#'i am just. so tired. rey baby can you go tell your brother i said come home please. thanks sweetie.' -leia probably

[nachosncheezies]

Wait wait wait

Disney has added a CANON 'Jacen'????

Dude.

[recklesssturniolo]

Facing The Truth - C.S

Fluff/angst??, no smut, Chris coming to terms he’s in love w reader but they’re supposed to just be FWB, readers been friends w triplet for a few years now, Chris’ POV, soz it’s sad (lowkey hate this)

“Hello fellow losers” Y/N says walking in and smiling.

“Such a nice greeting” Nick replies rolling his eyes.

We’d been friends with benefits for a couple months now, she knew I didn’t do relationships, we agreed that if we met someone else then we’d simply just call it off - simple right?

“Well I have a date tonight” She smiles.

He had flashes of the good life

“What! With who?” Nick almost yells back.

I didn’t care to know who. I didn’t care to hear anything else about her date, standing up and rolling my eyes I walked down to my room.

“Alright Chris what’s up with you? You basically ran down here the second Y/N mentioned having a date” Matt asks.

“Nothing I’m just tired” I mumbled back.

I was lying. I’d been replaying in my head the image of Y/N with another guy in my head. Not even knowing why the fuck it was bothering me so much, why my heart dropped when she said it.

Baby, if your love is in trouble

“Don’t bullshit me. You don’t want her going out with another guy, that’s your issue” Matt replies.

“We’re friends with benefits, you know that. It’s nothing more than that, I don’t care who she goes out with” I mumble back.

“Yeah? So the thought of her kissing another guy doesn’t bother you? Another guy undressing her and seeing her naked? Her -“ He says.

“Shut the fuck up” I tell him, my voice raising.

“You just proved my point. You don’t even want to hear the possibility of it. How long are you gonna keep pretending you’re not in love with her?” He questions.

“Oh my god. I’m not in love with her Matt” I respond.

They're black eyes and they're blue lies

“Come the fuck on, you don’t think we don’t notice the way you look at her? Your eyes literally light up when she walks into a room. All you do is talk about her. She stays the night with you, she’s always just hanging out with you, doing simple things. You’ve never once let another girl stay the night” He says, his voice now raising slightly.

The second Matt finished talking, I felt my heart start to race as the realization hits me. I am in love with her. Fuck fuck fuck. I get flashes of all the late nights with her, cuddling, dancing at 3am to Taylor Swift in the kitchen just because it’d make her happy, asking her to come get shit as simple as groceries with us all, my heart warming at how well she got along with my brothers.

When you know, you know

I stand up, rubbing my face before replying, “No no no, it wasn’t supposed to be like this. There’s supposed to be no fucking feelings involved. I don’t do commitment you know that” I tell him.

“Chris man, this isn’t a bad thing. She’s good for you, you know that and so does everyone else. She looks at you the same way. You just have to tell her” He says sitting beside me.

“I’m not telling her shit, it’ll ruin everything. She’s literally going out with another guy. That’s a clear sign it’s not a mutual feeling” I mumble shaking my head.

“Then end whatever situationship bullshit you have going on with her. Lose her and deal with her being with someone else, and I don’t want to hear a word about it” Matt tells me, seeming to now be annoyed.

I say nothing back to Matt, walking back upstairs.

“Y/N can I talk to you for a second? In private” I ask, feeling sick to my stomach about what I’m going to do.

She raises an eyebrow but follows me.

“What’s up?” She questions.

“I - uh - the friends with benefits shit is over” I mumble, not even having the strength to speak properly.

“What? Why? I don’t understand? Did I do something?” She immediately asks.

I look down at her and can see the hurt in her eyes, why was she hurt about this? Why was this upsetting her?

“No you didn’t do anything, I just want to be nothing more than friends alright?” I sigh.

She looks up at me, tears now forming in her eyes before walking away, saying nothing.

“What the actual fuck did you just do?” Nick storms over to me.

“Nothing, just said I didn’t want to be friends with benefits anymore. Not a big deal” I reply. I glance over at Matt and see him shaking his head.

“You’re a fucking idiot. She just left in tears. If this was your way of protecting her, you did the exact opposite” Nick yells.

I stand there, not able to form a response. How was that not for her own good? I don’t do commitment, there’s no fucking way I’d be good for her.

So if you don't know, don't give up

“Good job kid, you not only lost her but hurt her” Matt says sighing and patting my back before walking to his room.

What the fuck did I just do?

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[exhaustedpotat0]

May I request Bakugou, Izuku, and Todoroki reacting to their wife telling them that they will be fathers to not 1, not 2, but 3 children. Triplets. If you're comfy with that Thanks for taking the time to read and answer this

Of course!!!!!!!!!!!! I love them as dads!!! It’s too cute! I hope you enjoy!!!!

Bakugou Katsuki x Reader, Todoroki Shoto x Reader, Midoriya Izuku x Reader

fluff

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Bakugou Katsuki

You were waiting in you shared bedroom with your hot headed husband. Looking at the gift that lays on your bed. Seeing what time it was, you decided to look at your phone to pass the time till your husband gets home.

It was Father’s Day and you would tell Bakugou that he was going to become a father.

Bakugou unlocks the front door of his home and walks in with a big yawn. He takes off his shoes and plops down his bag before heading to your shared bedroom.

Upon walking in, he wasn’t expecting to see what he did.

You were sitting in the middle of the neatly made bed and in front of your were three baby onesies that looked like Bakugou’s hero costume, they also had numbers 1 through 3 on them. Bakugou approached the bed and looked at the baby onesies as you looked at his face with a big smile on his face. He looks up at your face to see if you were serious and you nodded your head. 

“I’m going to be a dad,” Bakugou says as he scoops you up into his arms. “I am going to be the best fucking dad that kid will ever have!” 

You giggled at your husband. You were excited for what the future will bring with your growing family and you couldn’t be happier.

Midoryia Izuku

You were waiting for your husband to wake up so you can announce something very exciting. Going into your shared bedroom to wake him up because you couldn’t take it anymore. It was Izuku’s birthday and you had the best gift for him.

“Baby come on wake up, I have a surprise for you birthday boy,” you whisper into his ear giving him kisses on his cheek to lull him out of his deep slumber. Izuku starts to stretch and open his eyes to see you with a big smile on your face.

Izuku sits up and stretches some more. Finally getting out of bed, you head down stairs to let your green haired husband do his morning routine. Sitting on the couch and scrolling through social media.

Izuku comes down the stairs and sits right next to you. In front of you were three boxes, individually wrapped in shades of green. “What are these for?”

“They are for you Izuku, for your birthday,” you say as you hand him on of the gift wrapped boxes. He looks at you and then starts to slowly open the box. Discarding the wrapping paper, he looks inside the box to find three pairs of tiny red sneakers that looked exactly like his. He looks up at you confused for a second before you place the second box on his lap.

Tearing off the paper and opening the box to find three matching green hats with numbers on them.

“What are these for y/n? I’m confused,” he says as you place the last box into his lap. He ripped of the paper and opened it to find three onesies that looked like izuku’s hero costume and underneath them with three pregnancy test with a few photos as well.

Picking up one of the sticks and the ultrasound photos, he stared at them and then quickly looked up at you with a look that asks if you were serious. You nod your head at Izuku and he immediately embraces you in his arms and whispers to himself that he is going to be a dad.

“Your going to be a dad to three littles ones.”

He was so excited to have children of his own. Looking at the three outfits, he was imagining them in them and he could not wait for them to be born.

Todoroki Shoto

Shoto was walking home from endeavors agency. Tired from a hard day of hero work. Ready to curl into bed and cuddle you in his arms. Walking into his home to see two pairs of shoes that he didn’t recognized.

“Y/n I’m home where are you?” He says as he takes off his shoes and walk into the home. Shoto sees his older sister and older brother helping you in the kitchen preparing dinner. You turn to Shoto and welcome him home with a warm smile.

“Why are you guys here?” He asks with no emotion at all.

“Y/n invited us for dinner, you aren’t happy to see your big brother and sister?” Natsuo says as he slings an arm around Shoto’s shoulders. Shoto just stands there with his arm around his shoulder as he watches you work your way around the kitchen preparing dinner.

You smile at your husband as you continue stirring the food for dinner. Shoto walks over to you and gives you a hug and a kiss on the cheek. You tell Shoto to go wash up and relax till dinner is done.

Natsuo and Fuyumi help set the table as you do the finishing touches. You bring the food over to the table and tell Shoto it’s time to eat. Eating in silence, you and Shoto’s siblings were smiling to yourselves excited to see how Shoto will react to the news that you were going to tell him.

After dinner, everyone sat in the living room to let dinner set before dessert was served.

“Shoto you want some dessert?” You ask as you serve dessert with Fuyumi. You brought Shoto his dessert and places a smallish box to him as well.

“What is this?” He asks examining the box. Fuyumi came into the living to hand some dessert to our and Natsuo and then sitting down next to Shoto with her dessert. “Open it Shoto.”

Shoto starts to open it. Pulling out a picture in a picture frame of you with Shoto’s mom, brother, and sister. You had on a shirt that says plus three and Rei had on one that says grandma. Fuyumi’s said aunt and Natsuo’s said uncle.

You guys start staring at Shoto to see if you can read anything from his face focusing on the picture. Shoto looks up at you.

“I’m pregnant Shoto with triplets.”

Shoto embraced you in his arms. You giggled as you hugged him, you looked to see that Natsuo and Fuyumi were giggling at Shoto.

Natsuo and Fuyumi hugged their little brother and said their congratulations. Throughout the rest of the night Shoto would have his hand on your stomach.

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[loth-wolffe]

(not me making this awful cover but i wanted this to have one lmao. i do not own the picture i used, so credits to whomever made this lovely pic)

So first of all, I just wanted to say thank you so much for the 100 followers LIKE?????? where did thAT come from I just- you guys are sO AMAZING !!! I am beyond grateful for all of your support and your kindness and I'm so happy interact with you pretty people.

I really don't have any rules, nor characters I don't wanna write of that I can think of as in right now. (please if state if u want it to be nsfw bc my first instinct is write sfw stuff)

ANd, as a thank you, I made this super duper fantastic song lyric prompt list that you can choose from (you can absolutely send in a lyric that isn't in the list if you want) and just send me a sw character and we'll see how that goes!

SO HERE IT IS:

Song lyric prompt list

• already requested, but you can ask for them again!

1. I don't need anything fancy, I just need me and you slow dancing. - Slow dancing by Aly and AJ.

2. I've been trying hard not to talk to you/act a fool. - Sunflower vol. 6 by Harry Styles

3. Say it's been long six months, and you were too afraid to tell her what you want. - How you get the girl by Taylor Swift

4. And if you have a minute, why don't we go? Talk about it, somewhere only we know. - Somewhere only we know by Keane

5. To the strand, a picnic planned, for you and me. - From Eden by Hozier

6. Why she had to go? I don't know, she wouldn't say. - Yesterday by The Beatles

7. I think I'm falling, I'm falling for you. - Fallingforyou by the 1975

8. Take on me, take me on, I'll be gone, in a day or two. - Take on me by a-ha

9. Honey just put your sweet lips on my lips, we should just kiss like real people do. - Like real people do by Hozier

10. You wanna say no, no, it ain't gonna work, but then you fumble your words, oh you're running out of reasons. - Running out of reasons by The Wanted

11. You love me, but you don't know it yet. - Happy accidents by Saint Motel

12. I don't really care what they would say, I'm asking you to stay. - Level of concern by twenty one pilots

13. You know I talk too much, honey come put your lips on mine and shut me up. - Talk too much by COIN.

14. I know that you're scared because hearts get broken. - Golden by Harry Styles

15. I try and try to erase you, but you won't disappear - Everywhere by Niall Horan

16. I heard you ask about me through a friend, my adrenaline kicked in, because I've been asking 'bout you too - Nervous by Shawn Mendes

17. Every time I'm leavin' you, you don't make it easy. - Sunflower by Post Malone and Swae Lee.

18. I wish that I could believe, that there's a day you'll come back to me, but still have to say, I'd do it all again. - Just want you to know by Backstreet Boys

19. Well, tell me do you hate me or do you wanna date me? - Van Horn by Saint Motel

20. Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain. - Hey Stephen by Taylor Swift

21. I know I would rather be together alone, in a big top circle and a world we can call our own. - All our own by Radio Company

22. Every time I find the words to end it, something in your eyes won't let it. - Shandi by KISS

23. Just dance in my living room, love with an attitude, drunk to an 80's groove - Only human by Jonas Brothers

24. I spend all my time, waiting all night for you. - No going back by Yuno

25. I need to know, if this is mutual, before I go. - Mutual by Shawn Mendes

26. I will sing to your every day, if it will take away your pain - Miss missing you by Fall out Boy

27. If I could fly, I'd be coming right back home to you. - If I could fly by One Direction

28. When you rise in the morning sun, I feel your touch in the pouring rain, and the moment that you wander far from me, I wanna feel you in my arms again. - How deep is your love by Bee Gees

29. If I wake, I'll move closer without waking you, sleeper, sleeper, what's been tiring you. - Rise by Helena Deland

30. All we do is think about the feelings that we hide, all we do is sit in silence waiting for a sign. - Drive by Halsey

31. I never sat by the shore, under the sun with my feet in the sand, but you brought me here. - Malibu by Miley Cyrus

32. With a sunset and a moonrise not so far behind, to give us enough light, to lay down underneath the stars. - Constellations by Jack Johnson

33. Dancing through our house with the ghost of you. - Ghost of you by 5sos

34. And we all sit around the fire, we feel a little warmer now. - Woods by Hollow Coves

35. Won't you kiss me once, baby? Just a kiss goodnight, maybe. - Put your head on my shoulder by Paul Anka

36. If I leave here tomorrow, would you still remember me?- Free Bird by Lynyrd Skynyrd

37. Baby just came back around, said she needs time to explore, said I can’t love her no more - Baby came home by The Neighborhood

38. When I kissed you I meant it. / I wanna be more than a friend. - Do it again by Pia Mia

39. I thought that I was dreaming when you said you loved me. - Ivy by Frank Ocean

40. If you're awake then I am too. If you're lost then I'll find you. If you're hurt then I'll fix you. - It's U by Cavetown

41. They don't know about the things we do, they don't know about the I love you's. - They don't know about us by One Direction

42. Can I kiss you or not? / Are you still mad at me? I'm hoping not. - Like to be you by Shawn Mendes and Julia Michaels

43. Kiss me once, then kiss me twice, then kiss me once again, it's been a long, long time. - It's been a long, long time by Harry James

44. Kiss me hard before you go. - Summertime sadness by Lana del Rey

45. You said you'd meet me out there tomorrow, but tomorrow never came. - Tomorrow never came by Lana del Rey ft. Sean Ono Lennon

46. How can I miss you so much when you're right here? - Miss you so much by Miley Cyrus

47. The way she tells me I'm hers and she's mine. - Cherry wine by Hozier

48. No need to say goodbye, you'll come back, when it's over. - The Call by Regina Spektor.

49. Common sense tells me kiss the girl goodbye / I think I love you - Common sense by Joshua Bassett

50. If I could tell her how she's everything to me, but we are a million worlds apart and I don't know how I would even start - If I could tell her by Ben Platt ft Laura Dreyfruss

51. I'm giving you a night call to tell you how I feel - Nightcall by Kavinsky

52. We went for a drive, at 2:30 in the morning. I kissed you, it was pouring. - Remember that night? by Sara Kays

53. Don't wanna hand you all my trouble, don't wanna give you all my demons, you'll have to watch me struggle from several rooms away, but tonight I'll need you to stay - The run and go by twenty one pilots

[everyhowlmarksthedead]

❛ PLEGARIAS ❜

Songfic with ‘Plegarias’ by Nicki Nicole.

English lyrics.

with Neron ‘Creeper’ Vargas.

Request: Hey love!😻 You're Creeper request inspire me! So can u write something where Creeper & Reader breaks up when Creeper was transfered to Santo Padre. And when Santo Padre go to Stockton years later, Creeper discovers that even when they breaks up, Reader continue to help the club. And then, they go back together? Just fluff,fluff,fluff,love and again fluff 😍😍😍

BY ANON

Warnings: slight mention of depression, angst and fluff.

Word count: About 1.8k

Aurora says: thanks to my lovely beta reader @chibsytelford for her opinion and for helping me! ✨

Gif credits: @angels-reyes

Masterlist.

Te encontré plasmado, culpable, deteriorado. Nunca tan amable.

Your eyes traveled from the leather kutte over the bed, to your boyfriend. He was sitting at the edge of the bed, with his head bowed forward and both hands intertwined on his nape. The patches that used to decorate it, now were cutted off, and the new ones were perfectly sewn. You knew exactly what that meant. He just shitted on six years of relationship. You were fourteen when you met him, skipping out of highschool because you were having a bad day and he just made it better, without knowing you. You didn't say anything when you noticed the suitcase behind him, raising his dark and reddened eyes towards you.

Llorando en las iglesias, rogándole a Dios que tenga paciencia, que no se olvide de vos.

He didn't ask you to come with him, because you had a life in Stockton. Your family, your friends, your work, your college. He knew pretty well that you would follow him to the end of times, but he couldn't ask you to fall into hell, just because of him. So Creeper left you there with a pain squeezing your heart that you keep feeling today.

¿Quién mató tu inocencia hoy? Dime dónde está el asesino del cuento.

The first months without knowing anything about him, all that you did was pray. Pray for him like you had never done before. Oscar wasn't allowed to tell you anything else more that he was alive, and that he was close to the Mexicali border. They knew you were suffering, but Creeper asked them to let you continue with your life. But how you could, if he was your life?

Yo voy buscando el final. La historia de hoy, yo te la cuento.

You had to deal with, what doctors called, ‘depression’. But the truth was that every time you closed your eyes, you used to find him smiling at you, telling you how much he loved you. You decided to not sleep, or avoid it as much time possible, so you used to spend the day in bed. Tired, sad, unhappy, feeling miserable.

Until you started to fight, when you understood that he wasn't coming back. You understood why he did what he did, that he just wanted the best for you. And have a life with a wannabe gangster, it wasn't. With Mayans in Stockton, Creeper only took care of simple business, but his new ‘job’ was high-level, dangerous and risky. He couldn't ask you to stay by his side. His love was stronger than drowning you into that shit.

Si voy, calor infernal. Desencuentro fatal. Que ya no te veo…

But you used to tell him: ‘I prefer to die for love, than to die for hate’.

You stopped dreaming with him, even if you kept your promise of praying every night for his soul. Praying to God to not forget him.

Si estás, empieza a gritar. Comienzo a pensar, que ya no te siento.

The pain was disappearing one bite at a time, until you decided to only keep the good things, the good memories of your history. Oscar began to see that you continued coming to the clubhouse, asking less for Creeper, but asking more for the crew. You practically grew up with them, and who was your first love wasn't going to take that away from you too. So the president let you help them with basic stuff; working at the parties, doing the groceries, cooking for them… They considered you like their mom, even if you were much younger than them. You were part of their family, another Mayan morr.

Ay, ay, me duele muy dentro del corazón.

But the pain that you thought you had conquered, was only hidden. And you know that by finding him with his brothers, drinking some beers in the front yard of your club. It's been five years since he left you and, even if you're a woman and not a child anymore, you understand that you are still in love with him, like eleven years ago when you met. Parking your car inside the garage, you step out from it in complete silence, with a box of Jose Cuervo between your arms. Oscar walks towards you, hoping that he has the chance to explain what's going on, but you just smile at him to let him know that everything is okay. You can deal with it.

“They will stay for a couple hours”. He said anyway.

“They're Mayans, I ge—”.

“You are too. Never forget it”.

Nodding in silence, you follow him into the inside, passing them away without saying a single word, until being greeted by your charter with hugs and kisses.

A Dios le rezo, y caigo en los tiempos. Ya no me importa perderme muy dentro.

“Hey, baby girl, Oscar is calling you to the table”.

Medina makes you frown confused. It's the first time in your life that you enter in that Templo while Mayans are reunited. Unless you're bringing them beers. Opening the glass door, you step in. Silence, just a bunch of dark eyes over you, walking with firm steps to the president of your charter. Moving the empty chair by his right side, he urges you to sit down. And you do, with your gaze fixed on his.

“You told me once that you would like to prospect”.

“I did”. You say, curling a leg against your chest, and placing your arm about it.

“In Santo Padre need a new prospect”.

Your orbs travel to the other president, Bishop Losa. Rey de los Mayas. By the look on his face, you know that they're hiding something from your charter, from Oscar. Twisting your neck, you try to figure it out, until he clears his throat because you're making him feel uncomfortable.

“Could you live without me?” Slowly, so slowly, you turn your face to El Oso.

“It's just eight hours away from here, chamaca”.

Te tengo en mi mente todo el tiempo. Todo el tiempo estallo por dentro.

“What are you doing?”

As soon as Stockton charter leaves the Templo, you don't care about the presence of your new family, but Creeper in front of you. He has changed. At least, his look. Wherever you try to find a blank space on his skin, there's another tattoo. Shaved head, black marks under his eyes. The ones that used to shine every day and now look dead.

“Maybe we sh—”. Bishop starts to say, getting up from his chair.

“Sit the fuck down, presidente”. No one is going to fuck with you. Not anymore. “The hell are you playing, Neron?”

“It wasn't our moment”.

Your eyelids widen, with both eyebrows raised up.

“Taking you with me five years ago, it would suppose you were dead today”.

“You didn't have to take me with you, but keep calling, keep texting. You are the one who is dead today”.

“I never stopped loving you”.

“Seriously, gu—”.

“Next time you interrupt us, Mayans gonna have a mute president”. Pointing at Bishop, you give Creeper back your attention. “You destroyed my life. You abandoned me without giving a shit. For what?”

“I paid you for your business here all these years. Your studies, your apartment. And I bought you your bike”.

“No. No, no, no. Mayans did. Oscar. Did”. You reply laughing with a bitter feeling stuck in your throat.

“I have called Oscar every day”.

Y mi corazón se encuentra fatal, que tú ya no me quieres. Esta mierda me va a matar. Que voy por el mundo vacía, pensando en sanar esta herida.

When the men leave the Templo, and Creeper sits in a chair closer to yours, you can't help but break into tears. All the pain that you were fighting against, now is back, seeing how one of his hands hold your right. Feel his touch again, with his fingers getting tangled with yours, is killing you. You can't even look at him. Your gaze is blurred, because of the tears piling up inside your eyes.

“Ain't gonna say that 'am sorry, cause that's bullshit. I just wanted to protect you, but I didn't know that I was pushing you to an emptiness, that was about to end up with your life”. He mutters, trying to keep a firm tone of voice, even if it breaks sometimes. “I tried to do the best for you, without knowing that the best for you is be by my side”.

“Wh—Why now?” You finally ask, licking your bottom lip, raising your head towards him.

“One month ago, in an Arizona run, I was about to die. I was… feeling how I was leaving this world, and I promised to God that if he gave me a second chance… I would come for you”.

Taking off his kutte, the half mexican lifts up his shirt. On his skin there are more tattoos than you can count, but even if you want to focus on the sewn bullet hole over his heart, your attention is on a phrase close to it. “I prefer to die for love, than die for hate”. Under it, your name and the day date you met.

“I have never stopped loving you, (Y/N)”.

Yo voy del infierno al Sol, que vuelvo por ti y sino no lo intento. Búscame, no digas adiós, que solo por ti a Dios le rezo.

His arms surround you, forcing you to sit on his lap as you used to spend the hours. Curling against his chest, Creeper holds you tightly, feeling that warm wrapping your body that begins to melt the cold ice that has your heart captive. Your cry gets loud, sinking your face under his chin. All this time you were hating him for abandoning you, he was just hiding in the shadows, watching over you. His scent floods your lungs, closing your eyes and trying to calm yourself. Your fingers get tangled in his shirt, when his lips kiss your forehead so dearly that make disappear all the sadness that was oppressing your chest. He will always have that power in you, as you have in him.

“I love you”. He mutters, feeling how his breath becomes somewhat shaky about to cry too. “Please, come with me”.

Resting his cheek on your head, you cling to his arms, surrounding them with yours the stronger as you can. You don't want him to leave you again. Not a second time.

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Sushi fun!!

I'm going to do my own Sushi story that @roninhunt0987 did. Yet I have to be honest that there was hardly ANY SUSHI EATING!!! And I'm bumped and Suzuki is pissed so. I'm making my version where there is actually sushi eating. Sorry dude your storys are usually on point but this time it was a miss. I know you were tired.

Gen’ichi and his family were having a nice lovely evening. Ninjara was getting ready to start making dinner while gen was keeping the kids in the living room. (since they didn't want the kids to get hurt in the kitchen when dinner was being made)

Ninjara: *walks into the living room tying her apron* ok everyone I’m about to start what should I make for mom dinner night?

The kids were getting all excited because they were HUNGRY!!!!! Gen'ichi and Ninjara had 8 kids. Septuplets and one little baby. Ran, Rei, Reiko, Rika, Miwa, Nori, Gen'ichi jr and Lil Geni. They began to say what they wanted

Ran: Burgers!!!

Rei and Reiko: Pasta!

Miwa: mac and cheese

lil Geni:....ham

SUSHI!!!

Everyone paused...

Gen'ichi: who screamed sushi?

All of a sudden, there aunt Suzuki bust down the door and made a very heroic post!

Suzuki: I said Sushi!!

Kids: Auntie Suzuki *They all run to her as there dear mother looked in horror*

Ninjara: My front door!!! 

All 8 of the kids fox piled there Auntie Suzuki pushing her to the ground all laughing.

Suzuki: hehehehe ok ok you little nuggets your got your auntie Suzuki *she said as she was getting up from the floor*

Gen’ichi: Hey sis, why you yelled Sushi?

Ninjara: And why did you break down my door?!

Suzuki: Oh good questions, and let me answer with “Who wants sushi for dinner!?”

Kids: sushi!

Gen’ichi and Ninjara: sushi?

Suzuki: Yes, I know this great sushi belt restaurant and I am taking you all for some sushi tonight!!

Kids: Yay, Sushi sushi sushi!! *all the kids began to cheer*

Gen’ichi: well that's very nice of you sis. But why sushi? You never really this excited for Sushi?

Suzuki: what? Can I just invite my favorite brother and his lovely family to dinner? I’m hurt bro I am so hurt! *Suzuki was being a bit dramatic*

Gen’ichi and Ninjara: *raised there eyebrows*

Suzuki: ok ok This Sushi place if you eat more you get more chances to win a prize, last time I went there alone I ate 40 plates of sushi and won twice and the prizes were the same a tiny sushi keychain but i wanted to see what other prizes they have...you know me bro....I have a weakness for prize games.

Gen’ichi: there that wasn’t so hard huh Suzuki.

Ninjara: well sushi those sound nice, and I know if you want to go back the food has to be good.

Suzuki: Sooooo?

Gen'ichi: kids get your shoes on we are going out tonight!

The kids cheer and began running all over the house each one trying to find and get there shoes. After finally getting there shoes on the family fallows Suzuki to “Tai’s Sushi” a restaurant that appeared several months ago. As they walk in they are meet with the host who took them to a LARGE booth where Mikey and Raph were there.

Gen’ichi: Mikey? Raph? What are you guys doing here?

Mikey: Sis invite us to this sushi party!

Raph: Yeah, sorry sis dad, Leo< and Donnie could not make it.

Gen’ichi and Ninjara look at Suzuki was a glare and Suzuki just shrug. She though she could get a bit more help. Wow Suzuki you are crazy for prizes. Everyone has a seat and GJ looked confused.

GJ: were are the menus?

Suzuki: oh its here this pad *Suzuki points to the pad which she was right next too* here you can order specials order but if you don't want that you can grab anything from the belt see all the food.

Since Suzuki finally mentioned it everyone notice a conveyer belt full of sushi  they even notice a screen above the belt where the game was and above that was the prize box.

(closest pic I can find but with booths)

Suzuki: Any way the more you eat the more chances you get at winning but it not easy they make it a lucky draw. So its mostly lucky. So is everyone ready to try this place?

Everyone: yes!

Suzuki grabbed the pad and order some simple type of sushi for the kids. Like tuna, salmon, cucumber rolls and crab sushi too. After the special order arrive Suzuki began to take plates of the belt and placing them on the table. There must have been one plate for every kind of sushi at that table. Everyone began to chow down.

Geni: *see some werid green paste* what's this?

Ninjara: oh that is wasabi honey. It's a spicy paste you put on sushi. *puts a piece of Uramaki in her mouth*

Before anyone can react Geni puts the whole blob of it in her mouth.

Gen'ichi: Ahhh sweetie!!!

Suzuki: oh furball no!!

Geni: what....? *feels no pain*

Everyone: huh?

Suzuki: wait, Geni your not crying from the spice?

Geni: no, it those not taste anything to me

Mikey: really? Maybe wasabi is not so spicy *pics up a picese of wasabi*

Raph: Mikey-

Suzuki: No!

Mikey stick the whole piece in his mouth and that moment he knew....he ...fucked up! Mikey began screaming from the pain and began to run all over the restaurant, people were videotaping Mikey making a ass of himself.

Suzuki: *makes a cup of green tea* Mikey!! Drink this!!!

Mikey gets the cup and gulps it down in a sec. It taste bad to him but it stopped the pain. Mikey was on the floor pants from running and from the pain. The kids all laugh and Suzuki speaks up.

Suzuki: dont become your uncle mikey kids.

Mikey: Hey!!

After the excitement they all got a good stack of plates and were ready to see if they will win.

Suzuki: ok 5 plates for each try

GJ: can I try frist

Ninjara: of course sweetie all you kids will get a turn.

GJ moved his seat and sat on his dad lap so he could reach. He put the 5 plates in the machine and a little cartoon appeared on the screen under the prize machine. The cartoon says....loser.

GJ: awww

Mikey: sorry little dude

Raph: it is a game of luck.

Suzuki: it's ok bud *runs GJ's head*

Rei: Me next me next!!

Rei had a go...lost

Rei: dang it!

Gen'ichi: it's ok sweetie we have more plates

Soon it was Reiko...lost....Ran....lost....Miwa...lost.

Ninjara: I'm starting to think this is rigged.

Geni: My twurn *push the plates in and won!?*

Kids: huh!?

Geni: yay!!!!

Suzuki: good job furball you won.

Geni won a cutie little kid bracelet from the prize box it fit her wrist with little plastic charms on it.

Geni: hehehehe

After seeing the prize there little siblings got the septuplets were determined to get some prizes too. After doing the game more of the game Nori got a prize. It was a keychain of a ramen bowl it looked every cute.

Gj: we need more plates!!

Ninjara: arent you kids full?

Ran: No mama

Rei: we

Reiko: want

Rika: to

Miwa: win!

Gen'ichi: I guess we need more sushi *took some sushi off the belt*

After about 30 mintues of more eating...from what Suzuki can tell they have been there for over and hour and won twice. They got more plates from the kids eatting every sushi that lands on the table. Gen'ichi worst fear....Suzuki was teaching his kids her guilty pleasure.

After so many games each child finally got a prize. How much sushi did they eat...over 200 plates and won 9 prizes. Suzuki of course got one. Everyone walked out of the restaurant super full.

Raph: I never want to see a tuna roll again...

Mikey: *covers mouth because he felt like her was going to barf*

Ninjara: ok kids let's go home *she said as she holds some of the kids*

Geni: Auntie Suzuki?

Suzuki: yes honey?

Geni: can we come back here again?

Suzuki: *smiles*yes

Gen'ichi and Ninjara: NOOOO *both scream*

The End

Bonus

Mikey: *bards in some bushes while raph pats his back*

Raph: let it all out bro

Mikey: Bleeeeeeeeeeeegggggggggghhhhhhhh

@roninhunt0987 here you go dude

[weeb-alcove]

2019 English Playlist

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL77pv5URcE8b4_k9_GQYZoQYz_HhRDP2D 

In English: 

“99″ - Barns Courtney

10ft - Eileen Yo

5 Seconds of Summer Babylon Easier Lie to Me  Teeth

88rising History Midsummer Madness ♪ from their album Head in the Clouds II ♬ Breathe I Love You 3000 II Indigo Strange Land These Nights

Affection - Between Friends

Aftertaste - Whethan

Ain’t Goin Back - Russ

Alan Walker Are You Lonely Different World Do It All for You Lily  On My Way Play

All Fall Down - Johnny Glenn & Ally Hills & Just Juice

All Over Again (remix) - Lost You & Michael Moawad

Another Summer Night Without You - Alexander 23

Aphrodite - Rini

Ariana Grande Esta Noche ♪ from her album thank u, next ♬ bloodline in my head NASA

Arms Around You - XXXTentacion & Swae Lee & Lil Pump

Ava Max Freaking Me Out (Bingo Players remix) Not Your Barbie Girl So Am I

Bae - Trevor Wesley

Bars and Melody Lighthouse (Dave Winnel remix) Waiting for the Sun

Bazzi Caught in the Fire Focus Mine Myself No Way!

Beat of My Drum - Powers

Benee Evil Spider Find an Island Glitter  Monsta Want Me Back  Wishful Thinking

Better Not - Louis the Child

Big Sean Berzerk Single Again

Billie Eilish everything i wanted  When I Was Older ♪ from her album WHEN WE ALL FALL ASLEEP, WHERE DO WE GO? ♬ 8 bad guy bury a friend ilomilo  my strange addiction wish you were gay  xanny 

Birthday Party - AJR 

Break Your Heart - Taio Cruz

broken - lovelytheband

Caffeine and Dopamine - Keepitinside

Camila Cabello Find U Again  Señorita  ♪ from her album Romance ♬ Bad Kind of Butterflies  Liar My Oh My Shameless  Should’ve Said It

Cardi B Money Please Me

Catch Feelings - Henry Young & Zachary

Céline - Gallant

Cemetery - Coin

Chanel - Frank Ocean

Chase - Aaron Carpenter

Cherry Cola - Kuwada

Cigarette - offonoff & Tablo & MISO

Clairo Sofia Throwaway

Close to Me - Ellie Goulding & Diplo & Swae Lee

Cold - Boy In Space & unheard

Come My Way - Plvtinum

Conan Gray Generation Why Greek God  Maniac The King 

Creep - Radiohead (GAMPER remix & Dadoni & Ember Island)

Crush - Lucian & Tiffany Day

Crying My Eyes Out - Stephen Puth

Crystal Dolphin - Engelwood

Dangerous Love - Justice Carradine

David Guetta Better When You’re Gone Blame It on Love

Daya Insomnia Left Me Yet Wanted

Don’t Be Gone Too Long - Chris Brown

Don’t Lie to Me - Lena

Don’t Start Now - Dua Lipa

Eric Nam ♪ from his album Before We Begin ♬ Congratulations  Love Die Young

Everything - TobyMac

Eyes Wide Shut -  Glades 

Falling - Trevor Daniel

Fine - Rufus

Finneas I Don’t Miss You at All  Let’s Fall in Love for the Night

Fitz and the Tantrums Hand Clap Out of My League

Flower - Johnny Stimson

Friends - Feyde

Funeral - Miguel

G-Eazy 1942 Nadie Como Tu 

Get Away - Ed Black

Giants - Becky G & Keke Palmer & Soyeon & Duckwrth & Thutmose

Glass Animals Life Itself The Other Side of Paradise 

Greyson Chance Boots Shut Up

Halsey Eastside Graveyard

Heart in Tokyo - Good Gasoline

Heartstrings - STVN & Jenna Carlie

Her - Alex Aiono

Hey Violet Better by Myself Queen of the Night

High School - Umi

Hometown Smile - Bahjat

Honne  Crying Over You  Day 1

How Do You Sleep? - Sam Smith

IDK - Bruce Wiegner

I Fall in Like Too Easily - Ashton Arbab

I Feel Love - Suggi

If I Can’t Have You - Shawn Mendes

If You Need Me - Julia Michaels

If You’re Over Me - Years & Years

I Heart You - Baby Ariel

I’ll Be There - King Henry & Sasha Sloan

ILYA - Fly By Midnight

In Betweenin’ - Austin Brown

Indiana Massara Apology Smoke in My Eyes

i think i love you (but i dont like you) - push baby

It’s Not You It’s Me - 6LACK & Bea Miller

Japanese Denim - Daniel Caesar

Jaymes Young Infinity  Northern Lights 

Joji Sanctuary  Test Drive Yeah Right

Jonas Brothers Only Human Sucker

Juliet - Sebastian Javier

June - Sage Charmaine

Just My Luck - Tia Ray & Kehlani

Kailee Morgue Go to Sleep Headcase

Katy Perry 365 Harleys in Hawaii

Kiss Me Thru the Phone - Soulja Boy

Lalala - Y2K, bbno$

Last Hurrah - Bebe Rexha

Lauv Drugs & the Internet I’m So Tired

Lava Lamp - Dandi

Left to Right - Marteen

Lennon Stella La Di Da Polaroid Workin’ on It

Lifeguard - iamnotshane

Lovefool - The Cardigans

Love Me Wrong - Allie X & Troye Sivan

Love You Like That - Dagny

Madison Beer Fools  Hurts Like Hell

Maggie Lindemann Friends Go Would I

MAGIC! Girl at Coachella Lay You Down Easy 

Make You Mine - Public

Mango Love - Shawn Wasabi & SATICA

Mask - joe.k

MAX Love Me Less One Two Things Worship

Middle of the Night - Monsta X

Miss Americana & the Heartbreak Prince - Taylor Swift

MØ Blur Don’t Leave Kamikaze Nostalgia  On & On  Red Wine 

Mona Lisa - Valntn & Peter Fenn

mxmtoon Blame Game Prom Dress

My Family - Karol G & Migos & Rock Mafia & Snoop Dogg

Nobody - Emilee

No Sleep - Martin Garrix & Bonn

Nostalgia - The Beamish Brothers

NOTD Keep You Mine Romantic (NOTD remix) So Close

Ocean Man - Ween

October - Alessia Cara

Oh Wonder I Wish I Never Met You Super Love

Only You - Cheat Codes & Little Mix

On the Low - Justin Park

Pardon Me - Dion

Permission - New Hope Club

Pharmacy - Isaac Dunbar

Pink - No Rome

Post Malone ♪ from his album Hollywood’s Bleeding ♬ A Thousand Bad Times Circles Die for Me  Goodbyes Take What You Want 

PRETTYMUCH Blind Solita

Quinn XCII U & Us Wayback (remix)

R3HAB All Comes Back To You Don’t Give Up on Me Now Lullaby This Is How We Party

Raincoat - Kieron Lee & Chloe Ho

Rebels - Ivy Adara

Red Sippy Cup - Ellis G & Tristen the God

Rei Brown Picture Frames Real Love

Rescue Me - OneRepublic

Right Now - Nick Jonas & Robin Schulz

Rolex - Ayo & Teo

Roots - Galantis & Valerie Broussard

Roxanne - Arizona Zervas

Ruel Free Time Real Thing Younger

Say It to My Face - Maty Noyes

Selena Gomez Bad Liar I Can’t Get Enough

Sick Thoughts - Lewis Blissett

Skeletons - keshi

Speechless - Dan + Shay

Stay Home - Faye Risakotta

Sugarplum Elegy - Niki

Summer Love - Hyu

Summer Time High Time - Cuco & J-Kwe$t

Summertime in Paris - Jaden & Willow

Suncity - Khalid & Empress Of

Superfruit - Maude Latour

Sweet Little Lies -  bülow

Swimming in Your Feelings - Haven

Talking Loud - Jennifer Zhang

Tell Me - Mika-Intersection

tell me how you rly feel - adam&steve & Lostboycrow

Tessa Violet Bad Ideas Crush

Thank You - Junny

The Chainsmokers Family Kills You Slowly Takeaway

The Vamps All Night All the Lies Can We Dance  Just My Type  Middle of the Night Missing You  Somebody to You  We Don’t Care 

Think About Me - dvsn

Tired - Jasmine Sokko

Tomorrow Tonight - Loote

Virtual Reality - ieuan

Waste My Time - Grace VanderWaal

Why Don’t We Come to Brazil I Don’t Belong in This Club I Still Do Mad At You  Unbelievable  What Am I (Casualkimono remix)

Why Don’t We - Austin Mahone

Why Haven’t I Met You? - Cameron Dallas

Woke Up Late - Drax Project & Hailee Steinfield

Yellow Hearts - Ant Saunders

Yoandri All the Way Bravo Cherry on Top It’ll Be Ok Only You

You & Me - Marc E. Bassy

You Got Issues - spring gang & Amaranthine

Young the Giant Apartment  Cough Syrup

Zayn Rumors There You Are

In French:

Tous Les Mêmes - Stromae

In Spanish:

Rebeca - Mc Livinho & Gerex & Maejor

Teléfono - Aitana (remix with Lele Pons)

Electronic:

Monster Gambling in Tokyo - Idealism

Sorry I Like You - Burbank

Sunset Lover - Petit Biscuit

[aliypop]

From Now On

"

Wordcount: 2,080

A/N: This went completely different than I had it mind, but this is a mega fix it fic with a rollercoaster of emotions, also Ben and Hux need love and yeah! 

Summary: When fixing the Falcon Yela solo finds a familiar force onboard leading her towards the happier things in life. 

Warning: Angst 

"What do you think you're doing.." Yela asked hearing the thoughts of her enemy her head was under the control pannel fixing it, "This is a hunk of junk," she mumbled to herself, the figure that had been sitting there watching her leaned under to help, 

"Get away from me," she raised her hand to push him away from her, Kylo was slightly tossed across the Falcon, while her saber flew into her hand ready to fight him again if she had to, his mask covered his face as he backed away from her, the two were still on Starkiller base, and from the looks of it he was already wounded,

"You have to trust me!"  

"This is a set up.." she thought to herself, but there was something different about him this time, he didn't feel like Kylo but more like, 

PEW

"We've got company.."  Yela said seeing the Knights of Ren outside,

"Did you think dad  gave you his only blaster.,"  he said shooting at them with his back turned towards her, taking his mask off as he looked at her, he looked like Ben, but she was still skeptical of him, his eyes seemed tired all of him did really but from the blood on his face made her worried even more, 

"When you were 6, you wanted to be a Jedi like uncle Luke.." he said hoping she'd look at him, "Everyone knows that Kylo," she rolled her eye's, her lightsaber in her hand, a glow of green across her face she then saw a blue hue coming from beside her, 

" Where did you get it!" both Yela and Kyo said looking at each other with a glare,  the knights getting closer,  Yela was already closed in by a few and so was Kylo,  blocking a strike from one of the knights with her lightsaber she felt the rush of what she had been missing, the thing that made her family the way they were a good fight, twirling her saber around  she plunged it into another knight using the force to knock down the others, looking over she saw that Kylo was in danger one wrong move and he might have been dead, 

PEW!

Yela laid there breathing hard, her eyes fluttered, eventually closing as her chest began falling slowly and rising, 

"You're just an annoying Moof milker!" 

"Am not!" 

" If you two wake up your uncle Rylan I'll never hear the end of it.." Luke said looking at his niece and nephew, Yela  had been secretly training with her brother Ben on Tatooine when she was supposed to be on Naboo with her grandmother Celfra learning the principles of politics,  

"Now get back to meditating you two," he smiled walking  off, "And remember it's all about the balance of things, or is nature.. is that what Yoda said?" he began mumbling to himself, 

"You're supposed to keep your eyes closed idiot," Ben shouted, 

"What's going on out there?" 

Racing towards the infirmary was Alana, Leia, and Han, laying on one of the many beds were Yela and next to her was "Ben," Han looked at him, "is it really you," he asked as all 3 of his parents began to walk towards him with caution, Ben was nervous already standing there awkwardly as he used to when he was a little boy,

"Yeah, it's me.." 

Alana ran to him as she hugged him tightly, "I knew you'd come they didn't, but I did," she joked, her somewhat youthful features vibrant on her face, still gentle as he remembered her to be,  Leia, on the other hand, couldn't believe that her beautiful baby boy had returned to her and neither could Han, 

"Mom... Ma.." he blushed hugging them back,  

"Where am I.," Yela asked waking up seeing her parents hugging Kylo, " He's danger-" 

"You annoying Moof Milker.." Ben laughed roughing up her hair, 

"It's true.." she hugged him tightly, " I got my brother back!" she then punched him hard, "What was that for?!" he asked her, "Force chocking me! you nerf herder who farlked every-" 

"Language... " Han glared at her, 

PEW! ...  PEW! ... PEW! 

"Ben! " Yela shouted Chewie by her side as AL-1 beeped by the two were in a smuggle bust except it wasn't exactly a material they were smuggling "Hux... we're going to find you.." Yela thought hearing Ben snickering, 

"Get out of my thoughts .. droid sniffer.," raising a fist at him, 

"You like Armitage, does Ma know about this.. " he began picking her brain the two now running from bounty hunters, "No, and mom doesn't know about it either or dad.." she huffed shooting at them again, 

"RAARRA!" 

"We know!" 

 PEW! 

PEW!

PEW!

Hux sat in the cell alone with his thoughts like he usually did when no one was around, there wasn't Kylo though he was probably dead by now, and he didn't want to think it but so was Yela probably, he was already worried about her since the days they met and even when he would report to her office he could never forget how sweaty his palms would be, how he'd stutter around her, how weak he became when he heard her say his name, 

"Aren't you a little short for a Mandalorian. " Hux rolled his eyes, 

Yela took her helmet off brown curls everywhere, "What is with us solos and feisty people," she asked, "Us?" Hux questioned as to the other Mandalorian who removed his helmet, under it was Ben, who glared at the general, 

"Hux.."

 "Ren.." 

"Can we just go!" Yela shouted guiding them out the exit, looking at Hux she could tell he was a bit confused by everything, but right now he was going with it, 

"You know Yela, he's smaller than I remember.." Ben smirked as Hux glared at him, "I know what you're thinking I wouldn't try it.." Chewie who was once again by their side ran towards the Falcon as they made it just in time, 

"So this is the hunk of junk you wanted to shoot out the sky.."

"Chewie set the cords back home, Ben, Hux don't kill each other.," she smirked, "Ans as for me.." she put the ship into hyperspeed, "It's time to sit back and relax.."

"How come you get to be the pilot.." "How come you get to be such an -"

"ARRRHH" Chewie shouted as they both got quiet, Hux was in aw at the two, charmed by Yela but impressed by Ben it really did seem that he cared about something other than Rey or ruling an entire galaxy but instead his-

"Hey, " Ben pouted, "Yela made me talk to you so... " he rolled his eyes, "spill it.." giving the old general a death glare, the Solo glare.

"What are you talking about.." He began to blush his thoughts stuck on his paragon of hope, beauty, and stubbornness,

"You've liked my sister since the day you met her.. and as her brother, I don't like you... as your old .. leader I don't condone it."

"Doesn't matter, " Hux smirked,

"You want to ask her out don't you... "

"No!"

Ben smirked at him know the answer,

"Yes,"

"WHRAAH," Chewie said as Yela sighed, just like her father Chewie was her best friend, she told him everything from secrets to things that not even he wanted to know about, but he gave good advice,  

"I know ma, mom, dad, and probably uncle Luke are gonna be upset, but it's not the first time.." she sighed,

"ARRRH"

"They have no room to judge when ma and dad met they went straight to the Falcon, and when he met mom who was a princess, and not the general who keeps me up at night they later had Ben, but I .." getting off track from her topic,  

"Wraggh.." Chewie said nudging her.

"I may or may not like him, we've kissed a few times, but!" she paused as AL-1 even looked at her,

landing back on base Ben ran towards his parents as he left Yela and Hux alone, "Ma, Mom..  do you need any help," he asked hiding behind the two,

"What did you do.." Leia said looking up at her son,

"Are you bleeding!" Alana looked at the grazed skin on his arm, "Mandalorians... the skin peeled very delicately .. Amban rifle, " she looked up at him, You're good ma, really good, " he began getting nervous hearing Yela get closer,

"And you see dad I-"

"Yela, " Both Leia and Alana said, Han, glared at him,

"Do you see this.. or am I getting old.." Han began laughing like a maniac, "A prince I'd be okay with, a smuggler sure, but a first-order general!"

"Han darling breath... let us do the yelling .."  Alana kissed his cheek,

"What were you thinking or are you thinking,"  Leia pulled her by the ears like a disappointed mother she was, Hux stood there slightly scared of the General she seemed very upset as it was,  

"I was thinking about hope the thing you guys fought for," she pulled Hux to her side,

"And yes I know that he was apart of the first order, but as an Amidala, I know there's good him I just know.. just like there was good in grandpa Anakin," she sighed,

"You sound as if you love him," Alana said, her thoughts were loud and clear,

"You loved dad the first time you met him, and when Celfra said no what did you do.." Yela asked waiting on her mother to answer, "What did you do mom,"

"Yela you're 19 and he's 24, it's not going to work!" Alana said walking away from her,

"You were 19 and dad was 22.. and It worked out fine, you loved him and then.."

"Don't you finish that sentence ,"  Ben who was hiding behind Chewie now got a bit scared for what Yela was about to say, it had to be bad if Leia didn't want her to finish it, "Let her speak," Han said wanting to know what his daughter had to say,

"You stopped loving each other, Mom and you argued all the time while ma, you tried to keep things peaceful.. tied between two lovers..." she pointed at Alana and then at Leia,  "You tried to keep me in Naboo, and Ben with uncle Luke when I just wanted .." Hux held her as he kissed her head, he felt bad that she had it rough as a child, but he knew wasn't  alone on that feeling,

"What was it that you wanted sweetheart," Han asked as he pulled both Leia and Alana close to him kissing both of their foreheads, the two both smiling up at him giggling.

"That.." Yela smiled as she looked at Hux, "Armitage .. I -" Hux kissed her as he wrapped his arm around her waist, the other in her dark curls, pulling away Yela had a grin bigger than her fathers on her face,

"Reminds me of how we used to be, " Leia said looking between Han and Alana, she missed having them both around but being that she was on senate and Han didn't want to be tied down to one place as well as Yela taking her mother's rightful place as a Dutchess things were heavy between the 3.

"We're not too old to start again..." Alana said, "of course Han and I never stopped, " she smirked kissing him on the lips,

"That is disgusting .." Ben stuck his tongue out then pretended to gag,

"Mhmm.." Yela cleared her throat, " Mom, ma,  Dad, Ben.." she asked getting their attention, "I love Hux very much and I'm gonna date him and fark it maybe I'll marry him!" she looked at Hux his eyes wide, "Marriage?" he turned darker than the old first-order patches he used to have on his uniforms,

"You heard me, Armitage," she laughed, "the future is unlimited and Hux if you'll have me."

"General Organa..  you're highness Solo... " Hux said still scared of the two,

"Welcome to our crazy family.." Alana said

"I still don't like him.." Han mumbled under his breath,

[thefudge]

scattered thoughts on sanditon so far 

this is a fun romp from andrew davies and there’s a lot to like and be invested in

but i do have some observations/ gripes

obviously davies is going for a modern/sexed up adaptation of austen and i have mixed thoughts on that, cuz there’s a lot of interesting stuff you can do with that, but you can also botch it up big time (i’m glad he didn’t do this to p&p back in 1995...i wonder what that adaptation would’ve looked like today. probably full monty darcy, lol). so i think some elements verge on the ridiculous, for instance having almost every dude in this show strip naked in front of a crowded beach several times in a row. ditto for theo james. i don’t mind the view (hehe) but i think it’s inserted awkwardly at times. like okay, we get it, it’s a beach resort and we’re trying to make austen edgy in 2019.... just maybe indulge a little less and literally keep it in your pants. 

this being a more modern adaptation i don’t mind hair and make-up anachronisms, but i DO mind the fact that rose williams sports this really weird shade of fuchsia lipstick in almost every single scene. stop iiiit

speaking of which, rose williams is a cutie and i loved her on reign, but i don’t understand what she’s doing with her face in this series. don’t get me wrong, she does a good job of making charlotte very likable, but the only way she can express...anything, really, is by making these confused faces, like a child practicing frowning in the mirror. it’s...really awkward. and she does this all the time, whether she’s happy or sulky or nervous, she just always looks like she’s trying to figure out the fibonacci sequence.  i mean it’s hilarious when u have theo james going all gruff to her about his feelings and rose williams is that gif of the blond lady doing math in her head. her acting is pretty good otherwise, but those faceeeees.

esther denham is my goddamn FAVE, gosh i love a Disappointed Queen and i’m glad she’s getting away from that boring skeevy brother. for once the incestuous siblings didn’t do it for me at all (which is pretty much the point lol). there’s nary a dude more uninteresting than edward whatshisface, my gaaaawd (also, davies trying to ramp up the sexiness with those scenes of edward brushing her hair or doing her stays...lol, sir, this rly isn’t your strength i’m sorry)

but i have to say that i thought esther and clara would be a thing. because my gosh, the chemistry during their scenes! the way they’d glide past each other with utmost contempt, while being disquieted by each other @___@. i mean it’s an austen adaptation, so i guess they’d never go there but!!! i need fic (would’ve made clara more bearable at least. i appreciate her character objectively cuz she’s an interesting pseudo-antagonist and you don’t get many of those, but blerghh. she was insufferable)

i was kinda (actually very) disappointed that the relationship between sidney and his ward, georgiana, wasn’t really developed. like there’s one more episode to go (as far as i know?) and they’ve barely scratched the surface with them. i mean he’s halfway decent to her now.... but ehh. i feel like this was a missed opportunity. after all, this was austen’s unfinished novel, so andrew davies & co could have added more material between these two. this, to me, should have been the real heart of the series. 

i like otis as a character, but georgiana/otis was zzzzzz. i suppose that they’ll end up together? zzzzzzzzzz (i frankly ship her way more with arthur! she finds him infuriating! he’s a sweetheart! the shenanigans!)

that German doctor is the real MVP, i feel like he should be sanditon’s no. 1 bachelor. i mean the shower rod??? providing pleasure to all the ladies in town, what a hero 

the soundtrack is rly rad! and the cinematography

i love how the show captures austen’s growing interest in the industrialized modern world which was emerging in the twilight years of the regency and i feel like maybe the show should’ve invested more time in that modern aesthetic (steampunk!) rather the awkward sexual shenanigans 

so....i can’t delay the inevitable anymore, can i? sigghh okay here i go

sidney/charlotte...annoys me. 

HEAR ME OUT.

 u know that i love LOVE “enemies to lovers” and hate/love stories, i LIVE FOR THIS SHIT. 

and i was ready to gorge on this dynamic because it looked delish 

 but i felt like michael bluth finding the dead pigeon in the paper bag. 

from what i can gather, sidney is supposed to be a mixture of darcy and capt wentworth, “haughty” and proud, with a history of romantic disappointment, a brooding sexy hero with a heart of gold. but to me this dude just comes off as weird. 

there’s legit no reason for him to be THIS mean to this young girl he just met. he is not just an asshole, he is ridiculously over the top about it, to the point where he makes a fool of himself. i am FINE with a man telling a woman off, believe me, but it has to have some kind of motivation, some kind of reasoning behind it. here, it just feels like the plot needs him to be utterly shitty to charlotte so that “sparks will fly”. that first ep convo on the balcony??? wtf???? it was genuinely bizarre. i got weird incel vibes. and every time he lashes out at charlotte (at least in the first 4 episodes) it’s fucking silly, because it’s not like he lashes out because she’s scratching the surface of his innermost painful memories. no!!! many of their arguments revolve around basic things that he could easily clarify!!! which he does eventually, so like whyyyyyyyyyy. charlotte keeps telling him he’s being vague for no good reason and he still does it. it doesn’t make sense he’d be this guarded and outspoken at the same time. like, fine, keep that shit to yourself, don’t tell ppl, but don’t also get pissed at them when they don’t guess your mind. again, i love an antagonist dynamic when it’s done right, but here many times it’s just pointless bullying, it’s not sexy or fun or challenging. the writers keep making charlotte apologize to him about how “wrong” she got him and how he makes her doubt her judgement but it sounds fake to me. like a) this dude went out of his way to be a total assface to you from day one, b) none of that bullying was him trying to coax you into having a more complicated view of the world. when darcy rebukes elizabeth, he is hinting at her limited point of view. he’s not blatantly negging her or calling her stupid as this dude does. AND U KNO WHAT.

i’d be absolutely fine with him calling her stupid IF IT MADE SENSE WITHIN THE STORY 

like if charlotte had truly done smth stupid during the first episode, sure, fine, it’s somewhat warranted 

but for him to decide she’s an idiot for no other reason than her making some honestly super nice remarks about his brothers when he asked for her opinion is THE HEIGHT OF NONSENSE 

it’s even more nonsense when 2 episodes later he decides maybe she’s not that dumb after all FUCK U MR. EDGELORD

and it makes me pity charlotte cuz she’ll probably marry this dude and have to deal with him in his old age when he’ll be even more insufferable. 

and i totally get the appeal. i do! i mean their scenes are manufactured to make you want more of them, i see the chemistry, it’s there (and we’re already at a point in the series where he’s trying to make amends) but at the same time i’m put off by this dude’s intensity, cuz it’s not the hot kind of intensity...it’s more like he’s a giant dumb baby who breaks things. meh. theo james is very pretty tho, and he is doing the most with his character (that voice def helps!). but i wish this antagonistic relationship had been written better, because it could’ve been glorious

this is why i think sidney/georgiana should’ve been so much more present. just like darcy has his georgiana we need the humanizing element, we need to see more variety from this dude than just “guy who clearly needs anger management classes”. 

i’m pretty sure i’m in the minority or possibly one of two ppl not won over by this romance, and i can’t lie and say i don’t root for them. too much of this show is predicated on their clashes for them not to work it out and get together, but boyyyy do i wish they’d done it a bit better

i almost feel like a reylo anti lol, but at least kylo ren doesn’t neg rey every single time they talk 

also, i go back to rose williams’ faces because they just rly enhance how clumsy this dynamic is. theo james is doing byronic asshole 2.0 and charlotte looks at him like he’s developed a smell lmao. i mean the scene where she catches him naked? she turns around and FROWNS in this rly bizarre way, almost like she noticed a growth on his dick lmao it’s that bad 

anyway i totally get the appeal, but i also know what i want from this kind of dynamic and...this ain’t quite it 

honestly i think i prefer charlotte/cute architect guy whose name i don’t remember right now! 

that being said, my fave moments of this show are the most austen-esque, where ppl don’t take themselves so seriously. i mean the adventures of the perennially-ailing parker siblings (arthur & diana)? deeeelightful. the pineapple scene? glorious

also it makes me sad that sanditon was left unfinished because to see austen tackling georgiana’s character in depth would have been so, so interesting 

in conclusion, the show’s a lot of fun but also frustrating in many ways

i hope davies doesn’t set his eyes on re-adapting p&p or other austen classics because ermmm i know i’m trash but i am kind of tired of these sexed-up “look how scandalous we are behind closed doors” adaptations. you can make the regency era feel modern and relatable without “shocking hand job in the estate park” pls and thank u. sure, the regency era was the inheritor of the sexually relaxed 18th-century, but it wasn’t that relaxed yall. ppl still kept their wits and bonnets about them.

still, i’m glad this show exists and that it tries to take risks, i just wish it took different kinds of risks, if that makes sense. like i am SO bummed i didn’t get into sidney/charlotte, u have no idea 

[schrijverr]

What you couldn’t say before

Dean suddenly shows up at Sams college dorm, injured and alone. It causes a fight in which some things are revealed.

Ships: Jessica x Sam

Warnings: Injury, implied abuse, angst. Read with causion!!

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Sam was having a normal night, well as normal of a night it could be for a Winchester. He was hanging out with some friends and celebrating the end of a stressful exam week. They were just laughing at a stupid joke Jordan made when there was a knock on Sams door. Heads shot up and Mable asked: “Were you expecting anyone else?”

Sam shook his head as he made his way to the door. His brow was furrowed and he wondered who it could be. He opened the door and was met with a sight he thought he’d never see again, there right in front of him stood Dean. The jerk smiled and said: “Heya Sammy.”

Sam was speechless for a minute before he yelled: “We haven’t talked for almost two years and the only thing you got to say is “Heya Sammy”? What are you even doing here? And it’s Sam, not Sammy.”

Dean let the onslaught of words roll over him and said: “Oh, what, in a year it will be Samuel or Mr. Winchester or something. Nice to know, Sammy.”

He slapped Sams shoulder and tried to walk into the place, but he didn’t get far. He was in the middle of asking if Sam had any beer when he suddenly went down. Sam cut off the angry remark he was going to make and yelled DEAN! Instead as he rushed to his brothers side. He fell down next to him and checked for breathing, when he saw Deans chest rising and falling he started to check for injuries and it wasn’t hard to find. Hidden underneath that stupid leather jacket he still wore were four deep gashes, next to each other. It had been done by something with claws. He yelled: “Someone get my medical kit. Under the sink. Hurry!”

He put pressure on the wound and cursed Dean under his breath. When the kit was put next to him he wasted no time. He grabbed scissors and cut open the undershirt Dean was wearing and hoped he wasn’t too attached to it, then he set to work with some disinfectant, a blunt sowing needle and some dental cord. It wasn’t how it was usually done, but it was how the Winchester family did it.

After a few stressful moments Sam was done. He sat back and admired his handiwork when it was suddenly brought to his attention that his friends were still there and that they had questions. Toby asked: “How the hell did you know how to do that?”

Sam got startled and looked up, he hesitated for a second before he decided to say: “I had practice.”

“Where would you get practice for that? You’re a law major.” Rey exclaimed.

Sam looked down on Deans peaceful face and said: “Well, lets just say Dean has always gotten himself in trouble and I was always there for him.”

“So, is that your brother?” Jessica asked.

Sam nodded and said: “That’s him alright. I never thought I would ever see him again. Figures he would only come when he needed help.”

The silence that followed was filled with the sadness of that statement. It was just getting a bit awkward when Dean woke up with a gasp. He looked around him with a confused expression on his face when he found Sam and asked: “Sammy?”

“Dude, I juts told you to call me Sam.” Sam said in an exasperated voice.

Dean shook his head and said: “No, that’s not- what am I doing here?”

A concerned look crossed Sams face and he said: “I don’t know. You just showed up at my doorstep, bleeding. What happened to you?”

“I did? Oh, uh, sorry. I was out hunting and it didn’t go as I planned.” He explained.

“What were you hunting?” Rey asked from the couch.

Dean looked over and back at Sam. “Did I interrupt something?”

“Doesn’t matter. What were you hunting and where is dad? Did something happen to him?” Sam asked.

Dean shook his head and said: “Dad’s fine. He’s in Ohio hunting on his own. He send me here to deal with a wolf.” he looked extra intently at Sam for the last part and Sam nodded that he understood, a werewolf.

“Dad lets you hunt on your own? That fucking dangerous, man. What are you both thinking!” Sam exclaimed.

Dean rolled his eyes and said: “Don’t get your panties in a twist, Samantha. I’m 24, an adult. I don’t need to follow everywhere dad goes. He found two cases, gave the easiest to me and now I’m here and I’m tired.”

Sam rubbed his temples and said: “You can take my bed, we’ll talk in the morning.”

Dean shook his head and said: “No, but I have to go. I’m in a motel close by and Baby is just downstairs we’ll be fine. Really, I’m fine.”

“No, your car will be fine outside for a night. You are not driving, not in this condition. You are hurt Dean and I know we haven’t been on the best footing, but you’re not fine and you’re spending the night here.”

“No, I’m sorry Sam, but I have to go. I have to call and report to dad in the morning and he will not find out that I fucked up and went here. He’s finally giving me more dangerous cases and this is not ruining that.” Dean gestured between them with an angry look.

He got up from the ground as Sam tried to find his words. Finally he angrily yelled: “Is that really what this is about? Dads crusade? Getting better cases? And here I thought you still cared about me, but no. You don’t even want me near you, you only wanted me when it could help hiding your fuck up from dad.”

With those words something broke inside Deans eyes, with a crack in his voice he said: “Don’t, don’t say that, don’t you do that. You were the one who left, not me.”

“Well, it’s not like I didn’t try to keep contact, but that life, that’s not me. I’m not crazy for wanting to go to college. You were the one who never called or visited.” Sam said with hurt and anger in his voice.

Dean bit his lip and retorted: “You think I had a choice? You think I wanted to give up the only person I ever cared about just like that. It cuts me that you think that, you know me. I would never do that, not willingly.”

“What do you mean with that? What are you not telling me?” Sam said, “Please, Dean, talk.”

“You walked, you walked on my watch. Dad, dad, was so mad. He trashed the whole place and he said to me, he said “If you really cared, you would have stopped him”, he tore up the information you left behind for me and ruined my phone.” Dean took a deep breath and went on, “He makes sure I can never be close. He always finds something, a job for two, dangerous, people dying, always around important dates, Hell, this is the first time I said foot in California since you left. Dad, he isn’t the same, if you thought he drank too much before, you should see him now. It’s been terrible ever since you left. If he finds out I was near you, I don’t know what he will do to me.”

Tears were flowing out of Sams eyes and he said: “Then don’t go, don’t leave me again. Screw dad, what did he ever do for us? You owe him nothing.”

Deans eyes were empty and teary as he said: “Is not that easy, Sammy. He’s family, I can’t leave him, he gave me purpose. Protecting, it’s what I’m good at.”

“I don’t get- You can do that from here. You know Bobby will give you cases and you can be here, you don’t have to go back.” Sam was practically pleading now.

His friends made themselves as small and quiet on the couch as possible, they felt how important this was. Dean smiled sadly and said: “It’s not just protecting anyone, I’m still protecting you. The moment I leave, dads good little soldier, he will come after you. He would rather have you. He’ll come get you, no questions asked and he will do it with force if necessary. I can’t let that happen. You have a shot at a normal life and I ain’t the one taking that away from you.”

“Dean...” that one word conveyed it all, the sadness he felt for the faith of his brother, the anger at his father and the longing to his brother by his side.

“I know, Sammy.” Dean said.

And before Sam could react he was out the door, leaving without a goodbye or hug. The moment the door closed Sam crumbled to his knees, silent sobs wracking through his body. Jessica was of the couch in seconds and by his side. She rubbed his back and spoke soothingly at him. She coaxed him to his bed and played with his hair until the sobs turned into soft snores when he fell asleep from emotional exhaustion.

Back with the others she directed them out the doors and said: “I’ll stay with him. You go, I’ll update you on his willingness to talk about it.”

They nodded and Toby put all their feelings into words: “I was curious about Mr. Tight-Lippeds family, but I think I know enough now. That is some serious fucked up shit.”

[dammitadolfnomorecake]

COTW - 29. 30 is probably gonna be the last chapter

Unlike his brothers, Eli Abel Ackerman only spent a week in hospital before they were allowed to bring him home. The tiny boy was so much more quiet than Viren had been, preferring to sleep rather than cry. Viren wasn't convinced about it all, but he was incredibly curious over the baby boy's every move. Eren had a rougher deal with things. Having to have surgery on his tearing again, though this time they knew better than to believe the scans, his poor husband was catheter and bed bound for a week, Each daily hospital visit usually resulted in finding Eren trying to escape down to visit Rei. When Eren was finally allowed to come home, his mate was listless unless he was with Eli or with Viren. As happy as Eren was to have Eli home, Levi knew he missed Rei deeply, and he missed being able to lift and carry Viren around. His omega didn't want to nest, and he'd found the bathroom mirror shattered on Eren's third day home. Eren crying on the floor, struggling with his changed body, and his still swollen belly. His mate now preferring to hide himself away in overly large clothes that left him looking sickly. He didn't understand how Eren could feel so guilty for not carrying to full term. Being a twin, their son was smaller, but he was healthy. Surprisingly so... not that they told Eren that. Upset over missing his phone call, Hanji had over shopped for them. Bringing Anna with her, the pair were laden with gifts as Levi opened the door to their "surprise" visit. Hanji had messaged ahead to ask if it was alright to visit, and Levi figured Eren could probably use the distraction of a curious Anna. Only, they'd picked probably the worst time to actually appear. Eren was sleeping in the corner of the sofa with Eli in his arms, completely dead to the world as Hanji snapped a few photos. Sending Viren and Anna to play, he was ushered into his own kitchen as Hanji took over the bench "How is he?" "Getting there... wait... is that food?" "Don't look at me like that. It's all microwave meals from work. I thought you two wouldn't really feel like cooking" "You didn't cook. You had no hand in cooking these, right?" "No. They're from the cafeteria. And you don't get out of it that easily" "Thank you" Hanji stared at him as if he'd grown a second head "Don't give me that. Actually, things aren't great. He wants to bring Rei home, and you know what he gets like when he isn't allowed to do anything" "I thought having one of them home would help..." "Yeah. He adores Eli, but not being able to get down low enough for bath time, or being able to get up for midnight feeds has him down" "Have you talked?" "A little. He's feeling guilty over being a parent again, and because "he doesn't look sexy"" "He's got three kids and arse to die for. He's the envy of every woman ever" "Yeah. It's just going to take some time to figure out this three pup thing" "Well. I've brought cake. And Anna picked out a few small things, they're in that bag on the table. How's Viren liking his new role?" "He's not completely sure about this baby thing. The first time Eli really cried, he did too" "That's precious" "Yeah. He kept crying for a full hour after Eli did" "That's not so precious..." "No. That's another thing Eren's worked up over. Giving birth and scaring Viren" "He needs to give himself a break" "Hanji. Seriously. When have you seen Eren give himself a break?" "I know. Do you have a date for when Rei can come home?" "The 5th" "See. It's not that much longer" "No. It's just exhausting Eren more than he wants to admit. The daily trips in, especially when his back's so tender" "He's been..." "Yes. He's been monitoring it, and his caesarean site. I'm not allowed to look" "He'll come round" "It's just trying to find the balance in the mean time. What other news do you bring from the outside world?" "The trial's still going, but Erwin's been talking to Floch and the jury is getting pretty impatient about the whole thing. Nick's case has started to fall apart, especially after the things Eren said were leaked by the press. Don't worry, they didn't mention Eren's name, but the public aren't happy at all with our boy Nick" "He might be yours, but he's got nothing to do with me" "Ew. No. That came out wrong" "You think?" "What about you? What are you going to do?" "I have a few ideas. But they all require more money and more capital than we have" "Does that mean you and Eren are finally going to be buying a house?" "No. No. I mean, I want to. But he's not ready yet" "I still don't think I'll ever understand why not..." "He told me. It's his past. The trial stirred up a lot and the foster house really hasn't..." Levi broke his sentence with a shake of his head. That was Eren's secret. He shouldn't be blabbing to Hanji "He's not ready yet" "This place is so small... but I guess it can't be helped. I still can't believe you had another baby without me" "If you'd answered your phone..." "I was in surgery" "Well the stains on the floor if you really want to take a look" "No. I'm fine. I'd love cuddles though" "You have to get past Eren. Eli might love his sleep, but when he's in Eren's arms, he drifts right off" "He knows his mumma. Oh. I got you guys formula too... the tins are down in the car. You know, because Rei might find Eren's nipple hard to take" "Don't remind him of that. And don't mention the trial either. He's already asked about it" "Why not just tell him?" "Because I don't want Nick seeing my newborn son" "He's going to want to be there when the jury delivers its verdict" "And when the time comes, I'll take him. Until then, we're trying to keep this place quiet and stress free" "It'd be a lot more stress free, if you two learned how to whisper" Hanji giggled "Sorry, Eren. You know I have a big mouth. How are you, my Lovely?" "Sleepy... cranky, bleedy... ugh" "The joys of birth. How's little Eli?" "He sleeps better than all of us combined" Ditching her unpacking, Hanji headed into the living area. Levi taking over, though paying more attention to the pair in the living room than what he was doing "Look at him. He looks just like Viren did" "Mmm... He's adorable... he's got my brown hair though" "There's nothing wrong with your hair!" Eren huffed "It needs a wash, but Levi won't let me" "He's just worried for you. Is everything down there...?" "A mess. Yeah. Pretty much. Do you want to hold him? I need to go to the bathroom" Hanji naturally pounced at the chance "Of course I do. Look at you, Eli... Hey baby, I'm your Aunty Hanji" Finishing placing everything away, Levi was of with the fairies, came back down when he realised Hanji was trying to talk to him "What?" "Eren called your name" Jogging through the living area, Levi paused at the recliner "Will you be ok with Eli?" "Perfectly fine" Continuing on, Levi let himself into the bathroom. Eren was sitting on the edge of the bath, wiping his face. His breathing starting to grow erratic as if he was panicking "What's wrong, Bright Eyes?" "I... don't know..." Breaking down, Levi moved to Eren's side, pulling his husband to him. Ignoring Eren not having wanted to be touched. Rubbing his back, he pressed three kisses to the top of Eren's head "What are you feeling?" "Scared... I... I was fine. But then I just got scared" "I'm here. You're ok. I've got you, Eren" "I don't know why I am" "You're emotions are a bit of mess right now, but it's ok. It's just you, me, Hanji and the kids" "I know... but I don't know why I'm scared" "Was it the blood? I can smell it in the air" "It's heavy, but... I don't think so. As soon as I was done washing my hands, I couldn't move towards the door" "It's ok... I've got you, now" "I hate this... I'm back to hating me... I feel like I'm back at step one again, and I don't know why" "Baby, you're ok. Your body is adjusting from giving birth. Your hormones are all over the place and you've been off since you had to come home. I know you. You're punishing yourself for things that aren't your fault" "Why can't I let myself be happy?" "Because you care way too much about everything" "I hate this, Lee. I hate this..." "I know you do... I know" "I feel so sick and tired. But when I fall asleep, I wake up panicking, because I don't have my pups..." "Is that why you panicked? Because Hanji's here? She and Anna brought some food around. I thought you might like to see Anna" "I do. I did. I don't know. She's... she's not him" "And I'm not saying she is. But she does love you. We all love you, baby" Eren sniffled "I'm so sick of this. I felt good when I was pregnant, and now I feel empty... Eli's out of hospital before Rei, and that feels wrong. It feels wrong that they were born nearly 4 weeks apart... it feels wrong that he isn't here" "I know, but we'll bring him home real soon" "What... what if he's an omega? He's already had such a hard start to life. What if he presents as an omega?" "Then we protect him. He love him and we guide him, and we protect him" "Will that be enough? I don't want him to suffer. I don't want any of them to suffer" "Eren, there's time between now and then. Things could change" "People think things change, but do they really? Omegas are still treated horribly, and I can't stop thinking about what Nick said. Where do omegas go now?" "There are legal shelters to help. Nick was so far off the mark with his stupid church, that he wasn't even on the planet anymore. Even if all of our sons present as omegas, I will personally kill anyone who touches them" "All I want is for them to be happy" "I know. But can you try and do me a favour?" "W-what?" "Don't get so caught up in a future that might not even be. Nick's trial has raised so many issues. Even if all you did was open the eyes to everyone in the courtroom, they're going to think twice about their own actions. They might even be the change the world needs" Eren laughed sadly "I'm sorry. I can't stop all these things in my head" "I know. Do you want to head back out to the living room? Cuddle with Eli some more?" "That'd be nice... You did such a good job" "You're the one who birthed him" "Without drugs" "No, Eren. No drugs... I was scared shitless" "So was I. I still feel so bad that I put you through it" "I blame the idiot that caused the accident and blocked up traffic" "Not the idiot omega?" "You are not an idiot. Do you remember how proud I was at the courthouse?" "I remember the bathroom" "And you say I'm the pervert... my point is. Times that by a hundred and you still aren't close to how proud I am of you for birthing our three amazing sons" "That's... a lot" "That must mean I'm really proud of you..." "Maths isn't my strong point" "You passed your high school equivalency. I know you can multiply with the best of them" "Did you just..." He hadn't intentionally "Maybe. Come on, the bath isn't the comfiest seat, and you've got nothing to be scared of" * Whatever was haunting Eren, didn't improve magically, no matter how much he hoped. He found his husband in their wardrobe with no memory of how he got there, and smelling of fear. Viren had said they were playing hide and seek while Eli slept, his son coming to find him when he couldn't find mummy. Eren really didn't seem to know what set him off though. Levi had a sneaking suspicion it was post-partum depression rearing its ugly head again, especially coupled with Eren's deep feelings of guilt over Rei being in hospital. He'd wanted to make an appointment with Krista, but when he'd called through to make an appointment, the woman's answering service informed him she would be on break until the first of June. He could call on her mobile, but it felt rude to disturb her, given how hard her line of work was, and how desperately she deserved a break. He could make an appointment with Eren's doctor, but they'd more than likely suggest medication, and Eren would dig his heels in over not being able to breast feed. Eli had no problem taking Eren's nipple when offered, suckling greedily in a way that rivalled Levi... Eren even making the comparison, while drugged up and in front of Erwin and Mike. With a glare, the pair had been silenced, but Levi knew the day would come and they would both give him shit of taking pleasure in every part of Eren. Waking to find their bed devoid of Eren, Levi grumbled to himself. His husband had fallen asleep on the sofa with Eli. When he'd gone searching, he'd found Titan sleeping along the side of Eren's leg, while Eli was sleeping on Eren's chest, to skin to skin. As cute as it was, Eren would have been spending the next few days paying for it given the angle of neck. Levi could swear he'd only just gotten Eren into bed... Dragging himself up, he skipped putting a shirt on. Walking out their bedroom, he didn't expect to see Eren talking away on the phone, with Eli on his shoulder. Catching sight of him, his husband rushed to end the call. The smile on his face hardly casual or guilt free "Who was that?" "Just... I was calling to see if Rei was ok..." "Eren..." "I know! Ok. I know. I didn't need to call because we're going to see him later" "You don't need to be defensive. I was going to ask how he was, and if you managed to get some more sleep" Eren looks a little sheepish as he ducked his head "Sorry. Yeah. I got some more sleep. You've been running after all us, so I thought you could use the rest" "I'm fine, you don't need to worry. So how is Rei?" "He's alright... I... I had a nightmare that he... so, I..." Walking over to his husband, Levi wrapped his arm around Eren's waist "He's ok, Bright Eyes. And he's going to be just fine. I know it's a long wait, but he'll be coming home soon" "I know. I... just... it's stupid. But being here, while he's there is so fucking hard" "It's not stupid. I'm sure he's looking forward to coming home and seeing his brother again" "Do you think... do you think he knows us?" "Eren, we've seen him every single day since his birth. We were the first people he saw... he might have been through a lot, but he's our pup" "I just want him home. He's... It's like when Viren was born. He's a part of me, and I can't even hold him" "He's a part of me too. Only two more days and he's ours" "I'm sorry, I know I'm a handful" Levi kissed Eren's cheek. A handful... he was two handfuls and a walk over Lego barefoot, but he wouldn't have his omega any other way "That's putting it midly, but I think you're allowed to be. You've got three pups, and a cranky old alpha to deal with" "And the trial" "Yeah. Well. You don't have to go back..." "You said I could go when they decide the verdict" Levi continued, Eren should have learned not to be so impatient by now, but that was just something else to love "... on the stand. And until Floch calls, you're better off forgetting about it for now" "I can't just forget. Every time I think about him, I want to punch him in his stupid face" "I do to. But he's not worth the assault charge" "That's true... if only he'd died when the complex..." Eren shook his head "I don't like wishing death on people. So I guess I hope he spends the rest of his life in prison, being someone's bitch or something" "Personally I wouldn't mind if he was locked in solitary for the rest of his life" Though if he had the chance, Levi couldn't deny it was tempting to put the man out of his misery. The man had left too much of a mark on his husband and that wasn't ok "Lee. Are you ok? You smell mad" "I just really hate people like Nick. I know it's busy, but do you want to have lunch and head in to see Rei?" "Its barely 10" "Then we'll take Viren to the park. I want to do something with you" "Eli's still too small for the park. I supposed we could go for a drive? I don't know, I suppose that's pretty boring for you" "We can go for a drive. Sure. Viren loves drives" "Are you sure? You do all the driving as it is" "I don't mind. We'll do a loop of the city, then head in to see Rei" "I'd... like that" "Then it's a plan" "You need breakfast and Viren needs real clothes... and I need clothes" It was almost laughable how fast Eren fell asleep. His omega had been quiet for the few minutes, then soft snores were coming from his mate. Eren may have said he had some sleep, but Levi was guessing that that was all of five minutes. With Viren still wide awake, he gave his son the job of directing. Viren loving bossing him around about which way to go, and with a full tank, they could drive for hours if they please. Unfortunately, Viren's love for directions only last half an hour, before he wanted to head to the park. Driving back across town to Viren's favourite park, Eren was still sleeping so Levi left him and Eli in the car, the air conditioner blasting as he did... and the car locked to protect his sleeping loves. After being cooped up for so long, Viren wanted to do everything, Levi finding himself being that over aged dad on the monkey bars. Luckily there were no sprains or breaks, though he did suck more than he'd expected, sending his son into a fit of laughter. Scooping him up, he held his son high as the toddler "showed him how it was done". Levi found himself needing this just as much as Viren has. He loved being home, but with everything going on, it'd been so long since he had a workout that wasn't sex... not that sex was bad... especially given his husband was more than satisfying in the bedroom. Not that he'd admit it to anyone but Eren, but Levi was addicted. He really couldn't think of it as anything else, anymore. He loved sex with Eren, in every shape and form... but this felt good in another way. Playing with Viren, Eren was the one brought things to an end. Viren noticing his mum from atop the small jungle gym, and deserting him to run over to his mum. Jogging after the toddler, he smiled as Viren threw his arms around Eren's leg. Catching up to his son, Eren raised an eyebrow at him "The park?" "You and Eli fell asleep, and Eli wanted to play. No one else is around" "Probably because it's so hot. You're other burnt" "I blame Viren" "You can't blame our son... but thank you. I think I needed the nap" "You definitely needed the nap. Is Eli alright?" "He had a feed before I came to check on you two" "He's going to be a chubby bub" Eren pouted, his husband keeping Viren close to him, even though he couldn't lift him as he wanted. Placing his hand on Viren's head, he started guiding him towards the car, Eren forced to fall in step "Don't give him a complex, he's a growing boy" "He's perfect the way he is. The air con wasn't too cold, was it?" "No. It was nice. I miss running around the park" "I was thinking the same thing" "Recovering from birth sucks" "You could let your husband take over more around the house" "Then what would I do?" "Rest?" "I don't want to" "It's not always about what you want. Are you hungry?" "Not really, but is that your way of saying you?" "Maybe..." "This is why you're supposed to bring snacks" "The only snack I see here, is you" Eren let out a louder and longer laugh than he'd expected his husband to "You're terrible. But I needed that... Do you think they'd notice if I stole Rei?" "Possibly... I don't think you can make a run for it right now" "Dammit" Reaching the car, Levi lifted Viren, staring over the hood of the RangeRover to tease his husband "I promise to leave all the feeds and all the dirty nappies to you, when he is" "What? No. How is that fair?" "Twice as many nappies, and twice as many feeds" "You really know how to bring up the worst bits of parenting" "Just wait until they both start teething" Eren shot him a glare "I hope your dick falls off" "No you don't" "No. But I'm mad at you" "Ahhh. But who will drive you home?" "Does that mean you'll be my get away driver?" "I'm your husband. I've legally become your partner in crime. But we can't steal our son, just yet" "I'm going to steal him so hard, when we can finally take him home" "And I'll be your getaway driver" * Carrying Rei, Eren wasn't game to let anyone close to him. His baby boy was in his arms for the first time since he'd given birth. Eren had tears in his eyes as nuzzled into boy's small wisps of hair. He was so tiny... and soft... and perfect. Smaller than his brother, his pup made up for it with his health condition. He was fine to come home, but he needed monitoring and the nurses had recommended the use of a humidifier in the nursery. He hadn't want to leave Eli and Viren home, but Levi wasn't sure he could juggle holding Eli, while keeping Viren in line, so he'd been forced to leave them home with Erwin supervising. Unable to leave his pup's side, Eren rode in the back with Rei. With Eli not being with them, they used his car seat for the drive. Levi and car seats didn't go with each other... his husband had said some very creative words the first time he'd put the car seat in for Viren. The same words repeated for Eli's car seat and most probably Rei's, as Levi insisted on being the one to install them... though Eren had a better idea about them from helping with Mina and Anka, as well as with Anna. Watching his son sleep, he must have taken a hundred photos of him as Levi drove. Despite having been separated from brother over a month and a half ago, they were so much alike. Like Eli, Rei liked to sleep with his left hand up near his face, smacking his lips together as he woke, then scrunching his face up before falling back to sleep. Eren couldn't quite believe Rei was finally all his. Carrying Rei in, Levi placed himself between them and Erwin. Erwin looked bored as he lounged on the sofa, Viren colouring, as the man watched on "Hey, guys. How's Rei?" "Sleeping. You don't get cuddles yet. Where's Eli?" Erwin looked towards the nursery "Sleeping. He cried for a bit, then fell asleep about 5 minutes ago" Eren frowned, starting towards the nursery. Eli didn't usually cry unless it was nappy change time, or he'd over slept at feed time "He doesn't usually cry... I'm going to check on him" Levi seemed to be of the same mind "I'll come with you. I want to see what happens when he meets his brother" "When he meets his brother again. They spent 6 months together... before being separated" Moving to ruffle Viren's hair, Levi smiled down at their son. Eren pausing at the doorway to the nursery, waiting for Levi to ask the question he knew was coming "Viren, do you want to see your brothers?" "No. Babies cry too much" No where near as much as Viren had. A full family photo would have to wait for now... Nervously, Eren entered the nursery. He didn't know what he'd do if his sons hated each other. Three boys was going to be chaos as it was, and even knowing what he did now about Zeke, he still missed having his brother around. Moving to Eli's crib, his son was fast asleep, waiting for Levi to join him, he then lowered Rei down beside his brother "They're perfect" "They look so much alike... I need photos" "Seeing them like this, really brings it home. We have two beautiful sons..." Pulling out his phone, Eren shook his head "Three beautiful human sons, and a beautiful fur baby" "Have I told you I love the way you love Titan" "He's purrfect" "Alright. I get... Eren!" Reaching out his tiny hand, Eli's found Rei's. Eren letting out a small cry, while Levi gasped. After being separated for so long, it was like Eli knew they were supposed to be together. Taking photos of them pair of them, Eren's omega was melting down at the sight. Sniffling, he reached for Levi, pulling his husband close "All our sons are home" "That they are. They're all safe and sound" "Lee... thank you. Thank you for letting me carry our pups..." "You don't need to thank me, you did all the hard work" "I love them so much... I really don't care how many nappies it takes, I love them so much" "Silly, omega. You're not going to be changing them alone" "I know. You're the best dad they could ever hope for..." "And you're the best mum they could have. They look just like you" "No. They've got their father's good looks. All they got was my messy hair" "And your drool" "And your farts" "You're the one with the toxic farts" "I was pregnant. You're the one who tried to gas us with that arse of yours" "My arse is perfectly fine" "That's true... God. I can't get over how perfect they look like that... it makes me want another one" Levi took long enough to reply that Eren regretted voicing his omega's inner thoughts "Do you, really?" "Not right now. But a little female, Levi... if the twins had been girls, I was thinking of naming them after our mother's... and Isabel, maybe even Hanji if she played her cards right" Originally Eli was going to be Abel Ackerman, but Eren didn't want his sons initials being AA. Kids could be arseholes, and Abel felt like such a heavy name. His husband had messed around with biblical names until Eli stuck. He didn't mind. Eli had been on his list of suggestions for names for Viren "Mmm. I thought about it too. I thought maybe Carl, but he didn't seem like a Carl" "No. He doesn't seem the type to care about someone ruining his salad" Levi started at him blankly "Oh. You're in for a treat. You're going to learn all the annoying kid movies off by heart" "I can't wait" "We both know that's not true... Do we leave them sleeping? You didn't have much of a cuddle" "It's fine. I think our pups want to spend some time together..." "I wish Viren wanted to see them, but I guess at 3, babies aren't as exciting" "Babies weren't exciting until he was born. I really never thought I'd be a dad" "It suits you. I still wish you had something to do with your time" "I have you guys to look after. And a few ideas for the future" "Do I get to know?" "Not just yet, but when I decided what comes next, I expect you to be by my side" "Where else am I going to be? And who else is going to kick your arse in to movement" Levi let out a soft and playful growl "Kick my arse, you say?" "Mhmm... my arse is still recovering" "Yet, you say you want another pup" "Not right away... not..." Eren stumbled to a stop, realising they'd never spent a full heat together. He hadn't thought about it... what if he went into heat early? Or what if Levi didn't want to spend his heat with him... "Eren?" "It's fine. I know. I just meant that it would be nice to have a whole brood of pups... but not for a few more years" "Is that all?" "Yeah. Sorry, I guess I'm more clucky than I realised. But a little girl would be adorable, even if we can't afford to" That was right. His savings wouldn't last forever. Levi had savings, and he wasn't saying he didn't believe his husband, but if all Levi's promises over a huge white wedding didn't eventuate... he wouldn't be surprised "Hey. You never know. I'm old, but we've still got time" "Mmm. I want to concentrate on them for now... Do you think Mike and Erwin are ever going to have kids?" "I think Mike wants kids more than Erwin does" "He'd be an amazing dad" "Yeah... but for now, let's let them sleep" A few hours passed before one of the pups started to cry, starting his brother off. When Levi went to check on them, he came back holding Rei, happily reporting that they'd still been holding hands. Even if his head was a mess, and his omega scattered, the fact that all his children were safe and together, made him feel over the moon. He knew he'd need to talk to Krista and his doctor about his moods, and about Levi's hovering, but for now, he was taking comfort in the small things. Like the love between two brothers.

[jbuchanan]

Name Song Tag Thing idk

wow ok NO PRESSURE AT ALL. @girlbookwrm tagged me in this because I introduced one (1) song and now I have falsely led them to believe i have good music tase (jk tysm pls don't be disappointed)

 If any song reminds you of steve and/or bucky then Yes I KNOW 

Im also adding my fave line from each song? just for fun? 

ok so

J - Just Be  (Paloma Faith)

B - Bang Bang - My Baby Shot Me Down (Nancy Sinatra)

U - Ultraviolence (Lana Del Rey)

C - Clown (Emily Sandé) ( :( steve :( )

H - Hurt by Johnny Cash ( :( bucky :( )

A - Arms by Christina Perri (my happy stevebucky song its just cute ok)

N - Nightingale (Demi Lovato)

A - As Time Goes By (Billie Holiday)

N - Never Grow Up (Taylor Swift)

Tagging anyone who wants to! (and thanks again for the tag i had fun)

When you're sick of the every day

When you're tired of my voice When you tell me You'll walk out that door That's when I know that you'll stay - Just Be

Music played and people sang Just for me the church bells rang - Bang Bang

We can go back to New York Loving you was really hard We can go back 'til it's dark Where they don't know who we are - Ultraviolence 

 I'll be your clown Behind the glass Go 'head and laugh 'Cause it's funny I would too if I saw me - Clown

Beneath the stains of time The feelings disappear You are someone else I am still right here - Hurt

I've never truly loved 'till you put your arms around me And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go

I hope that you see right through my walls I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling I'll never let a love get so close You put your arms around me and I'm home - arms

I never see the forest for the trees I could really use your melody Baby I'm a little blind I think it's time for you to find me - Nightingale

 It's still the same old story A fight for love and glory A case of do or die The world will always welcome lovers As time goes by - As Time Goes By

Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home Remember the footsteps, remember the words said And all your little brother's favourite songs I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone - Never Grow Up

This was way longer than i thought it would be but i enjoyed it and broke my own heart a little. Also realised every line is apparently my favourite line from any song.

[shadowsreaper]

Star Wars: The Last Jedi

Sorry for late post, I was really tired after typing this and slept for over 12 hours.

This post if full of spoilers from my midnight screening.

Reylo Moments First:

Rey waking up while Kylo is in the medical bay, and they connect and feel and see each other. fuck me!!! then shooting him.

The scene where he’s telling her he’s a monster kill me please I can’t no more.

Her casually walking and seeing him, shirtless!!!  And how she looks away because she’s so pure and can’t even fight him shirtless like a couple and her asking him to put something on like a cloak baby no please no. you like it I see you!

After she goes into the darkness she ends up telling HIM ABOUT IT not Luke while she’s wet, freezing over the fire and he sits there listening to her, like this is normal, she has grown accustomed to it MY HEART!!!!!!!! And him telling her how Kylo came to be! Babe I can’t breathe!! then within the silence she reaches out to him, I’m going to burst!! And them connecting sharing minds... even getting pulled away because of Luke made IT MORE.

“You’re not alone.” “Neither are you”

Rey going to him because she see’s his future and the good in him!

The elevator scene and their height difference and how she steps REALLY CLOSE TO HIM AND SHARING THE SAME AIR and calling him Ben and telling him she sees the good.

When she’s with snoke saying “Ben” for the last time begging with hope, her last hope Burst mode activated!

Then them teaming up everything is rainbows and hopeful and I believe is love and goodness and him looking to make sure she is all right and seeing her get hurt then being lovely and fighting his opponents quicker so he can get to her then she and him being caught but she saves herself! QUEEN and throws him the lightsaber to get free and does it in such a gangster way like damn HOTTT. POWER COUPLE FEELS.

Him offering her his hand again and her begging him no, please no. TEARS A RE REAL!

REYLO WAS HIGHKEY FEELS! FORCE BOND FUCK OFF SNOKE.

“It isn’t too late” Let that always be the case

I went into this movie thinking we will get Reylo scenes but nothing about the scene and emotionally I wasn’t prepared. I found it so hard to breathe. I wanted to cry everything they made me feel was so intense I generally had to been reminding myself that it wasn’t possible I could combust because of how much I felt like I was going to burst.

 Now the real.

·       Hux fuck yes, I know you’re terrible but I love you! Knowing how to kill the, track them and showing of to Kylo that snoke is happy with you siblings! Even when snoke called after you failed you’re all like “Good, I’ll take that to my room” bitch we know you shitting it, and don’t want to be embarrass but lol credit for trying before being smashed. When Kylo was unconscious you go to kill him then he comes back and is all like chill. child. And Kylo huffing about you calling the guns off and asking if he’s happy like BIG BROTHER!

·       POE Dameron ffuck yes. Commander Poe Dameron*. Messing with Hux, putting him on Hold and then wanting to pass a message pretending not to hear him. YOU KILLED ME AND IT WASN’T EVEN 5 MINS! Seeing Finn Naked and touching and looking everywhere we get it you like him. Asking abut BB8 and seeing him and greeting him like a pet, child and friend. Going up and meeting Rey Thank you yes thanks you. Kindest smile.

·       Rose my sweet sweet girl! Crying please no don’t. Her stunning Finn and being a fucking awesome! Full of emotions. Letting free the horse fox and saying it was worth it and helping the kids. SO SWEET.

·       Luke, you lying shit. I have never related to wanting to die alone. throwing the lightsaber behind you off the cliff and walking away with a word. Bursting in on Reylo like don’t do that it’s called cockblocking. Talking to R2D2 and Yoda like old times. You hitting Rey with the Leaf meanie she truly believed it. You made Kylo because you tried to kill him but changed your mind last minute and not once thought of consequences. And not even being there was perfect. I honestly thought you were so deep into the connection if the force you didn’t leave a foot print because Kylo was full of rage and still so connected to the force that Kylo stabbing you wouldn’t work and taking all the shots like a BOSS I knew you weren’t dying like that. “See you around kid” then dying a few minutes later. goals.

·       Rey my pure human being. Looking away when the creature Luke milked looked at you. Stalking Luke. Going into the darkness baller. So, heart broken and pure, and asking and worrying about Finn I lOve you. I’m sorry about your parents. You’re not nothing Kylo was being a jerk. Ignore him. Saving everyone and breaking my heart with your final connection with Kylo by closing the door please no no don’t no you belong together. “Moving more rocks” When Luke said reach out and you literally reached out.

·       Finn being a fucking best friend worried about Rey all the time. Being naked. Still wearing Poe’s old jacket. Fighting Phasma. Offering your life so save everyone baby you’re not worthless scum. Proud rebel scum yesssss. Putting the blanket over Rose and staying by her side.

·       Kylo! I knew you wouldn’t do it, it’s the one thing I trusted from the trailers. Bye bye masked, definitely will be missed but I still have imagination. Seeing Rey. Talking calmly with her and listening to what she has to say and telling her the truth. Knowing despite asking seriously? “Luke didn’t tell you everything” like you know he lies. Taking off your glove. Be real that was because you wanted me to combust, you didn’t think how we would handle that and also WANTING TO TOUCH HER. Always getting closer to her. From the other side of the room to force touching her to literally her sharing the same breath so close then her saving you. You have to be lying to Rey about her parents to manipulate her to your side. The betrayal I felt and Rey. You didn’t need to truly!! Why? I was/am going for you. I knew you being in the darkness was because of a valid reason that I relate to! Alone in the elevator? You knew what you were doing I was going to have a heart attack from the happiness. And you knew using “I saw your parents” would shut her up. It was cruel to use. Supreme leader? More like Supreme teen.

·       BB8 you fucking LEGEND SAVING EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sassy loveable bot I want you. Putting your head into the circuits to help Dameron like I love you don’t you understand your loyalty means the world.

·       Leia badass I love you. Using the force. Feeling your son, and relived he didn’t kill you. Shooting Poe though. You didn’t need to extraness runs in the fam love. Seeing your bother again. Truly so kind. And feeling him with your force, unconscious. Feeling him dead and accepting my heart.

·       Snoke honestly fuck off, you’re annoying. Ugly ass. I’m ignoring you making the force mind bond. You’re a dick.

·       Yoda, you’re too old and wise and a totally laughing jock. Just fucking laugh while you burn the fucking tree and give Luke one more lesson.

·       Kylo and Hux taking over the First order and losing the few rebels left. Children.

·       Chewbucca cooking the Porgs and the Porgs watching with their expressions!!!

[cathcacen]

Ethan deals with the aftermath of his baby sister’s traumatic incident. He’s probably.. 32? Which means Rei’s like 29, and Strahan’s 31.

Too bad he doesn’t survive Canon >XD

It’s been years since they’d all called the Naveau ancestral mansion home. With Strahan, Rei, and father’s jobs taking them to all corners of the world for years at a time and Izzy working an internship on the opposite end of the country, maintaining the huge building and its expansive grounds seemed almost unecessary.

Go, mother would say each time he received an invitation to join a fancy, well-funded faculty in some far off city. I can move to one of our smaller properties, and we can board this place up until we need it.

“And leave my best girl behind? You’re mad,” He’d tell her, and she’d laugh at him, her old, tired eyes nonetheless softening with gratefulness and relief.

It’s been six weeks since they’d found Rei delirious and dying, seven months since the incident. The report was classified, but Uncle had sent him a copy. “You need to know what happened to her,” the General had told him, “So you’ll know what to say, and what not to say.”

It kills him inside, but he reads the whole thing word for word, takes in the accompanying photographs and doctor’s charts. The scars lacing her back. The bruises and deep scratches on her thighs and around her neck. The prominent ribs and the dark rings beneath her eyes.

She shows up at the front door on a cloudy Tuesday, and he thinks for a moment that she’s actually shrunk. It isn’t until she slumps forward into his arms that he realises she’s just slouching. Father and Strahan bring their luggage in while mother makes a pot of strong herbal tea.

He sits with her, stroking her head where she’s laid it upon his lap. Father brings mother upstairs to fill her in, and it pains him to know that she will spend the evening in tears – perhaps they both will. Strahan fixes up the fire in the hearth, then joins them both on the couch.

None of them speak.

I should never have let her go, he thinks. We should’ve tried harder to stop her from enlisting.

Over the course of the next few weeks, they try to live as normally as possible. They have her gravestone destroyed and recommissioned. They send word to their closest relatives, with pleas to be left to it for the time being. The occasional errant reporter shows up at their door to speak to the recently-recovered prisoner, but Strahan is very good about sending them on their way without drawing media ire. There were other prisoners too, now all safely reinstated with their families, but the news had mostly reported on the General’s niece and her safe return.

They’re careful to keep the news reports from her. They keep her in a bubble, as best they can.

At night, when she thinks no one else is awake, she sobs. He hears her across the room and wonders if she’s awake, or if these are nightmares come to plague her. When he rolls out of bed to go to her, he finds Strahan already at her door, standing sentinel.

“I’m afraid to touch her,” He tells his brother.

“I know,” Strahan says. He sounds exhausted. “I am too, sometimes.”

He finds her tucked into his bed one Friday afternoon. He’d sent his students home early with their assignments for the weekend – no one had been paying attention, anyway. Earlier in the morning, a news channel had run an expose on the situation, and graphic photographs had made their way onto the screen.

They’d turned the television off, but it was too late – she’d taken in the report, the images, the decimated figure of a woman who could’ve only been her, despite the blurred-out face and features. All things considered, he thought she’d held up particularly well, shrugging her shoulders and shoving the remainder of her full plate away before retiring to her room.

“Hey,” He tells her, sitting down on the edge of the mattress and reaching out to stroke her forehead gently. “How’re you doing today?”

She doesn’t resist. Swathed beneath his blankets and cocooned in a pillow fort of sorts, she looks tiny. He wishes she were still fourteen, crying into his shoulder over a broken heart. That, he could fix. That, he could help with.

He’s powerless against her nightmares now, and the powerlessness makes him sick to the stomach.

“Okay, I guess.” She mumbles into his pillow. “Sorry I stole your bed. I couldn’t get comfortable in mine, it feels…”

He holds his breath. “Hm?”

“Too soft. Your mattress is harder.”

The image of the thin, filthy, blood-stained mattress in her cell flashes in his mind. He shakes it away. “I’m just old, and need a stiff mattress for my shitty back.”

She smiles tiredly at him. “You don’t need to try so hard, you know. All of you. It’s like you’ve been treading on eggshells since I got back.”

“We just want to make it easier for you to get well again.” He lets out a sigh, loosening his tie with his free hand. “Are you feeling stifled?”

“A little,” She admits. “I should have listened to you.”

He glances over his shoulder. She’s looking up at him, and the darkness in her eyes breaks his heart. The child is dead. His baby sister has departed. Before him now is a new entity, with her own battle scars and wounds and holes in her heart.

An equal, out to protect herself.

“How do you mean?”

“I shouldn’t have enlisted. I should’ve taken the job at the hospital. I should have stayed here, with you, with mother.”

He tugs his tie straight off and kicks his shoes off before shuffling closer to her. When he pats his chest, she lies down on top of it, and he strokes her hair.

It’s longer now, the shortest curls of the angled bob brushing the small of her back.

“I read the report.” He tells her.

She lets out a quiet sigh. “I know you did. And at this point, the whole world probably knows what they did to me. Anarei Naveau, victim. Is that who I’m going to be from now on?”

“Hardly. D’you know what kind of resilience you’d need to survive a hellhole like that?”

Her voice is low, but clear. “You read the report.” The sardonic chuckle that follows cuts through the air. “You know very well I wanted out. Don’t you think that discounts whatever strength I might have shown in the beginning?”

“Why did you cut your wrist and not the jugular, then? And why did you only cut one wrist, at that?” His voice falters a little, and he tightens his grip of her. “I know I’m only a psychiatrist, but even I know a weak attempt when I see it.”

She looks up at him again, and for one short moment, he thinks he sees it in her expression – the regret of practicing medicine in the army, as opposed to teaching like him, or taking up a comfortable and safe fellowship in the local hospital. But the moment passes, and she shakes her head before burrowing into his chest again. “I was afraid, I guess. I wasn’t expecting anyone to come for me. Chances are I’d have done the other wrist, and then some, if they hadn’t come when they did.”

“I think you didn’t really want to die,” He half expects her to push him away, or scream at him, or cry, but she does none of it. Emboldened, he continues. “I think you needed to feel in control of something – anything, in that situation. So you did it. You cut yourself open. And maybe you would have succeeded in the end, but... you said it. You were putting it off.”

She swallows. “I’d never felt more powerless,” She whispers.

He bends to kiss the top of her head, and she doesn’t complain when his tears seep into her hairline. “You’re safe here, now. You’re stronger than all of us. You’ve survived the worst.”

“I heard the firing squad,” She tries to steady her voice, and manages for the most part. “Every single day, I heard the firing squad. Some of them were from my unit.” Her breathing goes shallow. “None of them screamed. I tried not to scream, too. But I still hear the guns. I still feel the barrels pressed to the back of my head. I can still feel them inside me, against me, all over me. Some of them would cry as they fucked me, again and again. They were as scared as I was. Who’s this war benefitting, really?”

“Who knows?” He’s struggling to hold his tears back. In contrast, she’s calmed a little. “All I’m certain of is that they won’t benefit off your back again.”

She nods tiredly. “Ethan?”

“Hmm?”

She swallows, then slowly pushes herself up into a seating position. She’s still slouching, but there’s a look of acceptance on her face.

He thinks he prefers it to the crumbling defeat. Baby steps.

“Cut my hair for me.”

[impandagrl]

Four Fandoms

I was challenged to post four of my favorite fandoms and why I love them by @whovian1077. Thank you; this should be fun! Not gonna lie; I’m probably gonna cheat a little. I’m not good at picking my favorite out of things I love. Also, these will be in no particular order.

1) Star Wars-

All the movies (yes, even that one; that one too) and basically all the books (I can’t say I’ve read all of them, but I’ve read a substantial number)

Favorite Characters- Obi-wan, Han and Chewie, Leia, R2, Chirrut, Jyn, Cassian, K2, Rey

Favorite Quotes- Obiwan has some great ones that I quote all the time (Good job; That’s why I’m here; You want to go home and rethink your life), but they’re mostly in the dry delivery. The majority of K2’s dialogue. Leia-”I’d rather kiss a wookie,“ Han-“That can be arranged; he could use a good kiss!”

How long I’ve been a fan- From the first moment I watched Episode IV I was hooked. I’d say I was probably 12-13.

Why I love it- I love how everything feels like it has its own deeper story. Each planet has customs, language, people. You can fall in love with characters that are on screen for a couple minutes tops (do not get me started talking about Zett Jukassa). The expanded universe is basically a bunch of books full of fanfic that was published. I wrote so many stories myself in my early teens that took place in the star wars universe. I made my own planets and wrote and drew about the inhabitants. I will always love Star Wars.

2) Joss Whedon

Okay, I warned you I was going to cheat. Because of this great man, I get to include the Marvel movies (yes, I’m aware he wasn’t responsible for all of them, but like I said, I’m cheating!) and Agents of Shield, Firefly, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Angel, and Dr Horrible’s Sing Along Blog as one entry.

Favorite Characters- Iron Man, Captain America, Coulson, Hawkeye, Fitz, Star Lord, Buffy, Willow, Spike, Xander, Zoe, Kaylee, Mal, Wash, Inara, Dr. Horrible, Penny (this was still hard; I feel like I betrayed everyone I left off this list)

Favorite Quotes- Oh, jeeze! “I swear by my pretty floral bonnet I will end you,” “Out. For. A. Walk.- … Bitch.” “It’s a brand new day and the sun is high/All the birds are singin’ that you’re gonna die,“ “B:I wanna be an achiever, like Bad Horse; P:The Thoroughbred of Sin?; B:I meant ‘Ghandi’,” Most of the lines …  

How long I’ve been a fan- I want to say 10 years or so?

Why I love it- They are funny and clever, but also sad and real. The characters are amazing and believable. The dialogue is incredible 

3) Supernatural

Favorite Characters- Sam and Dean, Bobby, Charlie, Cas, Benny, Jody, Donna, Pamela, Crowley, Ellen, Jo, Kevin, Bela, Lisa (shut up), Ruby (both incarnations), Baby

Favorite Quotes- Really? “I think I’m adorable,“ “Fight the fairies,” “Hey, I am your flesh and blood brother … believe in that, believe me … make it your stone number one and build on it,” “Do I look like a ditchable prom date to you?” “It’s okay, boy, that’s why I’m here,” “Don’t ask stupid questions,” “Urination. I understand.” “Dean, always with the scissors!” “No, I’m kidding because clowns are really funny to me,” etc.

How long I’ve been a fan- Since July 3rd, 2016. I was planning on casually watching the first season to satisfy my curiosity and take a much needed break from job and school stress. I was watching the first episode. Dean did something or said something or looked something idk and I said, “I’m in trouble.” Then Sam said/did something and I said, “I think I may have made a terrible mistake.” I was right.

Why I love it- I love so many things about this show, but it all comes down to Sam and Dean. I could tell right from the pilot that these were well done, complex, characters that were also well-casted. Individually, I would have fallen in love with either of them. Together, with the dynamics of their brother relationship, I just don’t see myself getting tired of it. Combine it with the incredible acting ability that only seems to get better (how?), the fantastic side characters, the amazing/crazy fandom, and the actors’ relationship with each other and the fans …  well, I’m just glad I didn’t know when I popped in that first dvd: I probably would have been too scared to sign on for 13 seasons (wow, that’s a lot of emotional trauma)

4) The Chronicles of Narnia

The 7 Books by C.S Lewis. The most recent movies were okay. I watched an old BBC rendition once that was equal parts good and terrible.

Favorite Characters- Lucy, Edmund, Mr. Tumnus, Reepicheep, Shasta, Bree, Hwin, Aravis, Puddleglum, Prince Tirian, Jewel, The Professor, Strawberry -ah, who am I kidding: Peter, Jill, Eustace, Caspian, Susan, and Aslan of course

Favorite Quotes- “(Edmund:)Girls aren’t very good at keeping maps in their brains, (Lucy:)That’s because we’ve got something in them.” “(Narrator:)Edmund or Lucy or you would have recognized it at once, but Eustace had read none of the right books … He never said the word Dragon to himself. Nor would it have made things any better if he had.” “(Aslan:)Courage, dear heart” “(Puddleglum:)I’m going to live as like a Narnian as I can even if there isn’t any Narnia,”

How long I’ve been a fan- I believe I was 13 when I first read them

Why I love it- I loved the magic, the adventure, the fact that ordinary kids became heroes. The humor. The love and sacrifice. The Narrator. Lewis’ incredible ability to tell a good story.

Honorable Mentions

Anything by Tolkien or Cornelia Funke, Criminal Minds, Pirates of the Caribbean, House (the show with Hugh Laurie), Anything by Ted Dekker, Lemony Snicket’s Series of Unfortunate Events (the books; I liked the movie, haven’t seen the show), Harry Potter, Psyche, The Mentalist, Justified, Being Human-not the bbc version though I saw the first season and found it funny, Person of Interest, Teen Wolf (I’m hopelessly behind on some of these shows), The Walking Dead (fell behind on that too- no spoilers, please!), Pushing Daisies (thanks to @seenashwrite, I’m almost done and I LOVE it!)

[moongoddesskiana]

Mikan Sakura Elric Chapter 1

Mikan’s Beginnings 

3rd Person POV

Mikan Sakura was a sweet, peaceful, and loving child, as was with her mother Yuka Sakura, but there is a secret they had kept from everyone else. Yuka and Mikan could travel to other worlds, dimensions, and galaxies. In fact Mikan's father, Alphonse Elric, was from another dimension. Her father's world is full of people who have the ability to preform Alchemy. Mikan and her mom would travel and forth between the dimensions to visit her dad and the rest of his family. When Mikan was 6 she became an alchemist, the youngest ever, since her uncle Edward was a tween when he became one. A month after she became an state alchemist, her baby brother was born in her father's world. Her cousins Abby, Robert and Steve congratulated Mikan on becoming a big sister. A week later, Yuka was driving Mikan and Youichi to the grocery store, when all of a sudden an out of control car slammed into their vehicle. Mikan and Youichi were okay, but Yuka didn't make it. At the time Mikan didn't know about her traveling alice so she couldn't go to or contact her dad. Mikan and Youichi lived peacefully in Japan until Mikan was 9 and Youichi was 2. Youichi was taken by alice academy, after Youichi accidentally summoned ghosts at some 2nd graders. Mikan resisted following Youichi, but when she was 10 and in 3rd grade her friend Hotaru (whom she met that year) went to the academy as well. Mikan went to alice academy to follow them, she didn't want to be separated from her brother and best friend. Even though she pretended to be dense, was only 1/500 the amount she pretended to be. Mikan went as soon as she she could not resist the urge to see Hotaru and Youichi. When Mikan got there she met people who wanted to kidnap her, she knew that but continued to act dumb, she planned on exposing them. Until a teacher came she still acted dumb and the teacher released his alice. Mikan saw and knew he was using an alice but still pretended even though she wanted to barf because of the way he was using it. He asked if she could feel anything and she said she didn't, which was true but she could see. Mikan got in for her nullification alice but she didn't mention her traveling alice, it was risky, her mom told her about the academy and her mom knew she had both nullification, steal\insert and traveling alice. Mikan knew about all of her alices now and knew not to say anything about them or Alchemy, Mikan didn't want to be in the Dangerous Ability class that her mom told her about.

Mikan's POV

It has been 2 years since I came here, I go between the dimensions whenever I get the chance I loved visiting, uncle Roy plays with me and cousin Emily who wants to be fuhrer like her dad, it was hilarious when aunt Riza took out her gun to her husband and told him to go to work. Uncle Ed and Aunt Winry were always having fun with me and my cousins or working. Uncle Ed was still in the military just not a state alchemist until an incident happened and Ed was forced to take people's gates and give his arm to truth again. Now Uncle Ed taught me what he knows somehow I can just clap and do Alchemy like uncle Ed, uncle Roy and Dad, no one knows why, but it makes being an alchemist easier. I once got discovered by the elementary school principal so when I'm here I secretly work with Rei-nii and do missions, they keep it secret so they have a secret weapon and I'm not discovered by the government win-win to me. They let me use my traveling alice freely and use my steal/insert when they need it, thanks to that I have a lot of alices but my original ones are life shortening.I suddenly am called on by Jin-Jin and answer the question easily. Uncle Roy is always keeping my knowledge in check and I study here and in Amestris when no one is looking, I'm actually smarter than a lot of people I have already finished college level work. Then I realize my mistake I responded like I would in Amestris, not like I do here. Everyone is looking at me I panic but I don't show it I use my state alchemist poker face. "Are you really Miss. Sakura?" Jin-Jin asks me, "I'm not feeling good, I'm going to the school hospital." Then Uncle Ed comes in, it must be serious if he used my alice stone. "I need to talk to Mikan Sakura, can someone tell me where she is?" Uncle Ed asks, we head out of the classroom to my no star dorm."Uncle Ed why are you here? What happened? Is everyone okay?" I ask scared of what is happening, "It hasn't harmed anyone we know yet but to the north the people are attacking Briggs, it's holding so far but are jobs as state alchemists are needed for a while I already explained to your principal and you can leave, this one might not end well. Mikan do you need to grab anything before we go to Amestris, but we have to be quick fuhrer Mustang asked for us personally, I'm thinking an elite group. Al found out and wants to watch your back." I feel like my world might explode, one of my countries is going to war, and my family and friends might be hurt. " Dad can be overprotective sometimes. Are any other countries involved?" "Xing is helping since emperor Ling and princess Mei insisted on joining because the dracmans are making a philosopher's stone." "But aren't they made of you know what?" "Yes, they are using ones from other countries surrounding them." "We better go Uncle Ed, Uncle Roy might get angry if we're late. I don't want him to use flame Alchemy on you again, last time your automail got singed Aunt Winry was furious. She nearly hit me with her wrench instead of you." "You know what maybe we should get going." I pack up my stuff and get out my modified uniform, I didn't like it and turned it into a similarly designed dress. I use my traveling alice and we are in central city right outside central HQ, I never get used to how big it is. We go right to fuhrer Mustang or Uncle Roy's office. We walk in and see Dad, and close family and family friends including Uncle Ling, Aunt Lanfan, Aunt Mei and others like Armstrong. I also see people I don't recognize who are either veterans from the Promise Day or elite alchemists. "Hey Havoc, no smoking in front of a minor especially me, I'm not afraid to use my Alchemy on you." "It's just one, what's the harm?" "Lung cancer and a bunch of other health risks." "Everyone I need your attention." "Yes, fuhrer Mustang." We all replied, " As we are talking our Briggs soldiers might be engaged in battle so I want an elite group of soldiers to help win this war. Any questions or does anyone not want to join something that could effect our whole country?" "No, sir." "I'd like Edward Elric to head this group with Hawkeye receiving updates until after our child is born." "It would be my honor to help this country once again fuhrer." "You'll be sent to Briggs next week by train. Mikan please stay for a moment, the rest of you may leave now." "What do you want to talk about fuhrer Mustang?" "I'm talking as your godfather right now, not fuhrer. Mikan please be careful out there, okay? I don't want you to get hurt, no one wants you to." "I know that Uncle Roy and I'm careful sometimes I wonder if you even would have let me become an alchemist not even a state one!" "I'm just worried about you. Talk to the rest of your family. Please talk to Riza she wants to watch my back 24/7 can you convince her to take it easy?" "I'll try it might take a little while. Love you Uncle Roy." I leave Uncle Roy's office and head to my room at central for when I have to be there for a while. I'm going to call my family tomorrow, I'm tired I hope my friends understand why I'm gone. Thinking about makes me wonder, will I survive? Will my family be safe? How long will the conflict last? How many innocent people will be hurt? What will happen next week when I leave for war?