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Dieting is isolating. I really miss the brunches with the Mediterranean stuff for breakfast and the company. And it's not like I can share my meals either because they're bland and optimized for function and quick prep not taste.

I can't remember the last time I shared a meal with my family. I'm always eating alone.

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I'm only skinny when others try to sabotage me :)

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I'm so mad at popcorn why did I believe its low cal!!

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You've experienced the joy of junk food thousands of times already, so how about you try the joy of being skinny for once?

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A reminder that it's a calorie limit not a calorie target!!

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Every time I’m about to order junk food I remember that I’m literally paying to become fat!!

Like seriously, wasting my hard-earned money on lipid tissue?! no I’d rather spend it on a cute top or pants that actually fit.

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Body positivity is cope

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In today’s world, eating cookies, muffins, and sugary coffees for breakfast is seen as completely normal. But the moment you eat eggs, meat, or oatmeal, people assume you’re on a diet. Like—no, you’re the one eating dessert for breakfast. I’m just eating actual food.

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Binges are terrifying not only because they are detrimental to health, but also it means that we are weak to control ourselves. Who's to say that a binge eater will not lose themselves to drugs, alcohol, or substance? Food is just an acceptable vice.

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just mini reminder

cats says: «meow, meow»

dogs says: «woof,woof»

pig says:

«it’s okay to be fat»

«I’ll start tomorrow»

«being overweight is okay»

«If I skip one workout, nothing will happen»

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You will never regret skipping a binge

But you'll always regret its aftermath.

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I usually avoid tumblr out of shame after a binge but I wanted to make a list of all the negative feelings that come immediately after and things to remind myself next time

I feel so physically uncomfortable

I feel ugly

My clothes look ugly

Stomach cramps

Teeth feel fuzzy

Gassy

Guilt and self hate

I feel heavy and moving takes more effort

I’m bloated

I feel like a failure with no self respect or control

I feel lethargic

I’m now in a shit mood and taking it out on people around me

I feel sick

I wasted money on mid food when there are 5000 things I’d rather save money for

The short term satisfaction was not worth it. It felt good for literally the few seconds the food was in my mouth and now I hate myself

The cravings will pass

Feeling empty is so much better than feeling full

Idc if you’re on your period. Grow up

F4st1ng/r3strict1ng feels sooooo much more rewarding

However hungry you are right now, you can wait until you get home where there is plenty of healthy food that won’t make you feel guilt

No, you don’t need to buy the box of snacks just to have on hand because you can practise restraint and only have one. You will eat the whole box. Save your money, don’t even go into the shop

I’m further from my goals than I was this morning

I had come this far without binging and now I’ve ruined my progress and have to start again

I’m terrified to weigh myself tomorrow instead of excited to see how much I lost

The longer i go without a binge, the easier it gets

The post binge clarity has me stressing the fuck out but what’s done is done, all I can do now is try to be better.

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I was called f@tph0bic today

and I was about to respond but then it hit me, yes I am, I'm afraid of going back to the fat ugly girl, the one with all the health issues, the one with the insecurities, the one with all the excuses.

I'm terrified of becoming like those obese women on TLC, and don't tell me it's impossible because they all started just few pounds overweight but spiraled.

If sacrificing food enjoyment is the price to all other life pleasures then so be it.

Please be afraid and terrified for your health, you owe it.

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reblog to give your headache to elon musk instead

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Crying because my cat has no belongings and she pissed me off because she broke a cup but then I started crying because i remembered she's been on earth for like only two years 😭😭

Someone make me her belongings.

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Don't worry mom I'm not relapsing I'm just into biohacking.

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A meeting

is held today, and I confided into my skinny friend that I won't go because I don't have appropriate clothes for the event and she said to put on a jacket and some jeans.

Then it hit me, she looks stylish and put together, yet her clothes are basic only because she's skinny, meanwhile I need to plan ahead for days and buy new items, overthink how they will drape over me and if my problematic areas will show. I need to think of compressing garments to hide my arms and chest and how to play with makeup and hair to hide my double chin,

Even after losing a bunch of weight I still feel like am too fat because my problematic areas didn't shrink yet. I cannot recall ever borrowing clothes from others or going out with a ponytail.

Of course, I'm not trying to guilt trip my friend and won't expect her to cater for my feelings, if anything I'm trying to articulate how different my life would be if I didn't spend most of it overthinking my looks. I wanna just wear casual and look good not sloppy :( I hate the feeling of "camouflaging" my body instead of actually dressing it up.