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I don't care whatever it takes.

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mr. nihil - eng translation

note: i decided to keep the rap part shimon added in his selfcover in japanese. the translation i made includes a lot of metaphors, therefore it is NOT accurate to the actual translation. it’s also singable. ^_−

it’s so empty, it’s good for nothing now

i’m scattered on the floor and hollow once more

it’s so pointless, why did i even try?

i’m trapped into this world, as quiet as the void

i want to meet all your expectations,

but my heart is withering, breaking apart

your impatience and standards burn all that’s left into the future

prisoner of my own loneliness

the trauma is clogging up in my brain

the worst days i’ve ever lived.

it hurts

violence, violence, i dont understand a thing anymore

the unknown love is lost, love is lost

love me please, love me please!!

irony, irony, everyday is a mess in my head

its all endless, endless raging, please just end it once for all!

生きるためロンリー

これが僕だローキー

君の思い通りの僕を想像しようと演じた故消費

間違う自己承認

sorry 思った様に行かない

フラフラなまま見失うストーリー

i want to live without anyone’s burdens,

breaking down, not finding the next puzzle piece

it hurt so bad, yet was so warm, it’s all only a dream for me now

a sponge in disguise as a short-cake

the love you give hurts yet i say that i’m fine

but really, i’m so tired.

but still,

but still,

but still,

i just want to be loved,

i just want to be loved.

yet still,

yet still,

fill my dried heart

since i don’t want to disappear, so give me a will to live!

it’s really pointless.

violence, violence, i dont understand a thing anymore

the unknown love is lost, love is lost

love me please, love me please!!

irony, irony everyday is a mess in my head

all my hope is in the negatives, crashing

with every “love” you give to me, there’s a secret warm place hidden in the depths

it hurts.

*ੈ✩‧₊˚༺☆༻*ੈ✩‧₊˚

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mafuyu

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Femme fatale characters are so fun. I don't know why I don't do them more often- (drafts of roysca ocs profile below- based on Swan Lake!)

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im still alive!

<3

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im so late i forgot to open tumblr in a good while 🔥

'At the stroke of midnight, I'll be yours. . . '

Dedicated to @yuzoodles, merry chrysler

Png ver

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have this too.

mizu5 hurt me ^_^

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化けの花

- english translation -

whats up with those eyes?

of course its those eyes.

its not my first time, yknow that.

whats up with those eyes?

oh, stop it now!

its so cute yet it tastes like the flavor of sin.

its so off

its so off

its breaking off

its so off

im losing my mind.

this secret, only one, collapses with me

im breaking down.

im sorry.

concealed, it cant be understood at all

its like the blooming flowers of this transformation

wont say a single thing, i cant erase it

no matter how ugly my makeup seems to be.

concealed, it cant be understood at all

its like the blooming flowers of this transformation

wont go back to being a —lone bud again.

whats up with those eyes?

of course its those eyes.

if thats so then everyone can disappear and rot!!

disappear and rot.

disappear and rot.

disappear and rot.

..dont go anywhere.

concealed, it cant be understood at all

its like the blooming flowers of this transformation

wont say a single thing, i cant erase it

no matter how ugly my makeup seems to be.

the future, dont bother if you cant understand,

they’re disappearing away those flowers of transformation.

its like im being born only to end this bad curse.

ill stop breathing right now

ah, im so done.

mizu5 killed me yalls.

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bake no hana sounds like a panic attack, it's incredible

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composer/lyrics/movie/voice: 奏音69

illustration: rahwia

　 『ネクロの花嫁』

— necro no hanayome fanmade plot —

the necrophiliacs bride

today is supposed to be something usual. just going to work, dealing with patients and trying to cure every problem they might have.

lately, the patients i’ve been seeing proved nothing more than simple people. though, what caught my eye was a simple, pure girl, with white and fair skin.

“i’ll give you this body, please, take care of me.”

“i will have you, if you let me.” after all, its so sad to see her suffer from such a… tremendous disease.

i try my best to see her so often. her beauty is.. unimaginable. she’s so delicate… im so deeply saddened about her.

all went good and all is well… until it isnt. the poor woman had succumbed to her death.

that girl.. forsaken by everybody around her.. that poor and fragile girl. i made it my mission to ensure that she lays in a place where only quiet and beauty lays. the mausoleum. yes, its perfect for such beauty like her.

placing her there, i profess my love in ways it can never be reciprocated. i hope she can rest and i will make sure she will never be forsaken again.

time passes and passes, yet my love for her is undying. i shouldnt do this, yet i know that.. she would want this, right?

as it strikes midnight, with careful grace, i take my shovel and visit the mausoleum. there she is… there is my one and only love.

i will resurrect you… my dearest.

yet.. is this really the love that i’ve wanted? or is it just pure sin?

i only want to see her with me again. thats really too much to ask for?

putting glass in her decaying eye sockets,

mending silk around her fragile, torn limbs,

stuffing gauze to give her form,

dressing her up with the white dress that i have sewn,

shes back again, and will be only mine. staining my hands red, i handle her with care and precision. nothing can ever separate us again, my love.

one night, the two of them are dancing together on their love song. who could’ve known what was about to come? dancing gracefully, the two of them share something so profound yet so… futile and one sided.

soon, the atrocity is discovered. but the doctor isn’t going to let those same people that forsaken her take away their eternal love! he would never. he cries out,

“this is our eternal love! something that she wanted!”

yet, those people fail to see the affection this man has and see him as a complete monster. he only wanted to love her… what was so bad in this?

the woman is laying cold in his arms. perhaps, it was always like this, but it’s like she lost another part of her soul again.

the doctor cries once more, saying that he only wanted to be with her again… that he loved her with his heart!!

but nobody buys it. no one cares about what the man has to say. who in this case is right? who did the wrong thing?

wanting to be part of something impossible… even part of an utopia is never something that cant exists. yet, the feelings are something so big, that it doesnt even matter anymore.

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Your pink-haired angel has arrived~✨ (2/2)

part one here

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Imagine forgetting you have Tumblr couldn't be me

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ビーストインザビューティ

「一人恋をした。」

オリヴィア・ド・��ィレヌヴ

aaaaaa beast in the beauty remake.. its so good!! it captures her rage perfectly

serra’s voice matches olivia so well 🥹

^_^

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^_^

nikkimi wip. . .

Angels have pink hair... I had no idea.

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hello magnificent artist yuzoodles do you have any scrumptious delicious art you would like to show your followers today (｡’▽’｡)♡

OFCCC ^_^

two of my most recent art pieces!!

fuki - unlucky morpheus (today)

mafuyu - 25時、ナイトコードで (yesterday)

i got motivation boosted hehe