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it's 5:49 am and I am thinking about how fucked my sleep schedule, how I should fix it, and how I don't want to fix it. there is something so magical about the late late night. so calm and quiet. like time is standing still holding the next day away for just a little longer.

anyways I really should fix my sleep schedule

do me a solid and just reblog this saying what time it is where you are and what you’re thinking about in the tags.

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will I ever feel comfortable enough to show people my creations that depict how I feel. should I. do I need to. is it just for me to communicate to myself how I feel in a wierd self learning process. who knows. I'm getting another beet.

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ass is ass and I'm an ass man

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drunk again on my own again feeling like dancing with someone again.

again again.

it's sad really.

but the music is good at least.

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there are red-listed species, close to extinction, few in natural numbers.

shouldn't there be a reversed equally worrying list? overpopulated, greatly above natural numbers.  

there are just too many cows.

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i sometimes joke irl that supernatural made me gay, but it def made me realize i wasn't completely straight. haven't watched in a long time tho.

insane to me how my whole heart does belong to Dean and Cas and how typing this out literally just made me cry but i'm emotionally fine lol

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has anyone else tried bamboo underwear. that shit is kinda pog not gonna lie. antibacterial or whatever. im buying bamboo sheets as well. 

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I've been on alone for so long

I've become so good at it

I've forgotten any reasons not to be

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tradition is really just peer pressure from dead people. it's for you to decide which dead people you give a voice in the future.

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if I can't pick at least six plates out of the washing machine at once without hesitation...

the plates are too expensive

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ordering two meals at MacDonald's to hide the fact that you are eating alone.

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struggling to make repetition engaging

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your consciousness

ripped from the void

placed in a flesh prison

to suffer for years

and then die.

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just remember

space monkey

we are all the same decaying organic matter.

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you are something for now

and then nothing forever.

but it is okay.

before you were something

you were nothing forever too.

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like a large breadcrumb

slowly eroding away

at the bottom of the drain

in the kitchen sink