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The rocky path...

“Bless me, Father, for I have erred. My last post was 15 months ago.” How quickly time flies, and the irony in that phrase, is how valuable a resource it is in life, and how minimal an influence we have on it. This brings me to yet again question some of the cliché statements, we so quickly utter without actually giving it some thought. “When you eat with the devil, ensure that you do so with a…

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Broken; in the darkness...

I was Barnabas, with a skip in my steps on the sun dappled streets and words of encouragement on my tongue. A twirl around the school poles, daring and mischievous, inclined to evoke purpose as I grew up. My dreams were huge, unafraid and impenetrable…a pair of twinkling eyes, with not a thought given to the sorrow that introduces itself inevitably. Did I ever think time would be that unshakable…

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Gratitude?......Yes!

Undeniably it’s been rather tumultuous times recently however sometimes the joys we seek is not a thing but a process; the process of letting go because it is when we let go that we are able to see. Today makes it 8 years, I encountered an amazing individual; funny, charming, intelligent and creative. He’s become one of the reasons to encourage me to keep going on even when the storms are at…

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In the waiting room (2).....

Thanks Nina for being my muse and more importantly for just listening. I’ve discovered that forgiveness and forgetting are often usually expressed in the same sentence however there is as much difference between them as is light from darkness. I must sincerely apologize for the protracted silence because life happens and whether it’s infected congestion in my lungs or the tennis elbow, we each…

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Wave upon wave...

Adrift “You can’t wait until life isn’t hard anymore before you decide to be happy!” – J.M ‘Nightbirde’ It’s not about the decision but rather the elusiveness of happiness. Battered over and over, each wave harder than the latter, yet the stone quietly disappears still glistening, every encounter ripping a piece of my soul. Would you let me see beneath your beautiful, each shuddering breath…

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In the waiting room...(1)

In the waiting room…(1)

No shortcuts 2yrs to the day, my mom passed from here to the other side where time ceases to exist. A side where the hope of eternity is finally made manifest. Devoid of drama, pain, disappointment and anguish, what could come close to comparing. She’s gone and yet a piece of her remains, not to spite us but hopefully to guide us through memories created together and shared. I am a Christian and…

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The End of the Beginning.

Inevitable How are you supposed to feelWhen everyone looks at you with pity?How are you supposed to feelWhen everyone calls you a survivor?Everyone looks at youBut they don’t notice youThey refuse to look into your eyes Because they’re afraid of seeing the shadows behind themAfraid of possibly seeing what you sawThe red splatters that will forever be ingrained In the very far corners of your…

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From Venus...

From Venus…

Admittedly, resentment and bitterness only hurt oneself, so I may be a little bit unsteady but I’m still holding on because I don’t think He’s done with me yet. I’m not capitulating as I watch but it seems like something is unraveling and I just might have the power to slow it down because inevitability cannot be stopped. It’s mother’s day and the least I can do is share the memories we made…

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A Perorating Knell.....

A Perorating Knell…..

Abducted as a child. Sexually molested as a kid. Witnessed domestic abuse up close. Bullied and taught street survival as a pre-teen. Knocked unconscious by a thrown discus in junior high. Survived an acid bath in high school. Survived two ghastly automobile crashes. Witnessed the violence of religious fanaticism. Been shot at by friend and foe. Betrayed by friend and family. Disillusioned by…

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Clichés, truths and others.....

Clichés, truths and others…..

At this rate, it’s an uphill task trying to keep moving forward cos everytime, I look around, there’s fewer and fewer to build bridges with. It’s easier to destroy bridges (and there’s always a crowd in that profession). It takes selflessness and humility to maintain bridges because that’s exactly what life is about; relationships and building bridges. Nobody gives a hoot about your preconceived…

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Friend or foe (Pt 2)....

And 2022 begins

2hrs 23mins left and once that resets to zero, the year 2021 becomes the past and there is absolutely nothing we can do about the events of the year except learn from the mistakes we made. 2022 begins; a fresh new parchment and I definitely know that it comes with its fair share of highs and low so why procrastinate completing this post? I learned this year that procrastination is the thief of…

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Oh the chariots of men....

Oh the chariots of men….

‘A King is not saved by a large army; a warrior will not be delivered by great strength. The horse is a false hope for safety; it provides no escape by its great power. Now the eye of the Lord is on those who fear Him – those who depend on His faithful love to deliver them from death and to keep them alive in famine.’ Isaiah 31:1 Chariots of men ‘Speed thrills but it also kills’ was probably…

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Friend or Foe....(pt 1)

Pick a side, you cannot straddle the fence through life. Live a life of meaning.

Innocence Phew! This year thus far has been good to me and I write that because I can, I will and I believe it regardless of today’s circumstances. I have also decided to have my own podcast because in addition to the novelty, it seems that with the frenetic pace of the world we live in, the probability of having a message received is better if the mode of communication is directly/indirectly…

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The other side...

What are you doing with what was gifted to you?

What? “Never look down at any individual except you want to look at their shoes!” How and when did being truthful become an anathema? Oh, the ways of men! Well I opine that most times, we prepare for the fight but lay down and stay down when the fight is on. What is life that we are so ensconced in ourselves that when another person asks a simple request of you, it easily hurdles over the…

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Happy Birthday Mom....

Happy Birthday Mom….

In my few years of existing here, I’ve heard life characterized by many adjectives but nothing quite prepares you for the fact that it ceases especially when it goes all ninja like. Sneaking in and taking that which you least expected would be taken; then a whole lot begins to actually make sense even though all your life, they were familiar. The true value of anything is really known only when…

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Values, Discounts & You....

Values, Discounts & You….

                                                                                Be You! Admittedly this has been quite a break and in essence nothing truly substitutes the loss of a loved one especially a mother and yes, time must go on but once again a completely unexpected event has provided me with the opportunity to re-evaluate what my priorities are especially in the wake of a brand-new…

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The Loss & The Pain...

The Loss & The Pain…

Wear it well

It’s still so unreal…31 days ago precisely I received a call with information that could have been phrased better (but semantics aside, we get to choose to be kind or mean, compassionate or manipulative). 31 days exactly and my life has forever been inexorably altered, not knowing how scarred I am, I do know I’m not the same person.

For 2 decades and 4 couples, I’ve always asked…