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STUDIO GHIBLI + FOOD

The Secret World of Arrietty (2010) Kiki’s Delivery Service (1989) Tales from Earthsea (2006) Howl’s Moving Castle (2004) Spirited Away (2001) When Marnie Was There (2014) The Cat Returns (2002)

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Scene

This is a possible scene for a story I might be writing on wattpad about a black mother living with her teenager son while struggling to go to college and trying to get back into love. 

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I shook my head, wiping the cuts with a damp cloth, “How could go out there? You knew how bad those kids were but you still hung out with them.”

“Mama...I-” 

“I thought I raised you better, “ i continued, washing the cloth in the sink while he sat in the dining room chair, “Thought I told you stay away from those streets because it’ll hurt if you fall. Why didn’t you- ”  

“Mama, please!” He shouted, his voice like desperate plea, a cry that I never heard even though he called out so many times, “You can yell at me all you want later. But not now. “ 

Although he didn’t say it, I could hear his mind whisper, ‘Please not now. Not ever.’

So, I shut my mouth and tended to his wounds. His head was low, no longer held high and I wondered when it fell. 

Wordlessly, I led him to the couch and we laid down together. I ran my fingers through thick braids while we watching Disney movies.

“It hurt, Mama,” His voice was shaky, broken and I had have the mind to tell to stop talking but my mind was got me into this mess so I listened. “On God, it hurt. “

“I loved that boy, Mama, “ He wept and I wiped his tears with my thumbs, “Like he loved money and drugs.” 

“I was out because he was going to a deal with someone and I- I was dumb. I told how much I liked him. God, he was disgusted. Beat me up real bad and left me there. I was crying and called Jericho. Then he brought me to you.” 

“We were because he was taking me on a date, we were gonna go see his parents afterwards. Then these guys came out of nowhere, shouting, calling us any name they could think of. Fag, Homo, Slut. Beat us up real good. And for moment I thought that Jericho would stay with me, that we’d get through this together.” He took a deep breath, “I was wrong. He broke up with me. Couldn’t handle it. Didn’t want to be a fag.”

There was shame that lied in my boy’s eyes. He was ashamed in himself, in his sexuality. Only one thought came to my head. 

I love my boy. 

I hugged him close, “You’re not a fag, baby. I don’t care that you’re gay, you’re still my kid. You could tell me that you wanted to marry a rich white man living in Hollywood and I would say, ‘Just be sure to visit!’ I’ve been oblivious, ignoring the signs, arrogant. I want you to know that I love you so much. I’m willing to change if that’s what’ll make you happy. And Jericho? If that boy don’t realize what he’s missing then he can take his dumb ass and walk right out that door because there is someone out there who will love just the way you are.” 

His shoulders shook and the fabric of my sweater was damp. I held him close while quietly humming to the tune of Once Upon A Dream. 

“I love you, Mama.”

“Love you too, baby.” 

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Okay, Just Listen

Put your stories in Comic Sans before you publish.

I know, it's a cursed font but just hear me out.

Your brain gets used to seeing the same font and it skips over those pesky mistakes but a new font is like fresh material to it.

Turn it to an easy to read font then back to your normal one once you edited it.

It works, trust me.

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!!! WARNING, EVERYONE !!!

IF YOU SEE THIS IN A YOUTUBE AD MUTE YOUR DEVICE AND SCROLL UNTIL YOU CAN’T SEE THE VIDEO SCREEN ANYMORE.

This is an ad about animal cruelty that has very loud screaming of dying animals. Also flashing, graphic pictures of said animals, like a dead chicken or a pig biting a wired fence.

It’s about thirty seconds, the screaming starts 10 seconds in and the ad isn’t skippable.

It can trigger panic attacks and cause your anxiety to skyrocket, and it’s just generally a very disturbing thing no one should see.

I’ve only seen a warning yet, haven’t stumbled across this before despite using YT a lot but for the love of God please be careful. Here is a link to that video but ONLY WATCH IT IF YOU KNOW YOU’RE NOT SENSITIVE TO THIS TYPE OF CONTENT. I’m merely giving out the link so you can report it and I wouldn’t advise any of you actually watch it.

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EDIT: The ad isn’t by PETA. It’s by World Animal Protection USA. Just thought I’d clarify. They’re both horrible though.

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Another edit just to reassure you guys: The animals you can hear in it aren’t suffering! It’s heavily edited pig squeals, pigs are noisy animals and are most likely to get loud when they’re excited or there’s food around. The audio was drastically altered to make it more traumatizing. Still wouldn’t recommend anyone listens to this.

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This is the lucky cat 🍀 reblog and good luck will come you way!

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how do you learn not to seek people's approval?

I basically crave it and it's honestly all I can think about.

I wanna don't wanna let people down but I feel like I do is right.

My mom yelled at just a minute after I cleaned my room saying, "What about all those papers? I wouldn't have to tell you again if you just listened."

They were small strips of paper and wrappers that I didn't notice were there.

Small things like that make me scared to do anything because I'm afraid I'll upset her.

I haven't eaten anything today because I don't know what I can and can't eat. So, I've just been sc slowly drinking pop that I saw my younger sister drink because then it was safe.

I am having trouble maintaining the same A/B grades last year and my mom was so disappointed when she saw I had a C in math.

Wait until she sees that I currently have a D...

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This has nothing to do with what I normally post but I literally can't stop shaking.

I can hold my hand in the air and you see me quivering.

My friends won't give me coffee anymore because I started shaking violently and it kinda looked like I was having a seizure.

When I'm sitting, I rock my foot (which is what I'm doing as I'm writing this) but I have this weird habit of standing up and pacing.

I will get up from my bed, go into the kitchen, come back and pick up like nothing happened.

I do this without thinking and I am unable to sit still for long periods of time.

I stutter quite a bit and forget a lot of things. I mix up words and names. Once, I couldn't remember the word 'employee' only thinking coworker and customer.

When I panic, I tremble terribly and bounce my foot mostly because I'm terrified.

I've only truly panicked once and that was cause I was in pain but I started talking really fast and my stutter was worsening.

I was a mess.

I really don't know what is wrong with me.

Is this normal?

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PLEASE REGLOG, PLEASE

as many of you don't know I'm from chile and the situation here in the capital and a few other places are under military control, people are being injured for PROTEST against the government and all the things they've done to us.

last night we were under curfew, for the first time since the dictatorship ended, a few decades ago. LAST NIGHT OUR RIGHTS WERE TOOK AWAY FROM US. last night they wanted to make us keep quiet but there was angry, sadness, euphoria, everything but silence.

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how's everyone doing tonight,,,i'm helping break tumblr

how’s everyone doin tonight i just broke tumblr

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When someone asks me why I haven’t worked on my WIP:

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A Very Heroic Sleepover

~_~_~_~

[your wish is my command~]

Kirishima threw his head back with a groan while Bakugou sat in front of him, working on the math homework, “Bakubro, I’m bored!”

“Do your fucking homework, “ Bakugou growled out lowly, contracted on the paper in front of him. 

Suddenly, Kirishima shot up with a grin, “I know what to do!” Then promptly sprinted out of the dorm room.

“Eh?”

~_~_~_~

Soon, Bakugou went to find out what the red-head had done considering that it was rather late and everyone had to be in their dorms at a certain time. 

He found not only Kirishima but the entire class in pajamas, laughing and playing games Cards Against Humanity and Monopoly.

He spotted Kirishima playing Twister in a shark onesie, contorting in ways that Bakugou didn’t were possible for someone with a hardening quirk. 

“Hey, Bakugou!” Denki shouted with chains dangling from his neck and a small back drawn on his cheek, “Wanna play Truth or Dare with us?” 

“Nah, he should play Monopoly, “ Mina grinned, before turning Iida who landed on her property, “Cough it up, Mr. Shoe!” 

“I think Kacchan would better at Cards Against Humanity, “ Midoriya smiled nervously, “I’m still surprised that the heart of a child and Justin Bieber didn’t win.” 

Uraraka shook her head sadly, patting Midoriya backs, “A sparkly pink dildo and Donald Trump was too funny to pass.”

Bakugou sighed, sitting down next to Todoroki, “Gimme my fucking cards.” 

~_~_~_~

“And they were roommates!” Hizashi exclaimed, throwing his hands into the air, “Oh my god, they were-”

Aizawa smacked a hand over his mouth as they reached the students’ common room. 

When they entered, they were greeting by snoring teens laying on each other peacefully. 

Mineta was snuggled into Shoji’s arm with Tsuyu on the other side. Koda and Sato were laying beside Tokoyami, who Ojiriou on his lap. 

Iida had his arm wrapped around Uraraka, who hovered a little in the air. 

A few feet away from them Kaminari, Jirou hugged with each other on the couch. Mina and Sero on the ground beside them. 

But the group that surprised them the most was Bakugou, Kirishima, Midoriya, and Todoroki who all cuddled up together. 

Bakugou had Kirishima and Midoriya laid beside him with their heads on his chest while Todoroki laid directly onto of him. 

None of them fighting or shouting at each other. It was surprising to see Bakugou so calm with Midoriya near him. It made them wonder how they all got in these positions. 

Aizawa blamed it on the sugar high they were all on.

But it still was a nice sight to see.

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Anyone wanna like give me prompts with bnha ships or characters or whatever?

I'm bored and don't wanna do my homework.

Help me procastinate.

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Some words to use when writing things:

winking

clenching

pulsing

fluttering

contracting

twitching

sucking

quivering

pulsating

throbbing

beating

thumping

thudding

pounding

humming

palpitate

vibrate

grinding

crushing

hammering

lashing

knocking

driving

thrusting

pushing

force

injecting

filling

dilate

stretching

lingering

expanding

bouncing

reaming

elongate

enlarge

unfolding

yielding

sternly

firmly

tightly 

harshly

thoroughly

consistently

precision

accuracy

carefully

demanding

strictly

restriction

meticulously

scrupulously

rigorously

rim

edge

lip

circle

band

encircling

enclosing

surrounding

piercing

curl

lock

twist

coil

spiral

whorl

dip

wet

soak

madly

wildly

noisily

rowdily

rambunctiously

decadent

degenerate

immoral

indulgent

accept

take

invite

nook

indentation

niche

depression

indent

depress

delay

tossing

writhing

flailing

squirming

rolling

wriggling

wiggling

thrashing

struggling

grappling

striving

straining

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Don't Know How To Move The Story Along?

Start with the dialogue and add the descriptions later.

For example: 

Mary: I just don’t get it. Why would he want to leave?

Ian: I don’t know. 

Mary: You’re his best friend!

Simple, right?

Now just add the extra little bits later on. 

“I just don’t get it, “ Her thin nimble fingers skimmed through the yellowed pages of the dirty red book, desperate for answers, “Why would he want to leave?” 

Ian’s sigh echoed through the damaged study as he cautiously picked a stray quill before tossing it to the side, “I don’t know.” 

She glared at him, hands gripped at the paper beneath her fingers, “You’re his best friend!” 

Way better! 

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It’s Out! [Love Letter]

Love Letter is going to be continued on AO3 in more detail and with more chapters! Yay!

Link to the first chapter: 

https://archiveofourown.org/works/20444084/chapters/48504512