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Meow meow !!! Me and the others in my sub-subsys :333

-Polkadot (he/they/neos)

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Clothes are so expensive :(((

We’re getting a book and a few articles of clothing because our grandpa gave us birthday money and it’s already at 75 USD cost :((((( meows sadly and pathetically like a soggy cat

-Polkadot (he/they/neos)

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The NPD makes it so hard to upload anything because if we don’t have a perfect kudos-to-hit ratio we will crash the fuck out /nav

ao3 is so cool I wish I could finish even a oneshot and get confident enough to upload it

-Polkadot (he/they/neos)

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ao3 is so cool I wish I could finish even a oneshot and get confident enough to upload it

-Polkadot (he/they/neos)

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Reblog if your art project has not, does not, and never will make use of generative ai at any point in your creative process.

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random ass post but I’ve gotten into the habit lately of doing a happy little dance every time I have good food and I highly recommend that everyone else tries this too, ESPECIALLY if you have food issues. it’s just so fun and goofy and it makes the experience of eating something yummy even better and helps you appreciate how good it is!! so like instead of only remembering the bad food experiences you can start to really be conscious of your good food experiences too… idk something something therapy speak. but I think everyone should do the “mmmm delicious chili” dance when they have some delicious chili.

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Having arfid (I think) is so weird because what do u mean I can’t eat anything other than the fries !!!! What do u mean one of my safe foods tastes weird now !!! What !!!!!

-Blurry

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Birthdayyyyy (we got a guitar !!) 17 !!!!

-Polkadot (he/they/neos)

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Updated "terms we use" list:

Stardust - fragment

Protostar - partially formed

Star(mate) - fully formed/average headmate

Starship - body

Starverse - system

Cockpit - front

Cabins - headspace

Sector - layer

Occupation - role

Head pilot - host

Piloting - fronting

Constellation - subsystem

AGAIN, YOU ARE FREE TO GET INSPO OR STEAL THESE!

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Also we’re turning 17 in a couple days,,,,,June 20th,,,how the fuck did we make it this far I’m genuinely shocked HOWWWWW

-Blurry ?? Polkadot maybe ??

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Realizing that we might fit moreso into level 2 / medium support needs autism rather than level 1 / low support needs autism is kinda very weird (/neu) but also makes sense kinda ?? We definitely will bring this up to our therapist when we can just to make sure but yea

We fit the criteria for level 2 social communication with our VERY obvious lack of socializing (we only have few people we talk to directly and we only try to initiate conversations with one of them) and inability to communicate about things other than our special interests to people (unless they bring something up that interests us, we will barely speak and attempt to make small talk to make things ‘less awkward’)

We fit the criteria for level 2 restrictive, repetitive behaviors (I think ??); with our inability to change from our special interests (which mainly consists of researching disorders and trauma, which we thought was OCD related but maybe not ?) to other tasks (such as schoolwork, socializing, etc.). If we try to, or if someone tries to force us to, we become distressed. We cannot handle changes without shutting down, and we cannot change certain behaviors (such as saying certain things over and over again) no matter how hard we try.

We can do most bADLs with little support, but we have trouble with brushing our teeth and hair, and oftentimes will not be able to do it without someone guiding us to. For most iADLs, we will not be able to do them without a lot of support. We would not be able to live alone due to our inability to do most iADLs without help.

There’s more but Idk how to fit it in :((

I hope this makes sense ??? We’ve only started researching and looking into this yesterday but we’ve done a bunch of research and are gonna talk to our therapist about it this monday (if we’re not sick anymore)

(For some extra information, we are professionally diagnosed with autism, but I don’t think we were given a specific level even though the doctors here use the DSM-5)

-Blurry

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We keep thinking about using AAC (specifically TTS) at least some of the time because we have difficulty with speech (we mumble and slur our words a lot, we cannot get complex ideas and thoughts out verbally, and speech is overall very difficult and tiring and sometimes painful for us)

Maybe we should bring it up to our therapist next week, see what she says <:]

-Polkadot (he/they/neos)

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Ideas to make your system members feel safer!

Sometimes healing starts with small, quiet gestures. Here are some things that helped us feel safer inside and out:

🖍️ Make a collage of images and words that feel safe.

💌 Write comforting letters to your headmates. Encourage them to write back!

💗 Create a list of grounding tools and affirmations. Keep it somewhere where everyone can find when it's needed!

🧸 Offer external comfort objects like a soft blanket, a bracelet, or toy.

🔒 Create a “grounding box" with items that engage the senses. For example, you can use photos for sight, perfume for smell, candy for taste, and fidget toys for touch.

🛏️ Design safe areas in your innerworld where anyone can rest, hide, or heal.

🎁 Let headmates have something they can call their own, like a a journal.

🕯️ Visualize something protecting your innerworld. It can be anything: a magic barrier, a tall tree, a dragon, a glowing rune.

🎧 Make a playlist of soothing sounds or songs. Let others know it’s okay to listen.

🐚 Speak kindly inside, even if you’re frustrated. It sets the tone. It shows you’re trying.

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Our therapist, after we told her the trauma that we do remember, said that it made sense that we were having these symptoms (dissociation and alters I think she was referring to ?) when we experienced what we did so young

Was very nice to hear that :]

We then cried during the session several times because she was being so nice and understanding to us oughhhhh

-Polkadot (he/they/neos)

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Our therapist talking to us about the “me” and the alters and I had to inform her that we in fact, do not have a set host /lh

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Guys we have a David (Camp Camp) fictive do u think he would like to be system dad #2 /genq

-Polkadot (he/they/neos)

Our new therapist told us that for the self-destructive and traumatized littles, we need alters that are more parental

BUT ONYX IS ALREADY HERE

OUR COMMUNICATION JUST SUCKS !!!!

/nav /silly

-Polkadot (he/they/neos)