sysfreaks

[sysfreaks]

sys culture is “you have to do lots of research before you self diagnose!!!” I DID THESE MFS MADE ME FORGET!!!!! if i (host) try to read a long informative tumblr post i start dissociating nevermind academic literature n studies!! GUYS IT HAS BEEN YEARS I AM WELL AWARE THAT YOU’RE HERE CAN I PLS RETAIN THIS INFO

i have literal forget things disorder pls give me a break for not being able to cite academic papers on said disorder to you

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[sysfreaks]

system culture is... If that isn't mine memory, and it isn't yours... Then who's memories is it? 😨

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[sysfreaks]

tw sh

oh no my aunt might have found out what we did … oh yeah we’re in trouble

hoping she doesn’t find out the wall we punched

[sysfreaks]

It will never make sense to us how endos even become the systems they claim to be.

When you're a child, you have unmerged ego states that are typically found in ages 4 - 9 years old, these merge together near 10 - 12 years old. If you go through trauma during the ages where you ego states are unmerged dissociative barriers come inbetween those ego states, making them unable to merge when you become older. That's where alters come in because now you basically have more then one person in your head. Typically the core, a trauma holder, a protector, and an emotional part. These parts can also split, usually caused by being extremely stressed or going through trauma, causing your system to become bigger with more parts over time.

If you don't go through trauma around 4 - 9, there is no way for you to become a system. Enough said!

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when you leave me, i should die. i deserve it, don't i?

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at a party: how do i make this about me?

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i'd slit my own throat just to see if you'd mourn me

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[sysfreaks]

yesterday i met my best friend but my semiverbal being and separation anxiety from my family bit me in the ass real hard and couldn’t enjoy one single moment. i genuinely can’t do this anymore.

[sysfreaks]

System culture is your system being almost all fictives and being fakeclaimed but it’s just you’ve relied on the internet and your favorite characters as a coping mechanism for so long that you’ve completely detached from the real world and can only cope by interacting with your favorite media so when you’re stressed you hyperfixate your way to having an even closer connection to your favs (you split one of them)

Guh too many forsaken alters that fucking hate each other and also too many of certain characters why are we COLLECTING 1x?

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[sysfreaks]

For any system that needs to hear this:

Experiencing periods of silence in your brain is normal. You’re not making it up or faking or actually just a singlet just because you can’t hear other alters 24/7/365.

[sysfreaks]

am /i/ being a therian or is it just the therian alter being co-con with me

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was searching up dog breeds and my head started randomly hurting… the dog is coming back

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did culture is having thinking abt something n immediately getting a headache like whoops guess that was too close to the Forbidden Knowledge

It feels like when you get too close to the edge of the map in a video game and start taking damage 😭

[sysfreaks]

Plural with a fear of being perceived culture is ending up in the "I can't do anything because someone's looking at me" for hours because someone else came into front or you just remembered you're a system ;-;

[sysfreaks]

Plural with a fear of being perceived culture is ending up in the "I can't do anything because someone's looking at me" for hours because someone else came into front or you just remembered you're a system ;-;

[sysfreaks]

sys culture is I have to mask as the host but I have a totally different personality and this is hell

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