#(of course i WOULD love it if my soulmate im old gay married to was there too but alas!!!)

[marsixm]

i complain about being alone but i like do not want to date lmao i want to already be married to my soulmate for 10 years

[ess-presso]

hiya ess!👋

ur completely correct. fics based on taylor songs are superior theres just a certain... je ne sais quoi about them. chefs kiss.

and yes! cameron from 10 things i hate ab you! get urself a man who learns french for you and settle for nothing less.

fic rec! take a shot of holy water by pinkpalaceapartments (wolfstar dorlene & jily fleabag au)

tay time! sparks fly, style, & all you had to do was stay🌟

chatting time<3

i know. people thinking the trojan horse was real still baffles me especially since theyre in an UPPER LEVEL classics course. like how do you go through uni reading and learning about the trojan war and the fact that its a FICTIONAL POEM and not a historical account & still think its real. i mean i get it. i wish it was real too.

little women 2019 my beloved <3 forever obsessed with timmy as laurie and flo as amy.

and GOD i know americans can be just. so irritating. you can always tell when tourists are american because theyre SO LOUD! and the stonehenge comment? HUH? they baffle me sometimes.

and omg another cat named pixie! i guess all cats named pixie are just. heinous bitches. buts its okay because theyre cute<3

and ty for the percy/pansy fic rec ill add to my tbr <3 excited to read about them.

u know maybe killing remus is for the best. especially if youre marrying sirius i think that itself would do him in anyways.

the incest chronicles are def super long & honestly, the first main installment of the series is kinda bland in comparison to the prequels and sequels which makes it feel inaccessible bc you have to struggle through the first 6 big ass books but i promise its worth it. ive begged my friends to read it but they all refuse bc its just SO long and you know what. fair!

and yes i recommend reading the book first. i watch the movie only so i can stare at ben barnes and go "hey it's sirius" every 2 mins.

drunk procrastinators!! my bff: dont you have a paper due tomorrow? me, half a bottle of wine down & definitely has a paper due tomorrow: no

omg the scene for the quaffle & the snitch??? best believe i Will be reading.

apple turnovers for breakfast sounds so good. now im craving one.

and 4 tubs of butter?? hey i mean the drunk heart wants what it wants.

PLUTO<3 when was younger & learned that pluto was classified as a dwarf planet and not a planet i actually cried. she doesnt deserve that💔

im glad you at least got pizza out that situation. pizza can help ease the pain of any mortifying embarrassment.

and dancing in the kitchen with wine & jazz? so real. thats like, peak humanity.

yes poutine is SO good. i wont take any slander from americans who eat jello salad (to be fair i think they sell that in canada too</3... i really dont think its popular here thank god)

barty as a ravenclaw is so important to me especially when pandora is a ravenclaw too. my fav lil chaos gremlins who are also honorary slytherins❤️

omg a pink car slay. my bff had a baby blue beetle for a while and it was PERFECt well until it literally broke cause it was so old BUT being a passenger princess / dj / gps in a cute car is always the dream.

& ill watch the apprentice! hyde guy and kim kardashian lady are enough for me so i will .

platonic soulmates <3 liv (my best friend) once said she'd drop everything to take me to a mental institution if she had to (SHE DIDNT HAVE TO I WAS JUST GOING THROUGH IT!!! she did mildly threaten me though. with love ofc<3) id die for her but id also live for her.

YES GEOGUESSR! its so addicting and just really fun and educational ig. like. now i know what the rest of the world looks like! yay! & if ur shoelaces were knotted id gladly untie them for u❤️

v sorry to hear about victoria, she doesnt deserve u !!

and the guy who came out as gay? still kinda funny like. he liked me on & off for 5 YEARS only to realize he didnt actually like girls. like was i a part of that realization?? i have so many questions.

apollo & artemis!! i love them so very much. my fav siblings❤️

fancasts! andrew & ben are great, also dont like dane as peter. YOUR JAMES? i love him. very good fancast. atj & reiky are great too but i also love thomas weatherall as malakai from heartbreak high (he oozes james energy and has like. idk how to describe it but a very "james potter" smile - example here)

and omg we have the same evan and barty fancasts. hugh as evan will forever be perfect to me. hes just So Evan. maxence as barty is also just perfect i love him. elle fanning as pandora & lewis as peter>>> also annalise basso as lily. she showed up in an episode of new girl i was watching and i was like "LILY??" i also love beabadoobee as marlene. but TIMMY AS REG. hes PERFECT. no one will ever be more regulus than timmy. love that he is the one fancast everyone can agree on. also movie reg?? WHO IS THAT MAN?? I DONT KNOW HIM!!

and omg a gryffindor!! lucky. i always wanted to be a gryffindor when i was a kid but im a slytherin</3 not complaining tho. i love my fellow snakes.

orpheus and eurydice kill me ON GOD. getting the chance to save the one you love but that very love being your downfall💔💔

a soldier! i think soldier is the rarest one so thats very cool. or maybe its poet idk. i wanted to be a poet so bad but i got king. (aka eldest daughter syndrome) heavy is the head that wears the crown ig.

phone, purse, bingo tickets, notebook & headphones = essentials for sure. i wont be caught DEAD without my headphones (and phone cause i need that for music ofc) because i have to have music in my ears 24/7 or ill die.

an athena kid! theyre the coolest and i always wanted to be an athena kid. whenever i take the quiz i get either hades or athena so thats cool ig. raising the dead could be kinda fun! i already kinda dress like nico di angelo so that works for me im just missing my embodiment-of-sunshine child-of-apollo partner </3

your top 5 albums>>. tay NEVER MISSES!!

and yes soulmates! i read too much to not believe in them fr.

answering qs!

top 5 albums: (in no particular order except no.1)

the rise and fall of ziggy stardust and the spiders from mars by bowie FOREVER my number 1. i love that album more than anything in this world.

hs1 by harry styles

am by arctic monkeys

chip chrome and the mono tones by the neighbourhood

electric warrior by t.rex

(honourable mentions because im indecisive and would put these in top 5 if i could: folklore by tay, hozier by hozier, disintegration by the cure, led zeppelin iv by led zeppelin, & the dark side of the moon by pink floyd. (theres my top 10 then ig!!))

2. slytherin! like i said above i wanted to be a gryffindor so bad so i figured out which questions gave u which results and only answered the gryffindor ones (denial is a river in egypt girl....) but i decided i couldnt lie anymore and embraced my slytherin-ness.

3. erudite! ofc i always wanted to be dauntless cause theyre cool and tatted out and wear black but ig i value knowledge and shit more </3

4. this is def morbid but in ancient rome, where slavery was very much present, slaves had to wear collars (like. dog collars. so fucked up) and if a slave ran away, you could hire fugitivarii which were slave hunters. like basically bounty hunters. slaves were a huge part of roman economy and very important so obviously people didnt want them to leave but man its fucked up. anyway!

5. king! like i said before i wanted poet so bad but got king which broke my heart but yeah. i saw someone on tiktok say that kings are poets who are bound to duty . still trying to figure out what my duty is cause its definitely not reading fanfic and sitting on tumblr for several hours.

6. silver! i love gold jewelry sm but im super fucking pale and it looks bad on me so i prefer silver . i do wear gold sometimes but silver goes with any outfit so.

7. this is such a hard question cause i love them both but i think tay. shes just got so much variety for any mood so she wins. lana does too but her vibes are just different so.

8. CRUEL SUMMER VS DONT BLAME ME??? another brutal question ess youre killing me. theyre totally tied in my heart but for the sake of picking i think...im gonna have to go with dont blame me. i think the vibe of love making you crazy just fits me more. cause like yeah ill go crazy. but cruel summer my beloved you will ALWAY BE FAMOUS!!

9. my tears ricochet vs the great war.. AHHHHHH. i think my tears ricochet. i associate the great war with crimson rivers too much that i cant listen to it without losing it.

10. i love candles sm this is so hard. in the winter i love christmas tree/pine scents theyre so nice. but in the summer i have a lilac scented one that i burn and its lovely. but i also have one named after Rome that smells like fresh cut flowers thats so nice too. (rome did Not smell like fresh cut flowers when i visited, quite the opposite actually but i can pretend<3)

11. SLOW WALKERS! im a really fast walker and if people are in my way i get so frustrated. girl move i have places to be!!!!

12. kind of anything makes me laugh. dry humour and sarcasm especially but will laugh at anything especially if its dumb as hell

13. i do! its isabella which is very bland but what can you do.

14. i dont think ive ever heard anyone say hoser over here, maybe its an old person thing. but they do say eh! moreso in eastern canada. i have family over there and a lot of them say it. you dont hear it a lot on the west coast.

qs for u!

fav random marauders headcanons?

fav season?

fav subjects in school?

if u could visit one fictional world which would it be?

do u collect anything?

cardigan vs mirrorball

divergent faction?

if u were a mythological creature what would u be? (like vampire, werewolf, etc)

if u could live in any time period, which one would u pick?

whats your ideal first date?

do u play any sports?

board games vs video games? (or neither lol)

if u like art, whats your fav painting/work of art? or artist?

thats all for now! ill try not to die in the war. might be hard cause my eyesight is horrible and wearing glasses in a war seems impractical & i dont think they had contact lenses back during the wartimes. natural selection i suppose.

-bee

bee bee bee <3333

YES. Chef’s kiss honestly. I’m going to do one of those one day. Just you wait.

Man who learns French for you >>> (imagining james taking his duolingo lessons for Regulus)

A FLEABAG AU ??? WITH WOLFSTAR DORLENE & JILY ???? on god this is perfect already i love u for hitting all the right buttons on this rec.

tay tay -

spark fly - JEGULUS - ‘move like a full on rainstorm’ = regulus . Regulus is a rainstorm , wholly and fully. ‘kiss me on the sidewalk , take away the pain’ = reg’s thoughts , when he’s always in pain and only james can heal him 💔💔💔. ‘something to haunt me when you’re not around’ the sheer memory of regulus would haunt james , just like cathy haunts heathcliff.

style- JILY- this could go for literally so many ships. like wolfstar , jily , anything. I chose jily , simply because i feel that just like the hook , james and lily never go out of style. and also lily would ask him about reg , and he would tell her the whole truth & nothing but the truth. in a muggle au i totally see them as on and off and on and off until they’re finally on again and this time it sticks forever.

all you had to do was stay - JEGULUS - now, it’s probably pretty obvious. but this song to me is reg singing away after james breaks up with him.and him wishing the fact that he loved james would be enough. and feeling like ‘he had me in the palm of his hand’ and being all ‘mf crushed me by making a fist god damn.’

CHATTING <33333

the dumbness of people surprises me sometimes. IT’S A FUCKING POEM DUDE. (i wish it was real too. if it was i think I’d genuinely be like ‘how were they so dumb’ for ages )

TIMMY AND FLO 5EVER

it’s the noise , the accent and the camera for me. it’s genuinely so fucking annoying, why are you destroying such a beautiful place with your fucking flashes and noises ????

pixie is indeed a heinous bitch , and we hate each other but I lover her , really. she a real one for telling it like it is.

(it's actually surprisingly good ! it's one of my new favourite rare pairs along with Blaise/Luna (which I've only read in Isolation & Temptation on the Warfront , but loved anyways !!! ) ( recommend both of those fics btw !!!! I love them vv much !!!)

yes , unfortunately , to marry mr Sirius Black , I shall have to kill remus lupin , because he might die of heartbreak anyways.

u know what , once my mocks are over , I might take a crack at the incest series. they seem interesting , and as long as there's no incest , I'm happy to try it out !

book before the movie 5EVER. (also yes , to me at least , there's something very SIRIUS about ben barnes in dorian grey. that just IS Sirius , yk?)

drunk procrastinators for the win !!!! me , because I handed in my paper 8 minutes before the deadline , but at least I handed it in !!!!

YESSSS I AM VERY EXCITED TO WRITE THAT STORY !!!! I will be on it as soon as doa stops kicking my arse.

apple turnovers are bae - cheap and tasty , all in one <333

No but it was LURPAK. that's the kinda butter the queen (rip bae , I meant the king) would use. and also seven sticks of Toblerone , but that's worth it . Toblerone is also bae . all chocolate is bae.

PLUTO IS FAMILY. NO FAMILY IS LEFT BEHIND . I LOVE PLUTO. I PROTECT HER.

time heals all wounds ?? pswah , nah. PIZZA heals all wounds !!!

it is very much peak humanity. especially because he's taller than me , but I did keep stepping on his toes. don't think he minded too much , but honestly it was such a peaceful evening. like that was THE moment , yk ???

that's it , I shall be finding a food truck and trying poutine. (not jello salad , though. that's a crime against humanity , and whoever made that should be arrested for their crimes)

(Barty and pandora as Ravenclaws slay , but them as Slytherins also SLAY. just slaying all around.)

PINK AND BLUE CARS FOR THE WIN !!!!! lu has a black car , but it has seat warmers , so that kinda makes up for it. and passenger princesses for the win !!!! lu is the driver , and will always be the driver. I shall never learn how to drive , as long as I have him. but sometimes as a joke , I'll leave penny coins as a 'tip'. I think I'm really funny for that.

yes u must. Hyde guy is rlly hiding . like , you'll see what I mean when you see him. when you watch it , do come and tell me how you liked it !!!

platonic soulmates have my HEART. like lu has walked through aa fuckinbg rainfall to bring me a fucking turnover. and he was going to go home too??? like bro , no ???? but he wouldn't come inside , because he was wet and he didn't want to wet the floor too , so I came out and walked back to his house with him. things like that keep my faith in humanity (if he was gone , I think I'd be gone too. he is THE reason.) making me emotional and shit now. (and god damn , 'I'd die for her but also live for her' that's so cute ?? and also I so get that !!!! LIV AND LU FOR THE WIN !!! it's the L names I swear , some spice in them.

I'm actually replying to you after my first game of geoguessr , which I totally flunked , btw. I guessed Wales and the answer was fucking Spain. idk how that happens , but alright. (bro ?? making me blush and shit that's so sweet . I'd buy u an apple turnover :))) )

yes Victoria does not deserve me. I need some nice dude/dudette to do right by me.

nah imagine being someone's reverse realisation ?? like 'I kissed u and then I was gay' like bro u got some sort of power ??/ (and also I agree. very suspicious. I too have questions)

I love Apollo and Artemis too !! (them in rick riordan's books >>>)

Andrew and ben have my heart and soul I just love them a lot. ( dane isn't right , obviously , and lewis is my Peter. he just matches , yk ??) IK I LOVE MY JAMES TOO , HE'S SO PRETTY AND HE'S SO JAMES HONESTLY . (dw I don't comment that , I would never disturb him with that) atj is good for edits , as is reiky sometimes !! (sometimes people use him as desi James though , which - he's not. so I do wish they'd stop , or just say 'Somali James' !) and the smile ??/ on god , that's so jamessss. ( which brings me back to ben barnes. it's something about the way he smiles. very sirius.)

Hugh is honestly winning I love him. maxence too , but Hugh is just EVAN. (to me , at least.) and I so agree , Elle & Lewis >> . love them. TIMMY TIM AS REGGIE REG. LOVE HIM A LOT. MY FAVOURITE. (also movie reg ?? I think not.)

YES GRYFFINDOR. IT'S BECAUSE OF MY BRAVERY AND I LOVE LIONS. jk , but I love the marauders and the trio , so I'm glad to be a Gryffindor. and as u should , your fellow snakes are amazing ( most of them)

ORPHEUS AND EURYDICE !!! ORPHEUS AND EURYDICE !! LOVE BEING YOUR DOWFALL!! YOUR TRAGIC FLAW !! if u must die , let love be the reason why.

at least soldier is rare. I would've rather been the king , because I want to rule shit , not die on the battlefield. (I think every king on my fyp wanted to be a poet. literally every one. so u are one with the masses.)

MUSIC IN MY HEAD 24/7 OR I'LL DIE . so real of u , I'm listening to work song rn, and humming along with it.

Athena kids are awesome , wise n shit. as are hades kids , u guys could raise the dead. I'm going to make lu do the quiz , because he has the blonde hair n the blue eyes , so Apollo kid right there , isn't it?? let's see what he gets !!!

TAY NEVER MISSES !!! TAY IS A GODESSS !!!!!!

reviewing your q's.

ur top five albums are STELLAR. bowie on top as he should be , love him so much . HS1 altered my brain chemicals , but AMMMMMMMMM AMMMMMM . am has changed the course of my life , istg. (knee socks came up on my playlist literally right now. and lu is literally wearing his blue Lacoste top , too . this is freaky.) I've not actually heard the rest , so I gotta give them a listen. (and yes folklore and hozier >>>>> love them so so much they're so dear to me .)

SLYTHERIN SLYTHERIN. SSSSSS AND THAT. (that is also what I did , but I actually got Gryffindor , so to everyone , I am a Gryffindor. and I am one.)

ERUDITE YESSSSS. miss bee smartypants. man that's some barbaric shit , honestly.

kings that sit on Tumblr for several hours and read fic are the only ones that should exist. u are a king.

I LOVER SILVER JEWELLERY TOO. I'm wearing both atm , so it might not make sense , but I have gold and silver (prefer gold because expensive and I like expensive things. jk , if someone I love gave me silver , or even PAPER jewellery , I'd keep it forever. still have Lu's pasta necklace from when we were in year 2.)

tay does win. for me too. she just has that range , you know ??? (Lana is still mothering tho. love her.)

I am killing u . u r dead. CRUEL SUMMER FITS ME MORE !!!! I'LL TAKE CS , U TAKE DBM , AND IT'S ALL FAIR!!!

the Great War with cr ??? now I'm scared to read it ?? (my tears ricochet is my favourite song ever. like ever ever , so I agree with this opinion. I love the Great War too , though.)

lilac candles sound so nice oh my god ??? my favourite scent is the fresh cut roses one , I just rlly love that smell. (it smelt like piss , didn't it ?? just tell me now .)

slow walkers fuckin suck . my pet peeve is year sevens. always blocking the halls , the little bitches. (bless their souls , but goddamn , talk to your friends later , u silly.)

ahh Isabella . classic, I myself , have two middle names , and my mum picked one , and my dad picked the other, it's some flowery shit I swear. especially because they're from different countries , so yk. ah damn I was hoping u would be saying hoser. at least u say eh .

question time !!! -

hmmm. hmmm. I think it's gotta be that remus sat in that carriage on the way to Hogwarts in pot because the marauders always used to sit there , and to sit somewhere else would be blasphemy. also that for a second when he saw that harry had fainted , he thought it was James. heart broke.

winter. I'm a winter baby , and xmas is in winter , so it wins all around.

chemistry ! it slaps my arse , but I prefer it over the other two subjects.

Hogwarts !!! I want a magical wand too !!!

YES. I COLLECT FIFTY PENCE COINS , AND SOMETIMES THEY DON'T HAVE THE USUAL BACK , THEY HAVE SOMETHING DIFFERENT. I HAVE AT LEAST 30£ OF THEM. three of them are from lu , because he knows to give them to me. I will attach a picture of them to my next ask. (I have a Florence nightingale 2£ coin too)

CARDIGAN !!! sorry but stars around my scars > trapeze.

erudite !! just like u. makes sense because I strive for academic validation all the time. going to a grammar school really changed me dude, really really did.

I'm going to go for unicorn. because they're pretty and they can grant wishes n I love them. (sorry remus I love u too.)

if racism n sexism didn't exist , then probably the fifties. I love them , the vibe is really cool. the style , too. my second choice is the roman era , because again , that era seems special ! (and obvious as greek kids , we gotta say greek era. just need to experience it for myself , yk???)

MY IDEAL FIRST DATE !!! pick me up at my door in a nice suit/dress and give me flowers (my fave ones ) , drive me to the restaurant (French or Italian pls) and then the cinema. we watch the movie , then we go to the bookshop , and they say 'buy anything. anything' and then on the way home , they park their car , and we go on a walk and talk about life , for ages and ages , and then we buy stuff from the bakery (they know I like apple turnovers) and then kiss under the stars. if someone does this for me , I'll marry them

no unfortunately. I tried out for netball in year seven , got rejected , took it as a personal attack , and therefore just watch lu play his hockey and football from the stands. that's the extent of my sportsmanship.

BOARD GAMES. Friday is actually board game night for me and lu. busting out the monopoly board means we r no longer best friends for some time. we r enemies.

I do love art !! actually going to the Tate modern on Saturday with lu !! my favourite piece of art is 'cafe terrace at night' . I love it so much it's so special to me I love it. can imagine walking there , hand in hand with my date I love it. (might go there for my grad trip. maybe.

q's for u -

ur ideal first date ?

rep vs lover ?

hozier vs am?

do u play sports ? (pls tell me u play hockey )

favourite board game ?

take me to church vs work song ?

fave season ?

fave food ?

fave marauder hc ?

one ship u hate (hp) ?

your patronus ?

your favourite piece of art ?

ginny or luna ?

favourite restaurant ?

favourite beverage ?

[ beeeeee don't be too long I will miss u too much. I love u. (also glasses?? same ). be safe , king.]

[failbaby]

I have a real life tale of Homeric Epic proportions for you all. I do not condone the actions of anyone in this story

My senior year of high school, I was entrenched in a preposterous scandal between two of my friends.

Guy 1 was this completely indescribable, sexually ambiguous, utterly ridiculous little xc/debate club twink who was an armed libertarian leftist, HYPERfixated on working class history, and VERY intelligent but so hyperactive and deliberately loud/obnoxious that all of our teachers hated him anyway. He called me “Rosita Bonita,” and was accepted to Princeton and CalTech but was going to a mid-tier school nearby because he didn’t want to leave the mountains. 🥺

Guy 2 was an extremely easygoing, widely-beloved football player with a FIANCÉ he’d been with for 3 years (religious people in small towns get engaged young) who was a devout environmentalist and was planning on going to trade school in Italy after graduation. No real reason, he just thought Italy was dope, which I respect. 

Both good guys, both weird

We were all the same friend group (me, the dudes, the fiancé, & several other ppl), and those two were really close. Like if I was slightly more heterosexual I would say “bromance.” The summer before senior year, those guys, another friend of ours, and the fiancé went on an educational environmental science trip to Peru, where they, like, hiked around and camped out in the mountains. I don’t know or care what they were supposed to be learning about the environment up there, I just know that they split their little group of 4 up into a boys tent and girls tent, and these two boys who the Lord God put on this earth to play high school sports started fucking each other in tents in the rocky mountains of Peru.

Which would normally be like, okay, so what, Rose, why are you telling me these dudes’ business, but you have to remember that the second dude had a fiancé, a female fiancé no less, who was on the trip and was sleeping just a few yards away from where these boys were fucking each other. And this is where it morphed into everyone’s business

My friend, the only member of their little group who was not involved, called me from a hotel one night when they’d gone back down out of the mountains and into a town (and thus had cell service again), and she was like, “Rose, you need to help me.”

And I was like “What? What’s wrong?” Panicking, because my four dear friends were very far away in a weird mountain town and I had no idea what could possibly have happened

And she goes “I think that [guy 1] and [guy 2] are having sex, and I don’t know how to tell [fiancé].”

This is news to me, because I was previously SO sure that guy 2 was straight. I was like “I really think you’re losing it”

So we talked it out a little bit and decided that the high altitude was getting to her, and our friend wouldn’t cheat on his fiancé, who he really loved, and our other friend wouldn’t sow division in our close-knit group like that

School started back up however long after they got back, and things were just like. Completely normal for a while, and then after like a month of the whole thing being forgotten and under the bridge, guy 1 becomes overwhelmed with guilt and decides to tell the fiancé that he was in fact fucking her beloved in the Peruvian mountains.

Now, this was a MAJOR blow to the law, serenity, and order of our group, as im sure you know if you’ve ever been involved in a situation where a member of a friend group was cheating with another member of a friend group. All of my friends are very progressive, so it was much more about the cheating and lying than the fact that they were both men, but I would be wrong to say that that was not also a concern, because it came so completely out of nowhere. We were all blindsided (except for my friend, who I had accidentally gaslit into believing this wasn’t happening and she was going crazy from mountain air 🤪)

So. This is where it gets wild

Guy 2 takes the logical path out and decides to just lie and say that this never happened at all. Like, he straight up denies everything guy 1 is alleging.

I don’t know why he did that. You should never lie about something if the other person has screenshots, which guy 1 did. He had screenshots like you would not BELIEVE.

And he IMMEDIATELY took to the public Internet, which my mother uses, with these screenshots.

A lot of people had heard rumors about this by now, because these guys were both athletes and guy 2 was like “popular” or whatever, so it just kinda gets around. Guy 1 decided to feed the people and send the screenshots to the school gossip IG acct (“____ high school tea”), and of course, the person running the page was THRILLED to have such top-tier content so early in the school year, and it was all posted for their 1,188 followers to see.

The screenshots told a story that ran much deeper than two dudes fucking each other on a field trip. I had initially kind of assumed was just a “gay-for-the-stay,” messing around kind of thing, but there were screenshots of texts from guy 2 about getting MARRIED, telling guy 1 that he was his SOULMATE, telling him he “set my heart to flame,” “I love you more than anything,” etc etc., and, most notably, a picture of guy 2 in the act of SUCKING GUY 1’s DICK. Some of these things dated from WEEKS AFTER they got back from Peru.

So, it was clear to me that guy 1 AND the fiancé both felt (justifiably?) extremely fucked over by guy 2 at this point. The previously-airtight group was on the verge of collapse, as all of us had been dragged into this conflict between these 3 mfs. The girl called off the engagement.

Guy 2 wrote a notes app apology to the entire school claiming he had dissociative identity disorder and blaming the entire affair on his gay alter ego. Then he wrote a sad rap begging his fiancé to get back with him.

But the most insane part of all of this is that, since guy 1 AND guy 2 were both 17 when the explicit pic was posted on “[redacted]hstea,” the POLICE got involved. Guy 1 was investigated on CHILD PORNOGRAPHY charges for a picture of him getting his own dick sucked by a peer, as was guy 2, AS WAS the person running the tea account.

(This tea account had ruined lives, so when her identity was revealed, she literally transferred schools within like a week. Or maybe she’s in jail idk)

The charges were dropped and the boys were let off with a warning, because like. From a legal standpoint, who cares, but we All had to go to an internet safety assembly run by cops where they lectured us for two hours about not taking nudies, and EVERYONE was looking at me and my friends, because even though we had nothing to do with it, they KNEW we were affiliated with the defendents, and that was enough for them

Then guy 1 shot out the back window of guy 2’s car, which was the catharsis of the whole event, and it effectively blew over within another month or two.

Our group was split in half by loyalty (we joked and said guy 2 and his fiancé were like our divorcing parents), and I did not see those two in a room together for SEVERAL months, but then there was one weekend in like February that we all got together like old times (except for the fiancé who had moved on to a better man, as she should), and we were talking about going to a party with some of guy 2’s football friends, and guy 1 was like “I’m not gonna do that. You know what they say about me.”

And guy 2 tucked guy 1’s hair behind his ear and said with ZERO hesitation, “But you know I won’t let anything happen to you.”

This is a completely benign interaction, but imagine being me, witnessing this after 8 months of general social hell, child pornography charges, ruined friendships, Megan is missing assemblies, THE most dramatic breakup I’ve ever seen in my life and subsequent SoundCloud raps, shot out car windows, and a fake DID diagnosis, ALL because guy 2 wanted to avoid allegations of gay behavior. For WHAT.

Anyway coronavirus happened and idk what’s going on with them now and I don’t care but that’s my villain origin story

[ad1thi]

au masterlist

okay ive been meaning to do this for a while, and ive finally got the time to do it so here’s a list of all of my aus!! this is divided by ship for ease, and i do have a lot of pieces that don’t fit into any specific au - so this post is specifically for aus (this is a rly long post so im hiding it under a read more) (also please nobody comment on how similar the summaries are ive never had to think of how im summarising these aus before this post)

all my writing on tumblr // all my writing on ao3

buckytony

1. your pain (is my burden to bear) AU 

Summary: soulmate AU where you can feel your soulmate’s pain, and marks that originate from your soulmate’s injuries can be found on your body

2. target and assassin AU

Summary: The Asset has been tasked with the mission of killing Antonia Stark. Falling in love with her along the way was never part of the plan.

3. park bench AU

Summary: they’re both running from their past. in New York, they find each other.

4. taste of your lips AU

Summary: TVD au. Bucky wasn’t planning to stick around in New York, just drop in long enough to fix whatever his brother had fucked up and then leave. But then he meets Toni Stark, and against all odds - he finds himself staying in the one city he’d sworn never to step foot in for all of his immortal life. 

5. the second (love of his life) AU

Summary: greek gods AU, Aphrodite!Bucky x Hephaestus!Bucky . Bucky has spent over a thousand years resenting his marriage to Tony, content to ignore his husband in favour of his lover, Steve. but when he’s captured by Joann Schmidt and its Tony, not Steve who comes to his rescue - Bucky finds himself falling for the husband he spent so many years ignoring. Is it too late, or can he fix a marriage that was doomed from the start?

6. waste my time AU

Summary: Tony doesn’t do boyfriends. Tony has a boyfriend - Tiberius, or he will anyway once he convinces Ty that breaking up with him was a horrible idea. But then he meets James Barnes at a bar, and suddenly things don’t seem so black and white anymore

7. elite AU

Summary: a/b/o dynamics. Bucky isn’t planning on starting anything up in his new school, and would’ve been completely content to keep his head down until he graduates. But after a chance kiss with a bambi-eyed omega at a party in the beginning of the school year, things weren’t looking so simple anymore

8. 1000 lives (for you) AU

Summary: James hasn’t been subjected to the Chair in close to 3 years. After all, why would HYDRA use the Chair to control him when they’ve got his soulmate instead?

9. Secret Love Song AU

Summary: Marrying Steve wasn’t what Toni had in mind when she pictured the rest of her life, but it wasn’t any hardship. Of course, that was before James came into her life. (this au has been race and gender bent since the original post)

10. Dilwale AU

Summary: mafia au. Tony and Bucky used to be in love. Now they’ve sworn never to see each other again. ‘Course, MJ and Peter falling for each other puts a kink in those plans. 

11. K3G AU

Summary: desi au. As a member of the illustrious Barnes dynasty, Bucky is expected to undertake certain responsibilities; chief of which is marrying someone from a respectable family. Tony Stark from Chandi Chowk might just put a wrench in those plans.

12. buckytony teen wolf AU

Summary: when Tony and Rhodey went searching for a dead body in the woods, a rogue Alpha werewolf was not what they were expecting to find. Overnight, their entire lives change

13. undercover cop AU

Summary: After the events of Afghanistan, Tony can’t bear to work at Stark Industries anymore. Handing over the reins of the company to Pepper, he quits and starts working at Midtown High. but the US government isn’t about to let one of the country’s biggest assets work at a public highschool without even the smallest bit of protection. Enter Agent Barnes, or as Tony knows him - Midtown High’s new gym teacher

14. the K2 AU

Summary: Bucky just wanted to live his life without the Army ever finding him again. Saving Tony Carbonell at a metro station and getting sucked into the intricate life of the italian mafia was never on the agenda. 

15. Mara Dyer AU

Summary: fem! Bucky. Bucky was an extremely normal 16 year old girl - if you discounted the fact that her bestfriend and boyfriend died after an abandoned building collapsed on them; and that she was the only person to survive. Then bodies started dropping around her, people that she imagined dying who died in the exact grotesque way she pictured is. and suddenly, there’s nothing really normal about her at all.

16. ACOMAF AU

Summary: fem! Bucky. Bucky kills a wolf. Except its not a wolf, its a Faerie and the High Lord of the Spring Court comes collecting his pound of flesh. 

17. centre of his universe AU

Summary: The Asset is fascinated by the Stark Heir. 

18. one shot AU

Summary: highschool AU. nerd! tony x punk!bucky. Bucky has has a crush on Tony Stark for his entire highschool career, but he’s never thought he had a shot - choosing instead to pine uselessly while Tony dates what feels like the entire highschool body. Bucky’s resigned himself to the belief that Tony will never be his, until Tony breaks up with longtime girlfriend Rumiko Fujikawa, and suddenly - Bucky has one shot. 

19. 1000 lives (for you) AU

Summary: James Buchanan Barnes and Anthony Edward Stark are impossible soulmates - separated by time, distance and space but brought together by horrible pain and suffering. This is their story. Starts from TWS, and is largely canon compliant.

stevetony

1. student of the year AU

Summary: Steve was supposed to keep his head down, get good grades and get a scholarship to a university far enough away that he wasn’t even breathing the same air as his family. But then he becomes bestfriends with Bucky, falls in love with Bucky’s boyfriend Tony - and things get a bit more complicated along the way

2. just friends(?) AU

Summary: Tony did this, thing where he fell in love with his friends. All of his friends, except maybe Steve. (too bad nobody told Steve)

3. captain americana and the heartbreak prince AU

Summary: Steve Rogers has known Tony Stark for 10 years, 4 months and 11 days. He’s been in love with him for the exact same time. 

4. om shanti om AU

Summary: It should be noted, for the sake of posterity - that Steve usually wasn’t one to buy into the craze that surrounded celebrities. At the end of the day, they were still people. Tony Stark though, that was his exception.

5. stevetony lawyer AU

Summary: raising a 14 year old boy while juggling a demanding job at the DA’s office wasn’t easy, but Steve made it work. It wasn’t an easy life, but it was a good life. They were happy - and then Peter gets charged with the murder of his classmate Wade Wilson and everything falls apart. With his son facing life in prison, Steve does the only thing he can and calls the best defence lawyer he knows - his almost fiance Tony Stark.

6. schitt’s creek AU

Summary: David! Tony x Patrick! Steve

7. kidnapped! tony stark AU

Summary: Tony gets kidnapped and Steve loses his mind.

8. zindagi na milengi dobara AU

Summary: desi AU. in college, Steve, Sam and Bucky made a promise. 3 weeks, 3 activities, 3 boys and the country of Spain. 15 years later, Sam is getting married and its time for them to make good on that promise, to give him the send-off of the century. But between Sam’s conflicted feelings over his engagement, unresolved tension that threatens to break up the trio; Bucky’s secret agenda and Steve’s workaholic tendencies - it definitely promises to be a trip they’ll never forget

9. arranged marriage AU

Summary: desi AU. Steve has been in love with Tony for years. So when his mother asks him to settle down, he impulsively sends a rishta to the Stark residence; and thinks nothing of it. And then - they reply.

10. betrothed AU

Summary: Tony and Steve are princes of neighbouring kingdoms, promised to each other at birth. But the life of a royal is not as smooth as it seems.

11.  the salacious bisexual life of tony stark AU

Summary: As a journalist, Steve Rogers is expected to write articles on a great many number of things. He didn’t realise that could include his ex boyfriend.

12. Civil War AU

Summary: everything’s the same except: (1) Steve and Tony are dating, (2) Steve doesn’t know Tony is Iron Man

13. stevetony lucifer AU

Summary: Tony is tired of being the Devil, tired of following Howard’s order, tired of all the bullshit that comes with divinity. Malibu isn’t great but its a refreshing change of pace, a nice break from the screaming and the pain. And then he meets Detective Steve Rogers and Malibu suddenly has a lot more to offer.

Note: this AU was started by @imposter-human and all credits for it rightfully go to her. i just piggybacked onto it and added a couple of my own thoughts, but this AU is hers. 

rhodeytony

1. Dostana AU

Summary: Rhodey and Tony desperately need a new apartment, and there’s a brilliant one that’s close to where they both work. There’s only catch though, the landlord, Pepper (who is stunning) only accepts applications from couples. After a night drowning their sorrows in the local bar, they come up with the brilliant idea to pose as a gay couple for the apartment. They move in, and come up with increasingly stupid ways to impress their new landlord without exposing that their marriage is a shamNeither bestfriend likes to lose, and both of them have their eyes set on one person: Pepper (or do they?)

2. rajput tony stark AU

Summary: desi AU. Toni Stark comes from a long line of rajput royalty. (this au has been genderbent since the original post)

3. civil war rhodeytony AU

Summary: civil war scenes re-imagined with an established rhodeytony and a past stevetonyrhodey otv.

4. me and my bestfriend but make it rhodeytony

Summary: memories of me and LRP but re-imagined as Tony and Rhodey

5. meri pyaari bindu AU

Summary: To the rest of the world, he’s always be a Mr someone - but to Rhodey, he has and forever will be, his very first love, Tony.

6. doctor who AU

Summary: Doctor! Tony Stark x River Song! fem James Rhodes

7. female tony AU

Summary: Tony doesn’t like Rhodey’s new girlfriend. (he’s still trying to figure out why)

stevebuckytony

1. stephanie rogers AU

Summary: Steph Rogers was never supposed to find herself on the frontlines of World War 2. Then again, she wasn’t supposed to do a lot of things. - the mcu re-imagined with genderbent Steve. eventual stevetonybucky otv

2. on your knees AU

Summary: dom/sub AU. Tony is relearning what it means to be alive in a world where he’s not in the clutches of HYDRA, and misinterprets a scene between dom! Steve and sub! Bucky

samtonybucky

1. president tony stark AU

Summary: Tony Stark is sworn in at the 46th President of the United States. Sam Wilson and Bucky Barnes are assigned to his detail.

buckytonynat

1. the Carbonell Family AU

Summary: Anthony Carbonell is the patriarch of the Italian Mafia, Natasha and James are his bodyguards (and lovers). Steve Rogers is the FBI agent who’s vowed to bring him down.

clarktony (superiron)

1. bound by blood AU

Summary: when Clark’s parents die, Howard Stark takes him in. Desperate to recreate the serum by any means necessary he starts experimenting on both his new foster child, and his own flesh and blood son in an attempt to create the next supersoldier. Years later, Clark has broken free of Howard and is now Superman; but he and Tony are connected in ways he couldn’t even begin to understand

gen

1. morgan stark’s villain origin story AU

Summary: Morgan Stark isn’t a normal girl. It might have something to do with the death of her father.

2. blind tony stark AU

Summary: Tony loses his sight when he’s 15 after a kidnapping gone wrong.

3. desi! tony stark AU

Summary: just a link to all pieces that have desi! tony stark in them.

4. slytherin! tony stark AU

Summary: just a link to all pieces that have slytherin! tony stark in them.

5. AU-gust 2020

Summary: a masterlist to all the AUs i did for AU-gust, spanning various ships and fandoms

6. sins of the father AU

Summary: Harley has always known who his birth father is. It just never occurred to him, that his birth father might not know who his son is. im3 compliant. slightly aged up harley keener (he’s in highschool not middle school)

[mr-random-artist]

All of them. Go.

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?Meh. It’s not terrible but sometimes my,dad makes md feel like shit

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?Friend or girlfriend who knows

03: Do you regret anything?Cutting

04: Are you insecure?Very

05: What is your relationship status?Taken

06: How do you want to die?Painlessly or from protecting my sister

07: What did you last eat?Meatballs with bbq sauce

08: Played any sports?Not that I remember

09: Do you bite your nails?Unfortunately yes

10: When was your last physical fight?I don’t fight people so probably yesterday with my lil sis. It wasn’t a real fight either

11: Do you like someone?Duh

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?Ive never even stayed up 24 hours

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?Myself for over thinking things

14: Do you miss someone?My old friends, my great grandmother, and my pets

15: Have any pets?2 cats one bunny

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?Absolutely terrible tbh

17: Ever made out in the bathroom?Kissed not made out

18: Are you scared of spiders?Yup.

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?Only to help young me

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?N o w h e r e

21: What are your plans for this weekend?Try not to be depressed and draw.

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?Not really

23: Do you have piercings? How many?Two that are probably closed

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?math and science

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?I can’t remember specifics

26: What are you craving right now?Love

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?I try hard not to so I hope not

28: Have you ever been cheated on?No tbh I feel like one tho its why I feel like shit

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?Probably

30: What’s irritating you right now?

The fact I'm typing This instead of sleeping and that I hit post on accident

31: Does somebody love you?

Gee I would hope so

32: What is your favourite color?

Maroon

33: Do you have trust issues?

Pretty sure

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

The one I remember is none. I forgot it.

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

Probably the people in my lunch room

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

Of course

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

Forgive although I feel wrong for doing so

38: Is this year the best year of your life?

Maybe

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

14.

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?

When I was a baby probably

51: Favourite food?

M e a t

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

Sometimes.

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

Watch YouTube

54: Is cheating ever okay?

No. At least tell the person or break up with them.

55: Are you mean?

I think I'm unintentionally mean

56: How many people have you fist fought?

No one??

57: Do you believe in true love?

I suppose

58: Favourite weather?

Rain

59: Do you like the snow?

Meh

60: Do you wanna get married?

As of Now im not mentally ready.

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

NO BECAUSE I GET ALL FLUSTERED

62: What makes you happy?

friends, drawing, animals

63: Would you change your name?

Meh

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

No I'm gonna do it later today fuckers

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

Hahahahahah to bad I'm gay as fuck my dude

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

Nah

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

I'm not naming names.

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Close friend or girlfriend. I don't know what's considered a deep conversation

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

Ask again later

70: Is there anyone you would die for?

My sister.

[flyinghetfield]

Heyy I was tagged by @duffmckagan (😘)

1) Do you have a good relationship with your parents? Yep! 2) Who did you last say ‘I love you’ to? Uhh my mum 3) Do you regret anything? Of course. 4) Are you insecure? Oo yeah. 5) What is your relationship status? Single! 6) How do you want to die? Old age would be great, in my sleep. 7) what did you last eat? Caramel Chocolate 8) Played any sports? Nah 9) Do you bite your nails? Only when I’m nervous or if they are starting to break. 10) When was your last physical fight? Never been in a fight before, only play fights. 11) Do you like someone? Nah nobody has really caught my eye lately (Unless we count James then yes) 12) Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? Fuck no, I’ve done about 30 hours. realised I needed to go to bed when I went to walk through a door way and slammed into the wall. 13) Do you hate anyone at the moment? Nah. 14) Do you miss someone? Nope. 15) Have any pets? I have 4 dogs and 4 horses 16) How exactly are you feeling at the moment? Nervous, Slightly in pain cause of my ear, also slightly cold. 17) Ever made out in the bathroom? Nope. 18) Are you scared of spiders? Ooh yeah, I remember waking up and feeling something move on my chest and thought it was my hair moving. Lol nope, never jumped out of bed so fast. 19) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? Of course 20) Where was the last place you snogged someone? In my dreams. 21) What are your plans for this weekend? I don’t even know what I’m doing tomorrow, so god knows. 22) Do you want to have kids? how many? Nada. 23) Do you have piercings? how many? I’ve got my ear lobes pierced and I literally got my industrial done 3 days ago. 24) What is/are/were your best subjects? Psychology and I.T 25) Do you miss anyone from your past? Yeah. 26) What are you craving rn? Deep sleep 27) Have you ever broken someone’s heart? Pffft no. 28) Have you ever been cheated on? Nope 29) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? NOPE. 30) What’s irritating you right now? That I can’t wear my big headphones over both of my ears because of my piercing and that I can’t sleep on that side. 31) Does somebody love you? HA! Nice thought. 32) What is your favorite color? Pastel purple and blue, also black. 33) Do you have trust issues? I’ve had my heart played with and crushed a lot so yeah a little bit. 34) Who/what was your last dream about? Uhhh I can’t remember but giant chance Metallica were there. 35) Who was the last person you cried in front of? My dad. 36) Do you give out second chances too easily? Not really, its hard to make me hate people. So if you do, I probably won’t change my mind unless you prove a reason for me to give that second chance. 37) Is it easier to forgive or forget? Forget. 38) Is this year the best year of your life? I mean its been fun and it isn’t done yet so I can’t give you a official answer. 39) How old were you when you had your first kiss? ..throw it in my face why don’t ya. 40) Have you ever walked outside completely naked? Hell NO. 41) Favorite food? Nuggets, Pizza, Garlic bread or Ice cream. 42) Do you believe everything happens for a reason? Eh. 43) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? Watched Prometheus, Alien Convent and Alien with friends. 44) Is cheating ever ok? Never. 45) Are you mean? I can’t. Im mean when i’m by myself or bitching with friends but i can’t be straight up mean. 46) How many ppl have you fist fought? None! 47) Do you believe in true love? It would be nice to think there is someone out there made for me. So I wish. 48) Favorite weather? Thunderstorms and heavy rain. 49) Do you like snow? Never seen snow! 50) Do you wanna get married? If I find someone who can put up with me or if I can put up with them for a long period then yeah. 51) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? I won’t say no if they do. 52) What makes you happy? Metallica, food, music, friends, sleep. 53) Would you change your name? Nah. 54) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? YEP cause hes half way across the world and also he was in my dreams. 55) Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? Tell him thanks then point out he’s gay. 56) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can act your complete self around? Yep! 57) Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? My friend, Nathan. 58) Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? Steph! 59) Do you believe in soulmates? Again it would be nice if there is someone out there for me. 60) Is there anyone you would die for? Oh yeah.

I tag; @guitargoat, @cinnamon-toast-cliff, @oceanmachine, @allweheardesperatecry, @ride-the-storm, @uailduan, @sabrina-blyton, @discogrohl, @face-up-make-your-stand, @kirkhammies, @lars-flathead, and anyone else who wants to do it!

[somethingsrotting]

# 1-70??

Babe bye this is so extra like you ❤ 1) I have an okay relationship with my dade, good one with mom. Step parents? 😒2) last said I love you to you probably babe c: 3) yeah I regret a lot 4) of course ya boy is insecure 5) taken by your cute ass ❤ 6) hmm. I think I'd want to die peacefully in my sleep. Or holding your hand. Or quick and painless. 7) ice cream I think???? Is the last thing i ate 8) yeah i played sports ya boy masc 9) yeah i bite my nails sometimes10) rip uh last physical fight was probably a year ago 11) yes of course I like you silly c: 12) yea bc my body hates me and never wants to sleep 13) okay hate is a strong word but hmm. I do hate Trump. And i could name one other person I legitimately hate. 14) yeah unfortunately I miss a lot of people who probably don't give a fuck about me anymore 15) yes my kitties boat and lola 🙌🏻😩16) excited and nervous!! 17) yeah ive made out in a bathroom 😒😒 18) oh fuck yeah im afraid of spiders 19) yeah I would go back. Knowing what I know now. If that is possible. 20) uh da fuck does snogg mean lemme look it up. Ew bye i hate french kissing. I dont know probably punched them for putting their wormy tongue in my mouth 21) to see my babe 😩😩🙌🏻🙌🏻 22) i do want to have kids. Just one perfect angel like my mom calls me. 23) i have 3 piercings currently. Had 6 in the past 24) probably science love that shit it was and is my fave subject 25) yeah i do unfortunately again 26) a hug and pasta 27) i think i have broken someones heart. 28) not that I have know of, I could have been but not that I know of I have not been cheated on surprisingly 29) yes. Not on purpose. Bye thats a deep question 30)THE FACT THAT MY ROOMMATE WONT LEAVE FOR BREAK UNTIL SATURDAY 31) yes quite a few people do 😊32) teal 33) yeah who da fuck doesnt have trust issues. I trust some more than others though.34) this is really weird but my last dream an old teacher almost killed me on accident in a mall. I was trying to set up a piece i was hired to make and i asked his help and something weird happened and he had super powers to life me up and the mall got super windy and we had to runn all the way across the mall so we took a short cut and he tried to protect me from the wind and levitated me and tried to drop me gently but it broke my spine. I was in the hospital. And because I was it brought my parents back together ans they got remarried. Bye. Nyways 35) uhhh i think the last person i cried in front of my was friend katie 36) oh fuck yeah i give second chances to easily 37) its easy to forgive i think. I remember to much38) uhh im not sure. Its to early to decide. I know for sure i have met my soul mate and found a very good path for my ceramics work. Thats about it. 39)bye i was probably 11 or 12 when i had my first kiss 40) yeah i live in the woods im sure ive walked out naked once or twice41) uhhh it skips to 51 for some reason 51) favorite food is pizza52) yes i believe things happen for reasons c: 53) i watched game grumps and waited for bae to finish homework 54) no cheating is never okay wtf 55) i think i can be sometimes. I dont mean to me mean. 56) uh no one but ive been punched before 57) yes i believe in soul mates and not just because im in love right now. I truly believe there is someone for everyone who wants someone. You can live life perfectly happy without ever being in a relationship though c: 58) i love summer thunder storms 😩🙌🏻59) god no im so sick of it this year for some reason bye snow 60) i do yes. When the time is right i want to be married 61) bye yes its cute when the boy calls me baby 62) usually the littlest things make me happy. Being called beautiful. The quirky little things my partner and friends do. The most unnoticed moments in life make me happy. 63) i would yes. I despite my birth given name64) bye yes id punch the fucker in the face if i had to "kiss" him again. MAKE SURE YOU KISS YOUR KNUCKLES BEFORE YOU PUNCH ME IN THE FACE 🎶 65) uhhh she knows im taken and probs would tell me but not do anything. Id tell her im gay af like she dont know already and we'd move on 66) yeah my girls katie and ileana 67) bye these opposite sex questions are weird i talked to katie last 68) the last person i had a deep conversation was with katie lmao 69) bye already answered this yes soulmates for people who would like a relationship in their lives 70) most certainly. 3 people come to mind. ❤ Bye babe your so extra thank you for asking ❤❤❤

[kota-le-sunkhild]

okay okay, we all love an angsty soulmate au right? especially when there is a mix up between the soulmates! and death involved. death is always beautiful.

okay so imagine this!

(im gonna be using my characters Lumiar, Helio, and Amira because this is kinda like something like what happens in their story.)

so, Lumiar and Amira are just walking around, chilling, hanging out. then, BOOM Lumiar sees his soulmate. so naturally he shows him off to Amira. however she doesn't get the idea that is his soulmate and just thinks he is cute. so now they are both staring at this boy. and then he looks up and sees them. and goddamn is he pretty. so he looks out and glances at both of them and gets that soulmate tingly. so like a normal lovestruck boi he goes up and introduces himself to them.

and Amira is whipped. especially when he shly mutters out "soulmate?"

and without actually fucking thinking, she goes up and is like “omg we are soulmates” and helio, the precious dumbass that he is, is like “i was pretty sure it was your best friend that attracted me but you am i to question this whole thing. you wouldn't lie to me" and Lumiar.exe has stopped working.

blah blah blah he is trying figure out what the fuck is going on and next thing he knows is Amira and him are in his room and she is fangirling about her new boyfriend. Lumiar is like "yea that cool and all but THAT MY SOULMATE" and Amira is like "bitch right now he isn't. fate is giving me another chance. if fate wants us apart then fate will drive us apart"

and like normal people, Lumiar is like "no bitch. we are not about to test fate on this one. THAT'S MY SOULMATE. i don't want to watch you two be lovey-dovey and die because you are heartbroken over your old soulmate. are you insane."

a week later, he is third-wheeling on one of their "totally not dates" and is trying to stay calm and not out himself as Helio's soulmate for whatever dumbass reason Amira convinced him. meanwhile, Helio's gay ass is trying to get it into his mind that he is on a date with Amira, not her way too hot best-friend who has been staring at him longingly with his hypnotic eyes that seem to draw you in until- stop thinking brain. Amira is quietly awkwardly trying to convince herself that this is fine and Fate totally isn't smacing her in the face with reality.

so magically, this whole totally not trying to fuck your best friend now my "best friend" carries on long enough to the point people are waiting for the engagement. and Helio can't do it. as bad as the thought is, he doesn't want to marry his soulmate. and Amira and Lumiar know this. so when they go hangout with Helio's friends, Amira decides to have mercy on the two. Fate needs a bit of leeway. she really wants to back out of this situation. after so long of watching them pine.

and also she wants to see her boyfriend and best friend make out because why not. it’s funny.

so the decide to play truth or dare and she dares Helio to make out with Lumiar for 5 seconds.

everyone is shook. who forces their soulmates to be intimate with other people. what is that. Lumiar is a bit hesitant. A) he won’t be able to hold back B) he doesn’t want Helio to notice the pull.

he is actually fucked.

Helio is hesitant because A) HE won’t be able to hold back. (you wouldn’t believe the fantasies he has had) and B) that’s just gonna make him want to elope with Lumiar even more than he already wants to.

doesn’t matter because a dare is a dare and they totally weren’t looking for a reason to do this. and you can probably that make out session lasted for more than 5 seconds. and that they totally were both throughly embrassed and wanting to do that again.

fellas, is it gay to make out with your best friend occasionally? it’s not gay if he is really hot and your girlfriend knows. right?

still, Lumiar is not up for the whole thing. he doesn’t want this whole thing to be seen as taboo even tho this is HIS soulmate. that’s not fair to either of them. so against but their judgment, Helio is left helplessly pining after the equally pining Lumiar who seems to be sending him mixed signals. in a moment of desperation to heal his broken heart, he proposes to Amira who is really hating the whole situation.

marriage is another name for soulmate binding. it binds people even if they aren’t actually soulmates. the previous soulmates will either die or barely survive death. so of course not wanting her best friend to die she postpones the marriage while trying to find out how to back up out of the mess she caused with out hurting everyone.

and of course that happens with a soulmate link reading with the couple and Lumiar who keeps getting dragged with them that way Helio doesn’t feel the lack of soulmate bond in the area.

so they are getting their stuff read and the reader looks at them like they are crazy for even thinking they were soulmates in the first place. they are highly incompatible. they make a joke about how Lumiar has a better chance of being his soulmate. Helio being the desperate ho that he is asked if they could be read and it is revealed, yes they are soulmates.

Amira is happy she didn’t have to say anything. Helio is happy that he wasn’t bad for wanting to straight up tell fate to fuck off because he wants that pretty piece of eye candy that keeps getting shove in his face like a red button. Lumiar is feeling guilty and finally confesses that he knew, but doesn’t mention Amira.

while Helio really doesn’t want to let it affect him because he really just wants Lumiar to finally be his, he can’t help but be hurt. however Lumiar goes into this whole rant about how they were so happy together and Amira thought it was Fate’s second chance for her to find love and it would be so confusing and yada yada yada self-deprication and doubt. this make Helio go like “oh so you did actually want me!”

and Lumiar is like “fucking course i did. do you see yourself. DO YOU UNDERSTAND THE SELF CONTROL IT TOOK TO NOT FLIRT WITH YOU INFRONT EVERYONE! you were sitting there, being cute and happy with your adorable face. AND I COULDN’T JUST KISS YOU AND CUDDLE YOU! i suffered. i really suffered.” and Helio is like “SAME HERE. i had to sit there and pretend like i wasn’t staring at you like you were the best thing in existence and that i wished that you were my soulmate. IT WAS AGONY!”

and Amira is sitting there, feeling a bit offended but understanding and comes out and say that this is all her fault. Helio is too relieved for it to properly settle in and he is just like “we can discuss that later. right now i need to go give my soulmate all the kisses and cuddles we missed out on. i am starved!”

and yea, they do talk about it. and Helio, bless his heart, is heartbroken and pissed at Amira. however, she dug herself deep in his heart and won’t be able to completely hate her. however he prefers to stay by Lumiar’s side and be a needy bitch when she is around just incase she tries to tamper with their love lives again.

and its really funny because Helio is a fucking dom looking bitch and is mostly likely a dom in bed. so seeing him draped across Lumiar’s lap or cutely glaring at her while hugging Lumiar tightly in his lap like a kitten is adorable af. he soon get the hint that A) she isn’t gonna pull anything and B) he isn’t intimidating like this; and gives it up. still latches onto Lumiar around her tho.

so yea. the end i guess.

[current-lesbian-obsession]

My Soulmate is Gay, Now What?

I met him during freshman year in college. He is one of the few male students in my class since Nursing Course is dominated by female students. He looked so foreign, has bushy eyebrows, great sense of humor, smart and artistic. The only problem is the acne breakout.  But I saw him beyond his imperfections.

He had a huge crush on one of our classmate. She's a flight attendant now, so you could just imagine how beautiful she was and is. I never saw him with a girlfriend. He's too focused on his studies and his passions though I didn't really know what his passions are back then. It seemed that he's not interested in having a relationship before. We became close friends and even discovered that we both like the same things.

After we graduated college, we haven't seen each other for months. No contacts with each other at all. After one time we saw each other again during one of my trainings. We sometimes skipped the class and watch movies together. We even hang out at an organic restaurant and drink stuffs that we both like and talk about life and our future. We planned our future together - as friends.

That moment, I started falling for him. How could someone plan his future with me in it? Maybe, just maybe, he really wanted me in his future and has no plans of breaking this friendship. We might actually end up being together.

I left him again and decided to become a missionary. I had to stay in another island to train. But I didn't get to finish the training. Halfway through I realized that being a missionary isn't my calling. I'm called for something else.

So I went back to my hometown and searched for my own destiny.

I messaged my best friend if we could meet for a movie, just like the old times. He agreed. We met the following day and talked about everything. I updated him about my life and even shared to him how holy I was feeling at that moment. I shared my love for God with him and he shared his to me. We have different religions but that didn't stop us in becoming best of friends. We respect each others' beliefs and that just strengthened our relationship.

I told him I was going back to the neighboring island to get my things and I asked him if he could accompany me. He said yes right away and said that he can't wait to travel with me. It's our first travel together. He was excited, he joined me as I attended the worship service in one of my co-trainee's church. He's so friendly and even talked to my friends about anything under the sun. We even went to my training place and gathered my things and enjoyed the rest of the day and night at the city. We went to a club and danced and drink the night away. Well that's me - a missionary trainee who's also a party girl and an alcoholic. That explains why I never belonged to that place. We enjoyed that night and vowed to go back there, drunker and wilder.

We're both licensed nurses and we decided to pursue our careers. We took the entrance exam for one of the government hospitals in the city and both learned that we passed.

We started working on the same day, on the same hospital but different areas. I was assigned to the Emergency Room and he was assigned to the Medical Ward. Everytime our shifts would coincide, he would visit me in the ER during his break. We also meet up after work for hot chocolates, beers and burgers.

Months passed and we decided to further our dream getaways. Since we don't earn that much before, we save up our allowances and finally got enough for a trip to a neighboring island. Again.

I'm a t-shirt and pants kinda girl but this time, I decided to girl up. We took the first trip of the ferry and explored the island the whole day. I had so much fun spending the day with him. Until night-time came. We had a power nap and when it was 9pm, he told me that he would just step out for a bit to meet a friend. Well I didn't know that! I didnt know that he had a friend here. I waved it away thinking it's just someone not important. 11pm came and I decided to prepare for our night out. We haven't had our dinner yet and I was starving. I put on this dress and heels and thought 'I looked okay'. It's my first time to wear a dress on a night out and im kinda nervous. Oh, and did i mention it was his birthday? Yeah, an hour away from his 24th birthday. I waited, took pictures of myself and admired myself. I never dressed up for a guy before. I waited for an hour more. He arrived 10 minutes after 12. I wasn't feeling it anymore but I don't want to ruin the night for him. So I pretended that im still excited. He asked for an apology for coming back later than what he told me. I waved it off and told him that it doesn't matter. We took a taxi, had our expensive dinner in a semi fine diner and went to the same club that we went to the first time we were here. I wanted to get drunk, but I cant focus too well because im not comfortable with my dress.

We had some beer, since we are in our beer-lovin' days. We had a couple of bottles but that doesn't knocked us up. Remember, the goal for this day is to be drunker and wilder.

He loves tequila, so I told him ill pay for his tequila shots. It's way too expensive but I saved up for this. He had like 4 shots of tequila and i had 2 and we ordered some more beer. He's totally drunk now. And im a little bit tipsy at the moment. Someone has got to be sober enough if we wanted to survive the night.

We abandoned our seats and invaded the dance floor. We danced and jumped and screamed and laughed! We are enjoying the night! Until 2 guys decided to position themselves behind me and started grinding me. So I told my best friend if we could switch places. He grabbed me by my waist and that's the most intimate thing that he did to me. I was over the moon. Until...

The guy started to grind on him. And he seemed to enjoy it. And I was shocked. The other guy talked to me and offered me a drink while the other is busy grinding on my best friend. I understood that he was drunk but damn, man! I was planning to marry this guy someday and he ended up being gay! They didn't do anything 'wrong' but they exchanged numbers. My entire dream ended right then and there.

I convinced him to go home. And instead of taking a taxi back to the hotel, we opted to walk to sober up. He's obviously drunk. He keeps on telling me that he really enjoyed what happened tonight. We passed by a big bridge which he decided to climb the railings and walk there drunk! One slip and he'll fall to his death. I gripped so hard on his ankles and I sobered up 100%. Because i thought he's going to die. I managed to convince him to come down and walk on the pavement. He's walking in a criss-cross line. He's happy, so that made me happy too in a sense. We passed by Jollibee and ordered some meal coz the drinking, the dancing, the grinding made us famished. We walk for over 30 minutes and finally we manage to arrive at our hotel safe and sound. When we arrived at the hotel, he dropped right away to the bed and slept. I removed his shoes and fixed him on the bed. He checked his phone and told me that the guy who was grinding both od us earlier is asking him if he could join us in our hotel. That fcking bastard! I told him to put down his phone and delete his number. I don't know of he did that though.

Before we went home the next day, we had some hot drinks to deal with our hangover. He's like a broken record saying that he enjoyed last night and that he's hoping we could do it again.

Well that happened again and again but no more grinding happened. Instead, I met his so called-friend and he's a guy. He told me that he's like his best friend but only online. He confided in him, told him his secrets and that kinda made me jealous.

He used to meet up with me before my night shift. He would ask me for dinner, for a bottle of beer or a cup of coffee or chocolate just before my shift starts. I was secretly hoping that he would fall for me. He would tell me stuffs like "You are worth spending for.", "I'm at my happiest when im with you", and "I'd like to travel the world with you."

A year after that, he still never fell for me and I decided to work abroad. Away from him. We messaged each often the first few months im here and it just stopped. We'd ask each other how were we after a few weeks and the conversation just end abruptly. They say, if you love each other, you'll never ran out of things to say to each other. But we did. We just ran out of words to say to each other. The thought of him thinking of me is enough. It's just that maybe, everytime we contact each other, I will always remember what happened on his 24th birthday. And I remind myself that he'll never fall in love with me because he's in love with the same gender orientation as him.

I'm not judging him for that. But everytime I remember that, I had to nurse my broken heart all over again. I was never so sure in my life. I know from the moment I met him that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. I saw forever the moment I met him. That's the feeling when you found your soulmate. But what if your soulmate is not who you think he is? What if that's all you get? Loving him from a distance? Supporting him while he loves someone else? Pretending to smile and happy for him when in fact your heart's been broken to pieces? I was able to do that. I never could've believed that I was able to do that. Listen to him while he told me stories how happy and contented he was (without me). I had to cry after a shared smile, laugh and nostalgia with him. At night, I reminisce all the moments that I thought were special for the both of us. I reminisce the moments when I thought he was falling for me. The drunk nights, the long walks along the city lights, the dinners under a starry sky, movies, music - all of that is purely friendship.

On Feb 2018, I decided to completely move on from him. To stop hoping that things will change between us. Because it's hopeless. Every now and then he would send me a message telling me that he wished I was there with him, enjoying UK together. But that's all there is. He missed the company but not me. I had to stop hoping if I wanted my heart to be whole again.

[sherlockedmindblown-blog]

THEFINALPROBLEM

‪Im angry for all those who see things which arent there..So i have to write it this way, 140 letters its not enough..its called FRIENDSHIP,not ur fantasy.. I have gay friends and i love them, I am all for LGBT rights,marriages,adoptions and everything so dont try make me a homophobe..Dont be so feisty and offensive..I am a huge fan of tv shows, i saw more than 200 shows, now i activly watching over 100 through the year, so I am bot specialist, but I have my opinion and kind of huge base to build on, cause i saw a lot..And i am also a shipper, so I get that..But the whole team who make #Sherlock (and they are doing some pretty pretty good and brilliant job) they cant make every shipper happy..And I know the world is trying ti change and be open and welcoming to gay people, and its right that way, cause we are all same...But u have to keep your reason and logic and whole thinking together..At first with your attitude they will didnt care about us and there will be no other season, and maybe for all u showing it would be deserved cause u are ungratefull and mean..Sorry u can ripped ne apart but I stand by my opinion and I will give you arguments why..Maybe some of you will understand..‬ ‪In every show u always find ur favorite, and ur shipping..And sometimes it happens and sometimes dont..I get it that u imagine yourswlf on Sherlocka or John place or imagine them as a dreamy oerfect couple which u want to live someday with someone in ur future..They change a lot and make a SPECTACULAR SHOW from old classic..But u want too much and u see things which are clearly not there..There is line between friendship and love. Of course u or i imagine that we change oyr crush to gay or straight or whatever it doesnt matter..But there is clearly totally different story.Not because creators want to make you mad amd furious and filling internet with these crap and throwing a lots of shit on their brilliant work..‬ ‪U dont not anymore concentrate on story..TRY TO THINK..please just try it with me..‬ ‪If ur wish would be fullfill hiw it would looks like abd what would happen with Sherlock, with show we all love and worship???‬ ‪So imagine it with me: ‬ ‪Theyre on a case, so much intense drama like always, everything we love...And in the middle of that they would be holding hands and showing their love and pride to whole world, in this case to whole London...And they would kiss or cuddle in Sherlock chair, or go on a date or whatever John going out of Sherlocks bedroom making him breakfest in the morning..I get it and I dont blame u that u are shipping this and see u in some way at their place...If I will be honest to u, maybe it will help, I imagine myself worh Sherlock so i dont want him with Mollt, Adler or John, dont care about gender..But I am reasonable intelligent person and I dont excpected this happy end for me( i know Sherlock is not real person, i am not crazy..) and I am totally "in love" (we cam call it in love probably) with Benedict Cumberbatch (I wasnt since the beggining, i actually wondering for two years why is whole world so swoon by him..I didnt saw it..I was so blind and stupid, now i get it maybe too much) but it doesnt change anything about that i love the show and i am very excited for what creators bring us and if they hive us more(please we want moooore) and if they give u ur happy ending Sherlock&John=❤❤❤ The biggest world love..That would totally ruin the whole show. It would become a totally different show which would many of us dont wanna watch, not because we are antigay or homophobic or whatever bullshit u will tell me, but because it would be wrong..They would instead of solving case solving they partership and problems in theirs relationship from why didnt u take out garbage to why did u cheated on me..So it would become a show about gay guys living in London splving specially their relationship because its aleays like that when partners work together..And usually they dont solve cases like that and dont get inti situation nearly close to this...So i u want Sherlock (if it ever will be another season, its in stars, but i believe in creators team that they dont ruin my hopes) to become a cheap like some german romantic movue from Rosamunde Pilcher, when u see those films u know it from first shoot, and u also now the whole story, keep preasure and hating what they done, all this amazing job...‬ ‪I would maybe shipping it two in different tv show, if it would be real...‬ ‪Its not my first rodeo, but in furst case I was sitting quitely and kept my mouth shout and my opinions to myself..‬ ‪But this time I am piss off cause u are all, touch ur conscience whi wrote what and where and hiw rude and disrespectfull to vreators u was, everyone one of u by yourself...Because they deserve so much better from us, our fandom, theyre doing it cause we love it so much. But we habe to be normal and think about whole thing ot only that part and gay happy end u want. It would make a joke from the whole show, because theyre both clearly elsewhere than u want them..John was dating, get married, had a baby, almost had an affair and its not still enough. I can almost hear u all argumenting that he or both of them are hidding it cause it happens in real life..Yeah but not everytime.Sometimes its just two huys become friends and after some time family..Sherlock, u could maybe said that he is little confusing about his sexuality at the start, and theough whole shiw, but its not about he being secretly gay( he is so clever and logic and reasonable that he would know that about himself and he would worked it out like everything, with pure logic) he is dofferent in other way, with his emotions, rudness, always bored by usuall stuff and ordinary life and so much mite thing, which we love so much about him..And he goes through some changes in those four bloody good seasons..He find his only friend in Watson, friend for gid sake, not future lover..He find his soulmate but in dofferent way that all lovesexpassion thing..And it was change him, in nice and goid way. But u all wake up and stop with all that hate pointing to creators and whole team..Ur fir no reason, yes i dont see that as a reason to hate all about finale and bitching and wining about it, because its not like u want it..U should appreciate and love the masterpiece they all made and not by bad and angry and rude AF! ‬ ‪I wastalking about that I saw this before, ta kind of funny because it was with Hannibal, it was also such a brilluant show( i became a huge fan of Mads Mikkelsen so see them together with Benedict in Doctor Strange was kind if my happy moment, omething like u wish with Sherlock and John huge gay love story..U are finding things where theyre not..) and it was same but it was probably a lot smaller fandom than Sherlock has, it was probably why it was cancelled after 3 season, but i also hope they will come back cause theyre some serious talks about it, but its not important now, but there was a characters of Hannibal and Will, it would take sometime to explain whole show but in shortcut Hannibal is psychopathic serial killer who eats people and like to cook them very goid, like high chefs stuffs and Will is nit an usuall detective(am I the only one who sees the simillarity yet?) he has this thing he can imagine in his somekind of mind palace how was those people kill when he us on crime scene..And there are some serious creeepy shit, but the point is that Hannibal becomes somehiw obssesed by Will, but not in the way of love, again, how somebody saw it, but there happen a lots of stuff which lead to weird kid of friendship between two very extraordinary people, like saving lives, and helping to other one, even if theyre are enemies fro the begiininf, and they both have relationship with women, doesnt matter hiw disturb those relationshio are, there was no romantic line between who somebody wanna see..It would also ruin the show, it was about friendship, between two not normal at all person, that fragile thing which start after all what they done to each other or to everybody else.Ther was that beauty, and this is the same case..We love Sherlock and Johns FRIENDSHIP...We dont want to turn it in different show, it wouldnt be like all ur memes and fanfiction story cause if this would happen there will be no base for any of this, u would win and what about us? U feel somehow(dobt get it why and how un this case) discriminated by this, but what about us all? There is always so mamy different opinions and tastes, never can make everyone happy, but theyre the creators and its up to them how its gonna be in the end. If u where on their place U could change it but they have theirs vision and they are creating it using their own fantasy and brilliant minds, all those twists and everything..U can express ur opinion, wish or feelings but doung that through rudness and hatefull comments and tweets and complains to BBC? I think its too much...And u being ungratefull amd dissrespectfull to their hard job...And amazing fantastic results... ‬ ‪They all deserve ours DEEPEST BOWS AND THANKS for taking us to this amazing rollercoaster ride of drama and emotions and hard thinking and deductions..It was quite something..And I dont say it like that, it means something cause I saw so many shows, and I usually watch even those which are nit as fun and i dont enjoy them too much, cause i am trying to give it a chance cause sometimes its worth it. But in case if Sherlock (i was never fanof crimi and i was the type "i dont givea fucj whi did that and why"cause they put detective and "maincharacters" aside in every crimi and i dont like that. Maybe I become wiser😂😂 i do t think so highly about myself😂😂with aging..Or i jist change, my taste change...) it was for the first time when I didnt do anything else then sit and didnt move or even breath at every episode, i didnt go to kitchen and let it play cause every minute and word it can be important, i didnt even scroll through my Iphone cause I am type of person who do t concentrate very good and gets easilly disstracted, and I was completly drown into...‬ ‪Yesterday I was being mad because of the finale cause we are now changing an operator and we are without cable tv, and I have this problem...I live in Czech Republic, so u all whos complaining, u cant imagine what i would give to have that chance to saw it cinema..I was prepar to be mad since 21 at England, at my country is one hoyr difference so its 22..And wait fir somebody uploaded online somewhere( not so nice, but when isnt any other usefull choice) so i couldnt look nowhere to avoid saw just a frame...And it was my imagination of pute torture..Longest two hours..Maybe u will think i am posh or whatever butour czech tv channel called Ct2 airs it at the same time, asi in England(surprise, in other cases we ate here at season 2 meanwhile there is season 6) but they made i with czech dabing..AndI just cant..I love it on english, i waych everything in english cause i hate stupid dabing its just looks like two totally different shows, the voice and the picture...Amd i would not even mention theyre picking very weirdly, with consideration(in their case not consideration would be more accurate) of real voice of those actors...So it would be torture and I would have it all completely ruined. So I was upset but I think I can not do anything, so I have to deal with it(u should do that too by the way). And I go to my best friend house around 20:00 and I was there only with my Iphone complaining about my "cruel fate" and how much I wanna saw it, in the best case now! My friend is untouched by Sherlocks charm ( i was trying to explain during watching it but I failed) and he doesnt completely understand my obssesion, so he looked at my like I am crazy. But even so he was trying to be helpfull and I try Google to find Bbc to watch online, it was second link, it was working but I didnt want to get my hopes up, but it was actually working. It was pure happiness and joy. I was literally sitting on the floor, totally carried away, holding my Iphone in ky hands listening to every word, poor my friend even go try to hold the washingmachine so I could hear that, and even I was a visitor for shit, he let me watch it all, and do t throw me out or kill me, for what I am beyond thankfull to him...And i enjoyed to best finale, another brilliant mind blowing episode and i was like on cloud nine, my emotions all over...Today i was little bit sad because I dont want this to be the end, i want more, and sooner than later...But its not in my powers and I have to hope and even if this was iver really like over over I would never be like u to creators even if it would ve there deccisiin if this is the end. I dobt know if its by the anonymity of the internet or what, and i dont wanna start with thinking about where the world going? But u bullying creators I dont have any other word for this. When I dound out today(yes I am maybe stupid but I assumed qhen I was so swooned and touched and excitedx from this episode, that everybody else defenetly must have been too..) And this is actually the reason why I spend half night by writting thus very long essay because of tv show...But this is about mire than that? its about basic human decency, which u dont have at all..Ur all like we want gueer and gay stuff here and the world is mean and bad and u creators are i dont wanna know how u called them, i feel ashamed by u, cause I dont want they to think the all fandom is bunch of mean hatefull people..Ur doing opposite for what u LGBT stands fir, but I really dobt wanna statt with those things..But u wanna be taken like "normal"(its not the right world, we are all same and what is even "normal" in this world...but i think u get how I mean it) but specially by this u putting yourselfs in special group whose calling for special treatment and its angry because its not what happened, and its offensive and discriminated to your LGBT rights...Dibt u see that this doesnt make sense cause it goes against each other....And because of this u make this whole ugly situation..‬ ‪I know u will have million and one things to said to me, to offended me or whatever but actually I am grown enough to take it and make it. I wrote this all just to express my opinion and my admiration to whole team of creators...Because they deserve it.. ‬ ‪So if by any chance this essay of mine gets a hold of eyes someone from whole Sherlock team this end will be for you. ‬ ‪I wanna thank you, so much, for bringing Sherlock to us and give us those amazing moments, and so brilliant tv show that there is hardly a rival somewhere. And I know that its not job of one, but whole team, so I bow to all of you, with hope in my heart that there will be more. I have to admmited that I was never so swallowed up by tv show, to do things like that. But this time I just have to. ‬ ‪To Mark Gattis and Steven Moffat as writters I truly envy their clever minds to get it here. Someone says that its out of line or reality or whatever someone didnt get gay finale, but I think that those two know very well what their are doing and they made it perfectly...So this is my thanks for entertain me...‬ ‪And in the end I have to, all actors are brilliant Martin is awesome (i didt saw Hobbit, so I keep thinking where did i saw him before and in the end i found out and laugh to myself, but I will make it right and watch all three espisodes very soon, i promise..) and i love this chemistry(friends) between John and Sherlock, because when I will be honest I would be like John...Little bit..Even if I would rather be Sherlock of course, i an realistic..And i love Martins looks on his face, those faces he makes, and I admire John for his strong friendship after all Sherlock did to him, even not on purpose..And Martin makes it so real and so good, he is good at his job.. ‬ ‪I am actually one of those who dont miss Moriarty, cause it would became boring if behind everything would be everytime only him..I think he is alive during TheFinalProblem because those subbtitles with time period was little late...And I was in shock but also I was like hell no..But that twist save it very well..And Andrew makes him very cool evilish devilish maniac, so I kind of like him after all..His tick tock on that red video drived me crazy, and I wasnt even there with Euros. Sian Brooke amazed me, she was terryfying, crazy but in the end I was sorry for her...She nailed it..And Mark as Mycrofr when he offers himself insteqd of John, and all was pure perfection together..Nithing was missing, badass Mr.Hudson, and i love just love that Sherlock feels something...And there I am going to the end, I save the best for last. Cause I dont if I dont let myself little carried away... ‬ ‪Because what makes Sherlock Sherlock its huge talent and gift from God and thats Benedict Cumberbatch. I am not any profesional and I just saying what I think but he is the best actor who walks on Earth right now...I did some reaserch today and i cant help myself but he is amazing even when you just listen to his voice reading a poem or audiobook, he has something special and perfect. I bow infront of him, so deep how I could, and that woukdbr be enough, cause he will achive great things, and I am very glad that he didnt go to law school, cause hidding this talent in court room would be such a waste. I really admire all of his work, and I have to say it I just love him..Its not other possibility. And other word wouldnt catch it like saying this love stuff. But we all know how it is, dont we? I am fangirling!!! Very much and I enjoying doing it. But I give myself goal and also fullfill dream if its happen that I wanna go to London to Sherlocked Event and meet him in real, say something nice( I will maybe figure it out till October) and take a pic..I would be very nervous, very, I am nervous from imagine it, making all thise script in my head what I will mess up. But we will see if I make it. And if i will I will thank him in person fir Sherlock and everything else.. ‬ ‪And thats all...And IT IS WHAT IT IS...‬ ‪ Sherlock ‬