#//i do love me complicated business

[originemesis]

@micsmasmuses xxx

“I do that because I enjoy tormenting you, it’s my job after all” he teases raising a brow at his snap back. Only to make a disgusted face as he says the next sentence. Hes so vulgar! It’s disgusting! But he can also tell the man is lonely and jealous… and sad. “Please stop being so vile, you’re killing the mood here” he mutters glancing away from him. Why does he try with him, he’s so aggravating. But maybe it’s the thought of back then that still comes to him. How close they were and how badly he wants to be that again. Or maybe it’s that need to make him his own, to claim him. It’s pathetic really, how desperate he is to have him. A need so strong it would put Ozzie under but it’s not lust… maybe it’s something else. Love? Annoyance? Sounds like a married people thing. But holding him right now feels so nice. So right. Even as he gets his gross snot on him as he cries, it’s fine, not the first time. He’s a dad he’s had worse for Pete’s sake. A hand makes it up into his hair. Gently playing with his brunette locks, feeling how soft it is as he tries to comfort him. A soft kiss pressed to his head as his wings wrap around them. Red eyes glancing over the pretty gold of Adam’s wings. His other hand continues to rub soothing circles on his back as he looks down at him. Rolling his eyes at the mention of himself being the stupid thing. He is… but Lucifer isn’t that childish.

“Well… I actually wanted you at my side, not Lilith. Yes I adored her but you always took my breath away” he says as the hand in Adam’s hair caressed over the back of his neck. Gently rubbing the soft skin with his thumb. “But I chickened out of courting you after Lilith confessed to me” he frowns, he sounds ashamed of himself.

"Oh yeah? The eternal edgelord of making the masses as miserable as you and that micro-dick energy, huh?" He mused, though the usual and persistently ornery peck to his rendition of a fighting cock in human's clothing sounded as wet as if he'd clambered out of a farm pond after being knocked in and left to dry with sopping, emerald tail feathers under an overcast sky. The muttered complaint earns a huff from the man as well as the risen edge of a thumb as he absentmindedly worked at digging out the golden beads that seemed layered in lower lashes now like sap. "...and what mood exactly is that, dude? The one where you come all the way here to-what? Twist the knife of all the bitches that ever left me in deeper on the feast of the fuckin' saint of hearts? Yeah. Hilarious."

As much as his dedication to upholding the ever tumultuous kick of a tantrum born of their usual dealings from a garden-esque era long passed, but hardly shaken far from his mind like dandelion seeds stubbornly stuck in the fibers of his robe's hem, the bubbling over of his miserable mood for the evening and its unintended exposure has him slowing down to emit only the occasional sniffs smothered by the collar of his vexing visitor's dress jacket. Between the woven fibers, a scent oddly reminiscent of daisies drifted out... and they were burning. Of course. As far as burning went, his eyes- when exposed to the extra crisp draft of heaven's mesosphere- weren't much better, and to wipe out their collected sting, he ground the grooves of his gaze along a button fastened to his company's collar with a plaintive puff quite common to the species of a first man. Always so insistent on being heard...but never wanting that sound to expose the weakness at the heart of mortality that he'd fought blunt tooth and black-painted fingernail to hide under an air of viciousness- a shield of vulgarity that never seemed to fail him even as it continued to do just that.

He'd been in the stubborn state of mind that since Lucifer offered him a shoulder, he'd just up and clean the mess off his face using the other's shirt as a tissue to blow his nose in, but even as the shimmering in golden irises hardened back to a remotely solid display, he found himself stuck under a blanket of seraphim wings weighing down his shoulders and an entanglement of fiddle-worn digits in his hair. Well, it's not exactly a knife twisting- much as his pride would tell him otherwise. It's simply not loud enough to startle him back to his usual prickling protests, aside from finding a crook on the shorter being's shoulder to rest his chin- somewhere with a proper headbutting angle if he did go ahead and admit to the man being the dumb thing of which he spoke.

"Hey- careful with the merchandise." A grumbled warning followed the fingers that found the curve of his wing tucked under an arm like a tickle proof shield- or an extra armor layer fastened securely over the soft spot located in the large width between two of his ribs. "Out here grabbing for wings like you're cool ranch?" A short tsk of the tongue fumbles into a flinch and a sputter with the other's next admission. Delusion? Maybe both-

"Bro- th'fuck? That's..." Impossible? Unbelievable? Something that every bristled edge that made him so coarse in manner from all the callouses collected from Earth rose to dispute like the side winding of a porcupine's tail? He'd jerked up straight again, though Lucifer's wings weren't budging even with a restless, preliminary elbowing. Expression sapped of its previous raw glisten drifted down listlessly to squint at the fallen angel and the purple tint his red gaze took with the blue undertones of heaven's shadows.

"...that's really all we are to you, huh?"

A flash of teeth shone white and sharp between them, poised to snap and sever whatever loose thread hung between them like the strings he sometimes found on the sloppy amount of his robes' sleeve fabric. "Toys? Toys to break, because if you can't have us- no one else can, right? That your big reveal, bud? 'Cause you're right-" The helmet clinked at his side as he shifted his weight around restlessly and lifted a free talon to jerk a sharpener thumb up under the other's chin. With a firm press to crane Lucifer's head back so he could drop the scarred edges of his gaze down into the lower perch of the other's perception, he admits-

"-that is fucking stupid ~ "

[orcelito]

I'm probably too much of a vashwood shipper to ever write a trigun fic without them dating, BUT ALSO I really do love vashmeryl so fuckin much. Obviously the solution to this would be to write polygun so I can have the best of both cakes AND ALSO merylmilly AND ALSO wolfwood with the girls. See there's literally no losing.

If only my writing energy wasn't so goddamned limited lol

[fawnarchive]

crimas.

[positively-peachy-143]

Guys rq, if I'm doing an RP with you and I haven't responded yet, please LET ME LIVE MY LIFE. I will get back to you eventually I swear, but repeatedly reaching out about it will not get a response faster. I'm busy with school, I have mountains of work to catch up on, and feeling like responding to an RP is just another *task* I have to do just makes me distance myself from it more. Please give me more slack, I understand it's frustrating, but I am like this with EVERYTHING social atm. I am periodically responding to all rps when I have time and motivation to do so, and I'm even limiting irl things too. Please be patient with me.

[bumblingbabooshka]

Do you think Tuvok and Leonard James Akaar explored each others bodies on that Neltedian Planetoid?

[icewindandboringhorror]

Very strange outfit that is sort of like.. a mix of my current style (pattern mixing, pom poms, fun sandals) combined with how I dressed when I was like 10 years old. The stereotypical skelanimals hoodie vest and the skull t-shirt lol.. 

[todayisafridaynight]

It's been wonderful being able to talk about these things for me too! I haven't really had the opportunity since Y7 came out, so I'm positively buzzing. And no worries about the tone of your post about Daigo's article haha, I appreciate it when issues are pointed that I might've missed otherwise since that's at least something actionable.

But I'm obviously not going to stop anyone from venting frustrations with the wiki or with Fandom as a platform; I frequently find myself frustrated too! It's one of the things that keeps people editing the wiki. I'm honestly fine with whatever as long as it's not accusing us of being fujoshi for the billionth time lol, but for better or worse I do like to clarify what we're trying to do if there's any confusion.

Speaking of, Mine's relationship tags are kind of a funny story! So a lot of them have these dotted underlines and question marks, right? You're supposed to be able to hover over underlined terms to see a short definition (on desktop) and click the question mark to see an article with all the definitions on mobile, since hover actions aren't possible on a touchscreen.

But since the article was and still is under construction, Fandom doesn't show the link to logged-out users. So I had no idea it just looks like we're saying the tag is ambiguous lol. It's up now though, so it's hopefully easier to understand what we're trying to do!

I just found it funny I specifically added that feature to reduce confusion. Half the grief we get over Mine's "romantic interest" tag is because people assume we're saying it's mutual (we chose the term to try and avoid the "mutual" connotations of "love interest," but I guess that didn't work out). I also thought it might help with somewhat esoteric tags like "co-parent" (which was put in place for Jo and Arakawa and then I kept thinking of others) and "surrogate son." Turns out it's tough to boil complex relationships down to one term!

I definitely have SO many questions about New Year's Day and I probably always will; for the space of only one night, it's a huge blank. I certainly do have to wonder if shipping Masato off to America was decided then and there. There's a lot that could possibly be expanded on in RGGO (further interactions between Arakawa and Jo included lol), so I've got hope for that too now that we're back to random events. I'd be really interested to see how you'd portray it someday!

Talking about Nakai and Tsutsumi reminded me, Nakai mentioned he read the whole script in a day so he "wouldn't do a disservice to Arakawa or Sawashiro's characters." That kind of stuck out to me precisely because there are so few scenes between them compared to like, Arakawa and Ichi, and they're all relatively low-impact in comparison.

Of course, it could be marketing on account of him and Tsutsumi getting to co-star again, or the scenes could simply have stood out to him more for that reason, or he could've had a different impression of the ratios having read the script rather than played the game. But the part of me that makes me want to go Off The Deep End speculating is kind of wondering if there were other scenes planned?

And absolutely! I'm not able to reblog often because the post editor's been crashing whenever I try to tag my posts, but I hope you know I love your work and I'll support pretty much anything you put out! I'm very excited to share my findings as well.

A lot of it's to do with Mine's relationship to Western culture vs. Japanese culture (his "westabooism," basically), so that's specific to him, but there a lot of interesting concepts and theories in Japanese psychology regarding familial bonds, met and unmet emotional needs. They work as an explanation for his probable feelings of alienation from Japanese culture, but I feel they would make for an interesting lens to examine the Arakawas through as well.

I actually hadn't ever considered the similarity with regard to Mine and Jo's dads, but that makes so much sense! If I were to take it a step further, I think feelings of "abandonment" by their fathers have had long-lasting effects on both them and Masato. Jo we've been talking about, his father was technically still "there," but he wasn't in his corner, which feels much the same as abandonment to a child.

I think Mine's internalized a lot of the same feelings even though his father never meant to abandon him (I guess Jo's may not have, necessarily; alcoholism can destroy a family whether the individual wants that to happen or not). Like, unfairness, displacement, lack of control, the loss of the only support you have and so on. I think dwelling on that is what sent Mine's mental state spiraling, and what made it imperative to just believe Daigo was "dead" to try and move on as soon as possible. He didn't want to be hurt the same way again.

It's also probably what he was projecting in his ridiculous villain speech during The Orphanage Scene; the reason offering kids support in the way Kiryu does is a form of "victimization" in his eyes, at that moment, is because that support can be ripped away from you at any time. The scene is kind of hilarious to me because it's like, "okay we need Mine to have a kick-the-dog moment, his actions have been too understandable," but I do get it from that angle.

Similarly, I think those feelings of abandonment are why Arakawa faces the brunt of Aoki's abuse, because it's like, "YOUR negligence is why I had to go through all of that." So I get why Jo, like your sister, wouldn't want the finger pointed at him, but at the same time… damn. Perhaps if Arakawa had never had that talk with Masato, things might've been different. I get the impression he wouldn't be able to endure keeping things to himself for as long as Jo, though, given things like the letter he sent Ichi in prison.

Oh, yeah, Jo is CRAZY protective of Masato too! "If anything happens to him, killing you a thousand times would be insufficient!" I think part of his overreaction to having Masato's money is also that if Ichi can't listen to orders that fundamental, who's to say he listened to the orders to keep Masato safe? I guess if you see Ichiban as incompetent to the point of almost being a malicious actor, you might think that.

I'm sooo so glad you've noticed the rest of those similarities haha, I've been rotating them around in my brain like a cube for ages. A Venn diagram would be so fun to see! That's such an insightful look at the differences between Mine and Jo's offices too. I was a little confused about the placement of the social spaces, or even that they're there, but if you look at it as clearly separate from his personal spaces, it does make sense.

Also, not to harp on the books in the offices too much, but I compared the textures a little earlier. Mine's are basically all (very expensive) encyclopedias and language phrasebooks in English, Italian, French, and German, in contrast to Jo's discrete hardcovers and series of art history books. They're probably all stock assets lol, but I think they're surprisingly good fits; Mine dumping considerable time, money, and energy into his fascination with Western culture and Jo being the type to not want people to know what he's reading totally works for me.

But yes! It's kind of funny, because Yokoyama wasn't much of a Mine fan in his early days, but I hope he and the others keep on writing characters like him. I think of it as Mine's "legacy" in a series where past characters aren't acknowledged too often; the most I can recall are that Hakuho mention in 4 and the fencing around the Touto roof perimeter.

Speaking of, I love Mine's missed shots in the finale specifically because he's an excellent marksman in his Okinawa character story. Why? How? Who Knows, He's Perfect. (Probably not as good of a shot as Daigo though lol)

And yeahhh, there are other interviews, but it ain't the same! It was the most in-depth one I know of. I think this is one of the only remnants, and I shall entrust it to you.

But yes, exactly! And I'm also glad Y7 introduced more people to them (myself included), Tsutsumi's my favorite actor of all time and Nakai's brilliant. They make a great combi! Of the things I've seen where they co-star, I think Princess Toyotomi and Hero SP are both solid; the latter is a special for a longer show, but I honestly didn't even notice lol. Musashi I wasn't personally able to get through even though I've read the book, so I'm not sure how it plays out between them.

Also I DIDN'T KNOW TORU DIED IN PURE??? That came out of nowhere oh my god T___T But if you're ever looking for anything rare, feel free to ask! I might know a guy (gender neutral) with a stash, Fly, Daddy, Fly included.

OH MAN MINE'S WIKI ENTRY I've definitely made my opinions about it known, but now knowing the truth behind it it's kind of funny and still so unfortunate. I'd almost want to recommend a section dedicated to the topic since it's such an integral part of his character, though I also understand wanting to keep the wiki strictly to factual information and to exclude speculation (or "speculation" anyhow- it's definitely more of a concrete situation, especially going off of the information provided in your pinned post on the topic. If anything, that sort of information would belong to the "Trivia" tab wouldn't it- but again, it's such a deep situation it can't really be summarized in one or two sentences) and the topic being too niche to have a page dedicated to it. It's nice to know that the subject isn't trying to be brushed under the rug though and it's just a matter of awkward formatting/incomplete work!

Furthermore on The New Years Event, I would LOVE RGGO to expand on the topic since they've been so liberal with the stories they make and the depth those stories add to the characters. Honestly, I was expecting Masato's card to have that as its accompanying character story, so it's unfortunate that he doesn't get it or any story as far as I'm aware (or maybe he does have one and my poor pull luck has just prevented me from getting the card to find out myself, but I've looked as much as I could and couldn't find an upload of it). Oh well, I guess it's the old "if you want something done you gotta do it yourself-" not that anything I could make could ever be up to scratch, so I'm glad I do have people interested in what I have in mind :)

About Nakai, I wouldn't feel wrong trying to accredit his comment to a time before he knew the full plot or saw the full game and was just debriefed on the general story/character relationships, and I also wouldn't put it past RGG to have deleted scenes/ideas (if those do exist, RGG please let me in your vault I'd like to take a peak...)!

The psychology of Mine is another topic I've been wanting to officially tackle for a while now, so I'm glad I have this chance to share some of what I have mental bullet points for.

Moreover, Mine's dad and how he "left" Mine undeniably impacted him significantly beyond physically leaving him alone, and it definitely manifests in The Orphanage Scene and his idea that killing Daigo would be "putting him out of his misery". In those instances, he sees Daigo and the orphans as victims of an unfair reality, Daigo being comatose, and the orphans having the endure the struggles of being orphans (and that added-on, projected anxiety that their comfortable lives now could vanish at any second like it did for Mine). Mine's mustache-twirling villainy is funny for its absurdity, but I also genuinely appreciate it since it lets us peak into his warps philosophy better. It doesn't justify his actions by any means, but it explains to us why he can justify his actions as from a place of love or pity as opposed to thoughtless evil.

To add on, Mine's relationship with his father, from what we're allowed to gather, was healthy and positive. Because of their positive relationship, the removal of such adds credence as to why Mine's desperate to get that love again. It especially makes sense considering Japan's horrendous attitude and negligence towards orphaned children that was even demonstrated during Mine's childhood while his father was alive.

And as an inverse aside, Jo's relationship with his dad was toxic, whether it was due to blatant abuse or combined negligence. It's fair to assume that Jo never got to experience genuine, secure love growing up, so as a result, it's not something he actively seeks out. He's been without it long enough that it's not something he necessarily craves like Mine who used to have it until it was taken from him.

Masato certainly makes it clear he felt isolated despite the efforts Jo and Arakawa repeatedly went through for him, and it's apparent it's an unfortunate side affect of internalized ableism. It definitely doesn't help anyone's case that Masato had seemingly been informed of the night of his birthday's events (from Arakawa's point of view, obviously), and it's clear that knowledge gives ammunition as to why he resents him.

You're right on Jo potentially seeing Ichi as a bad actor, it's not as if he has disdain for him for no reason! Like even if Ichiban hadn't taken Masato's money the way Jo could have imagined, the idea that Ichi can't be responsible in one avenue can easily lead back to Ichi having the potential to look after Masato, especially when he seems to be the one who predominately looks after him when he's tasked to.

I've already got my program open to make my little chart and have my reference pictures ready, so hopefully I can have that silly thing out soon haha- I'm glad you're interested in seeing it, and I hope other people will like to see it too! Jo and Mine really are my favorite antagonists, so it's funny (and I guess not surprising) that they have parallels to them.

To add on to that though, I think it's fun to look at the extra details, no matter how small; I'm probably more happy than I should be that you looked at their office's books, but I can't help be a fan of the details you found (whether they're generic models or not, I'm running with them- I've done more with less before lmao)! Mine having language books is definitely in-line with his interests, but Jo having art history books is weirdly endearing (and dare I say another point for "these are the same picture" comparing it to Mine's own love for art). Jo being so private to the point of blocking out the binds of the books he owns is so accurate to him and his secrecy, and the concept that he likes to read about art in his spare time is a new favorite concept for me.

Mine really isn't acknowledged much after 4; in comparison to Ryuji and Nishiki, he's remembered throughout the series the least (you can argue the same for Ryuji, but considering he gets a whole new life in Dead Souls, I think it's fair to say that makes up for the mainline series forgetting about him. Though I guess the same could be Mine getting a prominent role as Hijikata in Ishin... Definitely not as cool of a spot as to be a playable protagonist with a machine gun arm if I'm honest). In that, it's great that his likelihood can exist in future characters, and I hope they continue the trend of phenomenal antagonists in LaD8 and onward!

I'm eternally grateful for this frame you've gifted me thank you so much- Nakai's smile is such a blessing honestly, I'm glad if anything survived from the interview it can be this shot at least.

I've got Princess Toyotomi and Hero SP added to my watch list, DEFINITELY something I'll be excited to check out as a reward once I have all my important business taken care of this week! Honestly, I haven't seen Musashi either: while I was looking through their filmography I saw it was a project they did, but I've always been bad at watching long series so I didn't take the time to see their performance together.

For things I have seen though... yeah he dies SORRY IF THAT WAS HOW YOU FOUND OUT </3</3 Honestly I didn't expect myself to love the series as much as I did (admittedly it was predominately because of the leads and their relationship), but when it happened I was both- dare I say crushed- a little humored a little funny in a dark-comedy way.

And if you do have access to harder-to-get films, I'd absolutely be interested in hearing about it. One of Nakai's movies Good Morning Show has been haunting me for weeks: it sounds like such a fun movie yet I can't find it anywhere </3

[gloriousmonsters]

watched the moominvalley AND 90s anime takes on the Last Dragon back to back earlier and I'm still so fucked up emotionally

[forgaeven1]

ifykyk : but are ur muses still at the restaurant

[tackysapphic]

currently doing that thing i tend to do where i know something about myself deep down but keep pushing it down and coming up with a million excuses of why it can’t be etc etc.

[you-are-my-neverland]

taking a creative writing intro course this fall and i’m so, so excited!!!!

[anothermonikan]

I do think it's a little silly when someone says they miss a piece of media... Like,the media is right there(probably) ! Go watch that show again or play that game again, it's (probably) not gone! But then also like. I get it. I suppose the first watch or experience of something is special and like, fandom hype around stuff if it was a popular piece of media is something you wouldn't experience within the show again, but also like,,,, you're mourning something that's not dead (usually) Create fan content! Watch that thing again! Engage with old fanworks! Cause someone will appreciate it, it will also make you happy!

[sexyleon]

I officially completely unplugged myself as much as I can 🙃🙃🙃 I’m way too reliant on my phone and waiting for people to talk to me is super unhealthy and has made me very anxious. I literally turned off ever single possible notification and will purposefully not be responding to messages because I just need time a space to figure out how to navigate myself without validation from others.

[spade-club]

Okay, I'm working through my issues here. Will probably be incoherent.

So, finding out that you've been in a friends with benefits situation for two months without knowing that that wasn't a budding relationship is, in fact, a weird place to be in.

I honestly dont know how much I can trust the information that they gave to me though because it came from one of their personalities (thats the only word I've heard them say so thats what I'm using here) who noticeably has not participated in... non-platonic relations. I am unsure as to what anyone else in their head thinks or would say. The issue here is that I am never truly aware of who I am speaking to when I am interacting with them. The only reason I know this about him is that he made it very clear that the sexual things were outside of his wheelhouse. And yet he is the only one I have talked to about what we are, so I'm inclined to listen to his perspective over anything else. It is the only perspective I know. I think I would benefit from having a conversation with someone who I have been close to in different ways, but I am unsure as to how I would ask for that. We kinda dance around talking about this disorder a lot of the time, and though we are both slowly opening up about it, I am still struggling to find a way to talk about it. Part of me wants to just flat out ask them to tell me everything they know about their personalities and how they interact with me, and also wants to ask that I be told who they are whenever they feel comfortable telling me. I feel as though knowing those things would make navigating this entire situation easier. I am just afraid of the idea of them turning any questions back on me and making me answer anything about myself on the spot. I also hate springing conversations on other people because I know how much I hate it. I think thats something I can and should get over though.

Post ramble game plan: I am going to tell them that I would like to hear more about how they function in general and also how that pertains to their interactions with me. I will explain that it would make it easier for me to understand where they are at and ensure I am less upset by certain things and also know how to best interact with them. I will explain to them that if ever I am to open up to them to an equal degree, it would likely be over text as talking about myself openly is difficult. I will also explain that I do want to be understood by them, I want to be open, and the only reason I haven't is because I am afraid of being judged for my own existence. I need a lot of reassurance, and I do not want to burden anyone by making them be nice to me for my own comfort, so I often do not. I can also better explain my view that things dont have to be defined one way. That in my eyes putting the label that we are " just friends" feels like an end-all and that it's okay to consider this multiple things. Being multiple things is the only thing either of us knows how to do, so it only makes sense that we allow ourselves to be friends and ambiguous lovers and possibly partners, all depending on the day. I also will be sure to reiterate that I love them and I value and respect their perspective no matter who they are in the moment because I know that all perspectives here do matter.

[soft-spooks]

💝🎃🕯️

OH MY GOD. I NEVER SAW THE NOTIF FOR THIS. ANON YOU ARE A GODSEND I WAS JUST THINKING ABT HOW MUCH I WANTED 2 RAMBLE ABT STUFF TONIGHT. LOVE U KING <3

ok im doing these for anti as per usual

💝 My Bloody Valentine: What's your f/o's favorite holiday? How do they celebrate it?

halloween obviously. carving pumpkins is a Tradition because of course it is, but other than that i think hes relatively chill about it. its more of an . excuse to let himself be more scary i think . also horror movie marathon

that being said. unpopular opinion but i also think he really unabashedly enjoys christmas. gets all excited about it and everything. full jim carrey grinch ugly sweater outfit. <3 he likes to make things (which i will get into later in the post) so i think he would do all handmade gifts which i for one find REALLY cute

🎃 Halloween: How talkative is your f/o? Do they like to make small talk or would they rather skip straight to the deep stuff?

oh he is. very talkative once he gets going abt something. i think hes ok with comfortable silence, but if he gets too fidgety or something is bothering him he'll just start Going Off for a bit (see: 90% of his big videos are just. villain monologues. yes i know thats the nature of the medium but STILL. hes dramatic. he monologues. and i am just sitting there like 🙂 listening to him)

🕯House of Wax: How creative is your f/o? What sort of creative medium do they prefer?

VERY CREATIVE !!!!! it doesnt seem very in character for him on a surface level but as soon as you think abt him for more than 2 seconds ur like. yeah this guy Makes Things. im. mostly influenced by a short one-off fic i read YEARS ago about him picking up crochet but it stuck in my brain so now its canon to me. he likes 2 make dolls. (aha puppet joke etc etc). marketable plushies. i think he does a lot of needle and thread type stuff- crochet + sewing especially. i think it maybe started a little bit more on the darker side, making. Literal puppets/voodoo dolls for evil/intimidation purposes. which, side note, is REALLY funny 2 think about him in full. angry unstoppable murder villain mode but then sitting down and carefully sewing together dolls about it. but after he kinda. mellows out a bit i think he ventures more into the 'creepy but cute' zone of things

[un-pearable]

for the audience of exactly one who knows about it. thinking about the heart & soul au