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it consumes me

the jealousy fucking drives you crazy

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My therapist has told me to look at the ‘feeling wheel’ whenever I have a hard time understanding my emotions and it has helped me sooooo much. I’m better with my communication these days and my relationship has been thriving ever since I started referring to it!

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Dating when someone has BPD

Ive been with my partner for almost a year now, and let me just say it has not been an easy ride; but its a ride I will continue to be on for many reasons. My partner did not know what BPD was until I explained it to her before we became official, so it was never something I hid from her. I think its always good to be open and upfront about having it when trying to date, simply because to some people it may feel like a big secret you are hiding from them.

I do not think that having BPD makes you unloveable either, considering I am loved every single day, flaws and all. We both have our fair share of bad days, we argue or fight, but I think the important thing is to communicate your feelings & hear each other out to try and understand where each person is coming from.

For example, me and my partner got into an argument where yelling occurred on both ends and she was getting ready to go into work. We both had a stressful day as we were both thinking back on what we could have done differently, so, whenever she got home we sat and explained both of our sides without anyone interrupting the other or getting defensive. Once we both heard each other out, it became easier to see and understand where we both were coming from during this specific incident.

All I'm trying to say here is that, no you are not unloveable just because you have BPD. You can be loved and love someone and things will get easier to manage with time and patience. Be kind to yourself and understand that this is not something that will just "go away," but it CAN get better with time and good coping skills. You are not alone in this. You are loved and wanted on this earth my fellow BPD baddies <3

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unfortunately i DID take what you said to heart and now i’m sobbing and debating on whether i should kill you or kill myself

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The fact that I’m way to scared to get pregnant and have the family life I’ve always wanted really breaks my heart, I just wanted to have a baby with my partner and be a little family ☹️

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Me and my gf got into a heated argument in front of her parents before she went into work today and I don’t even know how to fix this. I feel justified in my feelings for being upset but not at the way it was handled bc we yelled at each other. I just feel so defeated and horrible

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Why is it so hard for the universe to give me what I’ve dreamed of? I know this isn’t a healthy mindset to have but I just want to have a family and the universe won’t let me have it. Seeing that negative line every time is going to drive me straight to the mental hospital, please. I promise I’ll be a good mother, just give me a chance to show you…please

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I had the worst fight with my mom like a week ago and now I don’t know how I’m supposed to talk to her about me moving in with my partner. I feel like she’s going to freak out and try and hurt me physically. (She already threatened me when we argued and I had a panic attack)

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I’m so depressed and I feel like such a burden to my partner because of it. They treat me so well and yet all I wanna do is rot in bed until I eventually die

I wish I wasn’t such a waste of fucking space

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i wanna lay under my blanket and die

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my bpd runs my life and it's just awful. i feel so bad for everyone around me. they have to put up with a mess who can't even get her act together for a day

my poor partner has to deal with me always wanting to be around them and acting out whenever i'm not all they put their time into. my friends have to deal with the same issue even if it is to a lesser amount.

and i'm not even worth that stress, i'm annoying and unlikable. i'm just not worth it and they make me feel so awful for them when they act like i am because it's clear i've just gaslit them into thinking i'm a better person than i am

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this doesn't really have anything to do with BPD but is it weird to have the urge to kiss people even if you just met?? is this normal or am i just a fucking weirdo??

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TMI, mention of period & sex

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So me and my partner decided to have sex this morning, as any couple might do. I haven’t had any symptoms of starting my period or even showed any signs of spotting either. Well we had sex and it was great, until we both looked down and saw blood on our legs 😭😭 I’m so fucking embarrassed, but my partner was so nice about it despite being queasy with blood.

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Unfortunately, I woke up this morning again

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my partner honestly deserves so much better than me, i'm just a constant problem and a huge burden :/

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having to ask for constant reassurance is actually so embarrassing and makes me feel even worse because what if I'm annoying them?

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I love my partner and the relationship we’ve been building, but the fact that they can go HOURS without texting kinda hurts my feelings? They have ADHD and can get very easily side tracked (I know first hand by in person experience being around them) so I rlly rlly try to be understanding; however the feeling of abandonment creeps up and I get so fucking terrified they’re gonna leave me all bc they haven’t messaged me. It feels like I’m physically dying sometimes and I hate it