#(and i dislike reblogging my own stuff because i feel annoying)

[msmargaretmurry]

I'm so sorry, this is totally not in response to the compliment post you reblogged (I'm afraid I can only compliment you un-ominously, you are my favourite author in the mattdrai fandom and ily ❤️)

but I've been meaning to send you this ask for the last two days and I can't wait any longer, I HAVE to know!! I know you're a busy person - so feel free to ignore this or answer it when you have time or keep your response really short!

So. I'm doing my quarterly HAW reread right now and I have two new questions that I think (?) I never asked you before.

during the scene in the dressing room of the gym, what are leon's thoughts? matthew is obviously a little ... affected by unexpected physical contact but I'm wondering about leon. is he only thinking "what a weirdo" or if he's taken aback by his own reaction too? what is going through his mind? please tell meeeeee!

when is the first time leon puts on matthew's shirt at home and in what context? does he already have feelings for Matthew? what is he thinking when he does it? when is the first time he wears it in front of his teammates and do they call him out on his non-existent connection to st. louis? I need more details about this soooo badly.

THANK YOU!

my dear miriam, i am always accepting non-ominous compliments 😂❤ thank you, ily. please find the answers to your inquiries under the cut.

1) the scene in the dressing room at the gym — both of them are such messes in this scene, lmao. matthew is being a dick because he's in a mood, and leon is confused and annoyed and also coming off as a dick, especially as seen through matthew's pov, who is just assuming the worst of leon's opinion of him at every turn and reading every hint of brusqueness or sarcasm as plain old dislike.

leading up to this scene, leon's been in toronto for a few days. he's mostly having a pretty good time, hanging out with connor, seeing some of the other guys, etc. connor keeps ribbing him that he should talk to matthew; leon keeps rolling his eyes and saying he's not interested anymore, which isn't NOT true, but mostly the thing is that matthew has never shown any real interest in leon, which has wounded leon's pride and therefore he has decided he's not interested anymore. (connor doesn't 100% believe him when he says he's not interested anymore, but mostly he just doesn't care if leon is lying or not because it's fun to tease him.)

anyway on this particular day he's partly kind of in a bad mood because his ankle is bothering him, and partly kind of in a bad mood because he feels a little like he's being made fun of, between matthew's instagram antics and how brady keeps coming to talk to him and connor. he's feeling a little paranoid that maybe someone overheard one of connor's teasing comments and told the tkachuks about it and now matthew thinks leon actively has a thing for him. which, even if he did, connor has earned the right to tease leon about stuff like that. matthew has not. and connor has always said matthew's a nice enough guy off the ice but he's been kind of standoffish the whole time leon's been here, and leon isn't going to automatically take it personally like SOME people, but it is making him wary!

so he sees matthew head into the locker room and is maybe staring after him a little obviously, and connor is teasing him like, hey, seems like a great chance to go talk to him, and leon is in just a grumpy enough mood to be like, fine, i'll go talk to him, and it's going to go badly, and then you can get off my back about it, right? and he stalks over there trying the whole way to think of something normal to say, but it does not work, so he gets into the locker room and just kind of blurts the first thing in his head, and the conversation stumbles and faceplants from there.

the thing is, if they'd had this conversation on a different day, when leon was in a better mood and matthew was maybe a little less in his own head, it probably would have gone much better. maybe leon would even have tried flirting a little (or a lot). as it is, even with the collective moodiness of both of them, he still has the urge to flirt a little — which is SO annoying, because of course connor is right and he's still interested. extremely annoying thing to have to admit to yourself when the guy in question is standing there outwardly being a dick to you. it makes him determined to not let matthew wind him up, which of course gets him more wound up, which is how he ends up grabbing matthew by the wrist. there is definitely a moment when they're standing there like that where he has this flash of a vision in his head like: what if this sexual tension is mutual, and he kisses matthew right now, hard enough to bruise, and they just have wild nasty sex right there in the locker room.

but obviously this does not happen 😂 he wouldn't have tried it even if connor hadn't come in, he still would have just gone home annoyed about the fact that he is apparently definitely still into matthew tkachuk, even when matthew is being a dick. (this encounter is also a big part of why he's so wary and put-upon when he runs into matthew at boots, lol.)

so that is that!!

2) leon and matthew's shirt from boots — so obviously leon wears it for the rest of that night at the festival, and then shoves it in his bag with his other dirty clothes, washes it when he gets home, kind of ignores it for the rest of the summer because he feels very weird about how things went down in that rv, but does grab it when he packs for edmonton just in case matthew wants it back at some point. because he has already decided he needs to talk to matthew, so if matthew wants the shirt back, he wants to have it on hand.

he doesn't actually start wearing it until after the first time matthew comes over to his house, because at that point he figures if matthew wanted it back he'd've asked for it. his matthew feelings aren't super strong at that point but they are like — they're there, he's not in denial about that. it's not a big moment or anything, he's just grabbing something to change into to bum around the house for the rest of the evening, and it's there, and he's like… sure, i could wear this.

he does not expect to get in his feelings about it, but as he's lying around with bowie that night he does get a little in his feelings about it, because he keeps thinking maybe he'll send matthew a selfie of him wearing it and then chickening out. he's weirdly nervous about it! and that forces him to think about why he's nervous, which forces him to acknowledge that he doesn't just have feelings, he's actually pretty invested in what they're doing, and he'd be really bummed out if matthew wasn't also invested. "selfie in your clothes" feels like real relationship behavior, so maybe he'll just save that for when he's a little more sure that matthew is on the same page as he is.

the first time he wears it in front of his non-connor teammates is when the oilers take a roadtrip to st. louis 😂 they chirp him about being a tourist. but after that he can wear it whenever he wants! everyone thinks he just bought it in st. louis!

i hope these were satisfactory answers to your questions!! i'm glad you're still enjoying the fic ❤❤

[freckledjoes]

Hi there! I noticed on your most recent gifs, you didn't have your usual watermark on them and was curious if there was a reason you're no longer doing so?

Hi :) There’s a reason, yes. Long answer incoming!

For the longest time I’ve used a watermark in the hopes that it would keep people from reposting, considering I added the “don’t repost my gifs or edits” to every post as well. And with my watermark, I’d have a foot to stand on if I noticed they did it anyway. It’s just very discouraging when people repost the things I put so much time in creating.

However, every single time I’ve asked someone not to repost, I’ve been met with hostility, been called a bully, and they always supposedly find it on Pinterest, Google or from someone else, while some stole it minutes after I posted it - or simply posted a lot of mine, making it all seem less plausible that they didn’t get it directly from my blog. Which, simply put, gets tiring. Besides, my stuff gets reposted so often that I’d have a day job chasing them all - which is very draining.

So… in a sense, I give up? I feel like adding my watermark will only drag more reposters to my blog and I dislike them all with a passion. I don’t get why people think it’s a nice thing to do. I’d love to block every single person who comes here from Twitter to steal my stuff, but I can’t so, yeah :) I will still keep it in my bio, because it happens within Tumblr sometimes as well and that’s also annoying considering someone can literally just reblog it.

I have to admit I also don’t love the gif option where people take my gif and add one sentence on here, but at least that option links back to my post.

I never liked watermarking my stuff in the first place, but it sucks when you spend time on something and your own post gets 10 likes, but several reposters get 300+. Doesn’t really seem fair, even if I’m not like driven at all. It’s just, what am I creating these things for if people can’t even bother to appreciate it on the original post?

It’s basically a lose lose situation at this point if you ask me. I might quit altogether sometime because of it, but as of right now the people expressing their love and joy for what I make are what keep me going, as well as my love for creating :)

[cinemautistic]

epic headcannons time (IGNORE THE DEPARTMENT INSTEAD OF APARTMENT MY ENGLISH IS SHITTY) (PLS IF YOU DRAW THIS, REBLOG OR @ ME, NOT FOR CREDITS I JUST WANT TO SEE THIS):

- An and Mizuki were the only ones for some months until Ena and Akito were ALL the day complaining about their father and An was like "i'm soooo tired of this" and mizuki was like "me too but I want to help them" "yeah same ): ....... OMG I HAVE THE BEST IDEA EVER". Now they're four university students with a focus on arts and. yeah, how you guessed, they eat microwave food every day. And sometimes ice cream, especially when they're watching bad romcoms (Akito acts like he hates them. He doesn't)

- Saki wanted to live in her own apartment because she wanted to finally be more independent, and Shiho wanted the same but for different reasons. Now they live together and Saki always buys the most silly pink cute stuff and Shiho acts like she hates it (she doesn't).

- MMJ live together because their company believed it would be better for the group, but when they are not releasing new songs or having tours, they live with their family. Also, Shiho sleeps in her family house when Shizuku sleeps there.

-Rui and Nene always wanted to live together one day, since they were children. When they started looking for an apartment for the two of them, they discovered that Tsukasa had been sleeping in friend's apartments all this time bc he was kicked out. And Nene is like "... should we live with him?" "I don't see the problem, and it would be quite fun- but, are you okay with that?" "sighs... yeah". And Tsukasa reaction to this was being like "OHHH WE'RE GOING TO BE THE BEST ROOMATES" and Nene is like "......ok." and Rui just laughing. Also, Tsukasa would be up at 5 a.m doing breakfast and singing and Rui is a sleepy guy so he would be kinda annoyed and Nene just fell asleep an hour ago. But when they're about to talk with him, Tsukasa is waiting them with the best breakfast ever and screaming "GOOD MORNING, MY AMAZING ROOMATES!!" and RuiNene want to cry.

- KanaMafu already lives together. I feel like Mafuyu would go out to buy things for school assignments, and force Kanade to accompany her. At first, Kanade dislikes it, but she starts liking going out to do basic stuff and ends up doing it even for herself.

- Honami and Toya live in their own apartments. Honami lives alone because It's easier to keep everything organized, and she likes doing basic Home stuff. However, she has a lot of sleepovers with ShihoSaki (and Ichika!). Toya lives in a studio room, even if he remains in contact with his parents. Even so, she usually sleeps on the couch of AkiAn's apartment.

- Ichika lives with her parents because yeah, she feels more comfortable like this. Sometimes she goes to sleepovers in the ShihoSaki apartment, but she loves sleeping in her own bed. Kohane lives with her two dads (stolen headcannon) because I feel her family saves more money than the others? I feel like they try to don't waste too much. And Emu... idk, rich family stuff, but I feel some mornings Tsukasa is like "Such a pretty morning! Let's do the breakfast!!" "Good morning Tsukasa!!" "Good morning E-! EMU???!!!!!! WHAT- HOW-"

yeah that's it

[eff-plays]

I love hearing your takes on Astarion and the Tav's who are romancing him, it makes me feel less like a jerk for being annoyed by all the same things.

Glad to hear it!! I do sometimes feel like a jerk when I make those posts because at the end of the day, people who write bland OOC fanfic aren't hurting anyone.

But I also think that I'm not really hurting anyone by talking about the stuff I dislike, either. If someone is hurt by me dunking on a trope they like/have written, that's not my problem lol. Like I'm not talking directly to them or saying they can't write or enjoy it, I'm just expressing my own opinion on a general trend.

I just can't comprehend how my enjoyment of creating something would be hurt by some anonymous rando saying they don't like similar aspects of it, so whenever people do get upset it's like ... Okay? Did you need my permission to create? Do you need to believe everything you make will be for everyone forever? To me it's like ... keep scrolling, ya know? Block me if you want, it's whatevs.

It's fine to have opinions and dislike things. As long as you're not a dick directly to the people who make the things you dislike and write them hatemail or mean comments/reblogs, who give a shit, ya know?

So like ... I think even if we are jerks, it's like ... fine? It's fine to dislike things and to express your dislike of those things. Especially when it comes to general popular trends in fandom and media. Especially on your own blog and when it's not directly aimed at any particular person.

[cboffshore]

Since I saw you reblogging an ask post...

I was reading one of your fics on ao3 (I forgot which one :,) ) and in one of the notes you mentioned that there were certain Skybound angst tropes that you weren't quite fond of. So what are those tropes if you do mind me asking?

Hey there! Starting off with a SPICY one, that's fun. I've probably got that note on all of my Skybound stuff in some way, shape, or form, because aside from being my personal preferences, these tropes I don't like run DEEP in the fandom. This is going to get long, so under the cut we go! (Cw/tw for mentions of SA and related topics.)

There are three main tropes in Skybound fic that I dislike, but they appear so often and in so many forms that it's impossible to name them all, so they're split into three main categories for ease here. Ordered from least to most irritating:

Probably the least annoying on this list: violence and gore. This is the most understandable one that shows up - after all, this is a fighting show, and of course we've got that whole eyepatch scene to reckon with - but it's still a little annoying. I can usually work past it unless it's take 62837272727 of someone gouging out Jay's eye or a souped up Scrap n Tap scene with nothing added but more blood and gratuitous violence. Doesn't matter how creative it is, that's usually enough to make me close out unless the fic has something cooler to offer. It gets boring fast, okay? Like, I completely get it most times, but it's been done to death. Not always a total deal breaker, though. I've used shades of it in my own work, so I can't condemn it entirely.

A lethal pairing I like to call Sopping Wet Cat Jay and Therapy Dog Nya- usually comorbid, very rarely independent. This also usually presents in post-Skybound reveal/healing style fics. Sopping Wet Cat Jay is when all Jay (when presented with Skybound memories or reminders) is capable of is being absolutely, well, sopping wet and pathetic about it. Lots of crying and wailing and nightmares. Therapy Dog Nya is the traditional response to this, where Nya forgets her own trauma entirely to be a huggable object and supplier of gentle reassurance that nothing that happens to Jay was his fault. Again, I completely understand why people write these, but I feel very strongly that they're a disservice to BOTH characters. Jay flew the Keep (ETA: originally wrote Jeep lmao) straight into the Temple and threatened to turn Nadakhan into French toast! Nya DIED after spending all season trying to advocate for herself and her independence! Did we even watch the same show? Sure doesn't feel like it when I see this trope. Absolutely, yes, trauma presents weirdly down the line - but this as the default response always seems weird to me. And it shows up so, so often. Worse still is when a fic might try to give Nya a little agency and nod at her trauma, only to spin on its heel the moment the author decides Jay needs to start sobbing about mops or something. (I'm probably coming off bitter here, but let's be real: this has been happening for seven years. I'm tired.)

This one is an absolute deal breaker: gratuitous sexual assault and/or capital R offenses. Doesn't matter who it happens to, honestly, but the absolute worst is when it happens to Jay (perpetrated by Nadakhan) and when the author acts like it's canon and writes as if it's a given. I actually have already written an entire two part essay on this - part one is here, with a link to part two at the end. Some of my stances in part two have shifted slightly (for instance, I've recently blocked both case study authors because every time I see someone endorsing their work, I want to deep fry my thumbs), but for the most part, this essay conveys my feelings on, nuances of, and rough history of this trend WAY better than I can here. And if you thought #2 came off kinda bitter, well. This essay is battery acid, but I mean every word. An opinion I didn't fully examine in the essay is that I also feel it's a disservice to Nadakhan's character - he's FASCINATING, so to see him reduced to a r*pist just makes me mad. Go after him for his CANON crimes, please. Stop making stuff up!!

Anyway - thanks for the ask! If you read the essay and have any questions, please let me know.

[asongofstarkandtargaryen]

Idk how old your post/rblog is and i have a rant sorry you're the receiver. I used to love Jonsa crackship years ago before the show "hints" and like the amount of people shipping it has ruined it for me tbh.

And in general, idk if in my lack of tumblr use for like 5 years, everyone "grew out of tumblr' and left cause i've come back and :( it's ship wars and character wars and at least who i followed (all 4+years since they last blogged) even when they disliked a character they never just IGNORED characteristics and stuff. Like Catelyn and Sansa were always victims of misogynistic takes but at least people weren't utterly praying for their demise like i see now.

besides like Euron and the Mountain and like Ramsay and Roose, it's hard not to see the good AND the bad of every character, male or female, that's sorta the point of the series..... like even Jaime "throw a kid out the window" Lannister has a whole ass redemption arc (and my personal theory will still die despite growth!) like ughhh

sorry to rant, but like I feel like I can't follow any asoiaf blog that isn't casual rblogs cause everyone is so PRESSED in trying to up their faves that they destroy others in the process.... how is this fun for anyone???? do you like the media you are consuming????

you can just delete this i'm just tired.

I respect your fandom experience but I have a different one. I wasn't always on Tumblr but I've been a fan of asoiaf books even before the show started airing and I don't agree that things were better in the past. Dudebros on reddit (and on other platforms) always considered Catelyn and Sansa the worst characters ever simply because they found them boring. But I also remember fans making fun of the trauma Jon Snow has thanks to his stepmother, calling him whinny and saying that he should be grateful he didn't have it worse. Long before Jon//sa, I remember Sansa and San//san fans taking elements from Arya's and other Starks' stories to give to their favourite character/pairing. And then I also remember the Dark! Dany and Political! Jon theories rising. So yeah, fandom always had awful takes.

On the other hand, I've read some great meta from various fans other the years, seen some beautiful edits and art, read good fanfictions and even make some friends. So, I'm not going to say that everything about the asoiaf fandom is awful because that would untrue.

I don't post/reblog of mine triggered your ask but I guess that's what matter the least. The most important is how we should all curate our own fandom experience. My advice to anyone who might read this is to block tags of stuff that trigger/irritate you, block blogs that annoy you ( or simply post about your disliked characters/ships) and follow people whose content you enjoy.

[hydesjackiespuddinpop]

Hey Poorni, I mostly just lurk here but sometimes check in with your account and am always blown away by how quickly and drastically you change your mind on so many people and ships! Like on a Wednesday you'll post several times about a pair being a notp and by Thursday you're praising them as an otp and reblogging them constantly and then by Friday or Saturday you're disliking them again lol. For example, you've gone from going on about how much you hate Neia to suddenly calling them an OTP lol. A few weeks ago you didn't like Zaya at all and now they're like your biggest OTP ever. You liked Kitty and then hated her more than anyone I'd ever seen and then will swing back to liking her. And so on. We all change our minds about some ships and characters, and it's great to have an open mind. I'm just curious what causes you to go from hate to love to hate to love again on so many characters and ships so quickly---is it based on rewatches, reading other people's metas, Or do you just kind of wake up feeling totally different than you did the day before? You can ignore if you want to, I'm just always into learning about what makes fans tick, and you changing your opinions so frequently interests me!

First of all, I love long asks so ty for sending this haha!

Secondly, I wouldn't exactly saying that my love for characters and ships change day by day. It's actually the opposite most of the time where it's very drastic.

Like with Kitty, as a kid I liked her but then I saw a few threads on her and I was like 'ok she is kind of annoying when I think about it'. Then rewatching at like 16-17 (i think 17 tbh), she's very irritating and I feel like she's glorified WAY too much (especially in t7s). So then I started having more complex feelings but then after a few more discussions with my friend Sunshine and rewatches, Kitty is actually pretty fucking annoying. She babies Eric and literally never sees him as an adult, slut shames Donna for having sex with Eric and seems to think Donna "corrupts" him. And don't even get me started on how shitty she treats Laurie. I know Laurie is far from perfect, but no one deserves to have to hear their own mother say 'i love you because I have to' and 'Rosemary made a better baby than me'.

It sounds like I'm overreacting but honestly idc. Kitty is not this sweet little good cop to Red's bad cop and she sure as hell didn't have any "character assassination" like Jackie, Kelso, and even Eric did in T9S.

With Zaya, I really loved them as a kid but then hated them because of the shit Zig would pull on Maya. When I did come back to the fandom for good, I had moreso complicated feelings where they're pretty toxic but they can be good together and I'm glad they're endgame. And then I started looking at more Zaya stuff (mostly from Ashton haha) doing rewatches, which made me go back to loving them full force. I still have love for Matlingsworth, Camaya, Zori, and find Zesme interesting at times, but I love Zaya a lot too and I'm glad they're endgame.

As for Neia, I don't think I had much of an opinion on my first watch. I might've been annoyed by them. But I did prefer Jeia over everything. And when I got to Tumblr and did more rewatches, read fics and all that, I was really just done with Neia. My main issue with them has always been how they fucked over Nikki and don't even get me started on how ooc Gwen's advice to Leia was on handling that shit. Plus I didn't see any substance with them aside from having the same wants. Then I ended up being moreso fascinated by the idea of Neia crashing and burning, leading to a Jeia/Geia endgame.

There was a short period where I really wanted to be more open minded with Neia, so I tried looking at the more shippy stuff but I just couldn't do it haha. But eventually I tried again, hence me shipping them now.

Don't get me wrong, my issues with canon Neia are still there. Especially the substance parts, but I personally blame that on the writing more. For all Lindsey's claims of loving Neia, she sure doesn't act like she loves them. Until the 9th episode, they didn't have any alone time. Which, by a writing person, doesn't make sense because Leia is canonically best friends with Nate's sister AND in the dame friend groupl. Not to mention, Leia dated Nate's best friend, yet they don't interact one on one till the NINTH episode? Not even like them accidentally bumping into each other. Like come on!

Short answer: Metas, rewatches, (rarely) discussions, etc.

[omegastation]

i used to react to stuff in the tag very quickly and impulsively - some of you may remember lololol - and i kinda worked on being a lot more chill and laid back (i also learned to block and not to take things too personally) but really, some people in fandoms are relentless with their bashing and hate. it's a cycle for sure & a very annoying one.

the main tag in general can be pretty wonderful and most people are as well, but the character bashing posts are so regular (like getting your newspaper every morning) and they're meant to be reaaaally unpleasant, it's not even a sort of "let's commiserate together" because the tone and the tagging make it clear what it's about. it has that edgy little way of saying that people have poor taste, like OP is going to explain life to us when in reality they're just being annoying.

and the more you acknowledge those people - like i'm doing now lololol - the more you give them reason to do it again. so every time i had a little fit because someone made a post about (topic), i just put more light on the topic. i get that now and try to counterbalance in my own little way, reblogging posts with characters people usually bash because i love those characters. getting excited about them in my tags is also a way of saying "see? not everyone dislikes them". i think a lot of us do that and it's been good to the fandom as a whole.

but yeah, i've been checking the main tag for years and i can say that it has less posts now because the franchise is where it's at, but the typical character bashing is still there, relentless like i said. i feel specifically for kaidan fans tbh and i get why we have a lot of reaction posts and defense squads.

[nayialovecat]

I am increasingly considering deleting my tumblr account… I don't know if there's any point in keeping the account. I don't seem to know how to be in the fandom or build popularity, though - I feel like I'm doing something wrong all the time. What am I doing wrong? I don't know. I don't think I draw worse than popular people, I don't think I upload less stuff - yet people don't give a damn about me in general…. Maybe it's because I don't reblog my own work over and over again, I don't stand with a loudspeaker and shout "hey, I'm here, notice me" - and I guess that's what you have to do on tumblr, so… if that's the case, I'll rather say: thanks, no. Or someone explain to me how the damn thing works, 'cause I still haven't caught on in the few years I've had an account here.

Such the deviantArt is simple and user-friendly, and that's despite the annoying changes (Eclipse) that the developers have been making. There, if someone likes your work, they give it a like and that way everyone can see your work in their favorites, which causes more people to like your artwork. What do the likes on tumblr give? Shit, nothing, I haven't noticed that they give anything except that the author of the post knows that the other person exists and doesn't have a total blast on them. But honestly, while at the beginning the likes on tumblr made me happy, now seeing them in the gallery on my face only gives me a smile like I ate a lemon. Further… an additional advantage on dA is the existence of clubs - when I put my art in the appropriate club, it has a chance to reach all the people who are in that club, and because it is on topic, a greater chance that it will find amateurs. On tumblr there are only hashtags, which in addition do not work properly. On dA I can divide my gallery into thematic folders, arrange my works in any order, I have order there, and everything is transparent to viewers… Browsing the archive on tumblr is a torture - when I want to read chronologically someone's comics here, I have to do a lot of tinkering, unless the author makes a masterpost (but they rarely do).

I hate tumblr. I can barely tolerate it, but lately the fact that no matter how much works I upload, how active I am - I'm still invisible for most people, doesn't help. I was hoping that at least creating content from a game that many people like, having an open ask box and generally being active would change something, but… I guess I just don't get it and don't know how to be in the fandom, don't know how to gain popularity, I'm too introvert - or maybe I just think too highly of myself and truth is that I just draw crap. I don't know. But the only thing that still keeps me on tumblr are asks - but those are getting fewer and fewer, and I'm tired of asking for asks, y'know?… I just can't. I'm not good with that at all. I don't know how to ask for anything.

And I know that someone is about to accuse me of being a hypocrite… that I hardly reblog anything myself. I know I don't. I could. But then my tumblr would be even less readable and transparent. For me personally, it's annoying to browse a tumblr with someone else's drawings and every now and then other authors reblogs. It throws me off my rhythm. For that, I love the blogs of people who do not draw themselves, but reblog others, because there I have an overview of what other authors create. I have considered setting up a reblogging sub-account myself, but… tumblr rejects me, rejects me more and more, discourages me, I dislike it more and more… So my plans are slipping away and I think I'll eventually just delete the account or abaddon it.

I'm not a Drama Queen, it's just that through all of this, the thing that was supposed to help me reignite my desire to create and artistic activities ie closer contact with people, creating more, etc., has achieved the opposite effect: over the past few years I have undermined my self-esteem and my desire to do anything, I am beginning to develop the conviction that I shouldn't be drawing when few people like it, and the icing on the cake is that my most liked arts are garbage, scribbles done in seconds - and artworks that I spend a lot of time on, that I polish and colour, and shadow, go unnoticed… this hurts me, hurt me so much as an author and makes me ask myself: then why the fuck try? It makes no sense!

I am trying. I'm still trying. But I feel more and more like throwing it all to hell. If there are any people on tumblr who, for some reason unknown to me, nevertheless liked my work at least a little - I encourage you to create an account on dA, 'cause soon it will probably be my only art account on the Internet…

Sorry for the slight drama, but it has been slowly building up in me lately, and now it has started to crack. I don't understand why I can't be like others and what I'm doing wrong. I've been asking popular people for advice, how is it that their every word is sipped like ambrosia, every art or post even the worst gets thousands of likes and dozens of reblogs… I learned that there is either a some rainbow luck or they will not share their dark secrets with me… Apparently in the face of this, I'm not lucky enough.

[darkenedcha0s]

RULES AND ABOUT BELOW CUT

DO NOT REBLOG.

•I am HEAVILY selective on following people, but this doesn't mean you aren't free to shoot an ask or rp starter at me. I just probably won't follow you back, please don't take this to heart. I just find it extremely hard to follow people without getting way too nervous.

•I will NOT be following any NSFW/Smut blog, and NO smut blogs will follow me. One, because I'm way too uncomfortable with NSFW. Two, I'm a minor.

•This blog is heavily head canon based, mainly because..Well, Dark Sonic had only a few minutes in whole in the Sonic X series.

•Sexual content, such as smut, will not be present. Jokes about this stuff are perfectly fine, just don't overdo it.

•Almost every time, I will not follow first. Please don't take this the wrong way! I just find it really hard to follow anybody new.

•Do NOT GodMod. A.K.A, taking control of a muse that isn't your own. It's very annoying to me when people do this.

•Personals are able to follow and like posts, but, please. Unless you have any rp side blogs, do not reblog or reply to any posts. This is not a Fandom blog.

•Every blog I have are multi-ship. I will have separate verses for every ship on a blog, unless discussed otherwise. Although, please talk to me if you want to ship one of my muses with your own

•This blog is OC and Crossover friendly!! I love roleplaying with OCs and crossovers, SM FUN

•Don't pressure me to do or continue roleplays. Please just. Don't.

•I will tag any unsettling topics in any posts I have, such as "TW: Blood", but if there is anything SPECIFIC you want me to tag, PLEASE TELL ME RIGHT AWAY.

ABOUT

Name: Dark Super Sonic. Prefers to go by 'Dark'.

Age: He is ageless, but he likes to think of himself as 16, same age as Sonic.

Appearance: Similar appearance to Sonic, just with small changes. His quills are shot up constantly, his quills a dark purple. His eyes constantly glow pure white, as his fur, quills, and gloves constantly look messed up.

Height: 3'4. (Shortass.) He always floats, though.

Personality: He's a bit closed off, seeming to act more as a quiet one. Basically, just the opposite of Sonic. He is easily aggravated. The way he sees it, if you're in his way? He'll find a way to get rid of you. This doesn't apply to anybody Sonic is originally close with, such as Tails. Dark shares the same memories as Sonic, and he wouldn't even dream of hurting one of his friends.

His calm personality will easily go away in a fight. When dealt with anybody a bit more disliked, he will tend to act more sadistic.

Abilities: Super Speed, levitation, regeneration, enhanced strength, fast reflexes, enhanced durability, and a master in chaos energy attacks, such as Chaos blast, chaos spear, chaos snap, and almost every other thing. These attacks are a bit weaker for him, though, as his powers are influenced by fake chaos emeralds.

More stuff: Dark naturally feels cold to the touch. A bit like ice.

He isn't necessarily a "bad guy". He sees more in a black and white type of state. Contrary to his counterpart, Super Sonic is here to help. He is here to fix. He has morals, yes, but only applies it to those he truly cares about. He isn't afraid to throw away anybody who he sees as a threat. If anybody gets in his way? He'll make it a mission to take them out.

He has every single memory from Sonic, every person he's met, every battle he's fought, you name it. Dark remembers almost every single one.

[cervidaedalus]

RE: GSHADE MALWARE DISCOURSE

They locked the channels down, but I managed to grab some screenshots of the conversation shown in the crucially lacking in context Twitter screens. I'll share the screens in a reblog because Tumblr keeps breaking when I add them.

So, we all hate art theft, right? We hate when people use our or others' hard work even in bits and pieces (like AI art training) without any credit to us or the artists? We hate when people say "it's online so NYEH" when an artist asks people to respect their work, right? Okay, good.

Gshade is an "improved" version of the Reshade overlay program that makes it super easy to adjust, make, and switch between presets in the game, as well as simplifies the installation process, and adds a few extra features.

However, there was some Twitter outcry about a week ago due to how updates work in Gshade (which was, admittedly, annoying). Another dev decided to break GShade's EULA regarding assets usage because they didn't like some of Gshades functions like the updates.

In my own, personal opinion, both parties aren't great people. If you read the other person's blog post on all this, it's riddled with cockiness and your garden variety internet kid arrogance and seems to boil down to "I don't like Gshade, it sucks, I can do better." They link an archived Twitter where a popular preset creator politely asks for their presets to not be used for this project, they push back against this creator's request, the creator makes a vague and innacurate legal reference in an attempt to try and convince this dev "hey, I said don't use my stuff". The dev mocks this person in their blog post claiming that they're allowed to use the presets because they're in a GitHub repository.

In order to prevent plagiarism of any of Gshade's assets (INCLUDING the presets themselves), the dev added a "killswitch" essentially that, when any attempts were made to access Gshade, its installer, presets, etc without the dev or preshade creators' knowledge or permission, would cause a force-restart. For anyone who doesn't really use Gshade- I feel the need to add that some presets use original art assets and overlays so it isn't just people playing around with sliders. This is actual art that some artists have politely requested doesn't get re-used elsewhere without permission. And no- this isn't like major game companies like Ubisoft implementing DRM, which in context is about big rich corporations trying to prevent piracy. This is like online game anti-cheat software except instead of bans you get a restart.

You cannot trigger this force-restart with Gshade on normal use, it will ONLY happen when trying to run something that accesses and utilizes Gshade or its assets (again, including people's presets). Likewise, from the sounds of it, the killswitch was already regretted and removed in a patch on Saturday- two days before this whole thing blew up today- and it was changed to a line of code that just closes the program.

There is nothing within Gshade which will harm or remain on your computer. There are no keyloggers, other spyware, covert mining, or anything else that remains on someone's computer with the express purpose of doing harm to it. While you can argue semantics here, imo "Program does bad thing if you go out of your way to use it improperly" isn't "malware" or else World of Warcraft and any other online game with an anti-cheat could also be considered Malware.

If you don't want to use Gshade because of the moral implications of the dev taking such a grandiose measures, that's a personal choice. It's 100% understandable to see this as a breech of trust-

-but please stop spreading word that the app intentionally has Malware intended to affect the common user. This was literally an anti-theft measure taken way overboard. To summarize: -Cocky dev personally dislikes some of Gshade's functions and wants to make their own version of it, but use Gshade assets including presets (some of which contain original art) they don't have permission to use using the same busted "well it's on the internet" logic people use to justify art theft and plagiarism. -Gshade devs try to stop this, other dev self-admittedly "trolls" them for a while and ignores preset artists saying "hey I don't consent to using my stuff". -Gshade dev includes a line of code to force-restart the PC of anyone who tries to access any Gshade assets, specifically to fight back against this user. Regrets it and removes it. -Two days after its removal, word gets out that Gshade has this force-restart command. -Gshade dev admits in the Discord that yes, this command was in there briefly. A single screenshot of this admission makes it to Twitter, and the entire program is branded as Malware.

I'll repeat again, neither side was perfect in this, and to add such a harsh command line even if it was targeted at one person in particular was a gross misuse of power. It's perfectly understandable to not want to use Gshade anymore if you don't trust the program, but it's also important to release this overstep wasn't made purely in impulse, and was an attempt to stop someone who was actively trying to disrespect artists and preset designers. I think that's the huge part of all this that's being missed and it's resulting in a lot of people zero'ing in on the Gshade dev and Discord mods as if they're the defacto villains in all this and need to be harassed and ousted from the community.

[blusical]

THE NATIONAL HOCKEY LEAGUE: THE MUSICAL.

Due to recent incidents, this page is now 17+. If you are under 17, interact via anon only.

Hello! I'm Shadow! I'm not entirely new to hockeyblr; I originally posted hockey on my main. However I decided to create this blog to separate my hockey talk from my non-hockey talk. Boundaries and other stuff under the cut.

ABOUT ME: I'm 17, queer, autistic (with ADHD in the mix) and I've been a Blues fan all my life. I also support the Washington Capitals, and I've been considering adopting the Kraken as a third team. Outside the NHL, I support the Kansas City Mavericks of the ECHL. As for players, I like Vladimir Tarasenko, TJ Oshie, Sidney Crosby, Cale Makar, Artemi Panarin and to an extent Cole Caufield. I also support generally more disliked players such as Tom Wilson. Brad Marchand has also grown on me a little. Additionally, I do want to share that I do support and *will* post about some incredibly controversial players, those players being Alex Ovechkin and Patrick Kane. The reason I'm sharing this is because there is one thing I want to make very clear: While I support a player on the ice, I don't exactly support a player off the ice. In fact, there may be times I will openly criticize a player's actions, even if they are my favorite. So, if seeing any of the players mentioned above makes you VERY uncomfortable, filter out the players' names (see also: tagging system) or block me for your own comfort. (Additionally, if you're curious on where I stand on Kane's 2015/16 cases, I won't get into that entirely, as it's a pretty messy subject and I don't think I could do it justice, however I'll direct you to read these posts from other users so you can try to guess how I feel). (Archived version of link one, archived version of link two. The images on link two are broken for some reason so go here and here in case you wanna save them). BOUNDARIES: Firstly, this blog is run by a minor, and this blog is strictly SFW unless stated otherwise (injuries, blood and excessive swearing will be tagged accordingly). Please don't reblog my posts to add NSFW stuff. Additionally, this is not an RPF blog. While I allow RPF accounts to interact, I do not want my posts being tagged as "ship" or any rpf tags. Lastly, don't send me gossip. This is not a gossip page. What your favorite player does in their private life is really none of my business and honestly I am better off not knowing. There's plenty of other blogs for that. Who can interact? I get it. DNIs are annoying. But the reason I set one is because there's just some people I don't feel comfortable interacting with me, and I want to make that clear. However, as for who can interact, let's just say that I welcome all hockey fans, any team, any kind. Casual, diehard, hell even bandwagon fans can interact! I don't judge! I would be happy to see other Blues and Caps fans interact, especially since I don't see many of them on hockeyblr. Fans of rival teams are also not only welcome, but fucking encouraged to interact! I don't bite at all unless you'd like /platonic. I also want to meet some artists (SFW please!) and other creators. Hockeyblr could use some creativity here! So, who's not welcome? Well, besides the usual criteria (bigots, antivaxxers and pedo/incest fetishizers), I do not welcome gatekeepers, gossip blogs or confession blogs. I also don't want strictly NSFW pages to interact, and I also advise blocking me if you don't want minors interacting at all (Remember: DNIs go BOTH ways!). Additionally, if you think cheering for a specific team makes you a shitty person, or likewise, you think your team isn't immune to criticism, get off my page. Part of changing hockey culture involves criticizing your own team and favorite players too.

Discourse blogs are also advised to not interact unless I already know you, since discourse makes me fucking uncomfortable a lot of the time. Lastly, accounts with no pfp/bio/header or accounts with a pfp of a (usually) white woman and nothing else will be blocked since half the time I'll assume you're a bot. No exceptions. Having posts or a cool username is no longer an excuse. Additionally, blogs with the "mature content" tag will also be blocked since half the time I'll assume you're NSFW. Sorry yall. TAGGING SYSTEM *actually im getting rid of my original tagging system because i hate it lol* Depending on how you feel about certain players, I advise filtering the following player tags because I post about them/will post about them a lot (more to be added): #vladimir tarasenko #patrick kane #tj oshie #alex ovechkin #tom wilson #jordan kyrou And, again, depending on how you feel about certain teams, here's some team names and team lbs you might wanna filter: #blues lb #caps lb #st louis blues #washington capitals #chicago blackhawks #new york rangers #pittsburgh penguins #vegas golden knights I do not tag my posts as "tw (player/team name)", nor will I censor players name's or team names l*ke t4is (like this), here's why. Some other tags you might want to filter include: #eye contact (heavily advise filtering this if you have scopophobia). #long post #fan culture #hockey culture #bigotry #slander or #trash talk (if you don't like seeing your players/team get slandered). #not hockey (for non-hockey based talk) OTHER BLOGS:

@demonic-shadowlucifer - Main, and the blog I follow/like from. @thecringepunkarchives - Disability and more. @thatonedemonnamedlucifer - General fandom blog

[sigynpenniman]

You can tell it’s 1 AM and I’m sleepy because I’m posting a lot anyway let me talk about myself a bit more

I reblog (and post tbh) a LOT of anti-cringe-culture pro-shameless expression stuff and that’s literally just because like. it’s what I believe in. but I don’t actually walk the particular walk of living without shame myself as well as I pretend I do a lot of the time like I SAY that I do but the reality is I am occasionally overcome by waves of self consciousness I am *excruciatingly* aware that the way I behave here in my internet corner is likely perceived by some/many people as extremely weird sometimes when I hit publish on AO3 the demon on my shoulder is like. absolutely no one alive wants to read your self insert. when I started this post 30 seconds ago I literally had to fight the urge to add “in a mildly conceited fashion that perhaps embarrassingly assumes that anyone cares what I have to say” after it. but I somehow didn’t. because I’m grabbing that demon and beating him to death with a baseball bat. it’s like my favorite post in the world that says “am I being annoying about my interests? No, it’s my house” and that’s right babey this is my fucking house. And planting myself in that has done more for my sanity and confidence than just about anything else. you will not come into MY HOUSE and call me cringe or give me shit or what have you because it’s my house! if you dislike the decor in my house you may leave! And I mean that in the kindest and most cool and non-emotional and levelheaded way like if my weird displeases you please! don’t subject yourself to it! As for me and my house I’m gonna keep doing it because 1. It makes me feel good and this + adjacent spaces are the only places in my life where I’m allowed to be just as weird and bizzare and cringe as I god damn want and 2. If one single soul sees one single post I reblog or self insert I shamelessly post or what have you and feels the least bit better about their own weird then I will have done some kind of good in this world. please go kill the part of you that cringes and go forth into this world and be weird and strange in ways that are genuinely unappealing and unpalatable. I am kissing you on the forehead.

And remember. The greatest piece of advice I have ever read. If you want to say sorry in a moment of self consciousness where you haven’t actually objectively harmed someone else but you did something or said something that you’re scared was Too Much or perhaps made a social boo boo or are AFRAID you have made a social boo boo or what have you. and if simply resisting the urge to say something is too hard which it usually is. Instead of saying sorry. Try saying thank you. Thank you for being patient with me. Thank you for listening to me. Thank you for being understanding with me. whatever the case may be. It will change you I promise. Because it will fill the hole your anxiety is making that forces you to say something AND if you actually HAVE committed some kind of social boo boo it covers and acknowledges it in basically the exact same way as a Sorry, and if you’re with otherwise kind and loving people will have exactly the same impact, but if you, as likely is true, actually have done nothing whatsoever wrong or even slightly wrong, it’s still a kind and welcome and good thing to say and makes the people around you, and YOU, feel positive and good

plus getting all those apologies out of your vocabulary will make you feel better about yourself immediately

okay I have to work tomorrow I’m going to bed now. kisses.

[pleuvoire]

i see that dyatlovpassing guy on my dash a lot and i used to be into his posts but more and more i feel like he is one of those people who is really into the tumblr game of "i'm so much cooler and smarter than you geeks" that i have already voiced my dislike for and it grates at me. earlier i reblogged an informative post from him about transphobic laws in florida because it's a useful post and then i checked the notes where someone was like "it's hard to research this stuff on one's own" and he was like "try harder then" how annoying

[freedfromthegalactichivemind]

I wonder how long any further stay I have in this fandom will be.  On one hand, this is the blog on tumblr I post to the most among my blogs.  I have four of them.  One is a Junk Drawer, one is This She-Ra blog, one is a Zelda blog, and one, for anyone interested, is an original stories writeblr.  I’m fixing for the Zelda one to be frequently posted to next month since the Linktober art challenge is a thing and I want to do it - hope I don’t run out of steam doing a drawing a day.  I’ve done Linktober before.  Quite fun, quite challenging.   And I plan to post stuff for a challenge in the She-Ra fandom next month, a series of fanfics that I already have done.   And that’s when I realize I partly did the fanfic challenge out of spite.  I know that the person who issued the challenge, and who handles other challenges for my main ship / sphere in the fandom has me blocked / dislikes me / probably thinks I’d be better off to the world dead.  Meh.  They probably don’t really care about me *that* much, but they’re someone whom I don’t ever recall ever having any personal issues with, but are apparently in a group of people who have put me on the outs and that’s just the way it is.  And I’ve decided if that’s the way it is, I’m gonna stick around the fandom like ants in the kitchen.  Just doing my own thing, too bad your challenge-prompts are reblogged by lots of people and are viewable on the whole of tumblr / don’t take a master hacker to see.  Don’t know if they even care about me doing their prompt fics, but if they are put out by it, it’ll just be frosting on the cake.  They *probably* don’t have a problem with any particular person doing prompt-fills / just don’t care and just don’t want to have any personal contact with me, which is fine, but imagining that they might be mildly annoyed by me doing the prompts and generally being around and feeling petty gives me life.  Spite has gotten me through more shit in life than you can imagine.   And... feeling spiteful is kind of what’s kept me in this fandom.  I do genuinely enjoy the characters, certain ones especially.  I enjoy viewing and collecting fanart, reading fics, especially new voices who weren’t there for some of the great fandom wars.  However, I don’t actually go back to re-watch the show very often and I feel myself pulled into other interests (including that nagging voice in the back of my head whenever I feel I’m fandoming too much of “shouldn’t you work on something you fully own? Even if you’re just putting it out for free on the writeblr?”)   It’s like, I’m fiddling around with a retro video game right now, Zelda fandom is going NUTS because of a new game release date announcement. One of my old favorite animes, which was a major fandom for me for a long time is getting a remaster next year.   And at the end of the day, I feel like I’ve seen every flavor of Entrapdak done five ways to Sunday, I like Catradora and Glimmadora, etc. but they were never my main-enthusiasm ships (you know... lacking that mad science energy I vibed with).  I almost feel like there’s nothing new left that I or anyone else can give to this ship - just a lot if similar plots cycling over and over again with a few standouts of Really Good Fic and Really Good Art mostly from the fresh voices.  Clone fandom, too... okay, let’s level. It’s always been weird.  Weird on top of weird on top of weird.  I’m not even talking about my own contributions.  The inside jokes are odd, sometimes unsettling, a lot of the drama people write and draw is unsettling (which is to be expected, actually, when you explore their predicament more than the show did).  A lot of it was always sexualized in a way I always felt odd about (not all the fans, but...quite a lot).  And Prime-simps outright scare me.  (I don’t think it’s wrong or bad in any way, I just... personal vibes for me).   Writing from prompts has shown me that, yeah, it’s fun, but also restraining.  My favorite of my latest batch of stories involves a plot that is blatantly out of character for the nature of the canon, but I needed to do it to make the plot idea I had work.  And I feel almost as if I’ve just made my favorite characters more “my own” than what is canonical - basically Fandom Syndrome.  I am having fun discussions in this fandom, and I do have a weird crossover I’ve been mulling over, but I feel like some of my spite is waning and the original interest I had is waning, too.  I’ve been in this fandom a long time - not nearly as long as others (I’ve been a Zelda-nerd for over a literal decade), but this fandom isn’t really... ongoing, nothing fresh and only so many ways to play with what’s there before you’re tired of eating the same food all the time. I was a fan of Spop from the first season, lured in by being a nostalgia-fan of the original who wanted to see what the new show was going to do to my childhood.  And then I stayed for Entrapta. Was impressed with Hordak’s upgrae from the get-go, got into him later into the series. I was *here* and doing *fanart* and writing *fanfic* before a lot of the Big Name fans showed up.  I was shipping Entrapdak as a lark / crackship since Season 2.   I’ve been...here... for a while.  And, in part, I feel like “that old, lame, smelly dog everyone wants to put down.”  *Shrug.*    I definitely will not leave the fandom on anything less than my own terms.  With fandoms I am no longer in I’ve never just quit them.  I’ve always kind of petered out and faded off as my interests changed, with it happening gradually.   I feel like I’m sticking around in this one out of spite, but I ‘m watching the light of day change.  

[helpimstuckinafandom]

Thank you for answering my ask.....If you don't mind me asking (again), can I ask your top 5 (or top 3) favorite characters from Percy Jackson novels? And your top 5 favorite moments from the series? Sorry if you've answered this question before....Thanks....

Oh god the questions' are getting harder (but thanks for the ask!!!)

**Spoilers ahead for the Percy Jackson series (so anything in PJO, HOO and TOA)**

So top five (in no particular order):

1. Nico di Angelo

2. Piper McLean

3. Jason Grace

All three were explained in my last ask answer since they're in my top 10 of all time.

4. Reyna Ramírez-Arellano

My ace queen! I remember so distinctly disliking her when we first met her in SoN. I thought her being from Circe's island was interesting because it was a cool way of introducing consequences to actions that Percy had never previously thought of (one of many, such as Calypso being left on her island and becoming increasingly bitter, Bob the Titan being memory-wiped, a lot of stuff with Nico, etc). But at the time, I just didn't care about reyna herself until HoH. When she showed up on her pegasus, I remember freaking out with excitment like "yes bitch! Holy shit Reyna's coming!" and being so surprised at my own reaction, because since when did I give a shit about Reyna? But after that I just loved her, and having her pov in BoO was so good??? Like oh my god??? Rereading all the books last summer, I realized I was literally delusional for disliking her (side note, but you are entitled to dislike her, every opinion is valid, but I love her and am allowed to). Like she was great from the very beginning, and then I got to TOA and she was so iconic. I know some people were annoyed when she expressly said that she wasn't into Thalia and they are allowed to be just friends, but I kinda appreciated it in a weird way? Like idk it made sense to me.

5. Will Solace

This was difficult to narrow down, and I feel people rolling their eyes but you gotta understand I thought Will Solace was so cool. Pre-TOA and before I read HOO, I liked him (yeah, for all of the two seconds he showed up, don't judge me). And then he became a more prominent character and I was so hype about it! He is more than just Nico's sunshiny boyfriend, and I'll fight to the grave saying that. He is brave and badass in his own right, he is a deeply caring person and I really have nothing more to say. I've reblogged posts that can explain way better than I can about why he is his own character, and not just some boyfriend thrown at Nico just cause.

Some honorable mentions: Rachel Dare, Apollo/Lester Papadopoulos, Ethan Nakamura (y'all can't say shit about Ethan okay, don't worry about it)

Now the REALLY hard decision of what are my favorite moments. This is just off the top of my head, so I'm sure I'm forgetting some! But (in no particular order):

1. Nico becoming the ghost king in BoL

The way he had me snapping and cheering I should be embarrassed but I am not. That shit gave me chills and I was so proud of him. Honestly, the whole list could be made of Nico moments, but I'm gonna limit myself to just this one cause I gotta be stopped.

2. The dolphin pirates chapter in MoA

That shit was so funny, I can't. And it gave us the iconic "Be-hold! The god's chosen BEVERAGE! tReMbLe before the HOrror of diet coke!" Like come on, that was so fun.

3. Frank and the chinese handcuffs in MoA

It's a downtime moment, but it was really sweet when he came to Annabeth to get help with them. I felt really bad for Frank (even though him and Leo antagonized each other, Leo was very much more of a dick to Frank) and it was just a nice character moment for me. It's sweet that he felt comfortable asking Annabeth because she wouldn't make fun of him for it.

4. Jason apologizing to Leo in Lost Hero

Another downtime moment, but I really like that. Everyone's badass skills in battle and funny moments with monsters are cool, but I really like intimate character moments (romantic or platonic). And the lost trio had a lot of friend character moments, and that's part of why you really feel that those three are best friends. I appricate Jason assuring Leo after the incident with Medea. Honestly, there are a lot of sweet character interactions to pick from for Jason alone, but I'd have to bring out my books and start citing shit lmao

5. Blood of Olympus

Yeah, you read that right - the whole goddamn book. Nothing can compete with the absolute high that book had me on from start to finish. Do you know how shocked I was to find out people hated it? I was so flabbergasted, cause it had everything I wanted. The pov characters were the Lost Trio (which I love so goddamn dearly) and NICO AND REYNAAAAA!!!! When I saw that they had chapters I all but cried, I was so excited. I don't care what anyone says, they deserved povs and they deserved to kick ass. Reyna's backstory was so goddamn interesting and her pov grew my love for her, and her fight with Orion was certified iconic. Nico was doing THE most - I couldn't get enough of his pov, seeing his thoughts was so great. The decimation of Bryce Lawrence? PEAK. Him, Will, Lou Ellen and Cecil sneaking around? Loved it. And I haven't even touched on the peak of Jason's arc, Piper fully coming into her own - like can we just all bask in the glory that was her leading Annabeth with emotion in that one scene? Afagdhdkf - and just Leo's pov in general, because the Lost trio had some of THE best povs in the series, no questions asked. The only thing I didn't give a shit about was Leo going to go get Calypso right at the end, but I was still happy she was getting off that island and that Leo was alive. Like it cannot be overstated how much I love this book, and rereading it last summer did nothing to change that. Is it cheating to list a whole book as a favorite moment? Definitely, but your honour, you have to understand-

((Just wanna give a shout out to another moment that I remembered halfway through typing about Jason's apology: Piper defeating Medea in Burning Maze. The satisfaction I felt in that moment baBY))

Again, thank you so much for the ask! It's pretty fun getting to talk about media that I care this much about, and it's making me wanna reread all the series' again lmaoo