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I Can't Fucking Do Anything, No Matter How Hard I Try, I'm So Fucking Pathetic I WANT To Do Things Why Wont My Body Let Me. I Fucking Hate Myself, I Hate Not Doing Anything It Feels Like Fucking Torture

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Honestly Considering Just Asking Someone Who's Into ForceFem To ForceFem Me Because I Feel Like I'm Never Gonna Transition, I Have Such Bad ADHD And Selective Mutism That I've Been Putting Off An Appointment For Like 3 Years Now And If I Can't Make An Appointment For ADHD How Am I Gonna Make One For HRT Stuff. Someone Please Turn This Pathetic Wet Cat Boy Thing Into A Pretty Wet Cat Girlie.

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I Was Reading This Neat Lil Manga About Speed-running An Isekai And The Latest Chapter Never Turned Me Off From It So Fast, One Of The Main Villains Has A Fucked Up Death And I Haven't Been Able To Stop Thinking About It For Hours, Like He Wasn't Even That Evil (In Terms Of What The Manga Shows, Like Sure He Murders A Few People, None Of Which Were Part Of The Main Cast, And That's Kinda It.) What Really Got Me Was Probably The Villain Begging For Help And The Protagonist Just Offered Some Witty One-liner As If It Was Deserved. Save The Horrific Deaths For The Villains That Deserve It, Not Random Scrub #7 PLEASE

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To Think It's Been A Year

A Year Since I 1st Entered My Ocd Spiral, Almost Cut Off My Friends, Abandoned A Shitton Of My Personal Goals, Contemplating Suicide, All That Lovely Stuff. The Past Few Months Had Been Mostly Fine, Improved On Myself A Lot, Fixed My Mistakes, Generally Making Myself Healthier And Happier. But Now My Compulsions Are Back And I Immidietly Fell Back Into A Spiral And Want To Kill Myself Again :)

Ruined All My Healthy Coping Mechanisms And Everything

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I Opened Twitter For The 1st Time In Months And Saw The Average Twitter DiscourseTM And Now My Compulsions Are Getting Harder To Resist, I Was Doing So Well Too :(

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This World Sucks, Might Kill Myself Honestly, Nothing Good Is Happening And It All Seems To Be Getting Worse

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Me Me Me

REBLOG IF YOU'RE EXTREMELY BURNT OUT DESPITE ALSO FEELING LIKE YOU'VE DONE NOTHING WORTHWHILE AT ALL WITH YOUR LIFE!

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OCD has become so stigmatized that as someone who has severe OCD i had no fucking clue until i was an adult. because its so stereotyped and i dont fit that, as a kid i thought my friend had OCD bc she had an organized backpack. its genuinely so awful and upsetting that i spent years confused and thinking i was just really weird, that my thoughts made me a horrible person and being a paranoid germophobe mess was just me being the odd one out of the entire world. like it makes me so frustrated seeing people in tiktok comments sections go "haha the OCD police" when someone tries to educate someone on what OCD actually is. i wish id known what was going on with me sooner, and i wish people were more open to learning because it really did change my life having a name for my struggles

ppl without OCD feel free to rb/comment, just please be mindful :)

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I Keep Looking Up Stories Based Around One Of My OCD Triggers And It Sends Me Down A Spiral Each Time I See It, Do I Truly Hate Myself That Much That I'm Mentally Torturing Myself Or Is There Another Reason I Keep Doing This, It's Not Like I Even Get Anything Out Of It, It Just Causes Me To Have A Breakdown And Feel Miserable :(

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When the fp isn't messaging and you don't want to bother them so you just sit in pain forever until they remember you message you

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I Wish, Would Have Loved This As A Kid (The Puberty Blockers, Not Killing OP With Psychic Powers)

I think we should put all kids on puberty blockers. You shouldn't have to have a gender until you want to.

Now let me just post this on Facebook and see how long it takes for one of my relatives to attempt to kill me with their mind. They've all got psychic powers but my wards are strong so at worst I get a vague itching.

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I Found A Nice And Cute Looking BOTW Comic On Youtube (Through Recommendations) Turns Out It Was Fetish Content That Fucks With 1 Of My Triggers :(

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I Posted Something To My Blog About OCD And A Fucking Terf Responded To Me (With Words Of Encouragement) And Like, The Trans Flag Is LITERALLY In My Pfp Why Are You Taking To Me, Go Eat Shit Terf, Trans Women Are Women And Trans Men Are Men

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Ugh I Was Doing Better Mentally, Why Does My Brain Do This, I Was FINE, Several Weeks Of Learning To Ignore My Intrusive Thoughts GONE, In A Matter Of Seconds, Just Because I Saw A Post, I Just Wanna Crawl Into A Lil Hole And Abandon Everyone, I'm So Tired

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It's Even Worse When You Have OCD, Like God I'm Terrified Of Ever Getting Any Ounce Of Recognition Online And For Someone To Do This, Especially When I HAVE Done Things I Regret, I Constantly Mentally Torture Myself All The Time I Don't Need People On The Internet To Threaten Torturing Me Irl As Well

online harassment campaigns are genuinely terrifying and part of why they're terrifying is that they make you feel like you're going insane—especially if they're false, frame you maliciously on purpose or blow things wayy out of proportion—because like. asides from it feeling really fucking bad due to the aforementioned tide of toxic sludge coming your way all at once, you genuinely start to doubt your perception of reality because surely this isn't... right? surely people can tell this isn't real/there's no way this kind of reaction is warranted or deserved, right?

if any of your friends ever go through that the single most helpful thing you can do is reach out to them & be like "jesus christ these people are nuts, are you okay?" PLEASE do, even privately if you're afraid of being dragged in. they'll never thank you enough, it's a literal life raft for their sanity

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