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MI VIDA LOCA!!!

Till my sweetheart… I LOVE THIS SONG.

First of all, this isn’t out of character for him at all. Till is a rebel but he’s a cutie pie at heart. He dresses punk, acts punk, but feels like any human being would. I’m of the belief that if he were to be raised in a healthy environment, he’d still appreciate the alternative styles and dabble in them but he’d be a sweetheart. He’s a cat, guys… His personality is that of a rescued cat. So, by that analogy if he didn’t need to be rescued in the first place, he’d be like a grumpy but clingy and loving cat.

The song isn’t in spanish (unfortunately), and i don’t know korean so we’ll have to do with the translation i got out of genius.

It starts with “I feel pathetic whenever i stand in front of you, Crush!” I think most people will say this verse is about Mizi, but I think it’s about Ivan. The song in its entirety is not about only Mizi or Ivan, because like Vivinos and Qmeng said, he has feelings for both. In different ways. I think Till may be feeling pathetic whenever he stands in front of Ivan bc *lore* and “Scenario: Crush?” verse is literally whispered. This verse is followed by “I can’t say a word, I turn back around every day.” But the first verse is also about Mizi. Like I said, Till’s words can apply to both of them, this is just how I want to analyze it. I can even say that the first half of the song may entirely be about Mizi while the second half is about Ivan and it would still make sense with these yearning ass lines. Anyway…

“Do you luv me? I do. Don't you leave me. I'll probably get it across to you for sure. Close the distance between us. To be inside your heart...”

This verse reeks of misunderstood emotions to me… and then it’s followed by “Do you luv me? I do. Don't you hate me? I get scared again like an idiot. Widen the distance between us, Mi Vida Loca...”

I GET SCARED *AGAIN* LIKE AN IDIOT. WIDEN THE DISTANCE BETWEEN US. if this isn’t about the time they escaped the Anakt Garden then I’ll leave this fucking fandom. It’d be good for my heart anyway.

I think around here, “(Oh) Your smile that doesn't love me (Even so) I'll also smile at me who doesn't love myself.”

Till makes peace with the fact that Mizi does not reciprocate his feelings and the verses become entirely about Ivan. So while the first half is about Mizi the same verses become applied to Ivan in the second half of the song. Me thinks…

What do you guys think and are these translations i got from the net correct?? Please correct me and add your own I’d love to see how others are tweaking out.

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new mizi comic is an insight to her character. she isn’t manipulative nor is she evil. she just believes for her to be able to live, she needs to be loved by others.

“I want to live a little longer. So please keep loving me.”

The tragedy of Alien Stage isn’t the deaths, slavery, or the apocalypse. It is the fact that even though humans were raised completely different from how they should have been, at the end of the day, they all wanted to live. They wanted to love because they wanted to live.

In their minds the reactions we deem to certain emotions are connected to other things. Crying is a humane response to sadness, it can be seen as unsightly but here her crying because of her pain is seen as “adorable”.

“I just felt like I’d be at peace being in a place where I’m not the one being crushed but a place where I could crush someone.”

“Crush” in Mizi’s definition means protecting but also suffocating. Her “provider” got crushed in front of her, most likely whilst trying to protect her or by the Segyeins.

Her finding Sua “adorable” is directly linked to how her owner found her “adorable” while she was being “crushed”. She associates certain emotions with certain experiences, which are inherently different experiences from what a normal human would associate it with.

It is so important to remember that the Alien Stage characters are slaves, that they are in a different planet after Earth got razed and invaded by aliens. Their societal rules and responses are fundamentally different from ours. I believe trying to analyze their pasts and psychologies with customary, run-of-the-mill thoughts is doing them injustice.

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from what i understood from the new mizi comic, she’s warping her own image in her own mind. she’s losing it bc of survivors guilt. it’s true that she wasn’t the naive and innocent girl people thought, and mizi knows it too. she was aware of what was going on around her, and how people perceived her so she used it to her advantage in order to survive. now that decision is haunting her and warping her actions in her own mind in a way that makes her think she’s “cunning, and manipulative” she is not. maybe a little but all she did was use the image others created of her towards her own advantage. does this make sense??

she didnt like others thinking her life was “easy” hence why she slapped sua. mizi didn’t like others only liking her because she was pretty hence her mild dislike towards till. mizi wore the “pure, innocent, and naive” personality like an armour. it wasnt meant to be deceiving it was meant to protect. people are so used to one dimensional characters that their reading comprehension gets chucked out the window whenever a character has a little more depth than they’re used to. im fucking sick and tired of it.

i need people to leave the semi-academic and highly diagnostic words theyve picked up from media and think and fucking analyze for themselves for one fucking second. (im very pressed about how people analyze certain stuff) i saw someone say shes BIPOLAR?? if there is one thing she is we can say with certainty it is that she is a LESBIAN!!!!

also, i hope i dont see “nooo mi healthy relationship!!” there are no healthy relationships in alien stage. none. because the characters do not get raised in a healthy environment. they do not know how to differentiate their own emotions.

i want to say more and do a more in depth analysis and not something i just ranted down under someone’s posts but im so drained.

happy pride month mizisua truthers

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has this been done before lmaoooo

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morning of pain, suffering, and everything misery inducing.

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i really hope “normies” and people who just joined fandoms come to understand and appreciate fandom culture. this whole discourse about ao3 and people demonizing others for liking something has really got to stop. i think some people are really desperate for some recognition and they’re looking for it in wrong places. no i dont find you admirable for marginalizing and demonizing authors/creators for doing something without asking back ANYTHING. go look for validation from your parents. it’s really easy to spew shit at others behind a screen but all you’re doing with this black and white view, blind justice, and an uncalled value of ethics in fandom spaces is DAMAGING it. let’s use our critical thinking skills people. im begging everyone to just mind their own fucking business. go judge the author’s you PAY to read. the creators in fandom spaces are creating because they enjoy it. not because they owe us anything. the world doesn’t revolve around you. not everything is an attack towards you.

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So i was looking into symbolism of the eyes since one of dazais eyes were covered in his ‘dark era’ and i found out that in asian culture through symbolism obscuring of eyes can convey ‘respect’ or ‘modesty’. That the eye often means judgment and authority. That the eyes are commonly associated with intelligence, light, vigilance, moral conscience, and truth. Looking someone in the eye is a western custom of honesty. In cases like dazais covering of the eyes with bandages can mean mystery, not seeing the complete truth, or deceit. Different numbers of eyes have different meanings as well and dazai only covers one of them. which can mean: subhuman, divine omniscience, superhuman (usually negative). Dazai was blindly following orders during the ‘dark era’. He was the ‘demon prodigy’. Oda took off the bandages while he was dying which is a really human thing. Therefore figuratively and literally opening dazais eyes. when dazai was in the Port Mafia he was thought to be ‘cut out for it’, that he had ‘mafia blood’ running through his veins. but when he left for Armed Detective Agency to try to become ‘find the right path’ as per odas last request, he no longer had the bandages over his right eye. i think he made peace with his humanity in a way.

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orange haired bitches and their emo boyfriends are ruining my life. first kagehina now soukoku… what’s next me and ur mum??

#kagehina

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he may not look like he gets bitches but honey that dick was eleven inches

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what the fuck is this

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im not responsible for the person ill become if or when third year shouyou gets animated

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getting a septum was one of the best fucking decisions ive ever made

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satosugu (derogatory)

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LOOK. AT. THEM. LOOK AT THEM AND REALIZE HOW SINGLE YOU ARE!!

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YALL LOOK WHAT I FUCKING FOUND?!!!

ac: Sykine on twt <3

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“I looked away for one second and when i turned sakuatsu were holding me at gunpoint and I had no choice but to start projecting so here we are.”

literally the best authors note i can imagine @dr-awkward221b

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me and who when??