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When your memory issues and dissociation are so wacky that not even your therapist knows what’s going on with you ✌️

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Be us

- friend introduces us to his favorite show and we watch it together

- get invested in the show

- the main character shows up in the system and he is extremely confused

- cue our welcomer helping him settle in then nudging him into front once she thinks he’s ready

So I had a surprise this morning when a blue haired anime boy greeted me XD Anyways welcome to the system Iruma

-🃏Shadow Milk (and 🔷Iruma!)

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if yes how do your sysmates treat your object partners if you have any? do you share object partners?

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It’s been months since our short Poppy Playtime fixation and we were just able to confirm that Catnap is in the sys because he waltzed into front last night bc we were struggling to sleep and knocked us out XDD

Thank you Catnap we honestly needed that lol

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@funnier-as-a-system

i had a strangely touching dream where my mind was parasitized by this frankly scary/gross looking weird immobile alien worm thing, but it meant me no harm and only wanted to get to experience life through me

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Some pro-endo reminders 💟 Free to use/steal!

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Thanks for the tag guys <3

Here’s some positivity for systems who are struggling to cope after a headmate became dormant!

Experiencing the loss of a headmate to dormancy, even if it is only temporary, can often be scary, painful, or disorienting. If your system is having difficulties adjusting to life without a particular dormant headmate, we want to remind you that you aren’t alone, and this post is for you!

🌧 Shoutout to systems who had a headmate with a crucial role recently become dormant!

🍃 Shoutout to headmates who have lost an in-system spouse, partner, friend, family member, or other loved one to dormancy!

💔 Shoutout to systems who have had to scramble to learn something new in order to fill in for a dormant headmate!

🌧 Shoutout to systems who are in a process of grieving or mourning due to one of their headmates going dormant!

🍃 Shoutout to headmates who just miss their dormant system members terribly and long for them to one day return!

💔 Shoutout to systems who regularly have headmates enter and return from dormancy!

🌧 Shoutout to headmates who are actually coping quite well with the loss of their dormant system members, but still remember and think of them with fondness!

🍃 Shoutout to systems who sometimes worry that they’ll never see their dormant headmates again!

💔 Shoutout to those who sing, write, draw, or otherwise create art to help them process and cope with their headmate’s dormancy!

🌧 Shoutout to headmates who have been dormant themselves and are now struggling to cope with another member of their system going dormant!

Dormancy is a natural part of the plural experience for many systems, although it certainly can be heartbreaking and bittersweet. If your system is struggling to cope after losing a headmate to dormancy, please know that we feel for you and our heart goes out to you. We know how upsetting and painful it can be to lose a beloved headmate to dormancy. Please take comfort in the fact that, while they may be gone now, they most certainly will not be gone forever.

We hope that your system can do its best to adjust to life without your dormant headmates while finding the time and space necessary to grieve the loss. Know that we care for you, and we are wishing you and your system the very best in this difficult time. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this, and take care!

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hot take, creators of any kind need to be mentally prepared for the fact that systems and plurals will get introjects based off of what they make, just like they need to be mentally prepared for any kind of fanwork.

in the event that they are somehow made uncomfortable by this, they need to learn to source separate for themselves.

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Fronting so I can clean up our Simply Plural and Pronouns.cc; there were many members still on those lists that have been dormant for quite some time. I’m the one in charge of keeping track of who’s here, so none of the others really had an idea of who was still around or not. The lists are looking much more accurate now though which is nice.

Now to hope the brain will let me leave front-

-☄️Elfilis (Any Pronouns)

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Didn’t fully bring up the plurality part but we did the dissociation and the memory loss; we’re gonna be working on it in later sessions. Hopefully as we dig into it more our therapist will pick up more on the plurality

Also told the body’s mom about just how bad our memory issues are and she finally gets it now. After years of trying to tell her and her treating it as less serious or as us just using it as an excuse. Maybe she’ll stop treating it so flippantly now that she knows we’re talking to the therapist about it.

Planning on trying to bring up our dissociation and plurality in our therapy appt today. Kinda scared but I’m gonna try not to chicken out

-🃏Shadow Milk (He/Any)

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Planning on trying to bring up our dissociation and plurality in our therapy appt today. Kinda scared but I’m gonna try not to chicken out

-🃏Shadow Milk (He/Any)

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Berserker/Absolute Shifts and Plurality

We've been seeing talk about berserker shifts on here lately and it's got us thinking. For those who don't know--berserker shifts are, in a way, a type of mental shift where you feel so much like your identitype that your mindset is entirely changed into theirs and your regular human brain rationale has been changed to match. We prefer "absolute" instead of "berserker" so we'll use that for the rest of this post.

Anyway, it's mainly used in older therian and otherkin spaces (with some criticism that's not relevant to this post)... but we've seen fictionfolk describe their experiences with that whole mindset shift as well recently, which wasn't something we thought about being a possibility before now.

Which led us to thinking... Is this a thing headmates like fictives and extranths get? I mean, if it's experienced at least once then it's a thing that can happen of course, so yes! But it's not really talked about from what we see--especially not in those terms. It's a vulnerable state to be in so it'd be understandable why it's rare to find talk of... But in our experience, it absolutely happens! It feels almost in the same sort of way that an emotional flashback might, with some added intensity and usually less traumatic origins. Maybe that's what other plurals use, if they even have a word for it?

Sometimes--though not often--we wake up in the morning and get completely disoriented because we feel like we're not where we're meant to be and our body is wrong, in a way deeper than regular dysphoria. A fictive will wake up in the front and for a little while, feel completely as if they were in their source and get very confused as to whose house they're in and why they're wearing the clothes they are. How did they get here? Where's their family? Their friends or partner(s)? Maybe they'll freak out that our body is different and wonder what happened to it, maybe they'll get up and move to get ready for work before realising that's not a thing we do. It happens in different ways but I think we would call those absolute shifts now that we've thought about it. More animalistic headmates of ours have had similar stuff on occasion but they're much more rare so we can't really speak too heavily on those.

It's most common when we just wake up but it happens at other times too. Shrapnel for example has had what he calls "memory flashbacks" where he'll remember a tiny bit about his life as Bakugo Katsuki, then for a few seconds after, he just feels like he's 100% his fictive identity and gets a bit concerned as to why he doesn't recognise his surroundings. He snaps out of it pretty quick but he's our main example and guy who experiences them.

We've known that shifting is not an exclusive thing to otherkin for ages. I mean hell, we see fictives and fictionkin as basically the same thing aside from origin (in most cases) and extranths and otherkin get the same sort of thing in our mind too. We don't see a huge reason to draw a big divide between them for us. And we know our headmates get phantom shifts and mental shifts of their identities all the time... But I guess we just never thought to attribute those flashback states to what is essentially an absolute shift.

We didn't really think we ever experienced one of those shifts until we leaned that yes, fictionfolk can get them and those things do pretty much count. Interesting to think about, and interesting to wonder if there's any other plurals out there who can relate.

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shout out to plurals who’s frequent fronters change all the time.

shout out to alters who are afraid of not fronting all the time, either because theyre so use to it or they’re afraid they wont get to front again.

shout out to systems who wish they had a more consistent rotation of fronters and wish it wasn’t so come and go with system members.

shout out to alters who like fronting.

shout out to members who get frontstuck regularly.

and shout out to systems trying to find a middle ground between being front stuck and having completely inconsistent fronters.

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Question for other systems

Does anyone else have trouble telling when someone’s just inactive vs being completely dormant? Cause we have some folks that are still vaguely here but they barely do anything even in headspace. When others have gone dormant before they completely disappeared into a certain part of headspace but that isn’t happening this time, which is what’s making us a little confused

(More detailed rant in tags)

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💃 AND 🥊 FOR THE ASK GAME!

(The ask game in question)

🥊 (VIOLENCE IS THE ONLY ANSWER) - YOUR SYSTEM HAS AN ALL OUT DUEL. WHO’S WINNING.

Alcor. He’s practically an all powerful god so there isn’t much debate there. Though he has to have a deal with someone to really go all out so… hm…. Other than him probably Shadow Milk. Being able to puppeteer people and use illusions to mess with their sense of reality gives him a very large advantage. (I could beat Alcor any day, star’s too soft :b -🃏Shadow Milk)

💃 (BOOGIE) - ANY WEIRD STORIES FROM SOMEONE'S FIRST/ONE OF THEIR FIRST TIMES FRONTING????????

One time, Alice was in front trying to go to bed when she suddenly felt a weird pressure of sorts from all around her, like the body was too big for the room. Then a voice came from headspace and started calling her by her old ID number from the labs in source. Freaked her the fuck out. That was the Absolute Solver’s first time fronting and it used that solely to mess with Alice. It still likes doing that a lot. (And it’s HILARIOUS! Alice gets sooooo pissed off -🃏)

Thanks for the asks Mari.

-🧿Truthless (He/It)

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ASK GAME FOR DERANGED PLURALS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OR SOMETHING

💥 (BIG BOOM) - WHO IS THE EVILIEST LITTLE CRETIN IN YOUR SYSTEM. THIS CAN BE AFFECTIONATE IDC

🌊 (AHHH WAVE) - IF YOUR ENTIRE SYSTEM WAS ON AN ABANDONED ISLAND AND YOU HAD NO CHOICE BUT TO SACRIFICE SOMEONE TO THE SEAGULLS TO SURVIVE WHO’S GOING. WHO’S GETTING VOTED TO THE SEAGULLS

🌹 (EW ROMANCE) - WHO’S THE FRUITIEST MF THERE. DO THEY NEED TO CALM THE FUCK DOWN YES OR NO

🔥 (ARSON TIME) - WHO IS PUBLIC ENEMY NUMBAH ONE

🤼 (FRIENDSHIP LOSES) - DOES YOUR SYSTEM HAVE A PAIR OF ARCH NEMESIES?? ABSOLUTELY ON SIGHT FOR EACH OTHER?????? ARE YOU THE FOE??????

👁️ (STARE) - DOES ANYONE JUST LIKE SIT AND LURK AND WATCH. GOT ANY STARERS????????

🦷 (THE BITIES) - WHO WOULD EAT RAW MEAT WITHOUT HESITATION. NO COOKING THAT SHIT

🐠 (BLOOD AND VIOLENCE) - WHAT’S SOMETHING OUTSIDE YOUR SYSTEM THAT EVERYONE AGREES IS SHITTY AND BAD AND EVIL. ABSOLUTELY UNANIMOUS (OR CLOSE TO THAT)

🧤 (NO TOUCHY) - WHAT’S SOMETHING ONLY ONE OR A FEW PEOPLE HATE AND DESPISE BUT MOST THINK IT’S PRETTY FUCKING COOL. WHO’S RIGHT (USE BIAS LMAO)

🐈‍⬛ (STOP SHEDDING) - WHO’S MOST LIKELY TO HAVE A FURSONA

🥊 (VIOLENCE IS THE ONLY ANSWER) - YOUR SYSTEM HAS AN ALL OUT DUEL. WHO’S WINNING.

🍎 (WHAT’S THAT ONE SAYING ABOUT THE EYE) - WHO (PROBABLY) GETS THE MOST BITCHES

🪢 (ROPE EMOJI) - WHO IS THE MOST SOCIAL. WHO HAS THE MOST ALLIES

💃 (BOOGIE) - ANY WEIRD STORIES FROM SOMEONE’S FIRST/ONE OF THEIR FIRST TIMES FRONTING????????