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'just take the compliment' but it feels so insincere to do

Like thanks but I don't deserve that and I don't wanna fool you into thinking I'm better than I am

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i talked a lot to this person i've really been wanting to talk to and it's nice but it makes me wanna kill myself and never talk to them again but then again I really enjoyed it but see they probably hate me now so

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I wish I could reach into your head and pull out all the sadness bro I wanna see you be the happiest person on this planet

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the period sadness really just hits out of nowhere like bro wtf

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saying rahhhh instead of expressing my emotions properly

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'the magic fabric of our dreaming' is such a pretty thing to write

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i like him so much it's driving me insane

but then how could anyone ever like me

maybe thinking like that is what's stopping me from finding someone but i don't really know how to stop

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the other day i was about to swear im not depressing to talk to but then i thought for a second and shut up cause i remembered how im always on the verge of tears after talking to someone i don't know because i hate what i said and i stop talking to them and they think im cold or depressed or smth

i swear im the cause of my own sadness

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i get so sad when i have to sit at home during vacations cause there are no friends to distract me from just how pathetic i am

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what will it take for someone to love me

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art is so funny because i don't draw for two weeks because of exams and suddenly i don't remember how to draw a face

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we'll graduate soon.

now that school is ending, i wonder if we'll keep in touch? will i dance at your weddings, will we ever meet each others' kids, will we go on that trip to japan that we've been planning for the past year?

we'll be adults. we won't be passing notes, getting shit marks in exams because we didn't focus in class, or having any more of those late night self-discovery discussions that i love so dearly.

when i'm 78, sitting alone, will i think of us? the bittersweet memories of my youth, the bitter being swept away by the sweet you brought with you.

high school is ending, and so is our time together. but, wherever you go from here, please remember that one idiot friend from highschool who will be rooting for you and cheering you on forvever and ever.

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listening to someone's playlist is such an intimate experience.

like, is this what you listen to in your free time, or when you can't sleep? i can imagine this song playing, you in your room staring at the ceiling

oh, i didn't know you listened to jazz. i think i'm in love with jazz

i think im in love with you

i want to know what you love, i want to love what you love, i want to know your favourite song, feel what you feel while you're listening to it.

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i kinda wanna know what song makes you think of me

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