qhpils

[qhpils]

he's so cute. i just want to bite him. and bite him. bite him again. bite him. bite him. bite him. let me sink my teeth on him.

[qhpils]

One minute you’re recovering so well, feeling like life is worth living and you are worth loving. The next you are alone again, feeling 13 years old and harming yourself, reminded of why no one could ever like you in the first place. I fear I will always return back to that person…

[qhpils]

unfortunately i DID take what you said to heart and now i’m sobbing and debating on whether i should kill you or kill myself

[qhpils]

sorry I got insanely horny after you said one slightly sexual thing. it will happen again I'm afraid

[qhpils]

its raining outside as i walk up the stairs to your house. i knock on the door, hoping you’d answer.

you look out your window and i immediately notice how your face lights up when you see me.

you take me into your arms and kiss me. with all teeth and tongue and everything. the rain drips down my head into our mouths.

you pull me inside and start touching my body. my neck, my waist, my breasts.

“room. now” you say through breathy moans.

i love how much you need me. i love how i’m the only person who knows you like this.

[qhpils]

i miss your body on mine.

i miss your lips on mine.

skin to skin.

i miss it all. i wish you’d kiss me. just once.

pull my hair, drag me down to your sheets and take me away.

i miss you. i mourn you everyday.

i want you so bad. i want you more than i ever wanted someone before.

[qhpils]

“wanna get high and hook up?”

you ask me randomly after our hang out.

“what?” i reply, stunned.

i start to imagine your hands running along my body. i imagine skin on skin. i imagine your tongue down my throat as you fondle with my breasts. i imagine your hot mouth on my cunt, lapping up my sweetness. i imagine you fingering me while i’m crying out for you to stop. the pleasure becoming too much for me to handle. i imagine your hands everywhere.. everywhere.

i chuckle and smile.

“what the hell, sure.”

[qhpils]

i lay here, blade in hand, cvtting myself

my bed is all soaked in blood and as i lay in it, pajamas getting all drenched in the process

i miss you. i miss your hands on my body.

my pain is your pain i presume. your pain is my pain.

i miss you i cry out as i slice my arm once more, fat bubbling up.

the blood pools the wound immediately, spilling out fast.

i love you, i wish you’d kiss me.

i love you, i wish you’d kill me.

[qhpils]

i stay up awake dreaming of your hands on my body. i masturbate and call out your name when i hit my climax. i think of your fingers in my pretty little cunt, curling around my walls and me wailing out your name.

i’m your angel. come destroy me.

[qhpils]

i touch myself thinking of your hands. always have, always will.

i call out your name in the heat of the moment. as i reach my pleasure point i call out your name and hit the edge. it feels so good. so good.

[qhpils]

something feels terribly wrong inside of me.

[qhpils]

you sit me in your lap and kiss me, all soft and slow. you guide your hands to my face and pry my mouth open. you insert your finger into my mouth and feel around. my tongue, my teeth; the roof of my mouth. i suck on your finger all needy and desperate. you then put two fingers in my mouth and shove them down my throat. i choke a bit, but it’s you so i don’t mind. drool comes dribbling down my chin. you take your fingers out my throat and slowly open my mouth, pressing down on my bottom lip. i stick my tongue out and you kiss me again. this time harder and more needy. you lick the spit from my chin and go back to work with my mouth with your tongue. so sloppy and so wet.

i miss the feeling of your callousness in my mouth.

[qhpils]

[qhpils]

you fuck me like you want to kill me.

maybe i want you to.

to take your calloused hands and wrap your hands around my neck, strangling me. to asphyxiate my heart, to steal away my breath.

kiss me until i turn blue.

[qhpils]

underneath your hands i become jelly. you fondle my small breasts and flick my nipples. you look at me longingly as i moan your name. you kiss me and lick my mouth. you kiss me hard and rough, sticking your tongue down my throat and licking the corners of my mouth.

“—“ i say. “touch me more, please please please” i beg.

“you’re so greedy for it, baby. do you deserve it?” you ask.

do i deserve what? the hurt? the pain?

or the love? the pleasure?

either way, i’m not sure i deserve any of it.

[qhpils]

i miss you, my heart screams.

i hate you, my heart screams.

i want you, my heart screams.

i want to tear you apart, my heart screams.

i can’t stand you, my heart screams.

i need you, my heart screams.

i love you, my heart bleeds.

[qhpils]

I need someone to guide my mausturbation so bad..please tell me how to touch myself I'll be so good 🥺