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" w8 is just a number "

Yeah, one that literally describes you

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top 10 aura losses:

my family asked me what i wanted for christmas so i said ozempic and the room went silent but i’m literally hilarious so i laughed anyways (-10000000 aura)

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Easy one ingredient breakfast

You will need:

Water

Ice (optional)

Its healthy, hydrating, very quik and very cheap as well.

To spice things up, serve it with ice and/or in a pretty cup✨️

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Yay! In school with 0 hours of sleep and empty stomach. I hope I faint, fall off the stairs and die

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I’m so fat I’m a literal imposter on this app.

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“Are you okay?”

No, I’m fucking freezing, my legs are sore, my stomach is growling, my head hurts, I look fat in my outfit, and my hair is flat.

I’m not fucking okay.

:)

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The Puzzle

Life feels like a puzzle.

A puzzle with more than a million pieces. I was so close to completing it when something hit and destroyed all my hard work.

I lost all the pieces that are important, all the pieces that make me.. me.

I don’t want to restart it, I want to throw it out and never see it again.

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Hey there, you doing okay?

Your last couple of posts seem extra sad, so please get some water and food and take of yourself, okay?

Hii, thank you checking in. I’m not the greatest but I hope I will be soon enough. I just write what I feel in the moment so sometimes it does seem a little concerning, but don’t worry!! And you too! Please take care of yourselffffff<3333

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Any active EDblrs in September 2024 please interact with this post and follow me. I’ll follow back!

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Yeah no…. I shouldn’t be left alone in my thoughts

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Two-Faced

Fine. I’ll admit it. I’m two-faced.

But not in the way you think. In the way I keep my thoughts separate from my words. You hear me say

“I love life!”

“I’m so grateful for everything!”

“I love everyone”

But in reality, I’m tired. I’m sick of it. I want to die.

Internally I’m ripping apart everything. I’m grasping for reasons to hold on. I’m dying.

I love, yes. I love a lot. I do love everything and everyone. I can’t bring myself to not, but I don’t want to be here.

I need everything to stop.

I need it to stop.

So there, I admitted it. I’m two-faced. Is this what you expected me to say?

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I feel trapped.

I feel trapped in my own self.

I try to escape but everything I do brings me down to where I was.

It feels like my feet are tied to the ground with chains.

I don’t want to live like this.

Trapped in my own thoughts, my own body.

I don’t want to do this by myself,

But I’ll convince myself I can

Until I can’t.

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Your writing is amazing every post brings me to tears

Awwww thank you sooo much!! This made me so happyyyy

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I really hate you. I really really do hate you. It feels so hard to believe anyone nowadays. I feel like they’re all lying to me. It feels as if someone just ripped the heart shaped lenses out of my face.

Why is everything so dark and gloomy now? I’m trying to see everything like I used to, but it’s so hard. You tell me I’m too hopeful, but the thing is; I’m just trying to find light in everything I do. Thats because there’s people like you who don’t.

There’s a fine line between delusional and hoping. You didn’t see the line, and made assumptions about me. You tried to take away one thing that makes me myself.

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All because of you

I was always told I was “too much”

Too wild, too strange. Too loud. Too loving. Too cheerful, too “here”

I needed to be less. Take up less space, be quieter, smaller.

For years I forced myself into the darkest corners. And then I met you.

I thought with you it would be different. I thought you saw me.

Because of you I came out of the act I forced myself into.

For the first time I felt seen, appreciated.

I was foolish enough to believe you accepted it, encouraged it, even loved it.

Loved me, accepted me. Me.

But it wasn’t. It wasn’t what I thought it was with you.

You became someone I never knew. You showed me what you really are,

Like the rest.

But despite you leaving, and the hurting, I never returned to where I was.

Instead I stayed myself. Outgoing, passionate, and beyond loving.

All because of you.

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Empty

The urge to be empty. Physically and mentally.

Oh how I crave to not feel anything.

But I go back.

I go back to everything that makes me full.

My heart is so full of love I need to share.

My body, the one I am disgusted with, full of fat.

When these too things clash, I end up crashing.

I don’t want to be here, how do I live with such guilt?

How do I live with my heart and disgust with myself?

Will I ever feel better about myself?

I wonder how everything started.

But I don’t care enough to wonder.

Right now, all I crave is to be empty