said.

I will never be seperated from you

Patroclus would never know that it was indeed a message from the gods that had woken him that night. He would never know the true horrors that would have happened had they gone to Troy. He would never know of how they left just minutes before Achilles mother came to ripe them apart. He did not need to know any of this because he knew one thing for certain

We are here and we are still together

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Solangelo fanfiction idea: My faszination with your body

Nico di Angelo are roomates at collage, Will was a pre med student and Nico was studying law and business.

Will had a project on human atonomy due the next day but as luck would have it he spilled his coffee on his finished project and suddenly needed to find a new nude model within the next few hours. Just as he was about to freak out, his roomate, friend and secret crush Nico came home. Nico noticed that he is distressed and asked "What's wrong?", in a panic Will explained the problem and before he could think about it the blond asked if Nico could be his model. As soon as the words had left his lips he stopped and they stared at each other but before Will would backpaddle Nico agreed. To both their suprise.

Nico then went to the bathroom to get ready and Will stammered that he would get all his supplies. As soon as they were alone, both of them proceted to flip out and went through both intense gay panic and denile. Nico called his sister in a panic and Will called Piper who both laught their asses off and told them to "have fun" (Hazel and Piper were sitting next to each other and were giggling like hell)

So Will was trying very hard not to stare at his crushes perfect body, which was difficult since staring at him was the whole point of the exercise. Nico on the other hand was red as a tomato which wasn't to bad considering that as long the blood was in his face it could be in other places (at least that's what he told himself) Will's gaze often lingered and it made him fizzy inside and sometimes he told Nico to do this or that or to tense that muscle. He was fighting between the urge to cover up and the wish to impress Will.

Once it was over Will asked Nico if he wanted to take a look at the finished drawing. Nico was astonished at what he saw, he looked like a greek god. "Will I thought that was suppost to be authentic. I don't look like that!" "No it doesn't do you justice." Will answered standing right behind Nico.