stanleythearmy

[stanleythearmy]

what to leave in 2019:

+ self-doubt

+ comparison

+ overthinking

+ not setting boundaries with others

+ negative self-talk

+ thinking you should have your life figured out

+ procrastinating until the last minute

+ self-sabotage

+ putting others’ needs before your own

+ not taking care of yourself

+ being scared to be alone

+ not being your full self/hiding parts of yourself

+ basing your happiness completely on others’ happiness

+ saying yes when you want to say no

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Stenbrough!AU

Bill não se surpreendeu quando o sininho sobre a porta tocou às exatas 14:30 de um terça-feira. A essa altura já havia virado rotina ver o garoto de cachinhos chegar todos os dias nesse mesmo horário. Bill geralmente não se interessava nas pessoas que entravam na biblioteca, mas depois de duas semanas vendo o mesmo menino todos os dias na mesma hora de sempre... isso com certeza chamou sua atenção. 

Stanley Uris era o nome que via escrito no Cartão de Leitor sempre que ele pegava um livro – geralmente sobre pássaros ou de suspense e, em raras ocasiões (e sempre acompanhadas de certo acanhamento), de romance – no intuito de levar para casa. 

Bill não sabia muito mais sobre ele além disso. Sabia que Stanley era sempre muito educado, parecia ser tímido mas nunca deixava de dar bom dia acompanhado de um aceno com a mão para Bill quando entrava na biblioteca. Gostava de sentar na mesa ao lado da janela em dias áridos ou nublados e, de vez em quando, soltava pequenos sorrisos para o que quer que tivesse lido nas páginas do livro em suas mãos, da qual os dedos eram compridos e as unhas perfeitamente cortadas e lixadas.

Ok, talvez Bill tivesse prestado mais atenção ao garoto do que o normal, mas não era como se tivesse outra escolha quando o mesmo vinha todos os dias no exato mesmo horário. E se todos os dias Bill ficava olhando o relógio de dois em dois minutos esperando dar 14:30, ou lia os mesmos livros que via Stan lendo, ou passava horas imaginando como devia ser a sensação de passar as mãos nos cachinhos do outro, bom... isso não era da conta de ninguém.

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Me: Please, go to sleep! I’m begging you!

My brain:

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Wish I could glue this on my brain...

the universe is not in a hurry. You are. It’s why you are anxious, stressed and disappointed. Trust that what was meant to be yours, will be yours.

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Paixão

Quem dera isso durasse para sempre. Essa algazarra presa nos confins da essência, acariciando a alma carente de ternura. O alvoroço involuntário das asas de borboletas atacando as paredes do intestino. Memórias. Lembranças e emoções espontâneas atropelando a razão em busca de atenção, procurando sentido nas próprias reações. Quando falam de paixão, esquecem de mencionar a parte onde nos preparamos para aguentar todos os seus caprichos. Ou a ausência deles.

[stanleythearmy]

if there’s one thing that’s hella annoying(sad) is when you can’t separate the actor from his character. It reaches a moment where you end up find out that the actor is a right piece of shit and you can’t find it in yourself the will to watch this actor’s films anymore even if you like it bc you feel like you’re supporting his wrongdoings

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did anyone actually take the time to learn the lyrics to bohemian rhapsody or were we all born knowing it by heart

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i’ve never related to something more in my entire life:

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There comes a moment where you get tired of losing, you get tired of not being enough, of having to please others, of not moving forward, of always being stagnated... Your life does not go anywhere and you want her to move but you’re always afraid of what could happen if you move. Then you let yourself accommodate and you become a slave of your own comfort zone. That’s the worst thing you could do, for once you let yourself be chained by the zone of comfort... the only way out, is by breaking the chains, but those chains are made of steel and you’re just human.

But you shall never give in, for the human strength does not lie in the body, but in the heart and mind...

You are strong even if you say you are not, you would not be here today if you weren’t

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And I thought I’d moved past this. That I was moving on with my life, starting over, you know... But I wasn’t. I was not. Because I have no idea how... What one must do to change? How do you break yourself down, and build up the way you believe is better than before? How does one evolve? I don’t know. And that makes me feel lost... An agonizing feeling that crawls up through my throat, wrapping itself around my chest and squeezing. And I still don’t know what to do...

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“Extremely detailed character sheet template”

Character Chart Character’s full name: Reason or meaning of name: Character’s nickname: Reason for nickname: Birth date: Physical appearance Age: How old does he/she appear: Weight: Height: Body build: Shape of face: Eye color: Glasses or contacts: Skin tone: Distinguishing marks: Predominant features: Hair color: Type of hair: Hairstyle: Voice: Overall attractiveness: Physical disabilities: Usual fashion of dress: Favorite outfit: Jewelry or accessories: Personality Good personality traits: Bad personality traits: Mood character is most often in: Sense of humor: Character’s greatest joy in life: Character’s greatest fear: Why? What single event would most throw this character’s life into complete turmoil? Character is most at ease when: Most ill at ease when: Enraged when: Depressed or sad when: Priorities: Life philosophy: If granted one wish, it would be: Why? Character’s soft spot: Is this soft spot obvious to others? Greatest strength: Greatest vulnerability or weakness: Biggest regret: Minor regret: Biggest accomplishment: Minor accomplishment: Past failures he/she would be embarrassed to have people know about: Why? Character’s darkest secret: Does anyone else know? Goals Drives and motivations: Immediate goals: Long term goals: How the character plans to accomplish these goals: How other characters will be affected: Past Hometown: Type of childhood: Pets: First memory: Most important childhood memory: Why: Childhood hero: Dream job: Education: Religion: Finances: Present Current location: Currently living with: Pets: Religion: Occupation: Finances: Family Mother: Relationship with her: Father: Relationship with him: Siblings: Relationship with them: Spouse: Relationship with him/her: Children: Relationship with them: Other important family members: Favorites Color: Least favorite color: Music: Food: Literature: Form of entertainment: Expressions: Mode of transportation: Most prized possession: Habits Hobbies: Plays a musical instrument? Plays a sport? How he/she would spend a rainy day: Spending habits: Smokes: Drinks: Other drugs: What does he/she do too much of? What does he/she do too little of? Extremely skilled at: Extremely unskilled at: Nervous tics: Usual body posture: Mannerisms: Peculiarities: Traits Optimist or pessimist? Introvert or extrovert? Daredevil or cautious? Logical or emotional? Disorderly and messy or methodical and neat? Prefers working or relaxing? Confident or unsure of himself/herself? Animal lover? Self-perception How he/she feels about himself/herself: One word the character would use to describe self: One paragraph description of how the character would describe self: What does the character consider his/her best personality trait? What does the character consider his/her worst personality trait? What does the character consider his/her best physical characteristic? What does the character consider his/her worst physical characteristic? How does the character think others perceive him/her: What would the character most like to change about himself/herself: Relationships with others Opinion of other people in general: Does the character hide his/her true opinions and emotions from others? Person character most hates: Best friend(s): Love interest(s): Person character goes to for advice: Person character feels responsible for or takes care of: Person character feels shy or awkward around: Person character openly admires: Person character secretly admires: Most important person in character’s life before story starts: After story starts:

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