#<- soft gore but still

[the-moguys]

Dissojashinism

Dissojashinism

A Dissofictoreligion term related to thinking/wishing/believing one is a part of the Ficto-Religion of Jashinism, which makes the person, whether it be because of delusional or IRL attachments, being an alter whose religion differs from the body, psychosis, etc., feel disconnected from their external religion. This is not for "fun" or voluntary "I wanna be this", this also doesn't override the external status of the person.

This identity is NOT trans/id or rad/queer friendly and is supportive of transitioning when it doesn’t hurt others, yourself, appropriate, glorify, fetishize, or romanticize anything (such as with race, ethnicity, culture, age, etc.)

For Hidan (in-system)

Colors inspired by Hidan from Naruto

[cuubism]

A little headcannon that has been stewing in my head for a while and has absolutely no proof from the cannon

Death has wings right? What if Dream used to have wings too but when his kingdom got invaded for the first time(that story he tells in the Overture) the invaders cut his wings off. That's the part of the reason why he crafted his helm and why's he so dependent on it. They took his wings so he took their skull and a spine, an eye for an eye kind of situation. Also, that's when Dream first started employing a raven. He still has scars on his shoulder blades that follow him to any form he takes. He's ashamed of them, sees them as a sign of weakness, a reminder of his failure and his flaws and goes to great lengths to cover them up. That's about it, but I'd love to hear what you think of it^-^

(Plus: Hob gently running his hands over the scars, showing Dream his own ones and reassuring him that there's nothing broken, or wrong with him)

NO BUT THIS IS SO ANGSTY I LOVE IT. i love suffering

i feel like a permanent injury like that would have to be done to dream's core essence, such as it is, rather than his 'physical form' - i don't know if dream's physical form in the waking world or other realms can even be hurt like that. it would have to be like, something that deeply wounds the dreaming, or the concept of dreaming, or just like the deepest core of dream as an 'entity' rather than it being a physical wound. (this is leading me on a mental tangent about injuries to large groups of dreamers also injuring dream, like, extinction events and such, but that's for another time).

you managed to rope me into it, congrats XD

content warning for blood, gore, violence, Things Done That Can't Be Undone, etc.

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There is not much, in his long life and memory, that Dream is able to forget. Thoughts do not drift into irrelevancy, into the past, the way they do for humans. He is able to hold much, all at once, in the cavern of his mind, eons of all that has happened hovering close enough to touch. It is a heavy weight more often than it is an aid.

But he forgets, sometimes, with Hob.

With Hob, the rare points of their contact stand out as singularly bright stars in the nebula of Dream's existence. All else within him fades. When Hob takes his hand Dream feels clear as a desert sky, when Hob kisses him for the first time, Dream is floating free in a great salt lake, hanging weightless.

He forgets.

It's only after, bodies pressed together with pleasing heat and sweat-tackiness, Hob tracing patterns over his back, that Dream begins to remember again.

"Dream..." Hob's fingers stutter over his shoulder blades. His voice catches with the hesitance he has often displayed with Dream since their reunion. I think you're here for friendship. Dream feels the echoes.

He kisses Hob's throat, tastes the salt tang of his skin, hides his face away there. The weight of embodiment returning. "Ask your question," he says. "I swear not to part from you now."

"Is this from...?" Hob's fingertips dance up the raised arcs of scar tissue over his back. Pain sparkles in the wake of his touch like the sharpness of a hand-drawn tattoo in the permanence of its inking. As humans imagine it. Dream is not truly physical and could not bear such a mark. Except for this.

"No," he tells Hob. Blame for many of Dream's recent ordeals can be laid at Roderick Burgess's feet, but not this one. "Much older than that."

"Oh." Hob keeps tracing the scar over Dream's right shoulder blade. The touch aches deep in Dream's being where those wounds originate, but he does not tell Hob to stop. Even like this, Hob's hands bring him back, and back, and keep him here.

Hob is waiting, leaving an opening for him to elaborate. Dream is not yet sure whether he wishes to.

"It is not a pretty story," he says.

Hob strokes through his hair. Dream keeps his head tucked under his chin and so feels each word as it's spoken. "Neither of us is a pretty story, darling. Tell it if you want to."

Dream has not spoken of this in many years. There are those in the Dreaming who have served him for millennia whom he has not told. He has taken lovers, had them see the scars during their lovemaking, and still not relayed the story.

"When I was young," he begins, "and still coming into my power, the Dreaming was invaded. My borders were not as strong, then. My realm, less populated. Ancient beings, older than I was at the time, hungered for my realm. Sought its power for their own."

"Older than dreams?" Hob asks.

"In their universe, there were no dreams," Dream tells him. "Perhaps it is what drew them to me."

"Alright. Wow." Hob sounds thoughtful. He rubs Dream's back, between his shoulder blades where it doesn't hurt. "Go on, love."

"I fought them. But the collective unconscious of this universe was young and undeveloped, as was I; I had not mastered all elements of my domain. I fought, but inelegantly, and struggled to counter dreamless beings when all my power was in the unconscious. They were wholly anchored in the present; I, in the space between seconds; we were poorly suited as combatants."

"What did you do?" Hob asks, quiet. He can sense, Dream thinks, the direction this is going, that Dream would not be so hesitant to tell the story of scars born of victory.

"I did not know," Dream admits, equally quiet, still shamed by it, his own failure, and its branching repercussions, "what to do. And the Eldest God, he who had first rent open the walls of my realm, pounced on my uncertainty, captured me, held me--"

The memory, never forgotten, always just within reach should he turn towards it, rises again -- the silk-smooth black sand on the shores of the Dreaming, crushed into his cheek; the warm waters lapping at his mouth, nose, eyes, drowning him; the impossible weight on his spine of the impossible dreamless creature holding him down, arms wrenched behind his back, the feral animal growl that had escaped him, the equally animal panic beating under his ribcage, the fragile spun dreamstuff of him held in the sharptoothed maw of cold reality, his wings--

"Dream?"

Dream comes back to himself. Comes back to Hob. The overwarm flannel sheets. The soft press of Hob's body. He's tapping something on Hob's arm, and hadn't realized he was doing it. It's the rhythm of an old song from before the time of men, the electrical beats passed along root chains from tree to tree to tree, all the way across the great forests that now exist only in scarce patches on the earth.

Dream shifts ever closer to Hob's body, slips a knee between Hob's thighs to tangle them, bare skin to bare skin, limb to limb, root to root.

"I had wings, then," he says.

--his wings, flapping frantically in the face of the thing that pinned him, feathers catching and tearing on jagged armor, held to the ground the way a creature of flight was never meant to be--

"Oh," breathes Hob. He touches the long scar over Dream's shoulder blade again and pauses there. The pain catches the story to Dream again like a hook and holds it there as he continues bleeding it dry.

"The Eldest God dug his claws into me and tore the wings from my body." Dream's voice doesn't shake but he does not manage more than a whisper. "I am not a physical creature, Hob, understand this, I cannot be so easily harmed, it was not a physical form that was damaged, rather, the Old Gods came from stone and earth and it was stone they harnessed as their claws, ancient stone to carve into my being and tear out my wings from the essence of me, root and stem, flesh and bone, air and feather and starlight."

All of this comes out in a continuous rush, and Hob kisses the side of his head, says, "Breathe."

He can still feel, if he but thinks back, the tearing of the claws. A cold so bright it felt like burning. His face ground into the sand to muffle his scream, the howling whiteout of pain overtaking all other noise, the crack of his shoulder joint as it was broken. Star stuff spilling out over the sand - Dream hadn't even known he could bleed until then. Hands that should never have touched in the first place releasing him. Collapsing, disarmed, to the ground. Every limb on fire, the ones that were left.

"Dream."

He lost himself, and found himself again some time later curled in the shallows of the Dreaming sea, seeking shelter from the cold in the warm waters. Face half submerged, breathing as much salt water as air. Blood still spooling around him like leftover paint whirling in a water glass.

"Dream."

Even in those warm waters, he was shivering. Dream doesn't think he's ever been quite warm since; that cold latched itself in him somewhere and never left.

Hob's voice, now, against his ear. He's curled himself around Dream while Dream wasn't paying attention, Dream's back to the warm protection of Hob's chest. "You don't have to finish if you don't want to."

Dream will not leave a story unfinished, not even one such as this. "When I had regained my strength enough to fight back," he continues, "I was... not in control. I knew only survival. If the Old Gods had wished me to understand their world, they succeeded. I abandoned my powers and fought with my hands and my claws and my teeth, and I tore the Eldest God's skull and spine from his body. Both of us would be maimed, I thought; if he would have my dreams then I would have for my own the backbone upon which he held his earth. I listened to him scream. I watched each rib pry up from his chest and snap, my hands slick with his blood, his with mine, and felt nothing but the raw satiation of a wolf setting upon meat. I have told you, Hob." He takes his first breath in a while and feels it rattle, hollow, around his ribcage. "It is not a pretty story."

"No." Hob's hand finds Dream's against his middle, tangles their fingers, holds him. His breath is shaky in Dream's hair, words more so. "No, darling, it's not. I'm sorry."

They rewrote the story of the Dreaming, Dream recalls saying to Destiny, after. Before he had come to know, truly, what Destiny was. Kneeling in his garden, blood still draping his raw back like a shroud, Dream had sought meaning, answers, reason. Foolish, in retrospect, to even consider asking for succor.

Destiny had said that the Dreaming had seeped too far into the Waking world. That what had happened was a necessary rebalancing.

Had Dream not been forbidden from physical violence against his siblings, he would have bitten off one of Destiny's hands with his own sharp teeth and asked if he felt more balanced then.

"Now you know what vicious creature you lie with, Hob Gadling," Dream says. The words are heavy in his throat, but he can't find it in himself to slip from Hob's hold. Now you know the jagged turn at the beginning of my story.

He wonders, sometimes, what the Dreaming might have been like had it continued on the other branch of Destiny's forking path. What he might have been like. There is so much space between a winged creature and a once-winged creature. The entire sky.

"I know." Hob bites at the back of Dream's neck, light but sharp, then kisses that same spot. The nip of pain is unexpectedly soothing. Hob too knows what it is to bite and claw and writhe and maul. “I know. I’ve known your darkness, honey. Don’t you worry.”

“They fled me,” Dream tells him. “The Old Gods. After. I did not understand why at the time.” He had stood, bloodied, shaking, over their Eldest one, bones grasped in his hands, and watched them disappear. These beings that could still have shredded the Dreaming and swallowed it, but chose to run. “Now, I imagine it is like the way men will flee from an animal that is so much smaller than them but has gone rabid. The wrongness. The danger of irreparable madness. They saw me ruined and wished not to catch it, saw the Dreaming—”

This wound has dulled over time and become but a throbbing ache at the base of his skull, a reminder of something missing. But it never disappears.

“The Dreaming, changed, from what they had wanted.”

Dream’s back has never been quite right, since. His anatomy is meant for two sets of joints, not one. But it is only a fitting marker of the permanent damage done that day.

“Changed?” says Hob, so gentle now, lips brushing his skin.

“There was once more,” Dream says. “The collective unconscious was once more… collective.”

“Wait. D’you mean…?”

“Yes. There was more interconnection between minds when I was young. There were not human minds in the sense that you would know them, not yet. But there was communication, and knowing, back then.”

Vestiges of it still linger. In the vast underground networks of the trees, the paired spins of distant atoms. The matched steps of lovers finding perfect synchronicity in a dance. But—

“That was sundered with my wings.”

The cold that had washed over Dream when that realization hit had been worse than the pain of losing the wings in the first place. How he had failed the dreamers under his care. Let things fracture and tear and separate when they were meant to be together.

Hob sighs against the back of his neck. “I’m so sorry, Dream.”

“I am sorry,” Dream says. “It should never have happened.”

“No, it shouldn’t,” Hob agrees, and it’s sweet pain sliding between Dream’s ribs, for Hob to press his fingertips to the rawness of him and say, yes, failure, failure, I see it now.

But Hob kisses the point of his shoulder, the ever-tense muscles of his upper back, the hard curve of his scapula and the calcified line of another almost-joint, lost to time. His lips find the uneven scar tissue and press there, which is its own sweet pain, but sliding towards sweet, a sharp bite to kissed lips.

“It shouldn’t,” Hob whispers, and the words vibrate to the core of him. Hob does not see his failure, will not; Dream had forgotten Hob’s charity towards him, how he will see the blood on Dream’s hands and wipe it away instead of asking how it got there. Dream’s failures have stolen something from him he does not even know to miss, and still.

Now Dream does wish for Hob’s hands slipping under his ribs. Hob would find the aching wretched thing within him that had been loosed that day and hold it in his palms, wash the blood from it with careful strokes. Would that Hob could have held him then, submerged him deep in the waters of the Dreaming sea until the dark and the warmth and the strong hold of his arms had soothed the flayed and violated creature that Dream had become back to sanity. Before the gnashing rageful part of him had turned predator and fully grown its claws.

Perhaps there is succor to be found, after all. How quickly Hob Gadling has become it.

“I wish that I could have…” Hob sighs. It sounds mournful, longing. “I don’t even know. Helped you. Held you. Futile, I know.”

“I would not have you feel badly. It is long past and cannot be undone,” Dream says, as if Hob’s words don’t mean more to him than he could possibly know.

“Nothing can, sweetheart,” Hob says. His hair brushes Dream’s shoulders. It is terribly soft now, in this day and age. Dream suspects it was not always so. Human lives have rarely been soft on their bodies. He appreciates the softness of Hob’s body now, and how it cradles him. Dream himself has long been unchangeably hard-edged. “But I would still help you.”

“Sweetheart,” Dream repeats. Dream might have been sweet, once, at the end of a different story. “You would call me this, at the end of this tale?”

Hob turns him so they are facing each other once more. A tear has gathered in the corner of his eye, and slips down to wet his pillowcase as Dream watches. Tears for Dream. Warm salt water. He smiles at Dream anyway.

“You’re my sweetheart. My dear one. You think I would think anything about this other than sadness for you?”

“Dear one,” Dream echoes. “Always good to me, my Hob.”

“‘Course.” Hob squeezes his hand. Hands that too have known violence, but soft for Dream, always. “Is there anything I can do for you? Anything at all?”

“Only what you have already done,” Dream says. “Be a cavern where I can shelter from the cold.”

Hob kisses him, hot and lingering, and pulls the blankets up over their heads.

[godnota00]

oooh spooky man

TW: soft gore i guess?

[babizzxx]

[aether-weather]

⚠TW FOR GORE AND BODY HORROR!!!!⚠

old ellie wip that i kinda hate bc of the proportions but i like cause of the colors :,)

closeup under the cut!! 👇

[honeygleam]

timothée chalamet and taylor russell as lee and maren in bones and all (2022) dir. luca guadagnino

[kaitcake1289]

HEAVY GORE WARNING!

a $45 commission i did for my pal @fuzziiwuzzii !! happy to get the opportunity to draw our babygirl claudia!!!! :]

[duztdevl]

a redraw of this drawing from feb 2022. it's a scene from @sharkaiju's fic, 'shut your mouth' (18+)

[trademmarkart]

Here’s a little something for SL!David

[cocofeather]

A collection of panel redraws from Stand Still Stay Silent

[alechans-cutetickles]

eerrm what a s1gm4 Ō/△//Ō 💕

Credit:artisticmemebean

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[ulichzae5al]

[xx-c4rr10n-xx]

h

hey you

draw jane doe from rtc

any situation

please

of course!

requests are open!

she got told how to grip the cupcake correctly, but i don't think she understands how much force is required to grab the cupcake... oh well, she's still learning!

[loserboyfriendrjl]

"do we still love each other?" evan asked, and there was madness in love. they had stayed behind after a meeting, and evan grabbed barty aside; both of them looked horrible, yet they basked into a morbid glory of debauchery and death.

because everyone around them was dying. by their own hands, some, blood and guts and screams dying in the back of their throats. by the orders of the dark lord, some, revenge and recklessness. alone, some, and no one knew where they were, they had just known of a lonely funeral and of carnations scattered in the snow.

evan loved barty in a way that set fire to him. it was a love that burned, a love that destroyed him. it was the kind of love that splits you open, blood and bones and guts splayed in front of your loved, of a vulnerability that is so unique, and evan wondered if he would ever love anyone else the same, if his love for someone would ever be sane. (probably not, he thought, and he hoped he was right.)

war changed them. angriness and grief molded into death, and, if revenge and love means death, evan would kill and die for it.

"of course we do," he grinned, and there was something unsure in his answer, but evan liked it that way. evan liked the uncertainty of things but, as long as barty was his, as long as they would spill at each other's feet and gnaw at each other's hearts, they would live.

barty kissed him, and it tasted like blood, madness, and love.

[adhdgoberrrrr]

Ah the beautiful DEATH of Yuri *sigh* . Okay so this scene is probably one of the most important in Taiji so far so I am going to try to maybe animate it so that might be a thing

[slime-sandwhich-nom]

Hcs about Vanessa and the prince to give them more life

(Some were already been said)

- between Vanessa and the prince, the prince had a worse temper than her.

- the prince also didn't have a lot of patience

- the prince DID have an ego just like snatcher, he just knew how to hide it well.

- Vanessa was a very outgoing person

- the prince was a nerd.

- Vanessa's laugh is quiet (not anymore.), the prince's loud.

- vanessa favorite color is red. The prince is purple.

- the prince is the one making jokes, Vanessa is the one laughing at them.

- the prince can't cook no matter how hard he tries.

- the prince likes horror and yellow books, Vanessa likes romance books.

- the prince is a cat person, Vanessa is a dog person.

- the prince and Vanessa always went to the beach for summer, and enjoyed their vacation together.

- the prince is a prankster, no one is safe in the manor.

- the kitchen isn't safe, the queen can't stop baking cookies!

- the prince does not talk all fancy inside the manor, he talks to maids and butlers like you're his bestie. Like with hat kid! It's when he's in public is that he puts the fancy role.

- there's this one particular butler who has been taking care of Vanessa since she was a child.

- the prince also has a butler who knows him since he was a child, and he of course took him and brought him with him in the manor in subcon.

- the prince kept stealing Vanessa crowns and wear them just because he could, he liked pranking her like that.

- the prince voice did not change when he died, it just got more echoey.

- vanessa can't walk on heels, the prince can.

- whenever Vanessa is angry, she is loud. Unlike normally where she's rather quiet.

The prince instead gets passive aggressive. But also loud.

- unlike his laugh, the prince normal tone is quiet, just like Vanessa's.

- Vanessa used to stress eat. or when she cried she always had food in her room to eat.

Sometimes when the prince would check up on her, he would take some of the food.

- the prince is an insomniac.

- and the prince is also not a morning person.

- Vanessa is a morning person and uses the fact that the prince always wakes up later than her to do her make-up, hair, and dress and be always ready whenever he wakes up.

- one time the prince slept so good that he woke up sweating, drooling and so disoriented he forgot Vanessa was there and got scared.

- Vanessa is a cleaning freak.

- Vanessa and the prince have a room of their own, they just like sleeping together sometimes. (And I mean only sometimes because the prince is always awake until 3am and Vanessa snores.)

- the prince is that type of guy who enjoys a lot fried things, and HAS to put barbeque sauce in it.

Vanessa is a big sweets and candy lover instead.

- in the end, they were really just young adults in charge (from 17-20 in my hc) so it's obvious they weren't the most serious people in the world or were super good at this, but they tried their best.

- the prince is the one who picks up random lizards and gets covered in mud, Vanessa is the one who is scared of lizards.