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[izzyizumi]

Digimon Adventure/02/tri. ~ J.P.N Original Version + (A d o p t e e) Izumi Koushiro{u}'s (A d o p t i v e) Parents + Mrs. Izumi (Focus)/(Best Of)

"...And the 'People I love Most'

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[sparkles-and-trash]

dabihawks nsfw alphabet

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Depends strongly on the sex. Keigo's kinda good with whatever, he takes a cuddle if he can get one, but he understands if Dabi needs space. Dabi gets super clingy if he came more than once tho.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of their partner’s)

Keigo LOVES Dabi's long legs more than anything, Dabi is a sucker for Keigo's ass.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

Keigo loves to cum inside, and Dabi loves it when Keigo does as well. Keigo's not a fan tho, but he enjoys it when Dabi cums all over him (esp on his face ehe)

D = Dirty secret (a dirty secret of theirs)

They both love the idea of public sex, but the every time they try they're nervous and stressed as fuck lmao

E = Experience (how experienced are they?)

Before each other they had very little, I imagine Dabi might have used sex to get his way a time or two before the league, nothing non-con, but def nothing romantic either. Keigo was a total virgin and had no idea how much his bird traits would affect his sex life!

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

Keigo loves to ride Dabi, Dabi's a secret sucker for some missionary turned mating press eheh

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment?)

Totally depends on the mood. At first they were very serious, but the more time went on, the more light hearted they can be if the mood is right!

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes?)

Both of them are trimmed, Dabi's is white and Keigo loves it. They both have a bit of a snail trail but Keigo's more visible as it's a little darker than his other hair.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? in the romantic aspect)

When things are intimate and romantic they're super into eye contact, and if the mood is right they'll be as sappy as holding hands and gazing into each other eyes. They usually giggle about it afterwards.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

Keigo only did it to relive tension before he started fucking Dabi, but afterwards he's learned how to really enjoy it on his own. Dabi struggled with it for many years bc he hated his body sm, but now he loves it, esp if Keigo watches or listens

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

Dabi totally has a wing kink, Keigo enjoys basic bondage and being tied up. They're both dom/sub switches and enjoy either on different days and at different times.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

Keigo's big on the classics, bed, couch etc, Dabi's a sucker for the shower.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

The other being possessive over them. This 100% goes for the both of them. Keigo might also have a tiny thing for blood.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Keigo would never insult Dabi in bed, even if he asked for it. Dabi's not comfortable using his quirk as anything other than making some very light marks on Keigo's ass or thighs, for obvious reasons.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Keigo loves sucking dick, almost as much as Dabi loves having him suck his dick. Dabi's really good at eating Keigo out, he also quite enjoys it, and naturally Keigo loves it as well.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual?)

Depends on the day and mood. Dabi's more of a quick and rough top tho, while Keigo is more of a slowly, deeply top.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc)

They often start out planning out a quicky, but it always turns into a full session.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? )

They both love to try new things, but they're also very open about it when it's not for them.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

Keigo can go on forever, he's the type to need very little recovery time, while Dabi can come lots of times as a bottom, but he'll only go once or twice as a top.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them?)

Yes, and yes. Nothing too weird, but they def have a toy basket, and Dabi def uses a lot more toys when he's alone than Keigo does.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Dabi LOVES to tease, but cannot take being teased lmao. He WILL cry, and Keigo WILL give in.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

Keigo's very vocal, but not loud. He chirps and chitters and coo's, he moans and whimpers, but he prefers to do it into Keigo's ear or into his neck. Dabi's just LOUD.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

Keigo's a subby, whiny top. Dabi's a bossy bottom. Keigo's more of a chatty, encouraging bottom, while Dabi loses himself when he tops, in the best way.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Keigo's body is strong, but not as sharp or sculpted as expected. He's soft to the touch, but his muscles are right below, and Dabi loves running his hands all over him. Dabi's long and lean, and actually stronger than he seems. When he gets the opportunity to, he'll go a little soft around his stomach and thighs and Keigo LOVES it. Their dicks are pretty average, Keigo's a little shorter but thicker than Dabi.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

For each other? All time high.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

Keigo loves to lie around and watch and touch Dabi, while Dabi conks out right away lmao.

[slcwdance]

Welcome to slcwdance!! a blog for midnightfms and penned by Liz ( 21+, cst ). Template credit to: sup_edits. Introducing . . . M O O N C H A E Y O U N G . . .

☾ ° 。◜Lee Jieun (iu). cis female. she/her.◞ could have swore i saw Moon Chaeyoung in the city tonight, probably heading to saeloun market ! i suppose after living in daegu for 1 year, they know what they like. i hear they’re a costume maker at masquerade community theater, but who knows. friends describe the 28 year old as Resilient + Affectionate, but others might view them as more Detached + Volatile. putting them into words? i’d say they have an air of pricked fingers covered in bandaids, a messy livingroom, old photos hidden away under the bed, if you can’t find them, they might be looking at the city lights from eodum apartments!

🐇 A B O U T

full   name   :    Moon Chaeyoung     nickname   :   -   .          age   :    28   .        gender   :          cis woman   .        pronouns   :    she   /   her   .      fc: Lee Jieun (IU)   orientation   :    heterosexual /heteroromantic.     date   of   birth   :    june 18th , 1995  occupation   :   costume maker.  

🐇 B I O G R A P H Y.

Born with a silver spoon, Chaeyoung is the only daughter and was the heir to the Moon Empire. Ever since she was a baby whatever she wanted she got without even having to ask for it, as a child her room had been filled with toys and during her teenage years her closet had been filled with brand names only. It was a dream life for many, yet in exchange of all those luxuries she was expected to be the best, another thing for her parents to boast about, and she played her part really well.

She became interested in ballet at a young age and it became her whole world. Her eyes sparkled and her mother was more than happy to sign her up in a prestigious academy for it. Chaeyoung dived into that world while keeping her academics as top of her classes, sleepless nights with private tutors came and went but it was worth it in her eyes as she got to compete in the Asian Grand Prix and other competitions earning the attetion of the Korean National Ballet. She was doing wonderful in this new place slowly rising ranks until she became the first dancer, the prima ballerina of the National Ballet and that is when her dreams came crashing down.

She was pregnant.

And she was on her own, the father of the baby was gone and so were her supportive parents who claimed she was a shame to the family once they found out. With nothing more than what she could carry on her bags, Chaeyoung left that life behind moving to Daegu to start again, just her baby and her.

...1 year later.

Chaeyoung pregnancy ran smoothly thanks to a neighbor that took care of her and treated her as if she was her own daughter, the caring mother she never had. She gave birth to a healthy baby boy Jisung who is now almost 1. Even if she struggles with her work, her home is always filled with love.

🐇 P E R S O N A L I T Y.

The Chaeyoung of today is very different from the one during her teen years. The girl who never had to work for anything is now working any job she can, learning new things that can be done at home so she can work while staying close to her baby. long gone is the childish chaeyoung replaced by one driven by love, one that never gives up. her fingers are pricked from her work as a seamstress for the theater but she takes pride in them. A bit emotional detached, takes long to earn her trust and for her to open up, keeps new people at arm's length afraid they would leave her again.

+resilient +adaptable + affectionate

-detached -volatile -mistrustful

🐇 C O N N E C T I O N S

c o m i n g s o o n

[divinctions]

✿ ━━━━ MILANI LENNOX

Is that Coco Jones ? oh, no, that's Milani Lennox ! A twenty-six year old Creative Director a W Chile who uses she/her pronouns. They currently live in Viña Del Mar, and the character they identify with most is Margo Hanson from The Magicians. Hopefully they find their own little paradise here in el país de los poetas!

your resident misandrist here to look good and be funny / more below !

━━━━━━━━━  B A S I C S :

full name: milani brianna lennox

nickname(s): nini, mil, lanni, millie, milbri

age: twenty - six .

ethnicity: african american .

gender: cis woman .

pronouns: she / her .

orientation: lesbian

occupation: creative director at W chile .

language(s) spoken: english, spanish  .

━━━━━━━━━  P E R S O N A I L I T Y :

extremely confident and sure of herself. the kind of person who will do something just because someone said she couldn’t. puts the miss in misandrist fr, might be a slight over exaggeration but ! her patience and tolerance level for men is incredibly low. meanwhile, she worships the ground women and femme presenting people walk on. she has big drunk girl complimenting and fawning over you in the club bathroom energy, only she’s like that all the time to any and every woman or femme presenting person in her immediate area, stranger or not. she’s the friend who is always telling you to break up with your boyfriend at any slight hiccup in the road, whether it’s something as serious as entertaining other people or something as dumb as he said he’d call at 9pm and didn’t call until 9:03pm. still a dumpable offense. extremely smart but her cadence and the way she speaks makes people discount her as such which she lives for because it means she can turn around and be patronizing to them ! outside of people who underestimate her though, she loves helping people learn and tries to make her explanations as accessible as possible for those asking or in need of information because she feels knowledge should be accessible, because knowledge is power ! the type to analyze every interaction from word choice, body language, and tone because she’s a gossip and she will be bringing that information back to the council in as much detail as possible. very quick witted and calculated. she has a sharp and fast tongue and though it doesn’t sound like it because she talks absolute shit most times, her words are carefully chosen. very much a ‘i said what i said’ type of person, there’s nothing she’ll say behind your back that she won’t say to your face. for all intents and purposes, she is a very honest, upfront, kind of person but it is kinda funny because there’s so much of herself she hides on purpose because she doesn’t like being close. she doesn’t like being vulnerable, hates the intimacy that comes with being close, and would rather use everything she learned about you to hurt you and get you away from her than let someone hurt her.

━━━━━━━━━  B A C K G R O U N D :

spoiled. growing up in a family of self-made wealth, milani’s parents showered her with all the luxuries and opportunities they didn’t have as children. her mother a chief prosecutor and her father a psychiatrist, milani never had to worry about things she could or couldn’t afford. all she had to do was ask and it was hers. it wasn’t just her parents that spoiled her that way either. as a girl in a big family of women ( her mom had 4 sisters, her dad had 2 moms and 3 sisters ), they also showered their granddaughter and niece with all the riches she could want. being raised by a group of successful, supportive women was the basis for every morale that milani holds dear to her heart now.

like most young girls, milani wanted to be famous. a global superstar and while she couldn’t act to save her life ( and there’s child commercials that very well prove it ), singing and dancing were something that came natural to her. music was a love language between her parents. neither could hold a tune vocally, but they both played more than one instrument and would fill their houston home with records that they deemed mandatory listening from lauryn hill, tlc, etta james, and nina simone. there was hardly a time milani wasn’t singing along. she started posting covers on youtube once she got to high school and when she was 16 she was reached out to be a houston based record label. though her mother came with her to every meeting, milani never had any trouble speaking up for herself; something she noticed not every young girl under the record label could do. she became popular amongst artists for the way she would stand up for herself and others against producers and management if their criticisms veered on cruel instead of constructive. while working on her debut single she was she was exposed to people both in her immediate team and strangers who didn’t know her, telling her who she should be and who she was. milani wasn’t allowed to be herself and instead how to shape herself into the mold of what the label execs thought would make them money. no matter how much she tried to fight back, a newly 17 year old just didn’t have the vocabulary or understanding of the music industry to adequately fight against the company who was promising to make her dreams come true.

milani knew she was talented, and even at times she doubted, she had her mother to reaffirm all the best parts of her. her mother was more than just a confidant or a parent for milani, she was her best friend. there wasn’t a thing milani felt she couldn’t share with her mother. where milani’s words failed, her mothers picked up. she wouldn’t let anyone take control or advantage of her daughter. it was a dependency she never thought she’d have to be without. so when her parents passed in a plane crash it was like she’d been reborn. Pushed back into a vulnerable state where nothing made sense, and she didn’t know how to walk or talk and had no concept of how life was supposed to move forward. of course, she still had her grandparents, and her aunts but it wasn’t the same.

The loss made it hard to get back into music. without her mother as her advocate, she was left to defend herself. she asked for copies of all of their contracts and spent restless nights pooling over them and googling explanations for words she didn’t understand and demonstrations on breaking down the math of it all. she’d mark up the contracts with things that weren’t working or things she needed explained before anyone signed anything, and even after she had her explanations she would only jot them down and go back to do more research not trusting the label to do right by her. her efforts didn’t go without sacrifice though. she was sleeping through alarms for recordings, her grades began slipping, and her family hardly saw her. as determined she was, it didn’t matter. she couldn’t do it alone and she decided to walk away from the label rather than let anyone decide the kind of person she would be.

it made her angry having to give up something she felt brought her closer to her mother. she didn’t understand why there were so many people in power who felt so comfortable telling young girls what they’re allowed to be. her own anger and the horror stories she’d heard from other women and femme presenting people in the industry made her want to start to wonder how things could be changed if there were more women at the top of companies than they had then.

she started to look for more things that connected her to her parents in their absence, and taking their clothes and repurposing them became both a way to mourn and to give her a creative outlet. it reminded her of all the times she'd sit with her mother at her vanity watching and learning how to do her makeup and all the shopping sprees she went on with her dad. clothes became the way she found herself and her confidence again and became very passionate about it.

while milani never had an eye for designing specifically, she didnt have a knack for styling and repurposing. she didn't realize there could even be a career for that specifically so when she went to school she decided to study business law and while she was at a career fair there she learned about all the different kinds of job available at fashion magazines and how she didn't have to design her own clothes in order to be a part of the fashion world. despite being halfway in her business law degree she didn't let that stop her form pivoting to a focus in fashion.

she was top of her classroom president of multiple organizations, and even found time to study abroad. on paper it just appeared that milani was a goal oriented, hardworking individual but in truth she was running from the grief she never gave herself to feel. she felt it every time she went through a heartbreak, or accomplished something she just wanted to share with her mom and dad. graduating and coming to home to be surrounded by memories of them, and being told how proud they would be of her didn’t feel her with the comfort she knew it was suppose to. it only brought her pain, so she started running. 

being so charismatic made it easy to find herself in the right circles, talking to the right people. it wasn't long before she worked a few law positions at a variety of magazines and was showing up at fashion shows. overtime she was sitting in photoshoots, participating in article/photoshoot discussions, and worked her way into a stylist position at w. when the chile branch began doing some reworking that hired milani as their creative director because of their familiarity with her as well as the fact that she was already well traveled and would make the adjustment fine.

━━━━━━━━━   H E A D C A N O N S :

When she was in school, milani she started up an instagram account that was based around sharing information, studying, an educating people ( femmes specifically ) on things they may not be aware of when it comes to business and even though she’s out of school she still hosts a lot of ‘study with me’ lives where, yes they do in fact study that’s the goal, but she’ll also help them with their homework if she’s able, giving advice, and trying to instill the same confidence within her fans that her parents gave to gave to her.

she’s definitely broken up a few unhappy homes by sliding into the mans dms just so she could turn around to the femme partner and be see what he’s like :/ i’d never do that to you :/ i’d treat you so much better, so right :/ she’d also “cheat” on her “man” ( she’d never date a man seriously ) but she’d never cheat with a fellow femmes man. a girl's girl to her core.

also the type to be out partying until 4am and is still able to show up to work at 8am without a hair out of place. but she is immediately crashing for seven hours once she’s done for the day.

supporter of womens rights but ESPECIALLY their wrongs.

spoils their partners like CRAZY. again, worships the ground they walk on. catches a crush on a different girl every five seconds unless she’s in a happy relationship then that woman/femme presenting person is the only person in the whole world. But dont get attached bc she will hurt your feelings :/

hates giving men credit for anything :/ so instead of “jesus christ” or “oh my god” she’ll say “ for the love of athena” or “aphrodites sake” also will replace things like “grow a pair” with “grow some tits” bc she doesn’t agree with the idea that a man should be the reference point for strength 

has a joke for everything, literally everything, and it's okay if you dont think shes funny because she thinks she's hilarious.

━━━━━━━━━   W A N T E D C O N N E C T I O N S : 

Femme squad: self explanatory but milani is a girls girl through and through, i just know she travels in a pack at all times UIHJDKSFAIOJFOKD loves the company of girlies, will aways hype them up, will always say yes to seeing them so a whole. An iconic femme squad is her dream.

Girlies whose men she gave a “loyalty” test to aka tried to prove their man would cheat so that she could slide up: A GIRLS GIRL THROUGH AND THROUGH I TOLD YOU. if she believes she could treat a girl better than her boyfriend then she is absolutely sliding up in the dms to catch him willing to cheat so she can prove her point.

Current situationships; if its with a girly shes screaming crying throwing up (affectionately), if its a man shes screaming crying throwing up (deragtory)

People that just hate her and in turn she hates them, we can find reasons but i think its funny if there isnt one lMAO

[warystares]

FULL NAME orson montgomery lloyd GENDER / PRONOUNS cis man / he + him AGE / BIRTHDAY thirty-five / september 17th OCCUPATION funeral director at lloyd family funeral home AFFILIATION / ROLE hanging man / capo ORIENTATION / STATUS demisexual / single STRENGTHS meticulous + analytical + controlled WEAKNESSES cold + judgmental + remorseless

HISTORY.

tw: gore, death, mildly graphic depictions of autopsy

here's the thing about orson lloyd : HE'S AN OPPORTUNIST . he always has been. and the q u i e t ones ? well, they always get the MOST opportunities, don't they ? he might have been raised modest, raised humble — a fact that manifests still now in mild manners and a softer, slower cadence of speech ( he likes to take his t i m e, speak with precision and clarity ) — but orson has always craved more. he's always longed for MORE. as a child, orson roams the crowded pews of his family's chapel, spindly legs weaving between weeping widows and wailing parents. watching. observing. NEVER INTERACTING ! he learns at a young age that his parents are in the business of DEATH and that to be in such a business is a very careful thing indeed. their clients are wrought with very real, very VOLATILE and very DISTRACTING emotions, and so orson treads with care and caution. he uses delicate CARE in making sure his hands go unnoticed as they slip into the pockets and the purses of the mourning middle class ; and when he leaves ? he practices only extreme CAUTION as he exits, unnoticed, to the safe haven of a locked office door. these TRINKETS he collects, they're not what he truly desires, but they provide a DISTRACTION. from what ?

orson discovers the answer to that question at the age of twelve. it's the first time his father allows him to sit in the PREPARATION ROOM while he performs the embalming process on a body. he clutches his chair in a w h i t e - k n u c k l e d grasp and watches with eager curiosity as the scalpel makes its first neat, steady incision. ( over the years, the elder lloyd's hands will grow SHAKIER and orson will have to clench his fists at his sides until knuckles are once again DRAINED of blood as he watches his father FUMBLE not only a blade but a very delicate procedure. ) he can still vividly remember his reaction to the sight. VISCERAL — like every fibre of his being suddenly ELECTRIFIED. in a singular moment, a boy has realized his calling. and he quickly becomes OBSESSED ; sitting in on every body preparation he can, poring over the labels for various chemicals and preservatives and scribbling notes onto any scrap of paper he can. by fourteen, he's memorized the details of every procedure so that on his next birthday, his father might offer him the greatest gift : the opportunity to PRACTICE. to perform. he just knows he can do it. and, more than that, he can do it WELL.

and to his credit, orson lloyd is NOT wrong. in fact, if anything, he's p r o d i g i o u s. surgical precision would appear an inherent skill, and a PATIENT and METHODICAL technique promises consistent perfection. the clients are pleased. business is BOOMING, insofar as their business can, anyway. ( is his father pleased ? would he care for the answer either way ? it's no longer VALIDATION the young lloyd seeks out. ) he grows into the role upon graduating from university, taking up full - time residence at the lloyd family funeral home alongside his parents. it's only then that he discovers the business's FAULTS. and to their credit, it's truly through none of their own ; after all, not everyone has so keen an eye for OPPORTUNITY as orson, and he cannot fault them for lacking the wisdom to MOURN that of which they're unaware. but orson ? oh, he is acutely aware of all of the possibilities ; he might be ELBOW-DEEP in the thoracic cavity of a cadaver, but he's kept his ear close to the DARK UNDERBELLY of the city. he's not ignorant to what goes on behind closed doors, under cover of night. there's profit to be gained for ALL parties involved.

there is an unsettling air of MYSTERY surrounding orson lloyd's inheritance of his family's funeral home and crematorium. the general consensus is that both of his parents DIED, but the cause behind their passing is a source of significant speculation — was it old age ? illness ? a tragic accident ? whatever the cause, orson handles it as he does most things : QUIETLY. no obituaries are published and, perhaps more strangely, no public funeral service is offered. at twenty-five years old, he is the sole owner and operator of the funeral home. oddly enough, he almost seems PREPARED for the role. but there is no p r a c t i c i n g before he approaches hanging man with a PROPOSITION. there's no need. ( he's been thinking about this for years. ) by day, he provides mortuary and funeral services to the community of queens ; by NIGHT, he's dissecting cadavers piled at his doorstep by ASSASSINS like gifts from eager street cats before effectively DESTROYING their remains.

and it is DISSECTING, isn't it ? because orson never just BURNS the bodies. one might say he has an affinity for playing with them, but that's just NOT TRUE, is it ? it's not PLAYING if it has PURPOSE. and it does. there's a market for all these spare parts he's meant to dispose of, and orson is an e n t r e p r e n e u r ! more than that, he isn't WASTEFUL. ( if he derives his own personal enjoyment from the deconstruction of cadavers, well, you know what they say ! love your job and you'll never work a day in your life. and his souvenirs, well, he'll kindly remind you they're HIS OWN FUCKING BUSINESS, thank you. ) these days, it's rare to catch orson outside the walls of the funeral home, far too often busy with his work to leave unless his presence is REQUIRED elsewhere. he seldom sleeps, fueled instead by a near constant supply of CAFFEINE & NICOTINE. ( it's a wonder his hands are still so steady ! ) and should you happen to turn up at his doorstep and you're NOT dead, surely an unusual encounter awaits you.

CONNECTIONS.

to be updated soon !

OFFICIAL FILE.

*     ◟    :    〔   robert pattinson  ,      cis man    +   he + him    〕      orson montgomery lloyd , some say you’re a thirty-five year old lost soul among the neon lights. known for being both meticulous and aloof, one can’t help but think of  tesselate by alt - j  when you walk by. are you still a capo / funeral director  at  hanging man / lloyd funeral home  even with your reputation as the the anomic ?   i think we’ll be seeing more of you and several days' worth of half-empty paper coffee cups hanging haphazardly along the edge of a crowded desk, painstakingly pinned insects on display in sleek, simple shadow boxes, and the glow of a flame as it licks the interior window of an industrial cremator. although we can’t help but think of graverobber ( repo! the genetic opera ), jack hodgins ( bones ), and martin whitly ( prodigal son ) whenever we see you down these rainy streets. 

[pacifymebby]

t r o u b l e

Chapter fifteen

Sylvie

We walked together down the winding country lane until we came to a stile I'd have missed had it not been for Isaiah stopping me. He tugged me back without a word, squeezing my hand to stop me in my tracks. When I looked back at him in confusion he just nodded his head to the little wooden step sticking out of the hedgerow.

He let go of my hand then, pushing me forward with one hand hovering over my lower back, stood closer to me than he needed to be. It was as if he really didn't know what I'd spent the last eleven years of my life doing. Still, I didn't tell him I could manage with the step and I let him help me with his hand on my waist to hold my steady. I wasn't sure why. Perhaps I was letting him play The Man, letting him recover a little of his shattered ego by pretending I needed his help. Or perhaps the little girl in me who still harboured that childish crush was enjoying herself a little too much.

It certainly felt that way when he helped me in silence, only speaking to remind me to be careful when I jumped down to the ground.

When he had followed me over the stile he returned to my side, one hand on my back as he surveyed the horizon, scanning our surroundings for anyone who might be waiting in the long grass. Though of course this was just a field in the middle of the peaks and no one was waiting for us because nobody knew we were here.

"When your brother realises you're gone first thing he'll do is get in the car, ain't many roads an I don't fancy our chances outrunning an SUV do you?" he said a little while after when I'd already done as he'd told me following him halfway through the field of rewilding grass. It had grown tall and came up to my shoulders but Isaiah was a fair bit taller than me and he could see over the tops of the pollen heavy heads which left wheaty flakes in my long brown hair.

"Glad you're on my side," I said with a small smirk knowing full well that he wasn't. Knowing full well how that would wind him up.

"I'm on the "not getting me head kicked in by your brothers" side actually lass," he said taking it upon himself to entwine his fingers with mine again, squeezing my hand a little too tightly as he tugged on my arm to get me to walk quicker, "and if I'm gonna manage that we need to move quicker than this, if they don't see you before bed they'll panic and Tommy will have half the fuckin blinders out in these fields hunting for us... am not getting me eyes cut out cause you wouldn't walk quick enough..."

"Find me a car then soft cunt," I said quietly, the smirk on my lips mirrored by him when my words came out just slightly Brummie, just slightly like the way I might have said them when I was a little girl trying to pick a fight with him because I liked him and fighting was the only way I knew how to get his attention.

He cracked a grin and shook his head, ignoring my comment and tugging on my hand once more, the two of us picking up the pace, falling into a thinner, more comfortable silence then.

We'd been walking twenty minutes before he stopped me at the edge of another field where the dirt track country road split three ways. There was an old fashioned iron road sign like something out of Midsommer Murders, directing pedestrians and motorists alike towards a church 3 and a half miles east, a village beyond that and the villages westerly twin in the other direction. We didn't take either road however and instead Isaiah lead me down a gravel driveway which I assumed from the pungent smell of manure, lead to one of the many farms which littered the midland countryside.

"You still got that gun?" he asked me with a short nod to the gates a little way ahead.

I nodded following his gaze, wondering what we needed a gun for now when there was no one around. Wondering why we'd taken a track which clearly wasn't leading us anywhere but someone else's front door.

I was uncertain now, determined but realising the beginnings of my naivety. I might have been related to gangsters but I wasn't a gangster, I wasn't a criminal beyond my toe dipping into dealing at school. I didn't know what we were doing because I didn't know how to think like a criminal. Isaiah did and that was why he was asking about that gun. He knew what I was doing, I did not.

I looked up at Isaiah quietly, I didn't want to hand it over just in case this was all part of an elaborate trick he was playing on me. What if I gave him the gun now and he turned it on me, marched me all the way back to my brother so that they could laugh at me together.

"S'alright," he said holding his hand up to stop me as I slipped my hand behind my back, "don't get it out, you shouldn't need it, just... be ready in case you do..."

"Wh..." I started to ask him the question, about to point out the silence, the lonely place we were stood but he hushed me with his finger to his lip and nodded for me to follow him further up the path and then off it all together.

He tugged me into the trees that lined the path, pushed my body up against a thick trunk and stood behind me, his body shielding my body completely, one hand resting on the bark just above my nose.

"What are we..." I started but he hushed me again.

"Waiting..." he said with a small smirk on his lips imitating my earlier tone, "not time to go yet..."

"I thought you said we had to be quick..." I whispered, the bark on the tree scratching my cheek as I tried to peer round the side of the trunk. I felt so small squished up against the tree like that, helpless too and so out of my depth that it was getting under my skin and I was growing restless. "We're wasting t..."

"Shh!" he said quickly, his voice quiet as he slid his palm over my mouth to silence me. I almost tried to bite him when I heard the sound of tires on gravel. Suddenly I was even more pissed off that I couldn't see past Isaiah's arm blocking my view and I tried to duck beneath his arm but he caught me, his hand on my waist holding me firm and put. "Alright twinkletoes fuckin stay put eh," he chuckled surprising me when with one hand to my chest he pushed me back against the tree trunk, hardly glancing from my wide eyes as he took a gun from the back of his jeans and fired into the road.

My eyes shot open then, wide and starring at him in shock as the sound of the engine cut out and something, someone thudded stone dead to the floor.

Isaiah was grinning when he stepped back from me, his fingers still brushing my chest to keep me still and hidden. He held his finger up silently, "one second" he mouthed but I didn't want to wait for him so when he turned away and stepped quickly into the road, I followed.

I gasped when I saw it. Not with fear or disgust, not with sorrow - all of which would have been perfectly natural responses to the sight of a dead man lying in the road, one leg crushed by his motorbike.

"Fuck," I said with a stunned little giggle, "is he..."

"Fuckin hope so," said Isaiah then, not even bothered that I'd followed when he'd told me not to, too pleased with his stellar aim to be bothered about anything else, "fuckin hate the smug prick..." he said kicking at the mans head, not to check, just because he'd wanted to for a long time. "Reet," he sighed, "come on then, help us shift it..."

"The body or the bike?" I asked with a small smirk, one which set his off and made me think we were more similar than he wanted to admit.

"The bike," he shrugged, "he lives alone out here, no ones finding him until his next whore visits..."

"Seriously?" I bit back a giggle looking down at the middle aged man who lay dead on his back in the road. It wasn't hard to believe Isaiah, everything about the man was giving "da's taking the divorce well" what with his designer pleather jacket and the blue skinny jeans he shouldn't have been wearing. "He gonna get picked at by..."

"Don't be rotten Syl," he grinned, his disgust at my suggestion curdled with his sense of humour, "probably."

"Well," I said crouching down beside him to help him shift the big up off the mans caved in ribs, "not our problem is it..."

I gazed down at the man who was lying there, something about him so inhuman now. Like he'd ceased to be a man and now he was just something else, something which resembled a man but which was somehow much much less. I picked up his hand, it was warm and limp and the blood which seeped from a graze on his palm was sticky with grit and pieces of dirt.

When I looked up at Isaiah he was watching me, his eyes flickering with sympathy so that when he crouched down beside me I realised what he must think.

"This isn't the first dead body I've seen so don't get soft Saiah..." I said thinking of my mother, thinking that that was much worse a sight than this, a stranger, who wasn't even human anymore.

"Am not," he chuckled, "believe me love the last thing you looks scared..." he said a little less amused then. I noticed the caution in his eyes, hidden behind sympathy, a caution...

He was right, I wasn't scared. I was fascinated, morbidly curious and he could tell... He was probably putting the pieces together, probably realising that I really was twice as bad as my big brother...

[percontaion-points]

Firstlife chapter 12

Today’s review might be difficult for some; reader discretion is advised

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Chapter 12

“Your Firstlife sets the stage for your Second.” —Troika

Full offence, but Archer literally told Clay that you will be forgiven for anything in Troika. So you should totally sign with them, go party, murder some people, etc etc… And then die. 

This book has yet to tell us exactly what the point of living a long firstlife is. Life sounds goddamned miserable. Like you’re the civilians caught up in another country’s war. 

And then it sounds like you’re going to be nothing but cannon fodder once you die. 

Maybe Ten should roll the dice and hope that there’s something better after she dies in secondlife. 

When I ask to speak with the owner, she gives me a tsk-tsk.

 “You wanting a piece of him? Don’t try to deny it. Girls just can’t seem to keep their hands off his goods and services.”

Why is this author so goddamned obsessed with sex? I’m not sure that we’ve had a single chapter where a character didn’t say something along these lines, even in passing. 

“I saw his body. And I used his severed hand to open the gate and free you.”

I don’t know who needs to hear this, but you can 100% survive without a hand. 

“How old are you? Really?”

 “I’m seventeen.” His chest puffs up with pride. “A mature seventeen.”

Why the hell is nobody in this book over 20? And the older ones are the bad guys. 

I open the door to find the boy—probably three or four—clutching a stuffed teddy bear to his chest.

[...]

“You can’t tell I’m a Shell?”

[...]

“Weren’t you listening, blondie? Or is the air in your head clogging your ears? I’m not on duty, so I’m not signing no one. All I expect from you is a hand job.”

Maybe the author thought that she was being funny and edgy with the constant sex “jokes”. But the fact that she had the angel in the body of a 3 or 4 year old is honestly so icky. 

I hope that the author got put on a watchlist for this scene. 

Get to the airport, get to the States. 

If you could run anywhere, why the fuck are you going to go to USA? 

Nah man, send me to the goddamned south of France. It’s the last place anybody would think to look for me. 

We HART You! Humans Against Realm Turmoil! 

Don’t Believe the Lies! Realms Are Simply a Way to Control You!

I want to hear more from these HART people. They’re the only ones with seemingly any ounce of logic and free thinking. 

“Hawaii,” I say, making a split-second decision. I’ll be far from LA—and my parents—but close to water. “ 

I t ’ s s e t t l e d t h e n , ” t h e p i l o t s a y s. “ G o a h e a d a n d b o a r d a n d w e ’ l l t a k e o ff.” [I don’t know why the hell it’s like that, and I am NOT fixing it]

Chapter 12 summary: Sloan and Ten go to the B&B Archer told them about, where they hand over the “coin”, and get put into a room. That night, Ten has a dream about her mentally ill auntie. About how she’d always talk about Ten in the past tense, and usually stuff like “I’m sorry you died.” When Ten was 13, her father completely cut his sister out from their lives, and refused to talk about her anymore. When she wakes up, she finds that Killian visited in the middle of the night. He’d left her two bracelets that have garroting wire in them. 

The girls eat breakfast and put on new clothes that were given to them. As they’re discussing what their next move should be, a little boy shows up at their room. It’s actually the hotel owner, a rogue Troikan angel who was put on probation after selling angelic drugs to humans. He says that he owed Archer a favour, and he’s not doing it for either of them. 

As they’re being driven to the airport, they discuss their future plans. Sloan’s backstory is that her granny wanted to force her not only into signing with Myriad, but also in marrying a man twice her age. Like Ten, she wants to make it to 18 so that she can be freed of her guardian forcing her to be tortured until she gives in. Then, she plans to torch her family’s estate. There are also signs along the highway advertising both Troika, Myriad, but also the anti-realm group, HART. 

The airport is super sketchy, but they realise they have no choice. Killian is there, and Ten wastes no time in calling him out on his shit. That he’s the reason why Clay died. Killian is like “Who cares? So another human died.” Although it’s hard to say if he doesn’t give a shit about humans in general, or specifically those who’ve signed with Troika. 

Ten goes over to the pilot, who she thinks is unsigned. He asks her where they’re going, and she says Hawaii. 

[gabelish]

N E O N M O O N L I G H T

R a m o s F a m i l y

Camilo Ramos

Already talked about this guy at length but he is the best. His only motivation is to keep his family safe; he has a largely negative opinion of America, despite being born here, because he has never gotten to visit Mexico, and knows he never will, because of the Alcázars. He dislikes having to speak in English as well, which he considers a cold and clinical languages (he's kinda right) and claims to only "think" in Spanish. This softens as he gets to know Xavier, who is essentially the only white boy to ever say his name right (Ca-MEE-lo; most non-Spanish speakers call him ca-MILL-o which he hates) and put in the effort to speak Spanish.

He doesn’t hold resentment for his grandfather exactly, but he does hate the fact that their family has been running from the Alcázars for three generations. He might just be brave/stupid enough to try to end his family’s problems by himself.

His father is a full-blooded Alcázar and his mother is half Alcázar, meaning he is 3/4ths Alcázar, even more than his mother, something Rafael attributes his grandson’s hatred of the U.S. to.

Marianela Ramos

Camilo's aunt, Emiliana’s half sister, and the owner of Cocina Ramos. She primarily raised Camilo while his mother struggled with addiction when he was young, and then again after she disappeared during his teens. She once told Camilo never to date "crazy white girls" which he took to heart. She never realized he would find himself the most unhinged (affectionate) white boy imaginable.

Viviana Ramos

Camilo's younger, half sister, 17. She wants to be a Spanish language poet. Aware that Camilo is being forced to work as an unlicensed doctor for the O’Shea Clann but Camilo refuses to allow her to get involved (stupid boy).

Isabel & Erica Ramos

Twins, about to turn 15; Camilo’s half-sisters and Vivana’s full sisters; neither are allowed to do much because Camilo would never put his sisters in dangerous situations.

Leon Wilkes

Married Emiliana Ramos years ago and had Viviana and the twins together. Since his wife’s disappearance he has raised the girls mostly by himself, with the help of Marianela.

Emiliana Ramos

She’s had a hard life—having Camilo with a guy she didn’t know was an Alcázar when she was 15, struggling with substance abuse, getting clean and meeting Leon and having the girls, then disappearing one night 7 years ago and hasn’t been heard from since.

Rafael Ramos

Born Rafael Vásquez, once he fled to the states when Marianela was 6 yo and Emiliana was 6 mo, he changed his last name to his mother’s. Ever since a brush with death during early childhood, Santa Muerte has given him prophetic dreams—following a vision of hers is what allowed him to escape the Alcázars. Of course, and somewhat comically, his daughters and grandchildren do not believe in his visions, thinking he is just an old man saying some weird shit. It doesn’t help that these visions are often symbolic—Camilo appearing as a common kingsnake, the Alcázars as rattlesnakes (common kingsnakes are IMMUNE to rattlesnake venom and they eat snakes), Xavier as a coyote (double meaning here with the coyote slang word and smth smth “coyotes carry you safely home”), etc. so no one except for himself ever has any idea what he’s talking about.

In a partially comedic scene, Rafael catches Camilo making out with Xavier one night and Camilo didn’t exactly expect his grandfather to say something homophobic, but he really didn’t expect him to start saying “the coyote who devours lead is finally here; does the serpiente know well enough to hold him close?” basically Rafael knows Xavier is going to literally take multiple bullets on multiple different occasions for his grandson, and he also knows his grandson has a habit of pushing people away and trying to go it alone.

the Moonlight trilogy might be primarily from the perspectives of Camilo and Xavier, but it is Rafael who gets the prologue chapter (showing him driving through the Sonora bound for San Ysidro with his daughters in the back seat), and the story is really all about the chain of events Rafael accidentally set into motion when he married an Alcázar. His whole backstory is enough to warrant its own novel so I won’t get into any more details of his past because Christ alive this man (affectionate) *chefs kisses*.

[dianasblogposts]

Magical music never leaves the memory (Sir Thomas Beecham 1962).

Now that we’ve covered what Alzheimer’s is, the population, how it impacts caregivers, and what H.B 156 would introduce in regards to police interaction with the Alzheimer’s population I would like to cover one of the most melancholic interventions on Alzheimer’s and guess what it is?

Music!

Music interventions have been adopted recently as a non-pharmacological treatment for patients with Alzheimer’s as opposed to their usual medications.

Before I go into more information about music and Alzheimer’s I would like to add just how relieving  this can be to caregivers who sometimes are wives, husbands, children, and anyone that is a family member to see your loved one recall a song, instruments or melodies when they can’t remember anything else is must feel astounding in knowing that not every part of your loved one is gone.

Music interventions have gained interest by researchers and caregivers since it is an inexpensive intervention, easily implemented and enjoyable for that loved one. ( Leggieri, M., Thaut, M. H., Fornazzari, L., Schweizer, T. A., Barfett, J., Munoz, D. G., & Fischer, C. E., 2016 ). There is evidence to suggest that music for memory can remain intact for persons with Alzheimer’s, even while experiencing a rapid cognitive decline. (Cuddy et al., 2012) As well as behavioral studies showing that music can improve some cognitive functions! (Foster and Valentine, 2001; Irish et al., 2006; El Haj et al., 2012).

There was a study done on a 53-year-old female piano teacher who was able to name 15/15 familiar melodies!

Now this intervention is NOT a cure for Alzheimer’s, but it does show just how much of our loved one is not yet gone or lost as we might think. When the world or even ourselves as caretakers might see an out of control, forgetful, sometimes violent, or irritated person there is more that we as a society can do to help them remember.

Below are two YouTube clips that I enjoyed watching and I hope you do too 

References:

Baird, A., Samson, S. Memory for Music in Alzheimer’s Disease: Unforgettable?. Neuropsychol Rev 19, 85–101 (2009). https://doi.org/10.1007/s11065-009-9085-2

Cuddy, L. L., Duffin, J., Brown, C. L., and Sikka, R. (2012). Memory for melodies and lyrics in alzheimer’s disease. Music Percept. 29, 479–491. doi: 10.1525/mp.2012.29.5.479

Foster, N. A., and Valentine, E. R. (2001). The effect of auditory stimulation on autobiographical recall in dementia. Exp. Aging Res. 27, 215–228. doi: 10.1080/036107301300208664

El Haj, M., Postal, V., and Allain, P. (2012b). Music enhances autobiographical memory in mild alzheimer’s disease. Educ. Gerontol. 38, 30–41. doi: 10.1080/03601277.2010.515897

Irish, M., Cunningham, C. J., Walsh, J. B., Coakley, D., Lawlor, B. A., Robertson, I. H., et al. (2006). Investigating the enhancing effect of music on autobiographical memory in mild alzheimer’s disease. Dement Geriatr. Cogn. Disord. 22, 108–120. doi: 10.1159/000093487

Leggieri, M., Thaut, M. H., Fornazzari, L., Schweizer, T. A., Barfett, J., Munoz, D. G., & Fischer, C. E. (2019, February 6). Music intervention approaches for alzheimer's disease: A review of the literature. Frontiers. Retrieved April 5, 2023, from https://www.frontiersin.org/articles/10.3389/fnins.2019.00132/full#h10 

[luuurien]

18 DAYS - 日が続く m e l i s s a

(Dreampunk, Ambient, Downtempo)

The mystery vaporwave's artist's debut mixes mysterious dreampunk ambiance with energetic ripples of downtempo and trip hop, an interesting if occasionally mood-breaking combination that makes 日が続く m e l i s s a compelling despite its stylistic shortcomings.

☆☆☆½

It might not present itself all too differently from most other vaporwave projects, but 日が続く m e l i s s a hides more than a few tricks behind its vaporwave stylings and dreamy unicolor album cover. A mystery vaporwave artist with next to nothing known about them, 18 DAYS presents a vision of dreampunk where the surreal and anxious side of vaporwave is at the forefront, clanging downtempo percussion and volatile voice clips surrounding wispy synths and fragile electronic atmospheres, 日が続く m e l i s s a a thought-provoking step forward for modern vaporwave that still has a bit of trouble balancing its different ideas across six short tracks and a massive 13-minute finale. For as unique a take on dreampunk 日��続く m e l i s s a is, 18 DAYS doesn't fully define the boundaries of their sound and ends up disrupting the flow of energy here a bit too much at times, but it never completely inhibits their vision from coming to life. A mix of scratchy trip hop tunes and plain dreampunk ambiance, 日が続く m e l i s s a is driven by the cold air and lonely atmospheres of dreampunk but never ruled by them, 18 DAYS jumping to different ideas when they've already dug up as much as possible from one part of the album's world. The album's most overtly ambient tracks - 太陽, m i s d i r e c t e d 火 and 暴力 c y c l e s_L0vely Night (日常生活) - are by far the best on offer, just discordant and chilly enough to fit 18 DAYS' angular take on dreampunk but still chock full of those ethereal synths and abstract ebbs and flows of chords signature to the style, these moments the times where 日が続く m e l i s s a truly feels like an exciting new take on vaporwave. The rest of the album, though, is oddly hit-or-miss: trip hop and downtempo find themselves in the mix, bringing smooth but mood-breaking grooves into 点灯 g a s l a m p s and all lit up, while a clip from 2017's Boston Marathon bombing film Stronger put into the penultimate 団結する b e a d ends up a misdirected attempt at harnessing the volatility and sadness underlying vaporwave in a more forward fashion, 18 DAYS with all sorts of ideas on how to make dreampunk feel fresh again but not quite reeling them in enough to keep it all in check. For its many rough edges, 日が続く m e l i s s a is an undeniably strong vaporwave project, blindsiding you with its nameless creator and often unorthodox sound but proving just how well an understanding 18 DAYS has of what makes the genre such an interesting playground for experimentation and testing out what they can do within that realm, even if it turns out a few more misses than it likely needed to. They don't play it safe, and for that alone 日が続く m e l i s s a earns its title as one of the ambient underground's most impressive debuts this year, 18 DAYS' music exciting even when it's headed down rocky paths. If you've even a mild interest in vaporwave, ambient or left-of-center electronica, it's hard to find much this year that ticks all those boxes and manages to pack so much intrigue into as small a runtime as 日が続く m e l i s s a - give it a shot! Its best moments are more than enough to justify spending your time in 18 DAYS' grimy, rainy underbelly of vaporwave's neon-soaked cityscapes.

[warystares]

FULL NAME angel amadis cardona NICKNAME(S) angelbaby GENDER / PRONOUNS genderfluid / any pronouns AGE/ BIRTHDAY thirty-one / october 23rd OCCUPATION dancer + dealer AFFILIATION / ROLE jade tribe / soldier ORIENTATION / STATUS pansexual / single STRENGTHS charismatic + amorous + resourceful WEAKNESSES narcissistic + incendiary + entitled

HISTORY.

tw vaguely implied homophobia + drug use !

let there be no mistake ― angel cardona is a STAR ; fiery, compelling, easily the FIERCEST force of the universe to be reckoned with. ALL-CONSUMING. from the moment they're born, angel craves ― nay, DEMANDS ― the attention & affections of every stranger BLESSED enough to experience them. if their presence alone is not enough to catch at least a DOZEN curious gazes, then they'll ensure their personality COMMANDS it. as a child, angel hungers for PRAISE ; they're s t a r v e d for it, really ! and not for any real LACK, either. the cardona family is LARGE and while angel might be CURSED middle child of SEVEN, it couldn't be said they weren't close growing up. ( being POOR AS FUCK tends to force your hand in that respect ; privacy is a foreign concept when there are four of you to a bedroom. ) she always had someone to whine to, someone to hold a CAPTIVE AUDIENCE for yet another midnight improv performance. it's only that angel is INSATIABLE. she could have all eyes in the room on her and still want MORE.

and to angel's credit, the big happy family FACADE ― that hallmark movie shit, ❛ we may not have a lot but we have e a c h o t h e r and that's ENOUGH ❜ type deal ― it doesn't last forever. NOTHING LASTS FOREVER. trust when angel says he's lived long enough to learn that the HARD way. ( why the fuck can't they get anyone to love them forever, huh ? the way they want to be loved ? TRAGIC. ) he's fifteen when he lands on the STREETS with little more than a duffel bag & A DREAM. if you think that's CORNY, keep it to yourself ― do you know how LONG it took him to be able to romanticize this ? getting KICKED OUT before he can even drive ! losing everything ! and anyway, whether he recalls it as a GORGEOUS CROSSROADS or the CRUEL BETRAYAL OF BLOOD that it is, it's fine. truly, it is. because the cardinal rule of any IT GIRL is the same : beauty is suffering. it's PAIN. and honey, angel know what it is to SUFFER.

no matter how many friends angel might claim in HIGH PLACES, let it be said that there is nothing glamorous about COUCH-SURFING. a few years are lost to a CRISIS OF IDENTITY ― so neatly hidden behind an air of UNWAVERING CONFIDENCE, the same they've always CLUNG to. they'll insist that they're OKAY, that this is little more than an adventure. AN OPPORTUNITY. at first, it proves little more than an opportunity to S P I R A L ; every night a chance for a new SUBSTANCE, a new STRANGER, a new way to reach true, blissful DISTRACTION. from what ? the parents, the siblings that still live on on WITHOUT them ? the countless classes & auditions ― WASTED for not a single callback ? it doesn't take long for such an ERRATIC path to lead angel straight to DANGER ; it's almost as if they have a TASTE for it. they're DRAWN to it.

it's no surprise, then when angel finds herself swiftly lured into the arms of THE JADE TRIBE, is it ? rock bottom is WELL within sight and she's SCARED ; ALONE, even for all the faces she surrounds herself with day & night. ( it seems an IMPOSSIBLE thought ! ) she yearns for the familiar SECURITY ( and attention... and comfort... and... and... !! ) of a FAMILY. and for some reason, she's gotten it into her PRETTY LITTLE HEAD that she can find that in a world of CRIME. ( she thinks she's UNTOUCHABLE is what it is ― MAIN CHARACTER SYNDROME, maybe. but deservedly so ! angel IS the main character, and GOOD LUCK trying to convince her otherwise. ) when she starts DANCING to try and save enough for a place of her OWN, she quickly discovers how incredibly EASY it is to use her a l l u r e at the club to convince guests & strangers to sample the jade tribe's products.

and the best part ? all of these PILLS & POTIONS angel puts on offer keep them a HOT COMMODITY ; they're IN D E M A N D ! sleazes & scoundrels alike ― whether they come for the DRUGS and become m e s m e r i z e d by the undulation of hips under the PULSE of a strobe light, or VICE VERSA ― are drawn to angel like a flurry of moths to a perfectly-manicured FLAME. they use their wiles to line their pockets, maxing out withdrawals on the DEEPEST of wallets with dark d o e eyes and a PROVOCATIVE grin. she does WELL for herself, too, learned over the years what keeps ATTENTION on her. what the people want to see. and no, it may not be BROADWAY or THE SILVER SCREEN, but angel's still got an audience of adoring fans five nights out of the week. and in the grand scheme of things ? that's not the WORST she could do.

( she just knows in her heart, even now : she is destined for BETTER. )

CONNECTIONS.

to be added soon !

[uramichislefttiddie]

Life Lessons With Uramichi Oniisan Alphabet

||Contains: Uramichi Omota + Iketeru Daga||

||Warnings: NSFW||

Reminder! Please don’t comment anything that implies your age, I cannot stop who reads this unfortunately but I can at the very least give out a warning that this contains nsfw content.⚠️

please forgive me I could not stop laughing whilst writing this, I had to skip specific words because it did not sound right to me and my childish behaviour😭

Uramichi Omota:

A: Aftercare (how they treat you afterwards)

If anything all this man will want to do is try and get a good nights rest even if it means only a couple hours of sleep. He will make sure however you are cleaned up and are alright before he deals with himself. He’d never leave you to care for yourself, he always makes sure he cares for you first. He’s very touch starved meaning he makes sure he gets cuddles and kisses before you both drift off into a slumber!

B: Body (his fav part of his body and yours)

His favourite body part on himself most likely would be his muscles specifically his toned arms, I mean he’s a former gymnast so what can you expect? On you his favourite part would be either ass or thighs, the reason mainly being it’s something he can rest on, or another reason being he loves to mark your thighs up not caring if anyone can see, also he just genuinely likes groping your ass however he’ll only do that in privacy, he’d rather not have the risk of someone having just witnessed him groping your ass in public. In make out sessions always expect his hands to be roaming either along your thighs or ass there’s no other option it could be.

C: Cum (well I’m pretty sure you can gather what I mean)

Majority of the time he will make sure to not cum inside you meaning hell either do it over your face or body, however once in awhile if you allow him he will not pass up the opportunity to cum inside you. When I say once in awhile, Uramichi will try and make it near enough every time that you allow him to cum inside, he just loves the idea of having the risk you could end up with having his children. (Russian roulette type beat/j) and a plus to him is that if he can cum in you it means less cleaning to do.

D: Dirty Secret (a secret of theirs that they haven’t told)

Now I get a strong sense that this man really wants to try bondage with ropes especially, wether it be you that’s tied up or him he doesn’t care either way he really wants to try it. But he doesn’t want to scare you off by asking so he still hasn’t mentioned it and he doesn’t want you to start making fun off him about it💀 however you’ve had an inkling for awhile that he’s got something about being tied up.

E: Experiance (Do they know what they’re doing?)

Now he may be 31 years of age but this man has never gone past kissing someone before he met you. You were his first and oh boy he had no clue what he was doing, mainly because he was nervous and couldn’t comprehend what was truly happening. He has watched his fair share of porn etc but when it came down to actually doing it himself he mind had become fog. Overtime though he’s come to learn what you like best and least and has took that into account and now it’s as if he’s been doing it for years.

F: Favourite Position (which he prefers to do)

Now he’ll most likely switch between a mating press or doggy style. The reasoning for mating press is it allows him to be more face to face to you and he can see your face during it which turns him on even more. And let’s be real he more than likely has a breeding kink. So mating press + breeding kink = heaven to him. Now the reason for doggy style is because he loves having your bare ass slam against him and watching it jiggle when he slaps it. He also loves leaving marks on your hips meaning doggy style makes that all the easier.

G: Goofy (do they laugh or are they the serious type)

Uramichi is probably the type of be serious, he might laugh there and than every so often if something a bit funny happens but overall he’s pretty much serious and that’s just him.

H: Hairy (shave? Unshaven?)

Unshaven, however he will trim it if you ask him to, but seeing as he’s 31 I think he couldn’t care less about body hair as it’s normal and he just sees it as a waste of time to have to repeatedly shave.

I: Intamicy (how they’re like in bed)

80% of the time he will be rough, releasing out all the pent up anger and frustration, but he still makes sure your ok. Although there will be them days where he just wants to be more romantic than rough and his whole demeanour will have flipped upside down and he’ll be acting all lovey dovey. Plus most definitely a switch.

J: Jack Off (Do they? Or not?)

Nah, not really, if he’s in that type of mood and your not with him he’ll either wait or come meet you wherever you are so he can get relief.

K: Kink (What kinks they have)

Gagging, Breeding, Bondage, Dacryphilia, cockwarming

L: Length (how big they are)

He’s more girthy than long, he’s probably about 6 inches which is a good length all in all.

M: Motivation (what gets them going)

When you start whining at him for attention or if you raise your voice at him because oh boy that really does set off something in him when you raise your voice.

N: No (something they will not do)

Knife play or anything that could seriously harm you even by accidental.

O: Oral (which they prefer)

He prefers giving than receiving but once in awhile he’d just want you to be the one giving it to him and making him fall under your touch.

P: Pace (how fast they go)

He’s not necessarily fast but rather hard. By that I mean he will go full force into you where both yours skins slap against each other and where he will grunt a lot which oh boy is hot.

Q: Quicke (do they do them?)

Surprisingly he does them a lot seeing as he has work 6 days a week which really only leaves him with one day where it can just be you and him all day. So either he’ll do one in the morning or at night but it depends if he’s feeling too tired after work.

R: Risk (are they one for taking a risk?)

Now he’ll hate someone interrupting so he always makes sure you both do it where the chances of getting interrupted are reduced drastically, plus it’d be very embarrassing for someone to walk in. Usahara now always make sure to knock before making his grand entrance into his apartment. The risk of you getting pregnant kinda excites him in a way so you gotta watch out with this man.

S: Stamina (how many rounds can they go for)

On an average he can last around 2-3 rounds but on a very good day it feels like it’s never ending, he just needs that motivation if you get me.

T: Toys (do they use them)

No. He’s never really been into them and they’ve never sparked his interest.

U: Unfair (are they fair)

He’s quite fair to be honest, he makes sure you both equally get what you both want but there can be times he can be a tease when he’s in one of them type of moods.

V: Volume (how loud they are)

Majority of the time he lets out grunts rather than moans, he gets embarrassed if he moans however after the time you told him you like it when does he doesn’t hold back anymore but like I said most of the time he grunts and breathes heavily.

X: X-ray (what they’re like under there)

Like I said, more girthy than long.

Y: Yearning (how high is their sex drive)

It’s shockingly quite high, although it may not show when he’s near you expect him to be quite touchy most of the time waiting for you to get the signal. In simple terms he’s quite the horn dog.

Z: Zzz (how fast they go to sleep afterwards)

I’ll say it straight. He goes to sleep incredibly fast, but he won’t before he makes sure your cleaned up and settled down!

Iketeru Daga

A: Aftercare (how they treat you afterwards)

This boy will give you the best aftercare ever. You hungry? Ok he’ll go make something for you. You want to go for a drive? Ok he’ll take you for a drive. You want a shower/bath? Ok he’ll go prepare you one. You understand me now. He will double check your ok and cleaned up as best as possible. Will always make sure you’ve gone to the toilet afterwards and have had some water. Will fall asleep with you in his arms always whilst reading to you.

B: Body (his fav part of his body and yours)

His favourite part of his body will be his hands, not only because they’re pleasing to the eye but because he knows his long fingers can make you come undone very quickly and easily and that gives him somewhat of a boost. His favourite part of your body to him will be your lips, he loves the feeling of them when he kisses you or when your kissing him anywhere (😏 /j)

C: Cum (well I’m pretty sure you can gather what I mean)

He loves seeing his cum dripping down your face, the way it leaves a shine along your face just looks so pretty to him. So he prefers to cum over your face or in your mouth to where he can see it dripping down yourself. Don’t get me wrong he’d love to cum in you but he’s responsible and would rather wait until you both want a child so he doesn’t need to worry about getting you pregnant.

D: Dirty Secret (a secret of theirs that they haven’t told)

He likes to be choked. Awhile back you had no clue until you accidentally did and that’s when the game got even more interesting. He really just overall loves seeing you in charge.

E: Experiance (Do they know what they’re doing?)

He’s had a few girlfriends in the past but never gone as far as to do more than make out with them, he’s always said he’d save it for the when the right person comes along and he knows it the right person. But he very much does know what he’s doing, he knows how to make you feel good, he’s done plenty of research.

F: Favourite Position (which he prefers to do)

Reverse cowgirl. He absolutely loves you riding him and if it means reverse cowgirl it allows him to smack your ass and fondle it, also allows him to easily guide you with your hips. Damn he goes berserk when your in this position I tell you.

G: Goofy (do they laugh or are they the serious type)

Do I even need to say? Of course he’s going to be goofy, the man laughs at dick jokes. However once he starts laughing that’s it, he won’t be able to stop for awhile, it’s honestly become uncontrollable.

H: Hairy (shave? Unshaven?)

Honestly, he leaves it down to you and what you prefer, he doesn’t mind if you prefer shaven or not either way he’ll go with what you like.

I: Intamicy (how they’re like in bed)

Probably the slow but long stroke type of guy. He loves the way you start to become impatient and fidgety. He loves the look in your eyes when he’s facing you.

J: Jack Off (Do they? Or not?)

He only will if he hasn’t seen you for a few days or hasn’t been able to do anything with you. He prefers doing it with you actually.

K: Kink (What kinks they have)

Choking, Food Play, Cockwarming, Spit, Praise

L: Length (how big they are)

Longer than girthy, he reaches about 7.5 inches, he can definitely reach the high spots.

M: Motivation (what gets them going)

When you start to praise him, especially with “good boy” that will get him going almost immediately, it just switches something on in his mind so very quickly.

N: No (something they will not do)

He’s willing to try most things as long as you feel safe and he feels safe and you both know to be careful and know how far to go with everything.

O: Oral (which they prefer)

He prefers receiving than giving, he just loves being able to watch you go down on him and struggle. But when you want some he will be more than happy to give.

P: Pace (how fast they go)

Life I previously said, he’s the type of guy that goes slow but he makes sure he’s hitting all the right spots that you like and that gets you going.

Q: Quicke (do they do them?)

He prefers to not have them but if it comes down to it and you really want one he will do so, but don’t expect it to become a regular thing.

R: Risk (are they one for taking a risk?)

Oh he’s scarred many peoples eyes and mind because he simply “forgot” to lock the door and close the curtains/blinds. Poor Uramichi as if he hadn’t enough going on. He doesn’t really want to risk getting you pregnant though, so he will use a condom.

S: Stamina (how many rounds can they go for)

He can go for a straight 3 or more rounds, it normally stops when it’s you that can’t take anymore not the other way round, he always waits until you’ve had your pleasure before he’ll stop.

T: Toys (do they use them)

Now he’d never admit it, but before you two started being sexual he had quite the few toys. He most likely had a flashlight, tenga egg and a cock ring for example. Them type of ones.

U: Unfair (are they fair)

He’s the fairest of them all, he’d make sure your getting what you need and than sort himself out, he’s never once been unfair to you.

V: Volume (how loud they are)

Now…this mans a full on moaner and he has no shame about it. He honestly has that type of pretty moan too, where he whimpers at the same time and he will not look away either. Oh and if your the one sucking him off, be prepared because he can’t hold back at all, it’s honestly like heaven to him.

X: X-ray (what they’re like under there)

As already said he’s quite long compared to others, he reaches about 7.5 inches.

Y: Yearning (how high is their sex drive)

Probably around average but if you get him going well-

Z: Zzz (how fast they go to sleep afterwards)

Will not go to sleep no matter what before you, it always has to be you that falls asleep first before he can fall into a slumber. He always wants to know your safe. And plus if you’ve fallen asleep he will clean you up if you haven’t already, and will leave some water and paracetamol next to you for when you wake up and if he leaves before you in the morning or wakes up before you he’ll always leave a little note next to you too.

[thenovelartist]

ABC Fluff Headcanons - Vyn Richter - Tears of Themis

A = Admiration (what do they absolutely adore about you?)

If this was a fairytale, it would be Beauty and the Beast. Except he was simply the Beast and you were his magic rose he got to watch bloom. But instead of watching you under glass, he preferred it to be removed, even if it shredded your innocence in the process, but oh, watching you grow anyways, both blooming beautifully while growing fierce thorns to warn anyone before they touch, just to spite the adversity you were faced with was his truest pleasure. Your fortitude; that was what he truly admired about you.

B = Body (what is their favorite part of your body?)

You’d think it’s your eyes, being the windows to the soul and all. But you’d be wrong; it’s your hands. Specifically, your tender touch. It’s gentle, warm, and safe. Being able to hold your hand feels intimate for him, and he actually enjoys when you tap his arm to get his attention, then let your hand linger when he gives it. It’s like a reward and a comfort all in one.

C = Cuddling (how do they like to cuddle?)

He does enjoy a good cuddle, but hugging you from behind might be his favorite. Whether sitting together on the couch with you on his lap or spooning you in bed, he likes when he can nuzzle the side of your head or rest his chin on your shoulder.

D = Dates (what does their ideal date with you look like?)

He will have planned this to a T because he’s not much for spontaneity. And it would involve a walk together, flowers, and he will either have made you a dessert or the two of you will make something together. It’s something quiet and intimate for you to enjoy time together, talking about anything and nothing while the date is riddled with affectionate touches and some kisses.

E = Emotions (how do they express emotion around you?)

Good grief, this man’s emotions are… complicated. He’s very logical, but he’s not ignorant to his emotions. It doesn’t seem like it, but he frequently tempers them, only to bring them up again in full when he records his diary so that he’s able to manage them.

But you have ruined him. His carefully kept emotional balance has been thrown to the wind. You make him feel intensely and strongly, to the point it almost trumps his logic, which makes him uncomfortable. His diaries have been getting longer as his inner turmoil increases, and that’s all your fault. It’s something you notice, too, watching his even temperament waver more and more frequently around you as the emotion inside him wars with his rationality. You will have to give this man time. Time to open up and be honest with himself, and you, about his emotions. Be prepared to validate his emotions in his moments of weakness. It’s the only way he’ll get better about honestly expressing them to you.

F = Family (do they want one? If they do, when?)

He wouldn’t be opposed to staying childless. He also wouldn’t be opposed to having a child, and you could probably talk him into two if the first goes well. Little humans would be fascinating studies, after all. (“Dear, do not psycho-analyze the children.”)

G = Gifts (how do they feel about gift giving? What are their habits when it comes to this?)

He does not care for trinkets. Nor does he care about giving you them. Gifts should be practical.

At least… that’s what he likes to think. His one exception to this is when he gives you something to wear. It’s his way of marking you and wearing it will spark a possessive streak in him.

H = Holding Hands (when/how do they like to hold hands?)

He likes—no, needs to be either touching or holding your hand in quiet, private moments. And he wants to hold your hand when he’s jealous. Especially when he’s jealous. And you know when he is because he holds tight as though reminding you that you’re his while also sending passive-aggressive signals to the cause of his jealousy. When you’re just out walking, he will sometimes hold your hand, but he also likes when you loop your hands over his elbow and he can escort you like a proper gentleman. (It also causes you to pull yourself in close to him, so he actually quite enjoys when you do that.)

I = Injury (how would they act if you got hurt?)

Depends. Minor cuts or burns are treated with care and, occasionally, a kiss. Get into an accident, and he gets shockingly worried about you. However, if you end up hurt because of a reason to do with NXX, he’ll be sick with emotions. Guilt, fear, anger; all of them brew for a deadly concoction. He will not rest, even to the point of abusing his own body, until he finds the person who hurt you and sees to it they are paying dearly for their crime.

J = Jokes (do they like to joke around with or prank you? how?)

He doesn’t always joke around, but when he does… this man is a wicked tease. Don’t expect to get off the hook easily. You better learn how to tease back, or he’ll use words and puzzles to twist you exactly where he wants you, which normally is you as a blushing, stuttering mess.

K = Kisses (how do they like to kiss you?)

Sweet kisses off-the-cuff are quite nice, and so are the passionate ones, but the ones he likes best are the slow, lingering ones that take place hidden away in your own world. They convey so much with no words. There’s no frantic holding or clinginess. Rather, it feels like a moment of security, coming together and staying. He likes the comfort they provide him and the way they actually settle his heart.

L = Love Confession (how do they confess?)

He actually was super nervous to confess. He’ll have practiced and planned this confession before it happens. Which you never would have guessed because it was in such a smooth conversation during one of your outings that he admitted he held feelings of a romantic nature for you.

M = Marriage (What does the wedding look like?)

He wants it small, intimate, and preferably outdoors in a garden. He wants it nice but not overly fancy. He won’t fuss over the smaller details. Besides, he doesn’t realize it yet, but he will barely remember anything beyond how utterly stunning you look in your wedding dress, anyway.

N = Nightmare (what is their worst fear?)

He hates being a failure, but if he’s everput in a position where he fails you, he will never forgive himself.

O = Oddity (what is one quirk they have?)

This man has literal decks of cards of only one kind of card. You want a 52 card deck with all ace of hearts? He has that. Ten of spades? He has that too. Four of clubs? Yup. You don’t know why he has them, and he won’t tell you, but you think it’s literally just because he’s highly amused the way you wrack your brain over it.

P = Pet Names (what do they like to call you?)

He’s classic. Love, Dear, Darling, Sweetheart. But he’s half-German (At least, that is my best speculation considering he was called “Vilhelm” and is canonly mixed-race), so “Liebling” is also an endearment he calls you, and my guess is he saves that one strictly for the sweetest, most tender moments you share.

Q = Quality Time (how do they like to spend time with you?)

Calm setting, electronics put away, and preferably some form of physical contact with you. This could be working together in the garden, side by side, or going out to walk around town together, but those are not his favorite. Baking with you is one of his top ones, though. Expect him to tap some sort of batter or frosting on your nose. His other favorite is lounging together on the couch, your back leaning against his chest, and just talking. Communication is important to any relationship, and he finds it a joy to communicate with you.

R = Romance (how do they show their love and affection?)

He’s the kind that shows his affection by giving you his time and attention. He’ll show it in the little touches exchanged back and forth and in the way he’s attentive to your well-being, particularly your mental well-being.

He’ll also show he loves you by playing mind games on you until you’re a blushy, stuttering mess. He’s usually forgiven with a kiss and “I love you”. You know you’re too soft on him, but whattcha gonna do?

S = Secrets (how open are they with you?)

He is an onion you have to peel back layer by layer to get to open up to you. And like an onion, there’s likely going to be some tears shed as you do that. Time will determine how many secrets he’s willing to share with you, and it’s likely going to take years for him to fully open up to you. But keep at it. You will be rewarded with his innermost thoughts and feelings and the discovery of how insecure this seemingly unflappable man is.

T = Time (how long did it take you to get together?)

This man doesn’t believe in love at first sight, but falling hard and fast for you? That he did. One of his biggest hurdles he had to get over was logically evaluating his feelings and what he thought your feelings for him were as well as coming to terms with the way he’s been treated in past relationships (And not just romantic ones. He has an… interesting way of creating carefully crafted ties to people.) So it might take a little time for him to get comfortable enough to ask you out. And throughout the relationship, he’ll probably still be working with his past demons, so be prepared for that.

U = Upset (how do they act when you’re upset?)

He’ll comfort you the best way he can if you’re a sad upset. A mad upset, and he’ll probably give you a little space to work yourself out while offering his guidance. And upset at him? This is where a good chunk of your arguments happen, to be honest. So then you both have to calm down before coming together again and talking it out. But you always do and are stronger for it.

V = Vaunt (what are they proud of? Do they like to show you off?)

He’ll never admit it, but he loveswhen he can leave you impressed. It thrills him if he can show off a trick or his general intelligence and have you praise him for it. Occasionally, he’ll search for ways to impress you just because he wants that attention. But never will he admit it.

W = Warrior (how do they feel about you fighting? Would they fight for you, beside you, etc?)

Well…he’s all okay with fighting as long as it’s not physical fighting. If you’re going to verbally spar with someone, he’s more than happy to let you go, and he takes pride in the fact you usually wipe the floor with your opponent. But the moment it’s going to turn into a physical altercation, he’s your shield. Part of him thinks that in times he is unfortunately not around, it might be good to have some self-defense under your belt, but at the same time, he’d rather you just flee instead of fight. Because he knows you well enough that if you had the ability, you’d probably knock someone’s lights out if they came at you.

X = X-Ray (how well are they able to read you?)

He’s a psychologist; he can already read you well. But on top of that, you are his favorite study, and he will catalogue everything he learns about you away to pull out for future reference. So while he already reads you well early on into your relationship, give it a few years and you have basically no secrets from this man.

Y = Yes (how would they propose to you?)

He will never forget the “surprise over romance” opinion on proposals you shared with him. So, determined to give you the best, he sets up an elaborate puzzle for you, getting all the important people in your life to get in on it. Together, the two of you will trapeze the town hunting down little clues—in places, that you only realize later, hold significance to both of you—before he’ll “conveniently” take his leave so you can finish out the last leg, which ultimately ends up leading you to his office, the place you first met. And there he is, sitting behind a house of cards sits made solely from the Ace of Hearts with a ring in the middle of the top tier which was made from two different cards: the king and queen. Only once you realize that and he revels in your joy and tears will he properly get on one knee and ask you to marry him.

Z = Zen (what makes them feel calm?)

When everything is “right” in his world. His patients are doing well, he’s got no massive cases on his plate, nothing requires his immediate attention, and you are close by, doing well in your own right.

[insomniacrobyn]

Hi! Could I request a fluff alphabet for Scaramouche ( or Zhongli )?

tysm for your time ^^

Title: Fluff Alphabet W/ Zhongli

Reader: Gender neutral

A/N: I wish I could do Scaramouche but unfourtunatly I wasn't playing Genshin when he made appearance 😔. I was very sad when I realized. Also, my ask box is still open if anyone has requests maybe even more fluff alphabets.

A = Admiration (what do they absolutely adore about you?)

There are many things that Zhongli adores about you however he adores how kind and patient you are. Zhongli greatly admires how willing you are to help the people of Liyue. He finds whenever he sees you running around doing tasks for madame ping or the other citizens his heart just swells with pride at being able to call you his lover.

B = Body (what is their favorite part of your body?)

Zhongli adores your smile. As cheesy as that sounds it improves his day when he sees you smile. He loves seeing you smile when he arrives home from work or when he wakes you up in the morning and you give a soft smile to him.

C = Cuddling (how do they like to cuddle?)

Zhongli adores cuddling with you. He loves having you rest your head on his chest as he told you stories about his time as an Archon. However, sometimes he adores being the small spoon. This doesn't happen often, normally after he woke up in a cold sweat from a nightmare stemming back to the Archon war.

D = Dates (what does their ideal date with you look like?)

Zhongli's ideal date is taking you out for a meal that he would pay for when he remembers his wallet and then go for a walk with you around the harbor. The idle chit-chat that you two would share as you wandered the streets was always pleasant and greatly appreciated by Zhongli.

E = Emotions (how do they express emotion around you?)

At the beginning of the relationship, Zhongli was very much only showing you his best until he felt he trusted you enough. After that, Zhongli would express his emotions easily with you and be free from fear of judgment.

F = Family (do they want one? If they do, when?)

Zhongli would be lying if he didn't say he wanted to start a family with you. The way you interacted with the children of Liyue harbor only spurred this desire on. He could see himself spending the rest of his life with you. He didn't care if the kids were your blood or a child that you both adopted.

G = Gifts (how do they feel about gift giving? What are their habits when it comes to this?)

Zhongli does buy you gifts from time to time. However, he doesn't think that you can only express your love with material items. After all his love language is quality time and acts of service.

H = Holding Hands (when/how do they like to hold hands?)

Zhongli adores holding your hand. Anytime the two of you are seen in public you are holding hands. Zhongli rubs a circle on the back of your hand when you are walking. it also helps him not lose you on the busy market days of Liyue harbor.

I = Injury (how would they act if you got hurt?)

If you ever come back home from your commission injured Zhongli will go straight to taking care of you. He will not let you do anything no matter how minor it is. Zhongli claims that it is best that you rest as much as possible until you are 100% better.

J = Jokes (do they like to joke around with or prank you? how?)

Zhongli isn't one to pull pranks on you. However, Hu Tao pulls pranks on the two of you quite often so in a way that makes it up for the two of you.

K = Kisses (how do they like to kiss you?)

Zhongli's kisses are full of adoration. Whether it be the quick peck he gives you before he leaves home for work that's message is I love you and I will see you later. Or the kiss he would give you throughout the day out of impulse. Also, the kisses full of desperation and longing after you return from an especially long commission which always leads to more.

L = Love (how do they show you they love you?)

Zhongli's love languages are quality time and acts of service. He loves just spending time with you at home or in the harbor just your presence being so soothing to him. He also always goes out of his way to help or make you tea, just to see the smile that you would give him in return. However, none of this stops him from telling you how he feels he just prefers to show it.

M = Memory (favorite memory together?)

One of Zhongli's fondest memory of you is when he told you he was the geo Archon shortly after the rite of ascension. He feared how you would react. However, he was pleasantly surprised when you accepted it and told him that you wouldn't treat him any differently.

N = Nightmare (what is their worst fear?)

Zhongli's worst fear is the fact that he will more than likely outlive you. He doesn't want to go through the pain of losing someone he cares so deeply for again.

O = Oddity (what is one quirk they have?)

Zhongli always knows when something is amiss with you. Whether it is you are upset and trying to hide it from him or when you have a surprise planned for him. It is like he knows before he even sees you.

P = Pet Names (what do they like to call you?)

Zhongli is quite old-fashioned with names and tends to go with pet names like love and darling. However, he does call you my lily on rare occasions.

Q = Quality Time (how do they like to spend time with you?)

Zhongli quite enjoys just spending time with you curled up on the couch in your shared home with you on his lap your head resting on his shoulder as he tells you stories or as he reads. He also enjoys going to the market with you and just visiting different places in Liyue.

R = Rhythm (what song reminds you of them?)

Lose it by Oh Wonder reminds Zhongli of you. He doesn't really know why but when he hears it he thinks of you.

S = Secrets (how open are they with you?)

Once you and Zhongli have been in a relationship for a while he begins to become more and more open with you. This is of course after he knows you won't take advantage of his ex-archon status.

T = Time (how long did it take you to get together?)

Zhongli asked you out after he knew you for about ten months. He wanted to make sure that the emotions he was feeling were genuine and if they were was a hint that you reciprocated these feelings.

U = Upset (how do they act when you’re upset?)

Whenever you are upset Zhongli will do his best to help cheer you. Whether that be reassuring you that want someone had said about you was inaccurate. Or just giving you a shoulder to cry on. Zhongli was your anchor that kept you tethered to reality.

V = Vaunt (what are they proud of? Do they like to show you off?)

Zhongli is incredibly proud to call you his partner. He might not seem to be the one to show off but he wants to show you off as if you are the finest noctilucous jade in all of Teyvat.

W = Warrior (how do they feel about you fighting? Would they fight for you, beside you, etc?)

Knowing that you can hold yourself in a battle reassures Zhongli greatly however he does hate it when you do come back injured. Unfortunately, that comes with the nature of fighting. However, if Zhongli had to use his polearm to defend you he wouldn't hesitate to. He has watched so many people enter and leave his life that he will do anything to keep you in his for as long as possible.

X = X-Ray (how well are they able to read you?)

Zhongli is quite good at picking up on your microexpressions, to the point that you are like an open book to him at times. Nothing gets past him easily.

Y = Yes (how would they propose to you?)

Zhongli would 100% propose to you when the time is right. That time being two years into your relationship before he would propose to you he would take you on probably the nicest date he could think of. I can see him proposing to you during the lantern rite.

Z = Zen (what makes them feel calm?)

Having you run your fingers through Zhongli's hair after a busy day calms him down so quickly. Having you near him is like a massive relaxant itself. He finds that any problems that plagued his mind before are gone once he is with you.

[blu-joons]

DATING MONSTA X HEADCANON A⇴Z ⇴  Im Changkyun

A ⇴ AFFECTION

Changkyun is a huge fan of affection, it’s definitely his love language. He loves to use it to remind you that he’s there, and also know that you’re with him too. Whenever you’re together, you can always expect some sort of physical contact.

B ⇴ BEFORE DATING

He was incredibly shy when he first met you, the other members ended up having to push him into speaking to you. You found it really endearing how nervous he was to talk to you, but after a couple of minutes in your company, Changkyun quickly began to settle and realised he had nothing to even be anxious about.

C ⇴ CONFESSION

His confession definitely didn’t go quite as Changkyun had planned. He confessed to you over dinner, yet somehow as he went to tell you how he felt, he ended up dropping his drink all down himself, creating a horrid damp stain on his white shirt. Once you’d helped to tidy him up a bit, he tried again to tell you how he felt, this time getting through it without any more mishaps or opportunities to embarrass himself.

D ⇴ DATES

If Changkyun remembered that the two of you had a date planned, they would always be special. He loved to treat you and take you out whilst also making sure to keep you on your toes. Just when you thought you knew the kind of dates that Changkyun enjoyed, he’d find something new for the two of you to try and send you in a different direction. You loved the mystery that came with dating Changkyun, he loved to leave you questioning what he had planned, but one thing for sure was that you always enjoyed it.

E ⇴ EXPERIENCE

You were his first experience of a proper relationship since his debut, whilst he’d had a few dates and talked to a few girls, nothing really came from them. He relied on his other members a lot to begin with, he’d turn to them frequently for support and guidance in what to do. He didn’t want you to see the side of him that was worrying and stressing, he wanted to put you under the illusion that he had everything under control. After being sat down with the boys, Changkyun knew exactly what to do and how to make everything work.

F ⇴ FIGHTING

Changkyun isn’t someone who fights often, if the two of you begin to argue, he’ll get very shy and shut himself down from the situation. He hates conflict and loud voices, and he always knows when the point is for the two of you to stop. He’ll always be the first one of the two of you to hold his hands up and acknowledge that the two of you need to take a step back and forget about what’s going on. At times he can be a bit short with you, and even though he means it as a joke, it doesn’t necessarily come off that way. If he knows that he’s hurt you though, he’ll be very quick to put things right and apologise to you.

G ⇴ GETTING TO KNOW HIS FAMILY

Meeting his family was a huge deal for you, and Changkyun knew how important it was for you. You ended up meeting them at a family wedding as Changkyun’s plus one. It took you a long time to even be able to speak in front of them because you were so nervous, but once you did, you were happy to talk to them all night long.

H ⇴ HOME

Over the years, he’d become very settled at the dorm, and changing that routine scared Changkyun a lot. He wanted to be sure that if he moved out of the dorm it was forever, as he didn’t want to change his routine again. He ended up moving into your place after a few months, as he wanted to still be in a space familiar to him.

I ⇴ “I LOVE YOU”

The first ‘I love you’ came from Changkyun one evening whilst the two of you were on a date. He’d been staring at you more than usual for most of the night, leaving you very confused. But, as he told you the reason for why he’d found himself staring more than usual, you were more than pleased by what you heard.

J ⇴ JEALOUSY

Changkyun never gets jealous, he enjoys seeing you happy, and if that’s with someone else, then he really doesn’t mind. He supports you in whatever you want to do and will trust you always in everything. At times you try a little harder to push the boundaries and see if he might get jealous, but he never does, he trusts you and knows that you’re more than capable of handling yourself. It definitely makes life a little bit easier for you knowing that you don’t have to worry about him getting jealous or doubting you.

K ⇴ KIDS

Before dating you, Changkyun had given very little thought to the future and starting a family with anyone or how his future would look. He still thought it was a little way off just yet, but if you wanted to talk about it, he wouldn’t say no. Over time, he naturally found himself beginning to think about a family more and more with the longer the two of you stayed together and the more likely being your forever came to him.

L ⇴ LAUGHTER

Being able to make you laugh is one of the things that Changkyun works hard on. He knows that you love his brutal attitude sometimes and how blunt he can be to people, he’s never nasty about it and always does it jokingly. He also loves to tickle you a lot, physical affection is a huge thing for you, so when he hugs you, he’ll often also attack your hips or your waist to be able to hear you laughing too. Once he starts hearing you laugh, he’ll find it hard to stop as he loves the sound of your giggles so much.

M ⇴ MISSING

As the youngest member of the group have always rallied around him a little bit more than the others. He doesn’t like for the other members to worry about him, even if he is the maknae, so he’ll try and convince them all that they don’t have anything to worry about. However, as soon as he’s alone with you, he’ll let you know exactly how he’s feeling and how hard of a time he’s having. He knows that he can confide in you, and even though you can’t physically be there with him, you’ll know the right things to say to pick him up and push him to continue. It’s hard on you both, but you both know it’s not going to be permanent when he goes away, and all you can do is look forward to the day that he comes back home.

N ⇴ NICKNAMES

You tended to just shorten his name when you wanted him, but if you ever called him by his full name, he’d know that he was in trouble. He’d spin around and smile innocently, but he’d know he’d been caught out.

O ⇴ OBSESSION

Changkyun is obsessed with your hair, he loves to play with it whenever you’re lying against him. The scent of your shampoo is also something he loves to fall asleep with.

P ⇴ PDA

Affection in public isn’t something that Changkyun is a big fan of. He’ll hold your hand and make it clear to people that the two of you are together, but that’s usually as far as affection from him goes. He much prefers to save proper affection for when the two of you are alone and no one is watching you both.

Q ⇴ QUESTIONS

Changkyun loved to question you when he needed a bit of a boost. Everyone had dips when they weren’t quite feeling themselves, and when he did, he often turned to you for advice and a bit of support.

R ⇴ RANDOM FACTS

He loved writing songs whenever he had some time to himself, but he also loved to have you around when he did so. You’d spent countless hours sat in his lap whilst Changkyun sat at his desk, usually with a piano beside you, coming up with lyrics. There were long nights when you’d often wake up the following morning still there, but with Changkyun smiling back at you having finished what he was working on.

S ⇴ SEX

Intimacy definitely makes Changkyun shy, as much as he likes being close to you and being able to touch you, he can’t help but blush from time to time and look away. His hands love to play with your hair during these times, he’ll often pull at you slightly to guide you to where he wants you and hold you in position. There aren’t many words needed between you both, your touches usually say everything you need them too.

T ⇴ TEXTS

Messages from Changkyun are usually apologies, he’s quite forgetful, so he’ll often end up having to send you a text to let you know he forgot what you wanted from the shop or the time you were supposed to be meeting.

U ⇴ UNIVERSE

Before dating you, Changkyun had never realised how important love was. He would often thank you at random moments for coming into his life and filling the gap he had in his life, even though he never knew it was there beforehand.

V ⇴ VACATION

Changkyun would be keen to travel with you as often as possible, he’d told you all about his upbringing and the places that he loved, so you’d be keen to take him back to some of those places when you could. He’d love to show you around all the places he loved as a youngster and make some new memories with you.

W ⇴ WHINING

Whenever he managed to embarrass himself, he’d whine to try and distract from the fact he’d just tripped up over himself or done something stupid.

X ⇴ XXXXX

He would love to kiss you when he felt his cheeks turn red so that you couldn’t tease him. Being one of the quieter members, he often found himself not saying a lot, but his kisses would be saying a lot to you. You’d learnt over the years how to read into his kisses and how to figure out how he was feeling. Changkyun never quite knew how you managed it, but he was blown away by how well you could read him.

Y ⇴ YOU

You were the love of his life, the one he wanted to be with every day, forever.

Z ⇴ ZZZ

The two of you are prone to late nights because of Changkyun’s work, so you usually lay as close to each other as you can to get off to sleep quickly. You won’t say much to each other, instead you’ll just close your eyes and enjoy each other’s company.

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Masterlist

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Manager!Seijoh

a/n: im a seijoh stan and theyre my little plant babies

for more seijoh content, check this masterlist out!

this is so long oml i hate myself

theyre an actual boy band istg

lets be honest, they probably thought you were just another oikawa fangirl

they thought you just wanted to be closer to their captain bc you were another delusional girl who wanted to live out her fantasies

lmao im not trying to be salty

but when you just stared blankly at oikawa tooru after he called you a beautiful flower,

stageplay hinata calling you a mugwort

the team just about threw themselves on your feet

tbh you werent really there to get a boyfriend or for oikawa

you just needed an after school club and the other teams already had managers

the only sport that didnt was the boys volleyball team

imagine why

you were actually a little wary, since you knew of oikawa, being a first year yourself, and you were aware of his psycho fangirls who could probably kill you

but you needed a club that would last you for the next 3 years to graduate

it was kunimi who actually recommended being a manager

you were in his class and you noticed him sleeping in the morning so you gave him your energy bar

‘thanks’

you shrugged and smiled

thats why he tolerated you more than others

you were nice and you were the only one who noticed his tiredness, even the teacher left him alone, and did something about it

sometimes, you even gave him an energy drink

‘can you tell me why youve been so tired lately? i dont think ive seen you wake up until lunch’

he opened the snack and started munching while replying

‘early morning practice for volleyball is still a big adjustment. our captain demands us to be there 6 in the morning sharp and if we’re even a minute late, we’d have to run laps. like for every minute youre late, you have to run those amount’

oh my why is kunimi talking so much

but i love kunimi and first year seijoh boys rights in this household is valid

you furrowed your eyebrows

‘but yall are still growing and you need all your sleep. if i were there, id yell at your captain’

he grinned slightly, imagining your short height beating up their captain

‘meh. you want to be our manager? i saw you looking at the clubs board yesterday and we dont have one so you could take the opportunity and beat him up then’

ofc you agreed bc kunimi was best boi and you just wanted him to have enough sleep for once

after class, he waited for you to finish packing up and when you finished, yall left the classroom

until another guy with a spiky hairstyle joined you and you noticed him as the guy who sometimes came over to eat lunch with kunimi

‘oh, hello l/n-san’

you smiled gently

‘drop the formalities, kindaichi-kun. its only fair.’

he nodded before walking beside kunimi

‘kindaichi, l/n might be our new manager’

the onion head excitedly looked at you

‘really?! yes! so we dont have to fill our bottles ourselves anymore!’

kunimi glared at him and slapped his stomach

‘shes our manager, not our maid’

you laughed but placed an arm on him

‘its okay. i was a manager for my middle school volleyball team so i know a little bit about being one’

the two shared a look

god, they really hit the jackpot

as yall walked closer to the gym, you noticed the big pile of girls huddling at the corner

kunimi sighed

‘l/n, ill warn you ahead of time of our captain. hes kinda,,,, too much’

but you flashed him a smile

‘hes not the first one ive handled’

oml player-chan!!!

so when you opened the door and entered the gym and oikawa hit you with his normal antics, you just stared at him

‘okay and?’

hanamaki and mattsun howled before rushing to you and grabbing you in a hug

‘girls like her really exist!!’

you gave kunimi and kindaichi a signal of help and they nodded before gently prying the senpais off of you

‘senpai, please’

you gave kunimi a grateful nod

coach irihata went up to you bc wow, kunimi has a friend with of another gender?

‘how can we help you, miss?’

‘im l/n y/n, first year, and id like to apply as the manager’

internally, the coach sighed bc you werent the first one to apply

the reason they havent had a manager for years was bc of oikawa’s fangirls hiding themselves under that false facade

but he saw you brush off that comment oikawa make with no hint of fluster or blush on your face so he decides to give you a trial run, in guise of seeing if you could handle these chaotic boys

‘do you have any experience as manager? or do we need to teach you the ropes?’

‘i was a manager for 3 years in my middle school volleyball’

he nodded

‘ill give you one month. a trial run of a month to test the waters’

you agreed and your trial run began

kunimi mentioned that morning practice starts at 6 am sharp so you set your alarm for 5 to get ready and get to school on time before the boys

you remembered how to set up the nets so you quickly put them out (using a step stool bc we short) and ran to get the basket of balls

their water bottles were filled and you were in the middle of lugging the big basket of towels when the third years entered

the 4 of them usually came earlier than the rest so they saw you dragging the basket of fresh towels and wipe your sweat before smiling at the work youve done

iwa was so happy bc it was usually him who did this stuff and now that he had someone do it for him, it was like a god-send

oikawa’s eyes shone and he waved at you

‘yohoo, y/n-chan!’

you cringed at the loud voice of the famous oikawa tooru

‘hello, oikawa-san’

he chuckled at your politeness before hugging you

‘you did all this for us? youre so cute, y/n-chan!’

instead of the normal blush and love-struck eyes, you were actually very uncomfortable of the sudden skinship and you quickly ran to the side when iwa hit him at the head

‘shittykawa! leave her alone!’

‘iwa-chan!’

makki and mattsun stood next to you as the boys did their usual fight

‘is this all an act or are you really not attracted to oikawa?’

mattsun shot him a surprised look bc why was he so straightforward

but you just shrugged

‘hes cute, i admit. but ive seen much cuter and the boys in my middle school team was basically full of him so,,, and i hate guys who think theyre all that just bc theyre blessed w a pretty face. if anything, ill probably go for iwaizumi-san’

pop off S I S T E R!!!

you just won the heart of these two

slowly but surely, they all came to accept you and iwa straight out loves you bc you maintained this routine for the whole month of your trial run

and you still remained indifferent of oikawa’s advances and he was even impressed and slightly agitated that you werent paying attention to him

‘y/n-chan, one date! just one!’

you huffed before looking up from your clipboard

‘i like men, oikawa-san. not boys’

that comment made the guys shriek

‘y/n-chan! youre just a first year! you dont need a man!’

‘youre not a man, oikawa!’

you left oikawa to be tormented by his teammates and went to go and hand over the report to the coach

he was impressed by the notes you made bc they were ones he even missed

like the split-second of hesitation that kindaichi usually has that goes unnoticed but you immediately saw

or the wince oikawa has whenever he so much as jumps an inch

you could even tell the difference between iwa’s spike and if he was being easy or he was going full-out

this added on to the fact that the boys loved you and irihata actually saw kunimi try more 

but he thinks its only to earn your praises

‘y/n, youre officially the team manager’

yall celebrated at the normal hang-out spot which was the ramen shop and it truly shocked you at how much these boys ate

granted, this was the first time you ate together but you didnt expect them to eat nearly 5 bowls each

you could only finish 2 and you already feel like throwing up

‘honestly, how do you guys not gain weight after this?’

the table you sat at, iwa, kindaichi, mattsun, and kunimi, looked at you and shrugged

‘i work out’

‘i run’

‘i fast’

‘i poop it out’

lmao im sorry i cackled too hard at this

you stared blankly at mattsun’s answer who said it so seriously that you snorted a laugh

they watched you and your laughter bc you havent really expressed yourself as much 

so they made it their goal to see you laugh more

‘y/n-chan! you need to eat more!’

oikawa shouted, clearly food drunk, but you shook your head aggressively

‘i only planned to eat one bowl but he just had to shove another down my throat’

‘but you need to grow, y/n-chan!’

‘i want to grow taller! not wider!!’

As a manager:

oh boy

you basically grew into kinda their mom

‘oikawa-san! you need to rest your knee or youre going to hurt yourself! i will drag you home myself!’

‘kunimi, if you try to get this one more spike, i’ll buy you a bag of those caramel bites you like’

‘iwa-san! if you hit oikawa-san too much, youll destroy the little braincells he has!’

‘yahaba-san, nice dump!’

‘is your knee okay, watari-san?’

yall really forget that watari and yahaba exist sometimes smh

it was part of the work

keeping up with seijoh

so to keep them encouraged, you gave them praises that they always demand for and they always turn to you whenever they did something good

mattsun gives you a look whenever he blocks iwa’s spikes and you give kindaichi a head pat whenever he blocks some too

bc of how you are with them, sometimes, they forget that you are actually just a first year

they get shocked whenever you walk in with kunimi and kindaichi and talk about the current homework bc it slips their mind that their hard-working manager was actually just a 15-year-old girl

so, they try to ease the burden whenever they can

like iwa offering to help you whenever you have to take their jerseys to the laundrymat

or offering to help you with your assignments since theyve only been through it once

more like watari, yahaba, and iwa bc the matsuhana are clueless and acts like they completely skipped that grade

also

!!!!

oikawa’s fangirls ltr dont leave you alone!!!

now, its known that youre the manager of the volleyball team bc oikawa has boasted about your efforts and such

this obvs ticked off a bunch of girls bc they were jealous that you got to spend more time in a single practice with their precious oikawa-senpai than they have their entire lives

more than once theyve cornered you to threaten you to stay away from their senpai or youll have something coming for you

you never take them seriously bc you can fight too and you just give them a look and push them away

but this one time

TRIGGER WARNING-START

okay tea

the self-proclaimed president of the oikawa tooru fanclub, kenta miyo, cornered you at the bathroom with her other minions

you were just washing your hands and drying them off when she marched up to you and grabbed your hair before tugging it back

obviously you were surprised and shouted

‘oi! what the hell?!’

‘you slut! you need to stay away from my tooru, got it?!’

ehm what

you hissed and wrenched her arm from your hair and pushed her away

your hair was now a mess and you were fuming, already sick and tired of the torture these girls put you through

‘he belongs to himself, not you! so stop being delusional and leave me alone already!’

she signalled for the girls to hold on to you which you slapped away but they forcefully grabbed your arm while you kicked at them and struggle to get out of their hold

jesus what do these girls eat

miyo watches you struggle with a smile and cackles

‘oh? no fight anymore, little kouhai?’

you glared at her

‘i dont want to beat yall up bc id get yelled at by tooru so you need to let me go or regret it’

at the mention of his first name, her eyes widened and her face twisted and she slapped you

‘oi! respect your senpai, you brat! dont you ever say oikawa’s first name!’

your lips curled

‘oh? thats funny, because he actually told me to call him that since he wants his cute little manager to be very comfortable with him’

you achieved a feat that she has been working to get her entire high school life and miyo was not happy

‘ive been with him for 3 years and you just suddenly show up out of nowhere and call him that?! i dont think so!’

she had her hands around your neck and you gripped her arms, making her wince

but you laughed at that comment

‘heh, thats pathetic, isn’t it? here you are, my senpai, who has been vying for his attention for 3 years only to be ignored yet a mere first year, who shows up out of nowhere, has been asked to a date nearly a million times every day. that must be tough’

she shrieked at that comment and threw you on the floor, making you accidentally hit your head at the edge of the sink

yall im actually so bothered by this scene and im wincing as im typing

you bit your lip to prevent any sound of pain to escape bc you knew thats what she wanted to hear from you

but you werent going to give her the satisfaction

instead, you looked up at her, hatred swirling in your eyes

‘youre freaking psycho, you know that? once tooru and hajime knows about this, theyre going to give you hell. they wont ever let this go bc im the manager of their prized team and their little baby sister. so go ahead, do what you want with me. bc i paid too much for these nails to be tainted by dirt like you’

saiyo, a girl you noticed to be watari’s classmate when you went and visited him, nervously tugged on miyo’s jacket

‘miyo, we should go-’

‘SHES BLUFFING. AND HERE, SINCE YOUR SOCCERFIELD FOREHEAD IS BLEEDING, LET ME HELP WASH IT OUT’

and she poured over a carton of banana milk over you, making you wince at the sticky and cold liquid

the tough facade was crumbling and you were now screaming for help in your head, hoping that stupid theory from yahaba about team telepathy to work

but it didnt

TRIGGER WARNING-END

when miyo and her girls left, you sat on the floor, soaked and sticky and bleeding

then you begin to cry angry tears

you were angry that you were being treated like this just bc you were a manager

you were angry that you let them do that to you

you were angry that you prized your nails more than punching her square in the nose

you were just angry

periodt

staggering on your own feet, you stood up and leaned on the sink, eyes widening at the dripping red liquid from the gash on your forehead, staining the porcelain sink

you were stupid and unconsciously touched it making you wince 

‘shit, that hurts’

you whined quietly

there was little you can do with toilet paper and water to clean yourself up but you managed to at least stop the bleeding

you knew you had to be put on concussion protocol just in case bc you that hit was quite hard but at the moment, that wasnt your concern

practice has already started and this was the first time you werent present for daily practice

this was confirmed at the constant buzzing of your phone in your skirt pocket which you didnt listen to and instead, started thinking of ways to go to your locker and get your stuff and fake being sick but at the same time, not be seen and relayed to the team

time was ticking and you had to come up with a plan fast before oikawa will send the team to come looking around the building for you

once you looked at your reflection and smiled big, you decided it was enough to not show the pain you were in right now

girl im hurting for you

you peeked out of the bathroom door and saw the coast was clear so you quickly ran to your classroom, which was thankfully empty, and quickly grabbed your things

but as you were packing up, the tears just kept falling

it didnt stop as you bolted down the stairs, using your cardigan to hide your face from the public

once you were safely out of school grounds, you finally took out your phone and reviewed through all the worried and concerned texts from the team group chat

but you just replied, ‘im fine but i just feel really sick right now. girl stuff’

you smirked, knowing that would keep the boys away

but oikawa had to go and ask you to call him

‘y/n-chan! do you want oikawa-senpai to come over with chocolates and ice cream?! wings or no wings?!’

your jaw dropped at the question and clearly scandalized by the question

the team was too as shouting began and you could faintly hear iwa scream, ‘oh my god, shittykawa!’

‘im seriously okay, oikawa-san. i just need to be alone right now and ill try and get some sleep. good bye’

then you hung up

there was no way you could tell them

they were in their last year anyways so doing something about it wouldnt matter

and you were strong 

but apparently not strong enough to fight them off though

you would cover the wound with concealer and continue on with practice tomorrow as if everything was normal

but there was only so much you could take

just yesterday, they trashed your locker and a week ago, they took your bento and threw it away

you even got into a fight with this one girl but she scampered away, too scared to do anything alone

so you were actually just tired and want everyone to leave you alone

believe me, youve thought of quitting sometimes

but youve actually created a bond with these boys

like when you take hanamaki to get cream puffs whenever he loses against iwa in arm wrestling

or when yahaba calls you at ungodly hours to express his worries for next year and to fill oikawa’s shoes

it was simple moments that you shared with each player that kept you from not leaving

soon, you found yourself crying again and the looks pedestrians were giving you was starting to make you uncomfortable

a girl, with her gross hair in a bun, puffy eyes with a bleeding wound and walking down the street

that was a sight

so you cut a corner to an alley by your house to escape from the judging eyes and you were too busy wiping your eyes to see a boy who was crouched down on the floor and ended up walking over him

omg my baby kyoken hello luv!!!!

you gasped and you were surprised and quickly apologized

kyotani was originally about to yell at you, no matter what, but he saw the state you were in and concluded you were either from a fight or was beaten up

he recognized that and decided to just glare at you and go back to feeding the stray dogs and cats

you breathed a sigh in relief when he didnt yell at you bc that wouldve been the last thing you needed today

‘sir, im sorry for hitting you. if there is something i could do for you, dont hesitate’

he ignored you and you focused on him paying attention to the strays

going into your backpack, you had a milk carton and a sausage stick from earlier

you used your thermos lid to serve as the milk bowl for the cats while you peeled open the meat and used your scissors to cut chunks of it for the dogs to have some

kyotani watched as you went into action to feeding the animals that people usually ignored

he knew you

well, he recognized you

when he watched from the top of the gym, he saw you as their manager who ran around and helped everyone

sure, he still didnt trust you 

but he watched you grin and smile as the animals started to eat

‘im in a hurry right now so i have to go but ill feed you again tomorrow, okay? you too, stranger-san. ill bring food for you too’

then you stood up and ran away, probably in a hurry to fix that wound

he wouldve offered to treat it for you but he remained silent, watching the cats mewl at the now empty lid

the next day, oikawa was worried for you and when he saw you at early morning practice, he practically glomped to your side

‘y/n-chan! you okay?! oikawa-senpai was so worried for you!’

you cringed but nodded

‘im okay, oikawa-san’

‘senpai, y/n-chan! call me senpai!’

‘im not going to feed into your kink, oikawa-san’

*cue everyone busting a lung*

to this day, no one still knew what happened to you

you kept it quiet and you were sure you got everything handled

except for one person

kyotani was smart and for some reason he knew you got beat up by the fangirls and the perpetrators were easily found bc he saw them huddled around your locker, probably trashing it again, and lets just say, 

no one is def going to mess w you now

back to manager moments!!

during practice matches, the boys rally around you to prevent other teams from sweet-talking you

they make sure no one gets past them and always have excuses to get your attention

you knew what they were doing but you pretended not to, heart warming at their protectiveness and hunger for your attention

even though you have your own jacket, the team gives you theirs all the time like oikawa has his special team jacket w his name at the back and when he feels threatened by schools like johzenji, he makes you wear it

‘youre mine, y/n-chan and i want that blondie to know’

‘ehm, no, oikawa-san. im iwaizumi-san’s’

oikawa screamed

lmao training camps w them is CHAOTIC

YOU WANT TO CRYYYYYY

OIKAWA IS CRYING BC IWAIZUMI IS BEATING HIM UP, MATSUHANA ARE FREAKING OUT THE FIRST YEARS ABOUT THE GHOSTS IN THE WOODS AND NOW KINDAICHI REFUSES TO LET GO OF YOU, WATARI GOT LOST GOING TO THE BATHROOM AND YAHABA IS SCREAMING ABOUT THE WEATHER MESSING UP HIS HAIR AND MAKING IT FRIZZY

reminder: threaten to quit everytime they get too much

your hugs are the best!!!!

you have a special hug for every player

oikawa gets his favorite which was the normal arm around the waist with your arms around his neck while he snuggles in your neck

iwa gets flustered easily so you hug him from behind so you cant see his flustered look

mattsun actually likes the jumping in the air so he catches you type of hug

makki is more tame and has his arms around your shoulder with his chin on your head

yahaba is the twirly kind where he just picks you up and swings you around

watari also gets flustered easily so he likes the one-arm hugs

kindaichi gets blushy at the slightest touch from you but he gives you a hug from behind you himself where he can bury his face in your hair while you caress his arms

kunimi, now he likes it when you squeeze him extremely tight bc it makes him feel loved and feel alive

kyo doesnt even talk to you what makes you think you can give him a hug

their lost for shiratorizawa really broke them though

you made them their own bentos for nearly a week to keep them encouraged and gave oikawa extra attention to keep him from sulking or practicing late

‘oikawa-senpai, lets go watch that new movie later’

‘S-S-SENPAI?!’

then the arrival of our baby kyoken

yahaba was moody the whole practice and you were currently trying to keep him from spiking a ball to someone

‘even just today, he’s late’

‘who?’

‘that stupid dog’

he just keeps mumbling and grunting

and then the said dog arrived

you peaked out from behind iwaizumi, who protectively went in front of you

shock ran through you and you pointed at him

‘puppy-kun!’

lmao puppy what

youve called him that since he refused to tell you his name, but you call him that bc he paid special attention to this one baby beagle

he raised a hand in greeting and you gave him a smile

‘youre a player here, too?!’

he ‘glared’ at you but nodded stiffly

the team really thought that he would lash out at you but he is surprisingly tolerant

the power of the manager

he still hasnt talked to you but he does respond to you and even helps you with chores, still not talking ofc

hes so tsun tsun and he deserves my heart yall

however, youve heard him talk to iwaizumi, and iwaizumi only, so youve heard his voice before

ngl, you were flustered by how gruff and deep it was

then their loss to karasuno

bruh, it was KARASUNO

the entire team fell apart and after the match, each of them ran away from you to stop lashing out

you were also on the verge of crying, seeing the broken look on your third years

your precious third years

you decided to give them their own space but you heard a loud banging sound from the bathroom

yahaba and watari were outside, clearly trying to talk to someone in there on coming out but it got louder

okay you were lowkey like, ‘hm, i should not be here’

but you recognized that voice

you knocked at the boys door to be respectful

‘kyo-san? its me, y/n’

he was silent but he did unlock it

you took this as a sign to enter and you gave yahaba and watari a smile

‘i’ll be fine. go to kindaichi and kunimi. they need your comfort right now’

tbh, you were surprised the bathroom was still intact but you saw the stall door at the very end being rattled and shaken

you remained by the door but you wanted to go to him

‘kyo-san, please come out so i can treat your injuries’

he expected you to say those words like ‘its okay’ or ‘theres always next year’ but you didnt

instead, you knew he was hurt and wanted to help him

he continued to give a few punches to the wall and the door before emerging

you wordlessly treated the wounds and offered your hand

‘im here, kyo-san. dont worry, im right here’

at the ramen shop, you told them to eat as much as they want and wordlessly gave them your card, slightly crying inside bc you know this was going to be like over a hundred dollars

but you were treating the boys bc they deserved it

you sat beside kindaichi, who was just sobbing and apologizing, so you were wiping his tears and holding his hand under the table

this precious babie

bruh i was sobbing when i watched this part like uuggghhhh

after dinner, you walked with the other third years, knowing they would go to the gym, so you gave everyone else your special hugs before sending them home

‘text me when you arrive safely, okay?’

‘yes, mom’

‘KINDAICHI WHAT’

oikawa’s speech made you cry bc despite only knowing them for not even a year, you already feel like a family

you didnt want your family to be broken but you knew they would all go their separate ways eventually

there was a big hug pile of third years on the side where you took a picture and sent it to the group chat

you had to eventually go home after helping them clean up and when you checked your phone, a fresh batch of tears rolled down

each from every person on the team but with the same sentence and same words

‘we love you, l/n y/n. thanks for everything.’

ngl i dont think this was that good and its like 8 in the morning and im extremely tired

i want to do karasuno, nekoma, and fukurodani but im so exhausted i cannot right now