#(moody mood. if you will...)

[absolutebl]

Hey. Ty very much for your posts. As a woman in my 30s I got hypnotised by the beauty of the novelists and was wondering if you had similar high heat intense recommendations (also watched the samurai one "taboo"), bi or mlm with older leads and non fluffy storylines.. Moody atmospheric and venomous is my weak spot

Moody, atmospheric & venomous BL

Like, the Novelist? really?

AKA Pornographer movie series AKA The Novelist, Mood Indigo, Pornographer Playback (Japan 2018-2020) - emotional manipulation, cheating, obsession, seduction, May/December, kink, touch of necrophilia, explicit.   

Okay I got one right off the bat: seek ye....

The Cornered Mouse Dreams of Cheese

AKA Kyuso wa Chizu no Yume wo Miru (Japan 2020) - obsession, cheating, breakup, reunion, then break up again, explicit, mature characters. 

Now let me think about some more:

high heat

intense

non fluffy

older leads

The last one is a doozy, so I'm not gonna use it as a qualifier. BL is most, well, about "boys" not men.

Some others that might work for you but don't meet all your criteria:

Your Name Engraved Herein (Taiwan 2020 Netflix) - this movie is fantastic but it is also seriously depressing, it’s a self acceptance journey, but if you wanna wallow in high quality acting and serious gay drama, this’ll do it. 

Innocent (Taiwan 2021 GaGa) - mental health, childhood trauma, actually kinda sweet. 

The Eighth Sense (Korea 2023 Viki - This isn’t in the KBL bubble, there’s sharp edges and lots of triggers. For a KBL the darkness of the content left me feeling unsettled but it's really damn good.

My Personal Weatherman AKA Taikan Yoho (Japan 2023 Gaga) - Basically: boys who fell in love in college end up living together but both are so repressed they actually don't realize they're in love. They're hot, young, in love, and total idiots.

I Feel You Linger in the Air (Thai 2023 grey or YT) - IFYLITA is an exquisite BL, elegant and classy… from Thailand which normally doesn't even try for classy. The main couple (both as a pair and individuals) were excellent, it gets hot more that explicit, but it does have sharp edges.

Tokyo in April is AKA Shigatsu no Tokyo wa (Japan 2023 Viki) - Two young men with a shared tragic past reunite and fall in love all over again, but the past will not stop hunting them. It’s Japan in full on soft focus which means it gets emo, abusive, and chewy. These two characters are giving parts of their souls away in a desperate attempt to shape themselves to the expectations they have of each other it's heavy and cutting.

Moonlight Chicken (Thai 2023) - I enjoyed this complicated little show, even though it’s spectacularly messy gay with lots of shrapnel and authentic pain. EarthMix turn in their most compelling performance to date.

Bed Friend (Thai 2023 IQIYI) - Office frienamies transition a flaming hot one night stand into a f-buddy relationship that is built on a puppy/cat dynamic (and kinks into it at one point). Our puppy is loyal, smitten, and protective with endlessly longing eyes, while our cat is snarky, prickly, and deeply damaged (ALL THE TRIGGERS). NetJames give lovely high-heat with excellent chemistry and tuned-in performances of surprising depth.

Big Dragon (Thai 2022 Gaga) - This is a decent execution of true enemies to lovers, these two spy on and bully each other, exploring darker themes and self worth issues. The way the leads transition between anger, resentment, titillation, and flirting (and the way, with kinksters, this can all be the same thing) is really well done. A pairing that proved itself to be a lot more sophisticated than I expected with excellent chemistry, but something went askew around plot, directing, and ending. Still if you're in it for the sexy, go to, they did.

My Beautiful Man AKA Utsukushii Kare (Japan 2021 Gaga - One of the most Japanese BLs to release in the last decade, as weird and as messed up as any 2000′s yaoi: emo af and hella warped, entirely true to itself with no attempt made to modify its POV for modern sensibilities or current BL fandom. It used seriously old school problematic and kinky tropes, like whipping boy, for a truly uncompromising piece that also manages to hit up themes of communication, consent, and self acceptance. It’s a wonderful BL but uniquely dirty and harsh, in the best possible way - Japanese cinema, uncompromising.

End of the World With You

Junjou: Pure Heart

The Egoist

No thoughts on those three, not my thing.

You also might consider some of the stuff on this list:

Hope that gives you some options!

[inusmasha]

Izayoi & Forget-me-nots.

[cozygirlsimmer]

so story time :)

I randomly had a dream last night of creating a karaoke bar for Bridgeport, I am not sure why but I started on it and it is coming along!

[prototypelq]

...do you think Dante ever realised how Vergil-like he was acting around Patty? She was quite obnoxious in the anime, did he ever think 'oh no is this what being Vergil felt like?', or 'was I ever this annoying?'...

Knowing Patty did him a lot of good, do you think it, per chance, also reminded him of happier times in his and Vergil's childhood when they just played together and annoyed each other all the time?...only to, of course squash those nicer memories the moment Patty leaves, because then the reminders of what he's done come crashing down....

[ley-med]

Electrician: We will arrive tomorrow morning, between 8-12am.

Me: Okay, but I will be home only after 9am, since I'm working the night, please come between 9-12 am.

Electrician: Uh, fine, we'll see what we can do about that...

*next day, 8.53 am*

Electrician: We are here, where are you??

[soldier-poet-king]

:((((((

Artist got SUPER sick while stenciling, so we had to reschedule to the 16th

And like. I'm majorly bummed. And also kinda weepy, but that's a me problem, the whole having major anxiety in the lead up to then not having the event happen, it's bad for The Brain, but that's not her fault that's a me problem, and obvs I would rather wait til she's feeling better 1) BC y'know she's a human being a deserves to be treated well???? 2) the art will be better if she's at her best

But y'know. I still am bummed. This is like. My autonomy project.

[catboldbot]

There is something in my head that hates me.

I don't know who put it there. I don't know why they put it there. I think it must have been a long time ago.

I've tried to remove it.

I tried to give it what it seemed to want, beating myself into shape as best I could, making something more useful, more desirable, more tolerable. I tried also to talk it down, to show it the people who love me and why they love me and why I should love me too. I tried to starve it too, to simply refuse to feed it, to let it wither and die.

There is something in my head that hates me.

It's rarely violent about it, at least not anymore. Not as loud. But it's no less ferocious now -- just slower, calmer. Not like it is weaker, I think. More like it knows I'll never quite be rid of it, and it has all the time in the world to make me suffer.

I outrun it by action, pouring myself into work or play. I ward it off with altered states and distractions, whatever I can do to keep it from a chance to think. But there is an end to every day, and as I wind down it wraps around me like a weight. As I lie down it lays beside me like it owns these vulnerable hours. And it speaks softly, calmly in my head.

It mocks me for my misery, for my fears, for my loneliness. It almost sounds amused at how worthless my attempts have been, at how distant I feel even when I have all that I do -- more than I've ever deserved. It thinks it laughable that I still cling to hope when its so hard for me to succeed and so easy for the sword to fall. It ridicules me for my reliance on drugs, it belittles me for being so scared to speak, it reminds me of how much effort I've put in and still it is there and still I'm scared and still I can feel so alone so unwanted so pointless. Even after all my progress.

There is something in my head that hates me.

I try to push it away with certainty that I've been working to build under myself, a foundation of value and deserving. I am loved and I am wanted. But it's got more voices than just mine. It uses the voices and guise of those same loves to push right back. I'm selfish, I'm not around enough, I'm not worth enough, I'm too much effort, I'm never what I need to be...

It's too much, remembering all the bad I've done, all the ways I've failed people, all the ways I come up short. There's nothing to do for it but sleep, and hope tomorrow will be brighter, kinder. But I'm not sure I can shake that awareness now, not for very long.

There is something in my head that hates me.

[fallinginlove-20s]

Kinda want to run away from my life for a bit, ya know?

[vividblaze]

grips you I am so sorry for the person I become whenever I draw these two together but do you understand

[shxrpest-lives]

trying too hard

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[daydreamdoodles]

Outside the car: cold, responsibilities await, have to talk to people

Inside the car: quiet, no essays, can brood

[epicdogymoment]

[the-trans-dragon]

I wish I wasn’t dyed crimson by the Christian culture I was raised in and am still submerged in.

I’ll probably spend my whole life trying to get the stain out.

[snapeysister]

Thinking about it today... Moody's "Constant Vigilance" state of mind is a very difficult one to live with.

And while in "Harry Potter" this unmerciful imperative was directed at the reality of war in the Wizarding World, the real world's current social atmosphere and the increasingly hostile interactions between people even without being in a state of war - religiously, ideologically, politically, sexually motivated - make my ears ring with Moody's "advice". No matter if it is a friend or a foe I must deal with, I feel that without being constantly on alert to watch out so that no one may hurt or harm me, withiut holding the steering wheel firmly in my hands, I will lose myself to others. The innocence of the early years of childhood and teenage years is definitely gone.

This is, if anything, one of the central points where I identify with Severus Snape (and hence hold on to this fandom, as an escape while not actually being one, since it reflects much of my inner reality). One doesn't have to walk the same path to understand how it feels to lose one's innocent outlook on life and others, to lose trust, to experience gut-wrenching failure to the extent of wishing one's own existence away, to know what it's like to be betrayed, and used and left behind. And still cling to some sort of hope or at least, redemption...

[yourpenguin-blog]

ilysm Avril <3 ur the only singer that i will love forever

[codeblossom]

someone slut me out and have their way w me pls n ty