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[aadhiskanmani]

[soulsuckrrs]

open to: m/f/anyone plot: Ruth is y/m's new bodyguard & was taking their boyfriend or fiance home (maybe after a night of partying or something like that). On the drive there y/m & the guy started arguing or got in a disagreement or whatever that left the bf yelling at/being a dick to y/m. Hmu if you wanna plot more! connection: client/someone who'd hire or have a bodyguard.

Ruth shifted in the driver's seat of the black SUV issued to him and those of his father's company, it was clean and smelled brand new. His eyes swept over the person occupying the passenger seat with a slight frown before he sighed. “It's none of my business,” he said, tone even and low, his right hand moved to brace against the back of their seat as he leaned a little closer, eyes moving to track the body walking up the stairs to the building he dropped them off at and when he was satisfied with the distance Ruth slid his blue eyes back to meet their gaze. “But if he ever speaks to you like that again, I'll break his fucking jaw.” Not his nose or his mouth, his fucking jaw so he couldn't use it for weeks to spew the rancid words he had at the person in the passenger seat. 

His left hand still gripped the steering wheel with white knuckles, it had taken everything in Ruth not to pull the car over and put that man in his fucking place but this was a new job and even saying what he already had might have been stepping on some toes. Let them complain or report him to his father for speaking out of turn but he needed them to know he wasn't about to put up with that type of behavior from that man ever again. It just wasn't something Ruth could do, job or not. Another glance out the car window confirmed that the piece of shit was gone and Ruth turned back to the steering wheel, threw the car into drive and pulled off.

[svturn-exe]

fuck it sitting/posture headcanons. because why not

adam can't sit normal bc none of the people around it do

jonah sits in chairs almost every way except for how you're supposed to, evelin curls up in them like a little cat, and sarah is trying to return to the sea and become a shrimp

cesar has great posture for all of 5 seconds until he gets restless and starts fidgeting and shifting around. if told he's not allowed to get out of the chair and then left to his own devices he will wind up upsidedown or sideways or some shit

mark is guilty of the same shrimp spine as sarah, but instead of being reserved for when he's really immersed in something, it's just how they sit all the time. one time mark stood up and his spine cracked so loudly that for a second cesar, horrified, was convinced he actually fucking broke something in there

ruth sits in chairs backwards every chance she gets. she also does that thing where you lean back and balance the chair on the back two legs. she only falls off 40% of the time. cannot be trusted with a wheely chair bc she will just fuckin spin around for 3 hours and get nothing done

thatcher's posture is worse than marks. dude sits hunched in her fuckin chair, obsessing over evidence with a 90 degree angle in his spine and then wonders why she has back pain all the time

shrimp spine runs int he heathcliff family, and dave also has it. he's more like sarah tho, in that he'll usually catch himself hunching over and sit up straight. but if he's really into what he's working on then . scrimp propaganda

[ask-a-theater-nerd]

" Wow I really am like Jane Doe right now aren't I "

Uhm-hi! I'm ruth! Ruth Fleming! Honestly i use any pronouns i dont care what you refer to me as! I'm bisexual (not that you guys need to know it but I think its just nice to say)

I got this app because all of my other friends did! Though I don't know how it works since I'm a ghost, I just randomly found this phone while I was in the afterlife! I'm happy to be here anyways :] so uh-ask me anything! And I'll try my best to answer :]

Friends can int! Like Max, Richie (I think he's dead too though), Grace, Stephanie. Max yagerman dni PLS INTERACT MAX EVEN THOUGH YOU KILLED ME

Ooc

Dead ruth au (even though it's canon)

Tags ill be using

#ruth answers! 👻 (Ruth answering asks)

#Ruth rambles! 👻 (Your girl is rambling)

#dialing. . . (Ruth answers calls) (probably not gonna be used),

[cinnamon-bunni]

⚞MASTERLIST⚟

Finally, a masterpost for the tumblr users to find :) fandoms are sorted alphabetically, but it’s still a bit long, so I apologize for that–I might at some time just make separate lists for certain fandoms if they end up being too long. My Ao3 page is Cinnabunni, so feel free to go to look through my works there if ya want! (also, little thing: any fics with the “↳” next to it are my personal favorites <3)

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☕Coffee Talk☕

You Could Never Hurt Me

Rating: G Paring: Gala/Hyde Word count: 1.5k Gala was always aware about time. He always knew what time, what day it was. Hyde supposed that made sense; he always needed to know how close the full moon was, so he could always be prepared, and lock himself in an isolation room within the hospital he worked at. But the hospital was full to the brim, with everybody working 24/7, including Gala. He was working so much, he didn’t even notice anything outside of work. Including the date or time. Luckily, Hyde knows how to deal with this.

🦇DC (Batman)🦇

Green Wrapping Paper And Purple Ribbon

Rating: G Pairing: Gen Word Count: 2.4k Dick was excited to celebrate Tim’s 16th birthday with him. He had a small thing planned with Jason and the others, but sadly Tim was a bit to busy with a dumb scavenger hunt with way too many dumb riddles.

💥Danganronpa💥

A Small Goldfish

Rating: T Pairing: Kazuichi/Gundham (Pre-Relationship) Word count: 3.2k Kazuichi, throughout his life, had many pet fish. Even though they didn’t have the right equipment to take care of them. But at least he can bond with someone at Hope’s Peak over his love of fish.

One More Round

Rating: G Pairing: Gen  Word count: 3k “Well,” she said thoughtfully, “Hajime and I were going to go to a nearby arcade after school today. I tend to go there often whenever I’m bored. It’s a big place too, I’m sure you could find something to do there.” “An arcade, huh?” Kazuichi repeated. He gave a hum. “Well, it’s not the worst idea.” ~~~ In which Kazuichi drags Nagito, Gundham, and Fuyuhiko go to the arcade, successfully crashing Chiaki and Hajime’s plans.

🌕Ducktales🌕

You’ll Always Be Safe

Rating: G Pairing: Gen (Scrooge & HDL) Word count: 884 Scrooge always checks in with the kids at night. Just to be sure that they’re safe.

🏘Fire Emblem: Three Houses🏘

Sweet Cake During a Bitter Night

Rating: G Pairing: Gen (Felix & Lysithea) Word count: 2.2k In which Felix wants sleep, and Lysithea doesn’t want to take a chance of a ghost attacking her at night. At least she gets to have her cake.

All the Time in the World (On Going)

Rating: T Pairing: Gen (Minor Felix/Sylvain) Word count: 5k The man’s eye immediately softened when he looked at the Archbishop. “Byleth…” he spoke in a low tone. “…is he real?” The Archbishop–Byleth–gave a firm nod. “He’s very much real, Dimitri. But right now, he needs to rest-” “But how do we know if it’s him?” the man pressed. “How do we know it’s really him? How do we not know it’s the same people who assumed the role of Monica and Tomas? How do we know that he won’t stab us in the back and kill us all?” The man focused back onto Glenn. “I say we strike now, before he has the chance to heal and get back to full strength. Destroy the seeds of tragedy and despair before they get the chance to sprout.” Glenn, if it was any other circumstance, would’ve gotten angry, and reply with his own remark. Maybe even fight if he was physically able to. But one detail made his mind spin, made his whole world pause and destroy everything that he thought he knew or understood.  “Dimitri…?” ~~~ In which Glenn is thrown through time, and no one is happy about the situation.

🪓Hatchetfield Universe 🪓

Without a Simple Goodbye (On Going)

Rating: M Pairing: Gen (Peter & Ted) (Peter & Ruth & Richie) Word count: 13.1k Peter goes to Pasqualli’s, and gets his ass beaten by Max Jägerman in the parking lot—a harsh reminder of who he was and where he belonged. He hides away int he library with Ruth and Richie, who shoot him concerned yet understanding looks his way. Everything should've gone back to normal after that. Back to being int he background, hiding away from Jagerman. Except, he wakes up back to the same day, the day Steph asks to cheat on the pop quiz, to study at Pasqualli’s. And peter wakes up to that day again and again and again and-

♾Infinity Train♾

A Shared Birthday

Rating: G Paring: Ryan/Min-Gi (Pre-Relationship) Word Count: 2.1k “Just a few more seconds…” he said, eyes narrowing on the time. Min-Gi started to grow more nervous as they waited, not knowing what Ryan was doing or what he had in store. And if he knew Ryan, it would most likely not be anything good. “There!” Ryan shouted the second the clock had struck midnight. ~~~ In which Ryan sneaks into Min-Gi’s house to celebrate his birthday with him.

Can’t Sing Along Together

Rating: T Pairing: Ryan/Min-Gi (Pre-Relationship) Word Count: 6.4k It didn’t take much longer to find the exit. But just like the door Kez had tried, it wouldn’t budge. No matter how hard he tried to open it, it kept shut. He soon just gave up, and started to look around the room for any clues that could possibly reveal what the puzzle was. “Maybe it was to do something with mirrors,” he wondered quietly to himself. “I suppose that would make sense in this car. But what to do with them…” “You need to swap with your reflection. You need to open up the door at the same time with your reflection while you’re in the reflected world.” Min-Gi nodded. “Huh. I suppose that makes sense. But how would I even-” He then paused, and started to frantically look around his surroundings, because that was not Ryan’s voice. “Wait, who said that?” he asked aloud. “Who’s there? “Calm down, I’m down here.” Min-Gi froze, and slowly looked down. Below him was of course his reflection, but his reflection wasn’t normal. It wasn’t positioned in the way Min-Gi was; it didn’t have a look of terror on its face. It was instead in a more relaxed and care-free position. It gave an awkward wave and a sheepish grin to go with it. “Hey.”

🌳The Legend of Zelda🌳

Alone in the Wild

Rating: G Pairing: Link/Revali Word count: 2.2k Link is tired and just wants to rest at the Flight Range. Revali finds him there and the two talk for a little bit.

💀Monster Prom💀

↳ Home

Rating: T Pairing: Gen (Damien & Miranda; Lucien LaVey/Stan LaVey) Word count: 5.9k CWs: Major Character Death He could feel his eyes prickle as tears formed, because holy shit. He was really going to die here, wasn’t he?

Spill All Your Secrets And Emotions

Rating: T Paring: Gen (Zoe & Liam) Word count: 7.8k Zoe could be very observant. Could, of course, being the key word. Usually she wasn’t, and tended to not pay attention much to the world outside of the fictional ones she obsessed over, but sometimes she picked up on small details. Said details were important to include in her writings. And Liam. Wonderful, horrible Liam. Liam’s cynicism and hatred for the mainstream made him seem very two dimensional, something very easy to write, but the few times he let his walls down made Zoe realize there was something else deep in there. But he always kept everyone at a distance, it was impossible to know his true character. Why couldn’t he be like Damien, who had internal problems that everyone knew about?  And then, as Zoe found out, that the vampire did indeed have a few internal problems. And she was determined to fix it the best way she could.

Swirling Feelings

Rating: T Pairing: Gen (Zoe & Liam) Word count: 2.9k Liam does not care for Halloween. He cares for his birthday even less. So why were his friends so insistent on celebrating it?

📱Mystic Messenger📱

A Special Surprise At The Party

Rating: G Paring: Yoosung/MC Word count: 1.4k Yoosung has been planning something for his girlfriend for a while, planning with the other RFA members, without her knowing. And when the party arrives, Yoosung is excited for the surprise he has planned.

↳ I’ll Be Here For You

Rating: T Pairing: Gen (Yoosung & Zen) Word Count: 2k CWs: Suicidal Thoughts After a year of Rika’s death, Yoosung still isn’t himself. Zen pays him a visit to see if he’s okay.

Spend Some Time Together

Rating: G Pairing: Gen (Yoosung & Zen) Word Count: 2.3k “Zen, slow down!” Yoosung complained. “I have homework, you know!” “Ah, it’s the weekend, you’ll have plenty of time!” he argued. “C’mon, don’t you wanna join me with my rehearsals?” “Not really…” “Yoosung, you wound me!” he exclaimed, grasping his chest dramatically, which made Yoosung roll his eyes. “C’mon! It’ll be fun, won’t it?” “Why do you even want me over there? Won’t I just be in the way?” “Of course not!” Zen said. “And can I not spend time with my favorite RFA member? Can I not just wanna spend some time with you?” ~~~ In which Zen wants to hang out with Yoosung, and the only idea he’s got is bringing him down to rehearsals with him.

💘Obey Me! Shall We Date?💘

Self Care Day

Rating: G Pairing: Gen (Leviathan & Asmodeus) Word Count: 2.9k Leviathan just wants to be left alone. He just wants to be in his room with no one bothering him. He was already in a bad mood, and he did not want anyone annoying him even more. But of course, Asmo wanted to drag him into having a self care day. And of course Levi had to deal with his brother’s dumb self care day. What was it going to do, anyway? Make him feel better about himself? Yeah right. No way was a dumb “self care day” going to make him feel better. …Right?

↳ A Sin-Filled Swap

Rating: T Paring: Gen (Brothers & Brothers) Word Count: 25.4k “It seems to be some sort of swapping curse,” he said, but tilted his head. “But it’s odd, I’ve never seen something as powerful as this before. I haven’t even mastered a simple swapping spell yet, and yet whoever cursed who was able to swap your entire sins.” A silence settled in the room, and the seven brothers completely stunned at what the sorcerer had just said. “Huh? Excuse me?” Mammon said, breaking the silence. “Did ya just say our sins?” ~~~ In which the brothers swap sins for a day. No one is happy, to say the least.

Dirty (On Going)

Rating: M Pairing: Gen Word Count: 7.9k CWs: Implied/Referenced Rape Asmodeus sits there and all he can think about it how dirty he is.

↳ Messy Makeup

Rating: T Pairing: Gen (Leviathan & Asmodeus) (Leviathan & Barbatos) Word count: 5.5k Asmodeus was happily picking out his outfit for the day when Levi burst the bedroom door wide open. Honestly, it was way too early in the morning to try and explain sexuality to his older brother. Why couldn’t he just finish his morning routine in peace? ~~~ In which Levi is confused, Asmo attempts to help, and Barbatos’s baking can fix just about anything.

A Useless Date

Rating: G Pairing: Gen (Lucifer & Asmo) Word count: 2.6k Lucifer wasn’t sure how he ended up here. He replayed the scene again and again in his head, and yet he still came up with nothing. How the hell had he been convinced to leave his office, and head down to Ristorante Six? For a blind date nonetheless?

Give Me a Heart That Won't Break

Rating: T Pairing: Gen (No Relationships) Word count: 2k Levi doesn't envy them, not at all. He focuses on Asmo as he enters the room, a joyful smile on his face as he laughs and gasps at whatever someone says. His groupies follow him, and suddenly they are all taking up too much room–all laughing and squealing and enjoying themselves. They are all so happy, he thinks absentmindedly, watching a few feet away from the circle. Everyone is engaged, all participating in one way or the other. His grip on his phone tightens as he watches them. (Really, he doesn't.)

I Know Those Eyes

Rating: T Pairing: Gen (Lucifer & Mammon; Lucifer & Levi) Word count: 2.5k CWs: Major Character Death Lucifer listens to the clock tick, tick away as he speaks, repeating words from the book, words that feel peculiar on his tongue, until the clock suddenly stops, and there is no more tick, ticking in the room. And the room shakes a bit, wooden furniture rattling, as each and every candle flickers out. And Lucifer continues despite it all, because he still sees the dull-blue eyes in his head, which made him on-edge, and he was just so desperate to fix it. And he stops speaking, ends the ritual, and the room stops moving, and all is silent. And the sound of a beating heart fills the room.

🌹Ouran High School Host Club🌹

Maple Cookies

Rating: T Paring: Kaoru/Kyoya Word count: 6k As Kaoru waited for someone to answer the door, he twirled the strings on his hoodie around his finger, and suddenly realized that he was very underdressed for this occasion. This day could only end well. In which Kaoru is anxious of meeting Kyoya’s family, Fuyumi is excited to meet her brother’s boyfriend, Kyoya is slowly dying from embarrassment, Yuuichi just wants to show Kaoru that his family isn’t all that bad, and Akito is protective over his baby brother (and Yoshio thinks his youngest son might be gay).

Broken (On Going)

Rating: T Pairing: Gen (Kyoya & Host Club) Word count: 2.8k Kyoya knew what he was doing. He knew how live out on the streets. It wasn’t easy, of course not, but he knew what he was doing; he know how to survive. But of course a man and his daughter offered (well, more liked forced him) to let him stay at their place. But hey, it was a roof over his head, so he shouldn’t complain. But what he didn’t expect was to be bombarded by six other high schoolers, all curious of who exactly he is and want to be friends with him–something of which he will complain about. What he hates most is that he has a feeling that his past life, one before a life on the streets, something he forgot long ago, is catching up to him.

🥼Pokémon🥼

Just Want One More Moment With You

Rating: T Pairing: Lysandre/Sycamore Word count: 1.3k CWs: Alcohol Abuse Lysandre was gone, and Serena wanted to see how Sycamore was taking the news. He was not handling the news very well, to say the least.

Open Up To Me (So I Can Help)

Rating: G Paring: Archie/Maxie (Pre-Relationship) Word count: 1.7k “Jeez, what happened to your face?” Maxie didn’t answer, only just gave him a glare. “Are you going to let me inside or what?” Or, Maxie comes over to Archie’s house slightly hurt, and Archie takes care of him.

A Few More Minutes

Rating: G Pairing: Lysandre/Sycamore Word count: 690 In which Sycamore works too much, and Lysandre forces him to sleep.

Please Don’t Leave Me

Rating: T Pairing: Lysandre/Sycamore Word count: 6.7k It was easy to feign all these emotions; to pretend to care, and say the right words and do the right acts at just the right time. He had fun doing it, too. “Professor, Calem and I are going after him–he’s in Geosenge right now! He’s gonna activate the Ultimate Weapon!” Sycamore gave a nod. “You kids go on, I’ll catch up!” And as the kids ran out of the building, Sycamore couldn’t help but give a small, devilish grin, and followed the kids. This was going to be interesting. ~~~ In which Sycamore is apart of Team Flare from the very beginning.

🍄Super Mario🍄

↳ Friends

Rating: G Pairing: Gen (Mimi & Mr. L | Luigi) Word count: 3.4k Mimi is happy to have someone she can call a friend. Although, a small part of her is worried that she lost said friend after everything that happened. Now that Mr. L–Luigi–had his memories back and knew who he was, why would he want to hang out with her anymore?

Time to Rest

Rating: G Pairing: Gen (Kamek & Ludwig)  Word count: 3.2k After the events of everything that had happened in Beanbean Kingdom and with the witch Cackletta, Kamek is left to pick up the pieces. Luckily it isn’t too difficult, but he would really like for Ludwig to finally wake up right about now.

↳ Heart Melts (You Meant So Well) (On Going)

Rating: T Pairing: Luigi/Peasley Word count: 17.4k Luigi was invited by Prince Peasley to come and stay at the Beanbean Kingdom, so that he can attend the grand Woven Hearts Festival; a festival held every ten years by the royal family. But, while Luigi is there, problems start to arise. More and more of them come up in the kingdom, but it’s fine, because Luigi is a hero, and he could solve just about any problem that he faced. And with Peasley by his side, he could do just about anything. Everything was going to be fine, and Luigi couldn’t be happier. Because he could fix any problem, right? Things were going to be fine. Just fine.

💉Team Fortress 2💉

↳ Once More, With Needles

Rating: T Pairing: Gen (Medic & Scout) Word count: 4.3k CWs: Canon-Typical Gore, Body Horror He was bored out of his mind–hell, he wouldn’t even mind having someone to dissect; just open them up a little bit, poke around a bit, until his boredom was cured by something else. Thankfully, his favorite patient knocked on the open door before letting himself in. “I hope I am not interrupting anything?” he asked. “Good! Because I need a medical professional to look at something for me–a bit of a problem in my hand, you see.” ~~~ In which Engie-Med fucks up not one, but both his hands. Medi-Scout is not amused by this. (for @/a-scary-lack-of-common-sense’s Job Switcheroo AU!)

🐢🐢TMNT (2012)🐢🐢

nothing...

for now :)

[tessiete]

One Hell of a Fanfic

So, completely unbeknownst to me, the podcast One Hell of a Fanfic took the time to read and discuss my fic The Eternal Spring. It’s an older fic – I think my first real foray into SW as an author – and it shows. But the wonderful hosts, Steph and Lauren, found it, read it, and talked about it here.

This new podcast focuses on SW fic exclusively, and is an absolute delight to listen to. As a reader, it gives you insight into the experience of reading the story and introduces you to work you might have missed. And as an author…wow.

It’s like when someone leaves you an essay in your comment section. Chef’s kiss.

Anyway, because I love to talk about process and intent, and because I love to talk about stories, and because while listening to this episode I had so many moments of “YES BUT DID YOU SEE THE BIT WHERE I –” I’ve decided to write up a little response going into detail about what Lauren and Steph discovered while reading The Eternal Spring.

I’ll try and organise it, too, by sort of keeping to the five categories they break their episodes into. So here goes:

CANON

Right off the bat, this section made me question everything about myself, my writing, and what on earth I was doing. Both Lauren and Steph mentioned how incredibly deep the lore is, how many Easter Eggs I included, and how I blended canon, Legends, and fanon into a unique lore of its own.

This is wild to me because I’d never thought of that.

Listen, I’ve got a very complicated relationship with canon. I treat it as equal to Legends, and fanon. To my mind, it’s no better, no more real, no more accurate than Legends is, or even fanon. In fact, I’m of the opinion that fanon occasionally has the absolute best take on a character.

For instance, Obi-Wan having precognitive dreams. Sorry, that’s real to me. That’s true. 

And you’ll see this come up as a given in my work all the time. I hardly even think about it anymore. So that’s one way in which these different sources are pulled together – unconsciously.

However, I won’t deny there was conscious reference to two fan works specifically. Those being Tatooine Slave Culture (created by fialleril), and more significantly the Lineage series (Jedi Apprentice rewrites by ruth baulding). I am a huge Jedi Apprentice fan, and a huge ruth baulding fan. I know JA especially has its haters, but I love it (for reasons I will not go into here for the sake of HA! brevity).

I know TSC especially has faced controversy in the past for appropriation and insensitivity, though admittedly, I was unaware of that at the time of writing this story. I had just entered the fandom much like a bull enters a china shop. I made a lot of missteps. That said, I don’t think I use TSC culture with any significant overstep in this story (as it is largely only referenced by people outside of the culture), and so while I probably wouldn’t do it again, I don’t feel it’s detrimental in this case.

Ruth Baulding, however, is perfect. While the Lineage series is extremely whump-heavy (heads up should you go looking), there is one story in particular where Obi-Wan and Qui-Gon visit The Stewardship of Terajon (StewJon) and encounter Obi-Wan’s birth family. While Qui-Gon handles it with a quiet and permissive grace, Obi-Wan is reflexively defensive and hostile, especially when he finds out that SPOILERS his family is on the opposite side of the conflict. They do no support the Republic, while Obi-Wan has dedicated his life to it. Qui-Gon recognises that their reasons are legitimate and ideologies are not so black and white as good and evil. Obi-Wan, however, cannot reconcile the idea that his family are so-called traitors. They end up finding an uneasy peace where Obi-Wan tells his parents that Qui-Gon is and has always been a father to him, and Obi-Wan’s mother makes him promise that if he ever needs help he will ask her for it.

I really wanted to write a story where he does that.

Partly because I wanted to depict an Obi-Wan who had grown into a maturity that could handle shades of grey, especially in politics, and partly because this story is so much about parents and their children, absence and presence and legacy, that I felt Ue, his mother, needed to be there for it.

Side note: I will forever cling to ruth baulding's conjecture that Obi-Wan is named for the obiwan flowers that grow on Stewjon. IRL our obiwan flowers look similar to how she describes them!

As for Qui-Gon and his love of plants – I don’t know.

I think this is a blend of fanon and Legends that I’ve once again just taken on board as fact, and only with this podcast am I compelled to examine it.

Though recently contradicted by LFL canon (In CG’s Master&Apprentice), fanon loooooong held that Obi-Wan was the one with a connection to prophecy and Qui-Gon was Master of Living in the Moment. I really love the tension this creates between them, and that’s why I keep it.

To that end, Qui-Gon is very frequently depicted in fanon as being Super Into Plants. He’s like, the Order’s #1 Plant Dad. His rooms are full of plants, and he is deeply connected to the Living Force.

In the Jedi Apprentice novels, Obi-Wan is almost sent to live as a farmer in the AgriCorps, and he is convinced he’d be a terrible farmer.

I kind of connected these two dots to suggest that much as Obi-Wan still ends up on Tatooine, he also still ends up a farmer. Qui-Gon taught him the horticulture he was so afraid of finding on Bandomeer, and Tatooine sees him eventually relying on those skills for survival. 

This ties into one of the things I wanted to grapple with in this fic. Free will vs. Destiny. I think, ultimately, this story’s perspective on it is that destiny = destination. You are always going to the same place. But the journey itself is free will. How you get there, which path you take, and what you learn from it – that’s all on you. 

And if we believe that it’s not about the destination, but the journey, then isn’t that the same as free will after all?

Anyway. 

That said, Steph and Lauren point out several times that this complex mingling of lore leads to much confusion AND that if you’re not acquainted with even something as (to me) ubiquitous as The Clone Wars, then much of it won’t land.

On the one hand, this is intentional. I love Easter Eggs, but I’m staunchly of the opinion that Easter Eggs aren’t meant to be found by everyone. They’re for the dedicated readers, the hyperfixaters, the deep-divers, the re-readers. I think Easter Eggs aren’t PointingLeos so much as they are sly winks, and things that make returning to a story rewarding. Every time you come back, you find something new. They’re meant to increase the longevity of novelty. And that’s how I try to use them.

THAT SAID I 100% TOOK IT FOR GRANTED THAT EVERYONE HAS THE SAME KNOWLEDGE BASE AS I DO.

In retrospect, that’s ridiculous. This is what I mean by saying they made me question my whole approach to fic. I didn’t think that TCW was a deep-cut. I didn’t think that Siri Tachi and her mandrangea beans were unknown, or that Obi-Wan loving muja fruit was obscure.

And that’s on me. That’s my bad. Because objectively, Lauren and Steph are absolutely right. That is so much information to expect a reader to have as a baseline, and dramatically decreases the size of the demographic I’m reaching.

Do I regret it? ….nnnooooo?

But I will absolutely be more mindful of that in the future. I think that’s a hugely important lesson for me to take from this. It’s not just a “My perspective isn’t everyone’s perspective” but a “Not everyone has been hyperfixating on the exact shade of orange in a Tatooine sunset since they were five, please provide some context thank you”.

EXPANDING THE LORE

Okay, I really wanted to address this, because in a previous episode, Lauren and Steph discuss World Without End by disasterisms. Specifically, they mention their love of mythology and how interesting it is that WWE is a retelling of the Hades/Persephone story.

And it had me frantically raising my hand like a pick-me!

So, fun fact, The Eternal Spring is also based on a Greek myth. Specifically, the myth of Psyche and Eros. In the original story, Psyche marries Eros but swears never to look on his face. She can’t deal with the curiosity however, and one night as he’s sleeping, she holds her torch over his head to get a look. He’s beautiful. But oil from her lamp drips onto him and he wakes, fleeing until she atones for her crime by completing a series of Impossible Tasks.

I love Impossible Tasks.

And more, I loooove hanging my stories on the preexisting structures of other works.

The Forlorn Queen is a long-form poem I wrote that is meant to be a Nabooian version of Psyche and Eros. In it, the unnamed Queen is assigned four Impossible Tasks that all correlate to the tasks of Psyche.

Sort seeds from sand

Retrieve the Golden Fleece

Collect water from a sacred spring

Steal the Beauty of Perspephone 

In the fic, these are played out by Padme in variously metaphorical ways. In the first, she literally has to sort the seeds from the sand after a sandstorm destroys their burgeoning garden. But more than re-enacting this myth, each task is meant to explore some emotional challenge in how she copes and reconciles her grief.

Sorting seeds from sand is a metaphor for her sorting out her priorities. What is alive still? What is worth saving? How closely she has to examine the sand, how long it takes, how tedious it is – this is all a reflection of her looking at her own life, her own struggles, and sorting out what she needs vs. what she wants.

Likewise, she retrieves the Golden Fleece/Golden Scale (saves Boil from the chip and his own lack of purpose, his transformation symbolised by him painting his armour [his scales] gold and taking on Padme’s commission, which is also the Mandalorian colour for vengeance). By sending Boil after Obi-Wan she is bringing water to the goddess (relief to Obi-Wan). And finally, the task that Psyche fails is the one Padme fails, also – at least, she cannot do it alone. This is about the acceptance of death and the loss of youth. This is Padme not joining the rebellion, and Obi-Wan reconciling with Qui-Gon.

Greek myths don’t directly correspond with symbolism as we understand it today, so yeah, I had to do a bit of research and even more extrapolation to get these tasks to mean more than simply Things To Accomplish, but that was always the intent. This story was always a myth – just as Revenge of the Sith (esp. As written by Matthew Stover) is explicitly Greek in its framing as a tragedy.

WHEW! Onto the fun stuff!

CHARACTERS

The thing that struck me most here was Lauren and Steph’s breakdown of small action vs. big action, and how they both agreed that it was sometimes difficult to follow and occasionally off-putting. Small action is the emotional conflicts deeply examined, while big action is like, the pew-pews.

They are totally correct in their assessment.

I could say that I think this is something that the OT and PT especially do. A New Hope, especially, spends what modern audiences would consider a loooong time without any significant Big Action, and the PT really struggles with pacing. It’s something sort of inherent to SW, and I really wanted this fic to feel like SW. It wasn’t entirely unintentional on my part to give you a lot of small action and then suddenly drop in big action…

Buuuuuuut it wasn’t entirely intentional, either.

You know, in writing this fic, I was constantly, constantly afraid it was incredibly boring. You can see it in my ANs. The small action is what I live for, but I was scared no one would want to read it if I stayed there.

So I think this is honestly more a reflection of my own insecurity than it is a deliberate reflection of Star Wars itself.

Again, a lesson. And something to keep in mind!

OMG ALL THAT NONSENSE! If you’re still here, well, I got more!

FAVOURITE SCENES

Qui’s ghost

I am so happy Lauren loved this scene. This was the scene that I first envisioned, this was the scene that I was always writing towards, this scene, to me, is what Star Wars is all about.

And yes, I am actually George Lucas.

For more wild speculations of mine that have since been canonized by LFL please see Only Hope (including, weirdly, Mandalorians being super into culture soups…so…HMU Kathleen!)

But yeah, I love Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan. When I was writing this story I was deep into the QuiObi fandom, and I just really loved any and every expression of love and intimacy between them (platonic or otherwise).

Again going back to Legends, for me, I always loved the idea that Obi-Wan is frequently driven by his desire to be good for Qui-Gon. A good padawan, a good knight, a good Jedi. A good person. In JA he has to beg to be his padawan, and never really seems to feel like he measures up to Qui-Gon’s expectations. He wasn’t wanted and he worries that Qui-Gon’s disinterest in him never changed.

To me, it’s very obvious that Qui-Gon does want him. Very early on. But to a young teen, and someone so deeply insecure as Obi-Wan, it’s hard to see. 

I LOVE THAT TENSION.

And I felt Obi-Wan really needed his dad to give him a hug at the end of it all.

The idea that Qui-Gon has always been with Obi-Wan is…I mean, I think that’s just intrinsic to their story. It’s weird because I can see how it looks like I “Just Knew” but I think everyone knew because it’s sort of the inevitable conclusion to their journey together. Qui-Gon literally defies death in order to be with Obi-Wan. I can’t think of any greater expression of love and devotion than that…and yet, Obi-Wan still needs it spelled out for him.

ANYWAY I COULD TALK ABOUT THEM ALL DAY I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. I’m very happy it made you two cry.

KORKIE IS A KENOBI

Look, I’m not even being ironic about it anymore. I love Korkie Kenobi. I believe in Korkie Kenobi. Korkie Kenobi is the best, most under-utilised, over-disparaged, misunderstood storyline that Star Wars never took.

As I briefly mentioned before, this story is really about parents and their kids. It was not an indulgence but an acute necessity that Korkie be a Kenobi in this fic. I’m not saying that because I love the theory (though I do), but because thematically it is imperative that Obi-Wan sees himself as a son, a brother, and a father. That he understand he is part of a family of blood, of duty, of choice, of circumstance. That he knows he is connected to the Force, to the world, and to the people around him. That we all are. That we owe ourselves to the people around us. That nothing ends, and everything continues. 

That absence is not oblivion. 

And Korkie specifically fits into that theme in the way he and Obi-Wan are connected despite Obi-Wan’s own ignorance. He is biologically present (by blood), he is spiritually present (in Korkie’s Force sensitivity), and he is emotionally present (in the way Korkie was raised watching him, being inspired by him, holding him up as a model of bravery and integrity – despite Obi-Wan not physically being there to parent him, he still was formative in Korkie’s emotional development and, to me, that’s massively important).

I really, really dislike the notion that Korkie being Obi-Wan’s son inherently frames Obi-Wan as a neglectful and dead-beat parent. What a small way to look at someone’s impact on others. What a cruel way to frame purpose, duty, and obligation. What a sexist way to ignore Satine’s importance and capability. What a mean way to dismiss the experiences of so many readers and people who grew up in single-parent homes for whatever reason.

My mum works in medicine. She missed a lot of school concerts, a lot of bedtimes, a lot of birthdays because she was SAVING LIVES. My dad explained this to me as a small child, and even as a small child, I understood. I got it. Kids aren’t dumb, and I knew a lot of kids in similar situations – we’re not traumatised.

Never mind the kids who had a parent die, or deployed, or transferred. It’s hard to be a parent, and yes, some parents are uninterested and dead-beats. But that neglect is not defined by their absence.

PERSONAL PET PEEVE EXORCISED THROUGH KORKIE

I tried to really connect things here by having Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan mirror Obi-Wan and Korkie. Just as Obi-Wan was simultaneously present and absent in Korkie’s life, so too is Qui-Gon present and absent in Obi-Wan’s.

There’s a little moment where Obi-Wan’s mother, Ue, reassures Korkie that he’s wanted. Obi-Wan will not reject him. She tells him, “You are not a consequence, or a punishment, aso-aso,” she murmurs. “And I don't see that any parent could hold you any less than the very best of all beloved things.”

Then, at the end of the story, Qui-Gon uses the same words telling Obi-Wan, “Never think, my dearest Ben, that you are anything less than best beloved of my very heart.”

(“Best Beloved” btw is very much stolen from Kipling)

As for him taking the Kenobi name – hey man, we need more Kenobis.

But I love the bravery it takes because, as the hosts mention, it puts a big target on his back in a galaxy where the most powerful Force user is constantly on the look out for Kenobi.

And, in fact, if you’re curious, I explored the possibility of Vader finding Korkie first here: Or Else I Shall Be Lost

HERE there was also another lesson: 

Steph and Lauren discussed the revelation of Korkie’s Force Sensitivity, and how it was confusing until the very end when I explicitly commented on it.

I TOTALLY DIDN’T REALIZE THIS WAS CONFUSING because mostly, I didn’t realise that I was writing a mystery.

BUT I WAS! Holy heck! I’m honestly surprised. Another like, surprising reframing of my own intentions and process. Because looking back, they’re totally right.

Kind of in line with using lore I like without explanation or justification, I also like referencing things I as the author know to be true but without actually telling the audience. In this case, I used wild coincidence as a thin cover for Force sensitivity, not revealing that had been intentional until the end.

Of course, in my head I was like, “Ha! Another clue! They’ll be putting this puzzle together by now” without accounting for the fact that I never told anyone there was a puzzle to begin with.

Not sure how I’ll address that in future fic, but it’s…it’s really something to think about. Is it a mystery if you don’t tell your audience something needs to be investigated? 

NUMA REFERENCE

I honestly can’t remember, but I think Kano is canon….or Legends…and was there on Ryloth. I love using clones that make sense, even if they’re lesser known. It makes me feel less like someone’s got plot armour and more that they were lucky which was also why I used Boil. I know, having been in fandom for ages now, that fandom would’ve preferred Cody be the clone to find Padme on Tatooine and go after Obi-Wan, but like…

Look, I’m super proud that fandom has made Cody the character he is, but canonically, most of that doesn’t exist.

Canonically, the clones assigned to cover Obi-Wan’s back are Waxer and Boil.

And I think Waxer dies, right? So the only clone that made sense to me, as a fandom newbie, was Boil. It had to be Boil.

And his relationship with Numa cemented that. Because Numa is – in a way – his daughter. The same way Leia is. She is the inheritor of whatever is left after the war. Numa lives, but what of Ryloth? Did she survive the rest?

I think that moment is the one, uncomplicated victory that Boil looks back on to ground himself. He can look at Ryloth and think “We did the right thing” because after that, everything gets complicated. And that’s the thing that convinces Kano to help them, also. The desire to believe they’ve done good. Simple, uncomplicated good.

QUESTIONS

Okay, I really wanted to address this next part – Lauren and Steph were so unconvinced that Padme would stay on Tatooine and not join the Rebellion.

You guys, I was SCREAMING!

And again, they weren’t wrong. I can totally see how they came to that conclusion, how Padme’s choice felt OOC and wrong, and how it does contradict everything we know of her from canon.

And while I have no intention of changing their interpretations of canon, or of my fic I sooooo want to discuss it from my POV. And you know what, again – my bad for not articulating it in a clear enough way. I would probably rewrite this scene if I were to do it again.

Because that contradiction is the point.

This isn’t what Padme would choose. Like she says, she thinks about it. She thinks about going to Bail. That’s her first thought.

But, this fic is meant to show why she can’t.

It’s not that the destination has changed, but she has.

Technically, this fic takes place over the course of a full year. It’s vaguely charted in the growth of the twins (again, tess, you can’t just assume everyone knows baby milestones). At the beginning, Padme is in a state of shock. And so is Obi-Wan…

Let’s get into the kiss.

In a fit of just, complete upset, Padme slaps Obi-Wan. And then she kisses him. She says she hates him. And he does nothing.

This takes place about thhhhhreeeeeeeee??? Months into their time on Tatooine, and for this whole time, Obi-Wan has really done nothing but exist on a cursory, polite surface level. He smiles because it is expected. He farms because he must. He wakes up and functions but he says absolutely nothing about what they’ve gone through.

And Padme cannot stand it anymore.

She feels like she’s on her own. And she tries to make him react. In this, I really wanted to show just how well suited Anakin and Padme were to each other. She likes Obi-Wan. She’s glad he’s with her, but she needs to see him hurt. Because she hurts.  She absolutely takes it WAY TOO FAR.

Obi-Wan turns inward in his pain. Padme explodes outward.

Well, she wants to.

But she CAN’T. Because she has the twins.

Obi-Wan gets to be an automaton, but Padme has to be a mother. She has to engage with Beru and Owen. She has to negotiate at the market. She has to feed, and clothe, and raise her children. She has to BE PRESENT ALL THE TIME. She doesn’t get to be numb.

Is it a comment on the division of emotional labour between men and women? Yyyyyes? But not in a derogatory way. Obi-Wan went through the same thing when Anakin was little and Qui-Gon died, but the difference is this time, Obi-Wan doesn’t have the purpose Padme has. She has the twins. Obi-Wan feels he is entirely superfluous.

This is all related to those messy emotions Lauren and Steph mentioned and which I really love to write. People – even good people – can be ugly. I love it. I truly believe there are no bad emotions, no bad traits. Everything evolved to keep you alive, to protect you. Obi-Wan protects himself with little cruelties. Padme lashes out.

I’m so happy the I hate you moment hit! I thought it was so sick. Had to do it. 

And emotions are also inconsistent, even if motivation or ideology remains stable. So like, the part where Padme looks at Obi-Wan sleeping and is very empathetic – she’s still centering herself. She’s looking at him from the perspective of a mother, and imagining his mother. She is kind and generous in her assessment of him and his suffering here, and at other times, but…

She’s very conscious of it. Obi-Wan is vulnerable in sleep. It’s easy to be kind then. And later, she has all of Anakin’s insight into Obi-Wan, and a lot more patience than Anakin ever had. She understands how Obi-Wan copes. She lets him do what he needs to.

But MONTHS pass. And she’s so tired of carrying it all. She runs out of patience.

Anyway. 

Anakin betrays them. And Padme can do nothing.

Obi-Wan leaves. And Padme can do nothing.

Padme is so frequently stripped of agency by circumstance, and you’re right – in canon, she fights that! She leaps into the fray and takes control.

But she has twins now. Her purpose, but also her burden.

She can’t join the Rebellion. Where would they go? How would they live? Who would take care of Luke and Leia?

If they go to Alderaan, they put a huge target on Bail and intense scrutiny on the Rebellion. They also bring themselves into direct contact with the Empire. If Vader got even a hint that Padme lived he would not stop until she was in his custody. If he knew he had kids? If he knew they were with Obi-Wan? It’s way too dangerous. They are a huge liability. She is a huge liability.

As Luke says, if there’s a bright spot in the galaxy then Tatooine is the place that’s furthest from it.

Tatooine is SAFE. Vader won’t go there, and the Empire doesn’t care about it. Is it run by the Hutts? Yeah. But better Hutts than the Empire, especially because the Hutts don’t care about the little people living day to day. Padme can give the kids a quiet, boring life on Tatooine. She can keep them safe.

And as she sorted the seeds from the sand in chapter one, THAT is her priority. Her kids. They have no one else, and furthermore, if their existence were known they would be targeted, captured, and killed – or worse. She wants to join the Rebellion. She would. But she can’t because she needs to keep Luke and Leia safe.

While Obi-Wan’s reason for staying on Tatooine is a passing on of legacy, and setting down the burden of war (he’s done his time), Padme’s reason for staying is a reassessment of her priorities. Hers is a maturation of responsibility. Sometimes, we can’t do what we want. It sucks. But we’re adults.

“Living in Squalor” though made me LAAAAAAUGH! You’re so right. 

Oh my gosh, she’s tandem carrying! That’s the term. Hahahaha, yeah, poor girl. Lots of tandem carrying, but once Obi-Wan’s back, they’re basically a two-parent household. Plus, the fic sees them building that community. There’s Korkie, there’s Boil, there’s Beru and Owen. Padme screams at Obi-Wan that she’s alone, but by the end she’s not.

And like, in terms of practicality, I think Owen? Obi-Wan? I think there’s mention of them “digging out the cellar”. The idea is that more than half the house is buried, but once they dig out the cellar and reinforce the walls down there, there’s a significant chunk of living space they can utitilise (ie. at least one, if not two bedrooms underground where it’s cooler like we see in the Lars house in ANH).

But yeah, babies in the haffa chest for now!

QUAINT CABIN NOT SQUALOR! 

Lastly, Owen and Beru! Ahahahahaha, I’m so happy Lauren and Steph were charmed by them. And I love their insight on the inversion of protection. In canon, Obi-Wan is there protecting them, but in Eternal Spring, the Lars’ are very much protecting Obi-Wan (and Padme). I thought that was really insightful. God, I love clever readers!

I just quickly wanted to touch on Owen’s grudge against Obi-Wan because yeah, it’s totally silly. I imagine Owen as being very typically masculine, and Tatooine culture being pretty big into gender-roles, though the expression of those roles may not fall directly in line with gender presentation (but that’s another topic).

Anyway, Owen is a dude’s dude. A guy’s guy. You know - a Man™. 

And Obi-Wan is………SO SOFT.

This dude comes into Owen’s house with Trauma. He’s soft-spoken, and polite. He doesn’t speak much, and when he does it’s with a cut-glass accent that sounds so out of place. He listens without interrupting, he doesn’t make ribald jokes. 

And he’s got magic powers.

There are ten thousand Jedi in the entire galaxy. Owen met Anakin once, and he went off the deep end.

Obi-Wan freaks him out. He’s so weird. He is not the kind of person Owen knows how to deal with, and he’s certainly not the kind of guy Owen can relate to. And Beru says to be gentle. Gentle? On Tatooine?

As we see when he’s coaching Padme, Owen doesn’t believe that gentleness or mercy have any place out here. 

The secret is, Owen’s SUPER SOFT underneath. And Beru knows this. Hence why she keeps encouraging Owen to take care of Obi-Wan, to bring him out to mingle with other people. Beru sees that Obi-Wan is collapsing in on himself, and is trying to get Owen to draw him out.

When he nearly dies, Owen is more angry that they almost died. Not at Obi-Wan. Obi-Wan is just a convenient punching bag because he doesn’t punch back. If he did, Owen would know how to respond – he’d buy him a drink, and shake his hand.

I think, underneath, Owen really likes Obi-Wan (and we see this at the end when he’s jealous that Obi-Wan went to visit his blood brother, AtasOWEN – an alternate Owen, and also a reference to the old Legends lore that Owen Lars was Kenobi’s half-brother). Owen wants to be Obi-Wan’s family, and he gives him the gift of brotherhood (he tells the whole town that they’re related to protect him, yes, but also because he’s claiming that title). It’s very much one of those “Hey! No one gets to pick on my idiot brother, except me!”

The same way he is gruff and blunt to Luke in ANH, Owen is the same way with Obi-Wan. “Too much of his father in him.” Too much of Anakin in everyone for Owen’s taste. 

But that, again, is on the author to make clear! All these lessons. I’m so thankful that I had this opportunity to listen to such a generous and in-depth analysis of my fic. It’s been fun, informative, and genuinely really instructive in the most supportive and uplifting way.

I highly recommend everyone check out One Hell of a Fanfic here, or on Spotify. Thank you so much for reading my fic, and until next time…

May the Force be with you!

[wolint]

MENTORSHIP

MENTORSHIP

2 Timothy 2:1-2

 

Mentorship! So many meanings and so many expectations! What does mentorship mean? Mentorship is the relationship between two people where the more experienced person, known as the mentor, imparts knowledge, guidance, and advice to a less experienced individual, referred to as the mentee. The mentor provides valuable insights, helps navigate challenges, and contributes to the mentee’s personal and career development, with the aim of enhancing the mentee’s skills, understanding, and professional growth within a specific field.

The Bible doesn’t use the word “mentor,” but the principle of mentorship is littered across the pages and stories of the Bible, with the first one found in Exodus 18, where Moses was mentored by his father-in-law Jethro, first as a son-in-law and then as a leader.

Simply put, a mentor should be a wise and trusted person!

Paul used a lot of illustrations in 2 Timothy 2:2-26 to tell us what a leader or a “mentor” should look like and unfortunately, it doesn’t look like what the world or the church for that matter wants it to be like.

Paul said a mentor must be a teacher, a productive one. As loyal as a soldier. Like a disciplined athlete. A hardworking farmer. A diligent worker, a Godly vessel, and a submissive servant of God. These are all portraits of a leader and by rote a mentor according to Paul.

Jesus, in Matthew 16:24, illustrates who and what a mentor should be and do.

Yet, we have a mentality of mentorship today that doesn’t align with God’s word or scriptural principles in any way. Christian mentorship is a process that should fully be dependent on submission to Christ. Neither the mentor nor the mentee controls the relationship and certainly not for personal gain like we see today.

Mentorship is not so that a “father/mother” in the Lord can lord it over another, tell them what to do, how to do it and who to associate with and approve them to do what God has already called them to do. Some mentors even go as far as to ask their mentee to see their mentor’s mentor as “spiritual grandparent,” this is unscriptural and completely out of character, see 1 Peter 5:1-3. You are responsible with choosing your mentor; someone you trust and expect to guide you wisely, and be a role model to you.

Mentorship is relationship and connection based as seen with Ruth and Naiomi in Ruth.

Mentorship is a powerful way to pass on wisdom according to Proverbs 9:9. Philippians 2:9a says “Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me or seen in me—put it into practice”. But are today’s mentors doing this? No!

Mentors want their mentees to follow them blindly, without question and be zombies in doing whatever they tell them to.

To be a mentor, is to influence how a mentee lives, works, and does their best to fulfil their destiny.

If you have a relationship with Christ, are living in community and are growing in your faith, you can come alongside others and point them to Jesus. Mentors should not always think they are experts and superior while mentees should never believe that they are inferior and unknowledgeable and never expect more than scripturally stipulated from their mentors.

A mentor must be an upstanding person. To be a mentor, you do not have to be perfect, have all the Bible knowledge or ministry experience, or even have a particular personality. But you must have a willing heart and a desire to pass on to someone else what God has done in their life. A Christian mentor must depend on the word and spirit of God to wisely help, sharpen as stated in Proverbs 27:17, anyone they mentor. Mentorship is not for personal gain but for spiritual growth and expansion.

PRAYER: Lord, God, help me to make disciples of anyone who needs my support, and to show them what and how you show me Jesus’ name. Amen.

Shalom

WOMEN OF LIGHT INT. PRAYER MIN.

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Films I've watched in 2023

(This list will be continously updated. For films 1-99 plus the link to last year's list, see this post.)

Click on the film title to see the post.

100 - 119

October:

🎬 "Tribadenes natt" (1978) - Magne Bleness

🎬 "Helmer og Sigurdson: Saken Ruth Vang" (1981) - Morten Kolstad

🎬 "Kolleksjonen" (1963) - Pål Løkkeberg

🎬 "Landskap" (1974) - Sverre Udnæs

🎬 "Unnskyld hvis jeg forstyrrer" (1975) - Sverre Udnæs

🎬 "Møte i parken" (1974) - Bo Hermansson

November:

🎬 "Pretty Baby" (1977) - Louis Malle

🎬 "Choose Me" (1984) - Alan Rudolph

🎬 "Backfire" (1987) - Gilbert Cates

🎬 "Montserrat" (1974) - Otto Homlung

🎬 "Evas øye" (1999) - Berit Nesheim

🎬 "Labyrinth" (1986) - Jim Henson

December:

🎬 "California Suite" (1978) - Herbert Ross

🎬 "Soapdish" (1991) - Michael Hoffman

🎬 "The Adventure of Sherlock Holmes' Smarter Brother" (1975) - Gene Wilder

🎬 "För att inte tala om alla dessa kvinnor" (1964) - Ingmar Bergman

🎬 "Bröllopsbesvär" (1964) - Åke Falck

🎬 "De dødes tjern" (1958) - Kåre Bergstrøm

🎬 "Ombyte av tåg" (1943) - Hasse Ekman

🎬 "Lena" (2021) - Isabel Andersson

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[soulsuckrrs]

open to: m/f/anyone plot: After a long day of traveling y/m & Ruth have finally settled at a hotel when something makes y/m rush into Ruth's room (maybe they got a threat or something startled them or they just wanted to see him) just after he's gotten out of the shower. hmu to plot if you want, this can really go anywhere! connection: client or person who hired him (he's a bodyguard), someone else in his security detail, son/daughter/spouse of his employer, idk whatever works~

"Hold on a fucking minute," Ruth said with a bit of irritation to his tone as he put up his index finger towards the other with one hand while the other held the towel wrapped around his waist in place. Blue eyes scanned the bed for his phone before he picked it up and unlocked it, searching the device for any notifications that something was wrong or amiss.

Steam filtered out of the open bathroom door and off his hot, wet skin, beads of water dripped from his hair as he scanned his phone. Finding nothing Ruth furrowed his brow and glanced back at the other, perplexed and concerned. "-- what happened?" He didn't mind if something was actually wrong but they'd really only been a few seconds away from seeing him more naked than he already was.

Ruth glanced over them briefly, shifting back a few steps towards the window where he barely lifted the curtain to peer outside and check the mostly empty parking lot, his eyes returning to the other once he was satisfied nothing was strange or off outside. He shook his head, the cool air of the ac turning on making his still wet skin prickle some.

[swldx]

RNZ Pacific 1308 8 Mar 2023

7390Khz 1259 8 MAR 2023 - RNZ PACIFIC (NEW ZEALAND) in ENGLISH from RANGITAIKI. SINPO = 45434. English, s/on w/bellbird int. until pips and news @1300z anchored by Koroi Hawkins. The initial estimate of the recovery cost following Vanuatu’s twin cyclone disaster is estimated at six billion vatu (US$50 million). Cyclones Judy and Kevin caused extensive damage and plunged parts of Vanuatu into a state of emergency. However, Prime Minister Ishmael Kalsakau said the true cost is yet to be determined. He said at the moment he is focused on reinstalling confidence back in the system. While communication in Port Vila is, for the most part, up and running, lines to other islands remain cut off. Former Fiji Prime Minister Frank Bainimarama has resigned from Parliament just two weeks after copping a three-year suspension for making seditious comments. The appointment of former Nauruan president Baron Waqa to the Pacific's most senior diplomatic posting has drawn criticism from human rights groups and former political opponents. Mr Waqa, who has a controversial record on human rights and press freedom, has been selected to lead the Pacific Islands Forum as secretary-general starting next year. The choice was part of a deal to bring Micronesian countries back into the fold after they threatened to leave the intergovernmental body in 2021. But there are already calls to reconsider Mr Waqa's appointment to the position, which was announced at a special meeting of Pacific leaders last week. In her speech to mark International Women's Day on Wednesday the Samoa Prime Minister, Fiame Naomi Mataafa, spoke of the benefits that would accrue from gender equality. She said less than seven percent of women are national leaders when Sustainable Development Goal No 5 says gender equality means ensuring full and effective participation and equal opportunities for leadership. A new, university-wide platform is gearing up for launch in April with a goal to build Pacific research leadership and excellence. It will act as a landing place and home for all Pacific researchers at Waipapa Taumata Rau. Commentators have been calling for the Commerce Commission to step in and investigate bank profits, with one campaigner finding banks were making $2000 a year per New Zealander in profit with mortgage margins four times higher than in the UK. Former Labour minister Ruth Dyson has admitted she has not read the code of conduct governing her position as a Crown entity board member. The revelation comes after fresh attention on Dyson's tweets promoting Labour and attacking the National Party despite a requirement she remain politically neutral. North Korean leader Kim Jong Un probably will test a nuclear device again in his drive to build a nuclear arsenal that he sees as "the ultimate guarantor" of his rule. Kim also is likely to continue firing nuclear-capable missiles in an effort to normalize Pyongyang's missile testing. It would be the first nuclear test by North Korea since 2017. Sports. @1308z "Pacific Waves" anchored by Lydia Lewis. Backyard fence antenna, Etón e1XM. 100kW, beamAz 35°, bearing 240°. Received at Plymouth, United States, 12912KM from transmitter at Rangitaiki. Local time: 0659.

[packedwithpackards]

Examining the sources of the Plymouth Colony Pages [Part 38]

F. Apthorp Foster, Vital Records of Weymouth Massachusetts to the Year 1850, 2 Vols. (Boston: New England Historic Genealogical Society, 1910).

This book has varying results for Packards including a page of marriages.

Charles H. Farnam, History of the Descendants of John Whitman of Weymouth, Mass. (New Haven, CT: Tuttle, Morehouse &Taylor, 1889).

There are 47 results for the surname Packard in this book. The results don't need to be listed here but can be noted.

Henry Edwards Scott, Vital Records of Windsor Massachusetts to the Year 1850 (Boston: New England Historic Genealogical Society, 1917.

This book had varying results for the Packards including births of:

"PACKARD, Welcome Tillson (Pack[a]rd), s. William H., farmer (b. Plainfield), and Rachel B. (b. Abington), Apr. 10, 1848"- page 48

Marriages of...

"Eunice [Hume] and Philander Packard of Cummington, Apr. 10, 1828. Harriet A. and Chauncey [int. Chauncy] Baldwin, May 17, 1837"- page 93

And other marriages on page 100:

PACKARD, Barnabus and Ruth Snow, July 23, 1818. Josiah of Plainfield and Clarinda Whitman, int. Apr. ii, 1840. Philander of Cummington and Eunice Hume, Apr. 10, 1828.

And even more on page 106:

Ruth [Snow] and Barnabus Packard, July 23, 1818.

And deaths in Windsor:

PACKARD, , ch. Zebulun, Mar. 26, 1800, a. i y. 8 m., C.R.

That's all, folks!

Notes

[1] The same is the case for an "Edward Packard,"  (this person) a "Rebeckah Packard" (this person) all with Packard as a middle name, along mention of a "Merez Packard." There is also a "Sally Packard Pool" living in Abington as well.

© 2018-2022 Burkely Hermann. All rights reserved.

Note: This was originally posted on Apr. 27, 2018 on the main Packed with Packards WordPress blog (it can also be found on the Wayback Machine here). My research is still ongoing, so some conclusions in this piece may change in the future.

[phantasymistart]

unfinished portrait of my own foul tarnished, Ruth Less

[mvsquerade]

closed to : @ruthleveen​​ location : frost fair time : december 19th, late afternoon

The actress and the lamplighter orbit each other, a smile traded here or a nod there, never fully colliding until now. There has been no reason to—though they walk the same streets at night, their paths are different. Still, the parallels can’t be denied, both carrying Whitechapel roots and tapped by the same man.

Shadowed beneath the lamplight, Zoya has seen the Thespian talk to Ruth before, his head bent towards her in that familiar way she recalled from over a decade ago. So he wants to be rid of her. Fine—she wants to be rid of him, too. But for another girl to take her place and be molded in his image once more is another matter entirely; she would not wish this cage on anyone.

A question arises: If you’d been warned, would you have listened? The answer: No.  If taking his hand meant holding a shining world in hers, she'd do it all over again.

But regardless of her own complicated relationship with the man she owes her career, Ruth seems nice. At least Polly has a friend their age. It’s this mutual connection she uses as she approaches Ruth with two mugs of apple cider. “You’re Polly’s friend, yeah?” she asks with a smile, holding one out to Ruth. “Here, if you want. The Britannia’s really outdone themselves this time.”

[laender001]

@seacret​​​​​​  as  ROSE DEWITT BUKATER    ♡    for    RUTH DEWITT BUKATER

❛❛      why    is    nothing    ever    good    enough    for    you?      ❜❜

[wolint]

THE FAITHFULNESS OF GOD

THE FAITHFULNESS OF GOD

Deuteronomy 7:9

 

Faithfulness is a combination of eighteen words according to the Strong’s talking Hebrew dictionary: it’s one of God’s attributes and character, along with truth, faithfully, office, faithful, faith, stability, steady, truly, and verily. God is completely trustworthy and faithful.

The faithfulness of God is a fact that God is always true to His character. One of the most powerful words to describe God’s character is the Hebrew word “Hesed.” Usually translated as “steadfast love.”  Our text reveals that God is full of compassion. If God is true to His character, we can count on His faithfulness for His children.

God stands in the place of absolute truth, from which His faithfulness flows.

Faithfulness is who God is and what He does. God does not decide to be faithful on a whim or because it seems like the right thing to do today or that it would be beneficial to Him or someone else. He is just faithful! The first thing we must understand about God’s faithfulness is that He will be ever faithful to His name, character, and Word from generation to generation according to Psalm 100:5, while Micah 7:20 maintain that Hod even swore to our ancestors to remain faithful. The faithfulness of God is deeply rooted in His personality and is an integral part of the Godhead.

All through the Bible, God shows us how faithful He is even in situations that seem unwarranted and unnecessary. 1 Samuel 15:29 says God, the Strength of Israel will not lie and what He has purposed, He will do, for He has all the power in heavens and earth; and he will not repent, change his purpose, concerning anything.

God often use unlikely people and circumstances to accomplish His work, like Ruth and Boaz, in the book of Ruth, who are perfect examples of God’s faithfulness. They were an unlikely couple, a middle-aged man and a Moabite widow turned Israelite.

God put His reputation on the line for the Israelites in Psalm 106:8, as He does with us always. God’s name reveals His consistent faithfulness with His reputation.

If everyone showed integrity in their dealings, we would not need a judicial system. Every agreement between parties, especially monetary agreement, as seen in 1 Kings 12:15, will not be broken, signed or unsigned.

What kind of reputation have you built with others over the years? Would people feel comfortable agreeing with you without a legal signed paper? Even if we have a good reputation, sometimes, someone comes along with a small, dissatisfied story that may call our integrity, trustworthiness, and honesty into question but not so with the Lord. There are no shades in His faithfulness. None!

Faithful alludes to "faith" in 2 Thessalonians 3:3, God alone could support and give victory; He promises to do it, and He is faithful to keep all His promises.

We may forget that Christianity is based on God’s faithfulness and not ours, but God’s faithfulness would continue to prevail over evil and strengthen us so that we may endure.

God remains faithful when we are not according to 2 Timothy 2:13, He cannot deny His faithfulness.

According to Psalm 100:5, God’s goodness is the perfect, eternal opposition to evil. Mercy and compassion are modifications of his goodness which is everlasting.

God’s faithfulness says “you can count on Me; I will not let you down.

God holds faithfulness up as one of the foundational qualities He expects from His people.

We must cultivate God’s faithfulness by being trustworthy.

It’s our privilege and responsibility to help everyone know of God’s compelling faithfulness and those who are faithful to the end will share in all God’s riches says Hebrew 3:14.

God is dependable and can be leaned on, so trust the faithfulness of God.

PRAYER: Thank you, Lord for your faithfulness towards me and your reliability. Help me to continually trust you with and in my life in Jesus’ name. Amen.

Shalom

WOMEN OF LIGHT INT PRAYER MIN.