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“My mission, should I choose to accept it, is to find peace with exactly who and what I am. To take pride in my thoughts, my appearance, my talents, my flaws and to stop this incessant worrying that I can’t be loved as I am.”

— Anaïs Nin

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I genuinely don’t know when my “I’m tired” responses became more than referring to just my physical state… I feel the lines between that and my mental and emotional state have blurred together so well it covers almost all my life…

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“You cannot find peace by avoiding life.”

— Virginia Woolf

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Starting something new can be scary. Even more so leaving behind the comfort of knowing what’s next and the security of a “stable” job to pursue what you believe to be your passion.

Do you think it to be foolish? To want to put everything you’ve got into getting to a place that you want to be? Is it really wrong to want to work towards a place where you can work on something that you love, where you can be at a place where you’re working your but off, but for something that will last a lifetime? For something that will really leave you feeling fulfilled?

I’ve always wanted to do something that allowed me to truly work with my passions and with the love I have for music, and to have that sliver of hope that I can do it if I only work hard enough and grind until I get somewhere… it’s exciting and terrifying at the same time, but definitely thrilling.

Not knowing what will happen if things don’t turn out right is just something that I know will be there, it comes with the trade, all you can really do is put your best foot forward, give it everything you’ve got, your very best effort, and pray to God that it’s enough to get you closer to where you want to be.

What I know for sure is that there will be crippling regret if I didn’t even so much as try. The plaguing thoughts of “I could’ve been doing this” or “I wonder what would’ve happened if I did that” is something I want to avoid in my life… and to do that, I need to learn to not pay any kind to what people might say about me, or worry about what they might think. It’s not their time or money that’s being “wasted”, it’s my own, and so taking all the steps required to be where I want to be in, lets say, 5-10 years is not their problem, but mine alone.

I hope you take the steps you need to do that you can also reach the goals you’ve set for yourself. Whether it be the childhood dreams or secret promises to yourself, I wish you the best of luck ✨

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This is also true for me… I get that urge to write, then suddenly am bombarded with thoughts of “oh wait, I need that,” or “oh but it would be great if I had this”, and even “I absolutely can’t do this without that”…

I’m over it…

Perfectionism is not your friend. It’s rooted in the fear that what you do won’t be good enough. It’s over-valuing others’ opinion of you and your work.

Perfectionism leaves you paralyzed, waiting for the perfect conditions so you know it’s safe to act. Unfortunately, if you’re waiting for the perfect conditions, you may wait for the rest of your life.

If you can learn to fall in love with the process, rather than the product, you’ll be free to chase your passions unrestrained. Don’t let perfectionism keep you from moving. After all, you can’t steer a parked car.

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I’m constantly struggling with this idea of creating what I NEED to create… write what needs to be written, sing what wants to be sung, paint what needs to be given life…

It’s such a beautiful concept, but so hard to apply sometimes.

All it takes is the decision to commit to creating something that is true to you and the unique voice that is your own.

“Write what you need to write, not what is currently popular or what you think will sell.”

— P. D. James