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I sure have been putting the eating in eating disorder lately

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honestly struggling with this rn and it feels awful

It's so hard to be depressed and have an ed at the same time cause you'd want to be skinny but at some point you get so depressed that you just go fuck it cause you're too tired to even care about being skinny anymore and it's a whole cycle

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at the ed clinic i went to i overhead this one girl saying "when jesus doesnt eat for 40 days its called a miracle but when i do it i get sent to an ed clinic"

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me before ed: i'm not really a tea person and soups are okay i guess

me after ed: my life and savior,,,,, you give mi warmth that has left my body a long time ago,,,,, my delicious 53 calorie nutrition,, my beloved grass water,,,, id die for u

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Meme of the day

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sat down at my computer wanting to do homework, ended up looking at th1nsp0... i feel so miserable lol

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I hate being in public I feel so disgusted and scared and embarrassed I just wanna hide in my room 4ever until I die

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hunger pains are the worst

ESPECIALLY at school

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gshsgjsjd is it just me or does anyone else with siblings find it really hard to starve/restrict?

i have a little sister and i feel guilty doing that around her because she picks up my habits and i really don't want to be a bad influence for her, so i offer her a lot of food and i often eat and snack a lot with her even tho i really don't want to eat. it makes my heart break whenever i see her checking out the nutrition labels for foods (which she didn't use to do). but if i keep restricting food to myself, i feel like it will just encourage these behaviours more, which is the LAST thing i want to do. i hate it here.

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the way my mother acknowledges the fact that i have anxiety and literally doesn't seem interested in doing anything about it,,,, and i strongly believe that she IS one of the reasons i have anxiety. yay!

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just ran 7km for the first time!

i literally almost fainted after the run but it felt so good to set a new record. i'm hoping to be able to run 10km by the end of the summer.

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i don't think i've ever felt this lonely and pathetic

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i'll reach my gw by the end of july!!

reblog and make a wish! this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

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i feel like us underage ana people cant wait to move out so that you can control whats in your kitchen and you can starve as much as you want... just me?

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would anyone be interested in being my ana buddy/coach? ideally someone 17+ (i'm 17 too), but tbh I'd appreciate anyone :)