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it’s been months and i still can’t comprehend this. 527 kudos and counting for some random idea i started writing down when i was ill and bored and bedridden in my early teens??? the story that had to be translated into english and then tense shifted when i randomly decided to slap it on ao3 one day to give myself motivation to continue writing just so i wouldn’t get even more ill?? the story that has gone through 5000 revisions and deleted scenes and aborted arcs and had entire chapters rewritten over and over again or entirely scrapped and still, you guys want to read this? the thing that is, at its core, essentially just a very long-winded developmental writing experiment?

idk what else to say but thank you. from the bottom of my heart. to anyone who has ever interacted. bonus points if you left comments cause i cannot even begin to explain how big of an impact that has on my motivation and my ideas. but really i appreciate anyone who has bothered to give me a click through these tough years, no matter whether you stuck around or not.

lots of love,

insomnia-ridden, sentimental, not-drunk-enough Sol <3

so, i was scrolling thru l x light fics on ao3 sorted by kudos...

then i saw MY fic on page 19? of over 200 pages? which... is not computing. my brain refuses to believe that. ik it's not really that impressive but christ do i suddenly feel much less inadequate as a writer. i might actually go visit my google docs tonight.

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it has been almost 3 months since i touched my longfic

but within the past few days, these boys have somehow invaded my thoughts and have been haunting me every waking second

and so, i come crawling back to them

i missed them. more than i realised.

i promise i will try to do you justice, my loves. your story will be completed.

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The Doctor/The Master, Sixth Doctor & Evelyn Smythe Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Friendship, Light Angst, Self-Blame, The Doctor Needs a Hug

“You mean to tell me you’re married?” “Well…” the Doctor pauses, the corners of his mouth twisting into some simulacrum of a scowl, “I suppose I am, yes.”

In which Evelyn learns of the Doctor’s former family life.

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and what would you know. all it took was a bit of vodka for me to realise i probably should continue my longfic.

i’m gonna regret this when i’m sober.

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shakespeare was so right when he said “now is the winter of our discontent”

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note to self

(+ my fellow writers)

it’s not unsalvageable trash that should never see the light of day. it’s just a draft.

(‘perfection takes time’ i mutter to myself at 7 am after a sleepless night, knowing full well nothing i write will ever resemble perfection)

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so, i was scrolling thru l x light fics on ao3 sorted by kudos...

then i saw MY fic on page 19? of over 200 pages? which... is not computing. my brain refuses to believe that. ik it's not really that impressive but christ do i suddenly feel much less inadequate as a writer. i might actually go visit my google docs tonight.

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how to write

a guide by sol

step 1: write down every single thought you have and churn out tens of thousands of words in rapid succession

step 2: don’t write a single thing for months

step 3: repeat steps 1 & 2

step 4: suffer

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MY MAGNUM OPUS HIT 420 KUDOS

this is a glorious day.

(https://archiveofourown.org/works/20762408 btw)

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what i thought writing fanfic would be like: everything goes according to plan, the first draft is perfect, i never have to rethink anything because i just KNOW.

what writing fanfic is actually like: revising my outline countless times because ah shit that’s a plot hole…ah there’s another…oops, more discrepancies, gotta change the entire plot point now…wait, can that happen in canon? is there a rule about that? damn it. can’t do that. what if-

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remind me to always skip elisabeth songs when i’m writing emotional scenes because this just made me SOB

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THIS VERSION JUST HAD TO COME ON SHUFFLE PLAY RIGHT AFTER AND MAKE EVERYTHING WORSE

listened to this while writing and WHOOPS IM CRYING NOW

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listened to this while writing and WHOOPS IM CRYING NOW

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local stupid bitch decides to write 4 chapters of her longfic at once, leaving herself with 2 days to start and finish an entire college assignment and to write an entire script

big yikes

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just discovered the topics section on google docs

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i don’t like how suspicion is spelt. it doesn’t look like a real word.